#It's like I'm rediscovering freedom

[exoexid]

the suyeol lore is so crazy

#their relationship is so interesting to me like aoughhhh #like you see subaek and even tho they don't talk a lot on camera (most of the time) those two get along so well #they understand and respect each other so much they take their job very seriously and they're actually good friends as a result #suyeol on the other hand is 12 years of slowburn like it's crazyyyyy #you admire him and believe in him like no one else does and then you discover that he isn't that great actually #so you get disappointed and distance yourself and then you both are in this weird limbo for years as you grow up #and slowly but surely you rediscover how your relationship works because both of you are adults now and now we're here #like yeah suhito was stressed back then the context was not great for a leader AND tao was still with exo so lmao pcy could fend for himself #so i get ittttt they were going through it but. i need to know what he said to pcy like oh my god was it really that bad 😭 #i wonder if they've ever mentioned it 🤔 #writing this bc i just remembered that one time they had to describe e/o and suho was like #“you're my cute dongsaeng i admire your talents so much and oh btw you're not uncomfortable around me these days right? uwu” #LIKE ??? KING YOU CAN'T SAY THAT AND LEAVE US IN THE DARK #(<- they totally can it's not our business lmao) #idolization to tentative ''''enemies'''' to coworkers to friends to good friends is crazy #i need to look into this properly omg let's do some research #anyways i want a subunit :) they can be called exo sc too sehun won't mind bc these are like his favorite people in the world!!! #idk i find the exos and their bond so interesting because you truly have it all with them there's a whole spectrum of friendships #and i appreciate that it's not like with b*s & taegi (if you don't know who they are... let's keep it that way <3) #because those two were just too different to get along. it was extreme. but bighit forced it so much it was painful to see sometimes #and then the hawaii trip came and they painted it like a ''see? after this trip they get along so well now <3'' moment #1. girl let's be serious for a sec 😐 and 2. it's not our business!!!!! focus on making good music!!!!! #i'm so glad exo didn't have to go through something like that bc i just know that they'd have disbanded by now sjfsifjsk #the saranghaja sprite isn't that intense we lovr freedom of choice (keeping in mind that they were under sm) <33333 #so YEAH. can you guys tell i can't sleep hehe :) #dara.t #suho and chanyeol

[violetthecreator]

Sunlight

Astarion x GN!Reader

Warnings: Reference to past trauma, just a lovesick vampire sharing his feelings 💘

WC: 400+

A/N: Inspired by @lokasxnna and Sunlight by Hozier, you can find the moodboard here ☀️ I truly could spend eternity writing soft/tender moments for this man 🥺

Astarion's steps fall softly upon the forest floor, the dappled sunlight filtering through the leaves overhead casting patterns on the ground. You walk beside him in quiet companionship, the two of you navigating the winding paths with ease whilst the others keep pace a few dozen yards ahead. With every step, the tension in his shoulders seems to loosen, as if the gentle embrace of the ancient forest has a soothing effect on him.

After a while, Astarion's voice breaks through the peaceful silence, lacking it's usual sardonic edge. "I've missed this.", his sharp eyes glancing towards the canopy above.

"Missed what?" you inquire with genuine curiousity.

"The sunlight," he admits, a hint of nostalgia threading his words. "I spent two centuries trapped in darkness, unable to bear the sun's touch. It's... odd how something so simple, something mortals often take for granted, could be a luxury I yearned for so desperately."

You nod, allowing him to continue. His words seem to flow like a long-held secret finally being unburdened.

"The memories of honeyed rays, of warmth on my skin, they taunted me endlessly whilst I remained under Cazador's influence," Astarion confesses, his voice carrying a vulnerability rarely heard from the elegant vampire. "But now, thanks to this accursed tadpole, I can finally feel it again. The sensation of sunlight on my face, the way it warms my skin, it feels as if I've been given a second chance."

A soft smile touches your lips as you listen, understanding the weight of his words. The forest around you seems to echo his sentiments, the gentle rustling of leaves like a symphony of empathy.

Astarion glances at you, his expression revealing a depth of emotion he rarely allows himself to show. "I'm glad you're here with me," he admits, his crimson eyes meeting yours. "Being able to share this newfound freedom with you, it's something I never imagined possible."

The two of you walk on, the breeze ruffling your hair and carrying Astarion's words through the air. With every step, the forest seems to come alive, embracing both of you in its tranquility and allowing Astarion to rediscover a part of himself he thought he had lost forever.

As the sun begins its descent, casting a warm golden hue across the landscape, Astarion's fingers brush against yours, a silent reassurance that he cherishes this moment. He can't help but find himself hoping that one day he'll gather the courage to tell you just how much he cherishes every moment he spends with you. You both find solace in each other's company amidst the whispering leaves and glowing sunset, basking in the light that had eluded Astarion for far too long.

A/N: Thank you so so much for reading! The comments/tags you've left on my other Astarion fics have left me smiling like a fool, appreciate all the love and support 😭💕

#I just want him to be happy 🥺 #so I will keep writing soft moments between him and reader/tav until I die 😌 #astarion #astarion x gn!reader #astarion x reader #astarion x tav #bg3 #baldurs gate 3 #baldur's gate 3 #baldur's gate iii #baldurs gate iii

[sykam0re]

Analysing the new Splatoon 3 Wave 2 DLC - Side Order

I am about 90% sure this is supposed to be Agent 8!

As such, what I talk about next will be based entirely around this assumption - if this is wrong, then this analysis is void, but it's just for fun anyway so hskshj

I personally believe this wave of the DLC will be tackling the loose ends in regards to Octo Expansion, and more specifically: 8's amnesia prior to starting it. Having no memory of who they are or where they came from, they fight their way through the metro, defeating Tartar along the way and reaching their freedom on the Surface.

But then...

Who are they still?

Besides the memcakes, this issue is never quite resolved. As such- I believe the DLC will focus on that! With Agent 8 rediscovering who they used to be, and who they are now. Figuring out their identity and sense of self so they can finally know who they are. And based on what we saw in the trailer, I have several ways to back up this idea.

First up: the hub. A coral-ridden, colour-bleached version of our beloved Inkopolis Square. There is a strong coral themeing throughout the entire DLC trailer, and I think the reason why might be relevant to 8.

Coral bleaches when exposed to stressors in its environment, such as light, temperature and nutrients. So perhaps this is a metaphor for all the stressors on Agent 8's psyche. Their environment has changed dramatically, from Underground to the surface world of Inkopolis, so it wouldn't even surprise me if such changes still left them quite out of it.

It could also be a metaphor for how Inkopolis Square still isn't home for them. Considering the very intentional hotel-esque interior of the tower, a hotel being a place travellers go to stay in, this could very well encourage the idea that this still isn't home for 8. Just a glorified trip, regardless of whether or not they even can go 'home'. If they even remember home. The fanciness of it could also be a nod to how out of place they feel, as though they were in a place far out of their league. Like a common man in a palace, it feels...out of place.

Then? You have this image of multiple octolings. Multiple '8s', that perhaps could imply that they are still struggling to find their identity in a sea of so many like them. So many soldiers like them, so many test subjects like them...

They were always one of thousands, nothing more than a number in a crowd, so they never had any individuality. They never felt they were unique. So why is them who got to find their freedom? Why were they special?

And now we make it to the key in all this:

Pearl and Marina.

Pearl and Marina were a key component in helping 8 escape the Deepsea Metro. So if anyone would be here for them in such a struggle: it's them. The idea of it being a recollection of 8's memories could also explain Marina's glitched out appearance here.

It's just a memory. Were her tentacles blue, or green? Was this her outfit? Or was it something else? Maybe 8 even has some lasting memory issues after everything...hence how even newer memories seem to escape them.

Pearl seems to meet them in the blanked out square, so they're likely a key part in all of this. Just a hunch.

Overall though, I'm really really excited!! This DLC looks like it's shaping up to be something amazing, and I hope my silly ramblings at least interest some of you <:)

Thank you for reading! ♡

#splatoon #splatoon 2 #splatoon 3 #agent 8 #off the hook #damp socks splatoon #splatoon 3 dlc #octoling #speculation #theorising #kami rambles #text #side order #pearl splatoon #splatoon pearl #marina splatoon #splatoon marina

[infiniteko]

Sinking Into Silence

[PB's past dream, 7minute 11 second long audio. It was supposed to be our one and only YouTube video]

Rediscovering and finding myself was both underwhelming and overwhelming simultaneously. Picture yourself submerged in a bottomless ocean, absent of any sense of direction – no up, no down, no left, no right. You're just here, somewhere, sinking in water, uncertain of your destination, sinking further away from a surface you don't even remember. How you reached this point has been forgotten; it just happened. You're not sinking rapidly; it's a slow descent that feels like stagnation or are you actually staying at one place? The water above feels heavier by the second, yet it's not making it difficult to catch your breath.

Attempts to swim upward prove to be pointless; your limbs, physically and mentally drained, feel too heavy to make a difference but they also feel way too light at the same time. So, you let it happen, aware it's neither good nor bad, not worsening or improving your situation, not potentially leading to your survival or death. Yet, you feel helpless – or so you thought.

The more you sunk, the more you could not tell the difference between who you called "myself" and your "surrounding". It became one blur. One Presence or Knowing of "I am here". But are you truly the one sinking? You see your body but look deeper. Who is seeing it? Who are you?

Now, imagine suddenly, amidst absolute nothingness and silence, an inexplicable realization strikes. Is this truly how it's meant to be? It can't be. In the distance, I spot a vague presence, or at least I thought so. I swim towards it, fueled by a sudden burst of energy. However, as I swim, it seems to either recede or stay still. Confusion sets in. What's happening?

"Should I swim, sink or disappear?"

Despite mental and physical exhaustion, every fiber in me wants to surrender. Yet, the desire for freedom keeps me going. "It's right there, I just need to reach it. I need to try harder", you thought to yourself. The Presence remains stationary, and you continue swimming. The exhaustion intensifies, but the Presence doesn't budge. In this endless void, you're left with silence – no sounds, no sensations, only sinking further.

"I'm alright. Nothing is happening"

And then, you notice: what you're swimming towards is what you already are. The freedom you seek in that silence is the same silence and freedom that is already here now.

You are not merging with silence, you are it.

What did it take to realize that?

- PB

#awareness #floating #beingness #being #void #emptiness #brahman #consciousness #nothingness #limitless #boundless #freedom

[mtkay13]

The peach blossoms are blooming

Lol @the fancy title, haha. Yesterday I promised "two hoboxu's today!" but I'm an inconsistant liar so the second is today and not yesterday, HAH.

Anyway, another painting of my very beloved; more about this piece below!

So aside of the obvious joke, what I really wanted to work on and represent on this picture is, as the title makes it clearer, grief, and what it looks like for ZZS.

The idea came from imagining ZZS setting off, happy with his disguise, and passing by a peach tree orchards and seeing all the peach blossoms blooming, and what it would entail.

...So let's talk about what TYK is about again, shall we?

(usual caveat: those are my thoughts and interpretations etc etc)

Little is known of the four years that separate the end of QY and the beginning of TYK. Even less is obviously stated when it comes to the reasons why ZZS has put in the nails, besides the obvious "requirement to leave Tian Chuang" part.

So, trying to leave all headcanons and other suppositions aside, and looking at what the text gives us, one of the main "storylines" of ZZS' personal journey across both books seems to be: dealing with the loss of LJX, first of their relationship, and later, of LJX entirely.

>I'm going to boldly announce that (I think) TYK is in great parts a story about getting over grief, or rather, properly living with grief.

Needless to say that it is clear that ZZS has a bunch of issues he's dealing with, including "the void after meeting your goals; what's next?" and some form of burnout from completely over-exerting himself and going way beyond what he thought he could sustain mentally; but also. Four years after he lost LJX, ZZS is still deeply grieving. Still seeing him in crowds, still thinking about him frequently, still hallucinating him, dreaming of him. He couldn't resist taking in ZCL because ZCL reminded him of LJX. Nearly every single thought of his own past ends up rooting back to LJX.

The first time he mentions LJX's name out loud in TYK, chapter 41, is the first time he mentions it at all in four years, and to quote the text:

Speaking out his name hadn't been that big of a deal, in the end; it had only felt like something had been pulled out of his chest—like he was now missing a piece, like it left behind an empty void.

(TYK ch41, TL by me)

The next scene is when it hits ZZS that he's going to die; from that moment on, ZZS starts feeling stupid, ZZS slowly starts wanting to find a solution, influenced by WKX... and the story culminates with ZZS making the opposite decision that he made in QY: instead of risking never seeing WKX alive again, and against WKX's decision, he goes to meet him, unlike LJX whom he was too scared to go meet, and lost forever without even saying goodbye.

>I think that ZZS essentially took the nails because he couldn't manage to live with that grief, basically. (I know, I KNOW there are other reasons, but for the sake of analyzing this theme, I find interesting to look at it from this angle; how the narrative shifts towards ZZS putting in the efforts to stay alive at the exact same times he starts letting go of LJX literally.) And then, as he learns, as he rediscovers life differently, the story becomes about getting free from the nails, about actially living with that grief rather than dying because of it.

*coughs* so, hum, yes. This is what I wanted to represent. What grief looks like, at this stage of melancholic, happy, self-deprecating acceptance of freedom through death—freedom of the burden of grief and guilt. It's a bittersweet feeling, but the way I see it, he smiles out of what he thinks is inner peace, resignation, and once again, self-deprecation.

I would go even deeper, in that ZZS' relationship to death with regards to LJX is quite complex and difficult, given how he was told by LJX himself that he ought to die for what he's done (or misunderstood LJX saying so), but that's a whole other can of worms and I don't have the brain juice to go there again (since it wouldn't even be the first time iirc). SO YEAH, again, grief, but ZZS style: turned into a bit of a melancholic, silly, but gentle joke, and with a smile on the face. On brand with TYK as well.

Cheers!

#tian ya ke #zhou zishu #liang jiuxiao #tyk #zzs #meta #qi ye

[critter-coded]

I'm honestly questioning myself from scratch for a while. I want to feel entirely confident in what I'm calling myself, but that doesn't make me less of a therian either.

I'm going to be entirely transparent for a moment as an adult, and explain sort of my feelings and why I've felt so wishy washy with my labels lately. I don't feel that I "owe" anyone an explanation, but I do feel that others may relate.

I've been trained for 22 years be a human.

In elementary school, I answered "dog" for what I wanted to be when I grew up, while everyone else wrote doctor or lawyer. I didn't fit in. You can't strive to become a 'dog'. I was bullied and excluded relentlessly, but it didn't stop me until teachers started calling my family about it. I began to feel shame for the first time, and suddenly found that my recess time was spent sitting in time out. Playing with ants wasn't okay. Digging in the playground wasn't okay. Eating without utensils wasn't okay. I think about her all of the time, and how sad she must have felt to be punished for unharmful behaviors and told to "fix" it. I didn't know how.

Middle school is when I started to experience dysphoria. It wasn't gender dysphoria like I thought for a long time. It was species dysphoria. The experience of developing breasts didn't feel correct. Animals, even mammals, don't have them like I do. Bras made me feel feral and I always tried not to wear them. It got me sent to the office more than once all because my chest wasn't as small as some other girls'. My clothes were no longer acceptable either, and I didn't want to wear what everyone else was. More exclusion if I didn't choose to follow the rest.

High school was the worst. I was fitting in finally, but my mental health struggled horrifically. I had no safe avenues anymore to deal with my stress. I couldn't voice that I didn't like something without aggression because I couldn't use animal behaviors anymore. My clothes scratched, my bra itched, my grades struggled. I was in the counselors office more than I would like to admit. My family was in disarray and I felt caught in the middle of it all, with no way to be anything but human. My girlfriend at the time knew I was a therian since I finally found the word to describe how I felt, but she relentlessly held it against me and shamed me anytime she wasn't happy which was often. At some point, I ended up in the ER with mental health concerns and in therapy accordingly. Nothing seemed to help me though.

College was fine. I kept my head down and just tried to get through my work. Socializing felt damn near impossible, but I was managing. I don't know what I would have done if the pandemic didn't happen, moving me online for 2 years. I finally had a last ticket out of my parents' house, and I had found a boyfriend who loved every bit of my crittery behaviors. It was a good time for me to finally try and rediscover myself, but that fell apart when I graduated.

My home state drove me out by cost alone. I moved the same month I walked the stage with my degree, and I had a job already lined up. I was excited for the money, freedom, and new experiences. Soon though, that turned into a complete loss of my nonhumanity. I am now working 8 hours a day where I have to behave perfectly around everyone. I drive 1 hour to work and 1 hour home. I have to cook and clean and run errands. I need to shower and lay out my clothing for the next day, then try to get 8 hours of sleep. Where do I find the time to be an animal anymore? On the hiking trails, everyone is watching me. In my dreams, I'm a human worried about my finances and my social interactions. I feel lost a lot of the time as my animalistic behaviors are sometimes limited to a single hiss in traffic, wearing a tail while I cook or clean, or a very short nap in a hammock outside where my neighbors can still see me.

I'm trying to reconnect with myself, but there is little time and space. It is entirely possible to be an adult nonhuman, but I am finding that it can require dedicated time set aside in the day. If you're feeling disconnected from yourself, I think it's worth asking: when did the disconnect begin? Was it really a month ago? Or has it began decades ago when people told you you're not normal, that you won't fit in, and that you'll fail. How does a dog know what makes it a dog anymore if it has been trained to speak human, work like a human, spend time outside like a human, drive as a human, and so on.

Be gracious with yourself and give yourself dedicated time to be an animal. You are not broken or wrong or stupid. You need animal time as a therian to be healthy, happy, and focused. You need animal time to give yourself a break from a world not willing to adjust to your behaviors. You need animal time to feel like yourself, and to connect with your roots. You're nonhuman even if sometimes you wonder if you still are, if you struggle to stick with a label because you can't remember what you actually feel like, and if you can't find the time some days to be nonhuman.

You are still authentic. You are still real. You are deserving of joy and comfort. Be the little critter you are.

I'll probably make some self care idea posts more geared for adults and older teens sometime soon to directly address this issue. Even without a label, I still plan on being active online as much as I am active offline. ♡ When a label feels like it best suits what I'm experiencing or want to focus myself around, I'll announce it.

#therian #otherkin #therianthropy #therianthrope #adult therian #writing #alterhuman #nonhuman

[luminous-jellyfish]

A Writeblr Intro (English Version)

Link zur deutschen Version

Hi, I'm Marlin! I've been lurking on tumblr and in its writing community for years but was always too shy to engage. Now I've finally decided to start sharing my own stuff (mainly to organize myself) and become active!

⫸ About Me ⫷

I go by Marlin (she/her), or on some platforms by luminous-jellyfish

mid 20s, queer

I write (mostly) in German, but post (mostly) in English

my favorite genre is fantasy, and all the different direction fantasy can go in, but I like trying my hand at genre mixing

my main blog where I reblog general stuff and fandom things and so on is @secondrealitytotheright

⫸ Current WIPs ⫷

I'm currently most actively working on a few different stories that all take place in the same world (though at slightly different points in time) that I've dubbed "leviathan world" in my notes - after the gigantic sea creatures that live in its deep oceans (and sometimes the sky, who can resist sky whales, seriously). I would probably call it a fantasy world with steampunk elements.

All of those stories feature queerness in different forms, and most of them include at least slight elements of what might be called body horror.

All of these stories are still operating under working titles and are in various, wildly differing draft stages. As always I have far too much planned in this world but these four are the stories I'm actually actively writing right now:

Seeds beneath our skin

Genre: Magical Academy Fantasy, Coming-of-age story

Setting: a group of islands and archipelagos near the equator, where the leviathans are generally both revered and feared as holy and powerful creatures connected to the spirit world

Short Summary: A young girl who grew up as a sea nomad joins the temple that has controlled religious practices throughout the islands for a hundred years. Against her will she becomes a key figure in the struggle for power and religious freedom that is about to grip the temple. To survive spirit possession, human intrigue and ideological differences she is forced to reconsider her identity and world view and define herself on her own terms.

Honey cakes and bloody satin

Genre: Steampunk Fantasy, (Cozy?) Mystery, Romance

Setting: a harbor city on the northern continent, famous for their leviathan hunters, where a technological revolution is happening as the blood of leviathans is turned into a powerful fuel

Short Summary: A journalist working for a revolutionary underground newspaper and a seamstress involved in the golem's rights movement are thrown together when a man dies right in front of their eyes. They must work together and solve the crime while also hiding everything happening from the Watch, to protect both of their secrets.

Short WIP Intro

Half the lights

Genre: High Fantasy Adventure, Romance

Setting: A city on the back of a leviathan, as well as the open skies, oceans and harbors frequented by smugglers, messengers and pirates

Short Summary: A wealthy, bookish young woman who dreams of investigating weather phenomenons escapes having to forge a psychic bond with the leviathan carrying her home city on its back. She stows away on a messenger ship and finds herself among a shady crew of smugglers. Eventually she gets herself involved in pirate adventures, a political revolution and a growing attraction to a headstrong fighter with a rigid code of honor and high ideals.

And surrendered the flesh

Genre: Science Fantasy

Setting: a big city in a sub-tropical climate, surrounded by jungles and plains that have been gripped by a powerful virus that contorts nature and all living things

Short Summary: A young girl from the country travels to the city to find her missing sister and gets involved with an organisation that strives to perfect the human body. An ambitious scientist fights to be recognised for her genius and to keep her past mistakes secret. An old woman is forced to join a struggle she has been hiding from for years and rediscover forgotten powers to try and save her grandchild. All three of them will shape the face of the city.

#ok so this is the first intro #mostly for my own organisation #let's go #fantasy writing #writeblr #my writing #english version #leviathan world #wip: seeds beneath our skin #wip: honey cakes and bloody satin #wip: half the lights #wip: and surrendered the flesh

[prickly-paprikash]

I'm so sick of the clickbait on Kratos and Freya, as well as Atreus/Loki and Thrud.

It's clear Kratos and Freya have a bond of friendship, but contempt and regret still lay beneath it. Kratos murdered Freya's son, and while he did to save her and she has unambiguously moved past it (not necessarily forgiven, but she has learned that no one was really at fault there - or everyone was, as the Norns pointed out), but romance? Really? Is it impossible for two people of opposite genders to maintain a platonic relationship?

Kratos still holds Faye so dearly, and Freya is rediscovering her freedom and independence from a toxic relationship.

And I already fucking talked about Thrud and Atreus.

Gamers. Istg.

Edit: I do not mind who you ship or headcanon. I would be such a dick to gatekeep and command who you believe looks cute together.

You ship Kratos and Freya? That's wonderful, because you see a way romance can blossom between these two that others cannot, and that's a *good* thing.

What I cannot stand by are gamers baiting others into thinking that, canonically, Kratos and Freya are together. Those clickbait "Kratos and Freya fall in love" piss me off because it tries to sell itself as reality when it isn't.

Ship whoever you like. Don't let some shmuck on the internet tell you otherwise. But ensure that you can differentiate between a personal headcanon, and the source material.

#god of war #god of war ragnarok #kratos #freya #atreus #loki #loki laufeyson #thrud #frigg

[unironicallycringe]

I noticed there were unassociated sideblog/accounts purely for shipping content which the mains apparently got harassed for. The first one I saw was presumably for Ghiralink given their posts, and so was the second.

Anyways, I don't know how many of you are out there, but I'm sharing my rediscovered freedom with you: it's like 5 people doing that harassment shit. If you get an avalanche of anons or sock puppets, it's the same person most likely just trying to stir drama. Chances are they're stupid enough to show their ass using uncensored posts on Twitter in front of god and everyone else, and you can find their username and block them.

Most of the Ghiralink fandom people I've encountered are on the same page about how to responsibly navigate the spaces we play in, and the recent stuff I've seen portrays Link as an adult. Fandom content is very different from what it used to be 2011-2017 ish and some intense people online really don't care to update their view of what goes on in this space. It's fine to enjoy fan media about the ship - it doesn't equate a thoughtcrime nor does it mean you're a bad person.

#ghiralink #shea muses aloud #edit: minor clarification of some words

[fictional-idol-tournament]

The two idols with the most votes will go on to join the bracket.

Propaganda below the cut:

Laala Manaaka

No propaganda submitted.

Mirei Minami

- Catgirl coded

-completely different in and outside of pripara

-POP, STEP, GETCHU

Sophy Houjou

- sophie is disabled but incredibly talented and passionate so she became an idol anyways. she switches between her cool effortless performance mode and a weak and disoriented private mode. her family / manager have tried to protect and support her but really they isolated her and made her think noone would like her when they find out about the other side of her.

she ended up feeling trapped and like she couldn't even perform how and with whom she wanted to, so she started trying to speak up and do things for herself. it's been hard but she's very determined to figure out how she can do things her way and cope with her limitations without giving up her freedom. she ditched her manager and her sister now lets her decide how she wants to be supported and she now knows she is loved by her friends any way she is <3

Sion Toudou

No propaganda submitted.

Falulu

No propaganda submitted.

Mikan Shiratama

No propaganda submitted.

Aroma Kurosu

No propaganda submitted.

Gaaruru

No propaganda submitted.

Amari Katasumi

- She's a beautiful chaotic anxious mess, a bit of a tonal shift from the older show's continuity that feels almost like a real, older girl stumbled into a candy-coated idol show and is rediscovering herself and her childhood. Her forgotten edgy OC came to life and they hatelove each other as a metaphor for her own self-hatred/love (that's canon). She has bi autistic bunnygirl swag (that's slightly less canon but I have seen her in an autistic character tourney and I think she won a round or two so I'm not the ONLY one seeing this). Her character song is a freaking BANGER and the lyrics hit way too hard. Both her normal and magical girl-idol designs are iconic.

But more seriously speaking it's a lovely story that resonates with me in particular because she's the same age I was when I was the biggest fan of the old show, and I imagine other fans around my age would say the same - so both her story itself and the metanarrative make her one for the books, even though her show was super delayed so it hasn't even finished yet.

Dorothy West

- silly. yells a lot. is sort of a ninja sometimes and cooks monjayaki. kind of sucks he's my really awful daughter.

#polls #pre-tournament #pripara #laala manaka #mirei minami #sophy hojo #shion todo #falulu #mikan shiratama #aroma kurosu #gaaruru #amari katasumi #dorothy west

[heretherebedork]

I'm not mad at you. Then why don't you talk to me these days? Because you're uncomfortable when I'm around. I get it. You don't like people to judge you like they judge me. Thua. Whatever problem you have, you can always talk to me.

Thua is so aware of what's going on in his life and in his friend's lives, he knows why Kan keeps his distance and he understands, he doesn't hold it against him but it does mean that the distance between them in growing. But Kan doesn't want that. He wants to be at his side, to be safe at his side, to have Thua know he's safe and to come to him, to trust him again, to be closest to him again.

Kan is struggling with himself and his feelings while Thua is steady and calm in his won. Kan is a storm and Thua a lighthouse keeper but nothing is safe from a hard enough storm and no light can stay on forever, no one can care for the guiding light by themself.

They meet on a beach, on freedom, both ditching school and both finding solace in old patterns and sweet treats and gentle laughter, rediscovering an old bond that they cannot always share.

Thus is a safe place for Kan. Kan knows that Thua accepts him as he is and does not judge him. He trusts him with a side of himself he wouldn't show anyone else. But he is struggling to give back to Thua the same thing, that same safe place, because his fear of judgement overwhelms him.

#the eclipse #the eclipse the series #the eclipse series #the eclipse meta #kanlong x thuapha #thua x kan #kan x thua #thuakan #bl drama #thaibl #bl series #thai series #asianlgbtqdramas #thai drama #asian lgbtq dramas #asianlgbtqdrama gif #gmmtv #thai bl #asianlgbtqdramagifs #asian lqbtq dramas gif

[kloppool]

analysis of liverpool's szn at the halfway point

i think the most apparent reason for our resurgence this szn is our midfield rebuild. i won't go too in-depth about our issues last year (cause we all literally lived it) but our midfield was old, injury-prone and just could not do its job. the thing that makes liverpool different is that our attacking facilitators are our fullbacks, so the midfield is expected to do more defensively. that was not happening last season, which left our defense exposed. this year, our brand-new midfield has looked amazing. despite a rough few games, domi has been one of the best signings, covers an incredible amount of ground a game, and can score some absolute bangers. macca has been played out of position so far, but has still been great. however, i think endo has been the best of the bunch, which might be a little controversial, but considering what the expectations of many were vs what he has delieved, i think the thing i love the most about endo is his attitude. even if he makes a mistake, he puts in double the effort to make up for it.

similar to our midfield, our defense is very much having a comeback season. as i touched on in the previous paragraph, the midfield left our defense very exposed last season. this was especially an issue at the fullback position because while taa and robbo are crazy talented, they sometimes leave a lot to be desired in the defensive area. our center back situation was also not great.

while the midfield being loads better certainly helps our defense, i also think that every single one of them is miles better then last year. virg is having a proper renaissance and looks back to his best. joel was phenomenal, ibou is hitting his stride and jarell is our best academy player since trent.

trent's position switch has maybe been the most interesting thing taticallly so far imo. by allowing him to play as an inverted fullback, trent gets to make full use of one some of his best skills- his passing and vision. he's directly gotten us 4 points this season through goals and his defending has improved

to put in perspective how good our defense has been our goals conceded per match is 0.84 so far

the funny thing about our attack this year is that normally it's the area we have the least concern with. for years, liverpool was defined by it's incredible attacking football and lack of defense soundness, which lead to (what felt like) constant 4-3s.....just look at 2017/2018.

so far liverpool have scored 39 goals, only behind city (43) and aston villa (40)

however, the problem is that liverpool are wasteful and not finishing enough chances. mo salah has 12 goals and 7 assists in having played 19 matches

the issue (so far) is that there is no other consistent goalscorer. while darwin has certainly been much better this season, he still misses a lot. if he can improve his finishing, i gen believe he could be fernando torres-esque. if not, we need to a. find someone to consistently score goals and b. allow him the freedom to do what he does best: which rn, is to cause chaos. i can see darwin taking up a bobby type role here and being a facilitator for mo and another strike partner

diogo is, after mo, our best attacker. he is so clinical it's not even funny. cody's movement and energy are fantastic, but his finishing needs to improve. luis diaz has been great at times, but has struggled lately and i think a little time off to reset after everything he's been through this season would be great

summary: our midfield and defense have improved massively thanks to new signings and players rediscovering their best selves. our attack creates great chances, but overall struggles to finish consistently. but, overall, i'm impressed. we've lost a lot of crucial players over the past 2 years, mainly in the midfield and attack (literally all of our midfielders left) and to be in a title race this season is truly impressive.

have not spoken of klopp yet, but he is as animated as ever and his ability to reinvent this team and reenergize them is truly special. i know he's "the normal one" but what he does is the exact opposite.

if you read this whole thing thank you so much.....also you might be a little crazy

#lfc #liverpool fc #liverpool #carrie speaks tactics

[hairmetal666]

One day I'll stop thinking of steddie hcs because of Taylor Swift songs but not today, because, like. The line "to you I can admit that I'm just too soft for all of it" in Sweet Nothing is so Steve Harrington coded to me (CW// for implied child abuse/neglect)

Like, imagine lil baby Steve being this kind, caring kid who has his impulses towards good, towards softness forced out of him by his parents' expectations and the need to be like other boys, to perform the expected masculinity of a Midwestern golden boy.

And the worst part is that Steve likes not having to worry about anyone at first. It's a sort of freedom to give in to his basest impulses. Because the Steve of before, gentle Steve, felt everything so much. And now he knows the power, the breathtaking head rush, of not caring. He gets in trouble; mouths off at school; throws loud, messy parties; goes through girls like they're nothing, and it feels good.

Until it doesn't.

Until Nancy and Dustin and Robin. Until they start making him care again.

It's a slow return to self, like gaining consciousness after a night of binge drinking, and it hurts. Because not only are all the emotions-- the impulses towards love--crashing back into him, but so is the delayed onset guilt from his time as King; so is the trauma of averting yearly apocalypses. And Steve doesn't have any mental resilience towards this kind of pain.

And what if the only two people in the world who get it, who get Steve, are Robin and Eddie. To these two people, Steve tells the truth about becoming the boy he was before, the terrible one, the one who didn't care. He shares how easy it was, what a relief, to shed the burden of being a kindhearted boy in rural Indiana. He tells them how much it ached, back then, to do the simple, human, act of caring. How the coldness of his parents and the friends they approved of made him feel empty, made him think maybe he was unlovable, forced him to twist his very sense of self into a person he didn't recognize.

And Eddie and Robin. They know what it is to be softhearted in a place that awards hardness; a place that warped Steve's goodness into a mockery of the All-American Boy. They show him how to love with his whole self, uninhibited, but how to protect himself too. Because rediscovering his kind heart is one thing, but in a life that was privilege, money, a last name that meant something, Steve hasn't learned the kind of emotional resilience necessary to be open, vulnerable, kind.

It's with Eddie and Robin that Steve first accepts his softness, the parts of himself he learned to see as weak. And it's with them that he learns to find the strength in being a person in this world who is kind, who cares, who loves with his whole heart and without shame.

#steddie #steve x eddie #steddie headcanon #steve harrington #eddie munson #stobin #platonic stobin #platonic soulmates #stobin headcanons #robin buckley #platonic with a capital p #steve and robin friendship #taylor swift inspired #sweet nothing #steve harrington is a sweetheart #steve harrington has bad parents #headcanon

[pencildragon11]

recently I quit gaming

then I started cutting back on phone time and aimless scrolling. Very much a work in progress but I've been putting my phone away for hours at a time and rediscovering...space. time. freedom to think.

now I'm discovering that I never fully dealt with my binge eating habit. ready to let go of that, too. eager to let go of something I've always used for self-harm, but also there's a nervousness to saying goodbye to a coping strategy that's been an essential part of my life for a decade and a half.

what I'm trying to say is

been identifying addictive patterns and loosening myself from them one by one

and it's great

it feels real good

except right now, this week, it mostly feels like being depressed and down cause all the withdrawal whatevers are hitting me and I haven't built up all the new habits yet

got all this space in my head and I'm just walking around like it's an empty house I just moved into like

oh fuck this is gonna be a job of work

#original post #mental health #i guess #binge eating #idk tags whatever #personal growth

[random-xpressions]

There are two types of lovers: constrictive and constructive.

The first type are the ones who have a very weird mentality of control, of ownership, of possession. I'm not against these concepts but its all about the amounts with which you pursue these matters. Too much of anything will kill and these are no exception. These types of lovers literally reduce the scope of freedom and liberty of their loved ones in drastic measures either out of societal conditioning or because of their own inferiority or superiority complexes or perhaps even out of deep levels of insecurity. One feels very restrained, as though being strangled and it will feel like being trapped, chained and imprisoned. Such kind of "love" will make the loved one feel very small, insignificant and tamed. As if their wings have been clipped and are not fulfilling the purpose they were made of. Literally a gross injustice in the name of love.

The second type is its exact opposite. You don't constrict, you construct instead, you build together, you evolve together, you give the other a chance to grow, to rediscover oneself endlessly in all spectrums of life, allowing wholeheartedly the other to pursue things that create a spark in their lives, opening up the doors of explorations, creating a free platform for open minded dialogues and discussions and even healthy debates, if the need be, respecting the worldviews and alternate perspectives than an individual has full rights to. Such kind of love can be really boosting one's energy levels, bringing out the best in us because it allows one to roam freely in the vast expanse of life itself and all its endless experiences. It is the highest honour that could be accorded to a human in allowing them to be perfectly themselves without obliging them to any sort of trimmings or censorings, making them feel comfortable in their own skins, and creating an atmosphere that would make them feel home. Isn't that what love truly is supposed to do...?

Random Xpressions

#love #constrictive #constructive

[veronicathegoddess]

If you don't mind me asking, why are you single

i am single by choice. mainly because i don't want a relationship rn. my last relationship ended almost 7 months ago and i lost so much of myself when i was with that person that rn, i'm just content rediscovering and reinventing myself and doing all the things i couldn't before. i absolutely love love love who i'm becoming now and i don't want to give up that path of freedom i'm on to date someone. and if i were to date someone rn it wouldn't be for the right reasons.

but also i don't think i'm really ready for a relationship because of my last one. my ex was toxic and abusive and very very cruel and i left that relationship with problems that i'm still trying to work through and heal from and i don't want to bring that into a new relationship. and i was in a semi serious situationship that ended really badly a few weeks ago which set back my healing a bit and kinda brought back a lot of my trust issues and i need to heal from that as well before i try to date anyone.

like i could more than be in a relationship cause a lot of people are interested in me but i just don't think it's what i want or need at this moment

#ask answered