#Life Through a Hole

[fromedennn]

decay and feeding new life—

kathiann kowalski // hozier // kobayashi eitaku // cyrus martin // friedrich heyser // gail potocki // william shakespeare

#my friend and i were talking abt rotting but then i went down a rabbit hole #rot and decay in nature is such a fascinating subject to me #but also how it applies in real life too #i think in my imagination we are the ecosystem #so through the death of one part of us another begins anew #i feel like i am shedding skin like a snake #web weaving #web weaves #lyrics #hozier #parallels #art #quotes #shakespeare #decay #haunting #academia #stem #research #mine #rot #philosophy #prose #writing

[annabelle--cane]

do you know how fucking mad it makes me that the hilltop hole in reality and the panopticon tower can feasibly be read as yonic and phallic symbols of power. can you understand the level of rage I feel.

#the web is gendered as feminine and primarily uses a female avatar and the panopticon is the seat of power for two men #the web and the reality hole exert power through seemingly small secret passive acts of manipulation #whereas the panopticon represents a huge domineering and ultimately weaker display of control #the fucking. words annabelle uses to describe it like 'aching hole' or whatever #this holds up as a lens of analysis and I hate it so much. hashtag feminism I guess. #tma #marina marvels at life

[arthursfuckinghat]

"I was gonna say you're like a son to me.. but you're more than that."

"It ain't that complicated!"

How quickly that shoulder pat of comfort turned into a condescending one.

#he makes me feel so emo #this life was never meant for you but your fate was forced #the way dutch (and hosea) talks to arthur like he's stupid will never sit right with me #like they've been by his side over 20 years they KNOW he isn't stupid because if he was he would have been gone a long time ago #not only is arthur incredibly emotionally smart but he's a trained conman vault breaker gunslinger horse rider you name it #the fact that his own adoptive parents break him down like that hurts #it's a manipulation tactic on dutch's end - break your victims self esteem to make them chase your praise and approval #hosea I believe has just gone along with that kind of attitude but in a different way he just likes to jest lightheartedly #arthur doesn't see the difference though and it's understandable but he takes it to heart #the worst part is that hosea sees through his tough guy act and has called arthur out on it #his act is a defence mechanism to protect himself from being too vulnerable - in arthur's mind #and it isn't a sudden thing it's very likely something that has built over the years given the life he has lived #and hosea notices he knows this #but they still jab at arthur #oh it hurts #is he your son dutch? or is he your guard dog? your personal workhorse? #playing through the second time is opening my eyes more and more #rdr2 #red dead redemption 2 #mick squeaks #mick rants #mick gifs #arthur morgan #dutch van der linde #liveblogging #you guys gotta understand - arthur seeks and longs for dutch's approval he'll never say it but it's the key motive behind his loyalty #and arthur *rejects* dutch's comfort #he doesn't *want* dutch to pat him on the shoulder because he knows dutch is digging them an even deeper hole #he doesn't want that touch he craves #it's so insanely monumental for such a small scene because it shows us how arthur feels without telling us

[front-facing-pokemon]

#spheal #i wish i could post circular images on tumblr. because this one is deserving of a fully circular PNG. i could technically just take a #regular square image and then make the edges transparent to make it *effectively* a circle‚ but like… would that appeal? #if that would appeal then i'll do it. i don't think it would be *too* prohibitively hard. i would be willing to make an addendum #with a circular transparent image of spheal staring at the screen if enough of you want it. either way #this guy rolls everywhere and i think tumblr is gonna like that. i feel like this is gonna end up being a well-liked pokémon amongst tumblr #as in. i feel like. it already is. because. of how it is. i just don't know bc spheal isn't like. one of my favorites #it's cute don't get me wrong but it's just not one i think about all the time. it's one that i'll like if prompted but not unprompted #i'm gonna stop before i dig myself into a hole. i beat totk finally. it was very good and i honestly had way way more fun with it than i did #with botw. i have my criticisms obviously. it's not perfect it's not pmd. but it was very good. and now i've moved onto the next game in my #backlog. which is very long but i'm steadily working through it. hopefully i can get it done before i graduate this december and stop having #any time for the rest of my life ever forever to play video games. dreading that day. but uh #until then i will game. and hang out with my friends. and go on tumblr. and do all these things i like to do. until i no longer can #wow this got depressing i'm gonna Stop here. enjoy spheal

[spineless-lobster]

One week until ghosts officially ends which means one week until I finally lose my grip on reality and spiral into unrelenting insanity

#Y’ALL I AM STILL NOT READY WHAT THE FUCK 😭 #ghosts has been for me through like the hardest part of my life (so far) this is like saying goodbye to a life raft while out at sea #I’ll cope somehow (rewatching episodes) but I think there will always be a ghosts-shaped hole in my heart #bbc ghosts

[merakiui]

breaking news: my third eye is open again and i'm falling for lilia and his charms.

#meraki mumbles #this is not a drill...... he's genuinely making me have thoughts #it's the general lilia effect #and the sheer whiplash of mean war general versus silly and doting father figure who is also in a pop music club #and he stays up super late to game and so it's highly possible he (at one point) has said 'slay' and and and!!!!!! #OTL and then i'm slowly seeing the appeal for malleus as well #someone inject the fish into my brain before i fall into the diasomnia hole #lilia would be NO HELP if silver or sebek or malleus knocked you up (in your sleep or otherwise) he's proud like '>:3 those are my boys' #and silver... living his entire life thinking people only have sex to breed (because that's how lilia explained sex-ed to him) #so he restrains himself from wanting to have sex with you because he's worried he'll just fuck you like an animal and breed you full D: #AAAAAAA I NEED TO STOP BEFORE THE DIASOMNIA WORMS CHEW THROUGH MY CORTEX.......

[rusty-courage]

playing in a life series just seems like so much fun

#especially with last life rules #though knowing me i'd probably hole up and hermit my way through just out of fear sdjfklsdjf #the name's rusty courage for a reason #it's because my courage do be rusty

[sleepy-aletheas]

What is with Hoyo and their fascination about self-destructive blond men with dead fathers and their ridiculously buff academic boyfriends with unconventional methods of care that will pull the blond on a path of self-realization? I mean, I'm not complaining, I need fifty more of these, thanks. But it's so funny that there are two pairs of these types of characters, that just compliment each other perfectly.

Also I'm itching on ranting about the similarities between Kaveh/Aventurine and Alhaitham/Ratio, but also Kaveh/Ratio, that I might go insane if I bottle it up for too long. (I wonder if I could find something to observe through an Alhaitham/Aventurine lens probably)

#haikaveh #aventio #emotionally devastating pretty men my beloved #i fell back into the star rail rabbit hole only because of aventurine #i feel alive and absolutely devastated. 10/10 i need more of whatever this is #i played through penacony plot of 2.0 and 2.1 in one day and i've been spiraling ever since #my therapist will be so confused about me babbling about meaning of life and i'm so excited #when i get to the “the answer doesn't matter. but its existence does” i wonder how many callbacks to my previous babbling she could make

[just-null-cult]

Dear noritoshi cult leader!!!!!! I wanted to know if you have any recommendations for other artists or content creators that post for our boy noritoshi?

my devout cult member!!!!!!

I don't know many artists who are still active or still draw Noritoshi stuff. I mostly get my content from pixiv or pinterest even if it's.... severely rare.... and even then, they've only drawn him once, and that's all but it's something!

btw when I say some aren't active, I mean they haven't posted in a while. fingers crossed they cOME BACK PLEASE GOD I MISS YOU.

My list is in no particular order unless you count who came to mind first?? nonetheless, here are some Noritoshi artists that I know of/taken inspiration from

kamo_sympathy [Twitter] haven't been active for a while, but I still enjoy the stuff they have there. Very good!!

getou_0203_ [Twitter] also semi inactive. they're a Getou, Gojo, and Choso enjoyer too. how they drew Noritoshi is smth I inject in my soul.

ohayo_akachan [Twitter] again... kinda inactive, but still. I enjoy their content a lot while I can't really understand what they're saying. DeepL my saving grace.. their style is v similar to the anime style, which I find super cool!!

Gotharcheologist or @/alegnace [Twitter and Tumblr] They're a chosonori shipper and active! I really like how they draw Noritoshi and Choso. how they draw blood is so good, how they draw faces is so good, THEIR ARTSTYLE IS SO FUCKING GOOD

magical_candy15 [Twitter] They didn't post a lot, nor are they active as of now, but the few scenarios were really good and fed me in my drought for a while. I love u..

rin5su0605 [Twitter] A Todo×Noritoshi account with some love to the rest of the Kyoto group too! This person was active as of June 2023, but I'm using copium. I really like how they draw.. and the color choices oh my fuck.

mecuru_MECU (?) [Twitter] I'm a bit iffy on this one. They look to not be doing jjk anymore, but they were once into Noritoshi if you go to their earlier posts. Their linework is beautiful, like their colors! there's something about their work I really like.

and that's all I have, I think? I know there are others out there that i don't know or don't remember, but I'll probably add them over time if i find more or if anyone else has someone in mind to recommend in the comments of this post!

yoshida_jyu [Twitter] They mainly post in a comic format! theres also some Megumi×Noritoshi shipping so if thats your thing, this dude's your dude. i have no idea what theyre saying but they draw cute expressions. also draws mainly Noritoshi, Kokichi, and Megumi

16shelter [Twitter} also a Megumi×Noritoshi shipper. Little warning: their art can be nsfw/suggestive at times, so be careful w that if its not your thing. Their anatomy is good AND POSING im grabbing my pen.. also, this person finds Arata cute, so theres some art with him too!

#noritoshi #kamo noritoshi #noritoshi kamo #jjk #jujutsu kaisen #cult leader cameo #i had to scrape the bottom of the barrel and go through so many rabbit holes to find these artists bro #the rest of the content i get is fr just from my delusions #there are more really cool artists out there but theyve only drawn him once or twice so i omitted them #theres also some who DELETED ALL THEIR OLD SHIT OF HIM PLEASE COME BACK I DONT CARE WHAT HAPPENED I MISS YOU #AND THEN THERES SOME IN MY HEAD WHO I CANT REMEMBER THE NAME OF OR HOW I FOUND THEM FOR THE LIFE OF ME #I KNOW THEY EXIST BUT I CANT FUCKING FIND THEM RN #if some links dont work/you dont trust links try looking up the username!

[starjunkyard]

"Im not even sure anymore if we get to choose who our friends are" There is a part of me that resents you for making me a worse person than i want to be but i am inexplicably uncontrollably drawn to you. You make me a worse person which is the last thing i want yet i want you in every way. If i could leave i would. Maybe i can but i dont want to. I have fun with you. You challenge me and you captivate me and you push me and pull and run circles around me and it makes me feel like a younger man. For the price of being a worse person i get to feel truly, wholly alive. You are the blood that runs through my veins; vital, inseparable. I was reborn when i met you and you are the womb that haunts me. You are the one person on planet earth who knows me. I wish i could leave, move on and be the man im supposed to be but my heart is tied to yours in a gordian knot. There is a part of my soul that rests in yours, magnetic. For as long as i love you i cannot be better than i am. But maybe thats something i can learn to live with. Gregory House-- I think you're worth it.

#house md #james wilson #gregory house #hilson #johan being crazy about yaoi md #johan's mindpalace #Im crazy #like im tearing up #this scene is so romantic it genuinely makes me nauseous #the lowlight setting the lingering stares the soft little smile a dam thats finally broken #I need a 12 gauge bullet in the thigh #Please watch this scene screencaps do not do it near enough justice #do you know whats so genuinely actually sickening #its been months since i finished house md #and i have not watched a single show that has managed to fill even a quarter of the gaping bleeding hilson shaped hole in my heart #shows that have actual gay people actual representation and not a single one has managed to alter my brain chemistry the way hilson has #since day 1 episode 1 #Like its actually nauseating a little its so over for me for the rest of my life #Like im actually never recovering #people say “they dont make xyz like they used to haha” But Guys they Genuinely dont #Im going through withdrawls #I need my yaoi cocaine so bad but my plug died 12 years ago and i cant fucking Move #House md capital of fatphobia homophobia transphobia early 2000s edgy humour outshining modern shows with actual rep like im sick #Its not even because i want to like i feel like there are worms in my brain. I feel like ratatoullie if the rat was evil #This is not what the stonewall riots were for #I feel like so nausous why couldnt i be crazy about an actual gay pairing like a normal gay person. Im gonna throwup #Why couldnt i like music and girls #Its not even that house md is objectively logically better than these shows like no. Im just crazy #Im so sick they make me so sick i feel like there are worms in my head. My head #Dont know when i will ever be onorlmal again. Sorr

[deancaskiss]

~ starry

#poetry #poem #loss #grief #bex writing #stanza #I’ve written a lot like this recently #nothing helps to cope though #just a hole where life once stood #a chunk of me that’s gone forever #not gonna tag anyone because I’m sure no one wants to read this #but posting it anyway because the journey through grief is difficult to navigate

[messrsbyler]

someone please flirt with Will Byers in next season in front of Mike because first of all how can you not when he is adorable? and second of all, because i believe in jealous Mike Wheeler supremacy and i need it

#about to email the duffers about this issue #jealous mike wheeler #the footsie girl had the right idea (maybe a bit tone down bc weird how you are putting your foot on people's legs like girl) but the #timing was wrong purely bc mike wasn't there #yes we got him jealous about the painting but you don't understand #i need something visual over which mike goes full frowning and trying to pull will to his side arms crossed and deadly stare activated #will utterly confused sensing something is wrong with mike but not seeing it even though it's so clear bc he is still in denial #and cannot believe mike could be jealous over him #el seeing right through it and having the time of her life lol #jonathan smirking bc that's right asshole (affectionate (maybe?)) you have feelings for my little brother it was about time #enjoy being jealous lol how embarrassing of you #argyle would be the one to call mike out for his shit for sure even without meaning to #my dude if you keep staring at that girl like that you'll burn holes in her back lmao #will byers #mike wheeler #byler tumblr #byler

[thefrogdalorian]

Sometimes I find myself thinking about Din Djarin a little too much that I get concerned and think that I really should go to therapy...

Well, I'm finally doing that (again) tomorrow... :)

Feeling pretty nervous about it but hoping that because I now know I'm autistic it will help me understand/explain things a little better! Hopefully this is the start of a journey to finally become a healthier, happier version of myself :)

#the waiting list was surprisingly short so i'm excited i just hope that they understand neurodivergency #because cbt doesn't work for my brain and i hope they don't try and force a square peg in a round hole so to speak #i want emdr eventually but i have to go through several stages first it seems and it sucks i wish i could afford private therapy #but i also just wish the nhs just fucking functioned lol #anyway that was a lot of acronyms but there we go #having ptsd sucks that's part of why i love din a lot because i can weirdly relate to him. also mando came into my life when i needed it #and as corny as it sounds knowing i can make some silly little gifs and write about the tin can helps regulate me after a draining events #so knowing i can do that whatever happens tomorrow is nice :) oR TODAY it's past midnight here what is a sleeping pattern #anyway once again i just really love din djarin but now no one can tell me to gO TO THERAPY ANYMORE BC OF IT ALSSNJSSK #personal #text post #just autism things

[apollos-boyfriend]

came to the realization recently that the “all of deco*27’s songs sound the exact same” phenomenon is literally just a result of his tuning. he tunes miku in a very specific way that makes it instantly different and recognizable from nearly all other producers, making it hard to confuse his songs for another’s and vice versa. it isn’t helped by the fact that he only really uses miku, so there’s no diversity in how the singing itself sounds. the second you listen to any covers of his songs (human or other voice banks) or even his milgram stuff you can instantly see the variety within his work, his same-y tuning just makes it all blend together at first glance

#icarus speaks #like yeah! rabbit hole and ghost rule and yume yume are all VERY different songs in regards to composition and style #his miku however is the exact same. so it doesn’t sound That different bc he tunes her the same throughout all his stuff #with real life singers you don’t have that issue bc people can’t perfectly replicate a performance twice #especially not through different songs/genres #but vocaloids can. so it muddled things slightly

[chonideno]

everything is heartbreaking and that's how it is

#i am going through it. all of it at once #it's only heartbreaking because it was beautiful before and it's beautiful now but in a different way #i know i know i know it's just the human experience #but it doesn't make it easier!! love and loss and life eras and all of that bullshit #countless people have walked that path before and it's my only comfort #it won't stop me from living and loving and all of that #but wow. black hole in the chest. light like a lead pebble in the heart. just as warm #this post is about grief and family and also other stuff #not death!! weirdly enough. not yet #shut up mag

[downtherabbitholewithlucy]

WES BORLAND / \ BLACK LIGHT BURNS

#cw flashing #cw flickering #tw flashing #tw flickering #fuckin' Adonis over here amirite? #god this man is unreal #does he really need to run his hands through his hair AND caress his bare stomach LIKE THAT? #never wanted to be a microphone more in my life #Wes Borland #Black Light Burns #Limp Bizkit #nu metal #down the rabbit hole