#Leave me alone for the rest of the day

[itsdappleagain]

happy carmen week everybody!!!!

day 1: favorite character

i had a lot of back and forth on this one- carmen is such an obvious pick, but i also like ivy, but chase has the best character arc...etc. etc. i finally decided on julia, a constant favorite for me for a long time!!

she looks sad but really shes just thinking super hard about how to break the news that she doesn't have her glasses on and has not been able to see fuck all that chase has been showing her for the last ten minutes

#i cannot rely on my motivation to draw something for each day but im going to try so hard #carmen sandiego 2019 #carmen sandiego #carmenweek #carmen week #julia argent #art #my art #my silly little mind wants REALLY bad to do a full lineless full body for each day but THAT kids is how you die #so shaded lineart it is and we'll see about the rest #also no the shading color doesnt make sense on the background leave me and my color theory alone

[foreversaba]

in case anyone worries that I just said I've discussed walrus fairy with my partner for two hours, it's not a fight discussion, we're just two autism-bained academia suckasses and we LOVE getting into long profound discussions, and right now is "how the fairy/walrus dichotomy of humans reflects their stances on religion (my argument, I vote walrus) and ultimately proves how dangerous thought patterns lead to the prevalence of scams (his argument, he votes fairy)

#everyone in both families is always so thrilled that we found each other to finally leave the rest of the family members alone #one day if everything goes wrong in our lives we can always start a podcast lmao #neither of us shut up ever and I love us #im tagging all posts about this with #walrus fairy poll #so that I can bring this up to friends later at parties hahaha #oh my god this subject and our drunk also debate-freak friends are going to fuel HOURS #like Im gonna say possibly twelve? #once at a party him and one of our friends stayed up ALL NIGHT discussing with a religious bloke who believed in miracles #and by all night I mean the party ended and I had to sleep over at the homeowner's couch because they talked until the sun was up #we arrived there at like 10pm and we left 8 the next morning #and the discussion was not over #so believe me fairy walrus is gonna last FOREVER #They've spent 3 or 4 hours last time discussing the effectiveness or harm of farmers killing snakes out of fear

[perhaps-mr-collins-has-a-cousin]

Hello praying people, I'm not doing well and would really appreciate your prayers right now <3

#long very boring and unnecessarily detailed tag monologue incoming‚ feel free to skip: #this is going to sound like a silly thing to be hitting rock bottom over #but i’m fairly certain i have a semi-rare skin condition known as sensitive skin syndrome #which is basically where skin gets progressively more sensitive #until it won’t tolerate the topical application of anything at all without getting irritated #usually it happens to people on the skin of their face and i have it there but i also specifically have it on my lips #(which apparently is extremely not normal; i found a dermatologist’s case study from like 2019 of one woman who had it on her lips #and according to this case study there were no other cases of people having it on their lips #in all the dermatological literature he had read) #i can’t follow the protocol which all the journal articles i’ve been able to find say is helpful for the rest of the face which is basicall #leave the area the heck alone for at least a year #because if i don’t apply anything to my lips for more than two or three days they will get so dry they crack and bleed #so it’s looking like one way or another i may be having to deal with dry burning irritated lips for the rest of my life #and i’m not dealing with the thought of that very well #i’ve already suffered so much anguish from extreme sensitivity on the rest of my face #and not being able to take proper care of the skin there #and this is just too much for me #i know God is allowing this for a reason but it’s filling me with so much frustration and panic and despair that i don’t know how to go on #but i must and i will #this isn’t a serious or a life-threatening condition but it’s looking like a pretty hopeless one and it’s hurting me badly #and i would appreciate prayers that it would just be healed or that i would know what to do #i think i will try going to my dermatologist but somehow i doubt she's even heard of sensitive skin syndrome #on a COMPLETELY unrelated note i'm just about to get my period and also for two days i've ''eaten'' nothing but vegetable smoothies #and those in pretty small amounts because they're disgusting #(do a detox my hormonal health doctor said) #(it'll be fun she said) #ok if you read this far you're so brave braver than any u.s. marine etc. #thanks for reading ily <3

[churbo]

Trishelia Week Day 1: Royalty Au!

Trish asked Sheila to spar and Sheila managed to exhaust herself, so Trish decided to carry her back (and maybe take a moment to experience a rare relaxed Sheila)

#TrisheilaWeek2022 #jjba #jojo #jojo's bizarre adventure #golden wind #ventuo aureo #phf #purple haze feedback #counting it leave me alone #trish una #sheila e #Scilla Capezzuto #just in case #trishelia #so very proud of my designs for this I wanna draw it again #also this was really fun to do even if it mean pushing off my finals LOL #ill be late for the rest of the days tho unfortunately :( but I can at least get day 1 up on time... #EDIT FAWK I HAD A TYPO ghuys its over for me

[koifsssh]

ahhh greaser au... ahhh greaser rainy has my whole heart ever since i redesigned him. the hearts in his hair... bah!!! im probably nonsensical, insomnia as of late has been really bad, but i will continue on!

(It's funny really... i had bid goodnight... and then laid awake in bed for the next few hours...)

ANYWAYS, LET ME TELL YOU OF MY OBSESSION. (i jest) (not really) (there's some truth to it, actually)

okay, i lied, i wont tell you, (im being flip floppy, i have too many thoughts and i fear i will spill them out on the floor and leave you to make sense of it...)

i will tell you this, though! i have made a sort of change with it comes to Eddie, when i thought it over i think it makes sense for Eddie to be waiter instead of a greaser... he does go back and forth quite a bit, i think!

Plus, it was a joke that Rainy was their only waiter, i do think it would be a little funnier if he had someone to suffer with... Eddie! Rainy probably had to teach Eddie how to skate... which is a funny thought, there must have been a few... accidents...

(he is alright! dont worry!)

as for THESE two... i have no idea. (again Rosa isn't out yet i have not much to say!) (NOT TO RUSH YOU, DAY...) (take your time!!!) I can say Rainy is probably an unintentional flirt, (he is horribly sincere) and most likely wears his heart on his sleeve... (or, hair in this case) he is a little easy to embarrass, that is for sure. (for the mere fact i find it extremely amusing!)

Rainy probably served Wally and his friends the first time they had come to the diner, I think Eddie probably admired from afar... i think its easy to assume for who.

i really should get on with the designs... but ahhh... i always get so stuck... bah!!!

#rainy dewdrop #welcome home oc #myart #eddie dear #i really need to fix my sleep schedule... #welcome home greaser au #greaser rainy reminds me of Ken in a way... #do with that what you will... #i am to live in magma for the rest of my days because i simply cannot stop with these two... #i am that one meme #LEAVE ME ALONE! #'AKIRA!' #AHHHH #'AKIRA!!!' #AHHHHHHHHHHHH #rosa time

[sukasshunn]

Incubus Oboro, from an old priest AU (Shouta was the priest uuhhhh)

bro i can't believe i didn't post this one here ever... pls take it as an oldie Christmas gift my dear Oboro enjoyers 😔 🤲 💌 

#oboro shirakumo #shirakumo oboro #my hero academia #boku no hero academia #mha #bnha #i spent like two hours looking for an incomplete doodle of this au #where Shouta was there but i can't find it anywhere #i think i completely deleted it in my monthly cleaning a long time ago... oops #whatever r.i.p. in piss so sad #....Oboro was the most bottom bitch in this au ok i already confessed leave me alone #😤 😤 😤 #i post this shit at 3am bc i won't have time for the rest of the day tbh so...yea #enjoy ig

[kqluckity]

if hr existed in the diviner's commission i bet qingque would file a complaint a week against fu xuan, but also all of said complaints would be something like "she forced me to write a report on the work i did today wtf" or "she made me go to work today this is messed up" or something. and the people in charge would be like ??? aren't you getting paid to do just that???

but also i will never forget that the heliobus showed us that she would love for fu xuan to be her secretary she has an affair with (it's true trust me.) so she really can't complain about her boss having a crush on her

#and to be fAIR fu xuan does all that because she has a crush on qingque and wants her there because of that #but also because qingque is incredibly smart. she just uses all her brains to do all her work in a day so she can do fuck all for the rest o #of the week #and honestly? queen. i respect her so much. she has a stable job is well paid and can even spend her time playing while on the clock #because she doesn't live to work #this is a fuqing shipper household in case you haven't noticed #i just think it's a fun ship okay leave me alone #hsr tag

[perceptivehands]

why do i care so much about fictional characters jfc

#it's been four days and i'm still so devastated #all the history - the special bond - the buildup - the chemistry - ALL FOR NAUGHT #i don't even have anything else to look forward to or distract myself with which makes it even worse #i'm getting my wisdom teeth removed tomorrow and the only rest i will get will be the sedation #then i'll be on sick leave for a week and once again alone with my thoughts with nothing to distract me #feels like my heart is being ripped into shreds

[flypug]

me on pinterest being so very normal

#stuffing my brain full of flyguys. im fine #yeah the entire 355th has dog-themed callsigns for no reason leave me alone <3 #anyway today was a very good day compared to how hectic the rest of the week has been but god am i tried lkjhagd #im going to pack it up n simply relax w some yt and maybe at most lurk around #i hope you're well <3 mwah #DEL. #update: one (1) convo w viv later and i've added 2 more pilots #im good im fine im great #fighting demons (the urge to make an oc mumu for the whole squadron)

[im-goin-mad]

dressing up as euronymous for halloween and putting on one of these bad boys

#happy 30th death day bbg #also this is you're chance to act like a dick all night long #because you're just in character #get your friend group to dress up like the rest of the band #least fav friend get to be christian #(yes i refuse to call him varg leave me alone) #my stance is that they were BOTH wrong #anyway i said i'm totally indifferent #pelle was hot tho #i couldn't have fixed him but i could've fucked him real hard #the true mayhem #mayhem band #euronymous #halloween #halloween costumes #oystein aarseth #black metal #norwegian black metal

[todayisafridaynight]

cant believe i cant aoki cosplay anymore my fucckinnnn dress shirt turned grey

#snap chats #'snap do you only own one white dress shirt' leave me ALONE #the rest of my dress shirts are all patterned or Not White #we like variety.... BUT ALSO //YELLS// #never in my life has the dryer at my moms bled colors before #and its not like i havent washed these clothes together before..... #her dryer kinda sucks highkey its been trash for years but i think its on its last legs #cause ive tried drying these shits for the past like. Day and they're still sopping #i aint done nothin different than what i usually do..... annoyin as hell... #whats ALSO annoyin is that i have to buy a new shirt </3 #this is a devastating day for the two people that enjoyed me dressing up as aoki <- didnt plan on dressing as aoki again anytime soon

[shibaraki]

the words are not wording! why cant I write!!! shaking my head and all u can hear is like. a penny knocking around in there

#I sat down and tried for like 20 minutes but I’m still sick and my body is so tired #I think I gotta let myself rest and try again tomorrow. or even later tonight #it’s hard because I suffer a lot of guilt when I’m not writing. I know that’s probably not healthy LOL #wasn’t I saying just two days ago I was going on a reading break bro what happened there #the wips will not leave me alone

[mwagneto]

okay google how do i move out of eastern europe but stay in the eu but go somewhere i speak the language but somewhere that has healthcare and somewhere where i dont need to become a construction worker and also somewhere that is not germany. thanks

#i wanna go to aotearoa I've always wanted to but it's so FAR AWAY. also i need somewhere cold also i #love authentic gothic buildings too much to leave europe. but omfggggg #like it's truly so. i dont want to move somewhere where english isnt a main language but the #uk is out and ireland is unlikely and canada is just somewhat nicer french usa and nz is 4 days travel away. blows up #whatever i have 4 semesters of uni left to think about it. it just feels like im #hurtling full speed at the inevitability of living the rest of my life in Germany #i dont want to live in germany idek why but im sooo. like omg nooo 😭😭😭 #partly because it's such a cliché but also coz it's such a vacation country for me like we #went there for vacation like. unironically at least 3 times every single year #insert joke abt *getting back at the 10000000000 german tourists that come to hungary every day* that I'm too sleepy to make #it's so . like i used to have a specific goal in mind (uk ☹️) but then SOMEONE had to go and leave the eu #and also the uk sucks fat shit like csöbörből vödörbe omg. but now i have no #real goal so im just drifting w the vague knowledge that any second now I'll have to pack all my #shit up and escape before it's too late. but where 😀😀😀 #i have no qualms abt leaving my f*mily behind but I'll miss budapest #and if i left Europe I'd miss it too especially coz even canada feels really far let alone nz which yknow. 3-4 days of travel #it's the lack of goals that's killing me like OMFGG HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO WORK HARD AND #STRIVE FOR SMTG WHEN I HAVE NOTHING SPECIFIC IN MIND... #i mean ''get the fuck out'' is something but it's not Enough. i need to be insane about a #place that's accessible. all the cities/locations im crazy about are inaccessible for one reason or another #bristol and wales are in the uk. nz is on the exact opposite side of the planet. life so sad. #canada is the most likely one honestly but like omgggg. godddddjfdnffnfjfmmf #they should invent a budapest that's not in hungary. they should invent a hungary that isn't comically awful #barking #ok to rb #eastern europe #like im fluent in 3 languages and i can get by in like 10 other ones i Could brush up on any language relatively quickly if it came to that #but it's like. 1. I'd have to pick a location 2. learning a new language also means #getting an entire new personality as well which yknow. idk if i have the capacity for another one rn #i should just become fluent in the ones im somewhat good at but idk which to pick

[caffeinatedopossum]

I just heard someone say that getting married is the hardest thing they've ever done.

I'm sorry but if getting married is the hardest thing you've ever had to do, I don't think I can talk to you. That's fine, that's totally okay if that's hard for you. I just need a long moment of silence for my misjudgment of the average amount of suffering that any given human experiences.

#and obviously theres shit like forced marriage and things #however #if you are choosing who to marry of your own volition. that shit should be easy #i cant even count with all of my fingers and toes the number of things that have been harder for me than getting married #for one. the reason im not yet legally married which is that im disabled and im in a very intenese match of Do I Deserve Rights #with the government #after that weve got recovering from an ed. not sure how im managing that. plus i couldve easily died #you know from malnutrition. not only from me starving myself but also due to severe malnutrition in my entire childhood #due to neglect and abuse. its tge reason i never grew properly. i have a hole in my jaw. its also why my jaw is underdeveloped #ive got severe insomnia and anxiety to the point that i wont sleep for days without strong meds #and cant really leave my house alone #i lived through untreated hypothermia and likely heat stroke as well and those were both MUCH harder than getting married #i experienced child labor and escaped what was probably a cult given that i had to run away to an undisclosed location #cut off contact with everyone i knew from it and remain anonymous #i ran away from home because of the abuse and when the cops were called on me i had to sit thete #with a straight face and listen to social workers and authorities tell me that what i was calling abuse was ok and that i had to go back #i had to fight for an education that i never really got. same for medical care including emergency medical care #anyway point being i will be very relieved to spend the rest of my life with my favorite person after all of that #there are no regrets or uncertainties about that. my life is the best its ever been and she only makes it better

[fly-away-flynn]

My Emotional Breakdown is over people somehow not understanding that I want them to stop talking about what happened to me as if they have any right to talk about the situation.

#Vague posting about it isn’t helpful. Putting it on websites where I don’t have accounts isn’t helpful #Let. It. Die. #You do not know me nor do you know what happened to me and what I chose to talk about online #I see posts about the situation everywhere that have either blamed me or said that they do not want to take my side which I dont care about #But I am tired of seeing things about it months after I was finally given the freedom to talk about it #Does it not compute to you that It was not an internet friend who I talked to once in a while? I saw this man face to face every day #It was a real man in my actual life who gave me actual PTSD So stop talking about it like I said months ago. #I’m tired and I want to lay this to rest #Just leave me alone I don’t need posts on your sideblogs mentioning what happened to me or how it was addressed #I hate having to plead for a Fandom to just leave me alone because why don’t you get it? Why do you think you can give your opinion on this #I sincerely apologize for this post but I am worn down I am tired and I am in an awful place and there is nothing more that I want than for #-People to understand that I want them to stop #I don’t know how many times this Fandom will not listen to me

[everysongineverykey]

shoutout to brian may for constantly coming through with all the Inexpressibly Fucking Melancholy songs we could ever need. long away '39 all dead all dead some day one day leaving home ain't easy... hell even his demos. listen to you know you belong to me and water and tell me you don't feel like ben affleck on bench with cigarette dot png. every band needs one member who is just so sad All the time and Will make it the entire discography's problem and i am so serious

#queen band #sure freddie roger and john have their share of dramatic sad songs too #but brian's oeuvres just really hit the existentially terrified child inside me #the one who's constantly sitting on a beach at night looking up at the stars. good shit #take heart my friend we love you though it seems like you're alone a million lights above you smile down upon your home. #in the year of 39 came a ship in from the blue the volunteers came home that day #and they bring good news of a world so newly born though their hearts so heavily weigh. #don't you hear my call though you're many years away don't you hear me calling you. #all dead all dead but i should not grieve in time it comes to everyone #all dead all dead but in hope i breathe of course i don't believe you're dead and gone all dead and gone. #i'm all through with ties i'm all tired of tears i'm a happy man don't it look that way? #when i was you and you were me and we were very young together took us nearly there the rest may not be sung #so still the cloud it hangs over us and we're alone but some day one day we'll come home. #leaving home ain't easy but may be the only way. #i have to stop and think sometimes let the water roll a while let the days go by under my feet.... #you know. lyrics like that. i go fucking INSANE.