#It has been months I'm so proud

[glo-shroom]

yes & no by Natalie Wee | Trigun Ultimate Overhaul

#THIS HAS BEEN COOKING. FOR TWO MONTHS #trigun #vashwood #vash the stampede #nicholas d. wolfwood #vash #wolfwood #trigun maximum #mine #edit #trimax #trigun edit #tw suicide mention #for that one line #and #tw blood #hopefully there's nothing else I'm forgetting #long post #i guess #pls feel free to critique me on the alt texts I've never done it before and would love to know what I can do better #but uhhh yeah otherwise. enjoy my baby. I'm very proud of this #I do however need to not look at it for a while now #so aside from the IDs if there are mistakes. no there aren't <3 #AND THANKS TO MY QPP EEE FOR LISTENING TO ME ENDLESSLY WORK ON THIS AND OFFERING ME INPUT AND CRITIGUE!!! <3333 #god. it's finally done #edit: btw I could write so much on my choices in this and what I'm going for and little details. but I leave it to the masses to interpret

[omaano]

Art Summary of 2023

I kind of wish I had taken this thing to the next level and used a picture with a clone in it for March and November as well (I looked it up now, I very much could have added my Fives portrait or that first pinup-y illustration of Rex for March, and a very cute drawing of a clone OC and his dog (of whom I am promised to get partial custody, and how cool is that really?? and I am so very excited to show him off next year!!)) but it was also the year of Din in big hats as well, so I let those pieces stay :) You'll just have to take my word that there is a Rex in the July picture too.

I feel ike I have learned so much, and also have grown a lot more confident in my skills as an artist; I've learned that I love drawing backgrounds to make a "full" illustration, that intricate little details fascinate me to no end, that I can do fun things with lineart and my version of cell shading but I also miss dedicating the time to a full painting; and that harsh/stronger light reflecting off of darker skin is still something I'll have to study further next year.

Thank you everyone for your continued support in 2023! I have so many kind and enthusiastic tags screenshotted and saved for the days when I inevitably doubt what I do, it means so so much to me! I'm very grateful for the old and new friends I'd made or reconnected with this year ❤️❤️❤️ - and hello to new followers too, I hope you'll keep enjoying what I do here ❤️

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#my art #art summary #2023 art summary #2023 summary of art #tcw fanart #I've spent the whole year drawing the same face and I still cannot make it truly consistent what does that say about me? #I've looked back on my annual art summaries of the past 8 years #and I am so proud of how far I have come #I'm also happy that I haven't had a repeat of 2019 where I didn't have a single thing from the first 2 months because work was hell #January has Boba and Gregor in it so that totally counts #and that Rex for March woulf have been weird because it sure as hell wouldn't be his face that I'd include in this summary LOL #it would have been the texture of his armor btw #or the scar on his chest - I really liked those details

[sonictoaster]

The messenger bag I made in 2019 finally started to wear to pieces after four years of faithful service. Time for a new one!

I made the original bag without a pattern, but this time I had something to work with. I took the old bag apart and made a pattern from the pieces.

It took me a while to find the right material. I wasn’t sure what it would look like, I just knew I’d know it when I saw it. I finally found this double-sided Japanese cloth in a shop in Portland.

Once I had the right cloth for the exterior, I found a fun pattern for the interior bag in a local shop. (I always use a lighter material for the interior so it's easier to find things).

The first bag was a struggle—I had no idea what I was doing! I expected the second bag to be difficult as well, but the process went surprisingly smoothly. I got stuck a few times and had to take a day or two to figure out a solution, but the solutions always worked better than I expected!

For instance—in spite of carefully measuring each piece, the outer flap ended up being too small. I ended up constructing a border to extend the edges.

With heavy interfacing and waterproof lining, the walls were very thick and tricky to work with. Having a better sewing machine than last time helped!

Lots of pockets and hooks on the inside—essential.

I found a leather camera strap I haven't used since college and added a couple of decorative wooden buttons a friend gave me and I'd been saving for the right moment. The blue webbing along the sides that support the leather strap are repurposed from the original bag. I like that a little bit of the old bag is worked into the new.

The whole process took... weeks—but I’m so happy with how it all came together!

#long post #pictures i took #stuff i made #i am not a sewing expert #i've been slowly learning and teaching myself to do things with a sewing machine over the last ten years #it's hard and i still struggle #but make no mistake: i am very fucking proud of myself #there are a few small quirks that i didn't get right and annoy me but overall it came out so well #i love it #and i'm glad it's done this project has been eating my brain for like a month

[bun-bie]

I have done some terrible thing in my life. I have done unbearable things.

Art inspired by the song Terrible Things by Axie on Youtube, It's linked in the quote above! I slowly worked on this for about 2 weeks because of school. Anyways first time drawing Springtrap and I'm super proud! :D

Reblogs are appreciated!!

#fnaf #fnaf william afton #fnaf springtrap #springtrap #fnaf terrible things #I'm actually so proud that I might just post the speed paint on my yt since I haven't posted anything there in forever #Anyways the song has been living rent free in my head for about a month now and I just had to do something #Can you tell i genuinely love rendering? Cause I do :] #The lag to make this tho was unbelievable #shout out to mobile artists fr fr #bunbie draws :^)

[greenishness]

You can’t force people to be honest with you. If you’re an up-front person who doesn’t have a problem asking for what you need, it can be easy to interpret wishy-washiness as cowardly and manipulative. It obviously sucks to be in emotional limbo, and I don’t blame you for interpreting their silence as a punishment. But have you considered it might also be a form of self-protection?

“Why won’t X tell me what’s wrong? I’m not a mind reader!” is a common complaint. But the question which often occurs to me is, who does that clarity benefit? Does the teller have reasonable grounds to believe expressing their anger is a safe or productive thing to do? Is it going to lead to deeper understanding, or just another argument? Is the person demanding an explanation going to listen, or use the teller’s complaint to retaliate, linguistically outmanoeuvre them, or adopt a position of victimhood? Often a request for clarity is disingenuous. We know what we’ve done and just don’t want to have to be the one to bring it up, because we feel guilty, and it’s easier to take a defensive posture than proactively apologise.

Not to mention that when we’re upset, the last thing we want is to give the person who offended us an opportunity to relitigate the situation. Especially if there’s wounded pride involved. It can be humiliating to confess the depth of your hurt feelings. That kind of honesty is an act of generosity, not emotional obligation. 

Help Me Hera: Our Couple BFF's Won't Forgive Us

#this has gotten me through the last month i am not even kidding not even a little bit . #it articulates something that i have been trying to put my finger on for a while now #that articulating the depth of your hurt and humiliation to the person responsible for it is an act of incredible vulnerability #and if you choose to do that i'm proud of you! but it is a privilege that you alone have to right to bestow #'i can't make it better if i don't know what' wrong' is such an insidious way of reversing power dynamics #and frankly an incredibly entitled way to view the world like who asked you to make it better? maybe you'll just have to stew #no one is obligated to share their innermost self with you no matter how badly you want them to #and if you cannot accept that very basic boundary then i have an idea why someone else might be so mad at you

[wexpyke]

what if I told you none of it was accidental?

Galadriel x Sauron + “Mastermind” by Taylor Swift.

#tropedit #ropedit #tolkienedit #ringsofpowerdaily #ringsofpowersource #tolkiensource #haladrielcentral #haladriel #saurondriel #galadriel x sauron #galadriel x halbrand #the rings of power #this has literally been more than 4 months in the making but i finally finished it #i'm so proud of the blending on this... 🥰 #and i'm also finally satisfied with the typography #mine: gif

[hxhhasmysoul]

wouldn't it be nice if the author of the fics finished them. the author is me.

#vent #for the last 4 months my life has been in stupid crisis mode #like constantly #from major ones where i had to move out for a while because it was impossible to stay where i lived #to not being able to use my kitchen for over a week #and like other more or less minor house related stuff that made it impossible for me to use something normally #not a single week without something like that or shit at work which is constantly being so fucking chaotic #and now someone died in my family #not someone very close but i liked them #and of course like feeling sad that they are gone can't be the only thing #because it has to come with the headache of i need to travel for their funeral and it's just before easter #so there's no one in this city to leave my dog with #because most of my friends either live abroad or have cats or are busy before easter.. #i'd just want a week where nothing happens #and like the writing is weighing heavy on me #because i miss it #also i wish i could finish something #i wish something good would happen that i could feel proud off #also because i'm mentally ill and fucking stupid when i was going crazy with my kitchen not working and work shit #i bought new furniture #because after 15 years i've finally had enough money to buy some that aren't fucking black and inconvenient and ugly #which is like a huge project and a crisis i brought onto myself #just because i was too burnt out to write #and i wanted something nice to happen to me #like a nice living space that doesn't make feel like i have no ownership over it because everything in it was some else's choice #and that old furniture was bought by my mother and my brother ages ago and it's handmedowns #and my fucking horrible mother feels personally slighted that i want to get rid of a bed that is broken #because my brother's kids jumped on it regularly when they used to visit pre covid #yeah it's been broken that long because i lost all my savings during covid and had to change careers to a souless pointless corpo job #long pathetic whine and overshare over

[spaghett-onaplate]

a celebratory post: i have just experienced the most fruitful writing 24 hours of my entire life. at 3:30am last night, i started a new fic, wrote maybe 3k in the hours before I slept? continued the next evening at 5pm, and since then the document has reached the grand total of... 12.5k words!! :D

#im proud of myself ok <3 #does this mean my writing well will dry up for 5 months after this? maybe. maybe. probably #this fic spawned out of me plucking at my head hairs and being suddenly Struck with inspiration btw. related to the hair yanking #it's surprisingly hard to pull out individual strands of hair when it's short. anyway #we are 3 and a bit chapters in and i'm happy with the pacing too #haven't gone over to edit yet so we'll seeee how that goes #anyway hopefully this sudden motivation carries me through the whole fic. hopefully the whole holidays #do i still have a million WIPs? yes. should i be working on the published WIP that has some very lovely people awaiting new chapters? yes. #is this likely to become yet another unfinished WIP? most definitely! but that's Ok because i am having Fun and that is all that matters #when it hit midnight i was still writing and made sure to add the wordcount to friends words doc #at long last my month-long streak of 0s has been interrupted #yea i also upped my word goal from 7k considering i was at 9k by midnight pdhdf

[saltyloafy]

good to know that the ace attorney hyperfixation is alive and well as I turned on samurai on a mission to listen to during my lunch break and a primal uncontrollable squeak came out of me and my hands started flapping like I was trying to gain altitude

the pure happiness I feel after thinking abt kazuma asogi is proof in of itself that these lawyers still have my brain in a death grip and I couldn't be happier to know that

including these cats bc these kazumas specifically give me heart palpitations

#nothing is worse than the blank period between fixations #so I'm glad that I have not reached that point yet #I have been fixed on aa since may so we're running on month 6 here I'm so proud #closer to 5 if I round down tbh #mob still has the record for longest fixation period and I don't expect aa to top it but I still think it's interesting #I'm moving into my tgaa era rn #they put crack in kazuma asogi #my sweet catboy I wanna feed him soup #ace attorney #kazuma asougi #kazuma asogi #tgaa #dgs #autism #actually autistic

[rookie98writes]

it's totally fine and normal to write 75% of a fic over two days and then barely touch it for six weeks, right?

#rookie rants #anbu part 3 is coming i swear #and the worst part is that i'm really proud of what i have so far?? #like the situation and plot is all solid and i literally just have to connect a few dots that all take place during the smut #which is arguably the most fun part to write? for me at least? #i guess it depends on my mood #ugh now i'm recognizing that i might have felt less attractive recently and thereby less likely to be fucked?? #idk my day-to-day has been stressful for like two months #nothing catastrophic or anything but enough to make me feel irresponsible for focusing on my little writing hobby #but i shall work through those issues and will one day post a new story! #thank you for visiting the tags i love you

[yellowloid]

FINALLY managed to make some progress on my wip thank GOD and all the saints in heaven for this christmas miracle

#it's kind of a funny story btw. life has been so hectic since the end of october i haven't really had time to write as such #only editing stuff that was already written and ready (the first two chapters of my fic that i posted) #but over the past few days i've gone back to reread the next parts and i've made some interesting discoveries #one of them being that i miscalculated and i don't in fact just have the 3rd chapter ready. i also have the 4th lmao #so that was a nice surprise #anyway. the other day after rereading the whole thing and making a couple of edits here and there i closed the doc and called it a day #that's what we call progress 🥰🥰🥰 #(was procrastinating as a result of being irrationally afraid of writing again after two months) #but yeah long story short. i FINALLY got back to actually writing tonight #made some actual progress on the 5th chapter and i'm so proud of myself for that you have no idea lmao #we're SO back baby #writing stuff

[homeless202]

EY & HJ stealing parallels

EY | HJ | Details

We’ve seen Eunyung get wrongfully accused of stealing twice:

The first time, his dad leaned down and directly told him to apologize, not even asking if he really did do it. When EY insisted he was innocent, his dad did not believe him. Instead, he shamed EY into apologizing for sth he didn’t do. His dad leaning down was a manipulation tactic.

The second time, HJ leaned down to ask him if he did it, EY said no, and HJ believed him no questions asked. Bc that's how his mom had reacted to him stealing. HJ leaning down was to show EY he wasn't alone and that he had someone who trusted and supported him.

(^^ HJ's reaction really surprised him compared to what his past experience with his dad looked like. EY didn't expect anyone to believe him, he's not used to that. Then guilt and dread kicked in when HJ said he trusted him bc he had intended to steal sth but ultimately didn't and held himself back ->)

When there was concrete proof EY didn’t do it, he even stood up for him. HJ asked the shop owner to apologize to EY the way his mom had asked for an apology for him when he was little.

But their reactions to said request were different: HJ thought his mom was really cool for standing up for him like that.

Whereas EY thought HJ asking for an apology was extremely embarrassing. He didn't even give the guy the chance to apologize before walking away (<- he probably felt he didn't deserve it bc he had almost stolen sth).

HJ did what he learned from his mom, and it almost worked. Unfortunately, EY isn’t used to basic human decency and apologies, so he rather removed himself from the situation to avoid another confrontation and further humiliation.

#<EY's dad leaned down to lecture/intimidate/manipulate him> #<HJ leaned down to help/comfort him. like his mom did to him> #<HJ asked for an apology like his mom did. but EY has too many issues to accept an apology compared to HJ> #<- to summarize the points #no home #no home manhwa #집이 없어 #webtoon #eunyung baek #haejoon goh #ey hj parallels #meta #multipart #stealing arc #<- i'm sorry if these posts got too repetitive. i've spent 2 months trying to figure out how to frame and phrase these #in the end i gave up and just did it. fingers crossed i got the points/similarities/differences across properly #i want y'all to know i had 20+ drafts abt this arc and made the first one mid february #it's april now. i've been sitting on this for so long. and i ended up doing and finishing everything within 24 hours #<- i haven't slept much. if things make no sense. that's why #still pretty proud of myself tho <3

[awakefor48hours]

#food mention #the positive reinforcement is working #it's been literal months since this has happened #i'm so proud of myself #i've been eating dinner from midnight-2 am so much #so to finally eat dinner when the clock says pm makes me so happy

[coffeeandcalligraphy]

not me actually writing the saddest BODY BACK excerpt for tonight's writing session oh my god:

“Why are you upset?” Harrison asks, drumming his ringed finger against the counter’s lip. What does Suzanna see when she looks at him? A miniature version of her wearing a jacket that once belonged to her at his age, and an earring that once belonged to another mother? Or is he a stranger? They know each other best by genetics. If she asked Harrison what he thought her favourite colour was, he’d have no idea. “This isn’t a big deal.” “Oh, please,” Suz says, teary like the actresses on her favourite Portuguese soaps. Sure, Harrison doesn’t know his mother’s favourite colour, if in childhood she was the type of girl to make rings out of peach pits, if she was the type of girl to rip worms bare-handed, if she’d eat cottage cheese with cantaloupe, if she thought about enrolling in a life drawing class before she got pregnant, if her idols are pop icons of the 80s like his are, her favourite way to fold a paper airplane, when her birthday is. But he does know she does not cry. When young Jesus stayed in Jerusalem unbeknownst to his mother, what did Mary do? Perhaps she stared at her hands, thought of the last time she touched him. Perhaps she wept. Or perhaps she found the closest mirror, wiped her sleeve against the glass until it glossed, and tried to find her son in her own reflection.

this is... an underrated relationship in my books LOL

#I love harrison soooo much but also #YOU ARE BEING AN IDIOT LMAO #also i understand whY BUT #I wrote a poem about mary tonight called “mary's vacation” #for my workshop #and I guess I'm just... thinking about her LMAO #this chapter is duly called immaculate mary hi queen #anyway also i can't believe it's been 12 days and I've written this book #EVERY DAY #despite my life turning so badly upside down so fast??? proud of me lol #also this jesus in the temple bit has absolutely SENT ME to nostalgia land #in elementary school these ladies would come pray the rosary #EVERY MONTH FOR LIKE 3 YEARS WITH US LMAO #the amount of times i have heard that story... wow #bodyback

[bowtiepastabitch]

Oh by the way don't go on twitter rn

#genuinely get closer every day to deleting my account because what the fuck guys #okay just gonna rant in the tags for a minute ignore me #because what the actual FUCK #I made a twitter account so I could see what Michael Sheen posted #because it makes me happy and that has value for me #and I've checked back every couple days then every couple weeks since october to see if he'd posted anything #and people are sTILL fucking going on about it #guys #guys I'm begging y'all to realize that bullying someone off a website is not the activism slay you think it is #there are celebrities that are PROUD zionists can we PLEASSE focus on them?? if we're gonna talk about celebs at all???? #your time could be doing so many more valuable things than posting over and over about your opinions #about some other random uninvolved guys opinions #about a complex conflict in which it is not a wrong desire for innocents to not be killed!!! #in which a ceasefire is what we've been demanding from our reps for months!!!!! #and some fucking statements he made MONTHS ago #statements which by the way were not wrong or incorrect #y'all forget that being anti-zionist in the modern imperial hellscape of america and the uk has very serious consequences that I have seen #in my own actual goddamn life #calling for a ceasefire is exactly what we were asked to do by organizers jesus fuck are y'all that dense???? #have you done so little actual activism that you don't know that??? what is happening????? #and now georgia tennant deactivated her fucking account because she got dogpiled too #for not providing a full PR defense against claims she was a zionist #like guys come on we all know how that goes #it doesn't matter what you say someone is gonna get angry and pick it apart she doesn't owe us proof she's not a zionist #I'm not here to say she responded correctly but there's nothing she could have said that would have made twitter happy #because that's how celebrity drama works and you know it #so now of course everyone's buzzing again about michael and georgia and neil and fuck him fuck her whatever #people are blocking each other for supporting or not supporting and shit it's a bloodbath #and for what #for. fucking. what.

[jaseygay]

recently got into scrapbooking and of course had to pay respects to the new ATL song

#mine #ive been at it for abouttt. a week. so i know its not great #and also I only have a black and white printer lol #I don't expect this to receive your blogs but I'm kind of proud of this one! #i've been out of the habit of making things with my hands for many years. feels good #anyways modern love has only gotten better im excited for this album im excited for this tour #I'm seeing all time low in a 1400 capacity venue in 3 months. good times