Pairing: Loki x female
Summary: Shy reader that
follows Loki around and spends a lot of time with him, but Loki is cold towards
reader. Reader doesn’t give up with getting to know him better, until he says
some harsh things to reader.
Warning: Angst – not
too much though, fluff at the end, Loki being a little mean – but then being an
“So, is it true
that the library on Asgard is really big?” y/n asked Loki as she followed
him to the library that Tony recently invested in at the compound.
Loki just gives y/n an
annoyed glance over his shoulder and continues to walk. Y/n felt a little hurt
but doesn’t show it. Loki wasn’t having the best of days.
“Okay, you don’t
have to answer, but I’m sure you’ve read close to all the books that must be
there.” Y/n walks a bit faster to catch up to Loki’s side.
Loki stops in his
tracks and looks to y/n with an even more annoyed look from before. He harshly
pushes her against the wall trapping her from moving.
Her eyes display many
emotions, the one that stands out the most is clear fear.
“How is it
possible for you to never shut that annoying mouth of yours? it is quite
dreadful having to hear you all the time. Can’t you just leave me alone and
take the hint, or do I have to make it more clear to you? Stay away from me you
foolish little girl.” His words dripped in hate, and tone not one to be reckoned
His brows were pushed
together out of anger and eyes screamed of even more anger, but when he saw
that y/n had tears in her eyes, his whole demeanor changed.
She whimpered and pushed him away with all her strength and ran down the hall
and back to her room which is right next door to Loki’s one.
A sudden feeling of
dread came upon Loki, and this time it wasn’t because of having to hear y/n
everywhere he went.
He had an urge to go
after her and apologize but was quick to think against it once he realized that
he can now finally have some peace without y/n following him everywhere.
He made his way to the
library and picked a book to read in the quietest corner, all the while in the
back of his mind something was telling him to do otherwise, yet he ignored it
and continues reading.
Y/n had never been
spoken to like that before, her parents having sheltered her against the ugly
world, but once the New York attack happened. Her parents had unfortunately
fell victim to it.
She was found wondering
around the outside area of the Stark tower when Natasha saw her.
Tear stricken face and
clutching onto a necklace that she now wears to this day.
From then on, she was
taken under the wing of the Avengers and lived in the tower with them all. She
would help out wherever she could and was very shy whenever a new Avenger had
She was even kind
enough to forgive Loki for the attack, she knew it wasn’t him after being told
about the mind control bit.
y/n?” Steve asked when they all gathered for breakfast the next morning.
Everyone was sat around the table starting off their day together. Usually y/n
would be there to be the first to greet them all a good morning, this morning
she was strangely absent.
sleeping in, never saw her at dinner either.” Wanda stated as she
remembered being the last one to leave the kitchen the night before.
“Then she must be
hungry, I’ll go and check on her.” Bucky woke up and walked to where y/n’s
room was, he was surprised to see Loki standing outside her room looking
conflicted with himself.
okay?” Bucky asked, making himself known to Loki.
Loki looked up with a
worried look, this was unusual given the fact that Loki never showed what he
was feeling. Always wearing a blank expression or an annoyed one.
“She- the door
isn’t opening.” He stuttered out.
This took Bucky by
surprise and he immediately walked to the room door and started knocking.
“Y/n open the door
please.” He spoke rather loudly.
Loki stood there
watching it all. Before Bucky could arrive, he knocked on your room door to try
an apologize for his words after it all played in his mind continuously.
All the times you were
nothing but sweet to him, you even forgave him for the attack and he still
treated you like dirt regardless. It all got to him even more as he sat down to
eat dinner the previous night and you were nowhere to be found, and he knew he
was responsible for that.
“No.” A small
voice interrupted Loki’s thought.
She’s okay, he thought
“What’s wrong y/n?
Please talk to me.” Bucky insisted as he tried opening the door.
No response came and
that was when he started tapping on the keypad beside your room door.
y/n’s door now.” Bucky spoke with purpose in his voice.
Why was he so
determined to get your room door opened?
Loki thought about this
as he stood there helplessly. He knew that the Avengers were quite fond of you,
especially Bucky and Natasha.
When you weren’t at
Loki’s side you were often accompanied by one of them. You were never left
The door opened and
Bucky walked in quickly turning on the room light since the blinds were closed
and the room was surrounded by darkness.
called out; you were covered in layers of blankets on the floor beside your
bed. Your face was red from all the crying you did throughout the night.
Loki walked in behind
Bucky, shocked to find the scene in front of him. He didn’t know his words
would affect you this badly.
happened?” Natasha’s surprised voice came from behind Loki. When you
looked in the direction of the new voice, your eyes were met with Loki’s, who
displayed concern as he continued to stare at you.
You quickly stuffed
your face into Bucky’s chest not wanting him or anyone to see you like this. It
had been awhile since you cried like this and the last thing you wanted was for
the rest of the team to see you this weak.
the only word that could be heard once silence filled the room.
With that said, Loki
felt a hand on his shoulder. It was Natasha.
“You can go to
breakfast, just tell the others that Bucky and I will be with y/n for a little.
It’s all okay.” She explained and made space for him to walk out of the
Loki looked back at you
and saw that Bucky was rubbing your back soothingly.
He did as Natasha said
and informed the others. They didn’t seem to mind it that much, which surprised
Loki. Maybe they had never seen you like that before.
After seeing you so
sad, he knew he was the reason you cried and didn’t show up to dinner or
The day passed by
pretty quickly. Loki was in the library once again, but it didn’t feel right.
It felt more lonely than usual, and he knew why. It’s because you weren’t
Sure, you would ask him
lots of questions, but when you followed him to the library, you knew not to
talk and just sat with Loki and read a book as he did the same.
The god of mischief was
starting to feel more and more disappointed with himself.
When he was walking past
your room, he stopped outside your door and hesitated to knock, but he did it
Your voice called out from behind the door.
Loki opened the door
slowly and walked in. When he looked around the room, he saw you were now
looking much better and was sat on your bed with a plate of fruit next to you,
and a book in your hand.
When you looked up, you
were shocked to see Loki standing there looking at you with a small smile.
“Can I still come
in?” He asked softly, he still stood at the door waiting to see if it was
still okay for him specifically to come in.
You couldn’t respond so
all you did was nod your head at him, He walked in and the door closed behind
He, nor you said
anything. He took slow steps towards you, still making sure if you were okay
with him being there.
You didn’t move at all,
you just sat there looking at him in the eye a he came closer and closer.
When he was finally at
the corner of the bed where you sat, you realized that he was waiting for you
to say something.
“You can sit down,
if you want to.” You whispered, moving a little more to make space for
He sat down and faced
“I just wanted
to… uhm apologize?” He was unsure on how to talk to you. After seeing
you like that this morning, it occurred to him how much his words hurt you and
it definitely stuck to him the entire the day.
He was not someone who
often apologized for his actions.
“It’s okay, I was
at fault for being inquisitive-“ Your words were cut short at Loki who
“No, it really was me
at fault. I am always so rude to you when all you are is nice to me. I know my
words were harsh, but would you be able to forgive me.” He rushed this all out
“Please, you are
already forgiven. I promise.” You grabbed his hands and held it in yours
The small gesture made
Loki’s heart beat faster.
“I don’t deserve to be
forgiven that easily.” Loki muttered sadly.
He was thankful that
you were able to forgive him, your heart was pure.
“We all say stuff we
don’t mean in anger. I understand that. Earlier I just- I just didn’t know why
I felt so sad.” You exclaimed as you squeezed his hands a little.
That was a lie, you had
a soft spot for Loki when you once heard what he went through with his father.
His eyes met yours and
there was a spark of gratefulness in them.
“You looked so upset. I
never saw you like that before.” Loki said honestly.
He hadn’t ever seen you
react to anything that way, you did get upset at certain things, but he never
saw you like that before.
“Nobody has, only Bucky
and Natasha. You see… “ You wanted to tell him the aspect of yourself that no
one besides your closets friends knew about.
“When I lost my
parents, apart of me went along with them.” You continued.
Loki instantly felt regret
settle upon him. He was the cause of your greatest lose.
“Love, you don’t have
to.” He didn’t want to make you relive those sad moments.
You didn’t miss the pet
name he just called you, but you continued with what you were going to say.
“It’s okay, I can
manage it. Could you please… hold me though?” You asked softly. You needed to
be embraced when speaking about this. It’s not easy for you to talk about, but
you needed to do it if you wanted to overcome this.
“Of course.” He wrapped
his arms around you and pulled you to his chest. He was settled against your
pillows and was careful to not knock over you plate of fruit.
“Thank you.” You
replied softly, you knew Loki wasn’t one to display any sort of affection, so
it came as a surprise when he wrapped his arms around you without hesitation.
“When Natasha brought
me in, and I met all the Avengers I was very hesitant in getting to know
everyone in fear of losing someone who would be important to me. Natasha
personally knew what this was like, so she helped me. Then when Bucky came
along, I knew he was lost, and I wanted to help him. He slowly started to open
up and we became really close friends. That’s why I always go to him or Natasha
when I need someone, they know what it’s like. That changed when I met you, I
knew you were different from everyone said about you.” You turned to look at
Loki as you said the last part.
Truthfully, Loki was
shocked at your words because he understands what its like to not have someone
there. Sure, Frigga was a loving mother, but she couldn’t always be there when
he needed her.
Which is why he closed
himself off and avoided anyone that tried to be nice to him, specifically you.
There were times where he wished he could tell you how he feels about certain
things, just to have someone there to listen to him.
“Y/n if I had known. It
would all be so different. I just… ” He started to say, but you shushed him
when you saw he was struggling to put how he felt into words.
“Shh, it’s okay. I know,
I just wanted to make you comfortable enough to talk when you needed someone.
My approached wasn’t the best, but at least now we both know. I want you to
know I’m here when you need someone.” You turned to hug him. His arms still
wrapped around you.
This was all new to
him, but he welcomed it happily.
“As I am here for you
love.” He held you close to him. No words were exchanged after that. The two of
you just basked in the presence of each other.
From that day onwards
it was different. You and Loki were almost always together. Sharing how you
felt and being there for each other. That closeness one day became something
more, and you both happily accepted it.