#Like... It could've been worse

[punkstylerecovery]

“It could’ve been worse.” It could’ve been BETTER. It could’e been EASIER. It could’ve been lovely. It could’ve been beautiful, it could’ve been fun. It could have been simple, it could’ve made you HAPPY. 

You can drown in two feet of water just as simply as you can in an ocean. Stop downplaying what happened and neglecting your feelings. Kill that idea with fire. Or at least acknowledge that what happened was bad without immediately trying to justify or dismiss it.

#trauma #trauma recovery #punkstyle #<- that's my tag #if you can't do this yet #try changing the sentence #'x was bad but it could've been worse' #NO #try 'x was bad AND it could've been worse' #it's a slight change #but it makes a difference #trust me #and maybe #one day #you'll get to the point you can drop off that part altogether #this isn't something that you can change in one day #but it's something you can work on #exercise it #like a muscle

[hermit-frog]

(...) his black hair parted in the middle and curling about his ears, so that he looked now in his dreamy, fevered state like one of those lithe androgynous creatures of a Botticelli painting.

#Interview with the Vampire #iwtv #armand #assad zaman #iwtvedit #tvedit #*gif #this is a test. was trying to see if it would work and how it would look. not too bad. could've been worse #i'm too tired and sick of it to finish. the quality is bad anyway so why bother #thank you Assad for already looking like a painting #can't wait for the HD (sickos-haha-yes.jpg) #have another set in process and one idea I want to try. unfortunately no time😭 #p.s. I've been obsessed with nimbus/halos since I was a kid. it has no religious meaning to me. just looks pretty #idk how they are going to adapt his religious journey. just wanted to clarify

[otiksimr]

LOVE IT WHEN WOF HYBRIDS HAVE PHYSICAL ISSUES-

LOVE IT WHEN WOF HYBRIDS HAVE PHYSICAL ISSUES BECAUSE YOU'RE MIXING TRIBES HAVE DIFFERENT PHSYICAL TRAITS WHICH COULD CAUSE ABNORMALITIES IN THE CHILD AND OVERALL GIVE THEM A WORSE LIFE EXPERIENCE.

#SUNNY COULD'VE HAD SO MUCH WORSE GOING FOR HER JUST SAYING MAN #IT COULD'VE BEEN WAY WORSE THAN JUST 'oh no barb :( anyways-' #wof #wings of fire #realistically hybridization isn't really all that big a deal(?) #Most of the time they're sterile since well. Hybrid of two different animals #It varies from hybrid to hybrid really in whether or not it could actually survive #sometimes they're weaker than the parents other times they're stronger. sometimes they're more like one parent rather than the other #there is a range. #I'm just a sucker for a good tragedy that's all :) #Kos speaks

[danwhobrowses]

For anyone else who is gonna struggle surviving the next 3 weeks with the angsty and tense situation of Callowmoore here's a few things from the last 2 episodes that I feel were underrated and will assist in trying to keep me sane/emotionally stable: - Matching messed up hands built for holding - Fearne nervously playing with her hair as she approaches Ashton - Ashton wanted Fearne to be either the last thing they saw if they died or the first thing they saw when they succeeded - Fearne's admittance corroborates Ashley's 4SD revelation that Fearne is in love with someone in the party but doesn't know how to process the emotions - Fearne wanted Ashton to be happy, while Ashton wanted to feel whole so they would be worthy of the Hells - Ashton twice tried to lead a search for Fearne, and instantly clocking onto Chetney saying he followed Fearne - Fearne making herself look as radiant as possible before giving Ashton the cold shoulder - Ashton only rose to Chetney's provocations until he said 'You hurt Fearne' Use how you will

#godspeed my poor damaged psyche #critical role #bells hells #callowmoore #ashton greymoore #fearne calloway #fearne x ashton #ashton x fearne #strangely enough I don't enjoy having a dark and sad pit sitting in my chest day to day #3 weeks and we don't even get a cute M9 reunion in between to distract us? this was worse than Callowmoore's sistergate 3 week wait #also 'a little'? Sweetie people don't jump into lava for a little you got the big L and it's not Lesbian(s) #Feel like Laudna was a bit cruel this ep (Ash has been there for her a ton and she kinda villainized him) but we'll put it down to Delilah #much of Ashton's trauma has been overlooked or left to them to internalize but still nobody has told them that they are loved #and Ashton Greymoore needs to be told they're loved! (by Fearne) #but yeah time for more positive mental scenarios that 99% won't happen (but when that 1% does ho boy) #couldn't have just had Fearne go 'no talking' and sleep on Ash's chest to hear their heartbeat as her touch soothes Ash's pain could we? #or final fight scenarios where Ludinus is a walking harness and Ashton tricks them into absorbing their titan powers so he'd explode #they could've even had a talk in the woods because they wanted to find her so bad but was not gonna test Imogen's patience #I for one though will have at least one where Ashton seeks out Mori for advice (Fearne too but separately) #Tal I need you to use all your romantic arsenal in the feywild (Percy's worst travel experience) to win back Ashley's beautiful faun girl #bonus prompts for 'You will always be perfect to me' and 'Promise you'll come back to me' they pop up often in my scenarios #taliesin jaffe #ashley johnson

[godbirdart]

literally why would i want to poison my brain immersing myself in petty internet drama all day when i can go outside see the sun and seek out the positive activities that are actually beneficial for my mental health

#people that feel compelled to argue with strangers you'll never meet irl: why would you do that to yourself #some of my mutuals are Really far gone down the virtue-signal internet drama [xyz is Gross i would never do xyz] rabbit hole #and it's kinda scary to see tbh #i've caught MYSELF suddenly getting a little combative and immediately i shut that shit down #twitter has changed people for the worse in the sense that they're more hostile than they used to be #i'm referring to petty shit that could've been solved through DMs or through a simple block and walk away #not like #actual warranted warnings and shit #gotta specify yknow

[screamingfrenchfries]

u can call me crazy all u want but after rewatching bbc sherlock and ignoring basically all outside input, i'm talking i just watched the show w no memory of anything but source material, johnlock was lowkey canon. i mean those bitches were living together raising a kid by the end of the series and ur gonna tell me they weren't gay???? 🤨🤨

#like just bc they didn't kiss doesn't mean they weren't in love #i mean they literally SAY that they love e/o is that not enough #like idk why some johnlockers didn't like the ending it could've gone so much worse #ignoring the whole irene situation ig but in my mind sherlock reached out to her bc they r platonically in love :( #mlm wlw solidarity n all that jazz #johnlock #am i like 7 years late to the party?? #yeah #but for some reason when i first watched sherlock back in like 2018 i thought that the show had been out for a while #and that i was already too late for the party #which i mean #i WAS kinda late. but not as late as i am to making this post lmao

[lgbtlunaverse]

I'm a little bit insane about how in novel canon the whole xiyao ending where Jin Guangyao wants to die with Xichen, who accepts, which then makes jgy change his mind and pushes him away at the last second isn't actually explicit. A lot of adaptations chose to make it so but in the novel this is all VERY up for interpretation.

Here's what actually happens in the text: Lan xichen stabs jgy, jgy moves away from lan xichen, xichen follows him, wwx realizes jgy is about to open the coffin and calls "watch out!" to lan xichen. Jgy unseals nmj, pushes xichen away, nmj kills jgy and they are both dragged into the coffin which is sealed again.

Here's what wei wuxian, our narrator, thinks is happening: Jin Guangyao wanted to lead lan xichen to his death out of revenge for stabbing him. Lan Xichen, unaware, simply followed Jin Guangyao to try and stop him from getting away. Wei wuxian's warning came too late, but Jin Guangyao- for an unknown reason- changed his mind at the last second and pushed lan xichen out of danger before lan xichen had any idea of what was going on.

Here's what most fans as well as the teams behind several adpatations think is happening: Jin Guangyao leads Xichen to nmj's coffin to die with him, Xichen accepts, because of this acceptance, proof xichen still cares for him, Jin Guangyao pushes him out of harm's way. Wei Wuxian just doesn't get that gay people who aren't him or Lan Wangji exist.

Here's what ALSO MIGHT BE HAPPENING: Jin guangyao wants to die in a different way than he is currently dying. Maybe he's afraid of what'll happen to his body after his death like he was scared for his mother's, maybe he wants to confront nmj one last time now that there's nothing more for him to lose, maybe - if he can't take her body with him- he'd at least like his final resting place to be where he buried his mother. Lan Xichen thinks he's trying to get away and follows but Jin Guangyao, who despite everything doesn't want him to die, pushes him away. Xichen doesn't know what happened until it's already happened. What he would've wanted if he had known remains up in the air.

Or, alternatively: Jin Guangyao's reasons are as above, but unbeknowst to Wei Wuxian, Xichen DOES know what jgy is about to do and either misinterprets this as an invitation to all die together, or inidividually decides he, too, is done, and wants to join his sworn brothers in the grave. To Jin Guangyao this has nothing to do with Lan Xichen, and he still doesn't want him to die, so he pushes him away against Lan Xichen's wishes.

Every single one of these interpretations is unhinged and they are all supported by the original text. It's like a choose your own adventure of tragic gay endings.

#mdzs #mdzs meta #meng yao #jin guangyao #lan xichen #nie mingjue #3zun #xiyao #rs: i wish it could've been you #honestly which is worse for xichen. Being denied his wish explicitly or only realizing he wanted it after it'd already been denied for him #OR genuinely not wanting to die but being forced to live with the fact that even after he essentially killed him jgy still saved his life #just another way he's in his debt #like no matter what he's not coming out of here okay #i switch between a bunch of these all the time but actually favor the last 2 because they're very underexplored in my opinion #I like it when 'i never even thought about hurting you' remains true to the bitter end. He never even considered it #also I just... have a lot of feelings about that being his mom's coffin #do you remember that in the novel the coffin was so heavy only sect leaders could bear the weight? #so for the burial a group of sect leaders had to be the pallbearers... the SYMBOLISM GUYS!! THE SYMBOLISM! #jgy dies in infamy but despite everything it's the highest of cultivation society who carry the coffin he's buried in #he's in the same coffin as a great sect leader!! As nmj!! After a whole life fighting an uphill battle finally in death they are equal #it's not justice and it's not fair but it's... something #wwx's interpretation is the one i favour the least. sorry bro you remain an unreliable narrator to me. #it feels rather uncharitable towards jgy which makes sense for wwx's pov but makes it not my favorite #there's an alternative version of that intepretation where jgy THINKS he's doing the coffin trio pact and thinks xichen accepts. #and has the same realization of oh no he still cares I don't want him to die and pushes lxc away #meanwhile lan xichen hasn't actually processed any of this because it all happened in about 0.4 seconds #i like that one slightly more but it's still not my favorite #there's tragedy in the misunderstanding but it's a bit convoluted.

[lesbianwithchainsaws]

Gasleak year aside, I want to thank season 4 for giving us as much trobed content as it did. I mean, we got Jeff and Britta referring to them as boyfriends. We got Conventions of Space and Time. We got Basic Human Anatomy. We got the puppet episode and every post ever about it is just "yeah, Abed had a secret and he said he's in love with Troy". It showed that Britta and Troy didnt work as a couple and broke them up. We got "you were out there and you weren't looking for me?". It was trobeds season

#also I'll fully admit that i think s6 is worse than s4 so i dont even hate it as much #but i get that the episodes are still not that great #tbh i think a lot of the s4 episodes could've been good if they were just developed more and didnt have weird character moments #imo several episodes feel more like early drafts than finished episodes #anyway i doubt anyone needs my full review of s4 lmao #nbc community #troy barnes #abed nadir #trobed #community nbc

[winter-tospring]

I rarely feel secondhand embarrassment but god....taylor....😬🫣🥴🫠😞

#I hope music blogs are honest about this one. I can't imagine spinning this positively. Creatively there's absolutely nothing there #She could've just written a memoir that would've been better #It's like actually sad #The album is so boring there's hardly any variations in how she sings and I feel like all the songs are copies of previous ones both #thematically and sonically 😭 #I expected midnights levels but this is worse 😭 so sad #Ts #Ttpd #ttpd spoilers #Ttpd leak

[emmet-appreciation]

source

Ingo the conductor is not having a good time

#The youtube algorithm randomly handed me this video and it gave me so much inspiration I almost cried. #Anyway this was done in two days. #Never again will I use so much colour in a silly little animation #my art #ingo #nobori #emmet #kudari #elesa #kamitsure #nimbasa besties #unreality #<- idk if that tag is right but honestly i feel like it applies here. lmk if i thought wrong #submas #subway bosses #subway masters #animatic #surprisingly was not as bad as i thought to animate tbh i thought it could've been a lot worse #anyhow i hope you enjoy it!!! ;w;! #flashing lights #(at the end) #EDIT: THIS WOULDV'E BEEN REALLY GOOD WITH JACKIE #unfortunately i was already 15 seconds in when i realized that so uh #yeah

[the-magpie-archives]

Have you ever thought about what would have happened if Nikola had killed Jon when she kidnapped him? How the story would have gone? How things would have changed?

Elias would have been annoyed, obviously. But how hard would it really be to pick someone else? Everyone in the archives is at least partially marked by the fears, yes there would be delays, but how hard would it be to shape collateral into a usable pawn?

I don't know how Tim would feel. How do you describe that rage of losing the one you blame for everything, combined with the grief of losing somebody who could've almost been a friend? Whether or not your original purpose remains, you're displaced.

Daisy and Melanie wouldn't be all too affected- an annoyance of course, perhaps a pang of loss, guilt mavbe? But what could stop them powering forward. There's more important things at stake than just one man.

Basira cared about Jon. She liked him, even; thought he was funny. She'd be sad. Not devastated, but it'd be a loss. The kind you feel through a sheet of fog, you know the pain is there but you can't quite reach it.

But Martin. Oh Martin. Can you imagine how he'd sob? How he'd fall apart? The loss of a love who loved you back whilst neither of you ever had the strength to say it? The denial of every idle daydream, every menial thought of cooking together, of cuddling on a sunny morning... Everything that mattered rotting away like wasted meat.

And the unknowing. Without Jon there to plan and organise, would Melanie and Martin have been spared the experience? Without Jon, Elias would have to reassert control, see who would be the best pick for the new archivist.

Would Martin watch frozen as Nikola paraded around, wearing Jon like a fur coat? His brain screaming at him that 'Jon's skin didn't sit like that on his body' whilst his heart rejoices at the return of his love.

And Tim, in that very attempt to tackle Jon, would he have been torn apart by fierce automaton hands? There's no chance to click a detonator if your opponent isn't who you thought they were; it's impossible to react that fast.

Would it instead have been Melanie? Seeing this unfold before her, infernal rage unleashed by loss of control. Would she have watched willingly, as she sent herself, and her only remaining allies to fiery, painful deaths?

Perhaps.

But how are we to know?

#Ever start thinking and then you just can't stop thinking? This is what happens when I make these posts! #But like‚ the things that could have happened... God #Everything could've been so much worse!! :) #There were just so many fucking variables!!! #tma #the magnus archives #the magnus institute #Jonathan Sims #martin blackwood #Jmart #Jonmartin #tim stoker #basira hussain #daisy tonner #melanie king #elias bouchard #nikola orsinov #The unknowing #tma the stranger #the archivist #Fucking hell. How the fuck do I Tw tag this? #tw unreality #tw body horror #tw death #tw kidnapping #Tw violence #tw manipulation #Uhhhh yeah that should do it. Let me know if I should add any more.

[sciderman]

Sometimes i remember a comics moment i randomly came across somewhere, where Sam Wilson mentiones a musical and Steve Rodgers says he doesn't like musicals, to whitch Sam goes "Guess that means you really are straight" and even tho i don't care about Cap America or the Avengers, the moment stuck in me for that quote by Sam. And like....Sci, any ideas if straight men actually don't like musicals or is that bullshit?

actually i think i know more gay men who hate musicals than i know straight men who hate musicals. i've had a drag queen stop me point blank when i was about to sing a barbra streisand song, and i know so many gays who pointedly hate abba. so based on my experience i think the inverse is true. most of the straight men i know are kind of impartial about musicals, but gay men? hate.

my theory is that a lot of gay men don't want to fall into stereotypes, maybe. but thaaaaat's just a theory! a gay theory.

#sci speaks #i'm trying to understand the gays. they are a mystery to me. #i've seen a lot more toxic masculinity coming from gay men than i have from straight men. #i think it makes sense. they have less women in their lives. so they reckon with a lot more masculinity. more dick measuring. #also gay men have some of THE most unhealthy romantic relationships i've ever seen in my life. #this isn't a blanket statement on everyone but just from what i've seen. it's such a strange pattern i've observed. #lesbians? healthy. straights? usually healthy. gay men? universally a tire fire that makes me say “if you hate each other so much ??” #“why are you together??????????” #i have never met a cis gay mlm couple in real life that was healthy. every single one of them made my eyes widen in horror. #i want them to be healthy. please treat each other better. #the number of bitchy bitchy fights i've seen between mlm couples in public that make me so terrified #but i know mlm relationships in general are usually less... affectionate than wlw relationships. even and especially friendships. #just an observation. #i hate to say that there is a definite difference between amab vs afab experiences when it comes to relationship dynamics but. #of course there is. there is. as much as i want to say gender and sex do not matter. it really does. #it makes a difference. it does. #which is kind of why i'm glad i was born in the body i was. when people say “trans means you feel you were born in the wrong body” #im like.. i don't think that's true. i don't think that's true for me. #i wouldn't be me if i wasn't born the way i was. and i want to be me. but i'm a boy. i'm a boy but in the body that i have. #my body is still a boy's body. because i live in here. #sorry this went off on a tangent. #but yeah i know my brain would be different if i was amab. and i don't want all those other issues. #i think the only reason i'm so peaceful and serene is because i'm afab. and afabulous. #i see cis guys and im like.. yeah i don't want what you got. #once again! lucky to be me! i'm lucky. im lucky i have a vargooba. thank fuck for that! #couldve been so much worse off. could've been born with a dick and would be fighting for my life right now.

[tired-fandom-ndn]

you wouldn’t happen to have any thoughts on laios x falin would you… I’ve had some difficulty finding people being freaks (affectionate) about them which is a shame cuz I feel like their dynamic is RIPE for incest

I have A thought about toudencest, anon. I think that Falin has a HUGE thing for Laios that she has never acted on or really let herself think about but it's been constant background noise since Laios became her protector and her only real constant instead of just her brother.

ON THE OTHER HAND, I don't think Laios was attracted to Falin in the absolute slightest UNTIL she was turned into a monster and then he has weird and abstract wet dreams about her chimera form for the rest of their journey and a sporadically afterwards. I think he would still be attracted to her with all her feathers and cool monster stuff after they successfully revive her, but if Falin doesn't notice and do something, nothing would ever come of it just because I don't think Laios would actually recognize it as sexual attraction instead of just fascination.

And no, the wet dreams would NOT make it easier for him to realize he's attracted to his sister because this man has absolutely had weird and abstract wet dreams of ALL his loved ones as monsters. He just thinks everyone has those.

If Falin DID notice and initiate something (maybe with Marcille's permission, maybe not), it would be. . . weird. The sex is fantastic for them, they love each other too much for it not to be even if they're both awkward and fumbling, but I think Falin would be very torn between joy at finally getting what she's wanted since they were kids. . . and a sort of hurt disappointment that Laios isn't really attracted to her but to what the dungeon turned her into. This is her body, and she loves it, but it hurts that Laios never looked at her as something desirable until her body was fundamentally changed. The fact that he's like that with everyone isn't much of a comfort.

#Anonymous #had to be angsty there at the end sorry #could've been worse though #by saying that laios also has absolutely no interest in her romantically and it kills part of her inside #knowing that he loves her like she hung the stars in the sky #but he loves her as a SISTER and that's all he'll ever see her as even when they're having sex #:) #toudencest #shipcest #nsft #dungeon meshi

[tomshivbaby]

a bunch of people between the ages of 30 and 50 & MEEE

#and only like a third of them are toms. it could've been worse #art vs artist #> mine #tatin.irl

[lgbtlunaverse]

I don't think we talk about xiyao exes to lovers enough. I understand that in canon the "breakup" ended with death and imo it was never going to end any other way (I have a lot of feelings about how jgy is doomed from the start) but even in aus where survival is an option I barely ever see their full potential realized. The fact that there is this heartbreaking gap that is between them now, and yet that, despite it all, they can't stop loving each other. When you have drama this good, why is the conflict relegated to outside threats and we end up with little to no exploration of internal strife, of the fact that these guys have been living a domestic lie for a decade (I cannot stress this enough, the amount of parralels between xiyao and jgy's marriage to qin su are staggering.)

And let me be clear I will NEVER begrudge anyone their hurt/comfort and wanting their faves who are denied happiness and peace at every turn to find it. god knows I need that sometimes. Or even the less healthy but so emotionally devastating fics where the caring isn't good, and it doesn't fix anything- might only make things worse, actually- and xichen ends up recreating his father's fate. I love all of those things. But. Man. This divorce was over 11 years in the making it should take AT LEAST that long to resolve. What do you do when the person you trusted the most lied to you for years? What do you do when the only person who's ever believed in you loses that faith so completely they'd hurt you over a lie without hesitation? I need me some xiyao who try to get over each other for 20 years and fail. I need them to meet after not seeing each other for years and have it hurt like no time has passed at all. I need arguments where no one raises their voice but that feel like a screaming match anyway. Do you see my vision?? Do you see what we could have?

(if fics that do exacly this are out there, recs are of course welcome)

#mdzs #meng yao #xiyao #lan xichen #jin guangyao #rs: i wish it could've been you #this might make some people really mad #at the idea that jgy has any right to have grievances with xichen but uh... #i'm not interested in arguing with jgy antis. go scream at a wall #or a different camp who DO like xiyao but who are like 'but xichen was lied to jgy wouldn't blame him' #the fact that it was a lie makes it WORSE you guys know that right? #some of you have never been the proverbial boy who cried wolf #and had people assume everything you say is a lie because you've lied in the past #and good for you! You SHOULD be honest with those you love i'm very happy for all of you #but also. lmao. you have no idea how that feels. #i have read aus where they break up and get back together of course #but i always end up feeling like people see the conflict as an obstacle? a thing to get past so we can get them back together #and not.. you know. the most interesting part. the selling point #I think in a slightly lower stakes au xiyao should wait a few years get back together because they love each other and then break up AGAIN #when they realize that the old relationship they had with that easy trust is gone forever. love isn't enough to bring that back #you can build something new. including a new kind of trust just as potent. but that old easy kind is gone. #and i think they should try to get it back because it was the best thing they ever had #and get fucked up about it when they realize they can't #and it should take them well over a decade to mourn it until they're ready to let it go and try to make something new of it #PLEASE let me talk about the xichen qin su parralels please let me talk about how rusong is nmj-coded #not in personality but in the function he has narratively as someone that can never stop haunting jgy. #the fact that nmj's death and rusong's birth were likely extremely close to each other timeline wise LET'S TALK ABOUT IT

[miikoissant]

Why is Prussia here

#i mean it could've been worse if we replace prussia with russia #i like to pretend that this is a cleaning prussia reference #prussia third wheeling #i just don't find the chemistry between them #it's so random 💀