My Regrets
She could feel his hand on her damn knee still.
How bad do you wanna keep this job.
She started feeling like she couldn’t breathe
This bad
Creeping up, and up
How bout this bad.
God she has to get out of here.
This bad, he whispered as he leaned towards her.
What a despicable man George Toledo was. What a despicable despicable human.
As she slapped him and ran off she didn’t know where she was running.
Still didn’t know.
Laura Percy-Bruce prided herself on being a strong, independent, capable women, very few things scared her. Everything went as planned in her live.
And then Lenny ran off to LA, and everything was falling apart and god maybe she needed to find her Aunt Shirley but Shirley couldn’t fix this could she?
Right now tho she was shaking.
The door. The Door. She had to get out of thirty rock and she was never coming back.
She loved this job but she was scared, she couldn’t come back here.
She made it successfully to the elevator when she heard someone yell out.
“Laura?Laura!”
Damnit doors,close. Close. Close.
“ LAURA.”
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when the elevator doors open she thinks shes escaped Gordon when
“ Laura!”
Shit. Shit.
“ Laura stop, where are you going? Laura? Laura there’s a show in less than thirty minutes” Gordon’s talking fast trying to charm his way out of this just like everything.
“Gordon I can’t do this, I don’t belong here this isn’t what I’m good at” Avoid it, avoid it.
“ Bullshit, you’re too good at this.” He paused realization dawning on his face ” Laura, Laura did, George… did he say something? Do something?”
“ No Gordon No I just” she can’t breathe” God Gordon fine yes, George kissed me, I hit him, I can’t I can’t come back”
“ Laura you mean more to this show, more to me, than George does. Than George ever will. “ She hates to see him pleading, but she can’t give in.
“ Gordon there will be a hundred more George Toledos, I will never escape them. At least if I leave this job” she really considered it” I hold more power over them in the clubs.”
“ Laura, I will fight every single one of those men if you let me, Hedy and I are getting a divorce just stay and we’ll work it all out”
The pause went on just long enough she started to get uncomfortable.
“ you know I can’t, I’m not strong enough I- I have to go back to him.”
His face contorts into a very unreadable expression.
“ Laura you know you can’t, you told me yourself what he’s gotten into, you told me “
“ I told you a lot of things Gordon. I’m sorry. I can’t stay here I don’t belong”
“ Mr. Ford consider this my formal resignation, my regrets. “
And she turned to leave, pushing past him without a care in the world.
Out in the cold nigh she began to cry
The heart break she felt was deeper than in years.
MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM
Lenny was back in New York and he was killing.
Standing aside the stage watching him from afar Laura felt happy, or maybe not happy but content.
Suddenly she heard a commotion by the door.
“ no no sir you don’t understand I’m Hedy Ford, my husband is on the Number one TV show in the country and I need to speak to Mrs Percy….. please you just understand we don’t have cash to pay the cover because we just wanna see Laura and leave. “
She could see Hedy know, but suddenly someone behind her pushed through.
“ to hell with this I can literally see her. LAURA. LAURA. “
“ Carr??” Laura shouted back with a start, with a look to her left she noticed lenny staring awkwardly at her, she nodded on to him and made her way to the door.
“ Lonnie it’s cool I know them” she noded to the bouncer
“Hedy. Mike. To what do I owe the pleasure”
Hedy glared at Mike in a way that told her they had decided ahead of time that she was doing the talking.
“ Laura the show wants you back.”
She want in the Defense.
“ Hedy I’m sorry I can’t.”
“ because of Toledo right? Screw that honey. You can not let a man of that low of human compassion and capability ruin you like this. That’s not the women you are. and the truth is by running away you are letting him win. I’m sorry to have to say that but. Laura they show was better with you working on it, it needs you. “
“ Hedy that’s sweet but I can’t be within 30 feet of him without being terrified I just can’t I-“
“ Laura.” Mike cut in” Gordon found out George was holding up his contract, that on top of what happened with you, he’s not gonna have a job tommorow.”
She sighed “ Mike that’s great for progress but I can’t, I just can’t do this”
He got this earnest look in his eyes, “Laura, in twenty four hours it is very likely I will be producing the Gordon ford show and I can’t do that shit alone, there is no one I would rather have in my talent manager chair, with my talent board, then you. If you won’t fo it for the show, or for Gordon, do it for me, your friend and professional partner to coke back”
“ Mike there is no for Gordon I” I glance worriedly at Hedy this got awkward fast.
“ Laura I do not care what you and Gordon are getting up to. We’re getting a divorce. The deal always was we’d get married to make our parents happy but if he found someone he wanted to publicly be with that we’d get divorced, and that happened. “
She stopped and thought for a second, her breathing overly defined. She looked over and Lenny was walking toward the group
And it was odd to her to discover she didn’t feel how she did when Gordon walked toward her. she wasn’t thrilled to see him, there was no light.
“ hey Doll, what’s going on” Lenny smirked.
“ Lenny I-“ was she really doing this” I’m sorry I can’t do this any longer. I’m not happy with any of this. Professionally or Personally, this isn’t going to work out and I can’t keep forcing it”
She can see Carr smirk out of this corner of my eye.
“ Laura baby what are you taking about, you know I can’t do this alone honey” Lenny’s eyes are so wide.
Silence stretches on as she looks at the man who saved her.
“ I’m sorry Lenny, it’s all over”
She’s saving herself this time,
She nods at Mike and follows him and Hedy out of the bar.
MNMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM
When she arrived to 30 Rock she relived that they said George was getting canned tommorow, he’s still here.
As if sensing her sudden anxiety Hedy put her hand on my arm.
“ you aren’t alone Laura.”
When we made it to the set she makes it a point to stand between Hedy and Mike and when she catches Toledos eye, her gaze holds firm.
Eventually we go to commercial break and Gordon sees me. He gets out of his chair and crosses the room and simply hugs me, and she holds him back just as tight.
“ Laura I’m sorry. I’m so sorry I should’ve done something more but I”
“ Gordon.”She cuts him off “ it’s okay. I’m okay.” Even more now, she chooses not to add.
He pulls away and holds her by the shoulders, “ I I have to go back on air but, don’t run away? I still owe you a drink” he smirks
“ you might owe me a lot more than that Gordy”
He smiles and as he walks back to his seat
“ George. You’re fired. “
Fin
( hello everyone! This is my first time writing and I know it’s an OC no one has any idea who is but I promise with time more will make sense lol. This is the first time I’ve published anything I’ve written so be kind!! I couldn’t decide which point of view to use so I stuck with third person but let me know if that’s weird?? I hope you enjoy! I’d like to reiterate this is how I see the charecters in my mind and I once again don’t know how drug addiction is so I can’t accurately portray that through Lenny. Also I believe in Girl boss Hedy Ford, and she will continue to be a solid part of Gordon’s life and the show, just in this framework the divorce was easier :) I think Mike is a little OOC but I think in more of my stuff he’s better)
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Thoughts on Mrs. Maisel 5x07
- love what rose is wearing
- midge having rose’s back and supporting her in 1973 makes me so happy
- abe, ethan and the piano lesson. just love his scenes with the kids
- awww zelda wrote like a full instructions book for them
- poor abe close to having a breakdown because ethan isn’t good at school
- shirley and moishe in the audience at the gordon ford show 😂
- 26 minutes in and still no joel. we love to see it.
- spoke too soon. would have been to much to ask for, I guess.
- zelda end janusz 😂
- we all can agree it’s joel’s fault. doesn’t matter what we are talking about. it’s always his fault.
- susie!! finally!! and she’s playing poker with mike.
- midge and mike scene!! love it
- midge, why are you trying so hard to get gordon’s attention? like come on, you’re better than that. she’s too good to be on his show anyway.
- “tits up” 🥹
- susie telling james it’s not his time yet because she really wants midge to make it big and be successful. my heart 😭
- crying midge 💔
- abe and esther. abe is so done with everything 😂
- hank azaria and sutton foster felt kind of wasted in this episode
- that episode wasn’t so bad either or maybe my expectations are just too low and I think it was good and it actually wasn’t?
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