#LISTEN i have so many thoughts about it

[blueboyluca]

“When I first heard it, from a dog trainer who knew her behavioral science, it was a stunning moment. I remember where I was standing, what block of Brooklyn’s streets. It was like holding a piece of polished obsidian in the hand, feeling its weight and irreducibility. And its fathomless blackness. Punishment is reinforcing to the punisher. Of course. It fit the science, and it also fit the hidden memories stored in a deeply buried, rusty lockbox inside me. The people who walked down the street arbitrarily compressing their dogs’ tracheas, to which the poor beasts could only submit in uncomprehending misery; the parents who slapped their crying toddlers for the crime of being tired or hungry: These were not aberrantly malevolent villains. They were not doing what they did because they thought it was right, or even because it worked very well. They were simply caught in the same feedback loop in which all behavior is made. Their spasms of delivering small torments relieved their frustration and gave the impression of momentum toward a solution. Most potently, it immediately stopped the behavior. No matter that the effect probably won’t last: the reinforcer—the silence or the cessation of the annoyance—was exquisitely timed. Now. Boy does that feel good.”

— Melissa Holbrook Pierson, The Secret History of Kindness (2015)

#dog books #this chapter was very sad reading #when you become aware of punishment #and its use and its prevalence #it's hard not to despair #again this is why positive reinforcement feels like absolution #maybe now my eyes are open I can make up for what I did #what I did because it's what everyone does #because it's more acceptable to punish than to do anything else #I've been having so many thoughts about punishment and society and justice #this book was very validating #another great validating moment in my jumbled thoughts #was listening to the You're Wrong About episode on justice #with Amanda Knox #it helped to ease the despair a little

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

some misc Barn & Wally doodles from the past week or so <3 i heart them

#i read 'barnaby bites wally out of affection' exactly Once and it imprinted in my brain forever #its so damn cute... what the fuck... who authorized that.... #one thing about me: yes i Will exaggerate size differences. no im Not sorry #listen one thing i love more than the big guy & their lil buddy dynamic #is big guy & their lil buddy 'rough-housing' #where it looks vicious but the big guy is actually being so so gentle and careful <3 #it kills me every time!!! #AND THESE TWO ARE PERFECT FOR BOTH BABEYYYYYY #the bestiessssss themmmmm them them them #i have so many thoughts / feelings about them and many of them Directly Conflict <3 #scribble salad #welcome home #wait when. when did i start drawing barnaby so damn much #every other scribble is Him #uh oh! looks like hes Blorbo!!! #anyhow sometimes i sit on doodles for Days and Days #until it occurs to me that hey. i can post these #i havent been scribbling much bc ive been chipping away at comms when i have the free time to do Art #the only non-comm stuff have been silly warmups riperoni #BUT! AHA! last week's me (early this week???) was in their Barnaby & Wally feels!!! #providing current me with Crumbs to post!

[isitdonproof]

TMNT 2007

#tmnt #tmntedit #tmnt 2007 #tmnt2007edit #splinter #raphael #emma gifs #mein #listen. i have many thoughts about this splinter - most of them bad. but he does /know/ his sons so he's on thIN ICE #2k7 raph needs a break. so does don. and mikey. #leo is also on thin ice #these are a bit oversharp but idk when i last gifed 07 was

[thewingedwolf]

the arryn line has died out so many times they always have a backup line ready to be the next arryn, these bitches are just sooooo bad at living. everyone’s always picking on the starks for getting nearly wiped out but damn ned & cat really hunkered down and repopulated the hell out of the family tree, like the starklings aren’t doing that bad, meanwhile you just like, sneeze too hard in the direction of the eyrie and the whole arryn line is on the brink of extinction, but it’s okay, they follow strict osha guidelines in the vale and they have a protocol for this very common scenario

#it was like 3 separate times in the history PLUS harry harding where the narrator is like ‘yeah they had to just this random cousin out #their ass because the whole line died. all the sons And the daughters And the dad had no siblings’ LIKE WHY ARE THEY INCAPABLE OF KEEPING IT #GOING OMG #rani liveblogs asoiaf #house arryn #i am waiting for my fire & blood hold to come in 💀💀 i made little notes when i was listening to the targs section about things that #interested me or that i thought could be involved in plot/prophecy stuff so i listen harder for certain stuff during fire & blood #then it’s dunk & egg. i’ve been listening to a clash of kings between all this it’s just that the series are audiobooks i own & the #other things are ones i checked out so i have to listen to those Now. esp fire & blood that hold list was so long 😭😭 but audiobooks are #expensive i can only get so many!!!! #a song of ice and fire

[eyes-of-nine]

truly what a guy

#malevolent #malevolent podcast #arthur lester #arthur malevolent #john doe #john malevolent #my art #ahfdgfghsdd i have so many important things to do but these two have overtaken all of my waking thoughts so i'm fucked to say the least #adgfd i just wanna talk about them with someone but no one i know has the energy for that 12h long infodump #straight up today was my first truly no work day in a few weeks and what did i do? spent half the day figuring out how i want to draw arthur #still not sure if this the direction i wanna take his design in but somehow along the process he ended up as like my ideal look on masc days #tbh i don't have the time to unpack whatever that says about me ywy #john's design is very much still a first draft but i can't think about it too much or i might just actually go insane #this podcast makes me unwell(affectionate) #the universe is so evil for not letting me just draw them all day long ywy #in an ideal world it would be no diploma no uni applications only malevolent #.....i'm gonna stop with the rambling now #so yeah go listen to malevolent

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

It's the 6 month anniversary of this blog! Check out these cool bugs I found.

Part 2 - Part 3

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #hollow knight #mdzs au #way too many characters to tag #'OP why?' Listen... It was either this or a Homestuck crossover. Which is still on the table btw. I've put thought into it. #Speaking of putting thought into things...I have put two full asses of effort into this. So I'm gonna talk about it in the tags. #I mapped all the major sects to hallownest clans and drew *way* more than just the characters shown here #More pertinently not shown are the Nies - Who are beetles! #The mantis clan has a lot of crossover with the Nies given the lore but I Love Mantis Wangji and you cant take him away from me. #wwx was a moth solely for his ties to Baoshen sanren (nearly forgotten sect & nearly forgotten clan) #but (HOLLOW KNIGHT SPOILERS) the ties to her radiance and the infection made for some very fun parallels #YLLZ moth 100% is puppeting husks around #JGS is a pale king expy becuase...you know....lots of children... #it also gives me a great excuse to explain wwx's soul taking mxy's body. #Still have lots and lots to say but I'm already running late! More funny - less specific to a very small population - comics to morrow! #This was more or less a style study and I learned a lot! #Thank you all for an awesome 6 months B*) You guys have pushed my way more out of my shell (pun intented) than I would- #-have ever gone had I just hidden away like I usually do. Thanks for all the support even with silly things like this <3

[finncakes]

so glad about this reveal from yesterday's 4-sided dive

#critical role #ashton greymoore #ashton babygirl you're such a damn fool #i do wonder though... at what point did ash start to subconsciously care abt the group.... hrm #i am relistening to cr3 rn (on ep 13) and knowing this fact will make listening more interesting... #esp in regards to ashton and orym... #babygirl... you tried to use this sweet sweet guy and instead are falling in love with him #<- this is my ashrym brain speaking #but man.... #i can't wait for ash to individually tell the group he care :) #also this makes all the times that ash had commented on orym's ashari shit more... inch resting... #i have so many thoughts and they are all about these two i'm so sorry #oh wait girl hold on #cr spoilers #just in caseies

[skitskatdacat63]

Every time I read Fernando cursing in fic, I can only think about this clip and then my brain short-circuits

#i have many feelings i shall not disclose about this clip #but i thought abt it again bcs in some fic i was reading it had fernando saying 'joder' #AND THIS CLIP JUST SHOT DIRECTLY INTO THE FOREFRONT OF MY BRAIN #fernando season 1 truly fed us so well #like seriously that show is a fernando fans wet dream theres just...so much...interesting...stuff... #i kept having to replay this clip bcs aaaahhhhhhhh my god.......the cursing...the low tone...the rolling Rs #wdym this clip is about being ahead in a race? all i can hear is sexy cursing and that it is brilliant :) #and nando himself listening back to the clip and just nodding confidently...I AM DEAD HE KILLED ME #(im not really used to reading Spanish J(too used to English J and German J) so the H sound doesnt really pop into my head immediately) #(so i could never really like visualize Spanish speaking charas saying words like joder in a sexy way) #(and then they showed that part in the show and my brain leaked out of my head) #*not actually strollonso but strollonso in my heart because this clip is how I visualize dom Fernando hehehe #i dont remember the ep i think it was either 4 or 5 #i think itd be funny if it was 4 tho bcs i think that ep had the most insane clips and gave so much content #(that one had kitty fernando/carlando sr gay drama scene/nando getting railed(thematically)/etc) #fernando alonso #fernando(show) #fa14 #formula 1 #formula one #f1 #we do a little bit of f1 #fernando s1e5

[cosbeans]

ingo should get a lot of hugs when he gets back idk

#ingo #emmet #submas #nimbasa trio #pokemon #cosme doobles #listen i have so many thoughts about this #theres so much angst focused on emmet and him dealing with grief #but i want to see more of ingo coming back and struggling to adjust again #his memory is still bad . hes suddenly so unused to physical touch #the fear of one day waking up in hisui haunts him #ANYWAYS im having a lot of thoughts and not enough time #have a nice evening everyone #THESE ARE ALL PLATONIC TOUCHES BY THE WAY #NO SHIPPING IN THIS HOUSE SOMETIMES YOURE JUST CLOSE FRIENDS AND ARE OK WITH TOUCHES #bl*nkshippers im pointing a gun at you specifically

[clefadrylcorner]

The real loss of Capcom putting Kristoph in the basement is that we can no longer get any more scenes or context about the weird gay shit he and Phoenix had going on. I think they painted eachothers nails and shotgunned cigarettes together during the late hours and explored eachothers bodies once or twice, you know what I mean. I just feel like we could have had a scene where Phoenix talks about him in passing and says some shit like how when they drank together they only used one glass between the two of them; both because they were close and because it guaranteed to Phoenix that he wouldn't be poisoned by Kristoph if they were using the same glass, and then apollo looks at him like he just said he kissed his old boss with tongue. I just think it would be funny, you know

#ace attorney #apollo justice ace attorney #aa4 #aaj #kristoph gavin #phoenix wright #apollo justice #krisnix #i have a LOT of thoughts about how so many apollo justice threads were lost and especially how Kristoph just never gets mentioned again #i mean it's tragic from a writing point of view because we lost some good narrative dread and character conclusions #but also because it just would've been funny as shit #you're telling me these guys spent 7 years together and never once played gay chicken??? what? because they hated eachother? #absolutely not phoenix would do it for the bit and kristoph would do it for the even smarmier and more condescending bit #and apollo and klavier get to have the worst time of their lives together listening to this of course

[brookiidookiii]

post runaway model after jo is upset chester ruined her makeup, zoey and anne maria comfort her and redo the look so chester can't mess it up this time. plssss see my vision of a maggot girl friendship.

#i have so many headcanons and thoughts about these 3 and how their friendship sparks #listen i love yuri and shipping as much as the next guy BUT PLEAASEEEEEE can we have more friendships in this fandom #specifically girl friendships. i love female friendships. we need SOOO much more of those #my art #fanart #art #illustration #procreate #total drama #total drama revenge of the island #tdroti #td roti #roti #tdi #total drama island #td jo #td anne maria #td zoey #total drama jo #total drama anne maria #total drama zoey #mutant maggots

[scintillyyy]

anyways the thing about tim & wealth is that it's not so much relatable on account of how well off the drakes are, but it is interesting. to me.

so, like. the drakes are well-off from their inception, yea. but like. they're so clearly implied to be new money esp considering the 80s when they were conceived with the stock market bubble. like the excess of the million dollar jet screams ppl whose business really boomed in the 80s and they were going to flash their gains. the facade of the new money with the mention of the jack buying an erte litho...the flashiness of owning nice things, but those things were still just a facsimile of the real thing....multiple apartments...buying a home completely in cash....but then a few bad investments is enough to wipe out most everything...god the fanon of drake industries being an unshakeable old titan like wayne enterprises is so uninteresting to me because drake industries was such a volatile company. it almost got wiped out by phil marin embezzling from them...pls see my vision it was a small but fairly stable family company that hit it big & could not sustain itself like that forever...tim's canonical issues with worrying about money & the idea that he was well aware that the company his family owned was always teetering on the edge. good years were good. bad years could mean they could lose it all. tim doesn't worry about food on the table and the roof over his head, but he does worry about the years they're in the red...his parents fights worsen when the company has a poor year...his dad thinks they should take a risk, his mom thinks they should be cautious...they don't fight about it in front of him, they don't want their son to worry about their finances, but he knows despite that...if the company doesn't make it, what will happen to them....he is 8, it isn't his responsibility, but he feels the weight of it in the background all the same...

#listen. like i know this feels very rich person problem #but jack and janet fighting over the company & the fact that it was very new money & not stable #means that tim as a child might have felt very insecure over the volatility of the company #what do u do when u are 8 and ur parents are talking in hushed whispers about how if they have another bad year... #sry i have so many thoughts about drake industries

[fallen-goldfishcracker]

this man. has Abomination themed pajamas. the absolute confidence. the style.

he literally found his niche and stayed in it. good for him.

#I am in love with this man #The Hunter fan to Darius fan pipeline is a straight up high speed water slide #my favorite cringe fail girlboss #I have so many thoughts about him #part 2 of: fallen hyperfixating on a silly little man with 2 minutes of screen time #Listen I- #the owl house #darius deamonne #toh darius #owl house #No joke I honest to heavens love his style #It's purple! What's not to love #he is serving

[britcision]

I dunno if I touched on this already but I am Obsessed so you’re stuck with it

Just

Idk the Adventurer’s Bible calls it “cruel” that Mithrun told Thistle that Delgal wanted him dead in the end, but… it just doesn’t read that way to me

No one questions that Laios and co didn’t want to start a fight and just wanted to talk, but I feel like Mithrun was coming from a pretty similar place

He gives every prospective dungeon lord a chance, speaks to them more readily than anyone else, and always offers them a chance to back down despite clearly believing they won’t take it

And I mean I can’t 1000% cite it so I might be wrong, but… I think it’s also the only time he openly empathizes? He’s more emotive, with more facial expressions, but I can’t really think of another time he openly talks about what other people want

He’ll drop all his own trauma without batting an eye, but with Thistle and then with Marcille he tries to work out what their motivations are, what they want to wish for, and use his own experiences to warn them it can’t work and they won’t actually get it

It’s kinda cursory, but much less than Lycion asking Laios to give up on Marcille; he’s seeking a connection to spare them his fate, and while seeing Thistle catatonic doesn’t noticeably phase him, he’s pretty disinterested in the dungeon lords when you compare it to his reaction to the winged lion

(Full feral, 30 seconds flat, not a word before it’s peanut butter murder time)

The dungeon lords are ostensibly natural enemies as much as the demon is, and all the other Canaries are pretty focused on eliminating the dungeon lord as the first priority, and I dunno if any of the rest would even bother asking them to stand down

Lycion sure as hell doesn’t bother trying to justify to Laios why he shouldn’t go side with Marcille; he just asks him to abandon his friend, no, entirely expected, and he’s pretty clearly just humouring Kabru

Officially, they have to kill the dungeon lord to get a shot at the demon, and with a direct shot Mithrun loses his shit

But either dungeon lord alone? He doesn’t even try to seriously hurt them until he’s made the offer, he gets them temporarily incapacitated at best and he’s perfectly happy to let Laios free Marcille if he thinks he has even a vague shot at it

And sure, it might all be calculated to throw them off their game, to find weaknesses and rattle them before the fighting starts, but then why would he agree to let Laios help her stop being a dungeon lord without a fight?

The other captains sure as hell aren’t buying in, but Mithrun signs off without question, and it also might be that he just doesn’t care about the dungeon lords; any way he can get to the demon works

But he could have killed Marcille instead of trying to restrain or search her

He’s a fucking madlad, the time he used tackling her and starting the pat down could have begin with cape-decapitation to solve the problem before it occurred

He could have sent the plank into Thistle’s chest, not his arm to make him drop the book - that’s even a bigger target

They’re the Canaries. They already heard Laios say he wanted to be the dungeon lord. If they’d tpk’d the entire party there, it’d have been their job description, and we only got a dramatic final showdown because he gave Marcille a chance to just hand the books over… or let him take them

(Bet Pattadol and Lycion regretted pulling him off her, optics be damned, for at least a couple hours there)

Idk I just think it’s interesting that despite being the character with no wants or opinions on most things… he really does try to save the dungeon lords, and his squad follow his lead until they can’t even in his absence

(Talking to Laios and Chilchuck even after he’s fucked off, giving Laios even a cursory chance to quit)

It just… doesn’t add up that he told Thistle what Delgal wanted to be cruel, not on top of everything else

It wasn’t fucking tactful, but it was true, and if Thistle had believed him and realized that what he was doing was pointless…

That woulda been the fight. Wrap on Dungeon Lord Thistle, just a hop down for the other book, the status quo is mostly intact but the Island is saved

I don’t think it’s necessarily cruel to not want to kill someone

(But then the Golden Country woulda had to deal with King Mithrun Who 10000% Is Leaving To Find Another Demon Murder Opportunity, so like it was never an option narratively… which makes it all the more interesting that he tried)

#delicious in dungeon #dungeon meshi #dungeon meshi spoilers #delicious in dungeon spoilers #dunmeshi #dunmeshi spoilers #mithrun #mithrun dungeon meshi #listen i just have so many thoughts about him #and tbh am the person who usually asks ‘why didn’t they just try x’ #ao this may also be why i am feral for his ass #cuz he DID try x and it didn’t work and we move on #but he fucking tried

[nottspocket]

My physical therapist asked me about bnha today??? and was discussing the symbolism and w me???? and asked abt my favorite characters??????? He’s healing me inside and out bro

#nott be quiet #I was doing my resistance training while talking about the emotional consequences of many of the characters’ backstories #and he was like ‘no yeah exactly’ and FULLY engaged in the conversation w me and when I tell you I was floored #like it’s not a huge deal but it made me so happy to get to talk about it :) #and to have him listen and talk about his thoughts too???? I could cry #conclusion? a good day today

[fanciestgeckofella]

man i love how most of q!forever shipps are like sun/moon coded. like, he just keeps getting into intense and interesting relationships with the cold/logical crowd y'know?? philza, cellbit and badboyhalo are so clearly the shade, the logical ones, and forever just does such a good job of being an ever pulling sun to them

#qsmp #q!forever #4halo #philever #4bit #girl listen im gonna start screaming about how sun coded forever is any second now #does this even make sense??? #i have so many thoughts about them #how can i ever not be a multishipper when he keeps getting this yknow