#MAN WHY ARE YOU CRYING WHAT THE HELL

[idk-bruh-20]

Irondad fic ideas #139

NWH AU where Tony's been in a coma this whole time. He still is. But the world thinks he's dead.

One day, Rhodey is in some science place (maybe SI, maybe a community college where he was giving a speech?) and he sees this kid tinkering who looks exactly like Tony Stark. The teen Tony Stark from when he first met him at MIT. Even down to the mannerisms. He goes up and has a brief conversation with this stranger, just curious. Then he leaves.

Unbeknownst to the kid, Peter, Rhodey managed to grab something for a DNA test. The kid just looked too much like his best friend. Like seeing a ghost

When they analyze the DNA, they learn that this kid is in fact Tony's biological son

Rhodey goes back to find the kid, this time bringing Happy. Peter gets to have the super fun conversation where two people who should know him but don't tell him that the person he saw as a father was his actual father, only it's too late

They convince Peter to come with them eventually. And Peter gets the shock of his entire life

Over the next little while, at Tony's bedside, Peter gets to know Morgan (who he would've seen as a sister anyway but this is insane). He also gets reacquainted with Rhodey, Happy, and Pepper, who all admittedly find him a bit sus with how much he seems to know.

But...this is Tony's kid. His son. So they let him be there, let him talk to Tony and hold his hand. 

Finally, finally, Tony wakes up.

And it turns out, being in a coma and thought dead by the entire world, including wizards, makes one exempt from certain magic

Bonus:

As he sits by Tony's bedside, Peter has to grapple with a lot of emotions. One of them is the realization that he was never actually related to Uncle Ben, which makes him feel like his uncle and aunt died for nothing

Pepper helps him through it. Even not knowing him the way she once did, she knows plenty about guilt complexes and chosen family. She assures Peter that he's still a Parker, no matter what, and that his aunt and uncle wouldn't have given him up for the world

Another thing Peter deals with is the fear of Tony waking up and not knowing him. It breaks his heart just thinking about it.

Cue THE most relieving hurt/comfort reunion ever imagined

#peter (crying): you remember me? #tony (also crying): obviously?? I did all this to bring you back #ironfam: the hell tony?? why didn't you ever tell us you had a son?!?! #tony: what? you guys know peter.. #irondad fic ideas #irondad and spiderson #miscommunication and confusion continue until they finally get through to tony that peter is not just his emotional son #he is also his biological son #tony: ...HOW has this not come up before??? kid we did all those tests on your freaky spider dna- #entire room: YOUR SON IS SPIDER-MAN?!?! #iron dad and spider son #tony stark #peter parker #nwh fix-it #endgame who? #ironfam #tony once he somehow restores FRIDAY'S files and discovers she literally did run a paternity test: why didn't you tell me this hon? #FRIDAY: all data indicated that you already knew and were acting as peter's father #queueueueue #weekly reminder that i love you all but am too busy to be human :) #fic ideas still postponed but you can send asks if you want i just won't see them for a while #see announcements

[wawataka]

if you still don’t believe that teru naturally has bad fashion sense i need you to look at this and look me in the eyes and say that again

#mob psycho 100 #mp100 #teruki hanazawa #crying real tears #what is wrong with you #i was about to go to sleep #now i’m gonna be thinking about this for the next hour #mf should’ve stayed in the closet what the hell man #the fucking heels…. #okay but in all seriousness #ONE’s style has been really improving #i feel like his anatomy has definitely gotten better #like before he focused on dynamic it seemed but his anatomy’s gotten good too #it’s just. why do you have to show it with teru. god. #this is all /lh btw

[todayisafridaynight]

i HAVE to keep the daigo plush locked away lest i squeeze it every five minutes to alleviate the cuteness aggression i feel whenever i see it

#snap chats #being without my computer charger has been maddening #that makes me sound terminally online and its because i am. its also cause all i ever wanna do is draw :(( #AND I ESP WANNA WORK ON MY COMMS NOOOOO FUCK #i mean i was at least able to read through yakuza’s bias vol 2… so theres that… #MY SCHOOL STORE DIDNT HAVE LAPTOP CHARGERS i had to order one… hopefully it gets here Overnight like i asked….. if not ill kill #anyway. daigo plushie so cute :(((((((((((((((( #mine cute too but theres just something especially squeezeable about daigo #alas.. thats what the aoki plush’ll be for. my personal stress toy ☠️☠️☠️☠️ #lowkey i wish i also got ichi but then i remenbee they made him pale as all hell and Yeah Im Not Putting Money To That #THE SMALLEST BIT OF A TAN I BEG YOU RGG WHY IS HE SO PALE IT DONT LOOK RIIIIGHT :(((( #anyway.. i have my last class in half an hour… lemme drink this tea… #also Lowkey obsessed with my outfit today.. its that butterfly shirt + gold accessories since theyre monarch butterflies #tho Lowkey 2x the black and yellow remind me of the watase blokes from gaiden…… wack….. #ok bye its tea time #help one of my roommates just came home and she just announces like. ‘man those edibles were. OUGH’ #calling my dad to pick me up nooo im a lame straight edge dont talk about drugs around me ill scream and cry LMAO #ok im done byebye lemme drink this good god

[trainerbob23]

Kirby bootleg plush moment

#kirby #kirby series #kirby plush #Magolor #hoshi no kirby #bootleg #why tf is daroach butchered so badly #like the fucking eyes for crying out loud #marx #he looks so weird #what the hell man #galacta knight #He be like #🤨 #like bro really #i could go on and on but i think you get my point

[goingbuggy]

I think you have best theories in the fandom about shanks. It’s like you see more than most of us. So that’s why to just have simple yes or no answer would be enough. I have this level of trust in you.

Do you believe makinos child is shanks or someone’s else?

I just can’t stop thinking about this, because for me I don’t see it, but it’s so popular I feel stupid or blinded by my other ships.

thank you for your kind words!! you probably shouldn't place this must trust in me though, LOL. i'm just reading and overthinking everything in the source material, like everyone else is.

is it possible that shanks has a child with makino? well.. yeah. to put it bluntly, the simplest answer is usually the right answer with oda. he's already established that makino and shanks are friendly from chapter one, and shanks is even seen dressed up for a wedding on one cover page, which oda sometimes uses to tell canon events that don't fit the flow of the current arc. (think of enel's journey to the moon, for example).

me personally, though? i've got beef with this idea, and not for the reasons you might think. makino and shanks as a couple is fine to me; i don't find their relationship all that compelling, truthfully, but they fit the mold for most of oda's canon pairings.

when it comes to shanks' characterization, though, the idea of him having a child at this point in the story strikes me as both offputting and irrelevant. shanks is an emperor, and given his actions, his current responsibilities are clearly the priority. so the thought of shanks leaving makino alone to take care of their child is... strange? his status has the potential to endanger them. he is surely too preoccupied to be sailing back and forth to see them.

you could argue that this parallels roger and rouge, but i also think that's the worst possible way oda could have shanks mirror his old captain. at least in roger's case, oda had ace become a relevant part of luffy's story. what narrative purpose does this serve? is it to humanize shanks? i'm not quite sure what oda's angle is, here.

we also have to consider shanks' past. shanks left uta behind, so i don't think he is "above" leaving his newborn child, so to speak, but his reasoning in that situation was far more complex. here, though? this would be shanks ACTIVELY choosing to bring a child into this world, knowing full well he cannot take care of it until he sees his goals through. (SHANKS? patient, protective shanks, unable to wait to start a family? the boy who was an abandoned child himself? does he not believe that he will live long enough to wait? if so, why would he leave makino with that responsibility at all? characters can make selfish decisions, but i can't see any reasoning from shanks' perspective. this is a problem to me.)

so, in short, no, i'm not exactly a fan of this theory. i just don't see the merit of adding it to the story, when the implications seem to contradict what we know about his character. and again, what is the narrative benefit that outweighs the faulty logic? what do we gain as readers? what does this do for the story? to me, it feels like nothing at all.

#tldr; 'why is the author acting like he knows so much lol' #oda. PLEASE explain #because i just cannot see it #not in the way i could understand shanks' reasoning when he left uta #i also think this decision undermines uta's entire existence #it gives the impression that shanks is. idk. unaffected? #parents are allowed to process the deaths of their children and move on #but we have never once seen shanks process any losses in his life. hell we don't even the poor man CRY #and so as a result this writing choice just feels.. sloppy #it skips over the potential for depth #if you are going to add lore to a character's story... give it the proper weight it deserves. let uta's memory haunt shanks. shape him #don't just write her in to write her off. otherwise what's the point? #ask #long post

[lottalove01]

rant <3

#so i told my friend im thinking abt engaging more in my christian community again starting w going to church more and visiti g exchanges etc #she kniws abt basically all my other friends being more than less religious and active in their respective communities #+ my family being religious even during soviet times and she even kniws abt the orthodox side of my family #so this shouldnt surprise her this much #why is she trying to talk me out of it saying christianity is evil and she cant agree to creationism like ok bitch me too #she acting as if im gonna become some republican american blonde woman or an primitive medieval peasant wthhh #and like i get it she and her family have always been agnostic and she doesnt have any personal experience with believe and faith #but that is even more reason to shut the hell up?? especially bc i just told her as like a life update i didnt want to start a discussion #w an agnostic no less #ppl like that make me so uncomfortable and then she kept saying things like this person is godless as a joke like stfu??? #and kept bringing up she csnt believe in god at random times it made me so umcomfortable #especially bc now i feel hesitant to invite her to hangouts w my more 'strict' friends like idk what she thinks abt them and i dont want to #expose my friends who have to listen to enough shit to someone like that like i want my home to be a safe space for my friends #anyways thats the same girl who keeps telling me she doesnt think im white and when i tell her her saying this makes me uncomfortable #shes argues its ok bc she is not white herself ok wth im literally german/slavic how is that not white im crying #cant really articulate what exactly makes me uncomfy abt this but feels like she wants to enable me its really weird #also with tge christian stuff like ive always been religious she kniws abt me reading religious texts its so weird to me #why are you my friend if you disagree with a foundamental part of my life #maybe she thoight i was an ok one bc me and my familys approach to believe and faith is very relaxed but wth man

[handgf]

it’s like no one gives a flying fuck to how I FEEL

#i’m so sick of this #either i’m the cruelest person on the earth or the stupidest #bc WHY tell me WHY everytime i’m in a fight w my mother #IM THE ONE TO BLAME #like can i just fuckinh move out #it’s always like this i’m so fucking done w this #id rather be cruel bc at least i acknowledge my emotional MY FEELINGS #it’s like i fucking can’t go thru shit without somehow offending her #it’s like everything is ABOUT HER AND EVERYONE IS OUT TO GET HER #like what the fuck man #i’ve been feeling overwhelmed since the weekend #but nope how can i ignore her god forbid right #like it’s not like for once someone else is upset w u #god her idealogy that she’s never in the wrong is fucking annoying i’m so fucking done #like i wish i could just tell her for once THAT YOU ARE WRONG BC YOU ARE #she doesn’t even take a second to point that someone else is wrong #but oh god if u do that to her oh my god iys just fucking #she’s a great mom but fucking hell #everytime i get even a little emotional a little moody #it somehow always ends up w her crying taht she’s doing so much she’s struggling so much and i’m just dumb wit #i need to get out . like desperately #i don’t care if i suffer more id at least be able to suffer #AT LEAST SHOW MY EMOTIONS #without i don’t somehow someone else making it all abt themselves

[hauntingblue]

YAMATO NEW NAKAMA PLEASE 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🧎🏻‍♀️🧎🏻‍♀️🧎🏻‍♀️🧎🏻‍♀️LUFFY PLEASE!!!!

#do kaido and big mom end up in the same hole??? lmaoo yamato get luffy!!! hell yes!!! #now a military trial for all the beast pirates come on!!! everyone to udon jail #APOO IS STILL ALIVE???. FUCK OFF!!!!!!! #i understand law is not on a state to be a medic but marco.... pick up some slack.... #toko :((( no fucking way they are coming out of the hole..... they aren't.... the better not.... #HIYORI!!!! no reunion??? :(( #tama first girl to adopt a mother... also why do they have the same eyes... also is nami not enough for you.... or luffy.... your uncle... #hiyori girl dont kneel.... thats your 8 year old brother.... tama backstory omg.... tama dont cry omg.... she's gonna make me cry too... #izo is dead for real.... he was shown on the dead people highlight reel.... omg.... kinemon looking like a proud dad... #that hiyori and momo reunion.... i need more... what was that.... #episode 1078 #talking tag #watching one piece #who tf is that talking to the cp0... #hawkins is alive.... oh now he regrets it.... now he is dead... well..... #can't believe izo is dead... marco saying he cant believe he is alive... WELL YOU FOUGHT TWO TIMES AND THEM DID FUCK ALL WHILE IZO DIED???? #i am so mad at this man you dont understand. HIYORI DROPKICKED MOMO AJSHAJA YEAHHH!!! #luffy and zoro waking up at the same time... it started with them too... oof #in my bliss of luffy winning and gear 5 and all i hadn't realised my pink haired samurai hasn't appeared in a while... i fear the worst.... #i love how luffy having a meal is animated like a fight... omg zoro too... using his three head technique... #nami being the first to hit momo akdjaks. well deserved also #yamato not bathing or eating for zoro and luffy and hiyori bathing zoro ajdhskjs. omg this looks like sanji is jealous FA- #nami having to think hard about who bathes where lmao sanji and brook need an execution #OTAMA WHAT ARE YOU DOING AJDHSJSHSJ ME ASF ALSO SORRY. also where tf is robin. DID THEY TAKE HER??? oh nvm there is another group... #kid you are so right he is annoying. kill him. come on!!! SAKAZUKI DIE!!!! they just wanna make me mad atp... ALSO WHERE IS ROBIN?? #episode 1079 #why is there a country with a giant picture of sabo in their clock tower lmaoo #luffy looks so little beside yamato omg.... omg soul king brook ft kozuki hiyori rock version.... AND I DONT GET TO HEAR IT???? #robin with her poneglyphs of course.... AND BROOK OWES HER TWO MORE!!!! #MOMOS GRANDFATHER???? AND HE TOOK CARE OF TAMA WHO HAS ORICHIS LAST NAME!!!

[red-might-be-dead]

ju just …..j just wa…tched the …slimecicle vod from f. f……..rom yeste rday. ….

#CRYING #OMFG #WHY THE HELL DID YOU DO THAT TO ME #WHAT THE HELL MAN #TEARS REAL FUCKING TEARS #EEEUUGHHHHH #AAAAAAAUUUUUUGHHHHH #charlie slimecicle #juanaflippa #cries

[cowardlycowboys]

so after 4 mixed drinks I start crying and trauma dumping which is so so fun to learn

#omg kiera no one cares #anyway i feel sick and also sick because i was screaming and crying because boo hoo my dad was mean to me as a child but also #is a very complicated relationship with him because i love him and i know he loves me is just he also has done and said things that is like #i dunno man maybe you don't??? and that's okay??? it's complicated and i hate it why couldn't i have a good nice family #either way vernon when i catch you in hell OH you're gonna pay for what you did

[firebirdsdaughter]

Fucking…

… Fucking Rosa and Balder man.

Other love stories could never.

I know it’s probably not true bc Lore, but I’d love to think that wherever they are, they’re together now.

#Bayonetta #Romance #Spoilers #I can see why some people might not like the plot of 2 #but I for one ADORE those developments #I think Balder being noble and self sacrificing to a fault makes him a more interesting character than 'the Sages were evil hurr durr' #like the man's a fucking dumbass but by gods he loved his wife #they make me cry #I gotta wonder if when the angels were like 'the witches are rebelling!' he was like #maybe I can use this to free Rosa and we can just run w/ Cereza or something #I know that witches get dragged to inferno and who the hell knows what's meant to happen to Sages #plus there's Loptr's influence maybe messing things up #but them being together in death is just reassuring to me? #I want to believe it #Things You Didn't Know Fire Was Into

[castielmacleod]

Very picky about how people write reconciled Crowley and Rowena and even MORE picky over how people write reconciled Cas and Claire. These are the two absolutely devastating spn relationships that you just do not fuck around with in my opinion. Reconciliation plots for them can be done well but if you’re going in on either dynamic without giving the experience of both sides equal consideration then as a writer you have already lost

#If you don’t acknowledge the tragedy on both sides of these relationships you’re simply writing nothing imo #Maybe one side had it far worse than the other but if you don’t at least recognise the feelings of the other side #I think you’re doomed to fail. If your goal is to depict them or explore their dynamic in a way that matters anyway #Obviously if you’re writing self-indulgent wish fulfilment for your own subjective enjoyment you don’t necessarily need to go deep #I’m talking about intentional character studies and such #My posts #Not that Cas and Claire isn’t the most fucked up relationship of all time but I also get why Crowley and Rowena can be trickier #Because getting possessed by angels is Not Real and parental child neglect very much is #Few people can balance acknowledging the hell Rowena went through with not being an abuse apologist for what happened to Crowley #Her mistreatment of him was not a “girlboss moment” like as much as Ruth NAILS the delivery of thee career woman line it’s really not funny #in context. #She later acknowledged the harm she caused him and put real visible effort into becoming a better person #which makes her easily one of the best characters on that whole sorry miserable show but #That still doesn’t mean the way she neglected and mistreated and abandoned Crowley was okay. #(Even SHE knows it wasn’t okay. Who are you pretending it was okay for? Not her!) #But if your brain is wrinkly enough you can also recognise that Rowena was young and was herself was horrifically abandoned #and traumatised by that abandonment to the point where she equated loving ANYTHING with being weak and at someone else’s mercy #which she was so desperately scared of feeling ever again. #AND that she is just not a maternal person who had maternity sprung upon her and then was left high and dry with zero support #and a crying screaming piece of the man who did all this to her. A crying screaming piece of HER that she was too terrified to risk loving #And then when she *did* find people who’d support her they came after her for having a child at all. And she made a choice #You can recognise ALL of this without acting like Crowley wasn’t fucked up for LIFE by her #She was fucked up for life by Crowley’s father as it was. And again it doesn’t make it ok but acknowledgement ≠ apologism #Anyway christ I could write essays about the MacLeod cycle of abandonment so I’ll leave it there #I’m saying all this as someone who loves all four characters mentioned in this post with my entire heart by the way #Which is definitely why I feel so strongly when people write the dynamics while clearly partial to one or the other. They all deserve nuance #To me

[theinfinitedivides]

my f*cking God he's done it again!!!!!!

#ben howard #is it? #RADIATION OF THE CHERENKOV KIND!!!!!!!! #I'D WAIT FOREVER IF THEY GAVE ME ENOUGH TIME!!!!!!!! #just got through with listening to the full album and holy f*ck. holy f*ck #Days of Lantana. Moonraker. Richmond Avenue. Spirit. #those are my top four off of this come hell or high water every other song fits somewhere in between #do not get me started on how wild Interim of Sense is musically but it works. somehow it f*cking works i don't understand #Total Eclipse is so eerily unnerving as an interlude and still so beautiful to listen to #and the absolute genius that is having Walking Backwards fade out and lead into DOL??????? hello??????? #honorable mention to Life in the Time and Little Plant but uh. DOL is that bitch. i listened to the promo snippet so many times #i started crying when the intro started #i don't know what he put in that song but it is quite possibly the best thing he's written lyrically #Rookery's poetic equivalent from Whiteout on this album even. f*cking insane he is #MAYBE IN A RARE WIND!!!!!!!! MAYBE IN A MONTH OF SUNDAYS!!!!!!!! #MAYBE IN A WAR I'D STILL READ THE WRONG SIGNS!!!!!!!! #anyway this is your cue to get your ass on Spotify/YouTube/whatever the f*ck you use to listen to music #and stream this immediately. literally immediately what are you doing why haven't you heard this man yet

[dennisboobs]

bro, i'm straight-up not having a good time

#his page says 'retardation' unironically lord help me #AND FUCKING. IM SORRY CHARLIE GIRLIES (/GN) BUT YOU CANNOT CITE REDDIT AND TUMBLR FOR CHARLIE'S ASEXUALITY ON THE WIKI #JHBSJHFBKJHFBJHSBFKSHFKHS #it does not matter HOW much 'proof' there is you can't put speculation on a wiki page ://// #i too think hes ace and there's plenty of proof in that deleted scene and several other things he says but. #not the place to make that argument #ada speaks #iasip wiki #most of this is commented out for now while i figure out how to reintegrate ANY minor details that could maybe. potentially. be useful #but for the most part. what the fucking hell is going on w that page man #why was there a section chronicling the times he's masturbated #crying wailing throwing up

[arklay]

did not just think about diana finding al just sitting on their bed holding their wedding photo in his hands after she brings him back, and he's just looking at it, visibly distressed, and the moment she touches his shoulder he starts crying and buries his face against her chest because he thinks he really ruined their relationship. good lord

#leah.txt #pair: ewskers #baby boy she would not have spent years regenerating your body if she hated you i am going to disintegrate i can't do this #i think when his viruses are stable his emotions are very much Not. i think the mutant strain changed specific brain chemistry and he lost #a lot of empathy and just the ability to really feel emotions. he was very numb. he knew he should feel a certain way and emulated that but #he didn't really *feel* and after everything is stable he's feeling things he hasn't in over 10 years and he's also in a very bad state of #mind from everything that's happened so oh boy things aren't going great for them #also numb except like anger. and hatred. he was being turned into a literal killing machine after all. notice how blood thirsty he got? #i have so much post volcano lore for them i can't do this i need to just. explodes. and like they are still working through things ofc (it #takes years) when diana is alerted of activity with the company and even though they go and do all of that like he is still trying to find #himself again and decondition everything spencer and umbrella drilled into his head. they are still evil and scheming don't worry there #besties. and they still think they are better than everyone else. this is fact in their minds. but like. there's a lot going on for him #i put him through a lot of pain and as much as i joke that i want to put him through a blender it actually makes me really sad. he doesn't #need more trauma lmao. yeah he is evil and fucked up but no child deserves what spencer did to him #fictional man making me really sad. i need to wrap him in a blanket #sir why did you have to go and try and kill everyone on the planet whadda hell is wrong with you i'm holding your hand #maybe if your wife was there kissing you then you'd calm down a little bit and not throw yourself into a volcano #not unfolding time coming on shuffle as i type this what is wrong with you spotify i can't go through this right now #i like to see powerful men weak and cry but also he is a ball of trauma and it hurts me #i have Many thoughts about why he did what he did in 5 cause yeah it's out of character for him to follow through with spencer's vision #but i don't think that's what he was doing. kinda hinted a bit at this with that one fight fic but also i have a whole essay somewhere

[cuntwrap--supreme]

Well, he was talking to me again. Now he's gone. Approaching three days now with no word. Legitimately don't understand. How can you be telling someone how much you want them and then not say shit for several days? This is what happened last time he stopped talking to me, too. It's as if he has to go do a hard reset for a week any time he shows vulnerability. I get that so many men are taught that emotions = weakness, but this is wack. Pack that toxic masculinity bullshit up and fucking kiss me already I swear to god.

#leon bitches #like this man knows I'm trans and shit. he doesn't care. but maybe he does on some level and that's why? #i just don't know #all i know is he's fairly conservative so it's weird that he has any interest in me whatsoever #like. i have blue hair - and pronouns! I'm covered in piercings and tattoos. I'm queer as queer can get. yet somehow we like each other? #despite being total opposites? #i think it's a thing of shared trauma and using humor to cope because despite the differences we're basically the same guy #it's bizarre #i don't even care if he doesn't want a romantic relationship with me. i just want him in my life somehow. #i have no problem being friendzoned or whatever. just don't tell me how much you want me and then ghost for a week. the fuck? #the happiest I've been in my adult life is when i was just chilling with him at work #guy knows how to cheer me up in just a few minutes. helps too that he's incredibly attractive and hilarious #and leaving that job felt like a mistake simply for the fact that I'd no longer see him daily #that was what kept me there for years. but the gm was a bitch and i eventually couldn't take it anymore #and i left. and it was 6 months of hell. i drive by that old job somewhat frequently and I'd cry every time #and then my friends insisted we go there one night. and we did. and i got his number. and i thought things were looking up. #and then he said he'd liked me for the better part of two years and i said I'd liked him for about 2.5 years. #i told him he's the only person I've met who I'd willingly sleep with. which isn't a lie. i don't get it but he's different. #and i thought things were looking hopeful. and then he didn't talk to me for a week. #comes back saying i deserve better than him. i say i disagree. shit starts up again. #and now he's gone once more and i feel... nothing. somehow. just empty. #i can't even cry. I'm not sad. i am completely void of everything but the depression and anxiety i can never shake. #he's been everything to me for years now. he's never acted like this. so i just do not get it. #but I'm not giving up on this. i can't. he means too much to me. he's been my inspiration for art and shit too #i think this is the closest I've ever been to being in love with someone truly. I'm not leaving just because he's wanting to be an ass #even though dipping out seems optimal. seems like the logical thing to do. #i had some random woman at a gas station trying to get me to go home with her the other day and i gotta say it was tempting #just so i could feel like i have some control over events happening in my life #but i didn't because what if she was really cool and i didn't want to hurt her by randomly leaving when guy starts talking again? #anyway. been sitting on my kitchen floor writing this for too long now. ass is cramped. im just big sad and don't know what to do