#Im just manifesting dont mind me

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

i have never felt this uniquely insane about a character <3 i cant get a read on him

#what is his DEAL #im usually really good at pegging a character's intentions / general vibe #BUT IM GETTING SO MANY MIXED SIGNALS THAT I JUST DONT KNOW #his off the charts rizz is fucking up my geiger counter #is he evil? is he a victim? a pawn/minion? does he have good intentions? neutral ones? bad ones? #I CANT TELL #welcome home #wally darling #i mean im team 'wally is a victim just trying to help / protect his friends (maybe the 'viewer')' #and home is maybe the main villian but also not bc the villain is the abstract force of cosmic horror manifesting as the chasm under home #and it has simply infected home or possessed it #and welcome home's whole deal is cosmic horror from a puppet's perspective #and they all need to stick together like glue to get through the Ordeals and Situations #and wally's just trying to keep his friends safe and the neighborhood together and fix home #BUT if it turns out wally is straight up evil then. yknow. i support his wrongs <3 #he could do literally anything and id be twirling my hair cheering and clapping #i love his big hair and gay little outfit #ever since i watched night minds video he hasnt left my brain. i think he's eating it #like i want him dead. i want him to be happy. i want to beat his little body against a wall until his stuffing comes out. i want to hug him #he is everything to me. he activates my maiming instincts but also my cherish instincts #i want him to get all the hugs from his friends #god i cant wait for this whole enchilada to kick off its gonna be a DOOZY #i trust clown's brilliant mind no matter which way they take this #absolutely fascinating stuff. i already know im in this for the long haul

[heartorbit]

i'll dream of a stage filled with feelings

#pjsk #project sekai #emu otori #prsk #Yes she has a giant hammer i just didnt feel like drawing it. I have 18 different pjsk revstar aus in my mind (barely an exaggeration) #ALL OF THE MMJ REVSTAR STUFF AND THE MIZZUKI JUNNA I FELT SOO LEFT OUT. GUYS.. MY REVSTAR BRAND.... #crossingpisting this to tumblr gets a fun lyric caption. i dont have respect for twitter #ANYWAYS. WHO WANTS MY 800MILLION WORD EMU BANANA THESIS ESSAY. NOBODY? FANTASTIC #IF YOU READ THIS FAR. IM ONCE AGAIN ASKING YOU TO MANIFEST CARDS FOR ME.. EHITE DAY SET.. PLEASE. THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS. #crying. CRITIGNGN. #revue proseka

[skitskatdacat63]

And now a matching Fernando :D

#he IS the moment #oops yeah sorry au art on the race wknd apologies #i dont know whats gotten into me #i just sit and draw something from start to finish for 3 hrs straight #ON SCHOOL NIGHTS #im serious when i say this au has infected me 😭😭😭 #if no one is feeding me i gotta feed myself!!!!!!! #also posting this as manifestion for luck for fernando this wknd!!! #scheduling it for btwn fp1 and fp2 so lets hope both go well haha #every time i draw fernando the most important part is his lower lashes omg #i gotta give him little itty bitty lashes hehehe. i draw him like i draw my own self portraits 😭😭 #uhhhhh the shirt isnt really supo #the little tongue is both to match seb and to reference this random pic of him from zandvoort 23(i think) #very important to me that he is the most ostentatious man ever #i meant to draw his coat with the embroidery but aghhhhh im such a sucker for those puffy ruffley sleeves #hope uou guys dont mind all the au stuff(i know you dont but my anxiety forces me to still say so AGGHHHHHHH) #but as ive said ive not been this creatively driven in a while so lots of fun :D #f1 #formula 1 #fernando alonso #f1 fanart #formula 1 fanart #catie.art. #f1 art #formula 1 art #boy king au

[sotogalmo]

11:33

Woke up a few minutes ago. Was a bit confused on why my Google was on Sonic The Fighters wiki. But then like. Remembered about my sonic.exe OC: Tachyglossidae.(exe).

And all.

#time diary(?) #audrey/kellie's time diary #letting the brain talk #Tachyglossidae.(exe) #i just. rlly want to being something new to the table of EXEs. yk? and well since by. design wise Tachyglossidae is very very different from #most EXEs.. and by i said “disguise”s like. 3-4 times? when having like. just simple drawings of her- #but the most different it can be is just by the fact that im using Sonic The Fighters game as a base for her whole deal #and stuff. but i really like on how Lord X Guardians are yk? gaurdians of specific-ish things. Ken'o being Disgust ; Kofuku's Joy #and tbh my favorite one: Yokubo is desire. also Zetsubo just being his name: Despair. is just. so cool #like. Lord X is not alone. there are others with him. and rhey are all like. guardians of action(Kito: prayer) and feelings(Yokubo/Gekido/ #Zetsubo/Kofuku/Ken'o/Kyofu). and i just. OUGG. thats just so good. having a Lord and then. guardians? thats so good #and well. it kinda just made me think of how im making Tachyglossidae.(exe). yk? I have too many versions of her #that at this point they could also be like the guardians! — but ofc they are just going to be different levels of anger #thats her main thing and kinda. basically why i made her tbh. i was having anger in my mind just so i can get that out of the way #since. she kinda is just gonna be my own manifestations of my own rage/wrath. — but then i have to like. add in #but i still dont rlly know just WHAT exactly i have to do with her to make her very. appealing to others. without saying #that shes my manifastations of.my own feelings. because tbh. i just almost always very lightly project myself onto characters #and just. yeah. but like. i dunno whats NEW and INTERESTING that i can do with her without making her. just a rage filled #being for a reason. we already have that. in like. so many EXE OCs... and mine is just gonna be another one..but OUGH

[lovecorepatton]

i hope patton is ok forever. she deserves it

#something odd to me i guess is the way people tend to frame patton as some kind of master manipulator #hes really... not. you guys know that right #patton is a side who is trying his best and not doing super awesome at it because c!thomas was instilled with particular beliefs-- #(cough. cough. catholicism) #that ask for total moral/ethical perfection from a human being and total selflessness and dedication to doing what's right #patton is; at least partially; a manifestation of that belief #patton is in his current state very impulsive and when he ISNT impulsive he is incredibly thoughtful but not CALCULATING #patton is the heart. he's the heart #like i dont know how people end up straying so far away from easily laid out canon #canon to the point of it literally being a repetitive motif and way the character is referenced #im losing my mind. sorry #LIKE!!! i dont even think patton is perfect or anywhere near there #part of the REASON i like her so much is that he is FLAWED #to hell and back #but in the end patton sanders isnt a story of someone who's pulling strings to get what he wants #hes a story of just some guy trying his best to do his job and fucking up #because the way he's existed for all of his life is conflicting with what is actually good for thomas #does this make sense. am i going insane

[heart-shaped-chains]

Need a guy to love on and hug and cuddle and whisper sweet nothings into his ear and more

#cj rambles #not nsft #yearning #you couldve had all of that smh.... #im still getting over him lol #i just dont get it i have so much fucking love to give and no takers yet. i know that with patience comes rewards but i want it NOW #kills me that i don't have a beautiful boy to dote on. to make him feel so loved. ill make him feel like a million bucks #hell I'd carve open my chest cut my heart out and serve it to you you just have to ask #i need to be wrapped around someone's finger #guess i have the canine urge to pledge my loyalty to someone and bite them sometimes and give them unconditional love #it's not fair i need someone to obsess over tbh. to live in my head rent free. let me worship you god dammit!!!!! #gay #ftm #mlm #t4t #come onnnnnn ill play with your hair and let you lay on my chest ill be suchhhhhhhh a good boyfriend #actually losing my mind rn #all this devotion and no one to lay it on. feels like my hearts gonna explode sometimes like i need to get it out #manifesting a relationship this year idc if we dont get married and raise 5 dogs i just need something #thats not a fucking. one sided situationship......

[lady-murderess]

I hate being in fandoms where both of my ships aren't together anymore

it hurts, my guy

#wyler #starmora #they WILL get back together #im manifesting #and as much as vol 3 will be the last time we see gamora i WILL fix things in my future fics #and as for wyler well im counting on it #wednesday and tyler being together MAKES SENSE #idk these two ships are perfect #and i just can't #dont mind me im having a moment

[claymorexpunisher]

Imagine trusting a man enough to let yourself be the perfect ✨passenger seat princess✨ at least 98% of the time.

Wonder what that’s like…

#one day lmaoo #✨manifesting✨ #a couple weeks ago one of my besties asked me being single has me feeling lonely. #no im not lonely. I think loneliness can cloud your judgment and can make you make poor decisions that will have you settling for less than #you deserve just to fill that void. #so no im not lonely. i have other relationships that are just as important. #but im def more open to meeting my Prince Charming. #i used to think that relying or depending on others in some ways was a sign of weakness. but now i know that there’s strength in that. and #that it can be so freeing and beautiful. and though I do value my alone time and a certain amount of independence is important- it’s okay #to pass your burdens onto someone who’s willing to take them on sometimes. and I’ve realized that Ive been so hellbent on not being #dependent on a man bc I didn’t have a man I could depend on. ever. I didnt have that example of a man in my life who would hold it down as a #father or as a husband. but I know they exist. bc I see it on the daily. the man of my dreams is out there and I’m patiently waiting to meet #him and to love him for all eternity. #i totally might delete this later lmao. #but for now if you’re reading this word vomit- I hope you meet your person too and if you already have- I hope you cherish them as much as- #-they cherish you. ♥️♥️♥️🌹 #IM IN MY FEELINGS DONT MIND ME. #🤮 😂 #love #romance #soulmates #fate #trust #romantic relationships

[magratpudifoot]

I have to go to the store, but I need to lay on this bed for the next twenty minutes and ponder the universe because that last reblog reminded me that Corporal Maladict exists.

#my inexplicable vampire fascination #dont mind me im just going to be picking up eggs at the farm stand like a totally normal functional person #and not at all internally screaming about characters who taught me deep truths about myself #i am having an exceptionally weird month and it is manifesting as a lot of tumblr babbing i am so sorry y'all

[the-acid-pear]

A MIMIR MUCHACHOS a mimir...

#luly talks #im always eepy until its bedtime.then im like heeheehoohoo what if i never slept again? 🤪 #but I've been very bored lately like everything is either too much or too little #I've been struggling to find inner peace NWHSNSHABS #okay i think I'll set my goal tomorrow to make some art. some silly comics. at least let em be SKETCHY who carss #no one cares i just want to put sumthin out there... and i will ! ! ! #bc i have some funny ideas its true its true i do #ina repetition mood if y'all dont seem to mind i am quite tired snd i love that stuff sooo much #feel like columbo going on a semi related rant but my ex blood fucking HATED when i repeated something a lot literally had #words banned bc it was driving her crazy which i find quite funny and symbolic of the disabled experience honestly #like for me to say the same words constantly was easy and comforting but for him it was EVIL and FUCKED UP #we all are so sifjfbfnf #im so tired okay im going to bed manifest some warm sheets and a kinder matress and all sorts of lovely things for me pls heaaart

[lupismaris]

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#im exhausted and i cant find my diary and i need to be showering and going to bed because i have bloodwork at 8am #and then we interview our first candidates tomorrow for the social gig so i cannot have a day in which i dont give a shit #but apparently its a big stars and space day if youre into that sort of thing big day for manifesting the energy you want to carry through #the rest of the year SO THAT you can do the necessary work to continue bettering your life and ypurself because manifesting #doesnt mean shit without work you have to put the work in okay anywho lions gate etc i cant find my fckin diary so we are putting this here #until i find it so i am done apologizing for the space i take up and i am done making myself smaller for the sake of other people's comfort #i am no longer beholden by the expectations of others nor am I playing the games they attempt to trap me in. this is my life to live. #i am just undergone the greatest act of self creation possible. i have remade myself in my own true image and am continuing my work. #no one will take that sovereignty from me. this is my body. my soul. my mind. my heart. my life to fill with love and live freely. #and live freely i shall. the work is not over and the road ahead is long going ever on and on. but how joyous it is that it goes on at all. #i am holding that joy and that wonder in every iota of my being. alongside the sheer blinding rage at the fact that this world #can and should and will one day be better and it is our duty to keep fighting so that it is left better than we found it #im carrying whatever abundance and grace into the coming days that i can. bounty and joy and brighter tomorrows so that i can jeep fighting #and so that i can keep finding joy in the fact that i have outlived my expected expiration #and am becoming the self that has existed in every lifetime that has ever mattered

[squidult]

not being able to feel so much, as much, all of the time, actually kinda rocks

#emotional journaling #idk theres something nice about just being able to impassively stare down your intrusive thoughts when once they would tear at your soul #instead of feeling buried and on the Brink i just see it #maybe inspect it a bit (because i have compulsion to) #but then im able to send it on its way and continue on with my life #maybe this is how the mechanicus that keep their emotions feel like? #the feeling is there but you dont HAVE to feel it or get overwhelmed by it #yeah maybe i dont feel joy so strongly either but i DO still feel it #maybe this is just the calm before my mind gets sent into an absolute fucking warp storm of emotions and im going to be crawling next week #i am choosing to appreciate it right now #i guess it also makes sense that i may be getting intrusive thoughts since this time of year can generally be triggering for me #just bc its when I have gotten sick in the past and tha is Scary #i think aknowledging this makes it easier to manage #hopefully i dont get sick? or this is the most i get sick? #yeah #im manifesting that rn #suicide //

[bosbinnsusb]

Adding a chaotic structure to my oc playlists that only I can read while also trying to find an order that makes the entire thing flow

#im normal im normal im normal #(dont mind me im just manifesting) #one of the reasons my playlists take forever to finish #just finshed jasons i think #fallout #bos chats #oc talk #txt post

[transmascnepetaleijon]

life is funny bc it feels like itll last forever while also feeling like it will end at any second

#what ik saying is the present is eternal the past never was and the future is a lie we tell ourselves for confort or something #also am i the only one who can like centralize my thoughts. or something. like #sometimes ill ground myself on the present and those are the moments where i feel like time is endlessly dragging itself forward #sometimes ill ground myself in the past and then ill feel like im looking into a picture book where literally everyone is an unrealiable n #narrator #and then sometimes ill ground myself in the future and will go into these ahem. mental spirals #future specific mental spirals bc ive been having breakdowns about the state of my body soul and mind in the grand scheme of time since i #was a nine year old #idk future just brings me anxiety bro. so does the past. i have a complicated relationship with the present. #ok i noticed my description of the present sucked #here it goes: its like im stuck. its thos very persistent feeling that im stuck in the here and now. #i dunno man maybe im just pretentious but my existence and being is something im not really that fine about #like yk how some people hate themselves yeah so like i hate the very concept of me existing #which is concerning sure but somewhere in my life i started subconsciously thinking that not only i dont want to be here #i *shouldnt* be here. maybe its to justify some nasty thoughts maybe its how low self esteem is manifesting to me #maybe im dramatic or maybe i should get help. who knows #ik theres good atuff here obviously what im saying is im not really vibing with the whole ''be'' and ''exist'' thing evrn if i want to #so yeah. what does this mean? i dont know. ''i want to die'' maybe or ''i dont feel like im worthy of living'' or something. #in the lines of something that has to do with self hate idk im just speculating #txt