#Just as my last post on the issue said

[skunkes]

i may be stupid

#(but im not sure) #a doodley #i am not going to lie to you guys i am insanely scared of anti depressants. and adjacent medication. #first of all like ive said i dont think i need them #im doing way better than last yr(s) despite being in the same circumstances. i did in fact will my brain to get it together. #i told my doctor i think my issues are a result of my environment and that is what i think it is. #i dont think meds cld help change my innate personality flaws #second of all sorry but my ****** is all i have i cant risk losing it to the side effects #idk! like. idk. you guys really dont get it it really is just laziness for me #since i was a kid i just didnt have Goals and its continued to my detriment #i was also raised to doubt all my decisions so here we are #im sure my friends think im lazy bc what ive described to them IS laziness #im like the only person i know without hashtag goals and life motivation...and all my friends have mental health stuff too #so its not that...! its personality. its laziness #its literally like the ''my son is 35 and refuses to get a job and does nothing all day'' reddit posts #with ''he's not depressed he's lazy you should just kick him out and refuse to keep providing for him'' comments and all

[jakeperalta]

why do all these celebrities seem to think that posting like "well I believe that civilians should NOT be killed 😔💔" is some kind of bold and peace inspiring statement. like yeah no shit

#feels like they're all sharing these posts from each other and then ticking off 'use my platform for social issues' on their to do lists #beyond the fact that this being their first and last statement on the matter would in fact suggest they are not equally distressed #by harm coming to all civilians #it just feels like the most pointless thing to post like oh wow finally someone said it! here i was thinking civilians dying was great! #talking #news

[osoreruna]

i am once again on your dash begging for your patience —

#𝗦𝗠𝗔𝗟𝗟 𝗠𝗜𝗚𝗛𝗧 + [ OOC ] #i've been lurking as some of you may have noticed by your notifications getting flooded — #but i realized i never made that update post i said i was going to #so here goes: #work has been killer. as usual. expect me to be more active on the weekends ( sun - mon. ) #and we're still fighting for three day weekends. if that happens i'll be A LOT more active. #as my sun and mon tend to be pretty well occupied with chores and gaming with the boys. another day will give me a lot more time to be here #but anyway that's not the main point of this post — #for the past few years or so i've been dealing with a few health issues #and it's just been getting worse since i didn't have affordable health insurance last year. #( i'll never understand how i was paying $300 a month for health insurance and still had $100 co-pays...smh ) #i do have good insurance this year though !! #and i've been able to pick back up on the endeavor to figure out what the fuck is wrong with me #and in doing so we have deduced that i have a heart condition. an av blockage that worsens when i exercise / lay down / and with stress. #which is probably the cause of my extreme fatigue and general fogginess. and of course the cause of my chest pain and heart palpitations. #i've got another appt with the cardiologist to figure out the course of action from here #but there have been talks of everything from medication to a pacemaker — so we'll see what happens... #and of course if anything as serious as that happens i'll let y'all know in case i just disintegrate into the ether for a while. #but that's not until next month — so until then we here #we vibin' and survivin' — #replies and things just may be mushy for a bit. or...well...even more so than usual. because i won't lie things have been getting worse #and i think it's the stress from work — BUT ANYWAY #i have not forgotten about that inbox call i promise #this shit just sorta popped off and i lost track of time. #i will say this: i will EVENTUALLY get to them. #i may answer drafts & asks in the meantime so it's not completely dead around here ( and i also don't wanna keep y'all waiting on those ) #but i won't be posting anymore memes or inbox / starter calls until that one's taken care of. #inbox is still open — if you'd like to send something to me from the memes i already have on my blog though ! that's never gonna change. #or just random things. #okay — anyway for real:

[broke-on-books]

☕

The live action Scooby-Doo movies?

I did not see this ask until RIGHT now (first time on desktop since crab day, second time since Nov 5 2020 [which was DOUBLY experience since I got my phone taken the same day]) so I'm going to assume this ask got eaten on mobile because tumblr, HOWEVER you poked a bear with this ask anon (as I'm sure you knew when asking) SO without further ado: my Scooby Doo live action opinions

So when you say 'live action Scooby-Doo movies' I'm assuming you're talking about the James Gunn films, starting with Scooby-Doo (2002) followed by Scooby-Doo 2: Monsters Unleashed, just due to like, generally popularity and also the fact that I have actually seen those films. However shoot another ask if you wanted me to include Curse of the Lake Monster in this (because I will if anyone cares and turn this into a live-action scooby dissertation, i'd just need to like. watch the movie first) But anyways where I'm going with this is that this post is about the Gunn movies aka the ones with SMG, Freddie Prinze Jr., Linda Cardellini, and ofc our #1 man, Matthew Lilliard.

Okay so my take on these movies is... complicated. I wouldn't say it's as complicated as my feelings towards SDMI, because I watched the live actions way less as a kid and generally care less about them, but still no matter how much shit I throw at these two movies there are parts that I generally like (even love) that stops me from totally condemning them wholesale. Like the fact that these movies are FUNNY! There's so many moments from this duology that are just beyond iconic "like, that's one of my favorite names!" the whole thing with Scooby in the dress at the airport, ET. CETERA (like I can go on!)

The Gunn movies are genuinely SO fun and I can 100% see and understand how they've stood so well in the public view as a representation of Scooby. HOWEVER, this is where you start to see my problems with them. For the general American, (because that is the audience I'm familiar with) ESPECIALLY millennials and younger, who happen to make up the majority of both people on this site AND people I talk about Scooby with in real life, these movies, and the elements they introduced as "quintessential scooby tropes" are the base of their understanding of the Scooby franchise, along with likely some miscellaneous WAY episodes and maybe SDMI.

Which is where I get pissed off. In the pushing of the narrative of "breaking away" from the Scooby norm, Gunn basically invents (aka totally makes up) an idea of what classic era Scooby was like, cementing an idea of classic Scooby into the public mind that is totally disingenuous and just straight up false. For example, in attempting to portray Daphne as having taken strides to be seen more seriously in solving mysteries and defending herself, it pushes the narrative that in the classic era she WASN'T taken seriously, and only existed as a damsel-in-distress prop of a character, which is just not true??? Like yes, Daphne is clumsy, that's a part of her character, and her friends (because, fun fact, the gang ARE friends) joke about it sometimes because that's what friends DO. Framing that in some kind of sexist "that's all she does" lens is just total bull, especially as gang members fall into secret passageways/get lost etc. in WAY ALL THE DAMN TIME because that's how the plot functions! Like are we calling Velma ditzy for losing her glasses every other episode? Of course not, and Fred falls into passageways all the time, not to MENTION Shaggy and Scooby and all they get up to. Also one last thing on the topic of Daphne, like this idea of her mystery solving skills not being respected by the gang is just so supremely bullshit it amazes me sometimes, especially when she was the LEADER (or leader adjacent) through pretty much all of her appearances in the 1980s [Not that James Gunn could look at '80s era Scooby without spitting on it, but I digress]

AND THIS IS JUST DAPHNE! Like the perceptions pushed towards Fred (and Velma, but mostly Fred) through these movies are just as bad! Like okay, with Fred---In these movies Fred is just an asshole. I hate Gunn Movies!Fred. I mean yeah he can be funny but it's almost always so mean! Almost nothing makes me madder than a mean Fred by the way. If he's putting other gang members down (even halfway, like with his whole "dorky chicks like you turn me on too" line, which... ew) then to me something has gone very, very, VERY, wrong in your basic understanding of Frederick Herman Jones as a character. Like he's the cheerleader! He puts himself in between his friends and danger! He loves nets, and traps, and Elvis impressions, and wrestling, and the trapeze, and cars, and most of all he LOVES sharing the things he loves with his friends! (Sometimes to a bit of an extreme. No one wants to hear about your net facts, Fred) And the live action movies just don't understand that at all. And I know there's maybe something to say I suppose in that some of those aspects of his characterization hadn't been "established yet" by the time "Scooby-Doo" came out in 2002. But it's there if you look. For Fred Jones, being the leader means being the caretaker, (he's the Mom friend what can I say) and any version where he's cruel and arrogant and just DOESN'T CARE about his friends in the way he's shown to in the Gunn movies is just so far from Fred to me it's not even funny. And what makes it even worse for me is that this (or at least something similar) is the idea of Fred that has really spread to the popular culture. Just the "leader", the jock that makes the rules, the one that [insert X adaptation here] finally gave a personality and made interesting (something that has been said more times than I can count for pretty much every gang member, save Shaggy and Scooby).

And I haven't even touched on Velma, and how they gave her a bit of a early 2000s smart superiority girl complex against Daphne, plus the whole makeover thing and etc. etc. The Gunn Movies are pretty much what would happen if you took someone who hadn't seen Scooby since they were 7 years old (and honestly had a pretty negative outlook against it then) and tried to "fix" it, only his memory was so bad he just made up problems (and threw in a good helping of early 2000s style sexism with it) convincing pretty much the entirety of the popular culture that said problems exist and that Gunn was absolutely brilliant for fixing them (and then bringing up said "problems" whenever anyone wants to talk about Scooby) and this entire rant has been without even fucking MENTIONING what is probably the reason you, anonymous tumblr user sent this ask in the first place, to I, Swishy "Scrappy Doo Redemption Arc" Broke-on-books (dot tumblr dot com), which is his HIGHLY SUCESSFUL and utterly sadistic character assassination of my number one man, Scrappy Doo.

And I am going to try my damnedest here not to get totally into my highly passionate opinions over what James Gunn did to Scrappy in the first of his Scooby movies and how thoroughly it has pissed me the fuck off because I have been writing this post for over an hour now and if we start to really get into my feelings on this topic it will certainly be a couple of hours more but like. That Fucking Bitch. I give James Gunn personally a solid eighty-five percent of the blame for making my life as a Scrappy Doo fan UTTERLY unbearable with this stupid fucking movie alone, and just his Scrappy crimes would honestly be enough for me to say that I hate this movie, not even considering the numerous Scooby crimes I've been talking about here for the past million paragraphs, but the part about this movie that makes me the MOST mad the most pissed off is that it's actually a good fucking movie. James Gunn wrote two hilarious and entertaining movies that have become beloved in the popular culture for their successes in that arena, while at the same time pissing all over the core themes and messages of the franchise of which it was based, that of friendship.

TLDR; The Live Action Scooby Doo movies (written by James Gunn) are highly entertaining and fun pieces of media to watch, and are widely loved by the general public and looked at with fondness and nostalgia because of that. However, as a hardcore Scooby Doo fan (writing that phrase sounds so ridiculous but oh well) the existence of these movies and their impact on the popular culture can be extremely frustrating (despite any personal nostalgia said fan may have) due to their spreading of a misinformed picture of what "typical Scooby Doo" looks like. This picture is especially frustrating due to the fabrication or exaggeration of problems present in classic Scooby (such as sexism in regards to the girls), as well as giving more ammunition to other problems in Scooby fandom (such as oversexualization, and sexualization in general, which no one wants to see in regards to their children's cartoons, like HONESTLY.) Discussions of sexism and sexualization in Scooby (both of which ARE present and are issues, although not at their worst in WAY) can often lead to an overlooking of the issues that are very present and clear in WAY and have continued since then with far too little resistance (I'm 100% talking about the racism here) HOWEVER that topic deserves at least a dozen posts of its own that I am no way informed or qualified enough to even begin to think about writing. The Gunn Movies are frustrating to many longtime Scooby fans because of these reasons, but for me, and fellow Scrappy Doo fans there is also the added aspect of the demonization of Scrappy Doo in the live action movies and the affects that has had on the popular culture as well, making it uniquely inhospitable to like or enjoy the character of Scrappy. End post.

#that last sentence is such a weird tone jump btw but its because the topic flowed one way and i had to jump it back to a summary to actually #finish this monster of a post #SO anon i hope you're happy with this and this makes my opinion make some more sense. and you or anyone else is more than welcome to ask me #questions about anything i said here or my opinion on any and everything scooby related (and not) so if theres a specific aspect of this yo #would like expanded on i can definitely 100% do that for you or anyone who cares #also there are many complexities towards my feelings on these movies that i didnt get to hit on despite the monstrous size of this rant (il #check word count later but im not gonna fuck with it now because im terrified of deleting this post by accident) one of which is my lasting #fondness towards all of the actors in this movie. YES including freddie prinze jr. i may have major issues with his fred but hes also playe #characters i really really like. for example hes the va in this tv show i LOVE and havent watched in like 10 months despite the fact im on #the last season because freddie's character dies in like 7 episodes and i am NOT AT ALL emotionally prepared for that on any level because #that is my fictional father goddamnit!!!!! #also every buffy the vampire slayer gifset that crosses my dash gets me closer and closer to watching it because oh my god daphne!!!!! that #sarah michelle gellar thats daphne oh my god!!!! also i went and saw guardians of the galaxy 3 with my friend (despite not having seen a #marvel movie in 2+ years AND holding a grudge over james gunn's scooby doo crimes)[the things you do for {platonic} love amirite?] #and the title sequence SAID linda cardellini was in it and i got SO excited i was looking everywhere for her it was like wheres waldo in th #discount movie theatre FOR REAL and i just could NOT for the life of me find her (turns out she was VAing the ferret) so in a way linda mad #me cry with that role. whatever. istg i get so off topic i forget what i was even talking about but ANYWAYS <<<1 of my fave english words b #dubs (my favorite spanish word is el amanacer btw. it means sunrise. also burbujas because its bubbles and saying it sounds like bubbles #popping) BUT. AS I WAS SAYING. SEND ME ASKS IF YOU WANT SCOOBY DOO OPINIONS. DEAR GOD I GET SCATTERBRAINED SOMETIMES. #scooby doo #answered #anonymous #blah

[helpimstuckinafandom]

JUSTICE FOR DAVINA CLAIRE I'M SO FUCKING SERIOUS FUCK OFF OH MY FUCKING GOD

#CAMI AND DAVINA GONE IN ONE EPISODE??!?!!?? #YOU CAN'T BE FUCKING FOR REAL #(davina perma died an episode later both they both died in one episode right before that) #also this season has been slacking on marcel and the ep post-davina's death kicked him up several notches #he said all the shit i take issue with about the always and forever family bs #he hit that shit out of the park #also camille's death being all about comforting klaus fucking pissed me off #it was until she was scared right at the end that it was more about her #and her last words COULD have beenthe immortality line. but then they had to have her bolster klaus again instead #at least we got others mourning her after #but davina???? #those bitchass ancestors forced her boyfriend to kill her then nearly shredded her soul #and she could've been resurrected. but of course fucking family came first #she had to die screaming for mercy alone as the ancestors tried to carve her soul from fucking existence #(and though i'm mad at elijah and freya for it it makes sense for them to do it #(what pissed me off was them and klaus then telling marcel that they were justified and he should just suck it up and understand) #(like no take the consequences let the man mourn) #(freya claiming family to kol too like girl i don't know you. and this 'family' loves you more than it ever loved me) #(y'all only love me on my deathbed) #(if being family means we kill each other's partners [which happens time and time again] then fuck being in this family) #like i don't actually want the mikaelsons dead. but also i hope super vampire marcel kills you all #hope kol gets away from you people because you are not family to him. you aren't. #but mostly davina. poor fucking davina #her and kol are my bonnie and enzo - finally finding someone who will choose them not just use them #only for death at the hand of allies #davina clair was an abused teenager you all used and who justifiably hated y'all #and she deserved more than to die like this. die basically three fucking times over still helping in the end #truly have not seen a witch this blatantly used and mistreated since the bonnie bennet #davina claire #the originals

[heloflor]

You know, considering how many posts I recently made about Movie Peach and how negative they are, there’s something I feel the need to clarify since I wouldn’t be surprised if people had some assumptions and I don’t want words I didn’t say being put into my mouth (Tl;Dr at the end):

As a completely original character, fully detached from everything other than the movie, I have no issues with Movie Peach. She’s badass in a fun way, spunky, has a few cute faces, and I especially appreciate how despite being a strong female character stereotype she’s very supportive of Mario and builds him up rather than putting him down, it makes her likeable and their relationship very cute.

And yes, this is the way I perceived her from the get-go, but only mentioned it in my movie reaction post made all the way back when said movie came out, hence needing to say it again now. To quote that post: “Least favorite character is DK. It could’ve been Peach but my issues with her stem from how different she is from her games counterpart. If you take her movie character as a brand-new character rather than a game adaptation, she’s actually pretty great as a guide and strong mentor.” And while there are things in this post I now disagree with, this part remains my current opinion.

So yeah, as an original character, she’s pretty great...but that’s also the issue.

Movie Peach is not an original character. She’s supposed to be an adaptation of a pre-existing character who already has her own personality. And as an adaptation, Movie Peach fails at every level. Not only that, but several dialogues keep hyping her up in a way that comes off as Illuminations looking down on Games Peach, you know, the character their own Peach is supposed to be an adaptation of.

That’s why I take such issue with Movie Peach. It’s not the character itself, it’s how bad of an adaptation she is. And if I did my job correctly, every single time I talk negatively of her in my posts, it’s about her as an adaptation specifically. The only instance of me being an ass for no reason is in my table comparison post where I call her a dumbass, which I point out in the tags to be me throwing shade and not something I actually believe.

Now I also want to say that I hate Movie Peach for what she represents and the consequences of her existence on Peach’s character and her perception by the public, so to keep it short I’m going with bullet points:

It annoys me a lot that a multi-million dollars company couldn’t be bothered to adapt her character properly, especially since they apparently closely worked with Nintendo and the concept art very much show them who Peach is as a person (the one where she’s encouraging Mario to fight DK reminds me of the 86 Anime where she keeps having Mario fight her battles while powerless to defend herself; also it’s funny how in the art of Games Peach reacting to Movie Peach it’s obvious the artist had no idea what personality Movie Peach has). The fact she’s a favorite character of mine doesn’t help and makes me feel robbed from seeing a beloved character on the big screen for the first time. And obviously them low-key insulting her by hyping up Movie Peach makes it worse.

Even before getting into the fandom I knew that Peach isn’t the most well-liked character, with many gamers especially finding her bland and boring. This was already sad on its own, but now those same people are praising a character who’s completely different from her for being “so much better” or “finally giving her a personality”. It sucks. Games Peach deserves better than that.

With those things in mind I don’t think I need to explain why the fact this characterization is possibly bleeding out into the games is something I dread. Now I can live with a cover art change, but if they change her actual character I’m going to scream. Especially if they only do it to Peach and no other character. And yes I know some people also pointed out a possible direction change for her voice but 1. for some reason I don’t really care, possibly because she’s been through quite a lot of voice-actors already 2. we only clearly hear her voice in the Showtime trailer during the Kung-Fu part so maybe her voice will differ depending on the costume, it is a stageplay after all, and 3. the Wonder short with Bowser has her let out four noises, one of which has a different tone while the other three keep her usual high octave, so I’m not sure if they truly intend on changing her voice. Haven’t played Wonder yet tho so I can’t speak to all her other voicelines.

Hopefully this will be my last post about this outside of answering asks and reblogs as I’m always open to discussions/debates. I don’t like bringing negativity and especially not drama to my blog but, considering the extensive rant I made about this, it only feels right to make sure people don’t misinterpret where my issues come from, since I can absolutely understand people seeing my posts and concluding that I hate Movie Peach for who she is rather than what she represents.

Now, instead of being negative about Movie Peach I’d rather focus on being positive about Games Peach, mostly through the fics I’m working on.

Tl;Dr: Movie Peach would be genuinely great as an original character but alas she was put inside the skin of someone with a completely different personality from hers. And it's very hard to look past this given the consequences of Movie Peach's existence on how people percieve Peach as a whole now on top of a possible change in her games character.

#Super Mario #Princess Peach #Movie Peach #Mario Movie #Flor talks #long post #yeah I'm getting a bit more personal in my explanations here; it's not an analysis post like the other ones after all #but thing is the main reason why I take such issue is BECAUSE I love the character so it feels personal #I mean I wouldn't be talking so extensively about a bad adaptation of a character if I didn't care about them #oh and for those asking what did DK do; I just don't like his character archetype #tbh I feel like an ass rn for complaining about such trivial stuff when a LITERAL GEN/OCIDE is taking place; and things are getting worse #but I want to put the whole comparison thing behind and this is the last info that needed to be said; so it needs to be posted now #and I mean it this time when saying it's the last post outside of answering asks; I said everything I had to say #(but yeah I don't like bringing politics into my blog as I want it to be a place to enjoy fandom content #but what's happening right now in pales/tine is beyond horrifying #and the fact politicians are using 'we don't want to be called bigots' to justify their inaction is utterly disgusting #just admit you can't be bothered to help instead of hiding behind false political correctness)

[justinefrischmanngf]

i need to get over myself and learn the languages i want to learn if i want to learn them like i just need to do it if i want to learn them then i should go out and learn them and like . fuck whatever else any of it means . yes it IS embarrassing to learn a language like the ones i want to learn as an adult but who CARES and yes i KNOW my grandparents will never want to speak to me in those languages but who CARES if it's important to me it can be important to me anyway

#had a moment last night bc i was apparently having an identity crisis which was random #but i had a moment where i was like well even if i learn all these languages no one in my family is going to want to speak to me #in those languages because of [insert reasons i don't need to go into here] and so ultimately none of this is like . cultural Really #it's just me wanting to feel as though i am connected to something when i will never be #and maybe that's true or maybe it isn't but if i want to learn them i should learn them anyway like . at the end of the day #i DO want to learn those languages and i think it would be interesting and i would love to be able to speak to people #in those languages even if the people i speak to aren't related to me and i would love to be able to speak languages that aren't english #and that all stays true even if i am not able to have the cultural connection through language with my own family #like i can go on and on about how disconnected i feel from my culture bc of everything that has ever happened in my life #but how i still feel alienated bc i'm Not White to white people and all of that is true but not learning a language doesn't make it #any better and maybe learning a language won't make it better either but i think it's a better use of my time #ALSO !!!!! NO ONE EVER GOES OH WHY WLD U LEARN FRENCH OR SPANISH [OR INSERT EUROPEAN LANG HERE] u have no real cultural connection to it!!! #so like why is it different bc i want to learn asian languages??? it's not! except in my head! or maybe irl too but i'm just saying #that i think i make all of this a much bigger deal than it has to be #that being said i did just try to look up classes and they r all for children and about keeping children culturally connected 2 their famil #l m f a o but that can't be ALL the classes ............. i'll work it out is what i'm saying and i need 2 get OVER myself #bc none of it is that deep and i can feel conflicted all i like but i should fucking DO smth about it at least #anyway i am posting this in the hopes that i can beat it into my own head bc i am sick and tired of being weird about learning #languages and i need 2 get over my weird cultural identity issues if i want to like . live a life where i don't want to explode and die

[daydreamerdrew]

Tales of Suspense (1959) #86

#Steve is so freaking dramatic #Sharon has yet to be given a name #apparently she and Steve are on close enough terms that he was expecting a date #last we saw her in the previous issue she was kidnapped to lure him somewhere #and at the end when she’s rescued she’s internally grateful for the whole situation because it brought them together again #and that’s it that’s the end of the story #apparently they got to know each other for the first time ever off-panel #because the previous time she was in the book he passed her on the street and immediately became emotionally invested #because she looked exactly like Peggy #then he helped her when her S.H.I.E.L.D. mission went awry #and then never spoke to her again because he was told she was dying from exposure to the bomb the mission was about #he hasn’t even learned that she’s actually related to Peggy #he’s presumably since learned her name and just hasn’t said it out loud yet but he definitely didn’t learn it during that first storyline #he did that dramatic mourning of his second chance with Peggy reborn without even learning the real name of the woman he was projecting on #but anyway oh noo a woman with a job is busy with her job he’s ‘lost her again- forever’ #marvel #steve rogers #sharon carter #my posts #comic panels

[snowflop]

I want to be a hater about the cyl results so I'm making my own post so i can bitch in the tags about it. The tags will get long so the tldr is BOOOO everybody but Alfonse.

#man. MAN!!! after all the hexes and curses I tried to set upon her Bern sure did win huh. #like on the one hand i'm impressed on the other i hate her!! i hate her i hate her and I'm tired of pretending I don't!! #when i was playing 3h i could appreciate her good moments in between being insufferable and i liked her alright. she was fine #but like. we're 5 years out from 3h at this point and i'm just fucking sick of her. i don't understand her lasting popularity. i'm tired #Felix... should have been Sylvain. #i like him fine. he grew on me. but he certainly is not one of my enduring favourites from 3h. he fades into obscurity for me. #that said i don't hate him. i'm happy for his fans. you guys worked hard (clearly) deserved i just #i love 3h!! i do! but like. the accident was 5 years ago it's time to let her go. #and out of all the guys in 3h! if it had to be one of them! him? fr? whatever. #i've just never cared for f!robin. i feel nothing looking at her. less then nothing. #so i guess her winning isn't. bad per say. i guess it's a non issue. #that brings us back to MY MAN!!! ALFONSE!! lets goooooooooo #i'm so happy for him. always really liked Alfonse he's so <3<3 #i know i don't post about him that much but #it's just that me and feh itself have a tumultuous relationship so i don't see him as much as i'd like >_> #he's the one i'm going to pick and i'm not going to bother rolling for the others #also the fact we have to wait til the 31st for the full results is agonizing #i wanna know if Rein survived. he didn't make ton 20 but i have to know how bad it is #if it's horrible the reason is obvious. he got an alt the week before cyl #can't imagine that'll put him at the top of anybodies list for needing at alt (except mine lol) #but still. at this point i'm just hoping for top 50 orz #snow blogging

[genderqueerboy]

hmm. whoops. maybe even. oops.

#i am feeling like a terrible person over this #and i think that's sabotaging a lot #and it feels very unfair. #(from my side) #not having the same troubles as the last time i was in this situation but. instead i have New Fun Problems #that's like. would just be solved with communication. #but. as my tarot cards said lmfao. i don't know why im not opening up about it. #but also. maybe i should not put all this on me. because. i have briefly talked about it before. but i don't think it stuck #my posts #addition from a day later: it's actually a bit funny bc technically there was the same issue last time too we just didn't know it at the #time lmfao

[byanyan]

ㅤat this point, they're beyond wasted and vibing out to music that's too loud with several substances on standby for when the buzz starts wearing off. happy new year!!

#━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ic status ⋮ fighting a fight i'll win anyway. #excuse to make use of this gif bc it's one of my faves? maybe. #but mostly i don't want to make an ooc post bc i don't much care for new years #THAT SAID....... i do actually have a goal for this year #and that's to finally ACTUALLY take fucking steps toward getting a diagnosis so that i can maybe start to be a functioning human being #for the first time in far far too long #at this point i'm p sure i'm on the autism spectrum and/or adhd and only having treatment for depression & anxiety #and having psychs guess at MAYBE things like bpd are the underlying main issue #then not actually doing anything about it #has royally fucked over my quality of life since middle school (: #i don't like talking much about my life bc it's genuinely so embarrassing #but i figure maybe baring a little of my soul will help encourage me to finally take steps forward. #this is basically my happy place. my retreat. my escape. #and byan has effectively become my comfort character and a bit of an outlet #so while i'm out here crying about shit i just want to say a huge thank you to all of you lovely mutuals who have kept me company #and put up with my sharp and glittery little freak and given me all these amazing relationships for them #i'd be doin a whole lot worse if not for y'all you have no idea #thank you i love you and here's to hoping that 2024 is good and a better mental health year for all of us ♡♡♡ #...there's a good chance i'll be embarrassed enough to delete all these tags later tbh #but i'm in basically the last time zone to hit midnight so it's probably late enough that most people won't see it anyway lmao

[crabs-nonsense]

Holy shit! I just realized the reason I couldn't fucking see darker art on my phone screen is because I forgot I turned the brightness way down last night and never fixed it. I feel so stupid.

#i can now see the fanart id been looking at without it being mostly shadowed aha #crab says words #i keep my brightness pretty low but i had a headache last night so turned it almost all the way off #it was enough for it to be darker but not super obvious hence the being dumb and not fixing it #anyways i actually came here to talk about how i had a physical therapy appointment but they told me that actually im fine so uh #they recommended seeing neurology for my head issues and maybe pain management and to come back later when i knew more specific stuff #i didnt even know there was a specialized pain management department at the hospital #honestly i think i manage just fine *dramatic flailing that indicates that im both horribly offend and also lying* #anyways yeah still not diagnosed and still in constant pain lets go! i have another appointment next month for something else #its like rheumatology? i dont know what they do aha but apparently i need to see them to get diagnosed? #i am a perfectly mature and functional adult.... (my mother made the appointments and knows the information) #i am absolutely useless :D #and with all that said! sorry i was too lazy to make this two different posts lmao #the pt appointment left me with a horrible headache that i still have so im gonna go cry about it :)

[spiritofjustice]

Was wrapping up chapter 21 last night (which. Pain because I rly wanted to finish it before today and because of it I went to bed at 4:30 fml) and something I think is interesting is like. Blackstone is talking to Vic about how he feels like he can’t trust Jerome or the posse because they all knew something was wrong with Beau and just kept letting Beau go along with them anyways, not to mention how there’s always been rumblings about shadiness in that group, and although I think the narrative (from Vic’s perspective) suggests that Blackstone is wrong . To be honest I think he has a point KDND

He just seems irrational because he’s really angry but Blackstone is fuckin right about most of the things he says lol

#psy's no punctuation posts #SOBR tag #i wanted to say this last night but brain was mush so I forgot #i think Vic assumes Blackstone is just being salty and irrational after his daughter dies #cause Jerome blew him off when he said he wanted to help find Beau #and also he heard from Vic that Vince was going because he was friends with Beau #so he doesn’t trust that four people that were all friends with Beau are going to do the right thing #that worry is misplaced but I don’t think it’s insane to assume something could be up #Vic just is stubborn bcs Blackstone keeps implicating Luis in it and he’s like MY DAD ISNT CROOKED!! #he is definitely the least crooked and Blackstone is being kind of unfair abt him but he also clocks how Luis did nothing about Beau #when he knew something was up #but Jerome also knew something was seriously wrong and just proceeded anyways and I think THAT is the bigger issue #because Jerome like . knew Beau was unstable going into their last hunt #and then turned Beau out alone after he killed someone unnecessarily and Beau proceeds to go and kill Abe #shits wild

[gregmarriage]

idk talkin’ i guess

having a bad day™️ (one of many this week) where i’m basically bedridden for the foreseeable future, because i can’t move without the possibility of my legs giving way and me injuring myself. this is pretty much constant, but sometimes it’s particularly bad, as it is this week. if it’s not this, it’s pain. if it’s not pain, it’s dizzy spells. it’s an endless cycle.

#just remembered something my sister said that i didn’t mention in the last post #she basically mansplained for lack of a better word or basically acted like she knew everything #about how i feel and my health issues and it just makes me even more pissed at her #‘i’m an expert’ fuck off you’re a generic nurse you didn’t train for years to become a expert in the shit i’m dealing with/have dealt with #she literally acted like she’s trained in epilepsy (don’t have it but had #seizures that are now under control with meds) #when she literally isn’t literally fuck off #if i said all the stuff i’m dealing with she’d take the piss and say it’s not real #she literally said ‘it’s all in my head #okay let’s swap bodies then see how you feel asshole #ughhhhhhh idk i’m just not having a totally great time right now but ehhhhhhhh 🤷🏻‍♀️

[simplyghosting]

Amber fog

amber - share an unpopular opinion that you may have

Well the current one in my family rn is that i don't need to go back to therapy lol

fog - how well do you think you'd do in a zombie apocalypse scenario?

while i'd like to say I think i would be a good basic medic because i'm not squeamish and usually get asked anyway to deal with any blood/gross stuff at home and i have decent aim to get some ranged shots in for temporary defense-

but most likely i'd be buy-us-some-time zombie chow (╥﹏╥)

#ghost answers #thisbibliomaniac #thank you! #autumnal asks #i am not fast #i have lost every race i've ever ran #and i suck at melee combat #if i gained the knowledge to forage for food and better medic skills then i might stand some chance #i'd like to learn to do stitches one day tbh #i have so many unpopular opinions and terrible verbalizing/debate skills there is a reason i don't write opinion posts lol #listen when the REST of my family started going to therapy is when i felt like i stopped needing to #but yeah last therapist said my issues were so bad i should try hypnosis #and the one before that stopped talking and the next session said she didn't know how to help me #so i'm good on my own for now and just getting fresh air #very much the 'i'll bury all my feelings inside. and then i'll die' approach lol

[danzafila]

man it's amazing how much yoga really can fix me when i've been feeling like ass

#i hate it bc i don't actually like yoga that much (it's so boring and i'm SO bad at the breathing aspect i kinda hate that part) #and yet after spending a solid week feeling like my breathing's all fucked and won't fix itself i do 1hr of yoga and am magically cured #well 🤞🏽. now that i've said that i'm sure my breathing issues will come right back as soon as i try to go to sleep tonight again 😮‍💨 #anyways anyone who's got fucked up breathing got any tips for how to deal w/ it? feel like mines getting worse/more common #and every time i feel like it gets worse bc i spiral worse. which makes it last longer and longer and feel like it'll never go away #and i could only take so many times of different doctors being like 'sux yeah that sounds like anxiety but hey what can you do?' #before giving up and just accepting i'm stuck dealing forever #sto parlando #poste personale