#It doesn't stop being terrifying!

[a-local-idiots-shitpost]

I think the worst (best) thing Twst could have ever made is making Malleus just a little Lizard dude, like what do you mean the once silly looking little guy is destroying everything he can so his dad doesn't leave him??? you think I can take him serious??? the little guy who still throws a tantrum like he's an egg??? you want me to take this man serious???

#twst spoilers #spoilers #maybe spoilers #local shouldn't be allowed to think #like what do you mean I should take Malleus serious as a threat #like I know he's lashing out because nobody bothered to teach him emotional maturatiy #and is terrified on being all alone again because his Dad will leave him and his only friend that doesn't have anything to do with his #family or Briar valley leaves him #and he's scared of being alone again and nothing more than a glorified trophy #but like they also showed him as a silly little baby and I can't take him serious anymore because now all I can think about is him just #acting like a child #and I should stop because funny just goes back into sad territory because Malleus was never taught how to properly handle his feelings

[fickleartdump]

fictional character of all time

#they give cryptic and ominous prophecies #they're the most down bad anyone has been ever #and it's for someone who by no measure deserves it #they're trans in every direction all at once #they get put through the shredder like no other character before them and still come out standing #they firmly believe the ends justify the means and are willing to do anything to achieve their goals BUT #this doesn't stop them being a massive sweetie who is in reality far too nice to be cut out for the role they play in the story #they'd push the trolley onto a different track in the trolley problem in an instant but they'd be a sobbing mess the whole time #they are devastatingly funny and also have the humour of a thirteen year old boy #both kinds of humour are used to hide the fact that they are incredibly terrified of the Mortifying Ordeal of Being Known #beloved my beloved #realm of the elderlings #rote

[crayonurchin]

#ocd #gender ocd #t-ocd #ocd recovery #obsessive compulsive disorder #the summer now brings a deep dread because it keeps flaring up a very scary OCD subset in me #the OCD never stops but summer makes it worse #I can't pretend it's not there #and I can't just agree with it- cuz then there's new OCD #it's a complicated illness #and it's tricky to explain #I wanted to do this before but I was terrified of not being clear and looking transphobic #but I can't control how anyone views this- all I can do is maintain my own well being #summer 2024 will likely give me another episode of gender OCD #And I want to find joy in summertime despite that #a cute new outfit and a picnic in the park so I can paint the flowers is my current goal #old recovery is possible and you can recover too I promise #do not give up #just because it feels like you're dying it doesn't mean you are

[suncaptor]

nothing will make you sympathise with conspiracy theorist ideology more than having a seemingly rare reaction to a vaccine lmao.

#reading articles that try to falsify genuine incorrect information about the covid vaccines from 2021 is making me feel insane #'there's no way the covid vaccine can trigger an autoimmune disorder' uhhhhhhhhhHHHHHHHHHHHH #factually extremely wrong! #they're soooo condescening too like why on EARTH do you think people who are genuinely sick or scared would believe you. #they'll be like there's no scientific evidence that anyone can be harmed by the covid vaccine <3 blatantly untrue. #I know that part of this is retrospect like obviously since more studies have come out and all #but it's infurirating bc they're from the time *I* was having those symptoms *and* telling doctors about it *and* being told the connection #to my other severe symptoms from the covid vaccine were Utterly Impossible (since proven false) and that if the symptoms WERE related #it meant i had a life threatening illness at worst and had a high chance of losing my vision at best #likeeeeeeeee #doctors still DO NOT know what the fuck they're doing do NOT trust anyone who gives ANY 100% answers #i don't know why i'm doing this i just said to stop obsessing but i'm just reading pages and articles on countering misinformation to make #sure i don't -- i want to know the conspiracy theories to recognise them immediately right #and then people are just saying bullshit to defend themselves #i mean most of the anti covid vacc people were also far right so i don't have too much sympathy for their vaccine ideology #but like. fucking hell what a way to push people into conspiracies. #you CAN'T counter misinformation by SPREADING MORE MISINFORMATION #just because it SOUNDS BETTER and MORE REASSURING to say there's not chance of harm doesn't mean you should #there's A LOW chance of harm THAT IS MUCH MUCH less high than the impacts of covid #god I'm pissed off. 2021 i was so fucking terrified of spreading this shit just by talking about my lived experiences. #to say i was not taking the pandemic seriously OR anti vax is so blatantly ridiculous considering who I am as a person but that doesn't mea #that the covid vaccine specifically didn't make me ill :////// #delete

[transmascgraverobber]

i think shilo should carry around a spray bottle for whenever she hangs out with graverobber. anytime he's about to say or do something stupid, she gets to spritz him like a disobedient cat. like NO. BAD drug dealer. *spritz spritz*

#i like the idea that they're still friends but she has to stop him from hurting himself on a routine basis #i mean she doesn't have to #the guy has nine lives anyway #but i also enjoy the mental image of big bad graverobber being mildly terrified of a girl with a spray bottle #repo! the genetic opera #r!tgo #repo the genetic opera #repo #graverobber #shilo wallace #tmgr

[bylertruther]

i was doing my regular rewatch the other day and tbh... lonnie and will's relationship is so unsettling. lonnie literally did not give a single goddamn fuck that his own twelve year old son was missing and later "dead". he just... did not fucking care! at all. couldn't even pretend to. jonathan comes to tell him what happened and we see that...

lonnie got joyce's call and still didn't care to reach out,

when jonathan tells him this is serious and real, he mocks will by saying "he was never very good at taking care of himself" (which is already disturbing considering this is his son he's talking about, but especially so when you remember that lonnie abused will for being gay and tried to get him to like "masculine" things),

he's already talking to jonathan about seeing him more and reconnecting, like will isn't fucking missing, like he's already fucking dead and he's moved on, as if will is some stranger or worse someone that never existed at all,

instead of feeling any kind of shame about jonathan not believing him when he says will isn't there and him looking in the actual fucking trunk of his car, he just makes a joke out of it asking if jonathan's gonna check up his ass too,

his neglect is brought up again when jonathan slams one of the posters to his chest and tells him "in case you forgot what he looks like",

and that's not even touching on the fact that the very first thing we see lonnie do when jonathan enters the house is fucking shove and pin him to the wall, telling him "you got stronger".

like, he is not a good man in the slightest—the complete antithesis of the byers we know.

and then afterward... lonnie finally decides to come back. he's being nice to joyce and pretending like he's the man of the house again. like he's finally come home to fix and save his family.

he goes to will's funeral and treats it like a schmoozing event, like that isn't his youngest son being buried right in front of him, showing less emotion than one of will's classmates that hasn't ever even talked to him.

but... he's not there because he's had a sudden change of heart.

no, he's there because he has something to gain out of this unimaginable tragedy. his own youngest son is dead and he comes back home to collect a fucking check for it. because he's never cared about will, hasn't ever even seen him as a human being, he just... sees his death as something he can benefit from.

it's just so fucked up and so sinister. lonnie isn't a man riddled with vices, beholden to some disease which makes him act in ways most unbecoming. no, he's... just a man. a small, manipulative, and cruel leech of a man that just doesn't fucking care and is in it only for himself.

it's just... it's really tragic to think that will really was dealing with monsters way before that first demogorgon ever came through the gate.

and even then... that demogorgon was an animal acting as animals do / possessed by vecna and you can't really blame it for that. but what's lonnie's excuse, huh?

#like. hashtag felt lmao #a lot of ppl write lonnie as an alcoholic and i feel like ... lonnie just being a bad person because he Is a bad person without the help of #any vices is just... so much more terrifying and painful. #because then it's just lonnie. just a man who doesn't care about his son. a man who views his baby boy as less than a bug. a man who #doesn't care or hold any affection in his heart because he just simply does not fucking want to or care to. he doesn't care if will is in #danger. he doesn't care if will is dead at the bottom of the quarry. he doesn't care not because he's drunk or high but just.. because. #he couldn't turn will into what he thinks is a proper man so in his mind he's thinking well.. if i can't get anything out of him like that #then i'm at least gonna get my money's worth with this wrongful death case. #a man making the choice to be evil. to inflict pain purposely. for no gain whatso-fucking-ever. #bc at least vecna does it to gain more power to achieve world domination. but lonnie is just a piece of shit that abuses kids. #water is wet lmao but... i feel like stranger things manages to be so fucking dark sometimes and yet it just... it's treated so normally #that you almost don't even notice it. bc ur just viewing this story from the perspective of a character and for them it IS normal #i just. yeah. idk. Thinking Thotz Over Here #it's so fucked up when u stop to think abt it lmao like. if will doesn't get his happy ending bro....... #abuse tw #byers #lonnie #mine

[ahc-au]

Heyyy! Love this au and I've gotta know something.

As far as we've seen Bishop's personal guards are all aliens and mutants and an oddly expressive Kraang. Personally I find it hard to believe that even as the beloved and totally-not-evil president, Bishop would ever trust aliens with his personal safety. Especially since in "The Day of Awakening" we see Bishop's personalised task force and it's 99% humans and one Triceraton (and the turtles ig). And I believe that one triceraton is just there for the sake of "Hey, why is there only one alien?"

In short, why do you think Bishop would trust aliens/mutants enough to make them his bodyguards? Or is there more to it?

Hello!! Fellow Bishop stannie 🫵 Very glad to hear you're enjoying the AU!

I'll say that I do believe the majority of Bishop's force is human, moreso because he operates out of earth and humans are still the overwhelming majority there. Any unnamed guards (or maybe they'll get names too eventually?) can be assumed to be human. The four named guards are, in a meta sense, pre-existing OCs repurposed to fill out the background and make the world feel a bit more lived-in.

It's worth mentioning that Bishop does not feel the same about aliens that he did in his EPF days. That's the major reason EPF is gone, after all! He still won't trust any of them, but that's about on par with how he treats anyone: distant and distrustful, hidden under a veneer of politeness. The way I've always parsed it, Agent Bishop didn't see aliens as people, more demons, and then being rescued threw that entire belief out of wack. So now humans/Terrans and aliens are a bit closer to the same level, for him. He'll prioritize Earth's citizens, but that seems to include some extraterrestrial immigrants, too, nowadays.

So! Having said that, there's a few other elements that go into it. For one, frankly, it just looks good for Bishop to employ aliens from among PGA's allies. It's a show of trust-- not that he entirely does; vets them very thoroughly. For another, non-humans just have really handy abilities. This gives him more versatility in how he can choose to approach a problem, if one ever arises (he is, after all, a military commander at heart.) For example (since I doubt it'll ever come up,) Hambone has an elasticity that means she can absorb blunt force and fit through small spaces. Lyssis (who has not made an appearance yet I'm p sure, woops,) can absorb fire and elecricity. Stuff like that, yknow?

Anyway that's about the jist of it, I hope that's a satisfactory conclusion! Some of these characters also have more involved reasons for getting recruited, but since that gets into OC lore I'll leave it below the cut 👍

--Adelram

I think it should be fine to divulge a little lore since, again, background characters, probably won't come up too centrally. Hambone and Lyssis were mutated incidentally in an attack on PGA HQ back in 2080. Bishop publicly took it upon himself to rehabilitate the mutants involved, (who had been driven mad and violent by the strange mutagen,) handing them off to his personal scientists. He kept closely involved, hoping to find a lead to the source of the attack, and for this reason both mutants partly credit him for their recoveries and even being able to meet each other. They're loyal for this reason, and he knows it. They are also undoubtedly citizens of Earth.

Ritter is a bit more of a wacky story, one that won't really effect the plot. But their being an Utrom is not publicly known, as it happens. It's not a secret, per se, but they pass so well that most people assume they're human. They've been around since EPF, having served under Agent Bishop among its ranks. Bishop is aware they're an Utrom, and unfortunately they've proved very loyal and very useful, so he supposes he has to keep them around. It is pretty nice having a guard who doesn't need to sleep and only eats like once a month. This is also kinda the only life Ritter has ever really known, being under Bishop's command. They'd follow him anywhere, would do anything he asked of them.

#ahc asks #thank you for the questions! always great to see you in the inbox heheh #AGENT Bishop certainly wouldn't have allowed anything like this. He'd be pissed and terrified which then just makes him more pissed #President Bishop though has since learned the art of 'being nice makes people trip over themselves to do you favors' #he is more familiar with alien cultures as people instead of viewing them through the lens of war #he doesn't share his Agent counterpart's loathing hatred for them anymore #(at least. not the ones in PGA. the ones actively gunning for earth? yeah he's gonna kill em when the chance arises 👍) #so in general he's pretty assured in his guards' loyalties. if he ever had reason to doubt they'd be fired immediately at best #extra OC lore fun fact! Ritter has been here so long they were also most of the others' trainer! #They trained in Hambone for sure. And ever since they haven't stopped putting on the teacher voice around her #like 'wow Hambone that was a great shot! you're doing a great job!' #and she's like I've been working here for over a DECADE. STOP

[emgoesmed]

7/21/2023

Let's have a productive Friday! Planning to cross a bunch of stuff off my to-do list so that I can enjoy a weekend getaway before starting my sub-I on Monday.

write & submit sim cases (3)

write & submit case notes (3)

read through sub-i primer

clean bathroom

clean kitchen

organize apartment

zoom meeting

hang up prints/decor

pot new plant

gym

pick up dry cleaning

#emgoesmed #medical school #med student #studyblr #studyspo #productivity #coffee #ms4 #it's hard to believe my sub-i starts monday #i'm so excited and nervous #i hope i make a good impression #also step 2 score comes out next week #which is giving me so much anxiety #i really hope i passed #i feel like i did? but that kind of makes me more terrified in case i didn't #which doesn't really make sense #but it doesn't stop me from being scared about it

[hussyknee]

The OCD urge to convince everyone that you're not a good person really.

#it feels unreal to me that it's not obvious to people what a five alarm trashfire the inside of my head is #it's a fucking warzone in here. people are dying. blood everywhere. things on fire #this ends up presenting itself in seething passive aggression‚ virulent rants at the drop of a hat and randomly exploding at people #but most of it happens at home or with disparate people and places #so a casual observer who isn't targeted and doesn't disagree merely thinks Im being snippy #instead of acting like bear caught in a trap #people see your highlight reel not the behind the scenes footage #so when they still like you despite how toxic you know yourself to be #it feels like you're being disingenuous somehow #the baseline ocd existence is believing you're the reason for humanity's downfall and a plague on the earth #and desperately hoping that nobody finds out but also that people do find out so that you can stop being terrified of being discovered #actually ocd #ocd #scrupulosity #knee of huss #mental illness #mental health

[weaverofink]

You guys seemed to like the deity!Tikki AU so I decided to make some more for it!!

I think once Tikki is free, the first thing she does is try to hunt down Plagg to “free” him from his miraculous and his holder, who she deems little more than a thief. Adrien gets wind of this and decides to get the hell out of dodge with Plagg in tow. Plagg is very conflicted about all of this-- he doesn’t actually remember ever being a god (due to the enchantment on the miraculous) and has grown to like both Adrien and the life he currently has, but he is haunted by the existential implication that his current self is just a lie dreamed up by the guardians

#miraculous ladybug #ml #mlb #plagg #tikki #deity!tikki #deity!tikki au #adrien agreste #chat noir #i think in this AU plagg doesn't want to be 'freed' #like he hates the idea that he's under an enchantment and that apparently someone has trapped him in a ring #but like. if he stops being a kwami he has no idea who he will be #and that is terrifying #bc plagg quite likes who he is right now!! #he likes hanging around all day and eating cheese and being with adrien #it's actually that last thing that makes it even more complicated #bc if he stops being a kwami he has no idea how he will feel toward adrien. #this new version of himself could hate adrien just like tikki seems to hate marinette #(i say seems bc it's complicated there. but we'll get to that in a later post i bet) #and he's terrified he may end up hurting or even killing the kid #so ironically the kwami that most represents freedom from restraint chooses to remain bound #although. if tikki DOES find him he might have very little choice in the matter at all #art #my art #weaverofink #why is adrien hiding in a warehouse? idk #the Aesthetic of it all tho

[quirkle2]

question!

i've been wanting to stray away from lu for a while now and do my own thing with wars n ledge and the rest of the links (mainly bc i feel restricted by jojo's rules/don't agree w her takes, and wanna pursuit my own stuff), but there's one big thing holding me back, and that's lack of views to put it bluntly

if i make my own au and don't tag its content as #lu, then it will most definitely get a fraction of the attention my lu content does. and i know it sounds self-centered of me to worry abt something like that, but i put months of work into the fics i post. i put days of work into each art piece i post. if i work on something for months and then 10 people on ao3 read it and an astounding 0 of them even leave a comment, that will be Devastating to my motivation And confidence

what im asking y'all is this: should i finally make my own au to separate myself from lu and risk the plunge in notes, or should i stay in the lu fandom and suffer?

#qktalks #i feel like my links are far enough apart from lu's canon to justify this #ESPECIALLY my wars #my wars is Nothing like lu wars; he's silly and goofy and not at all serious #not even accounting for the fact that he Looks completely different design-wise i think he's pretty far from canon lu now #my sky design is Nothing like lu sky's and i have my own characterizations of him despite not posting abt it much #to put it bluntly once again i wanna post stuff of them all cuddling and being a family without dipshit lu fans coming in and correcting me #so far it's only happened like Once but the fear and anxiety of being ridiculed is still very much apparent #im afraid to post stuff. i don't wanna be afraid to post stuff #i wanna have my own au where i have my Own rules #and i wanna be in a fandom that doesn't fuckin suck VGIEAYGV #but im terrified of switching over and out of the fandom bc then my stuff won't be viewed at all #and without reblogs of my art and comments on my fics i have a feeling i will simply stop producing anything altogether #i know the whole ''u should make art for yourself'' thing but . it's no fun if nobody else is gonna see it yaknow ? #i wanna show other people what makes me happy and maybe make them happy in the process #that's hard to do when u don't tag ur posts w a popular fandom tag that everybody searches through #idk . willing to hear anybody's takes on this

[mustangs-flames]

The way you nonchalantly sometimes compare / call htb Lucifer a 'spoiled child' makes me giggle

It's worthless to call the devil a "bad guy" , he already knows that , but to call him "spoiled"? He sure as heck wouldn't see that one coming!

Lmaooo

Well, in htb au, Lucifer isn't exactly a 'bad guy'. At least, not initially. He was God's favourite and he rebelled because he didn't agree with his Father making subservient creatures with no free will. He gave humans the apple knowing full well he'd be punished for it, but he didn't ever expect to be exiled for eternity. And so he did the only thing he could once he realised God wasn't interested in listening to him and started to make noise. He essentially did the equivalent of a toddler having a temper tantrum and when that didn't work he started breaking God's toys in the hopes he would get attention. He really is a spoiled child at times, but that certainly takes on a more desperate and sinister tone as the centuries pass by.

He has spent so long convincing himself that his Father is responsible for all the evil things he's had to do that he hasn't even noticed how much like God he's become.

Like Father, like son after all.

#hail true body au #mustang answers! #htb lucifer #htb god #and this isn't me excusing god at all because He is also in the wrong too #but yeah. lucifer became like the one person he hates more than anything else and he can't even see that #the cycle of generational trauma doesn't break with him. it just keeps going and he keeps getting worse #and he never realises that. or maybe deep down he does. but he can't bring himself to admit it #because he's terrified of being like his father #he has to be better than him #otherwise all the terrible things he's done... what he did to gabriel... it would all be for nothing #and that would break him if he stopped to reflect on it for too long #it's easier to be angry. to pin everything on one person than to admit he might have been at fault too #sorry for rambling

[emblazons]

every time I read something where someone tries to explain why Mike and El deserve to be endgame I end up less concerned about the person’s love of the ship and more concerned about 1) the persons' ability to interpret basic themes and images in media and 2) the dynamic they have or expect from/with a partner in real life

#like?! somewhere between misunderstanding the entire show and thinking its cool to lie to your partner lies most m*leven shippers lmfao #like if you wanna ship them because they're canon or because they're cute together and you wanna explore that DO IT #but lets not confuse our headcanons for the show?? #or...make characters into things they're not trying to arrange a jigsaw puzzle we just spent a 13 hr szn being shown doesn't quite fit #the way they enjoy this couple though…it’s literally either terrifying or attributing byler traits to Mike and El LMAO #LIKE #the lack of desire for communication. or shared interests. or even...any kind of POSITIVE depth that doesn't happen in a group setting? #anyway. let me stop lol #anti mlvn #elmike #the me tag #stranger things

[hurryupmerlin]

Alright.

Setting down my bowl of YumYum to mentally prepare myself that in 0 minutes I have to drive off to meet my banker. Who will then have me sign the contract that will lead to me being so much in debt. So. Much. In. Debt.

As always, I am equally terrified and excited.

But not as terrified as I am by the notary appointment tomorrow.

#diary #adulthood just doesn't stop being terrifying #chicken buys a house

[moonlightsmasquerade]

Mark’s opinion on Sarah being a creechur

Listen, Mark will always love his sister, no matter what she becomes, but he is not happy!

It was bad enough when she found out what happened to him, he never wanted her to know, and he was wary of the magic to start, and THEN the first ritual she tries goes horribly wrong and he told her to PROMISE to never touch magic ever again

But its Sarah and she's stubborn and she just thinks if she tries again it'll work this time, and sometimes she needs to use magic for her investigations its not that bad, maybe she likes having this power!

But this is his fault isn't it? She made these choices because of him, she did this for him and all he can do is blame himself for allowing his little sister to lose her own humanity

#the crossed out words are what mark thinks #he loves her so much he doesn't care she's a kinda terrifying witch #but he just WISHES he had stopped her before it got this bad #but it stopped being about him a long time ago #sarah does like the power it gives her she feels like she has a bit of control finally #i love them in this au the family drama #tmc mim au

[one-winged-dreams]

I left my fucking bag at the plasma donation center yesterdayYYYYY

#i am terrified of losing all those pins please for the love of god let it still be there #i don't know why someone would steal a blorbo bag but that doesn't stop me from being paranoid #some of those pins are now unobtainable and most of them really mean a lot to me #i'm sure it's there i'm just #:((((