#It's painful to be reminded that she is

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Alas, this beautiful dream could not last.

#dungeon meshi #falin touden #dungeon meshi spoilers #better drawn mdzs #(<- my higher effort art tag. I need to get a new one.) While it's different from my usual style I really loved how this came out! #Strolling back to the art scene to remind everyone I am still a lover of botanicals. #I had a blast with the symbolism for this one: #White lilium longiflorum (easter lily) for rebirth. Purple hyacinthus orientalis for sorrow and forgiveness. #Red spider lily (Lycoris radiata) for loss and death. #'Rebirth into something new' is so well done in Dungeon Meshi. She is back but she is not the same. #The last few episodes/chapters gives her this dreamy quality to her. As if she's not quite real. She's so perfect in their memories. #And as we know of dreams - no matter how sweet- they must end once we wake up. #It is so painful to lose someone twice. To see someone you loved in a dream and wake up and remember that loss again. #Dungeon Meshi being a grief allegory is important to me. I'll explain more as the story continues B'*)

[claraoswalds]

The Girl Who Died // Hell Bent

#dwedit #doctor who #usertennant #userveronika #userteri #twelfth doctor #clara oswald #doctor x clara #twelveclara #* #I'M SICK OF LOSING PEOPLE. LOOK AT YOU WITH YOUR EYES AND YOUR NEVER GIVING UP AND YOUR ANGER AND YOUR KINDNESS. #ONE DAY THE MEMORY OF THAT WILL HURT SO MUCH THAT I WON'T BE ABLE TO BREATHE AND I'LL DO WHAT I ALWAYS DO. #I'LL GET IN MY BOX AND I'LL RUN AND I'LL RUN IN CASE ALL THE PAIN EVER CATCHES UP. AND EVERY PLACE I GO IT WILL BE THERE. #anyway idk if this makes sense outside of my head but the journey between like #she might meet someone she can't bear to lose -> gives her a second repair kit so she can make someone else immortal too -> #he can't bear to lose clara -> he brings her back from the dead which makes her functionally immortal -> #look how far i went for fear of losing you #ok actually i need to make a full parallel set. someone remind me to do that

[measuringbliss]

People are acting so weird and possessive of Markiplier for the whole OnlyFans situation. He's an adult. He's an adult who's been a celebrity for years. He knows people thirst on him. That's why he had this idea in the first place. He's not some naive kid you must protect. He's not some innocent soul that the evil sluts of Tumblr and Twitter will corrupt. He knows the Internet, he knows his fans and he knows his job.

He's an adult and he can make his own choices.

#Markiplier #I've seen quite a few comments expressing discomfort and like. You can just. Not subscribe to his OF???? #That's a possibility. You can block people too. #I think some of you really need to learn about parasocial relationships and reflect on it #He's not your dad #He's not your friend #He's just a dude #A dude who has a job and it just so happens that his job revolves around appearing personable #Don't forget that you don't truly know him and MORE IMPORTANTLY he doesn't know YOU #He probably has various ideas on xho his fans are as subgroups but he doesn't know you personally #Actually it reminds me of Maisee Williams in GoT s8 #People had seen her (the character and the actress) grow up over the years and when she decided she wanted to do a nude scene #A lot of people said they were uncomfortable #In both cases. They're adults. They can do whatever they want. #I guess that was a rant but sometimes I find the fandom really off-putting #Deactivated reblogs because the RBs were getting boring and a pain

[ineedtherapydesperately]

need more chaggie wing fics where charlie is just absolutely obsessed w vaggie's wings like look at her face

she's obsessed and with good reason too

#chaggie #hazbin hotel #vaggie #charlie morningstar #do i need to cook my own food #please im just a struggling uni student #feed me before im forced to feed myself #okay but imagine charlie just absolutely mooning over vaggie's wings and vaggie is just embarrassed as hell #like charlie i appreciate this attention and i love you but what are you doing they're just wings #omg and the angst potential of vaggie just hiding her wings 24/7 bc they remind her of her dark exterminator past #but then she gets wing pains and cramps #and charlie finds out and then helps her preen but her heart is absolutely breaking for vaggie bc vaggie shouldn't need to hide this #ugh the endless potential for angst and hurt comfort #this is a need not a want #hazbin vaggie #hazbin charlie

[yuhi-san]

I’ve seen a few posts pointing out how stampede vash lacks the anger that 98 and especially trimax vash has. Which is true.

And it is important. Because vash isn’t the too morally strong or good or kind to be angry or whatever. Vash has a lot of rage about a lot of things. he chooses to be kind despite it rather than not being angry at all.

His sheer determination to not give into anger and choosing kindness over and over again is very important to who he is.

(personally I think that while tristamp vash went through a lot already too, he simply has not quite reached that point)

What I haven’t really seen are post pointing out that stampede vash, unlike 98 and trimax vash, does not cry.

Vash cries a lot. Some of it is for the comedy and because he is dramatic like that and also he isn’t above trying to get pity that way (with little success lol).

But he also cries a lot just… because. I don’t know how to explain it.

Like vash has no shame or inhibition to cry when that’s what he feels. Not gonna lie, I know trimax mostly from spoilers so far (shame on me) but especially in 98 vash cries very freely. He cries when he thinks he will have to watch that ex-mob boss or whatever being shot. Cries after killing, cries after monev kills all these people and he wants to shot him but wont. And so so many more.

Like that time he just suddenly drops his donuts and cries in the middle of the street.

Vash is friendly and sociable on a surface level but he has cut himself off from so much. Keeps so many things on the inside. Crying seems the one thing he doesn’t hold back on. Maybe his only genuine outlet for the pain.

Vash hides his scars, his pain and much more but he never hides his tears.

Vash, in 98 even says ‘is there something wrong with that?’ when the kids note that he is crying despite being an adult.

In contrast to that, stampede vash never really cries. He even states that he doesn’t deserve to.

We see him shed tears just once, at the very end when it becomes clear to him that he can’t save nai and that his brother and him have grown so far apart that he barely recognizes him anymore. He sheds silent tears for nai, for them, at what he certainly believed to be the very end.

Stampede vash is not only a lot more timid than his counterpart but seems overall more repressed and and emotionally dulled/exhausted

#this reminds me that trimax and 98 vash as children would just follow knives around for a looong time with no agency of his own #vash cryinf after dropping the donuts kills me every time #i dont know how to say it but how vashs crying is handles compared to many other protags hits different #it feels more like seeing vash's pain and distress #and less like a visual reminder to the audience that this is a tragic situation #am i making sense? #maybe i am also just a little biased #also adding to this johnny young bosh was so good in that dub #none of the words vor abgestumpft seem quite right hmm #trigun #trimax #tristamp #vash the stampede #trigun 98 #he also tries crocodil tears on meryl but she shot that down when he was barely a sniffle in so there is that lol

[cobaltfluff]

wherein akechi avoids looking at his reflection as he sees too much of his mother in his own appearance

#p5r #akeshu #art tag #i saw a post and i was like #yes ... this is my jam... the pain.. is delicious #anyway i agree i think he has his mother's looks #and every time he sees his reflection it reminds him too much of her #how she was probs the only one to love him #and he fears how disappointed she'd be in the person he's become ?? #anyway i dont know the canon very well #i have too many of my own headcanons and they're basically just my ocs at this point LOL

[ask-unpleasant]

she approaches u wyd....

I HAVE CRIPPLING BADBITCHOPHOBIA GET ME OUTTA HERE

#but in all seriousness i LOVE this character #she reminds me of sapphire from su #although she was a bit of a pain to draw. i toughed it out. #regretevator #regretevator roblox #regretevator unpleasant #roblox regretevator

[furiosophie]

i've read a lot of incredible posts about the intricacies of andor but the one thing that rly fucks me up personally, from a character perspective, is how everything cassian does, every little thing, is driven by his emotions, his actions are steeped in them, dripping with feeling

and yet we know rogue one opens with him shooting someone in cold blood, and one of his central conflicts with jyn is him constantly pushing back against her instincts, bc she, just like he used to be, is nothing if not governed by her emotions

and it makes you realize that this is where this is going, that to survive as long as he did, and to be as effective as he was, he had to shut that emotional part of himself off, and that that last shot where he looks at luthen with tears in his eyes is his first step of doing just that, his first step into making his mind too, a sunless place

#andor #andor spoilers #and it makes it so much more painful that jyn brings that side out in him again #that she reminds him why he started fighting in the first place #gosh this show #star wars #cassian andor #what a show

[regallibellbright]

So anyway I randomly made myself sad again thinking about an immortal dragon god who knows they’re going to outlive their mortal friends, and makes peace with it, but likewise makes peace with the idea that, when the time comes and the land needs rejuvenating, they’ll die and eventually a new dragon god will be born in their place.

Only then their best friend says “No. You’re not dying,” and agrees to be used as a component for a spell that will bind them to the land instead and, essentially, die. (Sure, there’s a chance someone in the future will figure out how to provide runes without this, and there’s a chance that the spell can be reversed and they’ll be awakened. Sure. This spell almost certainly was not tested, especially since it’s implied that part of what makes it work IS the Guardian’s friendship with Venti so you couldn’t just run a test case and then un-monster them to prove awakening is possible.)

This happens four times. Centuries apart. Time enough to grieve, and distance yourself from mortals, and be lured into the idea again because people are just so interesting, until inevitably your best friend disappears again, probably forever, and you know it was your fault.

Eight hundred years is such a long time, and that’s the LOWER estimate for Leon.

It’s really no wonder that dragon’s depressed.

#rune factory #rune factory 4 #rf4 #ventuswill #food mention #in the tags #anyway also ever think about how Dolce makes accessories for people she loves? #ever think about how even well-cared-for fabric’s unlikely to last 600 years? #ever think about how Venti’s neutral on literally all accessories and weapons? #she doesn’t dislike them. but she only likes food. food is generally not meant to outlive the chef or the farmer. #food will not make you sad when the person who made it is gone #whether because the reminder’s too painful or because you’ve outlived every trace of your best friend’s existence #Guardian Angst: The gift that keeps on giving!

[dennisboobs]

It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia

↳ Chardee MacDennis: The Game of Games // The Gang Goes Bowling

#iasip #it's always sunny in philadelphia #dennis reynolds #sunny sweet 16 #LISTEN TO ME. LISTEN TO ME. IT HAS ALWAYS BEEN THE SAME DENNIS. HE WAS NEVER EMOTIONLESS. #YOU JUST HAVE TO WATCH HIM. #the ONLY reason he didnt react during chardee macdennis is because their win was riding on it #the sunny wiki for so long saying this was proof of him being emotionless or somehow Immune To Pain #when he is LITERALLY WINCING AND SAYING OW AFTER THE FACT #it's the exact same thing as what mac and charlie were talking about with dee during emotional battery #she can get through that and then cry once theyve won. dennis can take a dart to the hand and be visibly in pain afterwards #and also i imagine breaking every bone in his hand is probably more painful than a dart jdsfkjsv #ada speaks #ada's gifs #I DIDNT WANT TO REBLOG SUNNYKEYSMASH'S POST IN CASE IT CAME OFF AS INFLAMMATORY BUT IM HAVING FEELINGS ABOUT THIS COMPARISON SO UH SHOUTOUT #EDIT: CONTEXT WAS NOT THAT SUNNYKEYSMASH CLAIMED HE WAS EMOTIONLESS I JUST WAS INSPIRED AFTER SEEING A POST #i was mad at dudebros using the dart scene as evidence for him being a sociopath and it just reminded me jshvfkjsd

[flareboi]

what if purple never calls him dad

#what if the word ‘dad’ is something purple doesn’t like. #what if it carries a bad connotation for them and a bitter reminder for mango. #family doesnt always have to look like one thing yknow? i dont think those two would have a traditional dynamic in that way #maybe purple does consider him their parent. they just dont call him ‘dad’ unless its in third person #and theyre fine with that and so is he #king is his father figure yes but he’s also a mom. a big brother. a sister. their dynamic just isnt captured in purple calling him ‘dad’ #maybe his name is the best way they can say it. the best way they can appreciate him #because for purple a father is someone who hurts you. someone who leaves you #i think ‘purple calls him dad on accident’ is a cute idea #but honestly it would make more sense if they called him mom on accident instead. or if it happened when they were afraid. not comfortable #(this is presuming orchid is his mother and navy his father based on the pronouns used in the react vids iirc) #because why would purple refer to someone he sees as a parent with the title of the one that presumably did not raise them? #and on mangos end #i think u can kinda tell who in this fandom has never lost a loved one in how they characterize him #guys. grief doesnt leave. it never leaves. #you just learn to live with it!!! #mango is not okay just because he has a new kid to take care of. i would know this my bio mom passed and i have a stepmother!!! #she does not fill that void and i do not expect her to because it cannot be filled. but she brings a lot new to ease the pain and is a #wonderful part of my life #the same thing here #mango will never ever just .. go back to how he was #he will never be the same since gold died. and thats okay #purple will not change that. they will merely add something new #their dynamic can be beautiful and nontraditional and a showing of how grief can change you #it doesnt have to be ‘replacement dad and replacement son’ #its so much more #oke. tag rant over #fett rambles #ava #uhh should i tag the chars

[hgduo]

I"m not caught up yet at all but I'm gonna make a Bold claim...

... I could fix her...

#and by fix her i mean hold his hand- also multipronon madagio real to me #ive been gone for like 2 days and feel like i missed 500 million things???????????????????? #too tired to vodwatch rn but this is the vibe so far- 'xe locked fitmc into a corpse hole!' we all cope in different ways okay- #qsmp #madagio #(but anyway they are a very interesting character to me so far esp. as a darker foil to fit + the others but not straight up antag either) #(excited to dig more into them when im not zonked out on pain and/or pain meds lmao) #(she reminds me of the rebels but more intense + more personal so far)

[immediatebreakfast]

Another thing that is surprising for this entry; even more if we take into account the year where this novel is situated, is how Mina after reading every single tragedy that Jonathan saw, and concluded that something very horrible happened to Jonathan to be at the state he is today.

Not madness, nor insanity, nor dellusions. Mina doesn't know if everything written is true, but she is absolutely sure that whatever happened in Transylvania left a deep mental scar on her beloved Jonathan.

She read how this Man practically tortured Jonathan for months. The days of lizard fashion, and the stealing of your visage. The wolves tearing a mother apart because she cried for her baby who was violently eaten by the Weird Sisters. Opening a door to see dozens of wolves ready to kill you. How the light of the moon isn't even safe in the castle. The isolation, the darkness, the mind games, the doubt.

All of the times that Jonathan wrote her name like it was a prayer because god didn't grace the castle. The Weird Sisters almost successful plan of seducing Jonathan to kill him.

This is the victorian era, we know how the mentally ill are treated and seen by society. How they are pushed to dig even further to try and escape the abuse at the hands of an uncaring, and dehumanizing system.

Mina nevers blames Jonathan for nothing, nor expresses disgust or anger, or dissapointment, or anything negative for his actions. Mina's conclusion is Jonathan went through something horrible, and that the Man responsible for the suffering of her husband is in London walking as if nothing had happened.

And something has to be done about that.

#Reminder that if Jonathan didn't had Mina and somehow had survived to reach england he would be with Renfield or worse #Renfield has no support system no social standing nothing and that is why he is so vulnerable to manipulation #This is why Mina's reaction to Jonathan is so compassionate #She is ready to fight whoever caused Jonathan so much pain #dracula daily #dracula #mina harker #mina murray

[askthebadkidz]

Riz would kill the other Bad Kids in a heartbeat for any reason (possession, evil, etc) and it’s considered (one of) his form(s) of love this is not a joke post this is canon.

-Fig Mod

#fantasy high #d20 #dimension 20 #I need to remind everyone that Riz is a knight that is very solemnly doing his job #He puts a gun to Adaines head when she’s reading from a book in the nightmare forest btw #It’s semi a joke but also it’s not and it’s been rattling around in my brain #His lack of social skills aren’t the problem it’s the fact that he doesn’t actually care in a way anyone understands #To him caring is killing or hurting people or doing something terrible like eating someone alive shooting someone’s fingers off biting #An eye out of a man’s head. To him care and love is brutal and unforgiving and gross. #I know I’m over analyzing but man. Riz Gukgak. #Riz Gukgak and love being painful for everyone involved

[fanstuffrantings]

Concept: elf tav who is just under 300, all of her children died as adventurers or guards. Her husband and her became vastly different people in the wake of all the grief. They havent spoken in years, incapable of existing around each other before breaking down. The journey after the crash she keeps seeing shadows her kids in the various party members and as such she desperately wants to help them. Save them in ways she couldn't for her own children. A pillar of love and guidance because her children may be gone, but she will always be a mother.

#molten rambles #bg3 #hugging karlach tightly when her engine slightly stabalizes and losing sleep trying to research a cure #chastising gale for thinking he should kill himself and repeating constantly that he does matter #giving shadowheart the love she missed out on and encouraging her to save her parents #knowing if she had the chance shed bear any pain to keep her kids with her #knowing astarion is trying to manipulate her with a lust she doesnt have for him but holding his hand gently as comfort #being aware that arguing with Lae'zel won't help her but that she can figure things out with guidance #getting into a verbal sparring match with duke ravengard because “how dare you toss out your son” #delighting in the tiefling kids and even thinking their chaos is a bit funny because it reminds her of old times #she'd be best friends with Jaheira #dote on minsc #and in general find Halsin's presence very calming while she invites him to have tea #dont feel like replaying the game cause im mid jubilee run #but i think ill sketch her up #oh man imagine her trying to talk down astarion and failing #how disappointed shed be in any of the companions willingly ascending

[glimblshanks]

I rewatched the season two final recently and Mariner literally like,,, slides up to Ransom while telling the bridge crew about Freeman's transfer and steals his drink and sips from it and he just takes it back like it doesn't even bother him, he doesn't seem grossed out by it at all. Is this just normal for these two? Are they really truly 'share drinks without asking' levels of comfortable with each other? It's making me insane

#lower decks #beckett mariner #jack ransom #marisom #someone had to CHOOSE to animate that you know? #I mean I'm sure whoever included that in the show #meant it as a like 'oh look at Mariner being a pain in the ass and taking his drink' sort of thing #but I'm sorry if my Platonic Coworker I Didn't Like Very Much came over and took my drink during a work function #and drank from it in front of me #I would be Having Words About That #and I certainly wouldn't be taking the fucking drink back afterwards #like what are they doing? #this is not platonic coworkers behavior #also the way she sits right up against his side #and he doesn't move away #but he does kind of aggressively remind her that he's her commander before taking the drink back #like it gives 'these two people are keeping a relationship on the DL and she forgot to put on the act for their coworkers for a minute' #idk I KNOW I have shipping brain worms #I know I'm reading into this too much #but I didn't catch this scene at all my first time watching it and it's making me crazy #like hello??? I can't be the only one seeing this right?