#Jessica still looks fine AF

[bronx-bomber87]

Hello all Happy Tuesday. We venture towards the end of S1. Thank you all for the love been getting makes my whole day/week. This episode is a gif desert legit one I can use haha So it'll be all screen-caps with my phone except one gif and this desert one haha My assumption is this will change as we get into later seasons. This one was lacking for sure in the gif dept.

1x17- The Shake Up.

This episode has Chenford separate which explains the lack of gifs tbh lol It's still a really good Lucy wise. We get a look into her family dynamic by meeting her father. We also get to see Nolan get the Tim treatment LOL Off we go.

Cold open gets me right in the feels. Nolan spotting Capt. Anderson’s grave during an arrest in the cemetery. Talia gives him a moment to pay his respects. A really nice scene. God she was so young. Love the nod to her after last ep. She deserved it.

A opportunity comes up during roll call to watch a protected witness. Nolan jumps on the chance. Talia instantly shuts it down. Says it's like watching paint dry. Grey tells him he's out of luck. Then Tim jumps in. Surprises the hell out of everyone. Says he'll go with Nolan to protect this witness. Heh you know Tim’s doing this to get a rise out of Nolan. Test him see what he’s made of. He’s ridden with the other two rookies and not him. John seems nervous af LOL it makes me laugh so hard how uneasy he looks.

Tim’s face LMAO I can not. Disgruntled with him from the get go. I’m fairly certain he doesn’t think much of Nolan. It has nothing to do with his age. It has to do with his personality I believe. Its the rambling he can't stand the most. I think he wanted to test drive Nolan see how he would do cause well Tim be Tim. He is going over the acronym and procedure with him as they’re leaving. Instantly thrown in deep in with Tim. Nolan goes on a rant and Tim just cuts him off by getting in the car LOL

They arrive on scene and meet with the DA. Tim is slightly offended when Delmonte thinks Nolan is in charge haha Let’s him know right away he is a rookie. Also cutting off Nolan’s convo with the DA about Jessica. It’s funny Tim is such a hard ass with everyone except Lucy. Now that is much more true towards the later seasons but still holds true in S1. He's softer with her than he was beginning of the season, but you can see the contrast between Lucy and anyone else easily. Watching Tim with John total night and day difference in his demeanor.

Also needs to be noted how vastly different these two are. This shot alone shows they're complete opposites. Their outfits show this more than any words ever could. John is dad clothes all day and Tim is a sight to see let’s just say that. Heh.

Something that is a plus about this ep is Talia/Lucy riding together again. I do love seeing them being paired up. This is a much better result/dynamic this time around. More of a mutual respect there. No Nolan garbage looming over them. On their first call they rescue a teenager from his mother. His girlfriend called it in concerned and rightfully so.

His mother had been torturing and dehydrating him in order keep him from his girlfriend. Doing some religious ritual or exorcism of sorts. Pretty damn awful to watch. Lucy asks if he’ll be ok. Talia says physically yes but mentally not for a long time. Good setup for the rest of the ep Lucy. Bit of foreshadowing with her father being brought into the picture.

As they're walking away she gets a call. Lucy asks if its ok to take it and Talia seems more than fine with. Its about her father. Talia overhears Lucy was going to wait to end of her shift to see him. She lets Lucy go right then and there. Talia is pretty great about it. She is the entire time for Lucy. Tells her it’s family when Lucy asks if it’s really ok they go and see him. Much more redeeming pair up this time around.

We get a first look into Lucy’s dynamic with her parents and it’s not a pretty one��Her father is a therapist and was attacked by one of his patients. Lucy naturally wants the guys name so she can go arrest him. Her first instinct is justice for him. He fights her on it says was just a dissociative episode. That his patient didn't mean to hurt him. Lucy battles back and says thats irrelevant, the law is clear and she should arrest him.

He doesn't respond well to this....Tells Lucy that the law is broken. That she is working for a broken system. Very combative with her from the jump. Lucy tries to use some reason. Tells him this isn’t the solution though. To pretend he didn’t break his arm. He goes on to say this is better this than arresting his patient for it.

Then after he's insulted her profession does a one-two punch to her gut with his words. He knows this is going to hurt her and it bugs me to no end. The guilt trip being laid down here. I have parents like this. When you aren't doing what they want they do this. The way he tears down her job and her concern for him in response angers me. She isn’t doing this to upset him but to help him. (not that he can see that) Lucy is a loving and protective person. She wants to do right by those she loves. What should be received as her caring is defensive in return. He’s attacking her every step of the way.

Melissa kills me in this scene. Honestly the entire episode with all her interactions with her dad. That look of devastation on her face ugh. I can relate. That emotional dismissal and really almost abuse she’s taking from him. That hurt she’s feeling in his disappointment. I just want to hug her. I too have parents like this so it hits home with me little harder.

I said back in 1x14 with plain clothes day how it seemed Tim was the first person to really fight for her. Believe in her. Support her. Why it meant so much that he did what he did that day. Tim probably has no idea the impact that made on her. By standing by her side the way he did. She obviously has little to zero support from her father in the career she’s chosen. That much is very clear in this exchange with him.

Even Talia can sense the tension from outside the room. Makes a comment to Gino while looking in. Its very evident you can feel chills coming in waves from her father. Lucy is still such a good daughter and stays anyways. Not that he deserves it….

We head back to Tim and Nolan. They have a credible threat for the safe house. Their witness Hayes starts to give a little mouth about his safety. Tim gets into ultra hard ass mode. I don’t hate it not gonna lie haha Doesn’t let this guy get under his skin. Shows no sign of backing down. Mmm. Don’t mess with my Tim.

The episode title lives up to its name and an earthquake ensues. Rocking the hospital in a bad way. I admire Lucy’s gut reaction to cover her father. I just love her so much. So loyal and willing to protect family even when they really don’t deserve it. This resonates with me so much. I too am the same way. Have that Italian familia loyalty drilled into to me. Taking care of family even when they really don’t deserve it.

Shortly after the quake the safe house is under fire. Something about watching Tim in action is so sexy. It’s like watching confidence in motion. Especially in this scene. Also very commanding and sure of what he wants to do. Tells Nolan to take their witness out back. If he doesn’t they’re sitting ducks. Nolan asks what if there is a shooter out there too? His reply is the best. ‘Then you’ll shoot them.’ LOL love this man.

They make it out and head to the beach. Assuming this is a good a hiding spot as any. This is such a good scene. Apart from fact Tim looks fine af just leaning against that railing. Its not long before they're found. They soon figure out Hayes has a tracker on him. That the men that attacked the safe house weren't there to kill Hayes but to rescue him. Hayes makes a crass comment about Capt Anderson. How they should just let him go or they’re gonna lose another buddy in line of duty. Tim knocks him out instantly. Get em' Tim! What a schmuck. Tells Nolan hook him up for them to find as a lure.

They dispatch of the rescue team fairly quickly. Once again love watching Tim in action. There’s a nice little nod between Tim and John once they’re done. Nice to see. He knows how to reward good work. He was crucial in their take down. Tim makes sure he gets a little attaboy hehe Lucy has softened him up a bit for sure.

We go back to Lucy at the hospital. She breaks my heart in this scene. Melissa crushes this 110 percent with the way her voice breaks getting emotional. Telling her father how she was taught to be true to herself. That this job is who she is, that it makes her so happy. (that should be enough) She goes on to say she knows he hates the system. That it’s designed to punish people and not care for them. Then strongly defends herself as a person. Basically pleading with him to accept/and understand her and her job.

I commend how strongly Lucy backs the fact that she can make a difference. That the system can't change unless there is someone in it to fight. After this statement her dad relents a little. Earlier he heard her talking to the victim of that first call her and Talia took. He was in the hallway listening. He heard how the kid's mother was going to face charges but her frame of mind would be taken into account.

That if the son could be a character witness on her behalf they could get her the helps she needs. He tells her she was honest and kind. That he was impressed. You think hey we’re making progress. He’s finally understanding her and her choice in career. Won’t be going after her so much now. Hoping his perception of her has shifted a little.

Then his patient who broke his arm walks in….At first Lucy has no idea who this guy is. Her father keeps trying to shoo him away. Then Lucy being the smart cookie she is puts it’s together. Immediately she has to do her job and arrest this man. You can see the regret on her face but it’s her duty to arrest him. She has no choice. Something her father is failing to understand.

It’s insane to me he could use logic just moments ago. Then turn on her so quickly. He could do the same thing that mothers kid is going to do. Be a character witness and get him the help he needs in the system. He’s so cold to her when she says she’ll be back after his surgery. Tells her not to bother. He would rather her compromise her own ethics and morales for his needs. Sacrifice his own daughter and her career for his patient. She like Tim has a moral compass she refuses to corrupt even for family.

That heartbreak on her face devastates me though. Now don't get me wrong, I’m with her dad with the system being broken. It is. Mental health needs to be addressed more especially in situations such as this. What upsets me is how her father treats her the entire episode. He should be proud of the fact that her morale code is so strong. That she isn't willing to be compromised. Instead he scolds her. Ridicules Lucy. Making her feel small and shameful for her job. When he's just upset she wouldn't bend the rules cause it was his patient.

Basically saying Lucy is part of the problem when she takes William away. When she is one the most empathetic humans to wear a badge. She’s desperately trying to reach out for him to understand. To accept her. All she gets in return is discouragement and emotional abuse. I know that intense reception of disappointment/guilt/shame you get from your parents. It guts you. When they should be building her up and supporting her they do the opposite. She’s so resilient and then you meet her parents and see why she is.

The look of utter devastation as she leads this guy out. Logically she know her father is in the wrong. But that emotional part of you that wants that approval so badly doesn't care about logic. Worst part of that scene is she had it for a split second till it was about HIS patient. When the same procedure can be followed for William. Will it be easy? No but it can be done, things put in place to help his patient. But he can’t see it that way. Only see how its affecting him. Then just like earlier casts her away because he disapproved of her decision.

Talia see’s Lucy writing up the arrest report and checks in. Lucy says she wants to add a mental health report addendum to it. Talia asks if she really thinks that or trying to get back in her fathers food graces? Lucy is firm in her reply. Says she’s pretty sure that’s impossible but knows he’s not wrong. That this guy doesn’t need prison he needs help. (she knew this before and helped out that kid's mother same way but Talia doesn't know that) Tells her was she’s going to do whatever she can to get it for him.

Talia approves and tells her 'Good' Once again being a good person despite her parents. Lucy then asks was that a test? Her reply is too funny haha As I said earlier this pair up was much better second go around. Not dominated by the Nolan BS. They had good rapport and even got a “test” she passed. Rough rough episode for Lucy emotionally though. She at least gets to end it with a laugh and a smile.

This ep gave us some insight to one of her parents. Little bit of her upbringing. We can see why she’s so damn driven to be a good cop. That instinct to prove your parents wrong can be a great motivator. You want to show them how capable you are. So they can be proud of you. Sadly despite her best efforts they seem to only feel disappointment.

Or as we see later with Lucy's mom her thinking this is a 'hobby' for Lucy. Like this was just dress up and a game. She wants her to come back to reality. Once again belittling her dedication and passion for her job. That's a discussion for a later ep though. Sucks when it’s both parents and not just one. Something I can also relate to. Both discouraging and not supportive whatsoever. Trivializing Lucy and her life choices just because it’s not what they wanted for her. Fastest way to drive your kids away and have them never return.

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Side notes- Non chenford Didn’t really have much tbh. Whole ep didn’t have them lol I was just hot for Tim this whole ep hahah What else is new I know. They both had really good SL's in this one, but I always miss them when they’re apart the whole time.

That’s all she wrote for 1x17 thank you all for your interest. Blows my mind. Will always shout you all at for your likes, comments and reblogs. They make my whole day when I get them :) see you all in 1x18

#Caitlin rewatches the Rookie #chenford #chenford hiatus #summer rewatch #waiting on s6 #s1 #1x17 The Shake Up #the rookie #tim x lucy #tim bradford #lucy chen #lucy x tim #eric winter #melissa o'neil #otp: doing my job #tim bradford x lucy chen

[thetaoofbetty]

they’re literally just used for drama p*rn, that’s it’s that’s what that couple is.

the thing for me is how badly they present archie every single time they're "together" (fwb, whatever). okay, to be fair, they're not exactly making jughead bf of the year either (the thing with betty while with jessica, lying to tabitha) so with that it's like, i can't believe people want me to believe this is a good representation of a relationship?

but you're not wrong, it's been consistently used for drama, has no real emotional stakes unless it's affecting their other relationships, and they're totally comfortable not being committed to each other.

which is fine, i don't care if they don't want to be exclusive or label it. but archie's behavior with betty over the whole thing just makes him look bad over and over? seriously, if it were me, i'd be like, "this is vale shit, i don't know that man."

more anons under the cut:

letting y'all say your piece even if i don't reply a lot because some of these are long

yeah, i wouldn't consider this a win, i'd be wary af about long term stuff for all of this.

and if archie's feeling a lack of emotions from his power, uh, i dunno man. if it were my ship, i'd find that sort of cruel.

i, uh, i—listen. i think there are couples onscreen right now with worse chemistry. 💀

(i can see the invisible notifications now from that, ha)

b/a isn't my notp, they mostly make me think less of archie tbh. but it's just weird that this is how they're choosing to write these new while the shippers of said couples also yell at us about how amazing it's gonna be. okay? when???

i think we'd hear the screaming from our couches tbh. even if she is tho, they legit know there's deja vu happening from the vale with superpowers, the devil in rvd, and time travel and they still think that nothing weird might be going on with one of the plot points that's coming back directly from the vale?

okay.

#besos! #anonymous #riverdale spoilers #riverdale speculation #anti b*rchie #long post

[marc-spectorr]

Hey Callie it's sails I have a nerd ramble about the opening so hopefully it helps.

if I remember right the punisher, daredevil, none of the defenders (iron fist, Jessica Jones, and Luke cage ) aren't in the marvel openings eather. And there making a midnight sons game so maybe will get a movie sometime in the future (moon knight is in that group, along with daredevil, punisher and ghost rider I believe) but, if that dose happen will have to bring ghost rider back in the MCU (no one has played him sense nick cage in the early 2000s I think but, I could be wrong.) and I think Ryan gosling said he would love to play Johnny Blaze so 🤷. Don't feel bad because our moon boys aren't in the intro there not alone in that regard I don't think the X-Men are in the opening eather.

Also just a sidenote about She Hulk, I want a Hulk movie with Mark Ruffolo in it I feel like he got robbed on that end (half the avengers have there own movies) and I refuse to watch she hulk because of it like give the hulk his own movie you cowards. Anyway I hope this made you some what better and I hope your day tomorrow is better then today. 🖤💚🧡

Also sorry for my nerd ramble okay sails out ✌️

hiya sails, how are youuu??

ok the difference between moon knight and those characters (minus daredevil) is that moon knight is part of the mcu right now. even though there was no distinct connection other than the mention of the ancestral plane from black panther, he’s part of phase 4. it makes sense that the defenders + the punisher aren’t in the intro bc they haven’t made their official debuts to the mcu yet. the same goes for ghost rider and the x-men. i think once daredevil: born again is out, that’s when matt will be added. 

what’s making me mad is that we have no idea when mk is coming back and removing him from the intro is like further disconnecting him from the mcu. yeah yeah, i know the intro is like 30 secs long, and it’s impossible to fit all of the characters in it, but i’m salty af lmfao. i’m just praaaaying that we get the slightest crumb of news about mk’s future in D23 in a few weeks, or else i’m really going to lose my mind.

ooO look,,, i love hulk. still, i think at this point he’s not going to have a solo movie. it seems as though marvel is focusing more on some of the newer characters vs. the original avengers, which is fine by me! there’s no doubt that hulk will still be an integral character in this saga, and tbh, i enjoyed watching episode 1 of she-hulk. i’m putting a lot of trust that kevin feige and co. knows exactly what’s best to move the story forward. is it a good or bad thing? idk. but as long as it keeps me entertained for the next several years, i’m all for it.

#asks #vermillionsails

[severussnapeislife]

About Me!

Name: Alexis W.

Sign: Scorpio ♏

Age: 24

Birthdate: November 17, 1998

Relationship Status: Single Pringle

Favorite Band: Black Veil Brides

Favorite Song: Rebel Love Song, BVB

Celebrity Crush: Andy Black/Biersack

Addiction: Tattoossss

Eye Color: Brown

Hair Color: Brown but always dye it lol

Hogwarts House: Proud Hufflepuff 🦡

Favorite Harry Potter Characters: Severus Snape and Bellatrix Lestrange

Least Favorite Harry Potter Characters: Umbitch and the Dursleys

Favorite Harry Potter Ships: Huna all the way (Harry and Luna if you don't know) and Vikmione (Viktor Krum and Hermione Granger if you didn't know)

Favorite Twilight Characters: Alec, Jane, Caius, Aro, Marcus, Felix, Demetri, The Cullen's minus Alice, Charlie

Least Favorite Twilight Characters: Bella, Alice, Jessica and Jake

Why I like the certain Characters:

Severus Snape: I honestly had a crush on him tbh still think he's fine af, and even though he "hates" harry he protects him!

Bellatrix Lestrange: HAVE YOU SEEN HER OH MY GOD SHE"S SO BEAUTIFUL she may be insane but she loyal af just hate her when she kills dobby lol

Alec: He's so protective; how when him and Jane were burned on the stake we all know he wanted to take her pain away

Jane: How fierce she is but we all know with the right person she's just a marshmallow

Caius: Misunderstood, he only grumpy cuz he don't have a power, and we never know humans coulda hurt him in his human life

Aro: How he treats Jane and Alec like his children

Marcus: He was so devoted to his beautiful wife, he just got so sad when she was killed it breaks my heart

Felix: Boi protective af, especially to his friends/family and he a hunk

Demetri: How cocky he is tbh lol

The Cullens: How kind they can be

Why I don't like the certain Characters:

Umbitch: She's a snotty bitch lol

Dursleys: Look how the treated Harry!

Bella: She was so freaking self centered and didn't care at all about anyone else's feelings throughout the series!

Alice: She practically treated Jasper like a dog

Jessica: Too Snobby!

Jake: Annoying AF Won't accept the answer no

Pic of Cool thing I own!:

#about me

[drjohnwatson]

I messed up on my quiver for legolas (accidentally, don’t ask me how, I literally have my reference pics in front of me 24/7 when working on cosplays), shaped it to bend to the wrong side and had already added polymorph to the leather (so it was stuck) big.... big thingy.

Considered just letting it be but just got rid of the polymorph again and reshaped it. Still gotta redo the polymorph at the bottom but it’s w/e. I badly want this cosplay to look good damn it. 

#I might paint the quiver in a sec in bed bc I that's the only place I want to be rn lmao #Cosplay #Lord of the rings #LOTR #I really do want to be as happy with it as with for example Lucille #I mean that had it's flaws too (but was screen-accurate if you don't look at materials I could not buy but that's w/e; besides missing a few #leaves and it was a lil bulky but otherwise it was fine) #Honestly this is as big as a project as Lucille btw. Which I had hilariously underestimated when I came up with this idea #but it's ok #I like a challenge #And if it comes out somewhat screen-accurate well god damn #that'd be rad #and it'd be a somewhat '''easy to wear #''' cosplay. I mean- sure it's gonna be wayy to hot but at least i get to chill with the makeup and still be a completely different creature #I mean still makeup but no big facepaint thing that'll take 1.5-2.5hrs to do before a con #that's an idea I'm very much into lately #(Easier to wear than Lucille. She was ''easy'' too but it's pretty much immobile I have NO IDEA how Jessica Chastain was able to not only #move so elegantly but also run down stairs WHILE WEARING HIGH AF HEELS hOW #*while also not suffocating from a corset or heat #teach me your ways #how is it already 12am hecc #.....pm??? am??? idk the 0:00 thing. that always gets me confused

[rizlowwritessortof]

Riz’s Master List

Just updated my master list (finally) - haven’t added anything new for a few months, unfortunately, but I’m working on it! Links below the cut. HUGE THANKS to @firefly-graphics for the dividers, you are a GIFT, my friend! 

Never Look Back

Dean Winchester/Female OC, 21 chapters

Bethany Rae Cooper didn’t realize when she met the Winchesters in her family’s bar and grill that her life would never be the same. But she’s always believed that everything happens for a reason, even if it’s not exactly what you were expecting…

The Shadow’s Edge

Dean Winchester/Female OC, 17 chapters

Sequel to Never Look Back. When the demon Dameon was killed, Dean and Beth thought their son was safe from the prophecy. But when Cas brings them news of the new battle for Hell, they realize that their war has just begun.

The Fine Line

Dean Winchester/Female OC, 34 chapters

An unexpected tragedy sends Devon down the dark path of hate and vengeance, but she will learn that things are not always what they seem…

Scars

Dean Winchester/Female OC, 10 chapters

Sequel to The Fine Line. Dean and Devon’s relationship has always been stormy - but can they work through the scars of their past to find each other again?

Stars In the Darkness

Dean Winchester/Female OC, 8 chapters

A crushing loss brings Dean and Sam to Sioux Falls, and ghosts from the past and present bring them across the path of Tiara, a girl they haven’t seen since childhood.

Dreaming

Dean Winchester/Female OC, 5 chapters

Dean Winchester has always been a bit of a thorn in Kelsey’s side - a very attractive thorn, but still… A visit at her uncle Bobby’s reunites her with the boys, and she begins having vivid dreams - about Dean. Is it just her subconscious trying to tell her something? Or is there more to it than that?

My Unimportant Little Life

Dean Winchester/Female OC, 11 chapters

Season 5 timeline. Dean gets yanked from 2009 to 2014, so he can see the ‘consequences’ of saying no to Michael. At Camp Chitaqua he meets Reggie, and is surprised to find that she comes from 2009 as well…

Back In the Saddle

Dean Winchester/Female OC, 10 chapters

Dean and Sam are back in the old west again - in answer to a cry for help from Samuel Colt. And if Dean just happens to get tangled up with the spirited redhead that owns the saloon… what’s the harm, right?

Sweet Escape

Dean/Female Reader, 2 parts

What happens when a friend jokingly does a spell at your birthday party to bring your cardboard standup of Dean Winchester to life? This one’s dedicated to my friend, Liz, who gave me the idea. If only…

Sweet Escape Part 1

Sweet Escape Part 2

Shut Up and Drive

Dean/Female Reader, 2 parts

Reader teases Dean while he’s driving, so - he gets even

Part 1 - Keep Your Eyes on the Road

Part 2 - Or We Could Park - Parking Is Good Too

Take the Long Way Home

Dean Winchester/Female OC, 8 chapters

A look at Dean and Rusty’s relationship, in the present and through their memories. Flashbacks/memories are in italics.

Black Velvet

Demon!Dean/Female Reader, Dean/Female Reader, 9 chapters

You and Sam are broken after Dean’s death. Nobody expected him to come back with black eyes…

Fade to Black

Dean/Female Reader, 11 chapters

Sequel to Black Velvet. Dean is no longer a demon, but he’s still cursed with the Mark of Cain, and the lure of that darkness grows stronger as time goes on.

Dean and Toby Series

Part 1 - The Meet-Cute (Actually Rescue but Whatever)

Part 2 - The Emergency Bed-Share/Move In With Us Combo

Part 3 - The Hit and Then Run Like Your Ass Is On Fire

Part 4 - The FINALLY Admit Your True Feelings and Get Busy

GENERIC

I’m Good

This is the story that was published in the Seasons - Supernatural Short Story Anthology in 2017. Bobby sharing some memories.

Combo Shot

Dean/Female Reader

June 2015 GIEPP (Girl In Every Port Project) entry. Prompt: Pool/Poker hustler competitive chick. Pretty much pure smut.

A Hunter Walks Into a Bar

Dean/Female OC

Prowling hunter, sassy bartender

Shelter

Dean/Female Reader

Dean providing comfort

That’s How It Should Be

Sheriff!Dean/Female Reader

They have to make a fast escape, but Dean won’t let being on horseback stand in the way of showing a lady a good time

The Storm

Dean/Female Reader

You’re terrified of storms, and Dean is concerned, feelings get shared

Pest Control

Dean/Female Reader

You think you’ve got mice. The exterminator that shows up is Dean Winchester. He’ll just let you believe that, and take care of the problem. And you.

Happy Birthday, Baby

Dean/Female OC (KK)

Fluffy, smutty birthday fic written for a friend

Gunpowder and Dean

Dean/Female Reader

You’re pissed off at Dean, taking it out on the firing range, but he just won’t leave you alone…

Juicy and Delicious

Dean/Female Reader

My entry for Dean’s Flavor of the Month fic challenge - Peach Pie. You bake some peach pies for Dean, and he’s very grateful…

Lost In You

Dean/Female Reader

A casual flirtation leads to a violent encounter, and Dean’s reaction is a little more than you expected. Warning for brief description of attempted (unsuccessful) assault. Protective Dean.

What You Need

Dean/Female Reader

You’re watching as Sam and Dean prepare to interrogate a demon. Dean knows you’re watching him, and he knows exactly the kind of effect it’s having on you…

Santa Claus Is Coming Tonight

Dean/Female Reader

Dean’s really getting into the Christmas spirit…

I Need You

Dean/Female Reader

You screwed up, Sam got hurt, Dean’s pissed and you aren’t handling it very well.

Snow Day

Dean/Female Reader

You and Dean, stuck in a motel room in a blizzard

Frisk Me

Dean/Female Cop Reader

You’re a cop, in hot pursuit of a murderer, and guess who crosses your path?

Comfort

Dean/Female Reader

Dean had a rough hunt, and he’s beating himself up as usual. You take his mind off things for a little while…

When I Think About You

Dean/Female Reader

It was a wild hunt, and you’re both a little high-strung. Surely there’s some way to blow off some steam…

One Finger

Dean/Female Reader

Dean Winchester has never been one to back down from a challenge

What Makes You Feel Alive

Endverse!Dean/Female Reader

The world is bleak, the struggle endless after Croatoan. You and Dean do what you have to do to keep going.

Sweet Misery

Dean/Unnamed Female OC

My entry for Bev’s Song Challenge - song prompt was Cryin’ by Aerosmith, lyrics at the beginning

Winchesters Don’t Giggle

Dean/Female Reader

A friend and I were having this discussion about giving Dean a back rub, and whether he might be ticklish…

Confession

Dean (Priest!Dean)/Female Reader

When Dean returns from some undercover work, you discover a fantasy you never realized you had

The Bait

Dean/Female Reader

This was written for @jessica-bones-winchester’s (now on her 100th url as @cavillanche - Love you, Jess!) Dating Dean Writing Challenge. The prompt was ‘dressing up as an anime character for his birthday.’ And I have to admit, I really enjoyed this one… Reader dresses as Sailor Mars (from Sailor Moon) for Dean’s birthday.

Hey, Man - Nice Shot

Dean/Female Reader

This is for @jessica-bones-winchester’s ( @cavillanche ) Dating Dean Writing Challenge. The prompt was ‘competitiveness in the shooting range (loser cleans the kitchen for a week) No smut.

Take the Pain Away

Dean/Female Reader

This was written for @jessica-bones-winchester’s ( @cavillanche ) Dating Dean Writing Challenge. Prompt was ‘him taking care of you when you’re sick.’ Reader falls victim to a migraine, and Dean helps her through it. No smut.

Lose Yourself

Dean/Female Reader

Smut, pure and simple… Just imagine having Dean tied up, at your mercy while you worship those perky nipples…

The Contest

Dean/Female Reader

Dean loves to give you a hard time, and one night he pushes things a little too far… Flashback in italics. All’s well that ends well.

Slow Ride

Dean (Bullriding!Dean) /Reader

Yeah, after 12x11, y'all should have known this was coming - they don’t call me Cowgirl for nothing… Written (coincidentally - timing is everything!) for the Smut Apocalypse (Smut Appreciation Day) on Tumblr.

The Photo Booth

Dean/Unnamed Female OC - Dean’s POV

This was written for @winchestersandwordprocessors SPN Valentine’s Fic Challenge. Prompt was Semi-public/Risk of getting caught.

Make You Mine

Dean/Female Reader

Dean’s jealousy gets the best of him, which is not a bad thing…

Take a Chance

Dean/Unnamed Female OC - Dean’s POV

In 7x04, Dean gives himself a little pep talk before his planned hook-up with the bartender. That scene is what inspired me. This one is more important than the usual one-nighters, and it’s making him a little nervous…

If We Don’t Make It

Dean/Female OC

This fic was written for @whispersandwhiskerburn Angel’s 2K Follower Celebration. My song prompt was “Broken” by Lifehouse, and the dialogue prompt was “If we don’t make it out of this, I need you to know…” No smut.

My Deliverer

Dean/Female Spirit - Her POV

Dean is hunting a vengeful spirit. But another spirit is in this place, and she is drawn to him…

Friendly Advice

Dean/Female Reader - Dean POV, Reader POV

This was written for @deansdirtylittlesecretsblog Mimi’s RomCom Fluff Challenge. The fluff got a little smudged into smutty fun… oops! Two POV’s, Dean’s thoughts are in italics and Reader’s are in regular font.

Old Times

Dean/Female OC

Sequel a few years down the road from A Hunter Walks Into a Bar. Tiara goes back to the bar for a visit, and who should show up the next night but Dean Winchester… Flashback in italics.

You Can Leave Your Hat On

Dean/Female Reader (nicknamed Taz)

Inspired by the sexy AF Cowboy!Dean we were treated to in 13x06 Tombstone. Helped along by Joe Cocker’s rendition of “You Can Leave Your Hat On.“

Wish Her the Best

Dean/Female OC - Dean’s POV

This is an angsty li'l fic inspired by Thomas Rhett’s ‘Marry Me,’ tore at my heart until I finally wrote it. No smut.

A Matter of… Time?

Dean/Female Reader

This is the crackiest piece of work I’ve ever written - for @percywinchester27 Ana’s PJO Quotes Challenge. Prompt was “Don’t you ever feel that way? Like you could do a better job if you ran the world?” - “Umm - no. Me running the world would be kind of a nightmare.”

Demon Seed

Demon!Dean/Female Reader

Demon!Dean stops in for a drink and decides he wants you. He’s very persuasive. Written for @evansrogerskitten’s Hottest Dean Challenge.

Not Wasted Now

Dean/Female Reader

When you all decide to get drunk in the aftermath of a bad hunt, lines get a little blurred. Or crossed. Or fucking erased. Fluffy, smutty, comforting, sweet and sexy Dean.

Bad Guy

Demon!Dean/Female Reader

This was written for @eyes-of-a-disney-princess Rapunzel’s Tangled Up With Supernatural Challenge. My Tangled quote was “You want me to be the bad guy? Fine, now I’m the bad guy.”

Shiny

Trucker!Dean/Female OC

Trucker!Dean AU. Breaker, breaker, got your ears on? 67 Midnight Rider, put that hammer down…

Some Kind of Hero

Dean/Female OC

Written for Tiff’s WTF Challenge. Dean’s just filling up Baby, minding his own business, when he hears an argument and gets involved. Protective Dean, no smut, left that to your imagination.

Crave

Dean/Female Reader

So, have some ‘Riz is craving some sexy Dean action with a big ol’ side of schmoopy fluff’ stuff. Because I was, and I’m sharing with you - the smut and all the sickenly sweet cuddly that I just need sometimes. If y'all are in the mood for that kind of thing.

Perchance to Dream

Dean/Female OC

Using African dream root on a case leads to an awkward situation, and Karlie can’t handle the tension between her and Dean any longer

Ruined

Dean/Female Reader

Dean comes home from a hunt, and he’s had something on his mind…

Going Home

Dean/Female Reader

Written for @crispychrissy’s Gif It To Me Challenge. Overhearing only part of a conversation sends her running, but jumping to conclusions without the whole story isn’t the best decision. No smut.

Not the Smartest Thing

Dean/Female Reader - Reader POV

Only Dean Fucking Winchester could turn taking a swig of beer into pornography. Cocky bastard. But two can play at that game.

Suzy Q

Dean/Female OC - OC POV

Written for @star-spangled-man-with-a-plan’s Multi-fandom Follower Celebration Challenge. Prompt - “I think I’m having a feeling. How do I make it stop?”

Invisible Touch

Dean/Unnamed Female OC

Rowena teaches Dean something new, and he gets inspired. I have no idea where this came from, but here it is…

Maybe I’m Amazed

Dean/Unnamed Female OC

An accident leaves her unconscious and fighting for her life in the hospital, drifting in and out of awareness and memories as Dean refuses to leave her side. Written for @rockhoochie’s 1K Love Supernatural Style Writing Challenge.

Reunion

Dean/Female OC

Passing through town, Dean runs into an old high school classmate. Fluffy and smutty, no angst here!

Playing With Fire

MOC!Dean/Unnamed Female OC

Late Season 10 MOC!Dean smut fic that just wouldn’t leave me alone…

Uninvited

Michael!Dean/Dean/Unnamed Female OC

Michael gives Dean a choice, because sometimes Michael likes to watch…This one is darker than my normal, PLEASE heed the warnings.

What Happens At the Roadhouse…

Early-Season Dean/Female OC

Bailey’s just looking for a couple days post-hunt R&R at Harvelle’s - and then he shows up. Cocky bastard.

Unleashed

Post-Purgatory Dean/Female OC

She’s still struggling to cope a year after Dean disappeared in the explosion that killed Dick Roman.

The Pool House

Dean/Unnamed female OC

Inspired by a dream - one I will never forget!

The Break-In

Dean/Tara (female OC)

One night I started thinking about what it would be like using mics and earbuds and having Dean’s voice RIGHT IN YOUR EAR. And then this fic happened. Hope you enjoy!

Tired of Missing You

Dean/Journey (female OC)

This is one of those times when my story yanked the wheel out of my hands and I just went along for the ride. So if you’re in the mood for a fluffy, angsty cookie with a smutty, creamy middle - here ya go!

Compelled

Dean/Brandi (female OC)

Have you ever had a really bad day at work? I’ve never had a day quite as bad as Brandi’s - but damn, I’d love to use this method to relieve the stress…

The Devil Made Me Do It

Demon!Dean/Shea (Female OC)

Shea is in a reckless mood. Demon!Dean is happy to help her indulge that mood.

Driving Miss Baby

Dean/Reader

Dean decides you need a driving lesson in Baby.

Just a Little Story About Lou and Sam

Sam/Female OC

Lou and Sam walk into a bar… written for a friend who’s a Sammy girl

Doctor-Patient Relations

Sam/Female OC

One-shot inspired by The Born-Again Identity - sick Sammy and Dr. Nicole. Written for another Sammy-girl friend

Head vs. Heart

No title

Fourth of July

Working Saturday Isn’t So Bad

11x17 Drabble

Some Nights He Dreams

Most of the Time

The Name Game

God Bless America

Stress Relief

Dean Hurt/Comfort Drabble

@mrs-squirrel-chester ‘s Album Fanfic Writing Challenge Drabbles

    Dangerous

    For My Brother

    In Chains

    Kiss and Tell

    The End of Me

    Choices

    Hero

    Pure

    In the End

#riz's master list #updated 6/12/21 #dividers by firefly-graphics

[jess-rewatches-prodigalson]

The Last Weekend (S2, E13)

It’s been a trip fam. Hopefully, it continues for a third season. Thanks for sticking with me this far. 

My time-stamped thoughts for this episode are below. As always I reference Malcolm’s mental health. A lot. So if that’s going to be a trigger for you, don’t keep reading.

SPOILERS AHEAD:

0:19 - That taxidermy is creepy af. 

0:25 - Ok. But like, this is amazing. Look at Malcolm. He’s confused,  annoyed, and a little pissed off but he doesn’t actually look scared. He just woke up in a strange place tied to a chair and the last thing he remembers is telling his father to run. He knows his serial killer father kidnapped him but he’s not scared because there’s a part of Malcolm that is so so desperate for Martin to love him. Malcolm is NOT okay. His reaction to being kidnapped by his serial killer father is evidence of that. This dude is not in a good mental place. I'm here for it. This is bad. 

0:40 - Groggy, annoyed, and sassy Malcolm is adorable.

0:51 - This is a woman who thinks not telling the NYPD about that Capshaw phone call killed her son. She doesn’t know where Malcolm is right now or if he’s alive. BUT Jessica knows Martin has Malcolm and therefore - Malcolm is not safe. The guilt and fear is oozing from Jessica and I want to hug her. :( <3

1:13 - Again. Malcolm is in danger. Why doesn’t Ainsley seem to be worried? At all?!? This girl’s lack of empathy is genuinely concerning. If my brother was abducted by our abusive father I would be a wreck. 

1:25 - “Don’t get cocky.” HA. What a great line. Although, it’s really sad to see how desperate Ainsley is for some attention from her mother. Although, I do love the contrast between this line and the line from 1x3: "You watch my reports?" "Not with the sound on". Jessica really is growing as a parent. I love that for her. 

1:31 - “Capshaw is claiming Malcolm was Dad’s accomplice.” WHY ISN'T AINSLEY UPSET ABOUT THIS. SHE’S ACTING LIKE IT’S JUST SOME JUICY GOSSIP. BE ANGRY GIRL. BE SCARED. BE UPSET. THIS IS YOUR BROTHER. At least Jessica is pissed and scared about it. 

1:46 - “Cruel eyes.” Has Capshaw ever looked at Malcolm? That boy has the sweetest eyes ever. They’re a gorgeous shade of blue, wide, and expressive. Never cruel. Often fearful. ALSO the fact that Capshaw looks at the window (where she knows Malcolm’s friends are standing) when she says this INFURIATES ME. I want this woman dead. She is the spawn of Satan and you can't change my mind. 

1:50 - The way Dani looks at Gil when he says, “You buying this?” is wonderful. This girl is scandalized at the idea that Gil might be buying Capshaw’s story. This girl is team Malcolm and I love her for it. She's so offended at the idea that Gil - the man who's known Malcolm since he was 10 years old - might think Malcolm is a bad guy. <3 <3 

1:52 - “Our boy’s crazy, but not that crazy.” <3 <3 <3 Every time JT calls Malcolm “our boy” or “our guy” my heart explodes. I love the evolution of their relationship so so so much. <3 Also JT is giving off major big brother vibes to Dani and Malcolm this episode and I LOVE IT. <3

1:54 - “Good. We all know she’s lying. Problem is we’re the only ones.” This whole scene. *CHEF’S KISS* Seriously, protective!Dani, protective!JT, and protective!Gil in the same scene?!? All going to bat for Malcolm? I’m in love. This is the found family content I’m here for. ALSO look at GIL. This man is so so pissed that someone is trying to paint his surrogate son as the bad guy. Gil is a good man but someone is threatening his family and that means he’s going to break his own rules. <3 I’m here for it. This is the kind of inner turmoil I subscribed to this show for. 

2:02 - "Good morning sleepyhead." I have thoughts. 1) If Martin truly cared about Malcolm why didn't he restrain Malcolm on one of those twin beds (where he could actually sleep) instead of tying him to a chair?!?! 2) Look at how hard Martin is trying to act like Malcolm's friend (not even a good friend). He's not acting like Malcolm's dad. A dad or a good friend wouldn't leave a guy who just suffered from an embolism alone and tied to a chair. They'd take him to a hospital, obviously that was out of the question here. So for the sake of this comparison, a good friend/dad would have put Malcolm on the bed, gotten some warm blankets for him, made sure water was close by, and stayed with him until he woke up - to you know, MAKE SURE HE'S STILL BREATHING?!?! BUT not Martin, this dude just waltzes into the room and delivers a mildly condescending yet cheery rendition of "good morning sleepyhead" almost as though Malcolm's unconscious state was a burden to Martin. Even though Malcolm was unconscious because MARTIN DRUGGED HIM (also not good!Dad behaviour). 

2:04 - "You drugged me?!?" This breaks my heart. After everything, Malcolm is still surprised (and rightfully annoyed) that his father drugged him. Malcolm knows that Martin is a bad man. He knows Martin has drugged him before. He knows he shouldn't trust Martin but after everything there's still a part of Malcolm desperate to believe that Martin loves him. PLUS one of the last memories Malcolm has before he woke up in this motel is of Martin saving his life. Malcolm was giving in to the "maybe Dad really does love me" mentality. It's heartbreaking and I want to give Malcolm a hug. 

2:23 - I find this whole exchange so upsetting yet interesting. Both Malcolm and Martin are being openly hostile to each other. Usually, Malcolm is civil to Martin but right now, Martin is NOT chained to a wall and Malcolm is acting like an argumentative and whiny teenager (and rightfully so but still not a safe move). Martin is matching Malcolm’s mood. Martin is engaging in Malcolm’s frustration with an off-putting amount of cheer. I honestly believe Martin is just ecstatic that he’s been given an opportunity to ‘be a father’ again. There’s also a part of me that is completely convinced that Martin was already hatching his plan to have Malcolm kill him. Why would he do that? My answer: 1) Martin doesn’t want to go back to prison, 2) To finally get revenge on Malcolm for turning him in in 1998, 3) he’s a predatory psychopath and he saw an opportunity to screw with someone, 4) Martin is pissed off that Malcolm keeps trying to distance himself from Martin. Martin see’s it as betrayal and he wants to make Malcolm suffer. 

2:25 - THIS. IS. AMAZING. The way Malcolm immediately panics and tries to escape Martin when the switchblade comes out is incredible. You can see Malcolm’s perspective shift. We actually see it flip back and forth all episode. Half the time, Malcolm is a little boy desperately trying to convince himself that Martin has changed and that Martin loves him. The other half of the time, Malcolm is a logical and educated adult who knows Martin is a dangerous killer who is trying to manipulate him. It’s such a compelling dichotomy.

 2:44 - “We are the victims here Malcolm.” I absolutely believe that Martin believes this statement. HOWEVER, I also think he’s using the situation to his advantage in an attempt to sway Malcolm’s trust in him. 

2:52 - “You’re in a pickle.” This infuriates me. Martin does NOT love or care about Malcolm. What Martin does love - is what Malcolm does for him. ie. Providing him a connection to the real world (visiting him in prison), giving him an outlet for his attention-seeking needs, giving him a plaything to manipulate. Martin views Malcolm as a pet NOT a person and NOT a son. That kills me. 

2:55 - “I need to call Gil.” <3 <3 This is absolutely beautiful and terrifyingly stupid. Beautiful because Malcolm is in trouble and his knee-jerk reaction is “Gil can help. I trust Gil. Gil loves me. He’ll listen. He’ll help.” <3 <3 So precious. It’s scary though because it’s no secret that Martin views Gil as a threat to his family. This will make Martin more determined to manipulate Malcolm. Because again, Martin views everything as possessions. He doesn’t actually love Malcolm, Ainsley, and Jessica. He loves the idea of them and what he can do with them. He doesn’t actually care about them though. He only cares about their wellbeing to the extent of how it will affect him. (SIDE NOTE: I’m honestly crushed that we didn’t get a proper Gil+Martin face off during this finale.)

2:58 - “Gil’s great and all.” This man speaketh from his ass. He hates Gil. This is some damn fine manipulation. He’s interaction with Malcolm in a way he knows Malcolm will have a positive reaction. I respect it. It also makes my blood boil (out of love for Malcolm).

3:05 - “Who would you believe?” This hurts. Look at how absolutely crushed Malcolm looks. Malcolm knows no one will believe him. Why would they? He’s the son of a serial killer with well documented mental health issues and well documented issues with rule-following. It’s common knowledge that he’s an intense and weird dude. And it’s all Martin’s fault. 

3:07 - “Can we talk?” I’m impressed. First, Martin complements the man he knows Malcolm respects more than anything. Then, he appeals to Malcolm’s insecurities and fears of being ‘The Surgeon’s son’. He does it all calmly, in a comforting tone of voice. This is manipulation at its finest. 

3:17 - “You look ridiculous.” This is Malcolm fully aware that Martin just tried to manipulate him. It still hurt Malcolm because those fears about no one believing him are completely rational and a very logical outcome of the scenario but at least Malcolm is aware of Martin’s game.

3:30 - “I’m Clare.” .....Clare = Claremont. Did Martin do that subconsciously or is he aware?  I can totally see him accidentally picking that name because after 20 years he’s begun to define himself as a part of the Claremont institution. He’s almost trying to maintain that link to the life he’s become accustom to. 

3:35 - “Too insane.” Holy shit. Malcolm sassing Martin is 1) hilarious but 2) super scary because I just keep waiting for Martin to snap and hurt Malcolm for his “disrespectful and ungrateful behaviour”. Malcolm really has no fear in this scene and I’m scared for what that means for his mental state. It’s not good. That much I know. 

3:45 - “I’m not your friend.” This broke my heart. Malcolm is so upset as he delivers this little outburst. He can see that Martin is trying to act like his friend instead of a loving father. It’s killing the little boy inside of Malcolm. It’s also frustrating for Malcolm because he wants so badly to do the right thing (turn Martin in) but he also just wants his dad to act like a real dad. 

3:55 - The fear in Malcolm’s eyes when Martin brings the knife back out. <3 Gorgeous. 

4:00 - The trepidation in Malcolm’s face as Martin cuts him loose. <3  ALSO, “I didn’t kill you. That’s gotta count for something.” why the hell should that count for something now? Martin tried to kill a 10 year old Malcolm. That should be the end. Any FATHER who tries to kill his 10 year old son (no matter what the kid may have done) is a garbage human and that child should never be told he has to forgive, trust, or have a relationship with his father. On some level Malcolm knows this BUT he’s also desperately trying to convince himself that Martin is a changed man. 

4:12 - WTF Ainsley? This scene genuinely makes me believe Ainsley has been somehow involved in this whole prison break scheme. Or at least, she’s been in contact with Martin since the escape. 

4:43 - “You’ve got to be kidding me.” Okay. Fine. Ainsley is finally showing a bit of fear here. But is it because of the Woodsman? Something tells me Martin has gotten into Ainsley’s head and Ainsely genuinely believes that Malcolm is safe with Martin. The Woodsman changes things though. Maybe the Woodsman was a variable Ainsley wasn’t expecting or didn’t plan with Martin. 

5:00 - “Why are we in Vermont?” First of all - there’s something precious about the way this line was delivered. Secondly, why is Malcolm eating? Doesn’t most food make him sick (1x1)? This is a high stress situation - presumably he’d be too nauseous/stressed to eat right now. 

5:15 - “That dream’s as dead as your 23 victims.” hahahaha ZING. This line actually hurts though. It’s not just Martin’s dream that’s dead. Malcolm’s is too. Presumably Malcolm has a fantasy somewhere in the back of his mind where he’s happily married with children. Hell, maybe his children visit their grandparents every weekend for Sunday brunch? But Malcolm probably doesn’t actually think he can have kids or a spouse because he’s terrified of what kind of a father and husband he’d be. That’s Martin’s fault. Martin has doomed Malcolm to avoid the deep, meaningful relationships in life that Malcolm clearly craves. 

5:25 - “I’m absolutely right” The anger in Malcolm’s voice is incredible and concerning. On one hand, it’s great that he’s being honest with Martin. He’s making Martin work for his trust and he’s communicating that Martin ruined certain aspects of Malcolm’s life. On the other hand, this boy has no sense of self-preservation. He’s provoking a predatory psychopath. He’s almost begging Martin to hurt him. I’m terrified at what that means for Malcolm’s mental health. 

5:35 - “Don’t you ever think it’s possible that I changed?” Look at Martin’s big stupid face. He doesn’t believe that he’s changed. He’s just trying to manipulate Malcolm. Martin doesn’t view Malcolm as a son. Just as a plaything. 

5:55 - “You want to find a missing woman. That’s your brilliant plan?” It’s an excellent plan. It’s a plan Martin knows Malcolm won’t be able to deny. Martin has observed Malcolm’s obsession with understanding serial killers for 23 years. Martin has watched Malcolm torture himself to save the victims of serial killers. Martin knows this is the one plan that will (at least temporarily) stop Malcolm from turning him in. Malcolm’s need to help other people is stronger than his need to help himself. So again, Martin is a shitty father. 

6:19 - “I worked the Woodsman case at the bureau for years.” Of course he did. $100 bucks says Martin knew that and he planned this out before his escape. Capshaw was an inconvenient hiccup in the plan but he was always going to kidnap Malcolm and try to manipulate Malcolm into becoming his partner in crime. 

6:42 - “Someone who’s not going to call Gil Arroyo the first chance he gets.” Damn. Martin feels threatened by Gil’s relationship with Malcolm. Which is why an escaped!Martin and Gil showdown would’ve made my year. 

6:46 - How convenient that Jeannie is from New York. 

6:52 - “But we could save her. Together.” Ugh. This breaks my heart. You can see that Malcolm knows Martin is manipulating him. You can also see that this is an offer Malcolm can’t deny. Saving people and finding/understanding killers is what keeps Malcolm sane. PLUS he desperately wants to spend time with the ‘nice’ version of his dad. The one he remembers from 1998. Malcolm is eating out of the palm of Martin’s hand and it’s so so so upsetting. 

7:01 - Why does Gary look so much like Deputy Crutchfield? It’s the moustache. 

7:10 - “This is my partner. Cameron.” UGh. I’m going to throw up. 1) Malcolm’s startled expression melts my heart. This boy does not want to be Martin’s partner in any sense of the word.  2) Was Martin implying that Cameron is Clare’s sexual partner? The hand around Malcolm’s shoulders made it feel that way to me. 

7:15 - Ugh. :( The way Malcolm looks at the hand on his shoulder. :( You can see how conflicted he feels. He likes the gentle, fatherly physical affection from Martin but he knows that Martin is a killer and this is an act. You can see that Malcolm knows this is all a hoax but you can also see how desperately Malcolm wants to believe in it. 

7:45 - OMG. This is a man who hasn’t been in public for a very long time. This is not socially acceptable behaviour and Malcolm looks so embarrassed and scared (that someone will recognize the serial killer making loud noises of pleasure over his pancakes). 

7:55 - I love that Malcolm isn’t eating. It aligns with Malcolm’s canonical eating problems. Kudos for the rare plot consistency.

8:13 - “I suppose I’m a little bisexual.” Ugh. Shut up Martin. You absolute moron. You’re not bisexual. You’re just a manipulative nutcase. It does make me wonder though, is this Martin’s way of trying to bond with Malcolm? Like maybe (whether it’s true or not) Martin thinks Malcolm might not be straight and he’s trying to have a father-son coming out of the closet moment? .....it sounds like a reach even in my head but here I am with this theory.

8:39 - The fact that Martin is such a verbal feminist throughout this show is so off putting to me. He’s a serial killer. He has no issues MURDERING people for FUN. Yet somehow it feels like I’m supposed to respect him more than the average man because he believes women are people with rights? Nah. It makes me hate him more because I don’t thinks he’s an actual feminist. I think he’s acting. He’s trying to appeal to what will make him seem more likeable. I think it’s a tactic he uses to soften Malcolm to his manipulation. 

8:48 - “I worked this case for years. Almost lost my mind over it.”........okay so I want more details on this. Did the FBI take him off the case? Did he stop working the case because he was fired? Did Gil watch Malcolm become consumed by the case and beg him to take himself off the case? 

8:52 - “I called every number at the FBI. You wanted nothing to do with me.” I hate Martin. He’s trying to blame Malcolm. He’s suggesting that more women could have been saved from the Woodsman if Malcolm hadn’t been ignoring Martin while he worked for the FBI. Martin is actually implying that the Woodsman could have been caught years ago if Malcolm wasn’t such a bad son. 

8:57 - “...such anger issues. Still do.” I’m going to punch him. I hate Martin. He’s mentally torturing our mental-fragile baby and he’s having fun doing it. Malcolm looks absolutely wrecked and my heart is shattering. Someone needs to give Malcolm a hug. Yesterday. 

8:59 - This moment has been giffed but damn is it worth pointing out again. The way Malcolm is self-soothing with his left hand while his right hand shakes is gorgeous. It really shows the depth of Malcolm’s inner conflict. I’m in love with this moment. Give Tom Payne an Emmy. Please.

9:13 - “There’s no time, my boy.” Every word that comes out of Martin’s mouth is calculated and manipulative. He has Malcolm exactly where he wants him and I hate it. 

10:05 - I’m 90% sure Martin already knows who the Woodsman is. He’s just playing dumb so he can screw with Malcolm’s head for longer.

10:17 - YES MALCOLM. Stand up to Martin. I love it. It also makes me worry about Malcolm’s mental health but I think we can all agree that Malcolm’s been on a downward spiral for months. At this point, our boy is not going to start improving his mental state until he hits rock bottom. 

10:19 - Martin actually looks shocked when Malcolm demands he earn his trust. Like it never occurred to him that Malcolm might be willing to rebuild the trust to begin with. 

10:30 - This whole scene between Gil and Ruiz is genuinely one of my top scenes of this episode (maybe even of the season). “The media will crucify him” “You might as well issue a shoot on sight order” “This isn’t a joke” “He has his demons but he’s not his father.” “I’ll stake my career on it.” This is one of the purest Papa!Gil scenes of the season and Malcolm isn’t even present. I love how Gil is literally willing to put his entire career on the line for Malcolm. I love how Gil is fighting for Malcolm in a public setting. Look at how the whole precinct watches the exchange. Gil is putting himself on the line in front of an entire precinct of people who respect him out of love for Malcolm. <3 <3 <3 

10:47 - “If he’s still alive.” If. Gil is terrified. Gil is losing hope. This isn’t like Watkins. Gil knows how desperately Malcolm wants Martin’s love and Gil knows that compromises Malcolm’s ability to profile his way out of a dangerous situation. Gil knows that Martin will kill Malcolm. Maybe not today, this week, or this year but it’s part of Martin’s plan. Gil knows that even if Martin doesn’t kill Malcolm - he’s capable of taking Malcolm away forever. Maybe by going on the run but maybe just because he tormented Malcolm to the point where Malcolm regresses to the scared 10-year old that Gil worked so hard to help. Gil knows Malcolm won’t survive that kind of trauma again. At least not mentally. Gil is terrified and I’m in awe. 

11:05 - “C’mon kid. Where the hell are you?” Hear that? It’s my heart shattering into a million pieces because this is the type of father Malcolm deserves. The fatherly concern Gil has for Malcolm is everything to me. 

11:20 - “Damn his daughter’s smoking.” hahahaha the irony. 

11:24 - Why am I so shocked and delighted that Malcolm has an NYPD ID? <3 It makes perfect sense that he’d have one but now I have these headcanons of Gil taking Malcolm around to the accounting office, and the administration offices to get him set up at the NYPD and my heart can’t handle how cute it is. 

12:12 - “You brought egg salad.” Ugh. These guys are so artificially in love and it grosses me out. 

12:54 - See what I mean? Crutchfield looks like Gary from the motel. I can’t unsee it. 

13:12 - Look another moment where Gil is CLEARLY thinking “this family I swear” hahahaha this man is so done with life today 

13:44 - “I know that look Jess.” <3 Aww....they’re practically married. <3 Jokes aside, this is amazing. Jessica respects Gil and she stops her plans when she notices the look on Gil’s face. She knows he’s not trying to control her - he’s trying to protect her and her children. He loves them and he’s trying to lighten her load. 

15:00 - “It’s your Lieutenant.” there’s a split second when you can see the hope, confusion, and fear clouding Malcolm’s face. For just a moment he thinks Gil is on the phone. Then the deputy says “Clare” and Malcolm’s expression transforms into one of annoyance and disgust. 

15:20 - “I didn’t have a credit card.” BAHAHAHAHAHA can we all just agree that talking about porn with your adult children is gross?

15:27 - This. Is. The. Worst. Thing. That. Could. Happen. The headline says “Son of Martin Whitly” and then later we find out Malcolm BRIGHT is on a wanted poster. Malcolm’s privacy from the press has been compromised. His life has been compromised. Nothing will ever be the same. This is bad for Malcolm’s already fragile mental health. His flimsy sense of safety has been forcibly removed and the public is going to crucify him again. Just for being Martin Whitly’s son. People are going to Google him. They’re going to find out he went to Harvard, that he was fired from the FBI, that he has mental health problems (although, Ainsley already exposed that). 

15:52 - Damn. It should be illegal for someone’s wanted picture to be that attractive (and I say that as an asexual).

16:00 - “You need a minute?” I love LOVE this interaction between JT and Dani. You can see that JT is a little unsure of how to talk to Dani because he loves her like a little sister and he knows she loves Bright. It’s adorable. <3 Big brother JT is my favourite JT. 

16:17 - “I like the guy.” UGH. I’m going to go sob in the corner. <3 <3 This line is AMAZING for two (2) reasons. 1) JT is admitting that he likes Malcolm. The bromance is real and I’m here for it. 2) This is JT subtly telling Dani that he knows she likes Bright as more than a friend and it’s not a bad thing. Malcolm isn’t a bad person and he can understand why she’s attracted to the annoying little dude. <3 

16:35 - Why is Ainsley working with Dani and JT? Does she actually want to find them? I still think she’s somehow involved in this. 

16:48 - “Did you steal this truck?!?” Good boy Malcolm. Don’t trust him. 

17:05 - Martin’s biggest mistake: he underestimated how devoted Malcolm is to his ‘mission’. He wasn’t able to manipulate and subdue Malcolm as quickly as he would’ve liked and now his plan is unravelling because Malcolm is snapping out of his ‘Martin might be good’ trance. 

17:19 - “I’m calling Gil. I should’ve known.” <3 I have no words. Just joy.

17:45 - “I do not want my son getting killed because of it.” LIES. Martin tried to kill Malcolm because of it when Malcolm was 10 years old. Martin didn’t care when Malcolm was bullied, shunned, and literally locked in a closet because of Martin. Martin didn’t care that the weight of his crimes destroyed his son’s childhood and continued mental health. Martin. Doesn’t. Care. The problem? Malcolm so so desperately wants to believe that Martin cares about him. You can convince yourself of almost anything if you want to badly enough. 

18:13 - Annnnnd Martin’s plan is back on. He’s lied his way back into Malcolm’s tentative good graces and the manipulation is still in full force. 

18:18 - The parallel that Martin is going on a stakeout with Malcolm right now and the fact that Gil used to take Malcolm on stakeouts as a kid is overwhelming. Do you think Martin knew about those stakeouts? Is this Martin’s way of trying to prove to Malcolm that he’s a better father than Gil?

18:33 - I DO NOT LIKE THIS. I DO NOT LIKE THIS. I DO NOT LIKE THIS. Capshaw is crazy and I don’t like her alone with my queen Jessica. #stressed

18:37 - “Believe me, I understand.” Ugh. Someone (preferably Gil) hug Jessica. This woman has been repressing her emotions for too long. :( 

18:56 - Ooooooooohhhhhh Capshaw just made the biggest mistake of her life. This woman is actively trying to convince the world that Malcolm is just like Martin Whitly and then she said as much to his mother’s FACE. I’m here for the lady fight. Say what you want, but vicious girl fights are so much more entertaining than dudes who just hit each other. 

19:29 - Bitch. Jessica regularly mixes pills with alcohol. Research your victim, moron. This isn’t going to work. 

19:56 - “You. Always you.” .....isn’t that what Malcolm said to Eve? Ew. ALSO the way Martin dismisses Malcolm’s admittance is very upsetting. If he wanted to prove that he’s a good father he should really pretend to care. At least a little. 

20:25 - As far as Martin is concerned, this is a victory. His son trusts him enough to let him out of the car - unsupervised. Martin’s plan is working (as far as Martin knows anyways. Malcolm is still definitely conflicted).

20:43 - I love that Malcolm keeps calling for “Martin”. Not “Dad”. Not “Dr. Whitly” (that would be bad on account of the manhunt). Just “Martin”. This goes back to Malcolm not knowing who “Martin” is to him He’s still trying to figure it out. Hell, he only resorts to calling him “Clare” when he thinks it’s the only way Martin will get back in the truck. 

21:15 - “What the hell is he doing?” EXCELLENT question. Seriously - did this moron not recognize the Surgeon and his son? There’s a literal manhunt for these two right now. It’s all over the news. It was playing on the precinct TV only a few hours ago. WHY DID CRUTCHFIELD NOT CALL ANYONE ABOUT THEIR IDENTITIES?!? Isn’t it protocol to call the NYPD about this or a hotline? I’m sure it said as much on the wanted flyers and the news.

22:05 - I’m honestly so stressed that Jessica is tipsy and drugged right now. 

22:35 - “Back then I wasn’t a good judge of character. Now I can sniff them out a mile away.” UGH. This honestly gives me PTSD. My mom says the same thing. She married an abusive man and now she claims she’s self-aware and is an excellent judge of character (spoiler alert: she’s not). My mom is about as good at it as Jessica. I mean, anyone remember Endicott? Or Eve? 

23:06 - “What was that Jessie?” OMG. I hate Capshaw more with each passing moment. 

23:16. - GIL. OH THANK GOD. JESSICA IS GOING TO BE OKAY. EVERYTHING IS GOING TO BE OKAY. JESSICA DIDN’T GO LONE RANGER ON THIS. 

23:34 - Is that a picture of baby Malcolm on the mantle? <3 So cute. <3

24:10 - This bitch is going to jail for a looooonnnng time. Gil Arroyo and Jessica Whitly just heard her admit to torturing their son. She’s going to suffer. I’m happy about it.

24:28 - “Daddy. Daddy.” My heart is breaking. This is a real insecurity that Jessica has about Malcolm. She feels like she’s not enough for Malcolm. That’s why he keeps visiting Martin. That’s why Malcolm was so attached to Gil and Jackie as a kid (and now). Jessica feels inadequate as a mother. That probably contributes to how she emotionally neglects Ainsley. She’s afraid of trying and failing to be enough for both of her children. So she denies herself the possibility of failure by throwing the match. 

25:07 - Jessica and Malcolm studying Krav Maga together. Headcannon accepted. My heart swells at the thought. 

26:12 - Anyone else think it’s interesting that the picture of baby Ainsley was smashed over Jessica’s head. It just feels too convenient. It has to be some sort of hidden message. Does it mean that Ainsley’s the one who is going to destroy the family? Does it mean Ainsley’s working with Capshaw (or Martin)? It has to mean something. Right?!?

26:34 - “I meant for her sake.” I love Gil. He’s not threatened by the fact that Jessica is a badass. Hell, he thinks it hot. Weak men are intimidated by strong women. Gil’s a keeper. 

26:46 - WHUMP. <3

27:15 - This wasn’t part of Martin’s plan but I do genuinely think Martin’s not nearly as scared as he’s acting. 

27:38 - Why doesn’t JT introduce Ainsley? Because she’s not law enforcement and she’s not technically supposed to be there?

27:56 - Damn. Ainsley is desperate for attention from anyone. I bet you that’s why she became a reporter. People have to listen to you when your face is on their TV reporting the news. 

29:41 - JT is triggered. :( This is PTSD. The last time a gun was pointed at him it was extremely traumatic “I’m a father. I’m a good man and I am not a threat to you.” :( Someone hug him. 

29:57 - “But she is.” <3 DAMN. Badass!Dani for the win. <3 

30:34 - “Predatory psychopath married an emotionally compromised enabler.” Is this a comment on Jessica and Martin’s marriage? Jessica didn’t consciously enable Martin but her rich lifestyle and the things she was willing to overlook to maintain appearances definitely gave Martin more leeway than he should have had. 

30:48 - “You haven’t been in my league for decades.” Yep. Now Martin wants to kill Don. He didn’t need Malcolm to beg him to hurt Don. Martin was already chomping at the bit. 

32:00 - “NO.” Malcolm’s not his father. Even now he doesn’t want anyone to get hurt. He tries to protect everyone from physical harm. Even serial killers. That’s a good man. 

32:30 - I hated this speech from Ainsley. It felt....artificial? I just can’t see Ainsley actually believing that her Mother is light, kind, and good when she clearly resents her Mother for paying so much attention to Malcolm and neglecting her. This whole speech just felt really out of character to me. It felt like Ainsley was pulling a Malcolm - saying whatever she needed to get the suspect to confess to the truth. 

33:43 - “I can’t. Not anymore.” Bullshit. Martin clearly wants to hurt this guy. He just refuses to do it until Malcolm begs. Also, it feels like the show is trying to suggest that this is Malcolm giving into the ‘darkness’ that Ainsley was referring to. I disagree. This is typical Malcolm - consumed by the need to save a victim and solve the case. This is the guy who chopped off a guy’s hand to save his life, the guy who tried to infiltrate a cult to save Andi, the guy who tried climbed out of an elevator shaft to arrest a serial killer. Malcolm just doesn’t care about himself and his mental health isn’t doing so great. That doesn’t mean he’s becoming a killer. He’s not ‘going dark’.

34:40 - “Please. I’m asking as your son.” This wrecked me. 1) Malcolm looks so utterly destroyed here. Anguish is all over his face. You can see him grasping at straws because he’s so desperate to save Jeannie. He’s willing to compromise the idea that his Dad may have changed. Malcolm knows Martin hasn’t changed but asking him to do this will make it real and kill Malcolm’s desperate fantasy of a bio-dad who loves him. 2) Martin is a piece of shit. You can see how utterly delighted he is when Malcolm begs and refers to himself as Martin’s son. Martin views Malcolm as a possession and it delights him to hear Malcolm confirm that possession (”I’m asking as you son.”)

35:00 - Okay. His hand isn’t shaking but look at him. You can’t tell me he’s enjoying this. He looks terrified, guilty, nauseous and I don’t think it’s because he’s suddenly realizing that he and Martin are the same. I think it’s because he just compromised his moral code to save a total stranger. He somehow found it in himself to favour a Jeannie over Don. Yes - Don is a serial killer. Yes - Jeannie is his victim. So, yeah - picking Jeannie over Don is logical but does that make it right? That’s what Malcolm is struggling with. That AND the fact that he just asked his Dad to hurt someone - the screaming is probably bringing back suppressed childhood PTSD from that camping trip in the woods. 

35:13 - Another crazy theory for why Malcolm’s hand isn’t shaking. Have you ever been so so so scared/stressed/anxious that you felt nothing? Seriously - it’s like your brain just shuts down everything but life support and your body goes on autopilot. I honestly think that could be happening to Malcolm as a way to cope with the stress. 

35:20 - This is Martin pretending to be tormented and I HATE HIM FOR IT. He’s playing with our broken boy and I despise him for it. Hasn’t Malcolm suffered enough?!?!

36:04 - Something tells me that Don’s testimony will be vital to clearing Malcolm’s name next season (yes, I’m in complete denial that this show is cancelled). 

37:03 - This hurts. Martin is comforting Jeannie and it’s bringing back childhood memories for Malcolm. Memories of a Dad who used to read him bedtime stories and tuck him into bed at night. Memories that are tainted with the knowledge that Martin is a serial killer. Look at how sad Malcolm is. He’s fully accepting that Martin hasn’t changed and that he never will. He’s letting go of the desperate hope that Martin might love him the way he remembers as a child. He’s remembering that the love he experienced as a child was all a hoax on Martin’s part to begin with. 

37:07 - WHEN DID MALCOLM GET A PHONE??!?! WTF. 

37:14 - “The bad man is gone now.” Except he’s not. He’s always been here. He didn’t change. He just tried to be cleverer than his son. It failed. 

37:52 - Do you know what would have made this scene even more powerful? A flashback to the phone call baby Malcolm made to 911 in 1998. 

38:08 - NOW Martin is Dr.Whitly because Malcolm has fully accepted that Martin = The Surgeon = Dr. Whitly. They’re all the same and they all suck.

38:33 - “Maybe I need to work on that.” <3 <3 Yes, get sober sweetheart. Your dependance on alcohol and pills is not healthy. 

38:45 - This Gillica moment will live forever in my heart. I swear I’ve never shipped to people so hard while fully wanting them to be my parents. 

38:51 - OMG. Of fucking course it’s Edrisa. <3 hahahahaha

39:29 - The fact that Malcolm gave Jeannie his jacket is so cute to me. Just more proof that Malcolm’s a good guy. 

39:57 - Looks like the Claremont cardio program is lacking. (I’m so mean).

40:08 - I love this whole exchange between Martin and Malcolm. 1) I fully believe that Martin is genuinely upset that Malcolm turned him in (the dude doesn’t want to go back to prison - fair enough). 2) Malcolm just looks so broken as he listens to his father rant. You can see how bad Malcolm feels for turning his own father over to the cops. Again. The guilt is consuming Malcolm. Very bad for his flimsy mental health. 

40:22 - “You made me become him again.” Okay. Stay in your lane Martin. Let’s not victim blame here. You’re a monster. You’ve been manipulating Malcolm all day and you’re still at it. You wanted to hurt Don but you want to hurt Malcolm more. 

41:11 - “This world isn’t for you.” My heart is shattering. You can hear the pain in Malcolm’s voice. This isn’t a conversation anyone should have to have with a parents. Especially not when you’re already wracked with guilt and mental health issues that you’re not coping with.

41:20 - “Dad. Listen to me. I’m trying to save you.” THIS. THIS is the show. For two years we’ve watched Malcolm try to empathize and understand killers because he’s desperate to save his father and alleviate his guilt for turning Martin in. 

42:00 - “I was a good father. But you, you were never a good son.” ...............this is bad. Shit. This. Is. Bad. This is going to torment Malcolm for the rest of his life. He is going to constantly question “should I have been nicer to Ainsley? Should I have been more obedient? Should I have shown more of an interest in medicine? Would that have stopped that from killing? Did he kill because I wasn’t a good enough son?” Logically Malcolm will know none of that is true but it won’t matter because pain isn’t always logical. 

42:26 - 1) Damn. This family is stabby. 2) holy shit holy shit holy shit. 3) I’m shook. I fully expected it but I’m still shook. It was self defence but that won’t matter. Sure, there’s a 90% chance that Malcolm won’t suffer legally for this but there’s a 100% chance this is going to ruin Malcolm’s life. The guilt is going to swallow him whole. His mental health is going. to reach an all time low. The media will crucify him. No one will look at him the same. He won’t be able to go anywhere without people making assumptions about him. He’s going to be transported back to 1998 - this time with more trauma. It’s not going to be good (and I’m ecstatic at the thought of it because I’m an emotional whump whore). 

42:40 - His hand’s not shaking. I honestly think it’s because he’s in shock because Malcolm still looks like hell. He’s dissociating. If this triggers a mute!Malcolm episode I’m going to be the most excited person in the world. 

42:46 - “I was right. We’re the same.” This was Martin’s master plan. He knew once he escaped Claremont there was no going back. He didn’t want to go back to prison so he found a way to get himself killed (I’m assuming this kills Martin because that’s a lot of blood). No only did he plan to either 1) be on the run forever or 2) die trying  - he made sure that he could torment Malcolm as much as possible along the way. This sentence is going to destroy Malcolm. That sentence has been his greatest fear for 23 years. Now he thinks it’s true. It doesn’t matter that he stabbed out of self-defence. Fear isn’t logical. This is a big problem. 

43:12 - “Bright? What did you do?!?” ..................It’s been 3 days and I still can’t handle this sentence. You can see the shock on Dani’s face and the fear in Malcolm’s eyes. He looks like a cornered animal. He thinks she’s going to arrest him - he knows she has to. He thinks he just ruined his chances at a happy ending with Dani. He’s realizing all at once just how bad his life is about to get. AND DANI - she doesn’t believe he’s a killer but that doesn’t mean she’s not scared for him. The dude looks like he’s in the middle of a mental breakdown plus the legal issues - it’s not going to be a good day. 

I CAN’T BELIEVE THE SEASON ENDED LIKE THIS. I HATE IT. I LOVE IT. I’M CONFLICTED. I HAVE SO MANY FEELINGS. I WANT CLOSURE AND THIS JUST GAVE ME MORE QUESTIONS. UGH. THANK GOD FOR AO3. 

I sincerely hope another network picks us up for a third season - I’ll be back if they do. If not - thanks for hanging out with me. I’ve had fun and this show will always have home in my heart. 

#FINALE #jess-rewatches-prodigal #malcolm bright #prodigal son #gil arroyo #dani powell #JT Tarmel #ainsley whitly #martin whitly #edrisa tanaka #jessica whitly #I LOVE this show #whump #rewatch #spoliers #malcolm needs a hug #ps #so good #SEASON finale #I'm hopeful for S3 #2x13 #e13 #s2 #the last weekend

[bite-me-didyme]

thoughts from my first time watching eclipse:

the vampire chase scene? SEXY

renee is suddenly a good mom? In this movie?? What's that about?? Mainly their mom/daughter hug made me want a hug

Jacob my poor boi what did they do to you

The pack has literal puppy vibes i adore them

oh god Leah could rip me in half just like that outfit and I'd say thanks

jasper really only has like 3 spoken lines in the entire fucking movie franchise, doesn't he? Which is a crime

All the vampires (except Edward, i fucking hate his sideburns ugh) are sexier in this film wow

angela is such a good friend, she deserves better than Bella 'constantly spacing off about big dramatic supernatural problems' Swan

have i mentioned that Bella has two hands; why do love triangles exiiiiiiiiist when OT3s are right there

SETH IS A BABIE HOLY SHIT

I thought I was too gay for Bella and Alice and Rose to get any gayer and then I saw Leah's haircut

But then Carlisle is out there being a total DILF and my bisexuality enters the chat

'But we still get to kick ass, right?' He looks so CONCERNED Emmett you HIMBO

Another person who deserved better - Charlie McDad Swan

Jacob's hair is going through its teenage rebellion phase

CAN ONE SINGULAR MALE IN THIS MOVIE RESPECT BELLA SWAN'S ABILITY TO KNOW WHAT SHE WANTS AND CHOOSE IT

Charlie's list of teenage boys that he wants to bury deep in the Washington woods grows higher every minute Bella spends in Forks

Emmett & Bella ought to have been HBFFs (himbo best friends forever)

ow yay it's about to be the rosalie scene that everyone gifsets, ow ow ow this is hurting me

Rosalie deserved the world a thousand times over she fucking deserved everything she ever wanted she deserved SO MUCH BETTER

haaa jessica's graduation speech is pointed af

I have adored Bella's dad since i first read this series

Alice's graduation party hair is the best

four days is enough time for Bella to be turned into a vampire and be y'know 200× less vulnerable but hey why do anything that makes sense

jackson rathbone was allowed to bring shampoo and conditioner on set in this film I see

by which i mean can he throw me into a tree pls

See when we actually get interactions beyond edward/bella/jacob we have FUN - my proof: the baseball scene, the pack scenes, the training scene

Jake as a giant wolf his EYES his COAT he's so pretty i just wanna hug him forever

i hate that jasper's background was tied to the confederacy but i love that we got background for the hale twins in this movie

"You can love more than one person at the same time. Like Sam, Emily and Leah." That sounds like two OT3s in one sentence - Jake/Bella/Edward and Leah/Sam/Emily

"You and Edward will have the house to yourself tonight" Alice really was trying her damnedest to make sure Edward didn't go to battle a virgin i CANNOT

Charlie's attempts at Dad-ing are so good and so bad

Eclipse reeeeeeeeaaaaaaaally reminds us of how virginal Eddie boi is, doesn't it

Bella honey the word isn't 'villain' it's 'monsterfucker'

oh i hate that ring

Edward: "It was my mother's"

Me: "no it wasn't that style is circa 2007 at the EARLIEST"

My partner: "no they got it from one of those little plastic balls that cost a quarter"

I want feral Victoria back, this one does not spark joy

As problematic as the jacob/bella interactions are in this movie, i love how jacob scoops up bella, getchu a werewolf man who can carry you around like that

Um did mike sell edward a defunct tent and sleeping bag? Sleeping bags keep you all wrapped up in your own body beat! She should have been fine! I've slept in sleeping bags in rainstorms on mountains and I was fine! Smeyers have you used a sleeping bag even once in your entire life?

bella, the other two points in your love triangle are fucking insane, and also I ship them. Go date Jess or Angela or Leah and be happy

Edward is so fucking weird man, he looks happier talking about being friends with Jake than he did about kissing Bella wtf??

Jacob: *angrily power walks away in khaki shorts in the snow* Me: *losing my goddamn shit giggling*

Bella: KISS ME! me & my datemate: *IMMEDIATE FACE PALM*

victoria is pretty but I'm not digging her vibe in this movie

OH THANK GOD I REALLY THOUGHT BELLA WAS GOING TO FIGHT RILEY AND VICTORIA WITH A SINGULAR ROCK FOR A MOMENT

Carlisle and Esme saw a bitty vampire needing parents and they had adoption papers signed and ready Bree gets a new home and family right yep alalalalalaaaa HAPPY ENDING FOR BREE 2020

i hate jane can she PLEASE fuck OFF

Bree honey I'm writing an AU where you get the world I'm so so so mad you didn't get another chance you were so little and so sweet and it wasn't your fault baby

:( billy listening to jacob's screams :'(

"I'll always be waiting" "until my heart stops beating" "maybe even then" OH TEE THREE OH TEE THREE OH TEE THREE OH TEE THREE O T 3 O T 3 O T 3 O T -

i like how "blindingly sparkling in sunlight" is optional 🙄 in so many sunlight scenes 🙄

Bella's monologue is lovely, you go girl

beep

#twilightenment #twilight revival #twilight saga #eclipse #bella swan #jacob black #edward cullen #vampires #werewolves #shitposting #twilight shitpost #live tweeting #leah clearwater #bree tanner #carlisle thirst #emmett cullen #jasper hale #charlie swan #monsterfucking #twilight ot3

[duchessanon]

Finding freedom final thoughts

First off I gotta say if Omid has never climbed into a club bathroom window to be in the same place as Henri then he’s not a true royal author (kt nicholl still reigns for that reason alone). *I retract this! KT did climb through a window to mingle with celebs and did meet Henri at a club AND hung around Boujis so she could bump into them but didn’t climb to find henri*

So was it good?

If ur a casual watcher of this whole saga then it’s fine. It’s not badly written and is easy to read. It has all the facts in there. It’s just rly cheesy in parts and has a lot of quotes from other people about how great they are, which is to be expected. For anyone who watched it all go down, it’s a bit of a drag. Apart from the funny anecdotes eg pippas seating plan, there wasn’t much new.

Megri’s involvement

My opinion on this is that there was no Diana tapes situation here or any interview with them. But it’s pretty obvious they were involved through the other sources and what they allowed to be said. The details are too precise and the angle of the book too particular, case in point...

Liz

Ur gonna be disappointed if u wanted this to be a liz and co call out. Liz is portrayed as understanding, loved and respected at all times. And I even got a “she don’t rly give a fuck about all this” kinda vibe too. I would not be shocked if it was pressed into the authors to not blame Liz for any of this. Even chuck gets off scot free. Even when Henri released that first statement during chucks tour, he is portrayed as being understanding. Someone out there doesn’t want the “Chuck is jealous” narrative to return.

Willy and k8

I expected way more on Willy and for him to take the fall in this book but it was not to be. All we got was that they got mad/hurt by each other and were on and off in their brotherly relationship. There were a couple of anecdotes about willy supporting Henri in setting up on his own. The worst willy did was the “this girl” thing and Henris belief that willys team were leaking/not helping. And even then the tone of it was more like Henri was paranoid. The impression I got of k8 here was that she doesn’t give a fuck and wants to stay out of it and go grow potatoes or whatever she does with the kids. I’ve seen a review and a few people in the fandom talk about Meg’s obsession with k8/k8 being unwelcoming but I didn’t see that. All it rly said is that they were never close and Meg might’ve wanted more support. But it also says k8 told her to contact her when she wanted support. If anything, the book gave k8s side a lot.

The irrelevant details

If ur a meg fan then I guess you’d be interested in these. But lord surely they’ll even be bored of the EXACT descriptions of what’s on their plates, the fact their Range Rover is navy blue (2 mentions!) and the complete history of the rooms they went on dates in.

Charity

Ok there was SO FUCKING MUCH about their charity work. I had to skim so much bc it was multiple paragraphs on each cause and the history of how they’ve supported it. I know Omid talks a lot about that in general but how did this all get past the editing stage?! My unsubstantiated theory is that in return for access, Omid had to write all of that. Or maybe they needed page fillers. As dull as one of k8s potatoes.

Misha Nonoo

We have to talk about Misha. What the fuuuuck was going on there. She has to be a main source for this book right?! They could literally rename it finding misha with all the ass kissing and life and property history of her in this book. I don’t even know what this woman looks like but I can tell you she’s smart AND pretty AND talented. Jessica Mulroney is for sure another source with all the info about them hanging out.

Henri and Meg impressions

My opinion of meg hasn’t changed at all after this. Other than even more respect for marrying Henri.

Henri however comes across as a annoying af. Constantly losing his shit and being corny. Like sure he’s devoted to his fam, but he reminds me of those kids at school who get their first bf/gf and only refer to them as “my gf/bf” in a rly serious way. No wonder skippy was pissed off.

Missing bits

No mention of “what meg wants...” quote :(

Nothing on the birth announcement mess

Who’s the baddie?

I didn’t come away from this book knowing who was wrong. There’s A LOT of references to “aides” getting in between the Sussexes and the rest of the fam. But there’s no info on whose aides. Occasionally it would reference KP but it was rly vague about who was the issue. Bc Omid for sure steered away from blaming the rf themselves.

Was it the “definitive story” of Megri?

No, it was told from their side. They did make effort to get quotes from the palaces who were pissed off. But for it to be definitive, it should include their words, which Omid denies having soooo yeh.

The end!

#finding carolyn #finding freedom #meghan markle #prince harry #kate middleton #prince william

[welshdragonrawr]

I would love to distract you. If it isn't too much - how about all of them? Hope your days gets better, soon.

Thank you <3 I appreciate you dropping in, hope you’re doing well. I’ll keep these relatively short (for once). 1. Name one way you break the wlw stereotype. (Fat, trans, poc, autistic, etc)

Uh, does disabled count?  

2. Who was the first girl you remember having feelings for?

TV: Trying to think who the very first might have been... Might have been Buffy tbh... Real life: I guess it was a school friend, not that we’re such friends anymore - yay, life - and I didn’t know what the feelings were back then; I thought it was normal to worship the ground your friends walk on and do anything and everything they asked to the point of detriment 

3. What’s your opinion on the butch/femme labels? Do you think they’re harmful?

I’m not a big fan of labels in general. I think they can be extremely useful/helpful to some people, but also constricting and confusing to others. If you attach yourself to a label or want to attach one to you and it makes you happy/confident/etc then of course that’s totally fine! I do think there are some stereotypes that get washed around a lot with both of those, good and bad, which don’t always help things, but still. 

4. Do you have a girlfriend?

Nope

5. Define love in 5 words or less

Inexplicable. Exquisite. Exhausting. Ineffable. Impossible. (This is probably not what you meant but it’s all I’ve go for tonight. I highly recommend this guys speech that covers it pretty well.)

6. What characteristics do you look for in a girl?

Kindness, compassion, warmth, y’know, that sort of thing...

7. Do you participate in LGBTQ clubs and events?

Now and then, I used to while I was at uni. Can’t so much now.

8. Are you out to anyone outside of tumblr?

Yes, most of my friends by now I should think.

9. Say some things you love about your crush/girlfriend?

How soft she is. How kind she is. I’m just a soft squishy gay underneath this miser of an exterior 

10. Do you want to get married?

Maybe someday? I don’t know, I used to joke about it, but I don’t know if I can ever see it happening now. I’d just be happy to settle down with someone, with our books, and cats, and maybe a little cottage somewhere. Wouldn’t need a big day to shout it from the rooftops, when I can have all the little days to whisper it in her ear, or pass it along in another cup of tea instead.

11. Do you want to have kids?

I don’t know. It’s/would be pretty difficult (given medical circumstances). I’ve never felt confident around kids. And I’d be absolutely terrified constantly of fucking shit up and having them hate me or something so I can’t imagine I’d be very good... Can’t even take care of myself, let alone kids.

12. How would you describe the difference between sun lesbians and moon lesbians?

ABBA and Fleetwood Mac. Need I say more?

13. What’s your favorite song about lesbians?

Fixing Her Hair by Ani Difranco (which I realise is a sad af choice, - I remembered the wrong one and had to edit aha - but 1. it’s what I can think of off the top of my head and 2. it was one of the first I heard that was explicitly sapphic and not just some pronouns switched for lolz in a cover or whatever)

14. What’s your favorite book about lesbians?

Anyone who knows my knows how I hate this question because I could give a whole post just on its own of answers to this. For now I’mma have to say Carmilla by Joseph Sheridan Le Fanu (lesbian vampire wives ftw). 

15. Who’s your favorite lesbian character?

16. If you live in a country where gay marriage is legal, where were you when it was legalized? Did you do anything to celebrate?!

It was 2014 I think? Supposedly? Or 2013? I don’t know for sure. But knowing my luck at that time in my life I was probably in hospital so that’d probably be why I don’t remember it well...

17. If you could meet one famous wlw (dead or alive) who would you pick?

I’d love to have a chat and/or drink with Ms Paulson tbh. 

18. Have you ever kissed a girl?

Yes.

19. Do you have any favorite wlw positivity blogs?

Can’t think of any off the top of my head... (sorry if I’ve forgotten anyone!!)

20. Who was your first real life crush? (as in not Dana Scully or Jessica Rabbit)

Again we talking actors or actual people in my life? Cuz I think I kinda covered it already? And there are too many actors to just drop a list in here...

21. What is one thing you think your school/ place of work could do to create a safe environment for LGBTQ people

Oh boy, we’d need a whole slideshow on what my university *should* be doing to create a safe environment for *anyone*, especially LGBTQ+ people, but let’s not open that kettle of fish...

22. Have you ever been to a gay bar?

Yup. Been to a couple karaoke nights.  

23. Do you know a lot of LGBTQ people outside of the Internet

Not a lot, just a few. “We happy few” 

24. Describe your ideal gaycation (a vacation that you, a gay, go on)

Anywhere where my significant other is/would be. Preferably with books, tea, blankets (fuzzy or picnic, either’s fine), even just in bed in a small B&B in the countryside somewhere, in soft sunshine or with a drizzling rain falling outside and the logfire going and their head in my lap (or mine in theirs), just enjoying each other’s company without worrying about the rest of the world and its anxieties for a bit. That’d be nice...

25. Not a question, I just want you to know that you’re amazing and beautiful and I love you. Keep up the good work.

Thank you for asking and being a little distraction for a bit.

[imbumkyung]

I Saw It In A Movie One Time (ch.7) - Cause and Effect

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

Chapter 3

Chapter 4

Chapter 5

Chapter 6

“She has the right to know. She’s the one the red-head wants,” Jacob said menacingly, inches from Edwards face intensively. Edward shut his eyes in defeat.

“Victoria?” Bella questioned, “Alices’ vision.” She spared a glance at Edward who’s gaze left the floor. He took her to Jacksonville not just for Bella to see her mom, but to prevent her from knowing that Victoria was hunting her

“I was trying to protect you,” he defended.

“By lying to me.” She accused. “You,” She turned to Jacob, “Why haven’t you called me back?”

Jacob contemplated on his answer but decided to go with the truth, “I had nothing to say.”

“Well, I have tons hold up—” Bella said.

Edward attempted to stop her though she resisted. She climbed onto Jacobs’ motorcycle, wrapped her arms around his torso and Jacob accelerated away.

Upon arriving to Emily’s house, the wolf pack decided to embarrass him about his “obsessive inner monologue” as Embry called it. Their energy was drastically different from the Cullens. The wolves all piled out of the door as if all four of them could fit through at once, and even skipped the stairs.

“I wish Bella would call,” Paul teased, shaking Jacob’s shoulder

“I wish Bella wouldn’t call,” Jared added

“Maybe I should call Bella,” Embry said

“Maybe I should call Bella and hAng up!” Quil finished

The pack laughed like hyenas until Leah stormed out. Needless to say, she wasn’t pleased to see Bella at all. With that, She phased and disappeared off into the forest. Bella tried her best to be friendly with Leah. After all, she’d never even met the first ever female shape-shifter. Though her attempt had failed upon hearing that Jacobs thoughts about Bella were “torturing” him.

After greeting the entire wolf pack, Jacob and Bella made their way to his garage. As they were walking, Jacob explained to her that Leah was the first woman ever to shift and that her brother shifted as well. He was eighteen.

“Does he not hang out with the rest of you?” Bella asked him, referring to the pack. She’d seen all of them except for Seth.

“Yeah he does. He’s just out on patrol right now,” Jacob said.

Bella’s brows furrowed in confusion, “Patrol? This early in the day?”

“Yeah theres this other girl that Victoria’s hunting down. Alice told us about it so now we’re standing watch incase she ever comes around. She did though, while you were in Jacksonville,” Jacob explained.

“Wait,” Bella stopped walking and Jacob mimicked her action, “is this that girl that knows about you guys?” Bella asked

“Yeah, why?” Jacob asked

“Edward told me about her... He said she knew about like, you guys and all of the vampire-werewolf thing,” she told him.

“Shapeshifter,” he corrected, “and I haven’t talked to her. I saw her once when my dad was buying beer. She’s been around for a while,” Jacob shrugged.

“We should go meet her,” Bella proposed

Jacob shook his head, “I thought we were gonna hang out?” He he paused, realizing how desperate he could have sounded, “Also, Sam told us not to talk to her I mean— Carlisle also said not to talk to her,”

“You’re gonna listen to Carlisle?” Bella egged.

Jacob sighed, “I mean, it’s Sam’s orders too.”

“I wanna meet her. Let’s go,” she said, “You don’t have to talk to her. I’ll do it.”

“No. We’re not doing that. Seth and Leah will see us then I get in trouble,” Jacob concluded.

“Fine. I’ll find a way later on then,” Bella said, turning around to follow him.

-

Leah arrived next to Seth with a huff, displeased to find him in human form. She was meant to take his place since he’d been on watch for the past hour and a half.

“What?” He asked her, “Nothing‘s happened I mean—” Seth began to explain but was cut off my his older sisters’ growl of disapproval. Seth came to patrol in his human form since there was nothing suspicious going on, though his sister begged to differ, “Fine,” he reluctantly agrred

Seth ran off, phased, then immediately returned. By the time he returned, Kai’s shift ended and Leah was already making her way back to Emily’s. Seth decided to wait between the trees to make sure she was safe before they left.

Kai spotted the two wolves in the forest across the parking lot. One silver wolf making a turn back to where it came from, and the other stayed watching over her. Kai paused after walking out of the store. Should she approach them? After the mental breakdown she had the night before, she decided to put an end to all of their secret watch-overs.

“Hey!” She called out to the two wolves. Leah turned to walk quicker, unaware that Kai knew exactly what and who they were.

“Let her look crazy trying to talk to wolves,” Leah thought out to Seth.

Kai ran into the woods and the wolves had no choice but to watch her. Kai looked Leah straight in the eyes, “I know what you guys are and I know why you’re watching me,” she admitted, “it’s a waste of time, just— can you let me talk to whoever’s leading you? Please,” Kai begged to Leah’s wolf form, Seth trailing behind her.

With a gruff, Leah nodded, despite hearing Seth freak out a little bit through his thoughts. She led the way to Emily’s house that was a ten minute walk from the store. The wolves clearly had an easy time climbing over uneven rocks. Kai however made the levels look dramatic, Seth laughed in his head. Her legs were just so... short. Leah was getting tired of it and told him to shut up multiple times, but he couldn’t. It was almost like watching a kid because of her stockier limbs.

“She’s older than you,” Leah reminded him.

“But definitely smaller,” Seth teased.

Leah nodded over to Emily’s house then left with Seth to phase back into their human forms. Kai thanked her and walked up to the house nervously.

Sure, she could say her knees were shaking from having to take gigantic steps over multiple rocks, but the truth was she was scared out of her mind. The wolves were taller than her, and she had no doubt their size would correlate in human form. After all, it was all the fans would gush about back when Twilight was super popular— Taylor Lautner’s ripped af body.

A tall man with a gruff voice and the tribal tattoo opened the door. It was the same exact man that stopped her from jumping off the cliff.

What was his name— ”Oh.. Hi Sam.” She greeted awkwardly

“Hi, is there something I can do for you?” He asked her, his voice rumbling deeply. It was intimidating for her.

“Yeah um...” she didn’t think he remembered her at all. In fact, she wasn’t even sure that he’d stood watch over her store before. Did he still think she was Jessica?

Paul appeared behind him, curious to see who was at the door. His eyebrows raised when he caught his Alpha doing exactly what they were told not to do.

Pauls’ eyes narrowed, “I thought we weren’t supposed to talk to her,” he said accusingly.

Sam turned around, shock on his face as he realized who the girl was. Her face was familiar as he tried to figure out from where. He’d heard about her and the wolves who have seen her on patrol knew who Kai was, but Sam thought he was talking to a girl named Jessica.

“I’m not Jessica... I lied about that whole thing. My name is actually Kaileia... um— I just wanted to ask if you guys could stop keeping watch outside of the store,” she asked him timidly

Sam huffed, “Who led you here? How do you know who we are?”

“I can’t answer that... I’m sorry. But one of the wolves led me here only because I asked them to,” she said in a small voice.

“Sam, come on. You’re scaring her,” a gentle voice said behind him. She cleared a path for you to come in, “want a muffin?” She offered.

Kaileia decided to take the risk and stepped inside. Seemingly at once, three heads snapped in her direction. She didn’t remember any of their names and it’s most likely “because they didn’t get enough screen time” she thought.

She didn’t reach for a muffin, she just stepped inside because she felt it would be better to explain it all at once. Sam began to question her again,

“How do you know about us? And what we are?” Sam asked.

“I really can’t tell you that. I just know,” Kaileia tried to explain.

“Why do you want us to stop keeping watch, then?” Kai was sure he didn’t mean to sound rude, but his deep Alpha voice just changed his intentional tone.

“I had a... meeting with the Cullens yesterday. I don’t know if Carlisle told you, but keeping ties with me could cause a life. It could cause multiple. I don’t want that for you guys, I’m just trying to protect everyone,” she explained truthfully, her voice unwavering.

“How is watching over you gonna kill one of us?” Paul asked her

She shook her head, “I can’t tell you that either—”

“Look, we’re watching over you because we want to uphold the treaty and make sure Victoria doesn’t suck the blood out of anyone on our land,” Sam said authoritatively.

Kai sighed. It seemed like the only solution is to move out of Forks. Unfortunately for her, she didn’t have the money to find a new house.

“What can I do to stop you guys from watching over me?” Kai asked to Sam

“Don’t work in La Push,” Paul answered for him with a nonchalant shrug.

Kai’s brows furrowed in frustration. He wasn’t the alpha, why was he speaking for Sam? She turned to him, face crinkled in distaste, “Was I even talking to you?” She asked him sassily, “You’re not in charge here.”

It didn’t hit a nerve for him to phase on the spot, but it did irritate him that she had to guts to talk to him like that, especially after how timidly she spoke to Sam. He felt like he wanted to prove something, that he could be more intimidating over her than Sam. Their Alpha was one step ahead of Paul’s thoughts.

“Paul.” Sam warned.

Paul said nothing, but shared a glance to Embry. Embry shrugged knowingly. “Alpha’s orders get obeyed weather you want them to or not.”

As if on cue, Jacob, Bella, Leah and Seth walked in. Kai ignored it at first, keeping eye contact with Sam and asked him again, “is there really anything I can do so that you guys won’t keep watch anymore?” She asked sincerely.

“You’re the girl that knows about all this?” Bella asked behind her. She sighed inwardly, not ready to talk with another character and mess things up any more. She turned to face Bella reluctantly. In reply, she gave Bella a quick nod.

“What’s happening here?” Jacob asked, eyes darting to the pack, to Sam and to Kai.

“I really need you guys to stop keeping watch,” Kai implored, eyes begging Jacob then to the other pack members for them to speak up and agree with her, but looked to her feet, defeated when she realized they were going to keep up with Sam’s orders only.

She locked eyes with Jacob, Paul, Embry, Quil, Leah and lastly, Seth, but received no support from any of the wolves. Seths eyes lingered onto hers, his eyes sinking deeper into her irises and he suddenly gripped the chair next to him to keep from falling. The pack members’ eyes snapped to Seths’ sudden loss of control as shock written faces adorned all of them. Despite seeing her the past two patrol duties, Seth’s eyes never met hers at the very same time until now. A smirk was plastered onto Pauls’ face and Embry dramatically gave him slow claps in celebration.

Seth looked like he was daydreaming, but he felt nothing but air beneath his feet. He was infatuated with her. Auburn tinted scenarios of their life’s possibilities together flashed through his mind in waves. He was weightless, ecstatic that he found his other half. Nothing mattered. Nothing but her love, her safety and her well-being. Seth was frozen with a numb look on his face and unwavering eye contact with Kai.

Despite not even knowing her name, Kaileia suddenly became the only thing that mattered to him. Everyone else became secondary.

Paul smirked knowingly, “Nah. I don’t think we’ll be able to stop keeping watch,” he said in a playful tone, “especially with this one now.”

Kai looked at Paul, then at Sam for an explanation, “What’s going on?”

Leah rolled her eyes, “God, damn it,” she cursed. She stormed out of the house in frustration. It felt to her like everyone was meant to be happy except herself.

“How do you know literally,” Embry paused, swallowing a bit of his muffin, “everything that’s going on, but you don’t know what that was,” he snickered.

Jacob was stoic. The newest member of the pack had imprinted. It was something he was envious of since he’d been a wolf for a full year and nothing like that had ever happened.

“Seth imprinted,” Sam told Kai gently.

Kai’s eyes widened, “Oh no, no, no, no,” she shook her head, waving her hands in frenzy, “you gotta take that back bro.”

Seth finally snapped out of his daze, “I— I can’t take that back...” he told her, almost sounding shameful even if the imprint was completely involuntary.

Kai suddenly felt guilty about rejecting him, but she knew it had to be done.

“I’m not trying to be mean but,” she sighed, “I’m saying this because I care about how things will end.”

“What do you mean?” Seth asked her

“I mean you die at the end of Breaking Dawn pt. 2 dammit ur pure soul” kai thought.

“It’s what I’ve been trying to say. It could mean death for a lot of people,” Kai explained exasperatedly.

“Look,” Bella started, “Whatever you were trying to save, it’s kinda too late for that.”

“Thats what Alice told me yesterday.”

“We’ll let you two talk,” Sam said, signaling their audience to leave the living space to the two of them.

They stood in front of each other awkwardly. Kai decided to take a seat and Seth did the same. It was still awkward, but a little less awkward.

“So um...” Seth started, “I never asked, but what’s your name?”

“Kaileia... Kaileia Mahelona,” she answered, “yours?”

“Seth Clearwater,” he answered. She knew, but it was better to make the conversation feel less... invasive by revealing that she knew all about him. She felt at home. Maybe it was the way Emily’s house was set up: wooden furniture, native designs and cozy cushions, or it was Seth. His tan skin and dark hair like hers, but his skin was more like the sunset. A tinge of a bright orange underneath the tan, his eyes turned to crescents when he smiled a tight lipped smile, his earth colored irises occupying more space than the white in his eyes. Everything about him just drew her in, and she wondered— why was this character so undermined by everyone else.

That’s all she was to him, though. He was just a character. A character she was trying to save. That’s why it was imperative that he understood they couldn’t form any real relationship.

“Seth,” she inhaled, preparing herself to break the news to him, “theres a lot on the line right now I mean— this really isn’t supposed to happen.”

Seth looked down in dismay. His brows knitted together toward his forehead and it looked like a cloud rained over him specifically as his head hung down regretfully.

“Is it too much?” He asked her, “I can give you some time if you want.”

“It’s not that its just—” she searched for the words that weren’t coming to her, “How do I say this?” She whispered to herself, “I care about you. But I have a lot of... baggage. And I won’t be here forever. I’m only here until—” she stopped herself from revealing the ending of the series

“Until when?” He asked her, pain still in his eyes.

“Thats another thing, um, there’s a lot I can’t tell you,” she said regretfully.

“That’s fine,” Seth said, “I get it. I really do,” he said in genuine understanding, “This doesn’t have to be what Sam and Emily have. We could just be friends. And– honestly– I’m just here for you if you ever need me... but asking me to stay away is kind of different,” he paused. Kai listened intently, “It would hurt me a lot knowing that you want nothing to do with me but, if it’s what you want, then I can stay away for you too,” Seth concluded.

Kai was perplexed. The two sat in silence, thoughts running wild. Kaileia contemplated the risks as one side of her told her to reject him and keep everyone safe, but another part wanted to say “fuck it” and indulge in a life with him. She missed having someone on her side like her old friend, Miko. It’d been a while since someone was there for her the way Miko was. At this thought, Kai’s expression clouded immediately.

“What’s wrong?” Seth asked her, concern seemed to fill his entire being.

“It’s just– you mentioned we could be friends right?” She asked, Seth nodded, “It reminded me of an old friend of mine... I never see her anymore but I haven’t had someone around like that in a while.”

Seth gave her a sad smile. He offered her all the options earlier and didn’t want to repeat himself. He felt that if he did, it would have felt like he was pushing the relationship. Nonetheless, he was hopeful that she would want some type of relationship with him, whether it be friends or more. All he wanted for her was to be happy, no matter what it was. Though, admittedly, he would feel ecstatic to know that she would want a life with him too, but he would also accept her rejection. He mentally prepared himself if it was to come— it would eat him from the inside out.

-

“What did she mean by ‘I’m not Jessica’?” Emily asked him.

“Do you remember that girl all those months ago that was gonna jump off the cliff?” Everyone in the room nodded, Bella’s eyebrows raised in surprise. It was the first time she heard about any of this.

“That was her. She gave me a fake name, I guess. She also told me she would only be here for a week and she was visiting family,” he paused, ”she was supposed to leave the day after.”

“I thought she lived here,” Jared said

“She does, stupid,” Embry teased. Jared mimicked his sentence in a childish tone.

“That’s what we’re trying to figure out,” Embry finished.

Paul huffed, “The only logical explanation is that she lied to you,” he shrugged, eyes pointed towards Sam, “Cuz she probably already knew who you were and didn’t wanna say anything else to you.”

“Is anyone else not like, baffled? She knows everything about us. She walked up to Seth and Leah while they were in wolf form!” Jacob exclaimed and Bella placed a calming hand on his shoulder.

Embry and Quil nodded, “Yeah. She won’t tell us anything, though,” Quil said.

Sam sighed but quickly got back to his own subject since he had no other explanation for Jacob, “I don’t think she ended up on that specific cliff by accident. She probably lied about that too.”

“You think she was gonna try to kill herself?” Bella asked

Sam pressed his lips in a tight line, “possibly.”

[the--blackdahlia]

This Life Chapter 2

Title: This Life Chapter 2

Summary:  Dean Winchester is the Vice President of the motorcycle club The Hunters. After almost 7 years in prison, he's free. But things have changed and Dean has to figure out how to put things back together.

Warnings: Language mainly

AN: Still sending out lots of thanks to my beta @callme-kaz2y5-baby  !!

Song for this chapter: Home Sweet Home by Motley Crue

“What’s going on?” Dean asked. “Where’s Sammy?” Dean looked around at everyone. Garth, Benny, Bobby, even Cas Novak. But none of them were talking. “He...he wasn’t killed too...was he?” Dean asked. Instead of answering, Bobby just laid a newspaper in front of Dean.

The Stanford Daily.

Dean picked up the paper and looked at the picture on the headline. A charred up apartment building. It looked like a beast of fire just took a bite off the end of the building. Then Dean read the article.

A fire broke out at an apartment building near St. Clair Gardens. Severe structural damage was reported and one victim has been identified. Jessica Moore, 21, of Hanford. No word yet on the cause of the fire or if there are other victims.

“Jessica Moore. Why does that name sound familiar?” Dean asked.

“Jessica was Sam’s girlfriend.” Cas told Dean. Dean looked at Cas, then back at the paper.

“Is...is Sammy…”

“We don’t think so.” Benny said. “One victim was found. That was Jessica.”

“Then he should be home, right?” Dean asked. Bobby sighed.

“Dean, there were reports that the Horsemen were in Palo Alto the night that the fire happened.” Bobby told him. Dean gripped the newspaper then, growling slightly.

“I want all those bastards dead then. All of them.” Dean stated matter of factly.

“We’re getting there.” Bobby told Dean. “But right now, we’re just glad that you’re home.”

“Yeah, me too. Just this new freedom comes with conditions.” Dean sighed, leaning his head back against the back of the chair.

“I know. A lot of us have been there, done that.” Cas laughed. There was a knock on the door then. “Oh, I bet I know who that is.”

“Did you guys get me a stripper?” Dean asked.

“Damn, that’s what we forgot.” Benny laughed. He opened the door to show a scrawny boy standing there, holding a box of good smelling food.

“Traffic was shit.” He said, walking into the meeting room. “But I got everything on your list.” Dean looked the kid up and down. He was wearing the black vest like the rest of them, but his just had the prospect patch. The new kid.

“What’s his name?” Dean asked anyone in the room. Benny elbowed the kid in the side as he took the box from him.

“Uh, I’m Kevin. Kevin Tran.” He said. Dean smirked.

“Guys should’ve got me a stripper. Kid looks like an honor student! How old are you anyway?”

“Eighteen.” Kevin said, his voice cracking some. Dean just kept smiling.

“Well, good work Honor Student.” Dean said. “My favorite place?”

“Nothing but the best for you.” Garth joked. Dean smiled and dug into the thick burger from his favorite place. Kevin stood there awkwardly for a second before making his way out of the room.

“God, this is the best burger I’ve had in awhile.” Dean said, closing his eyes and smiling.

“Well, I think this might make it better.” Bobby said as he laid a patch down in front of Dean. Dean set down his burger and picked it up.

President.

“Bobby…” Dean said. “No.”

“No?” Bobby asked. “But…”

“I think this would look better on your vest than mine right now.” Dean said. “I mean, you and dad did make this club together. It seems right that you have it for now.” He handed the patch back to Bobby.

“Well, in that case…” Bobby pulled out a knife from his pocket and flicked it open. He cut the threads of the Vice President patch and handed it to Dean. “I think that this would be a better fit for you then.”

When Dean had went to prison, John was the president, Bobby was the vice president. That was how it had been ever since Dean joined. That’s how it had been since the beginning. While it was strange to see Bobby sitting at the head of the table instead of John, it was meant to be. It was a better fit than having Dean up there right now anyway.

The conversation flowed easy and before Dean knew it, it was night. Ellen was closing up the office while Jo finished up the cleaning. Dean made his way out of the meeting room and smiled at Ellen when he saw her, sipping on a glass of whiskey in the bar.

“Hello there.” He said, taking up the barstool by her. “Can I buy you a drink?”

“Well, now I see why Jo was so excited this afternoon.” Ellen said with a tight smile. “I thought you weren’t getting out for awhile.”

“Got lucky I guess.” Dean gave her his signature grin. Ellen reached over the bar and grabbed another glass and the bottle of whiskey she had been nursing. She poured Dean a glass. “How are you holding up?”

“Fine I guess.” She said with a bit of a shrug. “Life goes on.” Dean rested a hand on her shoulder, and when she didn’t shrug him off, he figured it was a good sign. “I kept your apartment clean. I didn’t go through anything, except the fridge to get rid of anything that was expired or moldy.”

“Oh no, you got rid of Señor Smelly Fish in the back of the fridge?” Dean asked, playing fake hurt. Ellen laughed a little. Something she hadn’t done in awhile.

“Don’t worry. I replaced him with Ms. Odor Remover. Part of the baking soda family.” She teased back. Garth, Cas, Benny, and Bobby stood in the doorway of the meeting room. Dean just had the aura that could lighten people’s days. But, on the other side of that coin, he could be your worst nightmare if he was given the chance. A lot of the guys over the years had seen Dean pissed off. He could be very hot headed when he was pushed one too many times.

“Well, if Dean and Ellen are out here drinking, I think we should all!” Cas declared, going around the bar and grabbing a bottle lifting it in the air. Benny and Garth cheered out. They had been ready for a beer all day. They were about to let the booze flow when the doors opened and two guys made their way in.

“Well damn, I think we missed the party.” One said with a laugh. Dean looked over and his smile widened.

“Caleb!” He said. “And Jim!”

“Hey there kiddo.” Caleb Reeves said, grabbing Dean into a headlock and giving Dean a noogie.

“We were hoping we’d be back in time before you got out, but it doesn’t look like luck was on our side.” Jim Murphy laughed. Caleb let go of Dean and took up one of the stools.

“Where were you guys?” Dean asked.

“Palo Alto.” Jim said, heading over towards Bobby. “Bobby sent us out there.”

“What did you guys find?” Bobby asked. Caleb shrugged.

“Shit.” Caleb said. “No hide nor hair of little Sam.” Bobby cringed a little and Caleb looked over at Dean before looking back at Bobby. “He knows right?”

“Yeah, I do.” Dean looked over at Bobby for some answers.

“When Sam stopped answering calls and texts, I had Ash do some digging. He found the newspaper article for us. After that and a little research on this side, I asked for volunteers to head out to California and check for us. We couldn’t let everyone go, so I asked Caleb and Jim to do it, since they’ve known the kid the longest.” Bobby explained.

“And you guys found nothing?” Dean asked.

“Sorry Dean.” Jim said, patting his arm. “We tore that town apart.”

“Yeah, and got a little attention from a new club out there I guess.” Caleb added. Bobby looked over at him.

“New club?” He asked. “What new club?”

“Oh, just this club based out of LA or something. They think they’re tough shit but they sent one little punk to tell us to back off.” Caleb shrugged. “Nothing Jim and I couldn’t handle.”

“That might have been some good information to share.” Cas pointed out, taking a drink of his whiskey. Dean set quietly off to the side while the rest of them chatted away. It was nice being home, but things had changed so much in the time that he had been gone. Out of the original five; John, Bill, Bobby, Caleb, and Jim, only three were left. And as far as Dean knew, he was the only Winchester left. Sam ran off to get away from the club life, but the club life might have done him in.

“Dean-o.” Garth said. “Why aren’t you the life of the party?”

“I think I’m just gonna call it a night.” Dean answered. “It’s been a long day. Kinda miss my bed.”

“Go on then.” Bobby laughed. “Get rested up. Tomorrow you can get back to work.” Dean smiled and stood up, letting himself stretch.

“Thanks guys. For everything.” He big his farewells then headed out to the parking lot. He could see Jo trying to chat up the prospect, but the poor kid acted like he didn’t know how to talk to girls. Dean just shook his head and headed back to his apartment, right over the only sports bar in Wolfpine. For the most part, even during a rowdy game or fight, it was still pretty quiet.

Walking inside, it felt different. The first thing that greeted him was a picture of his family on the wall. Taken years prior, before prison and death and the whole nine yards. The quiet of the apartment as Dean went through, assessing what Ellen had done, was a little too much to bear. And as he stood in the shower, water and soap washing over his back tattoo that he got the year after he patched, a lightbulb went off in his head.

He was going to Palo Alto.

He was going to find Sam himself.

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[canaryatlaw]

alright, well today was pretty good, busy but good. I woke up to my alarm at 9 and got up, got ready, and left at 9:30 to uber to Ulta to get my haircut. I ended up getting there at like 9:56 and the store apparently doesn’t open till 10, so I was awkwardly standing outside for a few minutes until my hair lady actually walked up and I was like “oh hey!” because I made the appointment last night so she didn’t even know I was coming in lol. so we had a good time catching up on everything being that I hadn’t been there since February, so we always have a million things to talk about and they’re always really good conversations. And my hair is back to its preferred length and I’m quite pleased with this. I was considering dyeing it back to brighter red since it looks weird to me now with it being short but not bright red, but figured I’d give it a little more time being that I have that job interview pending, and in a really random twist of events, I actually got an email today from the legal aid org who I’d previously done the interview with for the higher position I wasn’t quite qualified for but had now posted an attorney 1 position for domestic violence involving families and it would’ve been super great and I applied in like April and was sad when I didn’t hear anything back, and was later told they ended up filling the position in house, so I REALLY was not expecting to hear from them, but here was an email from them in my inbox asking if I spoke Spanish, which would be the logical question after reading my cover letter and resume because it was the one job requirement I very intentionally did not address because I do not in fact speak Spanish, but I emailed her back basically saying I took it in high school and was willing to do what it takes to get to fluency ASAP and that I was a fast learner with a great memory, which is really the best answer I got, so we’ll see where that goes I guess, if it’s nothing no harm done. I ended up uber pooling home so I could get some work done before having to take kitty to the vet. Worked for a bit and then got the leash and harness on kitty and got her in the bag, which strangely she didn’t fight all that much, but was of course very mad once she was actually inside of it and would not shut up lol. I was taking public transit because the vet is fairly close and uber doesn’t always allow pets in carriers (it’s up to the driver to make the call so it’s always a gamble) so I grabbed the bag and walked out to where the bus stop was. Now, it was HOT out today, like in the 90s, which is extreme for Chicago, so this is not something anyone is used to. But she was meowing up a storm and just making tons of noise, much to the amusement of the people waiting for the bus with me lol. Once we got on the bus she was kind of in and out of making noise, I was trying to get her to be quiet but I mean she does what she wants lol so that got us some weird looks (just people being like “where the hell did that come from??”) but thankfully we got there pretty quickly. Got off the bus and walked in, they stuck us in a room so I could take her out of the bag since she hated it so much. so I got her out and stuck her on the table, where she stayed at first but then after the aide weighed her on the scale she hopped off and was hiding in the corner underneath the chair I was sitting in, which is what she did last time, but the vet was able to lure her out with treats pretty easily so that was good. I told the vet about what was going on and she did a physical exam, saying her not eating the wet food could be about some mouth pain she might be having from like gingivitis (I guess I gotta feed her more of the teeth cleaning treats) so she gave me some pain meds for that and apparently she had like a zit on her gums that could be causing the issue so they gave me some like medicated wipes for that and want to see her back in three weeks, and we were good to go from there. Getting back into the bag, however, proved to be quite the struggle, because now she knew what was going on and was gonna put up quite the fight, so that took a good deal of effort. And then of course once we got outside the next bus wasn’t coming for another 23 minutes, which is way longer than they’re supposed to run (like 15 minutes at most, usually more like 7-10 during the week) and if it was just me I probably would’ve just gotten an uber but I had kitty with me and didn’t want to chance that. luckily this was a bus stop with a little covered structure with a bench and such so we could sit down and were somewhat shaded, though of course it was still hot AF out which was super uncomfortable. A woman came and sat next to me for a bit, resting on her way to the store lol so we chatted for a bit, apparently having an animal with you will just encourage everyone to talk to you lol. the bus finally came and she was still meowing but I was like come on we’re almost there and we finally made it home. Got to my apartment and let her out, and I noticed she was doing like this panting thing like how a dog would pant and it looked like she was breathing really fast, which kind of scared me, I was like uhh, should I call the vet again?? so I googled it and the first website I clicked on was like “IT’S PROBABLY DEADLY, GET TO YOUR VET ASAP” which made me nervous but perhaps seemed a bit premature, so I clicked on the second one that said it was a common response after strenuous activity or getting too hot and that as long as it stopped relatively quickly they’ll be fine, and it did stop not too long after so that was a relief. I went on my computer for a little bit before leaving for the chiropractor. good session, everything’s been going well there. Came back afterwards and worked for another few hours, I’m now like 630 pages into the 1700 page record (I got through a lot more today because a lot of it was stuff like medical records that you can more scroll through and not have to read every line whereas obviously with testimony and decisions you have to be super precise. Around 9 I stopped working and watched an episode of Jessica Jones, which continues to be good, though this episode definitely stepped up the weird. I very much do not trust this “Erik” fellow and I don’t like what he’s led to so far. but I guess we’ll see how that goes. Once that was over I switched over to the news, which I watched for a bit, and around the time they were going to switch over to the late night shows I turned the tv off to shower and start getting ready for bed, and now I’m here. Don’t have any formal engagements tomorrow but still got a lot to get done, I got to at least go through my clothes enough to pack for the NY trip and I mean I really should just finish all of it while I’m at it, I need to get more work done, I need to call that one person about an intake from last week, I hopefully need to clean some of the very messy kitchen before dumping that all on my roommate when I leave for the weekend, so you know, plenty to get done there. my business cards came in today which look really nice so I’m happy about that. And yeah, that’s about it. It’s now 1:06 am so I should really be getting to bed and so that is what I am going to do now. Goodnight peeps. Stay awesome.

#daily journal #July 2019

[ascreamingstrawberry]

The HS/College Rent AU I Came Up With While Writing the Last Post

We’re just gonna refer to it as ‘the school’ b/c I can’t see a hs actually doing rent????? at least not in my old school district. This definitely didn’t come about because I’m wearing out my musical playlist on Spotify again what do you meannnnnnn anyone into the headcannon that is already becoming a fic that I’m definitely starting.....

NOTE : I just wanted to say first off I know that Tom Collins is typically played by an African American, and Angel by a Latino. However I’ve seen productions without these specifications, but this hc/fic is by no means meant to erase any character’s ethnicity, it’s just for the sanders sides hc/fic. 

Roman

freshman, 

red hair dye. kinda like jacksepticeye’s old haircut but red

soooo pissed he didn’t get Roger or Mark

in fact Mark is being played by a female??????

schools never has enough males for the parts they need

the only other option would’ve been giving Angel to a female, and the director did not want to send that message

which Roman kinda gets

And as Lo explained his father (the director) didn't give leads to freshmen

so he could consider himself lucky he even got Collins 

*smart logan voice* who is only in 3 or 4 less songs than Mark or Roger, because Roger has one more song than Mark, 

roman’s face definitely doesn’t do the little ‘aw’ (like seeing virge in his xmas sweater) when he realizes his best friend like counted them out to know that

(b.c even tho logan wouldn’t tell him he totally thinks romans deserved roger or mark too)

he and logan go way back, like middle school. roman’s always at the sanders house like every other day because his parents just yell at him for every little thing even if his brother started it

Collins couldn’t be too bad, he could finally play in a gay relationship on stage, 

and he’d be able to show off his lower voice range bc most of his other parts were leads and most male leads are tenors

so offended princey aside, Roman Prince is so ready to knock this role out of the park

and he walks in first rehearsal and the Angel they cast causes his little gay heart to almost combust on sight

Patton

freshman as well, new to school with his little brother

“pat, you’re ten minutes older than me”

“still older, virge” (frustrated virgil noises)

doesn’t really like acting, he gets kinda emotional when things are sad but then sometimes forgets to not smile in the middle of a fighting scene, patton

this boy can SING tho

like his tenor is good and all

but THIS MAN’S FALSETTO

soooo of course Thom-er Mr. Sanders cast him as Angel

he’s just so delightful!

he comes into first rehearsal in this cute blue dress and totally doesn’t notice Virgil watching from the last row, 

but he can’t focus on that because LOOK AT THAT CUTE GUY SITTING ALL BY HIMSELF 

makes a lot of ‘friends’ with everybody but when nobody jumps at the idea of a groupchat or to hang out this weekend  he’s totally not sad what do you mean virgil!

and they’re both ready to wait outside for their parents who are super supportive and give them lots of free reign because they’re kinda never there but that’s ok!

but then the cute guy that patton sat like two feet from the entire rehearsal bc he looked lonely comes over and is like ‘I'm not cool or anything but we’re gonna be in a lot of scenes together so if you wanted to, i’d love to hang’

and patton’s heart does the EHEHEH thing, and virgil has to do the *shoulder push* to get patton to give him his number

Virgil

needs to protect his big brother

bc this is a new school and who knows what bullies will be lurking to try and try to ruin his brother’s big heart

didn’t want to take a music class bc he likes to listening to music but he’d rather just listen or draw

then mr sanders, head of the arts dept. catches him watching the first rehearsal

mr. sanders says he has to do something to satisfy the music credit and oh hey my musical is looking for a piano player

fine, virgil spits out, but lowkey glad bc he likes piano he just doesn’t like somebody telling him how to do it and ruining it

but as he’s given the sheet music he just goes ballistic, the fast tempos are oddly relaxing, and the rock feeling just soothes him

so he thinks ah this won’t be too bad

and he walks in to the second rehearsal, and he’s watching his brother kinda twirl on the stage just a few minutes before it’s supposed to start

and he notices that other freshman, Roderick? Ramen? Roman? come in and standing next to him is the hottest nerd he’s ever seen

and that nerd plops down next to mr sanders whose just getting there and mumbles a ‘hey dad’ but virgil catches it

and oh god he’s fucked, he thinks to himself as he stares at the keys for the rest of the rehearsal

Deceit

is stage manager

just wants to go home

and is a sophomore but hangs out with freshman, just not in the arts dept.

but he watches this horrifically adorable freshman in a dress try to talk to a junior and he thinks, oh god these kids are gonna get eaten alive

sassy af

no i have not seen your prop that is definitely not on the table you just walked by three times without checking Jessica

is always hanging upside down?

.like you’re just like ‘Deceit where are you there’s a prop malfunction?’

‘oh yay’ and then he’s doing a backflip off the railing of the pulley system 

comforting when needs to be bc some actors need love while others need a stick up their as-

DECIET LANGUAGE! yeah like that one. that one needs love. 

“i fucked up my line, deceit!” “no one probably even noticed!”

“my hair is a mess” “no it’s not its fine”

makes his assit. stage manag. do dumb tasks like polish the piano keys bc “i can handle it myself”

he can’t

gets stressed but ‘i’m fine, where’s our mimi, light my candle is starting’

Logan 

son of the director, Thomas Sanders

went to audition for the musical to support roman but he heard one comment about getting in bc of his dad and he dipped

told his dad he just wasn’t one for that stuff and was only doing it for roman

tried to ignore the disappointed look in his dad’s eyes even when Thomas was smiling

asked him to be dramaturg instead

mildly happy Thomas and Logan shared smile

sits by his dad first rehearsal,

watches roman,

hides his smile at roman’s first read through already being in character

groans as he listens to roman talk about the cute boy’s number he got

comes into rehearsal the next time and stops bc THE PIANO GUY

*windows error noise* 

slaps roman’s arm a bunch of times

roman asks him what, and logan can just kinda point in virgil’s direction

and while logan goes home that night and compiles a very detailed powerpoint as to why his dad should let him be assistant stage manager

conveniently leaving out how the assistant works with the pit

 roman goes home and compiles everything he could ever possibly find on virgil foster

and omg he’s patton’s brother what?

how could anyone tell under all that purple hair dye???

and he definitely doesn’t send mr sanders a texts 

YOUR SON’S GOT A CRUSH MAKE HIM AS.ST.MAN.AHHH

roman is practically logan’s brother so Thomas is just like ok son

but Thomas makes logan give his case first

and then says ‘fine but you gotta do what deceit says’

and logan’s like well shit if imma die might as well do it looking at the cutest punk ever

next rehearsal he’s just like hello i am new assistant stage manager 

and virgil looks him up and down and just goes ‘cute’

and virgil is dying on the inside but logan doesn’t know that 

all he sees is that sauve boy making him windows error noise

Thomas

just wants his son happy

just wants his son’s friends and crush happy

just wants his musical to go well

#thomas sanders #logan sanders #roman sanders #patton sanders #virgil sanders #deceit sanders #good deceit #platonic logicality #platonic logince #platonic moxiety #platonic prinxiety #royality sanders #analogical sanders #rent au #high school au #college au #sanders sides #sanders sides au

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Riz’s Master List

Master List under the cut, updated 3/14/2020 - in case y’all are bored or anything... :)

CHAPTER FICS

Never Look Back

Dean Winchester/Female OC, 21 chapters

Bethany Rae Cooper didn’t realize when she met the Winchesters in her family’s bar and grill that her life would never be the same. But she’s always believed that everything happens for a reason, even if it’s not exactly what you were expecting…

The Shadow’s Edge

Dean Winchester/Female OC, 17 chapters

Sequel to Never Look Back. When the demon Dameon was killed, Dean and Beth thought their son was safe from the prophecy. But when Cas brings them news of the new battle for Hell, they realize that their war has just begun.

The Fine Line

Dean Winchester/Female OC, 34 chapters

An unexpected tragedy sends Devon down the dark path of hate and vengeance, but she will learn that things are not always what they seem…

Scars

Dean Winchester/Female OC, 10 chapters

Sequel to The Fine Line. Dean and Devon’s relationship has always been stormy - but can they work through the scars of their past to find each other again?

Stars In the Darkness

Dean Winchester/Female OC, 8 chapters

A crushing loss brings Dean and Sam to Sioux Falls, and ghosts from the past and present bring them across the path of Tiara, a girl they haven’t seen since childhood.

Dreaming

Dean Winchester/Female OC, 5 chapters

Dean Winchester has always been a bit of a thorn in Kelsey’s side - a very attractive thorn, but still… A visit at her uncle Bobby’s reunites her with the boys, and she begins having vivid dreams - about Dean. Is it just her subconscious trying to tell her something? Or is there more to it than that?

My Unimportant Little Life

Dean Winchester/Female OC, 11 chapters

Season 5 timeline. Dean gets yanked from 2009 to 2014, so he can see the ‘consequences’ of saying no to Michael. At Camp Chitaqua he meets Reggie, and is surprised to find that she comes from 2009 as well…

Back In the Saddle

Dean Winchester/Female OC, 10 chapters

Dean and Sam are back in the old west again - in answer to a cry for help from Samuel Colt. And if Dean just happens to get tangled up with the spirited redhead that owns the saloon… what’s the harm, right?

Sweet Escape

Dean/Female Reader, 2 parts

What happens when a friend jokingly does a spell at your birthday party to bring your cardboard standup of Dean Winchester to life? This one’s dedicated to my friend, Liz, who gave me the idea. If only…

Sweet Escape Part 1

Sweet Escape Part 2

Shut Up and Drive

Dean/Female Reader, 2 parts

Reader teases Dean while he’s driving, so - he gets even

Part 1 - Keep Your Eyes on the Road

Part 2 - Or We Could Park - Parking Is Good Too

Take the Long Way Home

Dean Winchester/Female OC, 8 chapters

A look at Dean and Rusty’s relationship, in the present and through their memories. Flashbacks/memories are in italics.

Black Velvet

Demon!Dean/Female Reader, Dean/Female Reader, 9 chapters

You and Sam are broken after Dean’s death. Nobody expected him to come back with black eyes…

Fade to Black

Dean/Female Reader, 11 chapters

Sequel to Black Velvet. Dean is no longer a demon, but he’s still cursed with the Mark of Cain, and the lure of that darkness grows stronger as time goes on.

Dean and Toby Series

Part 1 - The Meet-Cute (Actually Rescue but Whatever)

Part 2 - The Emergency Bed-Share/Move In With Us Combo

Part 3 - The Hit and Then Run Like Your Ass Is On Fire

Part 4 - The FINALLY Admit Your True Feelings and Get Busy

GENERIC FICS

I’m Good

This is the story that was published in the Seasons - Supernatural Short Story Anthology in 2017. Bobby sharing some memories.

ONE-SHOTS - DEAN

Combo Shot

Dean/Female Reader

June 2015 GIEPP (Girl In Every Port Project) entry. Prompt: Pool/Poker hustler competitive chick. Pretty much pure smut.

A Hunter Walks Into a Bar

Dean/Female OC

Prowling hunter, sassy bartender

Shelter

Dean/Female Reader

Dean providing comfort

That’s How It Should Be

Sheriff!Dean/Female Reader

They have to make a fast escape, but Dean won’t let being on horseback stand in the way of showing a lady a good time

The Storm

Dean/Female Reader

You’re terrified of storms, and Dean is concerned, feelings get shared

Pest Control

Dean/Female Reader

You think you’ve got mice. The exterminator that shows up is Dean Winchester. He’ll just let you believe that, and take care of the problem. And you.

Happy Birthday, Baby

Dean/Female OC (KK)

Fluffy, smutty birthday fic written for a friend

Gunpowder and Dean

Dean/Female Reader

You’re pissed off at Dean, taking it out on the firing range, but he just won’t leave you alone…

Juicy and Delicious

Dean/Female Reader

My entry for Dean’s Flavor of the Month fic challenge - Peach Pie. You bake some peach pies for Dean, and he’s very grateful…

Lost In You

Dean/Female Reader

A casual flirtation leads to a violent encounter, and Dean’s reaction is a little more than you expected. Warning for brief description of attempted (unsuccessful) assault. Protective Dean.

What You Need

Dean/Female Reader

You’re watching as Sam and Dean prepare to interrogate a demon. Dean knows you’re watching him, and he knows exactly the kind of effect it’s having on you…

Santa Claus Is Coming Tonight

Dean/Female Reader

Dean’s really getting into the Christmas spirit…

I Need You

Dean/Female Reader

You screwed up, Sam got hurt, Dean’s pissed and you aren’t handling it very well.

Snow Day

Dean/Female Reader

You and Dean, stuck in a motel room in a blizzard

Frisk Me

Dean/Female Cop Reader

You’re a cop, in hot pursuit of a murderer, and guess who crosses your path?

Comfort

Dean/Female Reader

Dean had a rough hunt, and he’s beating himself up as usual. You take his mind off things for a little while…

When I Think About You

Dean/Female Reader

It was a wild hunt, and you’re both a little high-strung. Surely there’s some way to blow off some steam…

One Finger

Dean/Female Reader

Dean Winchester has never been one to back down from a challenge

What Makes You Feel Alive

Endverse!Dean/Female Reader

The world is bleak, the struggle endless after Croatoan. You and Dean do what you have to do to keep going.

Sweet Misery

Dean/Unnamed Female OC

My entry for Bev’s Song Challenge - song prompt was Cryin’ by Aerosmith, lyrics at the beginning

Winchesters Don’t Giggle

Dean/Female Reader

A friend and I were having this discussion about giving Dean a back rub, and whether he might be ticklish…

Confession

Dean (Priest!Dean)/Female Reader

When Dean returns from some undercover work, you discover a fantasy you never realized you had

The Bait

Dean/Female Reader

This was written for @jessica-bones-winchester’s (now on her 100th url as @cavillanche - Love you, Jess!) Dating Dean Writing Challenge. The prompt was ‘dressing up as an anime character for his birthday.’ And I have to admit, I really enjoyed this one… Reader dresses as Sailor Mars (from Sailor Moon) for Dean’s birthday.

Hey, Man - Nice Shot

Dean/Female Reader

This is for @jessica-bones-winchester’s ( @cavillanche ) Dating Dean Writing Challenge. The prompt was ‘competitiveness in the shooting range (loser cleans the kitchen for a week) No smut.

Take the Pain Away

Dean/Female Reader

This was written for @jessica-bones-winchester’s ( @cavillanche ) Dating Dean Writing Challenge. Prompt was ‘him taking care of you when you’re sick.’ Reader falls victim to a migraine, and Dean helps her through it. No smut.

Lose Yourself

Dean/Female Reader

Smut, pure and simple… Just imagine having Dean tied up, at your mercy while you worship those perky nipples…

The Contest

Dean/Female Reader

Dean loves to give you a hard time, and one night he pushes things a little too far… Flashback in italics. All’s well that ends well.

Slow Ride

Dean (Bullriding!Dean) /Reader

Yeah, after 12x11, y'all should have known this was coming - they don’t call me Cowgirl for nothing… Written (coincidentally - timing is everything!) for the Smut Apocalypse (Smut Appreciation Day) on Tumblr.

The Photo Booth

Dean/Unnamed Female OC - Dean’s POV

This was written for @winchestersandwordprocessors SPN Valentine’s Fic Challenge. Prompt was Semi-public/Risk of getting caught.

Make You Mine

Dean/Female Reader

Dean’s jealousy gets the best of him, which is not a bad thing…

Take a Chance

Dean/Unnamed Female OC - Dean’s POV

In 7x04, Dean gives himself a little pep talk before his planned hook-up with the bartender. That scene is what inspired me. This one is more important than the usual one-nighters, and it’s making him a little nervous…

If We Don’t Make It

Dean/Female OC

This fic was written for @whispersandwhiskerburn Angel’s 2K Follower Celebration. My song prompt was “Broken” by Lifehouse, and the dialogue prompt was “If we don’t make it out of this, I need you to know…” No smut.

My Deliverer

Dean/Female Spirit - Her POV

Dean is hunting a vengeful spirit. But another spirit is in this place, and she is drawn to him…

Friendly Advice

Dean/Female Reader - Dean POV, Reader POV

This was written for @deansdirtylittlesecretsblog Mimi’s RomCom Fluff Challenge. The fluff got a little smudged into smutty fun… oops! Two POV’s, Dean’s thoughts are in italics and Reader’s are in regular font.

Old Times

Dean/Female OC

Sequel a few years down the road from A Hunter Walks Into a Bar. Tiara goes back to the bar for a visit, and who should show up the next night but Dean Winchester… Flashback in italics.

You Can Leave Your Hat On

Dean/Female Reader (nicknamed Taz)

Inspired by the sexy AF Cowboy!Dean we were treated to in 13x06 Tombstone. Helped along by Joe Cocker’s rendition of “You Can Leave Your Hat On.“

Wish Her the Best

Dean/Female OC - Dean’s POV

This is an angsty li'l fic inspired by Thomas Rhett’s ‘Marry Me,’ tore at my heart until I finally wrote it. No smut.

A Matter of… Time?

Dean/Female Reader

This is the crackiest piece of work I’ve ever written - for @percywinchester27 Ana’s PJO Quotes Challenge. Prompt was “Don’t you ever feel that way? Like you could do a better job if you ran the world?” - “Umm - no. Me running the world would be kind of a nightmare.”

Demon Seed

Demon!Dean/Female Reader

Demon!Dean stops in for a drink and decides he wants you. He’s very persuasive. Written for @evansrogerskitten’s Hottest Dean Challenge.

Not Wasted Now

Dean/Female Reader

When you all decide to get drunk in the aftermath of a bad hunt, lines get a little blurred. Or crossed. Or fucking erased. Fluffy, smutty, comforting, sweet and sexy Dean.

Bad Guy

Demon!Dean/Female Reader

This was written for @eyes-of-a-disney-princess Rapunzel’s Tangled Up With Supernatural Challenge. My Tangled quote was “You want me to be the bad guy? Fine, now I’m the bad guy.”

Shiny

Trucker!Dean/Female OC

Trucker!Dean AU. Breaker, breaker, got your ears on? 67 Midnight Rider, put that hammer down…

Some Kind of Hero

Dean/Female OC

Written for Tiff’s WTF Challenge. Dean’s just filling up Baby, minding his own business, when he hears an argument and gets involved. Protective Dean, no smut, left that to your imagination.

Crave

Dean/Female Reader

So, have some ‘Riz is craving some sexy Dean action with a big ol’ side of schmoopy fluff’ stuff. Because I was, and I’m sharing with you - the smut and all the sickenly sweet cuddly that I just need sometimes. If y'all are in the mood for that kind of thing.

Perchance to Dream

Dean/Female OC

Using African dream root on a case leads to an awkward situation, and Karlie can’t handle the tension between her and Dean any longer

Ruined

Dean/Female Reader

Dean comes home from a hunt, and he’s had something on his mind…

Going Home

Dean/Female Reader

Written for @crispychrissy’s Gif It To Me Challenge. Overhearing only part of a conversation sends her running, but jumping to conclusions without the whole story isn’t the best decision. No smut.

Not the Smartest Thing

Dean/Female Reader - Reader POV

Only Dean Fucking Winchester could turn taking a swig of beer into pornography. Cocky bastard. But two can play at that game.

Suzy Q

Dean/Female OC - OC POV

Written for @star-spangled-man-with-a-plan’s Multi-fandom Follower Celebration Challenge. Prompt - “I think I’m having a feeling. How do I make it stop?”

Invisible Touch

Dean/Unnamed Female OC

Rowena teaches Dean something new, and he gets inspired. I have no idea where this came from, but here it is…

Maybe I’m Amazed

Dean/Unnamed Female OC

An accident leaves her unconscious and fighting for her life in the hospital, drifting in and out of awareness and memories as Dean refuses to leave her side. Written for @rockhoochie’s 1K Love Supernatural Style Writing Challenge.

Reunion

Dean/Female OC

Passing through town, Dean runs into an old high school classmate. Fluffy and smutty, no angst here!

Playing With Fire

MOC!Dean/Unnamed Female OC

Late Season 10 MOC!Dean smut fic that just wouldn’t leave me alone…

Uninvited

Michael!Dean/Dean/Unnamed Female OC

Michael gives Dean a choice, because sometimes Michael likes to watch…This one is darker than my normal, PLEASE heed the warnings.

What Happens At the Roadhouse…

Early-Season Dean/Female OC

Bailey’s just looking for a couple days post-hunt R&R at Harvelle’s - and then he shows up. Cocky bastard.

ONE-SHOTS - SAM

Just a Little Story About Lou and Sam

Sam/Female OC

Lou and Sam walk into a bar… written for a friend who’s a Sammy girl

Doctor-Patient Relations

Sam/Female OC

One-shot inspired by The Born-Again Identity - sick Sammy and Dr. Nicole. Written for another Sammy-girl friend

DRABBLES

Head vs. Heart

No title

Fourth of July

Working Saturday Isn’t So Bad

11x17 Drabble

Some Nights He Dreams

Most of the Time

The Name Game

God Bless America

Stress Relief

@mrs-squirrel-chester ‘s Album Fanfic Writing Challenge Drabbles

    Dangerous

    For My Brother

    In Chains

    Kiss and Tell

    The End of Me

    Choices

    Hero

    Pure

    In the End

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