#Katapusan

[youprobablywonteverknowanotherel]

~Fin~

OCTOBER 7, 2017

Segundo

Minuto

Oras

Pagitang lumalawak

Sa paglipas ng araw

Ang minsan

Ay naging madalas

Pangakong walang kupas

Di na makita ang landas

Nakakahilo

Ibang klase

Nakakagago

Ganito lang pala

Tayo ay di na totoo

Sapagkat humantong na

Ang paulit-ulit

Ay nakakasawa

Mga luhang ubos

At natuyot na

Namanhid

Hanggang sa magising na nga

#writing #poetry #love poetry #spilled ink #tagalog #katapusan

[zoldyckd]

need therapy again.

#tbt this friday when my supervisor asked me if smth bad was going on in my life just because I misundertstood #vague instructions two times that day (with no consequences btw) #and instead of telling her I’m struggling w our diff communication styles I told her I haven’t had rest since December began (also true) #and that my stress is totally manageable #and she told me some shallow shit abt how balance is important (or else) even after I admitted I couldn’t get any rest at home either #I feel horrible all the time and I’m trying to be a good boy by managing it but I rlly can’t. I feel stuck I thought I could handle 2 month #of this but I can’t believe it’s only been a week into january!! and I’m already like this!!!!! #and when I resign? what then? I still don’t know what to do with my life. will I get into another job in hr???????? it’s the easy route if #wanna find a new job and resign asap but #there are. so many things. #tapos bukas traffic pa kasi papasok na rin lahat so magigising pa ako nang maaga #tas may naisip na naman siya na ipapagawa na kailangan namin irush this week #walang katapusan

[katabay]

GILUBONG SA DOMINGO

UG MAO ANG KATAPUSAN NI—

okay, so there's a moderate trainwreck of ideas happening here, especially because this is the set up for a future thought I have not talked about yet!

first, the solomon grundy part is because for some reason, in my mind, it was always about a guy who got married and then died immediately after from a "mysterious" illness, and I'm pretty sure the Cain Saga Solomon Grundy chapter only reinforced that in some deep part of my brain

this! story! is about! a young man from the provinces who gets married to the daughter of the spanish governor and dies soon after. more or less, his wife murdered him for the land that was in his name, even though it was shared in the community without hierarchy, and she (with her father) intends to turn it into a sugar plantation.

and it's also about the engkanto, the 'not like us.' (so here's the thing, I know people have translated/compared engkanto to fairies, and honestly fuck that. my mom has always translated engkanto into english as 'not like us' since forever, and it's a better fit for our region than any comparison to european fairy folklore.) in the last panel with the mother, the man with the long hair is the engkanto in this story. so, the story:

once upon a time, there was a field, there was a harvest, there was a young man. and one day in the middle of the harvest season, there was a handsome stranger. every day he would invite the young man to come with him, offer him gifts, entice him with conversation. then: the young man got married. soon after, he died. his life has been stolen so the land can be exploited, and the handsome stranger is one with the land. this is now a story about retribution

this is playing off of the tinamnan gabe story a little, but I have diverged significantly because this is going to be about folklore horror, and it's also technically a prequel story for something else.

I've seen the tinamnan gabe story retold online and I've seen people cite the book it's recorded in (Negros Oriental and Siquijor Island Legends, Beliefs and Folkways), but I don't have access to the book so no additional citations for this RIP 😔 (while I heard a lot of similar stories to this one growing up, in a forest instead of a field, I still wish I had access to the book for a lot of reasons, but especially because I like reading things. I want to read the book!!)

to conclude this, I also want the mom to get revenge for her son. ideally, when I pin this idea down further, it will be about folklore horror AND revenge.

⭐ I have a tip jar (ko-fi)!

⭐ and other places I’m at! bsky / pixiv / pillowfort /cohost / cara.app

#original tag #komiks tag #(shrug emoji) #some people like to be cohesive in telling original ideas. i prefer to jump head first into a pool and keep going #i also want to do a komik adaption of the tinamnan gabe story story independent of this one because it's fun. sexy even! #and gay. temptation baby! im there. i have my pencils ready. ALL I NEED IS THE FUCKING BOOK

[lihimlihamtinta]

Nawa'y maghilom ang iyong mga sugat

Dulot ng mga nabigong pangarap

Dulot ng mga nakaraang 'di na mababalikan

Dulot ng mga taong pinahalagahan

Dulot ng pag ibig na humantong sa katapusan

Nawa'y naisin mong magpatuloy

Kahit ang mga sugat ay kumukirot

Kahit paminsan ito'y muling nagdudugo

Kahit pa malalim at matagal maghilom

Nawa'y huwag mong sukuan ang iyong sarili

Habang patuloy ang pag ikot ng daigdig

Habang ang mga luha mo'y tumutulo pa rin

Habang ang hapdi ay gumuguhit sa gabi

Nawa'y humantong ka sa iyong paglaya

Kasama ang mga aral na iyong natutunan

Kasama ang mga peklat ng nakaraan

Kasama ang bagong pag asa sa iyong bukas

#poetry #tula #spoken word #poem #poets on tumblr #tagalog poetry #tagalog #poems #maikling tula #tulatulaan #makalaya #makata #poetic #female poets #poet #poets corner #poems on tumblr #poets on tumbler #tagalog spoken poetry #tagalog thoughts

[nice2meetyouu]

Reflection Part 2

Hindi ko alam kung quarterlife crisis 'to or parte lang ng buhay pero I feel lost. Other than spend time with family, parang wala nang meaning 'yung goals ko sa buhay na mag-ipon nang mag-ipon, mag-exercise, at mag-skincare.

Dati, wala naman akong pakialam kung tumanda akong mag-isa (at maging cat lady), pero nakakaramdam ako ngayon ng anxiety sa pagiging alone. Parang hindi na rin ganu'n ka-interesting sa 'kin mag-travel kasi andami ko nang napuntahang bundok, building, dagat... 'yung ibang pwedeng gawin o iexperience naman, napaka-"mahal" sa tingin ko.

I like it pag nalululong ako sa kakanood ng palabas na gusto ko, kakapakinig ng music na maganda, kakalaro ng larong masaya... wala akong time mag-ruminate kasi I'm focusing on something. But then, may katapusan din ang mga distraction.

Kuntento naman na ako kahit hindi lumayo o mag-travel kuno. 'Yung hinahanap ko lang talaga ngayon e warmth ng tao. Kung pupunta man sa malayo o saanman, ang nagpapasaya sa 'kin eh the fact na may shared memories kami ng family and friends. Dati, sabi ng roommate ko, naaamaze siya kasi kaya ko raw na "mag-isa". Kung gusto kong kumain, kakain ako. Kung gusto ko mag-shopping, edi pupunta ako at magshoshopping. Hindi raw ako naghahanap ng kasama. I didn't know na iha-haunt ako nyan later on—pagod na akong maging mapag-isa. Gusto ko ng kausap, gusto ko ng kasama.

Siguro kasi naka-survival mode ako dati at nakafocus lang sa specific short-term goals like pumasa sa exam, matapos 'yung requirements, mag-survive for the week. Tapos, lagi naman akong napapaligiran ng tao. Kahit hindi masyado mag-effort, may makakasalamuha ka sa school o sa ospital, may makakausap at makakausap ka. Mayroon dyang magyayaya na lumabas o kumain o pumunta sa kung saan.

Ngayon, wala na. Welcome to the world of adult friendships. Wala namang masama na malayo sila at may kanya-kanya nang buhay. Hanap na lang ng bagong mga makakasama at makakausap.

Pero siguro dati sanay ako na kung may gusto kang makuha, may magagawa ka para makuha 'yon. Gusto mong pumasa, edi mag-aral ka. Gusto mong maging fit, edi mag-exercise ka. Ngayon lang nagsisink in sa akin na hindi talaga lahat kaya mong aksyunan. Hindi sa lahat ng oras may magagawa ka para makuha 'yung gusto mo. Not to say na walang sense kumilos or mag-try, pero even your best can only get you so far, minsan.

Siguro, ngayon, nagsisink in sa akin na mali ako sa mga panghuhusga ko sa iba at sa sarili ko. Naiinis ako kapag parang ipinaparating ng iba na things come easy sa akin, samantalang sa isip ko, kung alam mo lang, anong mga rejection, sakit, pagod ang tiniis ko para marating 'yung narating ko. Pero in the end, I'm tired. Like, bakit ko ba 'to ginagawa? What am I trying so hard for?

#sarili

[poetofthedyingstars]

i think everyone deserves to see Leonardo Tayao Cruz’s special exhibit of twenty-eight “Noli Me Tangere” paintings. they're amazing, beautiful, show stopping, brilliant, never been done before, ethereal, divine, awesome, have I said beautiful? It really is! Here are some of my favorites:

Sa Asotea (Love on a Balcony)

Kamusmusan (Childhood)

Mga Inu-usig (The Oppressed)

Tinig ng mga Inu-usig (Spokesman of the Oppressed)

Vae Victis (Woe to the Vanquished)

Ikakasal si Maria Clara (A wedding for Maria Clara)

Katapusan (Epilogue)

You can see the rest of the collection here: Link. Margaux Camaya wrote a blog/article about it when she visited National Museum of Fine Arts back in 2018.

I just think it's amazing and we should REALLY promote our Filipino artists more. I love you, Noli Me Tangere 28 paintings by Leonardo Tayao Cruz.

#ace 🧱 #noli me tangere #filipino post #filo dark academia #jose rizal #art #paitings #dark academia

[tokwattoge]

Sobrang excited ko na sa sahudan bukas para makabawas ng mga bayarin. Sana pag sumahod yung partner ko sa katapusan makaclear na dun sa isang concern. Proud na din ako sa sarili ko kasi nabeat ko yung highest number of classes ko last year. So ang takeaway ko diyan ay kaya naman, kailangan lang ng self discipline.

[kevinthought]

Sana araw-araw na lang ang sahod.

Tapos tuwing kinsenas-katapusan yung trabaho.

#banat #kowts #nganga #hugot #patama #pinoy #tagalog #rants #banats #whogoat

[robbiemd]

19 January 2024

おはようございます！

Our view immediately after stepping out of our room.

We plan to spend the rest of the day here and drive back to Puerto for Ejii-chan’s flight back to MNL tonight. It’ll be another 2-3 hour drive so I’m taking my time to recuperate from the colossally stupid jungle trek yesterday.

“Akala ko talaga katapusan na natin kahapon. Pa’no kung may mga NPA?” She said.

Port Barton, San Vicente, Palawan

[bbarican]

december 18, 2023; 7:14 am - roadtrip!

good morning, tumblr! happy monday! its rainy and gloomy and cold, but im not mad about it; im currently in a starbucks sa slex kasi i decided to help out my boss toda sa batangas project niya; its just gonna be me, her, and our client’s assistant today

im excited! its been so long since i last went to batangas kaya im excited for the roadtrip and to see our project down there too kasi this is on of our last high end residentia projects kaya im looking forward to taking lots of photos too

this weekend has been the most fun ive ever had in a really long time! so many new memories with my family and the fact na we’re only getting started palang is making me suuuuper stoked for the rest of the holiday season kasi hanggng katapusan pa sila ng december dito!

i also bought gifts na for my parents and funny enough, i didnt even try as in not at all to hide their gifts kasi nga i love giving gifts and i dont do well with hiding surprises, especially if i know na mgugustohan talaga nila yung ibibigay ko

for example, kagabi napadaan ko sa store that sells collectible toys and i was initially there to look around for gifts for my cousins pero and unang tanong ko talaga is if meron ba silang anything n voltes v related

and they did! they had 1 funko pop and i didnt even hesitate that much kasi i know my dad is gonna love it so i bought it tapos natatawa pa ko kasi it was impossible to hide from my dad either way kasi yung plastic bag from the store was clear too so he wouldve seen it kaagad din

for my mom naman, i bought her clothes and make up is thats some of the things she wanted and it was also an excuse for me to buy myself a new lip balm from sunnies so its always a win win situation in the end

im so grateful na i get to spoil my parents na

the homily last night was very spot on too - we should learn how to be okay with things and situations just being enough; and im glad to say na everything has been enough for us and i will forever be thankful

anyways, i hope you guys have a lovely monday and a lovely rest of the week! for those na may work pa like me, ingat kayo sa mga biyahe niyo! and for those na naka bakasyon na, eh di sana ako din

#bbarican #prsnl #thoughts #personal #life #writings #update #updates #work #family

[hugoterongmakata]

Akala ko katapusan ko na.

It started kanina nung nagkaroon sa left side ng eye ko na parang light flashing. Tapos naging light sensitive yung eyes ko. Tapos andaming di ko maexplain sa paningin ko kaya nag panic na ako. Sabi ng mga kawork ko baka sa pagod lang eyes ko so pinikit ko sya then try ko umidlip. Few minutes after biglang sumakit ng sobra yung ulo ko as in anlala tapos may gumagapang na sensation from neck to occiput to right parietal. Sobrang nagpapanic ako kasi di ko maintindihan nararamdaman ko. Tapos sabi ko sa mga kaduty ko, mag papa ER na ako.

Sa triage, tinanong ako kung ano nangyari ano nararamdaman ko then few questions after nag activate sila ng BAT (brain attack team), nilipat ako from triage to ER Critical Care unit. Then doctors came checking everything. Tapos ayun, dinala ako sa MRI to check. Nakaka claustrophobic pala talaga sa loob ng machine. (First time ko yun) then ayun, ang tagal dun sa loob tapos ending sabi nila doc, okay naman daw and most likely migraine lang yung nangyari.

Dun ako nakaramdam ng relief. Pero ayun under observation pa din symptoms ko ngayon. Akala ko talaga yung nakikita ko kanina, flashback na ng buhay ko. Ganong feeling e. Grabe talagaaa.

Yung tawag daw dun sa naranasan ko kanina is "aura". "Migraine Aura". Di ko masyado naintindihan kasi medyo groggy na ako don sa binigay na gamot nila. Then soon after, dinischarged din ako with instructions. Akala ko talaga..... 🥺🥺

#az

[melovesanneeeee]

Sana ay mayroon tayong kakayahang burahin ang mga damdamin na ayaw nating manatili. Panahon lang naman kasi ang tunay na lumilipas at hindi ang mga bagay na ayaw na nating maalala. Naiipon lamang lahat upang masabing may natutunan ka, pero masaya ka ba?

Natututo sa bawat pagkawasak ngunit hindi pa rin natin alam kung aling bagay ba ang dapat aralin upang maging masaya. Ngingiti upang maikubli ang kalungkutang lagi nating kapiling. Mga bangungot na tila ordinaryong panaginip na lamang para sa atin sapagkat paulit-ulit tayong ginagambala. Nakasanayan na, na minsan ay mumulat ka nang may luha sa mga mata. Bakas ang takot, bakas ang mga pangamba. May katapusan pa kaya?

Masanay sa mga bagay na inihatag para sa'yo ng tadhana. Ngunit, paano ba masanay sa kalungkutan na matagal mo nang hinihiling na matapos na?

#afternoon musings #while sleepy

[motsdejeram]

Ang kanyang mga mata'y katulad ng isang sanlibutan kung saan ang oras ay dumadaloy lamang ng walang katapusan kapag ako'y tumitig; at sa kanyang mga mata'y madilim na kalangitan kung saan ang mga bituin ay walang katapusang nagniningning

— Jeram, Marahuyo

#poetry #love poem #filipino poetry #tagalog poetry #tula #poetic

[lihimlihamtinta]

May pag ibig siguro talagang nakatakda

Kahit ito ay pag ibig na pansamantala

Hindi naman mali pero 'di itinadhana

Minahal ng lubos kahit may katapusan

Pinakamatamis ngunit pinakasaglit

Natapos na masakit ngunit walang pagsisisi

Malaya kahit ikaw ang huling hiling

Pag ibig na habang buhay kahit 'di nanatili

#move on #poetry #tula #spoken word #poem #poets on tumblr #tagalog poetry #tagalog #poems #maikling tula #tulatulaan #makalaya #manunulat #makata #manulat #manunula #poets #poets on tumbler #filipino writers #filipino writer #writers on tumblr #poetic #poetscommunity #writers and poems #tinta

[lovekismet]

Minsan Tayo ay Naging Teenager

Minsan tayo ay naging teenager. Minsan dumaan tayo sa isang yugto ng ating buhay kung kailan puno ng mga hindi makakalimutang karanasan. Mga panahon na akala natin ay sigurado na tayo sa lahat. Sa munting kaalaman, naging nagkaroon ng kompiyansa na nauunawaan na natin ang takbo ng mundo, ang kalakaran ng buhay, at ang ikot ng kapalaran.

Minsan tayo ay naging teenager. Minsan tayo ay umibig at nagmahal ng tila walang hanggan. Minsan tayo ay pumili ng tao at pinangakuan na sasamahan habang buhay. Minsan naranasan natin ang tumigil ang oras sa piling ng ating sinisinta. Walang takot, walang pangamba, walang pagdududa.

Minsan tayo ay naging teenager. Minsan naranasan natin na ang bawat sandali ay tila walang simula, tila walang katapusan. Tila walang nakaraan, walang hinaharap. Bawat sandali ay tila nilulunod tayo sa lalim ng pagmamahalan at lumulutang sa gaan ng kagalakan.

Minsan lang tayo naging teenager. Pero ang bawat sandali sa mga pahina mula sa yugtong ito ng ating buhay ay magiging bahagi ng ating alaala, mananatili at hindi malilimutan.

02/02 Friday.

#lovekismet #notes #love notes #notes about life #realization #memories #tagalog notes #literatura #nostalgia

[karagatantalabuwan]

...at sa simula ng katapusan

#karagatantalabuwan #poetryph