#Madamelibrarian's Writing

[themadamelibrarian]

Perfect to Me

Rating: Mature Relationships: Gabriel/Sam, Sabriel Additional Tags: Body Image issues. Belly worship. Chubby Gabriel.  Summary: When Sam touches Gabriel’s less than perfect abs, the only thing that goes through his mind is how repulsive it must be for Sam to be with someone like him. Now all Sam has to do is figure out why his angel is shrinking from him before he spirals too deep. If you want to be tagged on future fic postings drop me an ask to let me know you want to be added the Library Card list. People who are over 18 years old and are added to the list legit get a Library card aesthetic. No matter what reaction you may have, like the posts of the fics if you thought they were worth the click. Reblog if you think they need to be spread like flower seeds in spring. And of course, feel free to leave a comment on here or AO3. Tagging: @copperseraphim​ @thenanahunter​ @truxblooded​ @lucibae-is-dancing-in-hell​​

Sam’s favorite thing to do was to take the time to worship Gabriel's stomach. placing small kisses and nibbles as he reveled in how that part of his boyfriend was soft and warm, yet he could feel the muscle under the slight pudge.

Now Gabriel wasn’t shy about most things but for some reason, he was shy about this.No one could blame him for it either. He’d seen Sam naked. He knew what the boy was packing. How could anyone compare to that kind of firm sleekness? 

Squirming, Gabriel tried to think about how Sam's lips felt as they moved over his body, but his mind kept coming back to that squishy bit. How Sam must be repulsed and just paying attention out of pity. 

Sam could sense something was off, so he stopped and looked up at his angel with concern. "Gabe. What's wrong?" 

Gabriel swallowed nervously and looked down at Sam with a forced smile, "Nothing, pudding pop. I'm fine."

"No. You're really not." Sam said as he crawled up until he was face to face with him, "Talk to me. It's okay if you're not in the mood." 

"I'm in the mood. So in the mood. I have all the mood." Gabriel deflected with the deft of a fencing champion while trying to grope Sam back into action. 

Sam stayed Gabriel's wandering hands with a gentle grip to his wrists. "Babe, you're not even hard." he whispered, "Did I- did I do something wrong? Hurt you?"

Gabriel's little noise of surprise at that

Gabriel let out a small noise of surprise that Sam would blame himself for this. Of course, who was he fooling, this was Sam Winchester. Willing to take the blame even when it wasn’t warranted. Closing his eyes, Gabriel shook his head in denial. "You didn't do anything wrong." 

"Then what is it?" Sam asked, settling at his boyfriend’s side and touching the bottom of his chin to turn Gabriel's face toward him. 

Pulling away from Sam self-consciously, he drew the covers up to his ribs and rolled onto his side to bury his face against Sam's chest. "It's stupid. I've watched suns burn out and galaxies born. This is just... forget it. I ruined tonight so you might as well get some sleep."

"Gabriel!" he said, the name sounding harsh in his own ears so he tries again but kinder. "Gabriel. You've not ruined anything other than making me worry.  If you don't tell me what's wrong I can't help you." 

The silence dragged on as Gabriel weighed the options. He could brush off the whole conversation and pretend that it was a passing fancy that distracted him. He could make something up or he could come clean about it. The worst that could happen was that Sam would be so irritated at his lack of confidence that he left. Then Gabriel wouldn't be any worse off than he was a few years ago. Right? That's when he really imagined what it would be like without Sam. Without the thousand-watt smile when Gabriel took him to see some part of the world a Winchester wouldn't ever see by his own means. A life without the presence of the human space heater in his bed. Warming everything until even Gabriel's wings were lax and spread wide for more. A life of perpetual solitude without Sam's loving shadow surrounding him. "It's my stomach." Gabriel whispered, "My vessel. I don't like it and I don't understand why you do either. It's... awful and I can't change it."

Sam was stumped for a bare second before he pressed a kiss to Gabriel's forehead and wrapped him up in his arms. "I'm sorry. If it makes you uncomfortable then I won't draw attention to that part of you but for what it's worth, I think it's beautiful. Just like the rest of you. There isn't an inch of your vessel that I don't find attractive in some way."

"Don't bullshit a bullshitter," Gabriel grumbled. 

"I'm not. It'd insult both of our intelligence." Sam pressed another kiss just shy of Gabriel's ear and whispered, low and sultry, "Haven't you ever wondered why I like when you pull me up against your chest while you're fucking me? It's because I can feel every inch of you against me and in me."

Lifting his gaze to meet Sam's, Gabriel looked for any trace of some kind of deception. Even if it was Sam trying to make him feel better but that's not what he saw. There was the most beautiful man in all of creation looking at him with complete adoration. Pressing their lips together in a gentle, silent thanks for showing him the love he needed. Because he may not be able to look at himself and see something he liked but he could try to see himself through Sam's eyes. Maybe with time, he'd see the beauty that was so apparent to the man.

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[mamaredd123]

The finale?!?!?!

How about a writing challenge where you rewrite the final episode?

Anyone game?

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[cr-noble-writes]

Title: Watching You

Pairing: Destiel

Square Filled: Arranged Marriage

Characters: Dean Winchester, Castiel Novak

Warnings:  NSFW, Smut, Deansturbation, Casturbation, non-con voyeurism, mutual masturbation, first time, arranged marriage

Summary: Dean Winchester and Castiel Novak barely knew each other when they were forced to marry by a legal contract between their respective fathers. That was a month ago, and though they’ve been sharing a bed for that entire time, they have yet to consummate the marriage. But Castiel can’t deny his new husband is sinfully hot, and the more time they spend together, the more he thinks he’s falling for him. But Dean never gives any indication that he might feel the same way. Until one night when he thinks Castiel is asleep.

Author’s Note:  Written for @spnkinkbingo 2019. A short PWP inspired by my lovely friend @malmuses. A huge thanks to @envydean for beta reading for me, especially since I never write in the present tense.

Read it on AO3 here

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[atc74]

Challenge on the horizon...

A sneak peek??

I am very close to 3k and this will be the challenge to show just how fierce females (and this fandom) can be.

Rules & Guidelines (in advance)

This is a follower celebration. You must be following me to join.

This challenge is limited to 18 writers only and will be first come first served. 

All genres are are allowed, but this is a Supernatural challenge ONLY. 

Your primary character must be a strong, fierce female. Pairings are allowed (not required), but SHE must be the focus of the fic.

Just throwing it out there (in advance). Asks to join will not be accepted until I officially hit 3k. 

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#ang hits 3k #almost #pre-celebration

[manawhaat]

Happy Fanfic Writer Appreciation Day, my loves. You’re all amazing and I hope you know that your words have somehow affected my life. Thank you for spending your time creating the stories that help keep me keepin’ on. Thank you for sharing your art, for sharing the part of yourself that you put into your fics. Thank you! 

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[supernaturallymarvellous]

Bring Him Back

Author Note: this is my entry for Beka’s Angsty Story Drabble Challenge.  The prompt I chose is in bold below.  The challenge was to write an angst drabble of less than 500 words and hopefully break some hearts and cause a few tears.  @impala-dreamer - hope you enjoy this!

Characters: Dean x Reader

Word Count: 300

Warnings: Angst, major character death

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The concrete was freezing under your knees but you barely felt it.  The numbness that was gathering in your legs was pushed away along with the pain coming from the wound in your side.  The only thing you could feel at the moment was overwhelming grief. 

“Y/N.  We need to move.  It’s too dangerous to stay here any longer.” The voice coming from above you belonged to Castiel and although you didn’t want to listen to the words he was saying, you knew that he was right.  The demons that had been hunting every single one of you ever since Crowley had been expelled from Hell would no doubt be back any minute, their job having been left temporarily unfinished.  Despite that, you found yourself unable to move, your body seemingly unwilling to leave the position you currently found yourself in.  A second figure dropped to his knees beside you, an arm carefully threading itself around your waist and carefully pulling you to your feet.  Crowley.  You knew without even looking at him that it was Crowley. As soon as you were standing, you forced yourself to look at them. Through tears, you choked out a handful of words. “You bring him back right now!  Either of you – just work whatever magic you have and bring him back to me......please." You knew that asking was an exercise in futility but you kept repeating yourself, kept asking them to bring him back....begging them to stop your heart from breaking. It was Crowley that finally broke. He inhaled deeply and placed each hand firmly on your shoulders. Looking you right in the eye, he uttered the words that ripped your world apart. "I'm sorry but there's nothing anyone can do. We have to face facts. Dean's gone.  He’s dead."

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[spnbaby-67]

When you love a Winchester

A/n: This is my entry for @oneshoeshort‘s #Feeling30Birthday Challenge. I have to apologize, my brain is not wanting to work with me. So if it sounds lame I’m sorry in advance. THANK YOU so much Liz and Gaynor for your help as well. Your both amazing when it comes to writing and beta’ing. 

Paring; Sam x Reader, Dean mentioned.

Warnings: none that I can think of other than reader being nervous and slightly worried.

word I used was: Knowledge

it’s getting late, and the boys haven’t been home yet. You pace the hotel room, waiting for any signs of them; a text, a call, something. Yet all you get silence, your heart pounding with worry. You hated when you had to stay behind on hunts, especially one like this. It was only a salt and burn, one of your personal favorite because of how easy they were.  But Dean insisted that you stay behind as he didn’t want you to get hurt. But yet here you were, worrying about them being hurt while not receiving any communication.

“Damn it you Winchesters, your going to be the death of me,” you sighed angrily.

You decided you’d had enough waiting around and took out your phone to shoot Sam a text.

“Where the hell are you two, this better not be some kind of a damn joke. Answer me!”

With no immediate response, you threw your phone across the room and resumed your furious pacing.

You and Sam Winchester had been dating for about four months officially, two months prior unofficially.  Neither one of you had a clue as to what that meant. You figured becoming “official” meant going steady. However, according to Sam, he just said it wasn’t announced to the world yet. You had to laugh at his crazy thoughts, but loved his quirky ways.

You continued your pacing, stopping every few seconds to listen to the cars outside, hoping it was Baby. At every disappointment it wasn’t her, another frustrated sigh left your body. You knew Baby’s engine from a mile away, but your nerves were getting the best of you that night. You never got tired of listening to her; it was music to your ears whenever Dean started her up. You had many memories in that car; you couldn’t imagine forgetting anytime soon.

On a road trip, she would lull you to sleep in the back seat when you traveled far from the bunker. She was your shelter on rainy nights. You even had memories of you and Sam together a few nights that you’d never tell Dean about. God if he only knew, you thought. You shook your head at the visual in your mind’s eye. You couldn’t help the smile that came through. But it quickly turned into a frown when you remembered you were still alone with no sign of the boys.

You started to open the motel room door, but Dean’s warnings stopped you. “Don’t open the door while we are gone, you never know who could be out there ready to come in.”

But you couldn’t help it! The room was getting stuffy, nearly suffocating you. Even if it was just opened for a moment, you’d still be happy. The rainfall became harder, vicious thunder vibrating the ground. Lightning flashed in the windows, lighting up the place; it caused you to jump. You swore you felt the earth move. You went back to sit on the bed you shared with Sam. Despite being a bed hogger and a built in heater, nights like these you wouldn’t be opposed to his tendencies.

“Damn it Sam, call me,” you repeated desperately, looking at your phone again.

Tears were building but you will not let them fall. You refused to show any weakness should they return soon. Seeing headlights shine in the window, you jumped up. Hearing Baby's engine, you felt relief wash over you. Your boys were back!

You sat back down on the bed and waited for them to enter. The first thing Sam saw was your head in your hands. He rushed over towards you, removing your head from your hands and lifting your chin to face him in a single motion. He wiped away a small tear as it ghosted out of the corner of your eye.

“Hey Y/N, what's wrong?” His voice was velvety smooth and caring.

“I….” you hiccuped, “….was worried. You didn't answer my text.” Your voice betrayed you, scared and frantic.

“You thought something had happened to us.” He wasted no time taking your head into his hands, kissing your forehead gently. His smile brought you out of your stooper in an instant.

“Yes. God Sam, you are so knowledgeable when it comes to how I feel.” you sighed into your own smile, Sam’s beautiful face glowing. He knows me so well, you thought.

“I should be Y/N; we’ve been dating for 4 months.” His smile brought out his dimples; it practically knocked the wind out of your chest.

You laughed as he kissed you gently. Until now, it escaped your notice that both brothers were battered with bruises and cuts. You didn’t hesitate to grab the first aid kit as Dean called the first shower.

“Sorry I didn't text back. We were really busy. The hunt went wrong, way more than just a typical salt and burn. It wasn’t just one ghost. Dean and I had to salt and burn the whole family.” He stopped and looked down at your handy work, smiling.

“I should have been there to help,” you protested as you put the stuff back in the kit. “You know salt and burns are my favorite, I could’ve been useful.” You rolled his sleeve back down, signaling your work was finished.

“We got it done and we’re both okay. I probably smell but c’mere.” He pulls you into a hug, his strong arms closing around you. You felt safe in his arms no matter how long he allowed it. It was proof that he was back with you and not your brain playing tricks on you.

Dean came out of the shower as Sam moved towards the bathroom. You didn’t want to let him go, but you figured in another twenty minutes you’d be back in his arms again for the night.

By the time Sam came out from his shower, you were already changed into your pajamas, ready for bed.  Dean was already snoring softly. When you noticed that he was covered up, you tucked Dean in. The last thing he needed was to catch a cold. The Winchesters were your life; no matter what, you vowed from the start to take care of them.

Wrapped tightly in Sam’s embrace, his chest your pillow, you both fall asleep quickly. It was your favorite place to be; you felt safe and protected. No monsters, bad dreams, or anything bothered you in the arms of your angel.

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[themadamelibrarian]

Daddy's Girl -  Part 2 of Sister Winchester

Rating: General Audiences Characters: John Winchester, Maggie Winchester (OFC), Dean Winchester (Mentioned) Additional Tags: Nightmares, Thunder and Lightning, Good Parent John Winchester, Comfort, Lullabies, Fat Unicorn, I had to add the fat unicorn. they are the best, Winchester Sister, Protective John Winchester Summary: For Maggie the night is dark and full of terrors.

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John started to wakefulness at the feeling of the mattress beside him shifting, followed by the sound of sniffling that was being badly muffled. Turning over he saw his seven-year-old daughter, Maggie, curled up around the overstuffed unicorn toy she called Pudgy and trying to sidle up close to him. John gave a quick glance around the room for any threat that could have sent his little girl running for him. Not seeing anything, he was about to ask Maggie what was wrong when a loud clap of thunder shook the windows, making her clutch her stuffed animal tighter and causing John’s heart to melt. “It’s okay, sweetheart,” John’s deep voice rumbled as he settled into his pillow, pulling her to his chest and making sure they were both well under the comforter, “It’s just a thunderstorm.”

Maggie vehemently shook her head, “Pudgy says there are monsters and they’re gonna eat him.”

“Eat him?” John asked, deciding to go along with her for the time being. He was confident that the salt lines and warding were still in place which would make this nothing but one of her nightmares.

“Yeah. Please don’t let the monsters eat us, Daddy. Please?” Maggie started to cry in earnest, her face buried against his shoulder.

John sat up against the headboard and scooped her up into his lap, holding her tight while petting over her hair, “I won’t let anything get you, Magpie. It was just a nasty dream. Monsters can’t get in the room. I made sure of that before we went to sleep. Remember the salt you and Dean helped put on the floor?”

All Maggie could do was cry as the fear of her nightmares stayed fresh in her mind. It was moments like this that John wished Mary was still living. She’d know how to soothe a little girl's fears of the dark. All he could offer was the cold, hard truth of what was in the night and how to put a bullet in it. As he watched Maggie shake in his arms, he decided to do something he hadn’t done in years. Tilting her back, John cradled Maggie in his arms and started to rock her gently. Clearing his throat he sang softly as the pair looked into each other’s eyes. Later, when Maggie was finally drifting off he liked to think that he could feel Mary there, singing ‘Hey Jude’ right beside him.

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[mamaredd123]

Every Storm Runs Out of Rain

A/N: This one's starts off a little angsty but there's hope. I've been going through some trying to times and this song has been my cornerstone of late. I just had the need to write a little something that I could include this song with. Hope you enjoy! And if you haven’t heard this song, having a tough time, or just need a pick me up, click the link and have a listen! Oh, and a HUGE thanks to @saxxxology  for helping me find the perfect GIF!!!! No beta, so all errors are my own. Feel free to leave feedback. It is greatly appreciated!!

Word count: 797

WARNING: total ANGST with a glimmer of hope

PAIRING: Dean x Reader

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Dean and Y/N quietly closed the doors on the Impala as they scoped out the house before them. Lightning flashed across the sky illuminating everything. Thunder clapped on the horizon as the storm prepared to blow in. Dean nodded to Y/N and made their way towards the house.

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Dean looked around at all the casualties around him. The blood was everywhere. There were bodies lying everywhere. He looked at the walls and saw bone pieces sticking out of the tacky wallpaper. Vampire nest were always the goriest. None of that mattered to him right now though. The only body that mattered was her’s.

She had been his rock, his movement, his reason to keep on moving on after Sam went into the cage. She had been his everything. Now she was gone. All it took was one wrong move. That was it, just one move, one calculated wrong move. She was a fierce hunter, had been doing this almost as long as Dean had. Dean had never, not once questioned anything when they had gone in to do a sweep. They had been fighting this nest for over two hours. That thought made Dean clinched his eyes shut tightly, thinking that she has been dead for over and hour at least and he did not know.

Dean kneeled down beside her and cradled her head in his lap. The tears started gliding his face as he tried to wipe some of the blood off of her cheek. He was so tired of losing people in his life. Dad, Mom, Sam, Adam, Cassie, and now Y/N. Dean felt that old familiar feel of anger begin to surface. Good, he thought to himself, maybe it would stay forever this time. Never again, he vowed to himself as he raised and lifted Y/N’s body. Never again would allow anyone to get too close. He couldn’t go through this anymore.

Exiting the house, he carried her gently through the pouring rain and laid her on the back seat of the Impala. The rain had made the blood thin and it ran off her skin as if it was fresh. His heart took another fresh blow. He stepped back and shut the door softly as if to not disturb her. After taking a few steps away from the car, he lets loose. Looking up at the dark sky above he screams, and screams, until he is out of breath. Standing there in the pouring rain, thunder and lightning are the only sounds he hears.

Slowly, he turns and looks at the car. He knows what he must do, he’s done it too many times to count yet it never gets any easier. Dean tucks his head slightly and heads back to the car. He slides in the driver’s seat and turns the key.

‘I saw you standing in the middle of the thunder and lightning

I know you're feeling like you just can't win, but you're trying

It's hard to keep on keepin' on, when you're being pushed around

Don't even know which way is up, you just keep spinning down, 'round, down’

Y/N’s favorite song. Dean didn’t remember her putting the CD in before they got to the house. He leaned his head back and closed his eyes. He could picture her sitting over there singing along with Gary at the top of her lungs.

‘Every storm runs, runs out of rain

Just like every dark night turns into day

Every heartache will fade away

Just like every storm runs, runs out of rain

So hold your head up and tell yourself that there's something more

And walk out that door

Go find a new rose, don't be afraid of the thorns

'Cause we all have thorns

Just put your feet up to the edge, put your face in the wind

And when you fall back down, keep on rememberin'

Every storm runs, runs out of rain

Just like every dark night turns into day

Every heartache will fade away

Just like every storm runs, runs out of rain

It's gonna run out of pain

It's gonna run out of sting

It's gonna leave you alone

It's gonna set you free

Set you free

Every storm runs, runs out of rain

Just like every dark night turns into day

Every heartache will fade away

Just like every storm runs, runs out of rain

It's gonna set you free,

It's gonna run out of pain,

It's gonna set you free’

“Alright baby,” Dean whispered in the silence following the end of the music. “I hear you. I hear you loud and clear.”

He sat up straight, hit replay on the CD, and put Baby in drive. He would keep on keeping on. He would do it for her.

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#mama #mama's storm #angst #gary allan to get me through #dean reader insert #dean x reader #spn fan fic #spn family

[kayteonline]

Birthday Backstreet Boy Bash

Say that 3 times fast! ;)

I’ve been pondering this one over and over, a lot for the last few weeks. There are SO many of these going on, I almost backed out of this completely (again)…

But you know what, what the hell! My birthday was Friday, and I fucking *adore* Supernatural, but I also have a reallly deep seeded love for the Backstreet Boys… like from my teenage days (Nick Carter was my JAM. He still can be sometimes too hehe)  so why not combine these two wonderful things and make it a fic challenge! I’m bringing along my beautiful friend and fellow SPN/BSB lover with me ;D @leatherwhiskeycoffeeplaid whos birthday is 1/10/18 !!

Now you may be thinking… ‘OK, I don’t like them’ OR ‘I liked Nsync, I was never a Backstreet Boy fan’ OR EVEN ‘What??’ 

But the best part… You don’t have to be a fan! You don’t even have to know who they are, have listened to their music, OR liked it. OK… you might have to sorta like it I guess, but it’s not required here. Inspiration comes from strange places sometimes, right?

Your work of art doesn’t have to be based on the song, or have anything to do with it; if you get a feeling from it, whatever it may be, that’s all that matters! Poke fun at Backstreet if you like, we have a wonderful sense of humor so we want to see what you come up with.

So the nitty gritty is under here…

DEADLINE: Holidays are here, the new year around the corner, and on top of the many other wonderful challenges currently going on I want you to have a ton of time to make this as stress free and fun as possible, so it is set for: 3/1/18

Send one of us @kayteonline @leatherwhiskeycoffeeplaid an ask only - it’s the easiest way to keep track of you beautiful people

I’m doing this completely random through my playlist of literally ALL Backstreet Boy songs (This can’t be surprising at this point right? I love Spotify and I get in moods, easy peasy)

Can be a fic, aesthetic, poem, whatever the song does for you

No min or max character count for fics

Can be happy, sad, sexy, SFW, NSFW, PWP, AU just be sure to WARN for me and others as needed XOXO

MUST be in the Supernatural Fandom

Any pairing, ship (I have some broad horizons, even if I don’t ship it I will not discriminate)

Be sure to tag us! And use the hash tag #birthdayBSBbash 

HAVE FUN! Extensions will be given if needed

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#birthdayBSBbash #spn writing challenge #writing challenge #supernatural writing challenge #supernatural challenge

[atc74]

Angelina’s Best of December

So I started doing something new and will be featuring author recs every couple of weeks in addition to this monthly list. I will still be reblogging all those fantastic fics, but now they will be here: @angreadsficsandauthors. 

Please still tag my main blog @atc74.

But send me an ASK and tell me who you think I should read. Who are YOU reading right now? You wanna send me you? DO IT! There is nothing sinful about being proud of yourself!

Hope your holiday season is bright and merry!

Here is what I wrote for y’all this month:

First Christmas (Rob x Reader)

The Convention Connection - Two by Two (TCC Master List) 

You Offering?- a gif drabble for @impalaimagining‘s Girlfriend? series

Indulgence part 1 and Indulgence part 2 (Jensen x Reader smut)

The Grave of Resurrection  (parts 1,2,3) (a Jensen AU mini-series)

Honey Butter (Sam x Reader)

Turning Dreams Into Reality (Rob x Reader request)

Not Once But Twice (Sam x Eileen)

Don’t Say That! (Rob x Me) part of my Say It Like That Series

Fluff

Procrastinating @itswitchcraft-not-googlemaps (Rob x Reader)

Nov Drabble #23 @iwantthedean (Sam x Reader)

Nov Drabble #21 @iwantthedean (Dean x Reader, friends)

Daddy’s Happy Morning Drink @bringmesomepie56 (Daddy!Dean x Reader)

Better Together @becs-bunker (Jensen x Reader)

Shameless @hannahindie (Dean x Reader)

Nov Drabble #15 @iwantthedean (Dean x Reader)

Petty Arguments @thegreatficmaster (Sam x Reader)

Perplexed @iwriteaboutdean (Jensen x Reader)

What Was That? @not-moose-one-shots (Dean x Reader)

The Green Room Incident @bringmesomepie56 (Jensen x Reader)

Green Eyes @evansrogerskitten (Dean x Reader)

The Way You Look Tonight @hannahindie (Sam x Reader)

Something for Muffin @madamelibrarian (Sam Wesson x Reader)

The Onesie @crispychrissy (Sam x Reader)

Nov Drabble#27 @iwantthedean (Rob x Reader)

Jacks’s Bar: A Prequel @bringmesomepie56 (Jensen x Reader)

Fridays at Jack’s @bringmesomepie56 (Jensen x Reader - see ^^)

Cool If I Come Over @natasha-cole (Rob x Reader)

Rob x Reader Drabble @itswitchcraft-not-googlemaps (Rob x Reader)

Wake Up Call @luci-in-trenchcoats (Sam x Reader) 

Mommy @not-moose-one-shots (Dean x Reader)

The Substitute @luci-in-trenchcoats (Jensen x Reader AU)

Flangst

Ramble On @crispychrissy (Dean x Reader soulmates)

Homesick @not-moose-one-shots (Daddy!Jared x Daughter!Reader)

Baby Sister @luci-in-trenchcoats (Jensen x Reader)

Nov Drabble #14 @iwantthedean (Dean x Reader)

In My Dreams @becs-bunker (Dean x Reader)

Head High @queen-of-deans-booty (Jared x Reader)

Dean x Reader Drabble @itswitchcraft-not-googlemaps

Never Again @bringmesomepie56 (Dean x Reader)

Nursechester @crispychrissy (Sister!Winchester!Reader, no pairing)

While We Have Time @not-moose-one-shots (Dean x Reader)

Unlovable @winchester-writes (Dean x OC)

Smut

#100 Coming Untouched @luci-in-trenchcoats (Dean x Reader)

The Sex Scene @just-a-touch-of-sass-and-fandoms (Jensen/Dean x Reader)

Dean’s Favorite Flannel @deansdirtylittlesecretsblog (Dean x Reader)

Heat Timing @not-moose-one-shots (Jensen x Reader ABO)

Oreos @crispychrissy (Sam x Reader) 

Rob x Reader Drabble @itswitchcraft-not-googlemaps (Rob x Reader)

We Love Anyway @sp-oops (Dean x Reader)

Stuck In The Middle @luci-in-trenchcoats (Sam x Reader x Dean) 

Angst

A Heart That’s Been Loved @thing-you-do-with-that-thing (Dean x Reader)

Hell on Earth @deansdirtylittlesecretsblog (Dean x Reader)

She Said You’d Come @bringmesomepie56 (Dean x Reader)

Brother, I’m Right Here @hannahindie (Dean, Sam, brothers only)

Not Possible @teamlara (Dean x Reader) 

If I Could Start Again @hannahindie (Dean Winchester, no pairing)

You’re Better Than This @katymacsupernatural (Sam x Reader)

Goodbyes and Funeral Pyres @hannahindie (no pairing)

General - no real warnings or genre (please read warnings if applicable) 

Candy is Candy @crispychrissy (Sam x Reader, touch of Dean)

Baby @luci-in-trenchcoats (no pairing)

Flash @saxxxology (Sam x Reader AU)

Saving The Winchesters @bringmesomepie56 (Dean x Reader, Crack)

No One Saw That... @luci-in-trenchcoats (Dean x Reader)

Nice To Meet You @impalaimagining (Jensen, Fan!Reader - not a pairing)

Series (most likely a lethal combination of smut, fluff and angst - HEED THE WARNINGS - links will be to the series master list unless noted) I know I have a problem and am following way too many series!

This Is How We Heal @sofreddie (Jared, Reader)

Forward @blacktithe7 Jensen x Reader 

The Fool @whispersandwhiskerburn (Sam x Reader, Dean x Lisa…)

The Wedding Singer @pinknerdpanda and @hannahindie

The Beauty in the Beast @like-a-bag-of-potatoes (Demon Dean x Reader)

Findings @kathaswings (no pairing) 

Lost and Found @crispychrissy (Sam x Reader) COMPLETE

Heart of a Hunter Act III (entire list here) @muchamusedaboutnothing (Dean x Reader) 

Take it All Back @iwantthedean (Jensen x OFC) COMPLETE

Undeniable Heat @katymacsupernatural (Jensen x Reader)

Our Little Secret @sis-tafics (Dean x Reader) 

Define Justice @crispychrissy (Sam x Reader x Ruby)

Homesick (pt 1) @itswitchcraft-not-googlemaps (Rob Benedict x Reader) 

Living Two Lives @imaginesforthose-wholovefandoms (Sister!Winchester Reader)

Wishing, Wanting, Waiting @saxxxology (Sam x Reader) COMPLETE

Slow Fade @trexrambling (Sam x Reader) COMPLETE

Returning to Life @spn-ficfanatic (Dean x Reader) 

Our College Years @thing-you-do-with-that-thing (Jensen x Reader)

Behind Closed Doors @becs-bunker (Janneel x Reader)

The Virgin and the Sex God @anotherwaywardsister (Dean x Reader)

A Different Blend (link to pt 1) @winchesterprincessbride (Sam x Rreader ABO)

Back to School (link to pt 1) @like-a-bag-of-potatoes (Sam x Reader)

Intellectual Porn (link to pt 3) @littlegreenplasticsoldier (Dean x Reader)

Sanity is Relative @just-a-touch-of-sass-and-fandoms & @uttertrash--butlikecutetrash (no pairing)

Thick Thighs Save Lives @anotherwaywardsister (Dean x Reader)

Amazed @not-moose-one-shots (Dean x Reader)

Yes, Sir @evansrogerskitten (John x Reader AU)

Hotel California @katymacsupernatural (Dean x Reader)

The Path Taken @mysupernaturalfics (Jensen x Reader) 

More Than You Bargained For @luci-in-trenchcoats (Jensen x Reader AU) COMPLETE

Twelve Hour Test pt1 -pt2 - pt3 @saxxxology (Soulless!Sam x Reader)  COMPLETE

The Next Best Thing @ilovebeingjoyful (Sam x Reader)  COMPLETE

From Con to Con (pt 1) @nerdyforyourbooks (Rob x Reader)

Into The Mystic @tankcupcakes (Dean x OFC Evelyn)

Emergency Services @mysupernaturalfics (Dean x Reader AU)

You Found Me @impalaimagining (Jensen x Reader)

Promised Land (pt 1) @iwantthedean (Dean x OFC Israel)

Falling (pt 1) @luci-in-trenchcoats (Jensen x Reader)

Wake Up, Sammy (pt 1) @hannahindie (Sam, Dean, Reader-no pairing)

We Need to Talk @unadulteratedstorycollector (Dean x Reader - this is an older series form 2016, but I just discovered it and LOVED IT!).

You’re Home @acreativelydifferentlove (Dean x Reader ABO)

Cherry Stem Knots Saga (link to pt 9) @sunriserose1023 (Dean x Reader AU)

That’s What Friends Are For (pt 1) @natasha-cole (Rob x Reader)

The Contest (pt 1) @winchesterprincessbride (Jared/Sam x Reader/Gemini)

Save Me (pt 1) @your-modern-shakespeare (Dean x Reader AU)

Our Little Family (pt 4) @teamlara (Dean x Reader AU) 

Whatever It Takes (pt 1) @winchesterprincessbride (Dean x Reader ABO AU)

Black Butterflies and Deja Vu @iwriteaboutdean (Jensen x Reader AU)

Keep Her Safe @thegreatficmaster (Dean x Sibling!Reader)

Gypsy Girl (link to pt 1) @wi-deangirl77 (Sam x Reader)

You’re Better Than This (pt 1) @katymacsupernatural (Sam x Reader)

Becoming a Father Overnight @super100012 (Jared x Daughter!Reader)

December Spotlight

What You Wake For by @hannahindie (no pairing) - It took me a moment to realize what was taking place here, once I figured it out, I went back to the beginning and started over. This was so damn well done, I am not even sure I have the words. The narration was spot on (just go with it) and the storytelling was moving. 

Thicker Than Water by @crispychrissy (no pairing) - Even angst can be beautifully written and this is just that. Overcoming any addiction is a battle, and you need people by your side that support you, no matter what. 

#fic recs #angelinas fic recs #angelina reads a lot