Hallucinating is normal, many people experience it. You have most likely at least passed someone in the street who was hallucinating once. Or you've worked alongside a coworker who was actively hallucinating and you didn't even notice. Or your loved one hallucinated while you were in the room, but they were afraid to tell you.
Hallucinating is common, it's just not commonly talked about in everyday situations. If you don't experience it, or don't know someone who does and tells you about it, you've probably only heard it in the news or on TV. And they only really represent the worst possible outcome for shock value. But that isn't representative of how most of us who hallucinate experience it.
Most of us are just like everybody else, living our lives, just with the addition of hallucinations. We may need to take pills every day, or need therapy, or need to stay in mental hospitals sometimes, or need to be checked on by loved ones, but so do a lot of other people who don't hallucinate.
Hallucinations are just a symptom. Just like anxiety, or trouble concentrating, or tiredness. A lot of people experience it and have to learn to cope overtime. The only difference is we don't generally talk about it to people in casual settings. And it's because of the stigma. If you don't hallucinate, or know someone who does, you probably don't see hallucinations as a normal part of life, a symptom, just a thing plenty of people experience. But it is, it's not special, it isn't more dangerous, it doesn't have to be a huge deal.
Obviously hallucinations can be life changing and horrific, but so can other mental health symptoms. Hallucinations can also be neutral, or just annoying or even a positive experience. It's just a symptom, it doesn't automatically mean someone is in the worst mental state possible if they are hallucinating. It doesn't automatically mean someone is dangerous or unpredictable. It just means a person is experiencing senses that the people around them are not.
You have to learn to accept that it's just a symptom, and that people around you experience it, and they deserve to complain or talk about it just like anyone else gets to with other things in their lives. All you have to do is listen, and try to be understanding. Hallucinating is normal, you just need to stop treating it like it's abnormal.
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how he cares for his mentally ill partner
cw: discussion of mental illness and symptoms, gender neutral reader, fluff
zayne immediately goes into doctor mode as soon as you tell him about your "condition". he researches your diagnosis in depth to better understand your brain and state of mind, as well as the best ways to support you. he diligently checks in on you, always asking how you're feeling and encouraging you to express what's on your mind so you don't get in the habit of bottling things up. nothing you share will ever scare him, even the more "frightening" thoughts you experience. when something's wrong, he does everything in his power to make it right, whether that's hounding your pharmacy to make sure your refills are ready or reminding you when it was time to take your medication. when you have bad mood swings or depressive episodes, he listens to you without judgment, gazing softly into your eyes with nothing but kindness in his own. if you ever lash out at him, he doesn't take it personally. he reassures you as many times as you need, even if it gets repetitive. you will always have your doctor in your corner.
rafayel is a bit confused when you first tell him about your mental illness. he doesn't understand when you say "something is wrong with your brain", because to him, your mind is perfect. he acknowledges your unique struggles, but insists that you are much more than a medical diagnosis or symptoms of an illness. you aren't broken, you aren't too much. you're his beloved, and he is determined to love every part of you, even this so-called "dark" side. he wants to know everything about the way your mind works so that he can be a better partner, whether that's learning your triggers to prevent you from having episodes or figuring out what kind of reassurance you need to feel safe with him. he may get upset sometimes when you lash out at him, but when that happens, he'll remind you that no amount of depression, anxiety, or psychosis will stop him from loving you. you will never have to fear being abandoned again.
xavier doesn't fully understand your condition, but he can relate to your feelings of anxiety and depression. having struggled with those emotions himself, he empathizes with you deeply in a way most other people can't. he never judges or blames you for lashing out; his laid back personality and gentle demeanor help ground you when you feel like you're falling apart. however, he does get upset when you hide your struggles and aren't honest with him about how you feel. you can trust him; you no longer have to bear such heavy burdens on your own. when he can't be there physically, he'll encourage you to self soothe by buying you bubble bath soap or sleepytime tea to relax your nervous system. when he is around and you happen to have an episode, he holds you until the tears subside, wiping them from your cheeks after you've finished crying against his chest. he hates seeing you this way, so he'll do anything to ease some of your pain.
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🌺 Hope Strength Courage Blog 🌺 - 19/07/2022 (Updated 28/03/2024)
💻 About Me and This Blog
👉🏻 I feel happier keeping my name anonymous. 👤
👉🏻 I am 32 years old. 🎂
👉🏻 I am married to my Husband. We’ve been married for 5 years and together for 15 years. 💍
👉🏻 I am a Mum to our 4 year old Daughter. 🤱🏻
💡 I started this blog at Christmas in 2020 due to how I was feeling in relation to my Mental Health and The Pandemic.
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💔 Bereavement, Grief and Loss
🩷 A bit of background about me is that my Mum died in 1998 when I was 6 years old due to both Physical and Mental Illness. She ultimately died from Anorexia as her body couldn’t manage any longer.
💙 I lived with my Granny mostly as a Baby and Young Child as my Mum was in and out of hospital and my Dad worked. She brought me up and was in nearly every way my Mum. Sadly she died in 2002, when I was 11 after a very short battle with Breast Cancer.
❤️ By this time I was living at home with My Dad and Step-Mum. My Mum and Dad had separated when I was around 5 years old and he remarried in 2002 when I was 10. My Dad sadly died in 2011, when I was 19, very suddenly and unexpectedly, after suffering a Heart Attack.
This is a bit of background on my past with Grief and why I feel Bereavement, particularly in Childhood is something that should never be overlooked and young people need to be supported appropriately during these times. The loss of my parents at young ages has had a significant impact on me growing up.
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🧠 Mental Health and Illness
💭 I would say when I was about 12 or 13 I began struggling with emotions and my Mental Health, although I didn’t understand what it all meant at that time. I began feeling very negatively about myself.
By the time I was 14/15 (2006/2007) things became a lot of more challenging for me Mentally and Emotionally.
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🌼 Anxiety
🧠 I believe I experienced Anxiety a long time before I was actually diagnosed or had treatment for it. It has been a challenge since my teenage years and it is something I continue to work on daily.
I experience both Generalised Anxiety Disorder and Social Anxiety Disorder.
I also experience Health related Anxiety.
My Anxiety also manifests in OCD and this has been tough for me at times. My OCD is generally around Checking Compulsions - Appliances, Door Locks, Rereading my writing and Driving, amongst others.
After I became a New Mum at the end of 2019 and then during The Pandemic in 2020 and 2021, I developed Obsessions and Compulsions around - Germs, Illness and Cleanliness. I have since worked hard to manage these fears and compulsions better.
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💊 I was on medication for almost 5 years from the beginning of 2014 until the Autumn of 2018 for my Anxiety and OCD. (Propranolol and Citalopram). I came off my medication after speaking with a Doctor when it was right for me.
In July 2021 I went back on Propranolol and in December 2021 started taking Citalopram again. I took these for Anxiety and also some Depression I was experiencing at the time. Towards the start of 2023, after speaking with a doctor, I began reducing my medication and I am no longer taking any.
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🗣 I have also had counselling / therapy a number of times since the age of 16 which has been helpful at various points in my life and given me extra tools and support.
In September 2021 I began therapy again with a Private Psychologist and this helped me more than I could ever have hoped. I feel incredibly lucky to be in the position to have been able to access this treatment for my Mental Health. I finished my sessions with my Psychologist in July 2022.
In October 2023 I began Therapy again with a counsellor online and feel it is helping me and I’m making progress with myself again.
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🧡 **Trigger Warning. Topic of Self Harm.
I have a difficult and complicated history with Self-Harm. From the ages of about 11/12 up until I was 23 this was something I dealt with a lot and was my coping mechanism in many ways.
I was in recovery for this for 6 years from 2015-2021.
Unfortunately in 2021 (aged 29) I relapsed with my Self Harm and it was difficult working to gain control again. I am however, now making good progress with recovery again. I have not Self Harmed now for 2 Months 3 Weeks. I had a couple of relapses in June 2023 and 1 in March 2023.
Before that the last time was in August 2022. My progress has been possible with the support of my Psychologist, in 2021 and 2022. I learnt new tools and coping strategies to help me manage my emotions in healthier ways.
This part of my journey is something that is very difficult for me to talk about, mainly because of how misunderstood it still is and the judgements people make. I also do carry some shame and guilt about myself still - but I'm working on this. I have many scars which I continue to work hard to accept and feel less shame about.
I feel that it’s important to raise awareness around topics like this to help the stigmas that still surround these issues. I am also aware that discussion of topics like these can be triggering for many people so would always want to be careful in how I approached it.
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My Self Harm Recovery ❤️🩹 (I won’t write what the methods I’ve used are as I don’t want to trigger anyone but wanted to write my recovery down here for myself.
Method 1 - (Struggled with this the most as a teenager and young adult for around 8 years; 2007-2015)
Current Recovery - 8 Years 10 Months
Last Time - 05/05/2015
Started - Aged 14/15 (2006/2007)
Method 2 - (Struggled a lot with this between 2021-2022)
Current Recovery - 1 Year 7 Months
Last Time - 12/08/2022
Started - Aged 29 (September 2021)
Method 3 - (Less frequent)
Current Recovery - 9 Months
Last Time - 22/06/2023
Started - Aged 29 (July 2021)
Method 4 - (Experienced this mostly as a pre-teen; 11/12)
Current Recovery - 1 Year
Last Time - 09/03/2023
Started - Aged 11/12 (2003/2004)
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🧬 Personality
🧩 I believe I am a Highly Sensitive Person, an Introvert and from research I believe my personality type is INFJ.
I have experienced a lot of Low Self Esteem, feelings of Guilt and I Apologise a lot even when I don’t need to. I am a People Pleaser but this is an area I'm working hard to make progress with.
I have also experienced Depression at times due to things previously mentioned here. I continue to work on myself every day and look after my mind the best I can.
I also struggle with Attachments with people at times in life. I often become too attached and then I’m left feeling anxious and worried about being abandoned / fear of people leaving. I believe my Attachment Style is: Fearful Avoidant and I’m currently working to learn more about this.
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✏️ This Blog is like a Journal for me. Writing is how I feel I can express myself the best and I’ve written Diaries on and off for as long as I can remember but sometimes it can feel a bit lonely. Here I post my own thoughts and feelings about things as well as sharing others’ posts and information on topics I resonate with and want to raise more awareness about.
I find Quotes and Lyrics very powerful too and attach my own meanings to them. I love Photography, Psychology, Childhood Development and History.
✍🏻 I have written Poetry since I was a young teenager and still find it helps me to express myself.
My Instagram: finding_hope_strength_courage
My Threads: finding_hope_strength_courage
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🌼 I hope that if you find yourself reading this blog that something on here might help you in someway if you are going through things in your life.
🦋 This Is Me:
2008 - Aged 16
2012 - Aged 20
2022 - Aged 30
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"Mental health matters" until its a minor struggling with substance abuse
"Mental health matters" until someone doesn't want/refuses help
"mental health matters" until someone struggles with an addiction
"Mental health matters" until someone is unable to do 'basic' hygiene
"Mental health matters" until someone is deemed violent and scary
"Mental health matters" until someone doesn't 'look like' their struggling
"Mental health matters" until someone has bulimia or bed
"Mental health matters" until someone wants to get worse
"Mental health matters" until someone is a dropout or unemployed
"Mental health matters" until someone has disturbing intrusive thoughts
"mental health matters" until someone is delusional
"Mental health matters" until someone struggles with hallucinations and hearing voices
"mental health matters" until someone is extremely scared of other people
"Mental health matters" until someone has violent outbursts
"Mental health matters" until someone has trouble masking/ can't mask their illness
"Mental health matters" until it doesn't fit your romanticized view abt it
(feel free to add onto this)
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