#It does feel like that

[sol1562]

#it does feel like that #ao3feed #ao3 #fushiguro toji #toji fushiguro #geto suguru #suguru geto #jujutsu kaisen #jjk

[zoestorm]

[Image description: a one panel comic of Captain Haddock and Tintin. Captain Haddock, looking haggard, says, "What a year, huh?" and Tintin replies, "Captain, it's Wednesday." End ID.]

#meme #shitpost #it does feel like that

[patchyourbrokenwings]

a new day :) and my head is still spinning :) i feel very strange :) like my head is floating or i am stuck under water :) i am not on drugs i swear :) i have no idea whats happening :)

#chronic illness #chronic fatigue #it does feel like that #sometimes #dizzy #brain fog

[annfirestar]

This outfit still feels like a fucking hallucination…

Are you sure we’re all seeing this?!

(The way Nakaba drew heels different for some reason is killing me…)

Also, the only thing I can think about right now, other than this outfit existence is, that Gawain made the “Scary Face” (c)

#am I dreaming? #It does feel like that #escalin #nanatsu no taizai #mokushiroku no yonkishi #nnt #the seven deadly sins #sds #mnyk #four knights of the apocalypse #4kota #gawain #merlin

[sylvies-kablooie]

i do unironically think the best artists of our generation are posting to get 20 notes and 3 reblogs btw. that fanfic with like 45 kudos is some of the best stuff ever written. those OCs you carry around have some of the richest backstories and worldbuilding someone has ever seen. please do not think that reaching only a few people when you post means your art isn't worth celebrating.

#i often wonder about how many things would be considered classic or high art had they only received the marketing #how many short films that were made for class could have been the most powerful thing you'd ever seen? if you'd seen them? #“you know the greatest films of all time were never made” etc etc #but like. these works of art ARE being made. it's just enjoyed by a smaller audience with equal impact though #i think about this one furry i used to follow on insta who had the coolest worldbuilding ever. it's been years. #thought prompted by that sketch of nimona from ten years ago that was just for a character design #posted to the creator's tumblr and now it's nominated for best animated feature film at the oscars #and by the genuine emotional reaction a fan comic made me feel. how much work had gone into it. how beautiful it was to me. #idk what to tag this but i hope whoever needs to hear it does #writing #writer #fandom #fandom culture #artist

[atn-antronach]

Sometimes I hear something that's at just the right frequency, and my head decides to spent a split second going ơ̶̴̴̴̴̴̷̶̴̵̶̷̶̵̸̷̶̸̷̶̴̵̸̶̷̵̵̵̴̶̵̷̶̴̴̷̷̶̵̵̴̶̸̸̷̸̴̸̵̶̸̷̸̶̶̷̷̴̶̷̸̸̸̢̡̨̡̡̡̧̨̡̨̨̡̨̡̧̢̡̢̨̡̧̨̧̡̨̧̧̡̧̨̨̢̢̨̧̡̧̡̡̨̧̧̨̢̨̢̧̨̨̡̢̢̧̢̨̨̧̨̨̧̢̨̨̡̧̧̢̡̢̨̡̧̡̢̨̢̨̢̢̧̡̡̨̡̢̨̡̡̧̡̨̧̨̢̢̡̨̡̨̢̨̡̨̢̧̡̢̡̡̧̡̢̡̡̧̧̧̧̡̧̨̡̡̨̨̢̡̨̡̧̨̡̧̡̧̢̨̨̢̧̨̨̨̢̛̛̛̛̛̛̛̛̛̛̛̛̛̛̛̛̛̛̛̛̛̛̛̛̛̛̛̛̛̛̛̛̛̛̙̹̼̙̞̝͙͔͖̩͙̖͖̝̪̣̗̟̲̱͔̝̳̩̼̻͉̞̜̥͉̥̺̗͕̼̻̦͓̰̘̩̟̼͈̯̰̹̭̱̜̦͈͚̜̖͚̘̱̥͖͍̱͈̤̫͉͖͖͍̺̙͓̼͔̳̙̻͚̬̬̭̩͎̗͎͔̝̯̤̳̙͖̜͓̜̟͖͔̮̺̼͚̻̜͚̥͍͇̲̥̱̳͎̠̤͇̬͎̘̬̳̠̞̦͕̝̩̮͔̠̦̟͈͉̰̫̙̬̹̥̯͚͖̗̞̩̭̱̣̻͙̬͕͈͓̻̙̘̖̮̺̱̩̪̜̼̘̝̪͇͉̣̰̦͓̹͎͉̜̗̜̜̱̪̪͍̙̫̟̹̯͙̼̖͇̼̞̗̝̣̼͍͙̙̺̪͈̼͍͍̙͕͉͈̗̙̟̻͖̦͕̩̺̘̰̻̘̻͖̻̟̠̭͙̯͕̝̭̪̰̗͕̠̥̥̹̹̲̺̮̥̝̪͎̺̝̞̥̹̤̙̰͚̖̪̦̥̦̻̗͚̪̳̠̻̩̝̣͙̰̣̦̳͇͓͖͕̳͚̠̱̜͈͍͔̟͍̫̙̱͉̖͉̯̞͉̺̤͉̰̜̫̺̬̣̤̦̩̫̘̺̻̫̩̯̟̘͔̪̱̣͎̳͎͇̖͍͉̹̮̳̞̘͍̱̘̳̜͚͉̺̱̟̬̜̦̘͙̲̜̩͕͓̣̖͔͓͎̦͖̭̙͇̺̙̱̹͕̞̬̣̟͕̩̭͔̘͓̦͈͓̮̹̖̯̘̝̠̪̮̘͚̹̙̞̤̪͕͍̺͙͍͓̠̳̪̰̳̗̭͈͕̗̝̳̟̼͇̗̙̹̤̻̱̫̪̲̫͈͉̰̯̫̳̹̻̠̙͍͍͚͕̘̯̥̭͙͚̘̼͚̰͈̼̝̤̣̦̭̰̟̦̼̲͇̱̞̦̝̫̪̬͔͉̘̟̟̗͇͇͇͓̱̻͍̗̯͙͚̥̺̖̲̫͎̗̼͚͔͚̦̟̦̪͎͙̜̠̟̗͍͚͙̝̟̥̱̜͚̮̜̲̖͙̩̲̥̯̗͇̱̠͕̮̞͕̺͓͈̮̭͇̱̻͚̗̤͎͉͇̦͖̙͚̫̦͓̙̟̬͚̠̹̝͖̗̪̬̼̣͕̙̯̼̭̟͔͔̼̹͍̗̮̦̪̳̘̭͈̹͓͓̟̱͈͖̠̣̲̥̦̘̜̞͓̣͔̣͕̦̳͔̙̖͙͙̩͖͖͔̫̞͉̤̙̭̺̣͓͓̖̩̻̪̖̻̺̪̗̥͕̖͕̻͉̬͖͎̗̱͎̟̝̻̻͙̥̞̭͈͓͔͙̱̹̤͔͎̙͖̯̮͈̝̟͓͇̞̣̰̬̥̩͓̤̪̼̟̟̫̟͍͎̤͕̘̗̳͕̼̱̦͓̳͙͉̠͇̫͔̩̥̻͖͎̣͉̞͖͙̦͈̹͔̹̣̬̠̥̦͙̲͎͚͇̟̤̖̯̭͍̹̞̱̬̬̮̼̭̼̫͍̹̰͖̤̫͈͙̻͚̦̥̣͔̳̮̤̼̺̮̣͍̺̱̼̬͕̗̳̠̭͕̠̥̞͎̟̗̩͈͖̜̫͓͖̻͎̝̱̺̝̜̤͍̜͚̟̙̭̺̯̭͓͈̣͇̤̮̙̻͚͚̻̖̻̰̲̭̣̹̥̻̘̫̝̟̗̝̬̰̮̖̯̪̱̠̞̻̖̘̙̙̰̰̲͍͈͎̣̖̭̯̤̼̗̭̠̱̝̻͓͇̝̤̮̤̞͙͙͓̘̯̙̙͎͓̫̖̦̭͖̤̮̼̦̹̗̪̼̮̟͙̗̼̝̗̝̺̗̮͈̱̭͓̺͕͈͕̜̻̦̼̭̦͍̥̫͙̙̻̖̙̬̹̱̩̟͍̘̰̳͈͔̼͖̯̦̹̺̭͇̜͕̠̦̭͉̪̬̜̹̳̞͚̗̩̲͓͚͓̣̟̤͍̤̯̲̯͔͔͇͍̩̳̯̺͚̦͕̟͎̖̞̹͓̪̘͕̱̞̫͙̤̹̞̬̱̮͇͈̗͙̞͓͓͉͈͇͓̮̘̠̙̤̖̹̘̱̻̲̝̥͎̲̟̳̗͚͙̖̭͍̪̝̝̳̮͙̦̰̖̟͚͖̲̬̠͚̭̼͎̱͕̦̠̲͈̺̟̹͖̬̟͙͇̺̣͍̺̲͎̩̤̩͖̮̪̳̣̫͖̻̦̙̮̟̥̲̮̱̤͖̱̲͍̱̟̹̠͕̹̙͇̥̝̦͙̺͔̞̬̭̪̳̖̪͇̻͚͚̳͈̬̗͇̻̭̝͙̪̠͖̞̗̳̳͇̝̜̪̱̲̳͕̝̲̝̣̦͚̥̻̘͇̲̞̲͎̣͎̮͈͚̳̫̥͇̘̠̥̯͍̬̜͕̞̞͕͎͍̱̩̗̫̯͙͍̭̟̦̦̪̱̥͉̟̼̭̮̥̲͖̳̪̪̫͕̠̥͕͙̙̙͙̬̣̱̘̣̯̻̜̗̱̙̟̫̭̣̜̗̭̟̣͎̝̱͎̗͈͚͔̥̥̲̪̯̦͕̹̙̲̱̩͍̥̖̠̠͍̮̠͓̲̹̭̼̦͉͎̳̯͕̦̰͉̱̗̪̭̹̮͇͓̺̠̟̪̹̘͕̫̥̬̣̩͙̥̻̝̹̹̳̯̬̫̘̠̹͕̗̟̭̻͚̪̠̙̝̺͖̱̼̺͔̠̭̩̱͈̦̰͕͈͇͇̞͕̰̟͔̙̲̱͈̣͎̪̪̭̯̯̺͖̰͈̦͓̺̟̦̰͍͚̩̘̻̮̤̺̱̝̟̗̩̞̥̣̩̒͋͌̾̑̑̍̿̾̓̿͑͊̽̔̈̓̋́̈́̑̈͐̐̎̌̿̔̀̅̔̎͊̄̑̽͋̎̊͋͋͐̉͑͊͛̂̌̑͂͂̊̆̐̃̋͒̂̈́͐͒̈́̉̑̂̑̅̾̓͊͗͊̏͑͆̋͋̑̇̐̈̋͗͛̓̈́͗̑̓̓́̊̾̋̔͊̏̇́̈̓͌̓̅̏̍̍̅͛͗͗͊̀̽͊̂̿̾̍͛̽̈́͆̓̀̀̓́̉̽̐͆͛̎͆̂̄̎̾̈́͌͊͛̀̄̌̈́̇̆̆̀̒̒̇̿̓͌̃͗̓̓͌́̒̒̋̏͊́̊̇̽̔̌̈́̒̅̀̃̀̎̈́͊̅̋̈́̃̈̅̔͆͌͒̏͛̀̑͂̇̔̾͐͋́̎̔̃̑̾̈̓͂́͗̂̔͋̅̄́̋͐̏̃̈́̔̈́̉̊̃͌́͂͗̐͆̾͆̄̂̏͊̏̊̑̊͑̍̑̈́̾̀̓̄̀͑͒̊͗̈́͂̑̈̾̔̾͐́̾̿̌̀̂̃͆̂͑͛͛̑͗̃̅͌͌͐̿͛̂͗̀̈̽̀̔̒͌̈́̇̍̀̈́̌̊̿̔̏̀̽̑͋̋́́́̒̀͂̈́̀̇͊̈́̈̂̍͆͗͌̐̄̄̒͐͋́̉̂͐͗̈́̐̇̿̃̋͋̀̈́́̑̈́̇͑̀͗́͋̀̾͒̄̑́́́͒͊͌͆̒̀̈́̽͌̌͑͛̍̍̑̃̀̋͛͛̿̀͗̅̈́͐͊̏͐̂͑̈́́͛̏̒̏̉̎̉̃̑̀̀̑́̆̌̋́̑͑̌͛͌̉̃̀̎́͛̉̒͐́̆̔̽̒̉͐̍̈́̐̈́̍̆̊̒̈́͑͂̉̄̉̽͐͆̊̆̈͌̔̑̽̀̀͆́̓͛͒͊̀̇̽͐̌̈́̅̊͑̌͑͆̓͆͑͌̔̉͊̌͒̃́̏̓̐͛̿͑̊̓̍̏̃̊̀̋̑̀͌̓̊́͌̃́́̆̏̀̆̃̂͐̇͋̈́̇͋̀̒̽̅̿̌͒̈̉̄͋̈͌̾̾̎͗̀̎̈́̔̀̏̀̄́̓͆̌͆̄̉̏̆̐͑͛̒̿̉́͒̈͂͊̐̀̈́̑͂̄̇̅͒̒̉͗̇͂̾̂̄͐̆̆̿̈͊̾̌̑̉̅̅̾̉̄̾͆̆̀̈́́̒͐̂͛͐̎̆͋̈́̒̎̈́̓͐̍̀̾͆̈̈̅̄̂̿̋͒͂͗͑̾̂̎͒̑̉̆͆́̒̈́͊́̌̍̄͐̆̍͐̇͗̅̀͒̇̍̅̂͋͂́̽̉͋̂̋̎̉͌̄͑̍͛͆́́͆̉̈́̄̈͒̄̃͂̀̆̿́̃̀̿̿͛̓̋̐̔̀͆̇̒̃́̊̈́̇̄̉̓͗̓́̉̉̍́̅̊̅̑̊̆͗̓̇̉̋̊̈́́͆͒͂̃̑̾́̑̑̌̈́͋͋͐̎͌̔́̈́̅͛̇̀͂̑̅̑͒̀͒̀̓̿̄̓͒͗͌͛̋̒̑͂̓̋͗̑́͑̊̓̏̀̔̈̎̄͑͂̀̈́̾̅̓̅̇̉̉̎̏̈̏̉͒̉̓̈́̏̎̿̂͋̓͆̈͑̊͂̎̏̔̋͑̈́͐̔̍̂̓̾̿͐̌̅͋͑̇͒̈̈̋̎̔̔̄̈́̈́̑̍̈͗̿͆̇̓͌̌̇͌͆̔̿̅̓̾͗̄̓̂̈̀́͑̂̀̐̽̑̿̓̈́͗̾̊̄͒̃̏̇͂̆̄̔̉̆͛̎́̔̂̅̒̓̇̑̓̽͆́̓̂̂̃͊͛̔́̔̾͆̐̑̈̋̅́͊͒̄̽̎́́͆̒̋̑̏́̅͐͗͆̓̃͊́͌̓̾̈́͆̂̽̌̇̆́̀̽̑͗̆̎̀̅̍͌̊̏̋̏̽̽͒̊̀͊́͌̈̐́̒̅̃͌͑͗̆͒̄̎͊̿̏̇̋̒̃̎̑̍͒͂͂̔̆́̾͆̀͆͒̀̍̂͒̀̾͛̊̅͐͆́͊̍́̑̐̅̏̒̽̈́̓̿̉͋̑̂͆̊̀̇̈́̆̈́̈́̓̂̽̉͗̿̈͂̍̏̔̐̔͗͐̾͐̓̉̋̍̿̉͆͆͋̑̔̾̀̄̎͂͐͊̎͒͒̍̈́̈́̎̉͑͂̀̉̊̉̓̓̒͊͛̐̆͌̈́̅̉͗̋̒̈́̀̈́͋̀̑̄͊͂̽͐̈́̓̌̌͊̈́́͌̐͒̑̈́̈͂̊͐̓̉̀̐̽͋́̀̓̀̂̋͐̂̓̆̓̉͌̐͆̋͑̍̋͒̾͊͐̌̋̔̆̇́̈́̀̊̔̒̿̏́͊̓̐̌̓̈̈̈́̽̄̍̒́̔̀̅̂́̉̔̀̐͛̂͌̂̏̋̀̀̐͑̿̇̾͆́̄̀̊̇͂͒̎̈́̅̀͒͛͗̄̊̌͆̅͌̓́̃͑̾̉̍̓͛̊͑̃̽̈́̂̃̑͌͒̂̐̃͒͋̿́̽̀̾̄̔̐̐̔̊̓̾̅̒͐̉̐̋̆̐̆̄̽́̈͒͑͊͆̏͌͒̈̀̈́̽̈́̃͐͛̃̄̈́̃̓͒̂̌͒͂̒̓̆͂̐̄͂̓͌̈́̓̔̅͗̅̆̒̓̓̈́̒̋̈̒͗͛͂̒̅̓̓̊̈́̈́̈͐̀̌͑̅̂̉͑̓͊̾̽̓̐̀̓̈́́̏̐͋̊͐̎̈́̉̄͊̋̆̎̿̅̔̀͂̌̐̈̍́́̊̈́̎̓͊̄̈̀͘̕͘̚̚̚͘̚͘̕͘͘͘͘̕̕͘̕̕͘̚̕̚͘̕̚͘͘̚̕̕̕̚̕̕͘͘̕̚̚͘͘̚͘̕̚̕̕̕̕͘̚͘͘̚͘̕̚͘̚̚̚̕͘̕̕̕̚̕͘̕͘̚̚͘̕̚͘̕̚͘̚̕̕͘̕̕͘͘̚͘͘͘̕͘̚͘͘͘̕̕̕̕̕̕̚͘͘̕͘͘̕͜͜͜͜͜͜͜͜͜͜͜͜͜͜͜͜͜͜͜͜͜͜͜͜͜͜͜͜͜͜͜͜͜͜͠͝͝͝͠͝͝͝͝͝͝͠͠͝͝͠͠͝͝͝͝͝͝͝͝͝͝͝͠͝͠͝͠͝͝͝͠͠͝͠͝͠͝͠͝͝͝͝͝͝͠͝͝͠͝͝͝͝͠͝͝͝͠͝͝͝͝͝͝͝͠͝͝͠͝͠͠͝͝͝͝͠͝͝͝͝͝͠͝͝͝͝͝͝͠͝͝͝͝͝͠͝͝͠͝͝͝͠͝͝͠͝͝͝͝͝͠͝͠͝͠͝͠͝ͅͅͅͅͅͅͅͅͅͅͅͅͅͅͅͅͅͅͅͅͅͅͅͅͅͅͅͅͅͅͅͅͅͅͅͅͅͅͅͅͅͅͅͅͅͅͅ

#it does feel like that

[bereft-of-frogs]

There’s that post that’s like ‘everyone should get into a tiny niche fandom at least once’ fully agree, that was really fun -- but I would like to add that everyone should get into a fandom where their opinions run counter to major fanon because it really teaches you about sticking to your guns and trusting your interpretation of the text without having to rely on peer validation

because WHAT are people talking about sometimes

#aka: genuinely sometimes I think I live in a parallel universe and simply watched/read different things #full disclosure it does make you feel like a killjoy sometimes #because often times these fanons will be presented in a silly jokey manner #'oh so silly isn't this character so funny this is just my silly little headcanon' #and it's like yes yes lol lol but ok look me in the eyes and tell me you know that this is #at best only one interpretation of many and at worst simply not supported by the text at all #please tell me you know that #or in one specific example such a ubiquitous joke that is literally a significant theme of the work and i feel like SUCH a killjoy #being like 'ok yes very funny.....you know that was a major theme right?? tell me you know that'

[wolfertinger666]

here comes the leggy gal 🏳️‍⚧️🐕

(she/her)

#my art #furry #my ass does not feel like rendering #I MISS HER

[buggachat]

something so fucked up about Chat Noir’s whole deal is that he is in a lot of ways Adrien playing a character. Like Adrien picked up his miraculous and was told he’d be a superhero so he was like “ok, time to act like a superhero!” and he lets himself have fun w it and play up the role and let loose and kind of just allow himself to be silly and goofy and have fun and for once in his life not care about performing Perfection™.

But. But none of the other characters KNOW THAT. So everyone just sees Chat Noir and is like “look at this guy’s ego. He’s so full of himself. Surely it’d be fair to knock him down a few pegs” without being aware of how few pegs he actually HAS. He’s like the “insecure character who overcompensates in ego” trope except he’s really not doing it unironically, he’s just having a fun LARP pretending to have self worth in his off-hours but nobody else is on the same page about it being a game and he refuses to tell them. He just dramatically pouts about it and lets them laugh and pretends like he’s not internalizing it and it is almost 3 am and my brain forced me to write this instead of sleeping I’m gonna take a melatonin

#writing this my brain was like: what if he actually likes it? #what if he likes people openly criticizing him in ways nobody actually does to Adrien agreste? #because Adrien Agreste is perfect and can do no wrong. maybe he enjoys being insulted or something #and then I remembered chat noirs multiple breakdowns about feeling unworthy and yknow what yeah I don’t think he likes it LOL #do normal people actually fall asleep when they lie down #if you can’t tell I recently decided to make my random ml musings your guys’ business instead of keeping it to myself #hope you enjoy

[lil-snake-crowley]

i look at you and i can feel it. i feel it in the pit of my stomach. like a dagger thrown straight into my gut. and i can feel it twisting, so slowly, dragging out the pain as much as possible. it’s not you holding the knife, but it’s your knife, maybe one one that you never knew you had. maybe you never will know you had it. because it’s been stolen. so meticulously chosen to be your knife that stabs me. because you have done no wrong. you are perfect. too perfect. so cheerful, even when i know it’s been a rough day. so kind, to me, like i’m a kid sitting alone at recess and you said ‘hey let’s play ball’. so talented, i watch you own the stage every second you’re on it. and that’s why i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. because it’s your faces that release the knife into me, and cause such immense pain. and it’s only for me to realize that there is no knife in my stomach. i will not be free at the end of it all. i still have to look at you and feel this. it makes me want a knife. because you are great friends. because you are great people. and i cannot stand that. i need to hate you.

#this is targeted #they won’t ever find it tho #gods it does hurt #it does feel like that #hello irls #you didn't see this #…

[blueboyluca]

“When I first heard it, from a dog trainer who knew her behavioral science, it was a stunning moment. I remember where I was standing, what block of Brooklyn’s streets. It was like holding a piece of polished obsidian in the hand, feeling its weight and irreducibility. And its fathomless blackness. Punishment is reinforcing to the punisher. Of course. It fit the science, and it also fit the hidden memories stored in a deeply buried, rusty lockbox inside me. The people who walked down the street arbitrarily compressing their dogs’ tracheas, to which the poor beasts could only submit in uncomprehending misery; the parents who slapped their crying toddlers for the crime of being tired or hungry: These were not aberrantly malevolent villains. They were not doing what they did because they thought it was right, or even because it worked very well. They were simply caught in the same feedback loop in which all behavior is made. Their spasms of delivering small torments relieved their frustration and gave the impression of momentum toward a solution. Most potently, it immediately stopped the behavior. No matter that the effect probably won’t last: the reinforcer—the silence or the cessation of the annoyance—was exquisitely timed. Now. Boy does that feel good.”

— Melissa Holbrook Pierson, The Secret History of Kindness (2015)

#dog books #this chapter was very sad reading #when you become aware of punishment #and its use and its prevalence #it's hard not to despair #again this is why positive reinforcement feels like absolution #maybe now my eyes are open I can make up for what I did #what I did because it's what everyone does #because it's more acceptable to punish than to do anything else #I've been having so many thoughts about punishment and society and justice #this book was very validating #another great validating moment in my jumbled thoughts #was listening to the You're Wrong About episode on justice #with Amanda Knox #it helped to ease the despair a little

[ace-of-hail]

It's always, "aces can still have sex" but never, "allos can go without sex"

Kinda makes it feel like aces *have* to be the ones to compromise in allo/ace relationships

#asexuality #asexual #ace #i know we don't have to always compromise but that does kinda feel like we're always the ones who are expected to

[chloesimaginationthings]

FNAF Vanny cooked too hard with M.X.E.S,,

#myart #chloesimagination #comic #fnaf vanessa #fnaf vanny #mxes #fnaf gregory #glamrock freddy #fnaf #security breach #fnaf ruin #fnaf fanart #five nights at freddy's #why does mxes look like that #TBH I actually like how MXES is based off a hare giving em this more angular look #but then also some angles just feel like he’s mewing #MXES MENTIONED 🔥🔥🔥 #I also like the idea Vanny made mxes #so it’s like he’s taking back the whole ‘rabbit aesthetic’ for herself #Vanny’s real answer is she thought he looked cool BAHA

[st4rlex]

dont feel like doing actual art sorry guys

#shoutout to simons ponytail from the comics #also marcy's hair is supposed to be doing the thing where it like flows upwards when she's mad i feel like i didn't make that clear #or at least i think that's something that it does #hopefully i didn't make that up #simon petrikov #marceline #marceline the vampire queen #lumpy space princess #simon and marcy #fionna and cake #adventure time #shitpost #art #lex art

[shadowtraveled]

"mithrun is the only real monsterfucker in dungeon meshi" is objectively the funniest bit you can get out of his everything, but in all seriousness i think his attraction to his love interest is deliberately overstated—and that makes sense, because romantic jealousy is a classic and digestible motive, which is explicitly what kabru was aiming for in condensing mithrun's backstory, and also because until chapter 94, mithrun wasn't willing to admit to the true nature of his desires.

but because romantic envy is both classic and digestible, it probably isn’t a unique enough or complicated enough desire to tempt a demon’s appetite. mithrun’s wish, as far as we can figure from kabru’s reduced retelling, was to have a life in which he had never become one of the canaries, and that carries like 3857 implications and desires within it. that’s delicious. his love interest acts as sort of a red herring to his motivation for making it, though. (side note: i'm saying "love interest" here because, keeping in mind that i barely speak japanese on a good day anymore, "想い人" is something i'd usually take as just kind of an old-fashioned and romantic way to refer to a lover, but in context i wonder if both the connotation of yearning and the vagueness are intentional, and i think this phrasing gets those aspects of it more effectively. anyway.)

mithrun considered his love interest to be untrustworthy. there was a minute where i thought that comment might be about a similar-looking elf (yugin, one of his squad members), but comparing the two…

the "sketchy" arrow is definitely referring to the elf we know as his love interest—the bangs go toward her right, she only has the one forehead ornament, and, most notably, her ears aren't notched.

every time she’s given a full-body depiction in his dungeon, she’s drawn as a chimera, with the body of a snake from the waist down. (side note: the “what if a dungeon has chimeras before reaching level 4?”/“then the dungeon lord is unstable” exchange just being mithrun grilling his past self alive is so funny. he’s so. but anyway) there are a couple things about this.

first, the snake part of the chimera appears to be modeled after some species of coral snake mimic

which, in the biology-for-fun manga, i… doubt is a coincidence, especially with the added context of the “untrustworthy” comment. the dungeon’s conjured illusion of mithrun’s love interest was a harmless copycat of a venomous original. for whatever reason, he felt this person was a threat and made up a "safe" version of her to be in a relationship with, and while it’s definitely possible to be attracted to or even love someone you find to be toxic and/or intimidating, when you take that into consideration alongside the configuration of her body, you get some interesting implications.

which brings us to our second point: if we assume that mithrun was not in fact fucking a snake, then sexual attraction, at least, was so far removed from his idea of a relationship with this person that he did not even bother to keep her dungeon copy human enough to maintain the illusion of the option of a sexual relationship. this is somewhat echoed in the depictions of their interactions, which also imply a frankly unexpected romantic distance. she kisses his cheek and he doesn't seem to react; she's at the edge of a narrow bed with only one set of pillows, on top of his blankets while he's underneath them.

the kiss is particularly interesting because it seems to contrast the text. kabru's narration tells us this was everything mithrun could have asked for, but mithrun is there looking unreadable to pensive, likely because this is right before the panel that makes it clear things in the dungeon are beginning to go wrong.

walking through this backwards for a minute, we have the physical barrier of his bedding and the spatial separation inherent in a bed made for one person, the emotional barrier of his mounting anxiety getting in the way of his ability to enjoy the affection he sought, and... the snake, which historically carries the connotation of temptation, yes, but also mistrust, barring physical intimacy. okay. ok. if a dungeon reflects the mentality of its lord, all of this might suggest that mithrun was not able to have any real desire for a relationship with this person. his unwillingness to be vulnerable or let another person in was insurmountable. but in that case, why was she such a focal point that she remained to the end, after his dungeon had stopped creating iterations of his friends to come and visit him? why would he get so upset over her meeting with his brother that he became lord of a dungeon about it?

well. mithrun's brother was also interested in her, probably genuinely. and mithrun had to win.

you have an older brother who your parents completely ignore, probably in part because he is chronically ill/disabled and almost definitely in part because he received a ton of recessive traits that resulted in rumors that he was an illegitimate child. you are aware, most likely because those same parents fucking told you, that you actually are an illegitimate child. but they keep you around because you had the good fortune of looking just like your mother. what can that possibly teach you but that you, like your brother, are disposable?

it's utterly unsurprising that mithrun, under these circumstances, developed a pathological need to be better than everyone around him. people don't keep you otherwise. i'd argue this is also why he says he looked down on everyone he knew while milsiril claims his dungeon reeked of feelings of inferiority—he sought out people's worst traits and prioritized them in his mind to protect his already extremely fragile sense of self-worth, and all the while he tried to be as likable and high-performing as he possibly could be. his parents disposed of him anyway, but even then he tried to keep up the performance. he was kind to everyone. he never once lost to a dungeon.

when he saw his "love interest" meeting up with his brother, what he saw was himself being replaced by a person his parents had always treated as worthless, and if that was what they thought of the child they'd kept, what value could anyone possibly see in the bastard they'd given away to die? mithrun and kabru tell the story like he wanted to win this unnamed elf's heart, but it was never about being with her. it was about cementing his worth, proving that he didn't deserve to be thrown away.

and so it's particularly cruel that his demon discarded him, too. but maybe it's also particularly gentle that, in the end, there was someone who refused to even consider giving up on him.

kui laid it out in three panels better than i could hope to.

yeah. it's love. you wanted to be loved, even when the only way you were able to understand it was through the desire to be wanted, and you wanted that so badly that the idea of being consumed felt like the promise of finally mattering to someone.

#dungeon meshi spoilers #mithrun #dungeon meshi #this has been rotating for a while but i wanted to check my evidence before getting into it thanks user angelspenance for posting that meme #half of this is just the text and the other half i'm sure has been said before but it's making my brain [radio static] so here this is #someone did for sure mention this but i do find it very cute that in his fucked up conjured world meant to portray his ideal reality #his teammates came to visit him. like part of the fantasy was then explicitly that they cared about him and were his friends. even though #he says he tried to see the worst in them. #hm it does feel important to note that i do also believe 100% in mithrun suicidality--his desire to be eaten does seem to focus a lot on #wanting it to be Over. wanting not to be left incomplete and empty anymore. #but that loops back around a bit to the hole in your heart that appears when you feel unloved. it's many things and the same thing at once #snakes #long post #severe problems #meshy

[muppetfreak]

Mr. Riordan, it is truly a pleasure getting to experience your second draft.

#seriously tho what an amazing thing for an author #to get to revisit your series years later #and get to make all the tweaks now that you know exactly where the story is going #to go back with your theme crystalized in your head and say 'ok now this time on purpose!' #kiddo and I are enjoying the PJO series immensely #love demigods #wish adhd was real #now excuse me while I add 9 billion tags #percy jackson #pjo tv show #pjo #rick riordan #percy jackson and the olympians #disney+ #pjo series #percy jackson tv show #does this need to be tagged as a spoiler? I don't feel like it does #the suggested hashtag being spelled wrong is just *chefs kiss* #love that for us #anyway if this needs another tag tell me