#Laura doesnt exists i guess

[jackienautism]

wrote all of this b4 seeing how max’s rejection letter explicitly talks about graduate school, so take it w/ a grain of salt. but i still think it makes a plausible case.

showing means more than straight up telling in my opinion, and the writers did a terrible job at conveying that laura + max were supposed to be going into grad school. so here

gonna be talking about this response, ill be referring to the post linked. unless its SPECIFICALLY stated that laura is a college graduate and i just somehow missed it entirely, then ignore this whole thing i guesss

anywho, based on the information given to us IN GAME, there's little to no way that we're meant to interpret laura + max as already graduated college students. (JUST based on how they speak about school, i mean). especially when its said that max is entering school as undecided. and, correct me if im wrong, but i dont believe you're able to graduate undergrad school STILL without a major! i think the most that will happen is the school graduating you as liberal arts, but laura explicitly talks about max being undecided + him needing to pick a diverse set of classes because of that.

and based on the post im currently referring to, its said that both laura and max are currently going into college for their masters / doctorate degrees. which IS possible, except for the existence of max’s undecided major still. in order to get a masters (and ESP a doctorate i assume), you must have prerequisite courses under your belt and so forth to even qualify. youre not able to strive for a masters or doctorate without knowing what you wanna major in! at the very least, max going into his second college experience just doesnt make any sense.

and this is very much so subjective but, the way they both talk about it? it reallt does not seem like theyve already encountered 4 whole years of college. plus laura LITERALLY says that she just needs "the classes that'll let [her] major in veterinary sciences." if she was in school for her postgrad degree then she would already have her major all set and confirmed, would she not????????? YES the writers or whatesvesrg or WHOEVER may have "wanted" both laura and max gto be in their early twenties with a bachelors degree, but trhe game has several pieces of evidence that go against it!

so, no, you can't blame people for seeing both laura and max as fresh out of highschool! because the game SUPPORTS that theory! with ttheir talk surroundning college and the fact that the other counselors are STILL TEENAGERS....

in conclusion. the quarry really droppped the ball w/ this one LOL. i couldn't give less of a fuck if you still see them as 21 / 22, do whatever you want i guess, just don’t be dicks about it. and please be AWARE of how and why someone may think otherwise, especially when this scene in chapter 7 exists and provides much more than needed for us to make a plausible inference. because nothing they say aligns with them being postgrad students, nothing makes any goddamn sense and it pisses me off!!!!!!

#laura kearney #max brinly #the quarry #mine #text #[emma mountebank voice] ok :) i’m done #discourse #just wanted to get this out. i’ve had it in my drafts for 2 months now #and it’s funny bc like. the game paints it as the ‘wrong’ decision to snoop in max’s bag…. aka when you’re able to physically see that- #-they’re grad students #so ??????? youd think the game would want us to see that. right? #and also. who the hell brings their rejection letter to summer camp?😭 #these writers just love to leave me confused and frustrated i swear #think i’m gonna keep seeing laura as younger just to piss ppl off #my laura tag #my max tag #my TQ tag #my thoughts #TQ

[im-not-a-monster]

I've been watching a Quarry playthru and the game is. interesting. but more importantly the comments on the video are all making it out like this story is clear cut and it's kinda making me crazy

like. why would you assume that Travis is telling the truth? what do we know about him. he's a dirty cop who uses his position to cover up his family's multiple murders. he lies to the other characters constantly even tho it's literally to his own detriment. from the slur he uses against the sideshow folks I can only assume he's also a huge racist.

so why would I believe that Silas was actually, genuinely being mistreated by his mother.

like. he's a werewolf. he's in a cage because he's a werewolf. there's no mention of if it was a full moon the night Caleb and Kaylee decided to spring him, and I can only guess if as the progenitor of the werewolves he was capable of transforming at will maybe? i mean he is the dog boy, so who knows. but he bites Caleb during the attack, so before his mother's ghost could be hypothetically cursing them all. so he was already a werewolf.

like "Kaylee was the nicest kindest soul" who told her brother to set fire to an enormously fast burning substance next to a bunch of gas powered circus cars ????? we see multiple explosions in the flashback. she and Caleb could certainly have believed they had good intentions, but also... their family seems to have a ton of power in town? why not call the authorities if you really believe the kid is being mistreated? like, circus freaks are Performers, if he was really acting feral I can only assume he was acting or it was the full moon that night and he was feeling effects.

like I'm sure this is just the writing team not thinking about it, but this game is set during modern times, they all have cell phones. traveling sideshow still exist! they're registered with labor bureaus and stuff even. the ones I've read about are run by the freaks even.

I just... don't buy it. it sounds too much like covering up, which is what Travis has been doing the whole game.

and then there's Silas -- Travis says there are sightings of him but DOESNT say there are attacks, because presumably they went to check out these sightings hoping to find him. if there were werewolves there wouldn't he have mentioned it? so Silas has been on the run from a bunch of people who want to murder him for 6 years, and they're upset that he wants revenge on them for murdering his mother and everyone he probably ever knew?

like. at best. Kaylee and Caleb genuinely thought they were doing the right thing. but they also decided they were going to be the Big Heroes and in the process everyone in the sideshow died. which is uh. murder right? when you arson a place and every dies? like the death was accidental but they set the fire on purpose.

that's not even touching the fact that Caleb and Kaylee are just??? out in the woods doing whatever as werewolves the whole night??? Chris is locked up but Laura kills Kaylee at the camp-- how the hell did she get there? and the hikers they killed before that? they clearly were not being very careful. at least Chris's "lock myself in the basement" plan seemed to be moderately working before Laura and max unfortunately screwed it up

idk I'm all over the place I just don't buy that Eliza was Evil so the Hacketts didn't deserve any of it. it sounds like more justification from Travis, like that'll excuse all the people who died because of them doing whatever they wanted.

#and i know silas kills everyone if you let him live but hell whats he supposed to do

[mxbitters]

not actually all that fond of the way sp*tify has an official queercore playlist. and to a lesser extent what they consider punk playlists in general but like it really just doesn’t sit right with me how we got a big corporation trying to dictate what makes up a subgenre made by and for a specific group of people when any corporation equivalent to the current one at the time wouldn’t be caught dead actually acknowledging queer people in a serious pseudo-respectful way

#also they literally have no fucking clue what queercore is ok #like. JUST BECAUSE THE SINGER COMES OUT AS BI DOESNT MAKE THEM A QUEERCORE BAND #i think it mightve come up bc ‘-core’ rose to such an explosive popularity all of a sudden.. #so.. i guess in *that* definition if they deem it more like. the AESTHETIC of being queer.. #like. tribe 8? pansy division? le tigre? limp wrist? dog park dissidents? queercore. #and there ARE more queercore musicians in there i won’t deny that #but like. against me! isn’t queercore just because laura’s trans and has written abt that #they’re an INCREDIBLE band!!! but they’re not queercore yk? #and then they put like. trash boat and stand atlantic and im like #ok i cant really say much abt stand atlantic i know like 1 song #but trash boat’s pretty exclusively pop punk #maybe thats evolved as of late but i really dont think it has #theyre great!! they really are! but theyre more state champs/tssf than like . Queercore #like im not even gatekeeping but like. how do i put it #corporations setting the definition of such a subgenre is like. destroying the fence entirely #like definitions exist for a reason because queercore entails a very specific community and very specific politics #or ok not VERY specific but like. its PUNK. its VERY political. typically diy. it’s not polished and it sure as HELL #is not something a corporation like spotify actually gives a shit about #im just rantinv now but like. seriously

[steves-on-a-plane]

Better Together

Words: 2042 Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Reader   Request: “Hello, favorite blog writer! :) I may also request a Bucky Imagine where maybe he's your Ex (breaking up cause of he doesnt want to get you in danger cause of the avengers) but he is lost without you and totally changed in the bad way, but you feel the same.. then one night he wants to leave the Avengers behind but Steves get you there and you convince him to stay while hes already on his bike.. then you talk, decide to give your love another chance annnd end up in bed :) hehe. THAAANK YOU DOLL” - Anon Summary: Steve Rogers comes knocking on Reader’s door in the middle of the night. He shows her a note from her Ex Bucky who plans on leaving the Avengers and starting a new life. Steve thinks Reader is the only one who can convince Bucky he’s already where he belongs.

You woke up in the middle of the night. You’d been tossing and turning most of it but that was nothing new. You’d been having trouble sleeping ever since he broke up with you. He said he was doing it to protects you. A part of you knew that his concerns were genuine. He always said he loved you and you could tell when you looked into his eyes that he meant it. Being the significant other of an Avenger had its risks. That was why Clint had kept his entire family secret, even from the rest of the team. There was plenty of news footage to act as proof of the dangers Tony had put Pepper in.

The only difference between you and Laura Barton or Pepper Potts, was that you knew what you’d signed up for. You didn’t know Bucky before the Winter Soldier. You’d only been a part of his journey after he tried to separate himself from that persona. It wasn’t as if you’d lived a normal life together for some time and then he happened to get invited to join at team that put the world at danger just as often as it saved it. But, just like the first time he’d told you he loved you, once Bucky decided to leave, there was no changing his mind.

It had been roughly three months since he’d left. He’d asked the others to stay away to help keep you safe, so when Bucky left most of your friends did too. They all had loved ones of their own and they knew they’d do anything to protect them. The team didn’t agree with Bucky’s decision, but they at least tried to respect it. You wished they had respected you enough to ask for your opinion instead of treating you like a child too fragile to handle yourself.

Your throat felt scratchy and dry. You decided to get up and get a drink of water. It wasn’t like you were going to be going back to sleep any time soon. You ambled into the kitchen letting loose a loud yawn. You rubbed your eyes and made your way over to the sink. You’d just been about to fill a glass with tap water when you heard a knock on your apartment door. Your eyes glanced over at the microwave. It was four in the morning.

“Who in the world…?” You abandoned your task at hand to peek through the peephole. Steve Rogers was standing in the hall. He and Sam were the only ones who didn’t abide by Bucky’s no contact rule. They both told you many times and on separate occasions that they were sure Bucky would come to his sense soon. You opened the door and motioned for Steve to step inside.

“I wasn’t expecting you to be awake.” He confessed as you closed the door behind him.

“Couldn’t sleep.” You shrugged. You folded your arms over your chest. “Shouldn’t you be at the compound pretending I don’t exist?”

“Probably.” Steve shrugged. “You know he’s just doing what he thinks is best.”

“Yeah, but you know that just because he thinks it’s best that doesn’t make it the only option, right?” You sighed.

“Believe me, I do. That’s why I’m here actually.” Steve confessed. “He’s leaving, [Y/N]. He packed all his things at the compound. He left me a note.” Steve handed over a piece of paper that looked like it had in fact been scratch across in Bucky’s impatient font. You looked down at the note and began to scan it quickly.

“Rogers, By the time you’re reading this, I’ll already be gone. Don’t bother trying to follow me. I appreciate everything you’ve tried to do for me over the years, but I need a fresh start, a real fresh start. You’ve been the best friend I could have ever asked for but this is the end of the line Pal. -Buck.”

“You have any idea where he may be going?” Steve questioned. You looked up at Captain America. His brows were knit together with worry. His lips were turned down into a frown that didn’t seem appropriate on the face on the Star-Spangled Man.

“Actually, yeah. Are you sure we should go after him, Steve? He seems pretty sure that this is what he wants.” You hesitated.

“Well, he seemed pretty sure that calling things off with you was what he wanted too.” Steve told you. “He’s been a mess without you, [Y/N]. He’s been second guessing every decision he’s made. He’s been short tempered. He doesn’t sleep well. He won’t talk with anyone unless it’s about work. I Think you’re the only one who can convince him to stay.”

“I couldn’t even convince him to stay with me, Steve.” You disagreed. “But maybe together we can prove to him that he’s better off with the team than he would be alone. I’ll get my coat.”

Steve programed the address you gave him into his car’s GPS. The directions led to a log cabin in Virginia that Bucky had purchased a few years ago. Steve parked his car in the driveway. It didn’t look like Bucky had arrived yet.

“I didn’t even know he had this place.” Steve gaped. “You’re sure this is where he’ll come?”

“This would be my best guess. It was supposed to be a secret. He got the idea from Clint.” You told him. “He wanted a place to hide in case he ever lost control again.”

“Why did he tell you about it?” Steve asked. He was clearly a little hurt that his lifelong best friend had trusted you with such a big secret.

“At the time, he told me that if he ever lost control again, I’d be the only one who would be able to pull him out of it. You think you can handle this?” You questioned.

“He’d do the same for me.” Steve said before getting out of the car. You followed after him, the two of you began to walk the perimeter of the house, looking for any indication that Bucky may have already been there and left. After only a few minutes you heard the familiar purr of a motorcycle. You turned a corner as Bucky cut the engine. Because it was still dark out, he didn’t see you or Steve at first. However, he certainly recognized his best friend’s vehicle.

“How the hell did you find me, Rogers?” Bucky mumble to himself.

“A little bird told me.” Steve confessed, He stepped closer to Bucky, which activated a motion sensor light above Bucky’s garage.

“That makes sense.” Bucky sighed when he saw you standing next to Steve.

“Can we talk?” You wondered, stepping closer to him.

“We have talked, [Y/N].” He answered. “I don’t have anything else to say. To you or him.” He nodded at Steve. He tried to walk past both of you towards his front door. You reached out for his wrist to stop him but you fingers only brushed against cool vibranium. He continued walking.

“Well, I do.” You called after him. That seemed to catch his attention briefly. He looked back at you over his shoulder.

“Do you remember what you said, when you took me here?” You called out to him.

“That was years ago. It was a different time, [Y/N].” He shook his head.

“It wasn’t so long ago, Buck.” You insisted, stepping closer. “You said you always wanted a place like this, away from the city. A quiet place to raise a family. You said you liked this house because it had potential, it gave you hope. Hope that we could have a brighter future together than your dark past.” You took another step closer to him and pointed to a large oak tree in the backyard. “You said that tree would be perfect for a tree house, handmade like your grandparents had at their house. The kind with a tire swing hung from a lower branch.”

“That was a pipe dream, [Y/N].” Bucky argued.

“It was more than that.” You insisted. “It was a future we can still have, together. We can be together, James. We can make this work. We can have the two point five kids with a tree house, a dog and a white picket fence, and in another thirty years we can have three rocking chairs out on the back deck enjoying the life we build. It won’t be easy, we’ll have to fight like hell, but you’ve given up too much to not get a happy ending.”

“Three chairs?” Bucky repeated.

“Yeah, when I picture us way older, Steve’s always there. I just want to be prepared in case he never marries and ends up living with us when he’s retired.” You explained. “You know I’ll age faster than you two, so I like to think that instead of remarrying the two of you grow old together. It sounds weird when I say it out loud.” You rolled your eyes. You could just make out the slightest hint of a smirk on Bucky’s face in the moonlight.

“So, in your fantasy reality where we end up together and you are presumably my wife, you envision my best friend living with us?” He chuckled.

“He’s family.” You shrugged. “What else would we do? Put him in a nursing home? Family takes care of each other, especially when they don’t know how to take care of themselves.”

“Alright, alright. Point taken.” You watched Bucky’s shoulders slump and he heaved a great sigh. “I’ll admit, I may have been acting a bit…irrational, the past few months. The truth is, none of this is how I pictured my life turning out.  Sometimes I get into my own head and, it’s hard to love myself, so I can’t understand how anyone else would. I truly don’t deserve the two of you.”

“Nonsense,” Steve came to stand beside you. “There’s no one else on earth stubborn enough to track you down.”

“You know something, Rogers, I think you might be right.” Bucky smiled.

“[Y/N]’s right too, Buck. We’re family. We stand by each other. We fight together. Especially if that fight is against our own instincts.” Steve said.

“It’s pretty cold out here.” Bucky observed. “You guys want to come inside?”

“I think maybe the two of you need time to talk. Can you make sure she get’s home alright?” Steve questioned.

“She already is home. We’ve got it from here, Rogers.” Bucky assured him. “Thank you.”

“Till the end of the line.” Steve told him before walking back to his car.

“You have time to talk?” He asked you. Bucky started walking towards his front door.

“Yeah,” you nodded, following after him. “But truthfully Buck, I’m exhausted. I haven’t been sleeping great and Steve got me all full of adrenaline on the way over. Now that I know you’re okay, my body is finally starting to register that it’s five in the morning and I should be sleeping. Could I maybe crash on your couch and we can talk in the morning?”

You looked around realizing the house had hardly any furniture. The front door opened to an empty entry way. Bucky kicked his shoes off and left them in the middle of the floor. To your left was a living room with just an old big box TV & a couch. To the right, was a dining room, which was filled with bins and boxes, probably everything he’d moved from the Compound.

“I have a bed you know.” He offered as you took off your boots. “For you.” He added, I can sleep on the couch.

“Steve said you haven’t been sleeping well, you should take the bed. You need the rest.” You insisted.

“You said yourself that you’re having trouble sleeping.” Bucky reminded you.

“Yeah, didn’t realize how much I hated sleeping alone until you left.” You confessed.

“I know the feeling.” He chuckled. “Nearly called you that first night and begged you to take me back. Plenty of room for the two of us. We could both get a decent night’s sleep for the first time in months and we can figure out everything else in the morning.”

“Count me in.” You yawned.

#Bucky Barnes #Bucky Barnes x Reader #Bucky Barnes Reader Insert #Bucky Barnes Fan Fiction #Bucky Barnes FF #Bucky Barnes Fan Fic #request

[halsteadsbradshaw]

could you write antonio dawson x reader (laura just doesnt exist i guess) based on season 1 episode 13/14 where he gets shot? the reader being a cop aswell and being there not only when hes first shot but in the hospital? thank you

Hi! Unfortunately I’m not taking requests right now and I’m not sure if/when I will open them back up. Sorry!

[pryderi]

We could be heroes

Gods i missed writing those things, and ill miss it so much when everything is over.

Pry Note : well there arent really authors note on tumblr but i did want to put a disclaimer before i start so yeah. Im on my first year doing a history and classics degree and the things i learned so far about greek religion changed my views on some stuff. I dont have all the knowledge i might be wrong about stuff and feel free to correct me, but this is where my perspective comes from.

"The Muses once taught Hesiod beautiful song

while he was shepherding sheep at the foot of holy Helicon.

The goddesses first spoke this word to me,

the Muses of Olympus, daughters of aegis-bearing Zeus. 25

“Rustic shepherds, worthless reproaches, mere stomachs,

we know how to say many lies like the truth,

and, whenever we wish, we know how to tell the truth.”"

Hesiod - Theogony

I dont know if what im writing here is true but thats the story as i understand it :

At the beggining there were talented people, who invented a story and for the first time wrote it.

The sister invented the story and her character "She in thirds". We all bought this story for thousand of years they all did.

But the sister who told it, the one we call Ananke was also trapped. She lost herself in the story. She looked shocked when Laura revealed her story.

Like the others she was lost in the story and the role she played in it. She was the teller.

She will be a creature of story,a creature - those created by god, or rather by Godhood. Which takes us back to the one we Called " Creature" who was not a creature at all

But a story in herself. The teller created another story for her needs.

And they bought it. We all did. Once again we the readers are part of the THEY. The fans, we believed this story, we belived the great darkness existed and we believed they were gods.

But they no longer believe this story, they are not gods. But will the story still hold when they no longer believe it? Does it matter?Dont we have a part in holding it together as long as we believe, as long as the fans believe they are gods... im counting on Cass to show them otherwise but who knows. Its hard to stop believing in something as the song say.

The greeks didnt have a word for Believe. They didnt Believe in thier gods, thats not how they saw them they acknowledged them - "Nomisdein" -to acknowlege.

We no longer believe in the story, we know the truth. But theres still The matter of the fact those people - Humans - can do stuff others can't. We can acknowledge thier uniqueness and talent.

The greeks didnt worship just gods, but Heroes as well. Whether they were prominent mythology characters. Or important charcters in the past of the philia.They were Human. Those heroes were worshipped in a much more local and small religous construct .* i would say a small fandom? A character thats important to a certain group of people.

And well I guess they Can be Heroes. They are humans, but they are also amazing.

Isnt it ironic that the one character that takes after bowie doesnt fit this plot. Eleanor doesnt want to be a hero. She want to be Lucifer. Shes creating a a story of her own -one thats not around gods but around Lucifer. A character that might not be by her own making but its her. Its the parallel to the "She in Thirds".

She Belives -in her self, in a story, to simply put it? Hubris.

They all did, they all believed they were better. And Eleanor wont live, the First to die and possibly the last as well. Hubris is a bitch and shell take her down.

*i really struggled for words here.

P.S i have a couple essay- ish like this post kinda thing about the nature of pantheon. Hoprfully ill get to it next week, or you know never will see.

Btw wasnt sure where to bring it up but i still have to think on how persephone used to be the She in Thirds

#wicdiv #the wicked and the divine #wicdiv spoilers #long post #not sure why im appolgizing but my grammar is shit so oops

[hecallsmehischild]

Recent Media Consumed

Books

Divorce and Remarriage in the Church by David Instone-Brewer. Before anyone gets their knickers in a twist, no, I’m absolutely not considering this. Friend is going through this and said it should be a general read in the Christian community because it also teaches theology and what questions you ask when reading the Bible, and how not to say things like, “Well, guess you can never get remarried,” to your friend going through divorce because it isn’t true. That prelude being said... I’m still not done yet, but I’m at least 3/4 through and it is blowing my mind almost every chapter and I will be reading this book aloud and posting it to Youtube, as I’ve been doing with other books recently, because it’s THAT important.

A Map of Days by Ransom Riggs. I’m not entirely sure what to think of this book. It definitely made me feel better about the too-many-coincidences-helping-our-heroes-out issues of the previous book. I think I’ll trek with this series a bit longer (she says, having come to the end of the book which cliffhangers off, promising ANOTHER in the works).

Watership Down by Richard Adams. I read this book a few times as a child and then again as highschool required reading (I was mortally offended when classmates referred to it as “the bunny book” as if it was some cute little hoppity hop hop fluff novel). It’s pretty much how I remembered it. Gritty. Puts you in with rabbits and the mindset of the animal (can’t really count higher than four, get to know each other through touch and smell and breathing rate and play, revere stories of tricksters, etc) and is overall a wonderful and absorbing read. I also greatly appreciate the inclusion of a glossary of terms in the back whenever the text doesn’t immediately explain a word. 2/3 through my re-read and it’s a comforting book to go through again, after all these years. My copy doesn’t even have a front cover anymore and the back cover is dogged and all the pages are near-brown and all the swear words are blotted out from my super puritanical phase where I wanted to censor all my books as a teen. It’s a lovely relic of bygone days and a comforting read. Though now I’m irritated at myself for all the blotted out words jarring me out of a good reading flow.

On Deck: Trauma Stewardship by Laura Van Dernoot Lipskey and Connie Burk.

Shows

Watership Down (Netflix). (before re-reading the book) I guess this could be classed as “miniseries” or “very long movie broken into four parts”. Last time I read Watership Down was in high school for assigned reading, though I had already read it as a morbid little kid and loved it. I can’t remember all details, but whoever made this show quite obviously loved the source material. It does similar things as the book, like dumping you into the rabbits’ vocabulary without explaining and allowing you to pick up what things mean as you watch (or hoping you read the book and already understand the words). Nothing rings very false to what I remembered. This is a well done adaptation. It’s a little hard to distinguish most of the rabbits from each other, but stepping back and watching with a general comprehension (instead of getting absolutely stuck on figuring out which rabbit is which) is useful in this case. Overall? Good watch. (revision of opinion post re-reading the book, see above point) So I’m starting to see where the Netflix version took a bit of a left turn. It did a fairly good job, though actually the book didn’t drop us into the terminology as sharply as I thought I remembered. The thing that stands out to me the most is that Netflix brought more females to the front of the story and that does actually bother me to a certain extent, and here’s why: where is the sense in dropping human morality onto an animal STORY? An animal FABLE is a whole different kettle of fish. An animal FABLE is like Animal Farm, where animal characters are intended to stand in for human counterparts to deliver hard truths. An animal STORY is like Watership Down or The Promise of the Wolves or Venus Among the Fishes and all stories that take place WITHIN the animal world as if we, the reader, are experiencing things from the animal point of view entirely. In the book, Watership Down, the female rabbits (does) are looked on mostly as acquisitions to be made and are not very plot relevant beyond that, but this is understandable because, simply, they are animals. This isn’t about human morality, this is about prey mammals figuring out survival, both day to day survival and survival of their warren. To this end, the males (bucks) do most of the planning and fighting and trickstering wherein lies the action of Watership Down. By bringing the does to the forefront, it feels like Netflix was trying to shoehorn in some human morality because saying otherwise would be distasteful to people watching. But. It’s. About. Animals. So this is a bit of a sticking point for me that does bother me. However, overall, I saw nothing that truly gutted the heart of the book and still consider it worth a watch.

Steven Universe: The Recent Upheavals. I don’t know. I love the new fusion designs. I absolutely adored That Scene (got chills when he shouted). But I’m not sure how I feel about a lot of the rest. Very conflicted.

Ditched after one episode list: Dragon Pilot (Netflix), Last Hope (Netflix).

Movies

Albion: The Enchanted Stallion. Okay, I guess? Writing was kind of mediocre, but another one where they were obviously trying with beautiful sets and costumes.

Shrek. It’s been a long time but it was a good rewatch. The gross stuff always gets to me a bit, but the thing is they built it to be totally in character and part of this creature’s fairytale existence which earns it more points. Shrek has always been one of the most loving fairytale deconstruction mockery movies and now I want to rewatch the second one because I remember it being superior in every way to an already wonderful first movie.

The Prince of Egypt. It’s been a long time. I was struck again how beautiful certain songs on that soundtrack are (any of the large chorus songs and the Heaven’s Eyes song especially) and the utter despair of coming to repeated dead ends, but how in spite of that, no. God was always there. I have a million questions about why the dead ends and heart-hardening was necessary in the first place BUT. God was still always there. And the Jews exist to this day. This movie isn’t, of course, completely accurate but it is beautiful and it reminded me of things I needed reminding about.

Games

Life is Strange 2, chapter 1. Conflicted on a couple of points. Character Caricatures don’t sit well with me in general. But it’s beautiful and gripping and I’m looking forward to continuing with chapter 2 soon.

#n00b gamer child #child loves books #child loves movies

[sleepyboglife]

@sebulba tagged me and I’m avoiding responsibility so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Rules: Answer these 85 statements about yourself, then tag 20 other blogs to answer as well.

I don’t know that many people on here but @the-pacifist-in-combat-boots @motherpotato @monleek @tacosax

1. Last drink: Water™️

2. Last phone call: My brother,,, he was across the hall...

3. Last text message: I sent a pic of my sister’s lizard to her

4. Last song you listened to: "curious” by Hayley Kiyoko

5. Time you cried: my New Years resolution was to not have feelings so I can’t remember. I usually cry during a depressive spiral so I repress the fuck out of that shit

6. Dated someone twice?: always been a single pringle

7. Kissed someone and regretted it? Never been kissed

8. Been cheated on? Not like in a relationship but these potheads in my freshmen geometry class copied my homework all the time

9. Lost someone special? Unfortunately so

10. Been depressed? That’s the Mood

11. gotten drunk and thrown up? I’m a sober square

favorite colors

12. BLUE

13. Green

14. Red/pink

in the last year have you…

15. Made new friends? Yepppp (surprising considering I’m “mean” and bad at conversing)

16. Fallen out of love? Mm yeah. In and out a couple times I think. Idk

17. Laughed until you cried? Oh yES

18. Found out someone was talking about you? People have told me that teachers have talked about me in other classes (good things though. My ap lit teacher talking about my passion for lord Byron comes to mind)

19. Met someone who changed you? For sure

20. Found out who your friends are?: yesss! So glad to be rid of the toxic people! They may have dropped me but I’m so glad to be free!! Just me and my lovely friends now!!!

21. Kissed someone on your facebook friends list?: ya gotta rub in I never kissed a pretty girl

general

22. How many of your facebook friends do you know irl? Idk?! Idek how many of them I have

23. Do you have any pets? Yes! My bearded dragon Pancake

24. Do you want to change your name? I used to when I was little but now I’m like ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ Laura’s good

25. What did you do for your last birthday? Had my parents pay the down payment for my dorm next year

26. What time did you wake up today? 4:30 am Cause I hate myself

27. What were you doing at midnight last night? Sleeping

28. What is something you cant wait for? Housing selection. Waiting is making me anxious and I already gave them (my parents’) money

30. What are you listening to right now? “Curious” by Hayley Kiyoko on repeat

31. Have you ever talked to a person named tom? Yes I DESPISED HIM

32. Something thats getting on your nerves? Little noises in a quiet room, people moving around in my perferial vision while I’m trying to focus on something else, people in my room

People.

33. Most visited website: tumblr and pinterist. Or my school grade/website thing

34. Hair color: dark brown

35. Long or short hair: long (she’s getting longgg)

36. Do you have a crush on anyone? Maybe. One might be developing...

37. What do you like about yourself: lol um. My sweaters. The fact that my brain can pull me through school even when I’m being lazy and stupid

38. Want any piercings? Maybe my ears. I’ve seen earrings I want but getting my ears pierced means going outsideeee. Maybe I’ll make someone take me

39. Blood type: O+

40. Nicknames: Lo Lo, Lo Jane

41. Relationship status: single and wanting a bf/gf but at the same time as very choosey and don’t like people touching me

42. Zodiac: Capricorn

43. Pronouns: she/her

44. fave tv shows: all the nature documentaries, Jane the virgin, b99, fresh off the boat

45. Tattoos: nah. Not for me but I think they’re really cool

46. Right or left handed: righty

47. Ever had surgery: unless wisdom teeth count

48. Piercings: nope

49. Sport: nah. Used to swim ages ago but I don’t like being wet or around people

50. Vacation: I went to philly with some friends

51. Trainers: ???

more general

52. Eating: my favorite food is probably plain original Cheerios. Other common meals include poppy seed bagels, yogurt and goldfish (yay college), in season fruit, and coffeeeeee

54. Im about to watch: probs the ceiling

55. Waiting for: bed time

56. Want: to be happy

57. Get married: it’d be nice but I’m not taking anyone’s name

58. career: something in science I think

which is better?

59. Hugs or kisses: hugs when I’m in the mood. I don’t like people touching me so

60. Lips or eyes: eyeballs I guess (in general or like on a person?!)

61. Shorter or taller: doesnt matter to me

62. Older or younger: in a partner? Idc as long as it’s not a creepy age difference

63. Nice arms or stomach: don’t care?!

64. Hookup or relationship: relationship

65. Hesitant or troublemaker: depends on if I’m being crazy or sad

66. Kissed a stranger? Naaaaah

67. Drank hard liquor: nope

68. Lost glasses: all THE FUCKING TIME

69. Turned someone down: i think? I’m very bad at reading signs. Whatever was going on he was being creepy about it

70. Sex on first date: nope

71. Broken someones heart: god I hope not

72. Had your heart broken: not broken. Maybe like prolonged sad until I was okay with it

73.Been arrested: no and if I was I’d probably cry cause that’s the kind of person I am

74. Cried when someone died: yes. A lot

75. Fallen for a friend: sigh. Yeah

76. Yourself: she’s being a bitch rn and won’t do what I tell her to do

77. Miracles: if this is asking if I believe in them then no. I believe in chance and statistics and science.

78. Love at first sight: maybe infatuation or intimidation

79. Santa claus: who is she

80. Kiss on a first date: no. Only have had one date it went well but I don’t think we work as anything more than friends

81. Angels: the only angel that exists is my sister she’s perfect and I love her so much (she’s sleeping next to me right now)

other

82. Best friend’s name: Emma the Frog, Kari the Bean, Sarah Mallory the Terrifying Individual, Monique the Human Shitpost (y’all been through it all with me. I love you assholes 💙)

83. Eye colour: Brown and I love them now but oh boy was is a ride (#romanticizebrowneyes)

84. Fave movies (right now): Of Ants and Men, Belle, Wonder Woman, Empire Strikes Back, Bend it Like Beckham, The Frog Princess, But I’m a Cheerleader

85. Fave actor: Mmmm probably Gina Rodriguez

That’s all folks

#all the answers youve never wanted from me #time for sleep

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Failing to trend: Selfie from Hell and the curse of ‘viral’ horror films

The story of a monster who lurks in selfies is set to join a trend of scary movies using haunted hashtags and cursed friend requests to terrify teens

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Failing to trend: Selfie from Hell and the curse of ‘viral’ horror films

The story of a monster who lurks in selfies is set to join a trend of scary movies using haunted hashtags and cursed friend requests to terrify teens

Stuart Heritage

@stuheritage

Mon 29 Jan 2018 10.20EST Last modified on Mon 29 Jan 2018 18.50EST

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Selfie From Hell: destined to join the ranks of other immediately dated quasi-viral horror films. Photograph: YouTube

Theres a video on YouTube called Selfie from Hell. Its a two-minute horror story in the vein of Lights Out or Tuck Me In, in which and this might possibly count as a spoiler a woman takes a selfie, and theres a monster in it, and the monster eats her. Im telling you this because Selfie from Hell is going to become a full-length feature.

The Selfie From Hell movie might be good although given that its IMDb page contains the lines Julia, an online vlogger from Germany and She finds herself immersed deep in the web too deep lets not get our hopes up but that doesnt change the fact that its called Selfie From Hell and, as such, is destined to join the ranks of other immediately dated quasi-viral horror films, alongside the upcoming Slender Man film. Here are some of Selfie From Hells new bedfellows.

Friend Request

When popular student Laura unfollows her weird classmate Marina on Facebook, Marina kills herself purely to send Laura status updates from beyond the grave.

Moral Always stay friends with everyone on Facebook, because you never know which of them will become undead demons from hell who can rewrite code simply to inconvenience you.

#Horror

When some students tag a less popular girl on Facebook, she decides to murder them all and then herself.

Moral Dont tag anyone on Facebook on the off-chance that theyre murder-suicide fanatics that need the barest minimum excuse to kill people. Or just dont use Facebook. Or, better yet, dont watch any films that have a hashtag for a title. All in all, that probably seems like the safest bet all round.

Pulse

When popular student Josh kills himself with an ethernet cable, a group of friends including Kristen Bell and Christina Milian start to receive emails from him from beyond the grave. Whenever they turn on their computers, images of dead people start to appear. So they tape up their screens, but the dead people start printing selfies instead. They are relentless.

Moral There are dead people in your computer, and also Kristen Bell is better than this.

Smiley

If someone on Chatroulette types I did it for the lulz three times in a row, theyre visited by a murderer with a smiley emoji for a face, who then stabs them to death. Guess what? The murderer is Anonymous.

Moral Real-life internet organisations will literally stab you to death if you type something innocuous in a chatroom enough times.

Ratter

A ratter is someone who hacks into all your different cameras and then watches you. And this is exactly what happens to popular student Ashley Benson in this film of the same name. But in this case the ratter is also a murderer or something and its all very scary.

Moral Put tape over all your webcams, because everyone is a murderer.

Swipe

Swipe is the hottest new online dating app, but what recently bereaved student Anna doesnt know is that stalkers use Swipe to stalk people. Soon a stalker has stalked her and tied her up but its OK because the police murder him.

Moral Its harder for stalkers to stalk you via a dating app if you remember to delete the app. Not to be confused with the documentary series Swipe Right For Murder, which also exists.

Read more: https://www.theguardian.com/film/2018/jan/29/selfie-from-hell-viral-horror-films

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Insecurities, Jealousy, internal conflict and… Hypocrisy?

I’ve known Emma for a little over a year. we’ve been dating a week. that leaves pretty much a whole year where i wanted to be with her exclusively, but she wasn’t ready for relationship. 

i’d only really been properly single 2 months when i met Emma. 2 months to process and get over a 3 year relationship amid final year coursework, clearly not nearly enough time. i was nearly there though, i’d asked out a couple girls on dates with little success… but i was moving on. i knew once she’d given me the smallest ounce of attention and interest that i was hooked. she was stunningly pretty, wickedly wild and a total nerd loser at heart like me.

Classic Joe move, obviously caught feelings super fast even though it was clear this girl was on the anti relationship warpath. maybe i could’ve just seen her as a fuck, but Emma also treated me as something much more a lot of the time, so i dared to hope one day she’d come around to being with me. true she made it ever so clear the last thing she wanted was a relationship, but in many ways we treated each other like we were at least ‘seeing each other’. it caused me a lot of pain to know she’d kiss other guys on nights out etc but it brought a lot of comfort that i was the only person she was sexual with, shed always end back in my bed at the end of the night. i lived with that, it wasn’t what i wanted but it was the compromise i made to keep this girl i really liked in my life. i appreciated Emma’s honesty, it says a lot about her that she’d be completely upfront about what she did at the risk of me cutting things off.

The real focus of this post is sex, and my very confused feelings on it so that’s where i am gonna try to steer it now. my problem is holding things Emma did with other people whilst i was in her life against her. i don’t mean that i beef her, or v rarely do. its more when i’m low i think of those moments and think of the girl i love spitefully, its an awful feeling but i do and i want it to stop so bad.

a little ways in whilst continuing this casual friendship i hooked up with another girl multiple times. i don’t really know why i did, i guess it was purely because i could. Emma found out and was mad at me for keeping it from her. rightly so i should have mentioned it, but i was in denial thinking that i had no reason to tell her, i was just covering my ass.

Anyways, a little while later we were past that and it seemed we were getting very close, we even mentioned potentially proper dating. the problem was i was moving away so in the end what was the point. mid April while Emma was in Scotland she fooled around with a guy up there. it hurt me a lot true, i thought we were going to be dating when she got back, i felt a lil betrayed but she also never said we were exclusive so wcyd. when Emma came back from Scotland we fought and i told her she either committed to me or we stopped speaking. in a brutal fashion she said no way so i ended it. fair enough on her part but so far from what i wanted obviously.

during the time we weren’t speaking Emma slept with a guy a couple times. i can’t really understand why this still makes me want to vomit nearly 8 months later. its not the literally fact another dick was inside her, we both have sexual history obviously. its not like she cheated on me so its no that either. i guess its simply because hes the only other guy shes been with in the time i’ve been in her life. maybe that in that moment she was with him, she knew i existed, knew i loved her, wanted her more than anything, but instead chose to be with him. i know it isn’t as simple as that though, we weren’t on speaking terms so it wasn’t a simple choice between the two of us. i don’t really worry that much about him being a better shag. i know im good, but i still can’t her description of that night as ‘oH mY gOd the sEx’ like its burned into my brain. i still remember sobbing endlessly onto my friends floor as i saw her tweets showing he’d stayed over in her bed and they’d gone out for food and later that she had feelings for him. all while saying she needed to get over me. the whole thing still makes me want to fucking pull my hair out. literally some of the worst few days of my life.

that paragraph was heavy. i guess the point is that it doesn’t matter anymore. Emma never wronged me, but it still hurts and i subconsciously hold it against her. which isn’t fair on either of us. but see, this whole thing isn’t about trying to beef her being the whole sex thing is NOT one sided at all. by Sean, we’d both slept with one other person, not that numbers count, but my point is how can i be angry at her when i did the exact same thing, and i did it first? i even did it sober and many many more times than her. i also did it while we were on good terms, she did it while we weren’t even speaking. objectively emma sleeping with sean was no different to me sleeping with laura. i dont even think about laura, it was so unremarkable. emma probably feels the same with sean so why do i fixate on it so much?

fast forward many months theres little to talk about sex wise until Emma slept with a girl on a night out in late October. this one was a lot shittier in my eyes, she’d told me she didn’t wanna be with anyone else and i believed her, BUT and its a big BUT, we still weren’t exclusive so technically she didn’t wrong me. it hurt a lot, i felt so betrayed and so worthless but they are my own feelings to deal with, we weren’t exclusive so she was free to do whatever.

i don’t really have the energy to debate straight and gay sex but to me gay sex doesnt really bother me. so the fact emma fooled around with 2 girls recenly doesnt bother me to a massive extreme. hurts a little bit 1-2. what hurts a lot more was that she fooled around with connor who i was assured a million times over was just a pal but we literally werent even speaking then so can’t beef, but for whatever reason it still hurts.

see now while me and Emma weren’t speaking i started speaking to another girl in what i’d consider a fairly serious way. like we saw each other a lot, she met my fam but that was lit because they wouldn’t let me have a girl over without knowing her. probs because she was Mexican smh. SO THIS IS MY POINT. i slept with this girl, took her to college in the morning etc went on a couple dates yet im hung up over emma’s drunk pulls? WHY? that makes me such a hypocrite. well, at least i can recognise that. maybe i see myself as a victim? maybe its a lack of empathy? but from my understanding emma isnt bothered about me sleeping with other people (obvs before we got into a relationship). i evens slept with another girl in the UK. again counting numbers is silly but since we met emmas slept with 1 other guy to my 3 other girls? so why do i hold it against her and feel so shite about it? maybe i’m a bad person i wish i had a clear cut answer.  

perhaps how i see alice, laura and sindy as literal specs of dust compared to the wonder that is what i have with emma is how she views sean and those girls and thats why its not a big deal to her. maybe its not something to feel sick about all the time. like i said before the whole polygamy thing for the first year we knew each other was certainly both ways.

this has helped a lot, its emptied my head an awful amount. i just want us both to enjoy a long and loving relationship and for the past not to hold us back. its late and i should sleep. this post has literally 0 plan, a literal thought train but its also months worth of thoughts all rolled up into a big mush.

i wanna make it clear Emma isn’t responsible for my feelings, nor do i think she is. i just wanted to explore my own gripes to try and understand them a little better, maybe even resolve them in this little egg head of mine.

i know none of this matters now. i love this girl more than I've ever loved anyone. if we aren’t together at LEAST 5 years i’ll feel cheated by the universe. goodNIGHT

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