finding myself sad because i had…so many fic ideas, and was going to legit try in november to at least get the halo au further on and start the vidya game au and maybe try my hand at more.
had a lot of love to put into the au ideas, and as part of the grieving process i do want to go ahead and put down what all i wanted these fic ideas and aus and stories to go before this all blew up and im still on the fence of how comfortable or not i would be to continue. honestly i just want them out of my head instead of stewing in there too. And, for some reason tumblr isn’t giving me a read more option so that’s great.
Sorry this is going to be long. I just….just need these out of my head. I want them out so I can mourn and grieve them.
Also spoilers, I guess lol.
1. So halo. I was going to get Ryan to give Jeremy his name. They were going to have more shootouts and scout missions. Helmets would come off and Ryan would have the answer of what color Jeremy’s eyes were, be absolutely dazzled by his eyes. There was going to be another ODST oc who would flirt with Jeremy and ensue some jealousy and make Ryan question what he’s feeling. Things would go really well. Things would also not go well as Ryan tries to stick between duty and juggle how he feels. The attack on Earth by Covenant in Halooooo2 i believe would occur and Jeremy and Ryan would both be shoved there to defend Earth. After the battle, Jeremy would have attempted to take Ryan to a cafe and bakery, but the social anxiety would have overwhelmed Ryan and made them turn back–and then later in the night Jeremy would have come back with a box of donuts to bring to Ryan. Very touching bullshit stuff as they talk and eat donuts into the night with Ryan losing his mind over how good they were and then realizing they actually tasted even sweeter once he and Jeremy get to icebreaking and kissing. Solidfy how they feel. But they’d be separated as Ryan and fellow Spartan 3 Gavin and Alfredo and Spartan 2 Jack would be moved out to new missions and Jeremy and the ODSTs would be moving to the other side of the galaxies. And then later a distress thing would reveal to Ryan that Jeremy and his squad had gone to rescue and retrieve people with very dangerous-to-leak-info and were now stuck on a base infested with the Flood (the Flood, for those that don’t know, was basically space zombie virus-like parasite organisms, nasty stuff, look up the lore). And Ryan would make the very foolish decision to go on a one man rescue mission with a few other soldiers to rescue Jeremy and squad. The others of the Jeremy’s squad (besides useless oc’s) would have been safely recovered and Ryan would find Jeremy-injured, but not infected or taken by the Flood. Patch him up, return to the ship, and Jeremy would be whisked away to medical and once again…they’d have to part ways. Time skip about two years. Ryan’s receeded back into his former Spartan-2 demeanor, trying to bottle himself up. Geoff would recruit him, other Spartans (Jack, Gain, Alfredo and his ai Trevor), tech and communications specialists (Matt, Fiona, Andy, Ify, Sarah and Steffie), and a unique band of ODST’s (Michael and Lindsay and someone else hmm wonder who that would be) to gather aboard on their own unique ship for special missions. And on that ship, Ryan would come face to face with Jeremy, not only fully recovered but having been embraced into the Spartan-IV program and now a Spartan-IV. Kiss framed by stars and all that sap.
2. Vidya game au. It was going to be a very long and very arduous attempt at a two sided story. A story of 14 year old Michael living in a toxic household, and being taken under the wing of his teacher Geoff. Geoff would have recommended to Michael a new indie game for the ds. The story would flip back and forth between Michael’s perspective as a 14 year old troubled kid as he learns to open back up to the people he used to call friends, his own orientation and his feelings for his new friend and eventual sweetheart Gavin, and between the events of the game itself how Michael plays it. The game was a fantasy rpg ish thing featuring the main character Jeremy, a former mercenary knight on hard times, saved from death by a faerie named Alfredo. Their partnership would lead them across the countryside of the game’s settings to slay evil, try to heal the land, and save it from damnation from the BBEG, the Mad King. Michael would eventually beat the game, but realize there were multiple endings. Multiple ways to interact with others based on his choices in the game for Jeremy. As the story would further unfold for both sides, Michael would have found a father figure he’d been missing his whole life in Geoff, while his parent’s marriage would further deteriorate until finally it would snap apart with his mom kidnapping Michael and crashing in the car, his father knocked out from assault. On the flipside, we’d find out that Jeremy used to be partners with a man named Ryan, fellow mercenary knight. That they were sent to retrieve a relic and found the Crown of Madness. The absolute power and evil in the crown eventually overcame Ryan and had him turn on Jeremy, nearly killing him and leaving him for dead while Ryan embraced the crown’s power and became The Mad King. Michael’s parents and Michael are put through court after court after court because t would have come to life how bad the toxicity and abuse was on Michael from his parents, in addition to the parents hurting each other and his mother having injured and endangered others in the car crash. I was goignt o heavily debate and probably say fuck it and have the cases resolve with Geoff becoming his guardian and adopting him into his and Jack’s home, Michael ebign able to go visit a friend he was estranged with a long time ago who he felt guilty for hurting when they moved (Ray), Michael coming to terms with his feelings with Gavin. The school year ending and summer vacation happening. Michael and Gavin using the co-op function in the game to play as both Jeremy and Alfredo and then beating the game and getting an ending unique tot he sidequests and interactions touching on Jeremy and Ryan’s situation. Using their reforged wedding rings, Jeremy would have been able to shatter the crown and Ryan would revert to himself. They’d escape a crumbling castle, Ryan would apologize for having chosen the crown over him, letting it seduce him, all the terrible things he did and betrayed him, and Jeremy, having gone through a whole journey to come to terms with it witht he moral and emotional support from Alfredo, would be able to forgive him because they could rebuild themselves. He had defeated the crown and save the love of his life. Michael would get the catharsis of a game that gave him an outlet to explore himself and how he wanted to deal with his troubles and trauma. A hilarious extra would have been Geoff, Jack, and Michael preparing for friends and Gavin over including some of Geoff’s friends and Michael would just watched absolutely flabbergasted and floored as he watches a real life Jeremy and Ryan (married couple that built and made the game), with Alfredo and Trevor who were a lawyer duo that had helped Geoff’s case for Michael and also ended up handlign the case between Michael’s mom and her causing the car crash injuries to none other than Ryan.
3. This one was a more recent one I had thought up and probs would have been named either after lyric line from Cage the Elephant’s Wicked or like something silly like on the flipsides. suspend some realism, it’d have been sorta pre-fahc and sorta in the middle of making the fahcs as Jeremy works for a crew that recently kidnapped and holding hostage none other than the recently Fake’s hired Vagabond. Jeremy was (because i said so for reasons) the guy that would clean up the torture room he was kept in. And theyd end up bonding accidentally because Vagabond would find it so strange that Jeremy just takes his reputation and fear in stride when he has a job to do, he’s not a torturer, and he’s just genuinely talking to him. They’d bond, have some touching tender moments of Jeremy trying to clean his torture wounds, and it’d come to a head as Jeremy decides he’s willing to risk himself if he can get the Vagabond free. Meanwhile, Gavin, also in the same crew, managed to get in touch with Geoff and offered a trade, Vagabond for his, Jeremy’s, Matt’s and Trevor’s safety. The two plans collide and Vagabond and Matt and Trevor are taken back by the Fakes while Jeremy and Gavin are left behind and end up stuck together as their rival crew tries to figure out how this all went down, who was the traitor. Meanwhile Geoff had gotten a new sniper Alfredo and was helping Matt and Trevor find their own place in their growing crew while seeing about reestablishing contact with Gavin and this strange fellow that Ryan had become attached to. Also because I said so, they would have cleaned Matt and Jeremy’s house out when they took Matt, so Ryan would end up with Jeremy’s cat going “you are now also my hoomin. feed and love me damnit.” Matt’s cat would be with Matt. Gavin and Jeremy would be shoved into more active jobs, and Gavin would have him and Jeremy frequent free wifi cafe’s to try to establish contact with the Fakes, where Jeremy would run into Ryan as a civilian. Not knowing that Ryan was the Vagabond, they would have eventually led themselves into a relationship, undercut only by Jeremy’s conflictions that he still had feelings for Vagabond. It also wouldn’t have helped that Ryan wouldn’t bring himself to outright say who he was, and ended up making it worse by pursuing him as both Vagabond and Ryan the civilian. Eventually this would come to head twice as 1, Jeremy and Gavin’s crew clash with the fakes. Jeremy and Gavin establish contact with Geoff and make a deal to help wipe out the other crew in return for bringing them into the fold, and Jeremy breaks up with both Vagabond and Ryan because he doesn’t want to endanger them both. and then 2, Jeremy and Gavin’s crew had figured out their traitors. Gavin escapes to get the Fakes, but Jeremy is brought to interrogation, and when he doesn’t give away anything they show him their trump card-they also kidnapped his boyfriend Ryan (because i thought it’d be hilarious to make Ryan a damsel in distress twice) Jeremy realizes through the conversation allowed between him and Ryan that he and the Vagabond were one in the same-the Fakes also come to rescue, Ryan and Jeremy team up to break out on their own, and both sides just meet in the middle like “Oh wow you got here fast-” “Yeah? We came to rescue you??” “Oh, uh, well thanks but nah we got it handled? So whats the plan now-” “Kill everything and leave what fuckin else do you think??” “Sounds fantastic let’s go.” Explosions galore and everyone returns to safehouses. Jeremy and Ryan figure their shit out and then makeout. Geoff inducts Jeremy and Gavin into the crew officially. The crew is now complete. End.
There’s more but they would have been dumb (sailor moon au, mind powers and amnesia) but those were the ones i legit wanted to make an attempt to, even if just to go a few chapters and then fail and drop them, or just make them drabbles to link together. So there we go.