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[mz-pixie]

8 people I wanna know better

Tagged by: @solar-pxwered, @the-smirking-fox, @theancientpowerawoken

Tagging: @kenta-koma/ @kaito-yuki, @qrowbranwenrp, @artillery-blade-master, @mladyofsabertooth/ @canaalberonadrunkenfairy/ @miss-lucy-celestial-princess, @texmexchexmix, @wiltingsnow, @txnkxred, @velveteen-faunus and anyone else that wants to play along.

ONE ( ALIAS / NAME ): Pixie/Mz. Pixie

TWO ( BIRTHDAY ): March 30, 1989

THREE ( ZODIAC SIGN ): Aries

FOUR ( HEIGHT ): 5′3″ (I’m a short little shit. lmao)

FIVE ( HOBBIES ): RP, gardening, reading, music (both listening and playing), cooking, sleeping (yes, that’s a viable hobby), watching tv & movies, going to the salon.

SIX ( FAVOURITE COLOUR(S ): Black, Purple, Grey

SEVEN ( FAVOURITE BOOKS ):  The Great Gatsby, Fahrenheit 451, The Millennium Series, Me Before You. (At present. I have tons of favorite books. Except Gatsby... That will always be my #1 fav. lol)

EIGHT ( LAST SONG LISTENED TO ): Lose it by Kane Brown 

NINE ( LAST FILM WATCHED ): Home Alone

TEN ( INSPIRATION FOR MUSE ): So, I have four muses... 

Vivienne, because I wanted to write a Fairy Tail Fan Fiction so I started with an OC. Then I discovered RP and wanted to build on her character. 

Kagura, because I feel like the poor girl is under appreciated and under rated. Mashima never even gave her a guild mark for God’s sake!!! *end rant* 

Aquarius because I love how damn bitchy and pissy she is all of the time. I feel like Aqua gets a bad rap for her attitude, but she is an unstoppable powerhouse that sacrificed a lot for Lucy. I love her. 

And finally Blake... My beautiful, damaged, amazing little kitty. I adore her and can relate to a lot of what she has gone through. My heart breaks for her and I feel like she has had a rough start and she deserves as much love as possible.

ELEVEN ( MEANING BEHIND YOUR URL ): Depends on which one you ask about...

mz-pixie: Pixie has been my online “identity” and alias for well over 12 years now, so I wanted to just keep using it.

@crystaldragonslayer:  Self explanatory. Viv is the Crystal Dragon Slayer.

@wavesofgravity: Kagura is a gravity mage, and I wanted to play off of how she uses her magic in bursts or waves.

@keyofsacrifice: Anyone who has seen/read the series knows damn well why I picked this url. If not, get caught up and check into the Tartaros arc. I hope you have tissues at the ready.

@midncghtxcat: This one was picked by a friend of mine that has a Yang blog. I started this blog because our group of friends decided to all RP Team RWBY and each url was similar with replacing come vowels with “c” and inserting “x”.

#From the Mun;; #Dashboard Games #8 People I Want to Know Better #I hope it's okay that I tagged you all in this #If not I'm sorry and I will remove you if you need me to

[timeisacephalopod]

Okay I'm gonna be bad and ask for multiple things😬😬. So your top 5 ice cream flavors Top 5 books you love Top 5 fanfics you love Top 5 OTPs(OT3,OTn) & top 5 songs....😊😍😘

Lol a list of lists. Alright here goes an entirely way too long answer lmao (why must I word so much).

Ice Cream Flavors:

1- Cotton candy (yes, I am an actual child)

2- Butterscotch

3- Mint chip

4- Neapolitan (I know technically its 3 flavors in a bowl but still it counts)

5- Vanilla

Top Five Books:

This one is a bit difficult because I don’t read as much as I used to but I’m going to try and avoid things I haven’t read recently because if I include stuff from my teens I KNOW there’s a good chance I’ll hate it now (hello, House of Night series).

1- The Captive Prince series. Its 3 books but I felt it easier to just lump it in as one. Anyone who looks this up- I warn you that the premise sounds absolutely horrible (to give you a warning it includes slavery). But I got the series recommended by someone I can only describe as someone who looks like she teaches Sunday school and is quite liberal so I thought ok, maybe the premise sounds bad but she said it was a political thriller, I’ll give it a shot. So I did and this series is amazing. Prince’s Gambit is such a great book (the second in the series).

2- Anything by Ellen Hopkins. I know I’m cheating here but I love every single book she’s written. My favs of hers include Burned (the sequel is good but the first is better), Identical (holy fuck that book T H R E W me), and Crank, Glass, and there’s a third in that series I can’t remember but they are all SO good. I lived my rebellious teenage phase through Ellen Hopkin’s characters tbh. She is amazing, please look her up.

3- The Harry Potter series (cheating again, I know). I got to the series later than all my peers (I read it at 18) but I am particularly fond of the 6th book.

4- The Hunger Games series. I absolutely love the world, the premise, and the followthrough. Its been forever since I’ve read them, but I know they’d hold up well to memory.

5- Most anything by Laurie Halse Anderson. Twisted is the one I remember the most and I’ll warn that I haven’t read it since I was 15, which probably means its not as good as I remember or much better than I had been able to perceive at that point in life (this is how I feel about Ellen Hopkins- I noticed more when I was older). Wintergirls is also very good and fucking heartbreaking. 

Honorable Mentions: The Vampire Academy series. I dislike Rose/ Dimitri because I never could believe their relationship, but the worldbuilding, characters, and character arcs are fucking amazing. The sequel series has 2 good books but when I read the third I had to roll my eyes and throw the whole thing out. While Mead is amazing at workdbuilding and plot she should probably never be allowed to write romance. Her attempts are clumsy, sad, and strangely sex obsessed to the point where all characterization is lost even when I actually found the couple to be interesting and dynamic before they got together. But the first series has only background romance so its still fantastic. Someone get Mead a romance lesson, if she gets good at it then her books will be so much better.

Top Five Fanfics:

(Another hard one because I spend more time reading than writing oh no!)

1- From You I Cannot Hide by SailorChibi. Its Steve/ Tony and I cannot recommend it enough. The BDSM, the relationship, the writing itself. SC is one of my fav fanfic authors- very talented and this story in particular is one of my absolute favs (though I don’t read any of the age play stuff, not my thing. Still a v talented author though).

2- Merchant King of War and Woe by blakefancier. Its Steve/ Howard, a guilt pleasure of mine that really does not have enough content. Seriously, why do more people not ship this pairing??

3- Don’t Say It by bibliomaniac. Its Steve/ Tony/ Bucky and features autistic non verbal Tony. Hold f u c k this story was amazing. I read the premise and wasn’t sure about it, but at the time I had much love for Tony/Bucky/Steve so gave it a shot. I am very happy I did because its fucking amazing. Please read it.

4- Bell Tolls by esama. I read this a few days ago but holy Christ what a take on soul mate tropes. I love soul mates, but they do hold a great potential for dystopia that’s not capitalized on much and this story really goes above and beyond there. Its not too long but holy damn is it good.

5- Most anything by blue_jack that I’ve read. Usually I’m not overly fond of sex scenes- they often feel needless and overdone. But there’s an expectation in fanfic to write it and for the life of me my asexual ass cannot figure out how to do it. I’m not squeamish about sex or sex related things so I don’t understand my aversion to writing it. Anyways when I looked up advice on how to write sex one of the things I read was to find an author who writes sex well and note what you like about their writing. blue_jack was the author that I found that writes the most interesting, dynamic, and in character sex scenes I’ve read (with a lot of Steve/ Tony). Seriously- its not all ‘insert A tab in B slot’, its focused a lot on character thought as well. This is the kind of sex scene I aspire to write because A- it feels more natural and B- blue_jack is just really good. Like r e a l l y good. Read their things! 

Top Five OTPs:

1- IronPanther who is surprised lmao, no one given the sheer amount of content I write for them.

2- WinterIron. Again I’m sure no one is surprised.

3- IronStrange/ IronQuill pretty much equally

4- Tony/ Rhodey though I should write more of it

5- and, because I feel compelled to write one pairing that’s not an MCU pairing Damen/ Laurent from the Captive Prince series. Their relationship is a fucking RIDE.

Honorable mentions: Tony and literally every marvel character I haven’t mentioned minus like… Thanos and Pepper (no hate to Pep- I just don’t see the romance at all, and it was so hamfisted into the MCU basically only for the purposes of heterosexuality. Pepper deserves better, preferably Natasha tbh, and Tony obviously belongs with like Rhodey or something). Tony/Bucky/ T’Challa is an interesting pairing I want to explore more as well. Tony/Bucky/ Steve is another long standing pairing I like. Sam/ Bucky or Sam/Steve too- I love Sam with either character, but not both at the same time. Sam/ Rhodey is also very cute, as well as Sam/ T’Challa. Hope/ Rhodey is another unexpected preference of mine that I’ve included in a few things. I ship like 95% of the MCU with itself minus pretty much any canon pairing (as IF Hope would ever date Scott- she’s way too competent for him. She should be with Pepper or something, or literally anyone but Scott or Tony tbh).

Extra Bonus Points to all my BroTPs that are too long to list, but also basically consists of the MCU with itself tbh. 

Top Five Songs:

1- Gamekeeper by Jessie Reyez. Its fucking amazing.

2- Colors by Halsey. (Also Gasoline)

3- Mz Hyde by Halestorm

4- Hit and Run by LoLo

5- The World is Ugly by My Chemical Romance (among a lot of others).

Honorable mentions: Fall Out Boy’s last 3 albums. They got some bangers ok.

[morganshayz]

I have struggled with true happiness for most of my life.  My childhood has some good parts, but if I really think about it, I can make myself see it for what it truly was.  My father caused a lot of pain for my family.  I don’t talk about it much because when you tell people they don’t realize how bad it actually was.  They weren't there.  I had a very brief moment of actual happiness for I don't even know how long.  It’s really just a small group of memories.  Sleepovers at the air force base with my friends, sneaking to the playground after base curfew to talk in the tunnels and slides, writing stories together, all reading the same books at the same time, me being introduced to anime, car washes with my best friend every Wednesday, youth night at church, and going to the movies together.  Then everything just got bad.  

All of my friends became very close with each other and formed mini groups out of our single group and some got boyfriends and I tried so hard to keep all of it together.  I was the glue.  I made sure we all still met up for movies and sleepovers.  All of junior year to the beginning of my senior year in high school was hell on earth.  Three of my closest friends became their own little group and kept secrets between the three of them.  One of the girls within that many group entered into an abusive relationship.  She is now moving in with him this summer.  I got into a fight with one of the other three girls at the end of my first semester of high school because I told her that I could feel her pulling away from me and that I really missed her.  She got angry and we just decided to agree to disagree on the subject. Things are still different between us.  The last girl in that group was never that close with me in the first place anyways.  My best friend “fell in love” and changed religions for the guy and that caused a HUGE shift in our relationship.  She quit talking to me and pretty much left me for dead.  We are roommates now, but EVERYTHING is different now and it will never be the same again.  Another friend graduated the year before us, he is at the same college as most of us, but he has a girlfriend now and every time I try to plan something with him he either won't answer me or says he can't because he has other plans.  

All of these people are so very precious to me.  They were my family when my real family couldn’t be.  I will always love and care about them so much.  They are still great people.  MA (the girl moving in with her horrible boyfriend) is so sensitive and sweet.  She always tries to listen to everyone’s needs and help in any way possible.  She also tries really hard to not rock the boat.  She is trying to get into film school to do animation.  NG (the girl who pulled away) is so extroverted.  She loves people.  She’s loud and obnoxious at times.  She is the most frugal person and also one of the most beautiful people on the planet and she is currently studying to be a nurse.  MB (the girl I’m not close with) is very logical and has a very different sense of humor.  She can get stressed and overwhelmed pretty easily, but she’s pretty in tune with other people and gives amazing advice.  She (finally) got her first job.  HS (my best friend) is a hopeless romantic, she loves art and journals and wash tape.  She is hella organized and just always has her shit together.  She can also be pretty negative and has a sense of entitlement.  She loves movies and Maroon 5 and the idea of being in love, marriage, and sex.  JW (the guy friend) is one of the most emotional and caring guys I have ever met.  He feels so much and tries so hard to make sure everyone is okay.  He is very practical and realistic.  He wants a very mediocre life. He says so all the time.  He can take jokes a little too far on occasion, and be a prick to girls he isn't dating (because we become like guy friends to him).

In between all of this, I met two of my very best friends my senior year of high school.  They showed me what friendship is actually supposed to be like. I was always giving for these people because of how much I cared about them, but they never gave anything back.  They left me empty and alone in the long run.  No matter what, I will still be there for them though.  It’s just not in me to leave people that I love so much.  Even if it is toxic.  TN (friend I made senior year) has been one of the best people I have ever had the honor of knowing.  He has blessed my life in so many ways.  He cared about me when no one else did.  He saw me when I was not okay.  He actually listened. He didn’t try to offer advice or tell me how easily fixed all my problems were.  He just sat there and listened even when I talked about things he knew absolutely nothing about. I will always view him and the best and healthiest friendship I have ever had.  KS (the other friend i met senior year) is a lot of things.  She can be a little bossy and opinionated, but it was because she cared.  Every once in awhile advice she gave came off as more of an insult or a demand, but she was still there for me when others weren't.  She had her good days and bad days and no one can really blame her for that.  She would send me pins and text me at 4am just to say something completely random and ridiculous.  She was just a breathe of fresh air in my life.  She really helped me start to move out of being a doormat for others and for that I will forever be grateful.  Both of these people have since fallen in love and have wonderful lives they are building for themselves and trust me they deserve it more than anyone else I have mentioned.  They made me come up out of whatever I was stuck in for a year.  

But now that it’s back to just me, I have gotten so much worse.  I can’t even bring myself to shower most days or do my homework.  I sleep in most of my classes no matter how much sleep i get even though I've taken out thousands of dollars in loans for college.  I binge eat every single meal I eat.  I don’t do anything productive ever.  I just sit and stare and lay in bed doing nothing.  Life doesn’t feel worth it.  Everyone around me has found their thing whether it’s a career, major, significant other, whatever and I have found nothing.  There is no reason for me to be here.  I do have a major but I won’t make much money doing it and it makes me question whether I can actually do it.  The only thing I have to look forward to right now is AKon.  That’s it. I don’t know how I'm going to pull myself up this time.  I just can’t do it.  I don’t know what its like to look forward to my own life.  Every year it just gets worse and worse.  I thought going  to college would make it better, but it has made everything way worse than it was.  I have made no new friends, I am drowning in homework, I make barely enough money to feed myself on days the caf is closed and to get gas.  I don’t even own any jeans right now because I can’t afford them.  I gained like ten pounds in a month.  I can’t replace my makeup so I can’t even get ready and practice self care.  The caf has no healthy food except salads and canned fruit.  I don’t have enough time to do laundry.  I can’t go to bed on time.  My libido is all over the place all the time.  My roommate won’t let me turn the a/c on and I am dying.  I am also incurably sad.  All of those things stress me out and then I feel like there’s no point.  Why am I even here? I have nothing and no one.  I don’t know what to do or how to fix all of this.  

       I never wanted this to happen

       Never wanted this to die

       But I’ve pushed myself down so far

       I couldn’t come back if I tried

-MZ