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twilitty · 2 years
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nivtee · 11 months
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ˏˋ°•*⁀➷ HELP. jacob black
jacob black x gn!reader
sad and emotional ! suicide ! self harm ! pain ! jealousy !
you were always quiet, never asked for help.
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it was almost ironic, really.
standing at the edge of the cliff, dressed in your nicest dress with your nails painted and makeup done. no doubt they'd take it all off when you were found - if you were found.
you couldn't help it, the ache in your chest easing slightly as you rubbed the silk of your dress between your fingers.
you had tried, of course you did, therapists and counselors, nothing ever helped the pain that sat in the back of your head. going to school on the reserve was okay, you had a few friends, but never did you think you'd be pushed to this point.
you felt it before he did, you think, the way you held your eyes against his and felt a tug in your chest, as though your centre of gravity changed. he'd gone through his changes, spending less time with you after getting sick and cutting his hair.
jacob black was one of your closest friends, and you'd loved him for years. you had no problem admitting it, you were sure he already knew, which is why he'd spent so much time away from you recently.
rubbing your hand over your arms, trying to protect yourself from the cold, all you felt was the goosebumps that littered between the scars travelling up your arm. they were red, irritated and scabbed over, fresh but now brand new.
you couldn't help it. after jake had come back from his week off school, and your eyes had pierced his own, he stopped speaking to you all together. every day felt like pain, as though your intestines were being torn out of your body and you couldn't stop it.
with your stomach open and your bodily functions failing, the only thing that distracted you was the constant burn of your blood running down your arms.
you were sure he knew, you'd sent him a text before you left and let him know what you were doing.
you were sick, in many ways. the cough rattling in your throat, your chest constricting with every breath, your lips dry and cracked. no doctors appointment or medication could fix this.
hearing a sudden chime from your phone, it had been the only one to distract your focus. quickly pulling yourself away from the edge of the cliff, you picked up your phone from the pile of your belongings.
as soon as you had, you dropped it, your body collapsing to the ground and a scream cutting through your throat. it was as though your energy left your body, as though you were helpless and stuck on the ground for someone to find and kill; like prey.
you pulled yourself towards the edge of the cliff, nails aching with the dirt, grime and sticks poking and prodding them. your pretty dress covered in mud and dirt, torn by rocks and scratches over your legs. you hadn't worn shoes, maybe you should have.
you didn't think about that, not as you pulled yourself over the edge, pummeling towards the water crashing against the rocks at the bottom of the cliff. you didn't think about the howls you heard, the wind rushing through your ears or the heartbeat that sounded in your chest.
all you thought about was the text you'd received, it had come from his phone but not from jake.
'he's with bella.'
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littlespidermonkey · 4 months
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I think in the universe where the Cullens aren't in Forks, Bella Swan takes a while to come out of her shell, but when she does, she's witty and passionate and smart as a whip, even if she's still quiet and reserved. She sits with Jessica Stanley, who demands the best of everyone, and tells her friends about her boyfriend down on the rez, who is sweet and caring and funny and good with his hands, who works for everything he's ever had.
After class, during a sleepover, Bella whispers to tell Angie and Jess about the night after prom, even though her father, loving and careless, worries about her only a normal amount and loves Jacob Black like his own. When she gets into Dartmouth--all by herself, through study sessions in garages and with Jessica and in Angela's house--she chooses to go to Stanford instead. She misses the heat and light on her skin, even after falling in love with the rain. Jessica comes with her; Angela and Eric go to U of Washington in Seattle instead, for education and journalism respectively.
Bella makes sure to call every week and then one day she drives down to Seattle and her boyfriend, warm like the sun she loves and at least twice as reliable, becomes her fiancé. The ring isn't especially big or ornate or pricey, but the way she smiles could trick anyone into thinking that it was. All of her friends, new and old, are waiting at the small party afterwards, and Bella laughs the entire time. The engagement cake--chocolate, her favourite--is sweet and moist against her tongue.
She moves back to Forks once she gets her masters in information sciences and becomes the town's librarian. She gets married a month before the move, barefoot in the surf and her old prom dress, both her parents weeping with joy and Billy Black beaming damn near as bright as his son, Sue Clearwater holding his hand.
She raises her kids --both beautiful children, blessed with Jake's thick, long hair--with Angela and Eric's and takes them down to Los Angeles to visit their auntie Jess and her husband Quil, who lavishes them with gifts from her career as a top surgeon. She jokes about having to support Quil's career as an environmental lawyer and displays each and every one of his wins alongside her diplomas. When William Black II decides he wants to be a doctor too, she writes him a shining letter of recommendation to her alma mater. Sarah, who has always been the spitting image of her father, joins and eventually takes over Jacob's mechanic shop.
On occasion, Bella fights with Jacob, even though he's the love of her life. Despite this, she is never afraid of him, and he never stops her from doing what she wants. Instead, he goes out and works on his cars and comes back in an hour later with slightly greasy hands and a bouquet of flowers from Emily Young's little garden, planted to celebrate her cousin Leah Uley's wedding. Bella makes him muffins, recipe courtesy of Sue and missing bites courtesy of Seth, Colin, Sarah, Will, and Claire, with raspberries, not blueberries, just how Jake likes them. They make up, and they make changes, and they go on.
Eventually, both slower and quicker than she realizes, Bella gets old. She lives in fear of losing herself, of losing her husband and her children, like her grandmother had. But she remembers her grandkids to the very end, even gets to meet her first great-grandchild a week before it happens. Her heart gives out before her brain does, too weak and too slow.
It was too full of love, the letter from Jacob says. Sarah reads it. Her father passed a day after his wife--simply too heartbroken to live without her. Much of the town of Forks and hordes of family attend their funeral, remembering a life well lived.
It is an unremarkable life, in the grand scheme of things. She does not live to be a thousand; she is no great beast, with speed like the wind and strength; she does not discover her powers or lead a great defiance. Bella Black, happy and human and surrounded by love, could never imagine wanting anything else.
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Day 21- Clothed sex with Jake Jensen
463 words
18+ only! NO MINOR INTERACTIONS
Kinktober masterlist
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A/N: so...ehm how do you feel about a little sub!jake jensen?
ENJOY
Cloudy
Don't be shy to comment, reblog or like! :)
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TW: so... smut obvsssss, oral (reader receiving), dom/sub dynamic (reader = mistress, Jake =good boy, pretty boy). Horndogs
not beta read, english is not my first language, all mistakes are my own
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You were suffocating in the little hiding place you found with Jake. And he couldn’t stop brushing you.
“Can you stop moving?”, you whisper yell.
“No, I’m not comfortable. You can’t understand you’re tiny.”
You turn and smack his chest. “I’m not tiny!”
When you see his smirk, you realise that he’s messing with you and you explode, hitting his chest and kicking. He holds you close, making you unable to move.
“Please, stop doing that” he whines.
“Why” you ask throught greeted teeth.
He pushes his hips, and you feel his hard on.
“Ew, jake, really?”
“Sorry, but you’re so close to me for like what…4 hours, you smell divine, and you know I love when you get feisty.”  
You giggle and hide in his neck.
“My god, you’re such an horndog, Jakey.”
He chuckles and kisses down your neck. “tell me you don’t like it.”
You cup him above his pants. “I don’t like it…I love it”. You kiss him passionately and you start to hump each other. Jake pants after one minute, he grabs your curves and flushes against you.
“I need more, please… mistress.”
“shhh, shhh, take off your pants, leave the boxers on.” He does it and looks at you take off your pants too. “Now” you spread your legs “Fuck me.”
He looks at you dumbfounded. “How, we still have clothes on.”
“I know, and that’s the point, you’re gonna make a mess in your boxers” you smirk, and he moans.
“Yes, mistress”
He positions himself between your legs and finds your entrance and he starts to thrust. “yeah, just like that, good boy.” He pants above you, his glasses are slipping of his nose, he’s frowning in concentration.
“Mistress, I miss being inside you.”
“Soon, baby boy. When we are done with the mission, you can spend an entire day inside me. I promise.”
He moans a bit too loud and bites his lip. “Fuck, mistress, you still feel good, so warm.”
He humps harder and faster between your legs, a dark patch on his grey boxers, your panties aren’t any better, but fuck he looks depraved, and you love to see him like this, horny and desperate to feel you.
“My pretty boy, cum for your mistress and you can taste her and make her cum after. How’s that sound?”
His answer is a moan and him spurting his seeds in his boxers. He’s sweaty, his glasses have fog on it and he’s quick to go down on your, slide your panties to the side and sucks on your clit, then his tongue goes in, and he fucks you with it, making you cum in seconds, he drinks everything you give him.
“woah” he whispers resting his head on your thigh.
You giggle “yeah, woah.”
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storiestoreid · 1 year
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Jacob Black X Mike Newton
“You’ve got that whole pretty-boy ray of sunshine thing going on.”
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chrisdrysdale · 1 year
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Farmland sweetness AU
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fics!
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bucky x his honey
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𐀔 - Honey love (f,s)
steve x his love
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𐀔 - the first taste (s, f, a)
ari x his babygirl
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𐀔 - comings soon..
tony x his sweetheart
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𐀔 - first love (f)
𐀔 - young morning (f, s)
jake x his angel
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𐀔 - comings soon..
wandanat x their gorgeous
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𐀔 - comings soon..
drabbles!
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𐀔 - ari finding out that honey belongs to bucky
𐀔- pumpkin patches and craving with steve
𐀔 - scary fireworks with jake
𐀔- getting your period with bucky
𐀔 - finding out you’re having a baby with tony
𐀔 - horse riding with wanda
𐀔 -wandanat finding you cleaning in their clothes
𐀔 - protective farmer!bucky
𐀔 - tony and his wife have a baby!
𐀔 - motorcycle riding with steve
𐀔 - jake's angel is shy!
𐀔 - you’re clumsy with wandanat’s honey
mood boards!
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𐀔 - weekends with farmer!steve
𐀔 - halloween with farmer!steve
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lizzielovesmovies · 11 months
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Boredom can lead to beautiful things
Lo’ak on Mike was made by tiktok credit in bottom right corner
Sparkles and text made my me :)
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personalheroin · 11 months
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Where Fear Ends - Chapter 1
Story summary:
Bella realizes she wants nothing to do with the Cullens or the marriage at the wedding. She runs. Right into Jacob's arms (metaphorically. it's a slow burn, sorry.)
Excerpt:
The yard was decorated beautifully, lights hung up all around the trees and Edward was at the arch. Jacob. Jacob. Jacob. Jacob. My mind was flooded. I didn’t want this, I never wanted this. Marriage at 18 was never in my plans or the idea of my life. Jacob never would have put an ultimatum on me as Edward has. Did I even truly want to be a vampire? Did I want to be with this man for the rest of my life? My parents flooded my mind, and I looked at Renee who was four margaritas deep and excited for my marriage. I looked at Charlie who looked at me, his presence comforting, the one true person on my side right now. I looked down at my feet, grateful for wearing Converse, and back up to my father. “Go.” He whispered. Alice’s head snapped up, a vision flooding her mind, my vision. I yanked my dress up and sprinted in the opposite direction, toward where my body felt the reservation would be. The forest floor was covered in sticks and uneven ground which is my archnemesis. I had been slipping and sliding since I entered the forest, mud covering the bottom of my dress.
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Emily is a nature-loving, cottage-core icon and I will hear nothing else.
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svidie · 2 years
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rereading eclipse right now and i totally forgot that the whole reason that edward wants bella to go see renee at that specific time has less to do with him wanting her to see her mom before graduation and more to do with him keeping her away from a family dinner that charlie and her are supposed to have with jacob's family in la push. and they completely leave that detail out of the movie. holy shit i hate eclipse edward so much.
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autumnala · 1 year
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The dog day are over (so you better run)
summary: As Bella prepares for her wedding, she tries desperately to outrun the memory of Jake and that pesky thing tying them inextricably together.
a/n: Inspired by, and composed to the song Dog Days Are Over by Florence + the Machine (linked in case anyone wants to listen while they read, idk)
(Not usually one to post fanfic here. But this is where the Jake and Bella brain worm truly took me over again, so it seems only appropriate. Much love to all the intrepid Jake and Bells shippers out there. )
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Jacob where have you run off to?
“What do you think of this one? Bella? Bella?”
I pulled my eyes back to Alice guiltily. She was holding up a mass of pale blue and greens and whites.
“Um flowers?”
“For the bouquet?” Alice laughs and it tinkled, lifting my heart like a hymnal.
“Um… I always liked…” Dark green like the forest, sage like the succulents in Arizona, red like the dirt there, red like his fur. Yellow as the sun…
“These will go so well with the wedding colors. You’ve always looked so great in blue.”
“Yeah, I guess so.”
I’m focusing everything I can on the wedding now.
I never even wanted a wedding. But it’s what I have to focus on.
In that beautiful meadow, that perfect dream, it felt so right. I would bind myself in every way possible to Edward, because there was nothing else I could do. Our love story is fate, it’s inescapable. It’s destiny.
But now I see Jacob everywhere.
He’s running alongside my old truck, which Edward’s going to replace any day now, as I trundle along the highway.
His long, beautiful hair is disappearing around every corner just at the edge of my sight.
I’m so tired of telling you good-bye.
I love him too much - even if it wasn’t enough.
I let that string tying our two hearts together pull too tight. And now every night I’m running after him in my dreams. I wake up tired.
I can’t hold onto that though. That echoing of emotion and sense of being kindred. I just can’t let it go either. The thought of that thread breaking terrifies me in a way I cannot quite understand.
But Edward is everything. He’s the gravitational force of my life. He’s in my veins and I need him. If nothing else, I’ve learned that, haven’t I?
He’s taken me into his world, his fairytale forever.
How could I ever be sufficiently grateful for the miracle of him choosing me?
It’s all over, with Jacob, with the wolves, with walks on that grey beach, and that shabby- warm house by the sea.
Sometimes, when I’m running in my dreams, I run straight into the sea.
And Edward’s beautiful face is still in front of me, and I’m freezing and sinking.
But I remember now, too. It has to be more than a dream, because I can feel the rightness of it in my bones. Like sunlight.
Jacob’s warm hand, grasping mine. Pulling me upwards into the light. Pushing air back into my lungs.
As easy as breathing.
The dress Alice picks for me is the whitest white I’ve ever seen. Simple, which I like. Clean lines, form fitting. Fashionable, I assume. It doesn’t look like something I would choose at all. But it looks like a good dress for the kind of person Edward should marry.
Edward doesn’t come along with us on the wedding errands, on Alice’s orders, of course. And because that’s the tradition. He wants the magic of this our (first) wedding. For me, of course. I’ll appreciate it later, I know.
Jacob would have gone dress shopping with you, a traitorous voice whispers to me while I’m flipping the idly through a magazine with a hundred glossy photos of wedding things that all blur together. He would have laughed at all the ruffles you hated and told you to get something comfortable. He’d know-
I turn a page sharply, glancing as each car passes by down the street. My cereal is turning to mush next to my magazine.
What am I looking for again?
Oh, right. Hair styles. Charlie hears me sigh and I can feel him looking at me for a long moment.
We had our longest argument ever when I told him I was getting married to Edward.
Now he doesn’t say anything, but I feel him watching me as I try to project happiness.
Edward is everything I want. He’s perfect.
Jacob is in the past.
Edward is kind and understanding. Only he hates my truck, and he’s baffled when I don’t want to listen to music, even his. He wishes I’d let him replace the truck, and all my shabby things with better ones. I should appreciate that.
I forgot that it was Jacob who always knew how I worked without me telling him. Who knew things I never told anyone. I never knew how that would feel (like coming home after a long day).
But Edward loves how I always surprise him, how he doesn’t know what I’m thinking. I’m a mystery to him. The only one in the whole world. A miracle. I’ve never been a miracle before. It seems important.
Will I still be a mystery when I’m not human anymore? If he heard my thoughts, would they live up to the me that he loves?
I’m so so happy, so ready to be perfected. Finally, Edward and I will be on equal footing.
He kisses me so chastely and so sweetly - like I might shatter. And I can feel that feeling, sinking into my bones. I feel fragile and delicate and quiet now.
I glance up quickly when I hear a boisterous laugh in the market, then glance to where Edward’s face is tilted, as he looks at me, just ever so slightly, his expression mild and tender. I can feel my face flushing and a thousand expressions battling on my face. He shakes his head lightly, and guilt flashes through me.
Not Jacob. Did he know I hoped it might be Jacob, just for a second?
How can I stop looking for him though?
He’s everywhere. Around every corner. Every growl of an engine.
He’s every sunrise.
But as long as I keep moving I can forget that he’s gone. I’m moving into the future. With Edward. My perfect forever.
And Jacob and that cozy, ramshackle garage, and warm sodas, and motorcycles, and jokes about getting old are in the past. They have to be.
I’ll run so far and so fast as a vampire that that cord will surely break.
It’s what I should want, of course.
But the thought fills me with dread.
Until your heart stops beating.
“Bella? Bella?” Alice’s voice trills, exasperated.
I realize I am running my finger slowly over the little carved wolf hanging from my wrist. Petting it.
When I open my eyes, light reflecting off the diamond heart blinds me for a second.
“Sorry,” I say. My finger hasn’t moved from the little wooden figure.
I look up and Alice looks concerned, confused, hopeful. She’s only trying to help. I wish I could forget, like her. Forget my human life, forget everything but the perfect, sparkling future.
Rosalie is looking at me too, with pity. I can’t hold her eyes.
I could never be sufficiently grateful to Edward for him choosing me. I could never choose him enough to make up for everything he went through for me.
For the miracle of snatching him back when it seemed hopeless.
Vampires don’t sleep, so soon I won’t have to worry about dreaming anyway.
I wake up gasping, again, and I know immediately that Edward is there.
But he’s not the one I am chasing after in my dreams.
Despite myself I think of the spring, when I told Jacob we could run away together.
Just the two of us, driving toward the sun.
I could have saved him, my Jacob.
One day he won’t be your Jacob anymore.
I can’t bear that thought; I just can’t.
“Bella,” Edward says, still the most beautiful voice in existence, a pleasant, intoxicating anesthetic. “Why are you crying?”
I didn’t notice I was, but it’s true. Soft round teardrops are dropping onto my bedspread.
“I don’t know,” I tell him, honestly. What else can I say?
He comes to my bedside and crouches down, pushing my sleep mussed hair back from my face.
His eyes look dark to me, in my dark room. Despite the darkness, up close he is so beautiful that it makes me feel like my heart will burst, like my brain is short circuiting. I should trust this. Look how he makes (almost) everything disappear.
“Don’t be scared, my love,” he murmurs to me. His hand ghosts across my hair, gentle as a breeze. I wish he would grab me hard enough that I could feel it. Maybe that would wring these feelings from my bones for good. I lean up to kiss his mouth, trying to pull the honeyed sweetness of him into me. He kisses me back, gently and full of love, and for a moment his hands clasp my shoulders more firmly, hard enough that I feel held together. But only for a moment before he is setting me carefully back, breathing just a little harder.
When he’s kissing me everything is clear, it all makes sense, this path I’ve set myself on. My blood rushes in my ears. But when he sets me away it feels like lead is trickling into my heart. Cold molten dragging me down.
And I’ll sink too fast to swim.
Some nights I think about how he isn’t going to come the next time I fall in the dark.
I think it quietly though, hoping Edward thinks I am asleep.
Why did I never know how to love him when he was here?
One night, when Edward is gone hunting, and I can’t quite bring myself to close the window, I hear it.
A howling wolf.
Have they been howling all this time and I just haven’t heard them?
I hold up my bracelet to look at it over my head. There’s barely any moonlight to glint off of the diamond heart and without that dazzling light I look at the little wolf, head tilted back, rough edges smoothed by the stroke of my fingers.
I can see Jacob carving him in my head. His large hands were always so careful and deft, whatever he was handling. It’s a beautiful little wolf. Not flawless and unchanging, but still perfect, even as I imagine how he’ll be worn smooth by the years, how he’ll eventually turn to dust.
I can’t say what I’m thinking next. I’m not thinking anything at all when I get out of bed, throwing on any clothes I can grab.
I look at my truck for a long moment. But no. If I take the truck everyone will know…know something, it will be a decision, so instead I turn the other way and walk into the woods.
There’s no way I can walk far enough.
But I can’t think about that; I can’t decide. I never could. All I have left is this instinct and this yearning I cannot name.
So I run.
I’m not a graceful runner, I’m not fast. But I run and I run and I don’t stop. Even when my chest aches, then screams.
Everytime I hear a wolf howling I turn and run toward the sound.
It’s so dark, with only the moon overhead, and the stars.
I run until I can’t anymore, until I fall, until I see the sun peaking over the edge of the hill ahead.
I smile at that line of sunrise.
My face is wet, with tears and sweat. Probably blood.
I feel like I’ve been scoured, weak and yet relieved as if I’ve emerged from a long fever.
A large shadow looms over me.
It’d be too perfect if it was him, but I laugh up at the sight anyway. It’s Leah and she looks like she wants to bite me. But all I can feel is happiness. Incandescent joy blooming deep in my chest while I lie there laughing weakly into her golden, furry, face.
I shrug at the wolf, what can I say?
I try to stand but collapse. My legs have run as far as they can.
Leah makes a wolfish grumbling sound and sits and watches me. I fall asleep while the sun is rising and don’t dream of anything. Who knows how long.
I can’t quite come fully awake, but I feel warm arms lifting me up. Familiar arms.
I lift my eyelids for the barest moment before the fall again, fluttering against my effort to lift them.
Jacob, backlit by the sun, is more beautiful than I remember. Maybe he always was.
Not like a dream or a vision. He looks like home.
I sigh, eyes still heavy and closed.
Jacob doesn’t say anything at all.
“There you are. I was looking for you, you know.” I tell him weakly.
He snorts.
“Do you know,” I try again, forcing my eyes open to look into his face. My eyes stream at the sight but I don’t blink to clear them. “If I was going to run away with anyone, I think it’d be you too, Jake.” I think about that, watching a stormy dawn break across his face. “Only, not right now. I don’t think I can run anymore right now. Where are we?”
His smile brightens and I feel my tired mouth struggle to tilt up in response. “We’re just across the treaty line. You were looking for me by running, by yourself, at night?”
“It seemed like the thing to do at the time.”
He chokes on a laugh. Or maybe a sob. His hands tighten and then loosen again.
“You’re sure? Really sure? Because dammit Bella, I can’t…”
I think, then, for the first time in hours I search the deepest parts of my mind and heart and everything for an answer.
Inside me, where it was all frantic movement and rushing and fever it is calm now. It’s quiet.
I lean over and kiss his chest, bare of course, and blazingly warm, directly over his heart. I feel like light is filling me up. Pouring into me through this cord nothing I did could ever sever, from his heart to mine. Golden and blazing.
Jacob grins at me then, really grins, and his eyes are shining just for me.
“Until my heart stops beating,” I tell him. He starts to frown but I’m smiling so hard at him it feels like my face will crack. I can see him understand what i’m trying to say. He told me so long ago, but now it’s not an end, not a plea, it’s a promise. A beginning. “Could be a long time. And maybe even longer than that?”
“Yeah,” he says. “Yeah that sounds…it’s enough? You said…”
The sun can’t fight an eclipse he told me. But an eclipse can only hide the sun for so long. It’s the sun that remains in the end.
“It’s enough. More than enough.”
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cherrypickedxx · 1 year
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I have a severe case of brainrot❤️
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twilitty · 2 years
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By The Moon
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by: @twilitty
Chapter 11: Bake Sale
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I eventually end up asking Charlie about having Jessica and Angela over for baking, as well as various other “girls’ night” activities. I don’t specify which activities, not because I’m being evasive but because I’m not sure what the activities are. He agrees and promises me he will be busy and out of the house. He doesn’t elaborate any further, so I don’t pry. We say our good nights, him seated in front of the television and me heading up the stairs.
I make it to my room and quickly prepare my pyjamas in my arms before going into the bathroom and turning on the shower. The scalding heat of the water is welcome and comforting in a way that I can’t entirely explain. It burns away thoughts of this evening, of my mild freak-out in the kitchen. Of how Jacob had to hold me on the porch.
The way he just wrapped his arms around me, just held me so tight, something about that felt natural. I’m not sure if it was natural for him or for me or for both of us, but it felt like something that would’ve happened regardless of the smoke or the alarms. Somehow, I would’ve ended up being held by Jacob Black, but not romantically.
Maybe that’s the message of the evening for me. Maybe some greater being is at work here, and it’s telling me that Jacob Black is my friend and nothing more. Never anything more. He held me like he’d hold a friend, there was nothing else happening.
I mean, of course, it was completely platonic. Had he ever done anything to indicate he saw me in any other way? No. He’s a good person. He’s nice and sweet and funny and comfortable, I shouldn’t go applying my own juvenile daydreams to the situation.
Besides, it’s not as if I see him in any way other than platonic. Not consciously, at least.
Sure, sometimes when I think of him, I focus on very not-friend-like traits. Like his chest or his shoulders or his wide smile. Or how kind he is to me, how he has somehow just accepted our friendship from childhood as still applying today.
I scrub at my skin, a little harder than necessary, to try and banish any further thoughts about Jacob Black. I scrub and scrub and scrub until my skin is pink and new. Until I finally feel clean.
Stepping out of the shower I quickly start thinking about which book to read next. I finished my last book just a couple of days ago, a reread of Sense and Sensibility. I dry myself off, then dress in pyjamas and go about my nighttime routine.
I could do another reread of some classic. Perhaps The Picture of Dorian Gray? I had never finished the entire book, had only gotten fifteen pages into it three years ago before abandoning it for something else. Or I could read something new.
I don’t have any new books in my room, but I’m sure I could pick something up from the store during my next shift. I’m still not sure about when that is. Mr. Webber is still in the process of adding me to the schedule, which is just an online calendar with names filled in the boxes beside time slots. He promised I’d know by the end of the week, and I was too shy to ask whether he meant Friday or Sunday. Did he mean the end of the work week or just simply the end of the week? Regardless, I’d find out soon enough.
I make my way into my room, safe from thoughts of a certain someone, and pick up the first book my fingers touch. I take it to bed and crawl under the covers, but not before closing the blinds.
Since having that nightmare of a dream, looking over at the forest is something I don’t want to partake in. Ever.
I’m halfway through the first chapter when there’s a knock on my door. “Yeah?” I close the book, sliding an old receipt in as a bookmark.
Charlie steps into the room, still dressed in jeans and rubbing at the back of his neck. “Uh, I’m going to hit the store sometime tomorrow. So, if you want to leave a list of ingredients you girls will need for the baking stuff then I can pick it all up.”
I stop moving for a moment, and it seems like he suddenly can’t meet my eyes. “Oh.” He looks up at me now, my voice a little scratchy and higher pitched than I’d like it to be. “Thank you, dad. I really appreciate it.”
He mumbles something unintelligibly under his breath and nods his head briskly a couple of times. It’s clear I acquired my social quirks from his side of the family. “Yes, well…” He gives me a tight-lipped smile before slowly closing the door. “Good night.” The door clicks shut.
I don’t hear his footsteps and quickly call out, “Night!”
He walks away from my door and a smile seems to spread across my face of its own will.
I leave a list for Charlie on the kitchen counter, along with a thank you at the bottom. I included the basics: eggs, cream, baking powder, and flour. Everything else we either already have or I don’t know we need yet.
I then take a few minutes to clear the area of anything that shouldn’t be there. I load the dishwasher, start it, and then hand wash a few plastics and pans that we might need for tonight.
I still have a couple minutes before needing to leave for school, so I quickly run back up into my bedroom and tidy up anything that is obviously out of place. I stack my books appropriately on my dresser, throw a pair of socks in the laundry basket, and smooth out my duvet one last time. There, I think contently, now I can leave.
I lock the door behind me, dash into my truck, and start the engine all within a matter of seconds. That level of speed and efficiency is an accomplishment. In the past, I’ve tripped down the porch steps, stumbled over loose gravel, and dropped my keys down between the heavy pot and the house. It would take me half a minute to move the stupid pot, which weighs nearly thirty pounds and seems to be made from weighted concrete.
Today, though, I am in the truck without any issues, and it feels like a good omen for the rest of my day.
I make the drive to school in record time, which is nothing to celebrate. Forks residents claim to have traffic on the highway and main streets, but I’ve never encountered it. Maybe we just have different definitions of traffic, in the same way, that we apparently have different definitions of beaches.
I pull in next to Fran the Van, which is packed to the point of overflowing with my friends. Jessica is sitting in the passenger seat, her knees pulled up to her chest and arms wrapped around her shins. She’s in a short sleeve violet blouse, her hair curled and a little frizzy around her shoulders. All in all, dressed inappropriately for the weather.
“Jess,” I say, stepping out of my truck and leaning against it. My backpack sits on the ground by my feet. She looks over at me, a serene smile outlined by glossy lips. “You do realize it’s barely April, right?”
“April is spring,” She retorts not unkindly. Her serene smile is now a disapproving frown. “Spring means short sleeves and sun.” We both look up at the sky, which is decidedly not sunny. “Okay, well, it’s still early spring and that means short sleeves.” I don’t say anything for a moment, and she rolls her eyes. “Bella, I swear, you are so out of touch.”
Mike closes his eyes dramatically from inside the van, shaking his head at me to communicate that it’s okay if I’m out of touch. Mike seems more awake than he usually is at this hour, which is to say that he’s all smiles and laughing jokes with those inside the vehicle. I question whether the weather, which is barely a degree warmer than it was yesterday, has infected the good students of Forks high school with something.
How can they all call this weather, grey and dreary, spring weather? This is a warm winter if anything.
I spot Angela, already walking towards the scattering of buildings and pick up my backpack to follow her. I’d like to discuss the girl’s night tonight with her before I include Jessica in the conversation. Angela seems more down-to-earth, more understanding of my apparent lack of social experiences.
I catch up to her, walking at a fast pace but not jogging. Jogging would likely result in me face down on the pavement and requiring concussion protocol. Angela looks over at me, her auburn hair pulled up into a ponytail and her eyes outlined with mascara. Her eyelashes are much longer than I recall them being, and the dark makeup on them only brings out the hazel of her eyes.
“You look pretty,” I tell her. She ducks her head and mumbles a thank you, a clear indication that she looks particularly put together for a reason today. I open my mouth to question it, but as she looks over her shoulder I quickly see the reason for her mascara and shyness. Ben Cheney is exiting a shiny silver vehicle and appears to be the only other person dressed sensibly today. He’s wearing a large hoodie and a loose pair of trousers. “Ah,” I look back to my friend who quickly picks up the speed. As though she’s racing away from him.
“Don’t say ‘ah’,” she criticizes lightly, shooting me a dark look out of the corner of her eye.
“Sorry, what noise would you rather I make?” I giggle at her scowl, which quickly parts to a close-lipped smile. “Are you avoiding him or what’s happening?”
“I don’t know what you mean,” she replies quickly. She’s an awful liar.
“Angela Webber, you basically ran away when you saw him.”
“Only my mom calls me by my full name,” she says.
“If you give me your middle name then I can give you the true motherly experience.” This causes her to laugh, which I appreciate.
“Okay, fine, it’s Francis.”
“Francis?” I pause, looking over at my friend with fresh eyes. “Your full name is Angela Francis Webber?”
“Don’t look at me like that, it’s a perfectly normal middle name.” A sniff of displeasure, then, “It was my great grandmother's name.” I don’t say anything, just work to conceal the smile and subsequent laugh trying to surface. “Oh, please!” She throws her hands up exasperatedly. “Fine, what’s your middle name?”
“Marie,” I answer automatically. The smile I’ve been hiding breaks through, and Angela Francis Webber rolls her eyes at me. I laugh at the thought of her full name; she does not appreciate it.
“Of course, someone with the middle name ‘Marie’ will dislike Francis.” She picks up the pace, walking at almost a full jog. I work to keep up with her, which is futile because her long legs propel her at Olympic speeds.
“Angela!” I call out to her, and she barely spares me a glance over her shoulder before taking a tight turn around the first building. I swear I can hear her laughing as she leaves me in her dust.
“Trouble in paradise?” I nearly jump out of my skin at the voice behind me, which causes the teenage boy responsible to laugh at an obnoxious volume.
“Jesus, Eric,” I mutter, throwing him a look as I take a deep breath and try to calm my nervous system. “Don’t sneak up on me like that.”
“Sorry, just heard that you guys are planning something tonight and thought I might get an invite?” He gives me his brightest smile, even going so far as to clasp his hands under his chin like a poor commoner boy asking for another bowl of soup.
“It’s a girl’s night, so girls only.”
He exhales heavily, laying on the guilt trip as he drops his hands to his pockets. “I hate being excluded,” he whispers in an obviously unhappy voice.
“You aren’t being excluded,” I tell him. I try to remain assertive, even as he pouts.
“I also hate being ostracized.”
“You aren’t being ostracized.”
Jessica and Angela arrive together in Jessica’s car. My initial excitement over having an opportunity to hang out with my friends outside of school is overridden by the large bag hanging over Jessica’s arm. Oh, yikes.
                I step out onto the front porch, my arms dangling uselessly by my sides. The horror of what could be in Jessica’s bag occupies my mind. Alcohol? Charlie is a progressive man; he understands the tendencies of the younger generation. But still. He’s a cop and cops typically are not fans of underage drinking.
Stop overthinking everything, Bella. My inner voice does little to quiet the steady stream of anxiety coursing through my mind.
                “Hey!” Jessica skips the middle stair and all but leaps onto the porch. I hear no incriminating noises coming from the bag, no sounds of glass bottles clinking together. Good.
                “Jess, want me to take that?” I offer, already moving to remove it from her arm. She nods gratefully and hands it over. It’s surprisingly light for such a large bag and again my interests are piqued.
                Angela follows up the porch, a backpack over her shoulder and a couple bags of chips in her arms. I greet her with a friendly expression that she reciprocates.
                Inside the house, we drop the bags onto the floor in the living room, which I made sure to tidy up long before anybody arrived. I notice my friends’ eyes wandering a little more than I had anticipated, their focus quickly drawn to a series of my school photos on the mantle. They approach the framed photos quickly as if they might miss them by walking too slowly.
                “You guys better not bully me about my middle school years,” I warn. Jessica giggles in response and points to one of the photos.
                “I like your smile in this one,” she says with a bit too much of a laugh behind her words. “It’s very-”
                Angela smacks her arm before she can finish talking. “Jess, I have half a mind to kick you out of here on Bella’s behalf.” Laughter descends upon the group, which seems to call Charlie out of his hiding spot from upstairs.
                His footsteps are softer than usual, which hints at his nervousness. “Jessica Stanley and Angela Webber,” he says from the foot of the stairs. Both of my friends turn quickly and put on their best smiles for my father. I feel a swell of pride somewhere inside me, but I’m not entirely sure why. Is it because of my polite, kind friends? Is it because of my dad who knows my friends’ names? Or maybe it’s a pride for me, for going out of my comfort zone and inviting people over.
                “Hello, Chief Swan,” Angela says, stepping forward and extending a hand to shake my fathers. He shakes it and shoots a grin at the group of us.
                “Call me Charlie, there’s no badge on my chest today.” Then, with a wink in my direction he says, “I’m Bella’s dad today and nothing else.”
                “Well, thanks for letting us come over. We really appreciate it.” Angela nods along with Jessica as the brunette talks. A soft blush settles over my father’s cheeks and the prideful feeling in my chest swells again.
Something about this moment feels so right as if I was meant to be standing here in my father's living room with my two new friends waiting to bake for some fundraiser. It’s as if every moment of my life has pushed me toward this place. As if everything happening right now is meant to happen.
I’m not one to believe in fate or some cosmic force controlling our lives, but in the second I might believe just a little bit. As my first two girl friends laugh with my dad. My dad is trying so hard to give off a good impression, to make this a great night for me. I wonder if he knows this is my first true girls’ night. I wonder if that’s why he keeps looking at me with such a large smile.
“I’m going to run out and meet with some guys down on the Rez. You girls need anything before I leave?”
“I think we’re good, dad, but thank you.” He says goodbye and pulls a jacket over his shoulders. A minute later I hear his cruiser start up and drive away.
                “Okay, so I brought supplies,” Jessica announces, quickly producing a portable speaker from the top of her large bag. “Bur first,” she taps a button on the top of the machine and music fills the room. “Music!”
The music shifts over the evening, going from house to pop to some indie/country mixture that Angela puts on. By the time it’s my turn to pick a playlist I’ve already decided on my choice. Classic rock. It produces a couple surprised looks from my friends, but they seem pleasantly surprised.
                “I should’ve expected this,” Jessica admits, looking over her shoulder at Angela as she pulls a tray of cookies from the oven. She then pulls out two more trays of assorted baked goods.
                “Expected what?” I ask a little critically. Angela closes the oven with a thud and laughs lightly to herself. “Expected what?” I repeat.
                Jessica looks back at Angela meaningful, building up the suspense. If she’s good at anything it’s leaving a woman in anticipation. Just as I’m about to repeat myself for a third time she raises a hand to stop me.
                “I just mean, doesn’t your friend like rock?” She giggles at the word friend as if there’s something significant about the word.
                “Who? Eric?”
                Angela comes over and pats me on the shoulder sympathetically before leaning against the kitchen table with me. “She’s talking about a different friend. Who doesn’t live in town.”
I turn back to Jess. “Are you talking about Jacob Black?”
The only answer I get is a chorus of giggles and then an apologetic look from Angela. I cover my face with my hands, the blush creeping up my neck and into my face more than humiliating. Not to mention that the offending blush is also as good of a confession as anything. “Guys,” I groan out from behind my fingers.
“Aw, come on, Bella. You can talk to us about anything.” Jessica takes a moment to sip from her sparkling water. “Or about anyone.” I groan again.
“We are just friends,” I say finally, removing my hands from my face. I keep my eyes down towards the ground. “And I mean that. Just friends.”
“That’s what most people who aren’t ‘just friends’ say,” Jess quips. Angela remains decidedly silent and when I look over at her I see she’s furiously stirring batter with a wooden spoon. Jessica follows my line of sight. “Angela, you’re going to murder that mix if you keep up with that pace.” Angela slows her movements but only slightly.
She looks up from the large bowl to meet my eyes and offers me a reproachful look. “If you don’t want to talk about it, we don’t have to,” she tells me. It’s an offer I appreciate but shake my head.
“No, it’s fine. We can talk about Jake.” I take a deep breath. “But we really are just friends.”
“You sound disappointed,” Angela says. My stomach tightens a little, whether in denial or an admission of guilt I’m not sure.
“No, just upset with myself, I think.”
“Because you like him?” Jess confirms. I nod. “Okay, so does he like you? Does he act like he likes you?”
“How do you act like you like someone?” I feel like it’s a dumb question for me to ask because Jessica goes a little quiet. “I’ve never really had this situation before, so I’m not sure.”
“Does he, like, touch you more than necessary?” I think of my hand in his, of him wrapping his large arms around me in a bear hug. Jessica grins at something on my face and I work to put back on my mask of neutrality. “Based on that expression, I think he might like you.”
“You can’t know that,” I argue, but my traitorous brain has already run wild with the thought and I can’t slow down. Suddenly every touch, every moment of eye contact, and every word passed between us feels significant. Feels monumental. Feels like it means something more than just friends.
“Okay, fine, maybe I don’t know that. But what do you want me to say? That I have no idea? That’s so incredibly anticlimactic.” Then, after a pause of her watching my face she says, “Besides, if he did like you what would you do about it?”
“What do you mean?” I ask.
“Would you ask him out?” Angela asks, piping up for the first time in a few minutes. She’s moved from the mixing bowl to pouring the batter into little muffin holders. “Or kiss him maybe?”
“No, no, I wouldn’t.” The words bubble to the surface quickly, too quickly. Why was that my first response? Because I don’t want to kiss Jake? Yeah, right. I’ve thought of that scenario too many times to be healthy. Maybe it’s her first suggestion. Is it that I don’t want to ask him out? Or have us as being more than platonic? “I barely even know him,” I add on a little quieter. Jess has moved on to icing now cooled cupcakes, but Angela is still listening.
“Maybe get to know him better, then?” She suggests. “He’s really attractive, I’m sure he’s got a great personality to match.”
The blush creeps back up my neck. “Yeah, he’s really nice.”
“Swan!” Jessica yells out a little too loudly for the small room. “Paper towel, STAT!”
Angela giggles at our friend, who has icing dripping down her forearms. She catches us watching and shoots a glare. “I said STAT! Does that not mean anything to you people?”
“I guess we’re roleplaying a hospital now,” I joke. Angela laughs and produces a napkin for Jessica. The conversation twists and turns and we wind up back on Angelina Jolie like it usually does when Jessica is involved. I’m happy to talk all about her cheekbones because it keeps my mind away from someone else’s.
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edwardsdeathcabcd · 2 years
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HEY if you're looking for "bella has two hands" fic recs, i've got one!!! (if not apologies, congrats on being a believer) "In The Middle" by bodybaggg on ao3. it picks up after new moon, it's so much fun, and the author is so far doing an excellent job with "edward and jacob tolerate each other because they're both dating bella...but they might be slow-burn falling in love themselves," and still including a lot of the reasons that's really complicated! plus great charlie characterization
(“if not apologies” is really speaking to me. like yeah. you get it.) YEAH okay I just read the first few chapters and it’s so cute. I love the idea of them deciding to both date Bella & then through that they realize they actually really like each other too THAT’S SO GOOD. I really like that it’s exploring the weird dynamic that comes with Edward being able to hear Jacob’s thoughts, & him saying that he genuinely enjoys hearing the way Jake thinks (which IS canon, Edward does think that Jacob’s thoughts are pleasant to listen to bc he’s such an open book, so I’m glad that’s in the fic). thank u for recommending it, it’s so very sweet & I’m excited to see where it goes once it’s completed :))
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plainjaniedee · 1 year
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Sometimes I feel like I've read every single Jacob/Bella fanfic that exists on the planet. I know that can't be right.
Can anyone recommend some good old-fashioned Jake-n-Bells HEA fics?
What's your go-to when you need that fix?
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dullcedomum · 2 years
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yet another excerpt from my 29k twilight fic where bella dies giving birth to nessie (rip queen) and jakeward raise her as her two dads (1st post with more info here)
a small moment where edward's ability is a boon instead of the usual curse, as it allows him to share a cathartic moment with jacob that probably wouldn't be able to be shared with words. or at least, that's what its suppose to convey! no one else has gotten to this part so I'm not sure how it reads. 😭 but I like this moment and want to make it work!
anyways, the text is below as well~
Nessie perused the music section while Jacob waited around. A book on motorcycle repair caught his eye and a sudden stabbing pain hit him in the heart, raw and violent. He looked at Nessie crouched down, reading a book, and saw both of them. His mind was in a sort of paradox, where he remembered her and the fact that she was gone, and saw Nessie anew and loved her so, so much. The burning, bittersweet feeling consumed him entirely like a flame eating him alive. And then it was just warm. 
“You okay?” Nessie whispered, seeing something in his face that gave him away. 
“Yeah,” he croaked before clearing his throat. “Just tired. You find anything good?”
“They’re not the best, but they’ll do.” 
When they came back to the table Edward was in a contemplative state, head in hands. He watched both of them as they sat down and Nessie began rattling off a book’s’ table of contents. Him and Jacob locked eyes for a moment and Edward nodded. There was something different about him. His eyes weren’t dull, like they usually where when Jacob thought of her. There was an almost lightness to him. Neither of them said anything. And Nessie wasn’t versed enough to pick up on Edward’s too subtle body language. So the moment was only theirs. 
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storiestoreid · 1 year
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“You’ve imbedded yourself into my every cell, Every outline of you is etched into my soul.” Jacob Black X Mike Newton
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