#Mental progress is fucked

[caffeinatedopossum]

I actually find it really bizarre and counter intuitive that clinically speaking, you cannot legally be diagnosed with a personality disorder until you're at least 18. The reason given for this is because "the personality has not fully developed before this age" like ???

Ah yes, my favorite strategy. Not diagnosing the problem until it's already been virtually cemented into your brain for life! Wouldn't it be easier (and more painless) to address the problem before it's fully developed?

#im also certain that the age that personality fully forms at is not a universally agreed upon number #like idk. maybe this raises less questions about age and more about the potential consequences of pathologizing personalities #it feels a little fucked up to me that some mental illness are 'just' mental illnesses while others are deemed a thing synonymous with you #and i can understand if some people with personality disorders do really heavily identify with their disorders #thats fine! #i also think the average person has a concept of personality which is relatively stagnant and thats just not realistic tbh #i mean if you think personality is stagnant then yours probably is so in rhat sense youre not wrong #but personality can absolutely change and i dont think it makes you a 'different person' #i think its a natural progression #anyways. got a little derailed but the point im trying to make is #lets find a way to give people with personality disorders a more realistic hope for recovery without invalidating them #and also lets maybe try to treat personality disorders preemptively so they don't get worse

[unexpectedbrickattack]

babpy.

#pizza tower #peppino #arts #mine #happy pride; heres a little otter for u #hes like very early 20s here #happy and unbothered before the Horrors happened #it is NOT his 30s bc he needs to exude raw dilf energy by that point #but for now he is anxious and sweet and awkward #not that i dont draw him like that already but its like 10x here #its PALPABLE #okay mwah i will hopefully come back w more than just sketches that mean nothing skjfsdjkfdhfhsk #i have LITERALLY been on this commission for WEEKS i need someone to take me out back and put me out of my misery i swear #im going to finish the lines TODAY like i cant be this person i cant keep coming back to this fucking comm w no progress ill simply Die #its like singlehandedly preventing me from doing anything else; its making a mental block waaaaaaaau #but i feel like i am breaking through it today. at least i HOPE i am sdkjfsdjkfjsdkf #um if u are still here ilu. send me some anons; i want to be chatty but the messages i have feel like i need to respond w essays #and i literally. cannot. #at least until i get my head screwed on properly again

[orngbanana]

yknow what? *metal furys your damain*

i like to think that if the writers actually bothered with him he would somewhat try?? to have a healthy relationship with blading idk I just want him to be ok, and I think it would be funny if he had a sudden growth spurt

#metal fight beyblade #beyblade #beyblade metal saga #beyblade metal fury #beyblade fanart #tried to mix his younger ver. and masters' color palette for symbolic reasons #i imagine without the arrangement he becomes healthier #mostly physically #the mental part is a work in progress #beyblade damian #damian hart #wait fuck i just noticed damian's cape doesn't have a background(?) fuck

[viviennelamb]

Whenever the topic of "toxic individualism" is brought up, I think it's going to be about society's rabid egotism, but it's "I think it's toxic people won't let me drain them to death."

Thank God for the West's bodily Freedom and Individualism. I'd rather kill myself than be in a community with beasts and his lovers which is why third world countries are karmic failures. Communities exist to find a sex partner. If you want to get anything meaningful done, you have to do it alone. Males are anti-individualism because they want to fuck and women want a free babysitter.

What gets me is when people are like “you've never done anything by yourself anyways” ...then what's the problem?

Life's so much better when you rely on God only. No more fickleness, betrayal, envy, fear, meanness, fakeness, psychopathy etc. Relying on egos is completely unnatural, but egos like the drama so enjoy lol. If humans were social creatures, the social struggle wouldn't be this significant (struggle with what? oh you know: lesphobia, innocence-hating, anti-Reality, a big motherfucking etc). The day you're screwed over hard enough is the day you will stop idolizing egos and you will finally have the motivation needed to seek the truth that humans are actually wired to connect with God which is why we are souls. Anything else is dogma so animals can guilt you into letting them steal your life.

Humans actually fucking despise each other and The Distraction is trying to make people get along when it's not possible. When you have wants and needs, you become a rapist of all sorts; raping minds, bodies, emotions, time, kindness, happiness, sympathy. People without wants and needs are highly sought after because parasites can take and take, but people who are sane and sober don't want to be around them. This is what this debate is all about and why complainers don't want to be with each other.

Egotism has already created a dystopia that has been going strong since egos became the majority of the population. Egos come up with ideas of the way things "should be" instead of looking at the reality of what is actually happening right Now which would explain why people are weary.

#“I want to rely on people” most ppl can't be relied on. face reality & adjust ur expectations. it's not individualism... #ppl who don't have discipline in their own lives cannot help others. it's impossible. they've mentally and emotionally regressed #& ppl without discipline have no faith or persistence so how the fuck are they gonna help you? 💀 #as soon as something seemingly better/easier comes along they're out. instant gratification is the ego's god. #life isn't meant to be easy but ppl give you the illusion of that... as soon as they abandon or betray you you're left at square one #No thanks! If I fail I want it to be 100% my fault. At least my progression would still remain somewhat in tact.

[semperintrepida]

Somehow, despite everything, I have managed to finish reworking the third part of this book!

I'm going to pour myself a drink, play some AC:O in celebration, and later—much later—tonight, I'll read part 3 and see what I've got.

I don't want to jinx anything by saying any dates, but I hope to resume posting regular updates on AO3 before the end of this month.

#i've been away from [tumblr] for the past several days #just haven't had the mental energy needed for posting #my fucking day job is once again trying to crush me #wip progress #wip: kyklos

[randomositycat]

why when i brought up the bill to raise the disability balance limit from 2k to 10k, did my coworkers immediately go "yeah and those people who arent really disabled"

what??? why are we doing that? what happened to 'oh thats such a good thing that theyre increasing how much money you can have as a disabled person'

why did they immediately get negative?

#idk what the political alignment is for that type of thinking but its really fucking annoying #like can you not be annoying #love my job and the people working there are decent #but i must be REALLY progressive if im like #the only one who isnt shitting on things like #mental health and being queer #probably bc i face these things intimately but #jfc

[skittsyteacup]

i randomly remembered one time in my phys sci class that i mentioned how its greatly reccommended to plan out events in your story before writing it (IT IS IT IS) and then work on how to get to those events so last night i stayed up til 2 am (i had been regularly going to bed at 8 for almost a week at the ward and when i got home i went to bed at like 10, 11) so i was a little delirious but i wrote out an entire fic plan up to chapter 37 i think, with a 3k word minimum and im sure i can do it as im a traumatized kid who didnt have internet until i was 12/13ish so it shouldnt be hard but im so proud and i want to share but what if someone online steals it:(( so im just gonna post chapter here as i work and id love help. im dumb sometimes and i like talking to strangers, none of my friends have long attention spans either so if any random person seeing this would like to "beta test" my stuff so i can see if it appeals to my ideal audience (teens and young adults, but idm adults too i just dont think theyll be interested cus im just a kid kinda rn) HIT ME UP. GET IN MY ASKS. GO TO MY CARRD AND TEXT ME. i would like to warn i am mentally ill and very behind on school work but im not allowed to work on anything school related til about next week? here ill put stuff in bullets for my dyslexic and adhd friends(plus others. mwah)

-im writing a story

-reblog, send an ask, or hmu on one of my socials if you want to be a beta reader

-read my dni first jic im sorry:((

-im in cst, this is being posted around 7;24 pm chicago time. i go to bed around 10 pm and i wake up around 9;30 am

-i will reblog this in a minute with ideal reader qualifications so if you see this first, go to my profile!!

-im sorry this is so much ohh my gosh good lord

#sysblr #osdd #did #did system #dissociative system #did osdd #plural system #didosdd #osdd system #osddid #bookblr #wattpad #writeblr #reading #mentally fucked #mental health #mental illness #adhd things #actually adhd #beta testing #beta reader #wip #work in progress #fictive blog #my fic #fiction #fanfic #fanfiction #autism #autistic things

[dolce-tenebra-toscana]

I've officially lost 13 kg since the beginning of my new meal plan!

I am honestly speechless, but am i glad i started this!

I feel so much better, both in physical and mental health 💜💜

Still have to get used to my new body shape but both my friends and therapist are helping me process the whole thing~

So yay me, i'm making progress!!

Also my new style in clothing, hair and makeup is giving me a fuckton of confidence, that also help lol

#personal #physical health #mental health #confidence #making progress #so proud of myself tbh #i got a black corset that i fucking love very much #it looks so good on me aaaaaah

[thejadecount]

TMNT AU COMPETITION MASTERPOST

Most AU Leos: Has killed a few guys, AngstyTeen™️, has hates/argues-with-splinter-and-Raph Syndrome

B.e.a.s.t.! Leo walking in, cracking jokes about how he and his brothers have been responsible for genociding an entire alien race: I’m about to ruin these guys careers

#I love the idea that out of all the au leos beast Leo’s the most fucked up one #like the other leos are talking about how they’re Different™️ and beast Leo casually drops: #‘oh yeah me and my bros and our friends killed another universe’s entire race of kraang’ #… #WHAT— #everyone else is freaking out and Cup’s Sep Leo is like: mad respect #OMO Leo: man I wished I could’ve joined #WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU KILLED AN ENITE RACE OF KRAANG?! #beast Leo: well to be fair they were like the size of brains and just SO easy to kill— #and my progress on my mental health and processing my truama has kinda regressed— #EVEN RAPH AND MIKEY?! #‘oh yeah Raph tore through their entire army and Mikey took down their airforce’ #WHAT?! #I can’t wait for the interactions #all the other leos thinking they’re the most lethal here and beast leo’s just casually: #oh btw I’m a weapon of war f’s in the chat for the Kraang tho amiright? #let’s just say EVERY Mikey in the perimeter is on him and their brothers for their unhealthy coping mechanisms #and that’s how beast Leo casually asserts his dominance #the Peepaw Leos would be proud #rottmnt #rise tmnt #tmnt crossover #au crossover #crossover au #tmnt au competition #b.e.a.s.t #b.e.a.s.t. leo

[lizlardyxoo]

Who’s got an active ed discord ?😭 or sh ?

I need to talk with more disordered people I’m at a loss

#bul1m14 #tw mia #anor3×14 #ana goals #ana trigger #ana advice #ana buddie #ana friend #ana progress #ana rexx #mentally fucked #tw self destructive behavior #anorex14 #tw ed not sheeran #i want to ⭐️ve #⭐️ve #⭐️rving #⭐️ving #i need to ⭐️ve #ana tricks #anadiet #ana0rex1a #an0r3c1a #an4r3xia #starv1ng #starv3 #starvibg #cutt1ng #selfharrrm

[eyes-eyes-eyes-eyes-eyes-eyes]

i love my boyfriend so much i truly don't know how to deal with it... at any given moment im very likely to be writing a poem about him or painting him or looking through my photos of him and any moment where im not im ALWAYS at least thinking about him. he truly is the most beautiful inspiring soul and the fact he exists just amazes me... how is it even possible for someone so lovely to not only have been born but to continue to live every day and with each SECOND increase the amount of joy and goodness in the world exponentially HOW IS IT POSSIBLE. i tell him all the time how madly infatuated i am with him and yet im still full of more love. infinite infinite love. so much love. and so much love for life. for friends and trees and coffee and schoolwork and sunlight. dont even get me started... maybe life is a dream.

#i got back on my meds two days ago btw #jk what i mean by that is that my.recent progress with my mental health after a kick in the fucking gut that made me realize a lot- #-is bringing me so much joy! jm glad im working on myself and im glad i can feel all of this joy! I love living! #eyes speaks #bf tag #personal

[kasumingo]

You know, what I'm realizing (over and over again) is that westerners absolutely loathe taking responsibility for their own actions and feelings - from toy recalls due to irresponsible parents, through refusing to cut down on unhealthy food and activities, through bigots thinking trans and gay people existing is a personal offense to them to refusing to maintain their online spaces

Y'all never getting free because in your mind the problem is never you - it's clearly everyone else

So you prefer living a life of outrage and making everyone else's miserable before self-reflection and realization that it's your own mentality and actions that are in the wrong here

And on this note I might be cutting off more and more people who display those traits even in the slightest degree, because you’re not safe or pleasant to be around

#txt #no matter how progressive you think you are #or which side you're on #you're all sharing this mentality #that is incredibly frustrating to deal with and aggressive #and you can do whatever the fuck you want #i just wish you would leave the rest of the world alone #also it's fucking funny when you are all making the simplest of realization via psa posts #like it never crossed your mind to act more decent #don't understand nuanced art? 'it's clearly bigoted!' #someone advises you on something? this is clearly an attack on me!

[fastorslow]

Can’t sleep because I’m so IRRITATED!!!!!

#all I wanna do is play travel town but that game wants 10 dollars for just opening it #and I miss him more than usual which is so fucking weird and annoying bc I’ve been doing fine for a while now #everything is just going backwards??? #all progress I’ve made with my mental health and lifestyle I’ve just completely reversed?? #what’s wrong with meeeeee #I don’t wanna start over!!!!!!

[astrogenica]

people claim to understand that progress isn't linear and recovery can take a long time until it becomes personally inconvenient to them and then you're just a stupid lazy bastard to them no matter how you behaved before you became outwardly sick or how hard you've been trying to get better. and i will be mad about that forever

#text post #vent #venting #vent post #chronic illness #mental illness #progress is not linear #recovery takes time #ive only been diagnosed and trying treatments for my autoimmune disease for 1yr #ive been sick for closer to 5 #i just got covid for the second time in january and its fucked up all the progress #that i was making #and now rather than try to support me through a major setback #everyone is acting like i just dont have my shut together and im not trying #meanwhile i am doing my best to keep up when walking a single flight of stairs is still hard for me #and there are very few people who meaningfully recognize how hard this is for me #i used to work three jobs while going to school full time seeing my family frequently #AND having a social life and maintaining my ltr #now im married yeah but i only do one wfm full time job barely engage with my hobbies #see my family and friends infrequently and tbh barely leave my house #and its not for any lack of wanting to #its because i CANT #and even fewer people are making am efforts to accommodate me #so i force myself to occasionally go out and see people #and then need to recover for two weeks #and they dont even appreciate how HARD it is #so much of the effort disabled put into their interactions with abled or just differently #disabled loved ones goes completely unnoticed because its expected as the bare minimum another can do #but rhe bare minimum to them is the absolute best you yourself can give #and nobody cares

[l-cereta]

Ghhh i need to finish virgo vs the zodiac……….

#the ambition/versatility/patience system & just the metaphysics of the world in general #sooo cools #& the customization of how to configure the party too #AND THE WAY A LEVEL UP FULLY RESTORES LIFE #i was like halfway thru aquarius & then forgor to save & lost sooooo much progress. but man #it was good!!! #oh fuck the ice skating puzzle tho that shit did NOT work on switch #praying i saved after that actually #but yea… & the character designs rock & everyones mentalities are so fucked in such a good way #just. rlly good game