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keanureevesisbae · 4 years

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‘Dad, do you still love me?’

A one shot in the universe of ‘Mister Cavill, your dog is kinda fat’

Henry Cavill x Olivia Tran

Summary: Henry notices Elodie isn’t exactly herself, so he takes her out on a little father/daughter date, hoping to figure out what is going on inside of her head.

Wordcount: 1.8k

A/N: Thursday at 7 p.m. CEST time I’ll start the celebratory Q&A

Masterlist // previous one shot

Vanessa is 23 // Elodie is 15 // Heather and Chloe are 11

Henry noticed how Elodie hasn’t been herself lately. She constantly avoids him and barely talks to him anymore, even when they are doing the dishes. Usually the two of them would have their little moment together, as she was washing, while he was drying. They would always talk a little bit, catching up with one another.

Just a few days ago, he found Olivia with Elodie in bed, her arms wrapped around his serious little princess as they both slept. Out of all his daughters, Elodie was the serious one, the introvert and he loved her for that.

But he noticed that something was eating her up alive and that killed him. He asked Olivia about it, who simply looked at him with a cocked eyebrow. ‘I’m not going to tell you.’

‘So there is something?’ he asked.

‘Yes, there is something,’ Olivia said. ‘But I’m not going to tell you about it, because she has to tell you about it when she feels ready.’

‘But why did she tell you about it and not me? Am I not a good enough dad for her?’ he wondered.

‘No, honey, of course you are a good dad for her, but she is trying to process this herself right now. It took her some time to tell me, so don’t you worry about a thing.’

‘Is she okay though?’

‘It’s nothing life threatening, if that’s what you are worried about. If that were the case, remember, I’d always tell you. But this… It’s personal and not my place to share.’

He was grateful that his daughters were so close to Olivia and that when there were problems, they found their way to her. But he sometimes wonders if the girls don’t trust him or anything. He would always listen to them, drop everything he was doing, so he could listen to his girls. And Elodie came to him a lot of times, when she was stressing over school, when she needed to have a dress for a Valentines Dance back when she was thirteen.

What has changed?

‘Honey, are you okay?’ Olivia asks him.

He continues to look at Elodie from the doorway, who has her earphones in as she is doing her homework. She pushes her glasses further up her nose. ‘I’m worried about her,’ he admits.

Olivia, who has reached the beautiful age of forty six, but looks at least ten years younger, wraps her arm around his waist. ‘Maybe you two could go out for awhile. A little walk with some iced coffee.’

‘Really?’

‘Really, honey.’ She stands on her toes and whispers: ‘I understand you are worried and maybe if you take her out, she might talk to you.’ He feels her soft lips against his jaw and she whispers: ‘I love you, Henry. You can do this.’ Olivia smiles at him, before walking back to the kitchen.

‘Elodie, princess,’ he says and his voice is louder than the music coming out of her earphones, since she looks up. Because she is so responsible, she always has her volume pretty low, because she doesn’t want to ruin her hearing. He looks into her large brown eyes and he knows that—as always with her—is so much going on inside of her head. Whilst her sisters always voice their thoughts, she keeps them to herself. ‘We’re going out for a drink.’

‘Why?’ she asks, placing her glasses on her books.

Why. That’s her first and most used response to basically everything.

‘You need a break, you’ve been at it for quite some time now. Come on, homework can wait. We’re going to get something to drink.’

She looks at her homework, contemplating for a moment, before she gets up. She puts on a thin vest and slips on her sneakers. They walk to a nice cafe nearby and he orders two iced coffees for the two of them. ‘Thanks,’ she says, as she takes the cup from him, when they start to walk to one of their favorite spots. It’s a secluded area in the park, a large oak with a park bench right underneath it. The bench is empty and Henry and Elodie sit down.

He remembers when she was seven, he would take her to this exact place all the time. He never came with his other daughters, because they thought it was boring. Elodie on the other hand loves this place and he took her here quite a lot. He would read his own book, or read one to her.

‘Tell me, sweetheart,’ he says, to break the painful silence between them. ‘How are you?’

Elodie doesn’t make eye contact with him, as she stares right ahead of her. ‘I’m okay.’

She can stop talking to him all together, basically ignoring him, but lying to him is something she simply cannot do. ‘Are you sure?’

‘No,’ she mumbles. ‘It’s just that I don’t want you to get mad at me.’

‘When have I gotten mad at you?’ he asks her.

She finally looks at him. ‘Never,’ she mumbles, ‘but dad… I’m scared.’

‘Sweetheart, why are you scared?’ he asks, turning a bit, so he can look at her.

Elodie’s eyes fill with tears and she brings a shaky hand to her mouth, to cover up the sob, but he knows her.

‘Come here, Elodie,’ he says, holding out his arm. She scoots over to him and lets herself be wrapped up in a tight hug. He presses a kiss on top of her head. ‘It’s all okay, princess.’

‘I’m so sorry,’ she cries out.

‘No, no, no, none of that,’ he tells her. ‘You don’t have to apologize.’

‘It’s just that…’ She takes a deep breath and whispers: ‘I have a girlfriend.’

That was what she was worried about? ‘Why would I get mad about something like that?’

‘Because Vanessa has a boyfriend and you love him and you continue to say that the rest of us should pick out a nice boy like Trey. Besides, you never said anything about the LGBTQ community and I figured that you might not support it.’

She has a point, he thinks to himself. He always jokes about how the girls should get themselves a boy like Trey, he barely mentions anything about the LGBTQ community and knowing that that scared her into thinking that he would get mad, makes him want to curse himself. ‘I’m sorry I gave you the impression that I do not support the LGBTQ community. I really am sorry about that and princess, I’m also really sorry that I made those jokes. I just didn’t really think about it, I guess.’

She pulls back a little and he sees her red and puffy eyes. ‘Dad, do you still love me?’

The fact that she has to ask this, is a punch in the gut. ‘Of course I still love you, Elodie. I love you so so so much and this will not change anything about that. Absolutely not.’

Elodie lets out a nervous laugh. ‘I love you too, dad.’

‘You still think I’m mad at you?’

She shakes her head. ‘No, I don’t.’

‘Good, little princess.’ He smiles at her and it earns him a beautiful, yet timid smile of his second daughter. He pulls her securely to his side and she places her head against his chest. ‘Now tell me all about this girl, because I need to know everything about her.’

‘Her name is Katie and she is in my Math class.’

He frowns. ‘Katie?’ he asks. ‘Didn’t she come over a few weeks ago?’

Elodie nods. ‘Yes, she did.’

‘Oh, but I thought she was really nice,’ he says.

Katie was open, extraverted and had the sense of humor that was quite crude, but also very funny. He liked her a lot and was happy that Elodie found a friend like her, who would pull her out of her shell a bit.

But the fact that they are dating makes him even more delighted.

‘When can we meet her as your girlfriend?’ he asks.

Elodie lets out a chuckle. ‘Maybe tomorrow. Vanessa, Chloe and Heather really wanted to meet her too, as my girlfriend this time.’

‘They knew?’

‘Yeah, they did. I think two weeks ago. Mom knew that Katie was my girlfriend when she came over. She actually has known for about two months now, that I like girls and for a month now that Katie and I are a couple.’

Now he really feels like an idiot. Why isn’t anyone telling him anything. Is he really not a good enough dad?’

She knows exactly what is going on inside his head. ‘Dad, the reason I didn’t tell you, was because I thought you’d love me less. Vanessa is this perfect daughter with the perfect boyfriend and then Heather and Chloe are also doing really well and I’m just me. Just boring, but gay.’

‘Oh no, sweetheart,’ he sighs, feeling like an even bigger idiot right now. ‘You are not just boring. You are so intelligent, such a lovely young lady and you, my love, are never just you. You have so much to offer and your mother and I are so lucky that you are our daughter.’

When they finally walk back to their house, she holds his hand. He doesn’t know how long ago that has happened, but he enjoys this moment, because he figures it won’t happen again any time soon.

She stops walking when they are almost home. ‘I love you, dad,’ she says. ‘And I’m sorry I didn’t tell you before.’

‘It’s totally fine. You should only tell me, your mother or sisters something when you feel comfortable. I mean, this is pretty big news.’

‘I know,’ she chuckles.

‘Can I ask you something?’

‘Sure.’

‘How long have you known? That you liked girls?’

She looks at their hands and says: ‘I always thought I was really weird for not falling in love in elementary school. But a few months ago I changed my math class and I sat next to Katie. It just clicked, I guess and then I started to dream about her. A lot. And I got so nervous all of the sudden around her, until one day she just asked me why I was being so weird. So I just told her and it turned out that she liked me too.’

He pulls her into a hug and closes his eyes, as he is happy that his daughter is visibly more relaxed right now. ‘I’m so happy for you, Elodie,’ he tells her and he means it from the bottom of his heart. He never thought about it really, that one of his daughters could come back with a girl, hence the comments he made to them. But seeing that smile on her face when she talks about Katie, it reminds him of how Simon talks about Belle, how he talks about Olivia and how Vanessa talks about Trey.

He just has to remember one important thing.

Love is love.

A few years later:

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despisydraws · 4 years

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Okay, so this went from headcanons to a one-shot draft real fast and I'm 100% not sorry to fill your entire timeline with trans Courfeyrac's first meeting with the Amis and his coming-out story

Enjoy this mess of a bullet point half-oneshot that has somehow gotten the length of 1,7k words, with no beta because we die like men

-It took Courf quite a long time to figure out what it was that made him so uncomfortable with himself and even once he came to conclusion he just tried to repress it

-He used to dress in extremely feminine clothes (mostly out of fear that nobody would want him anymore otherwise)

-Yep, right, he was super scared of being alone in the world and he constantly needed the assurance that he was needed

-He had a bunch of super shitty boyfriends who treated him like dirt and only wanted him as a status symbol, to have 'a hotter girlfriend than the others'

-He was so tired of being cheated on and used, but he felt so alone and helpless that he tried to hold on to every. single. one. of those douchebags

-That made them even greater assholes, of course, like a confidence boost (disgusting)

-He got rid of them only by them getting rid of him, what happened after a fairly short time (because 'He was just so clingy' and 'they never wanted a long-term relationship they just wanted some fun') (I repeat: disgusting)

-After an especially bad breakup, which he reasoned by himself not behaving enough as the girl he should be ('shitty-ex also said that, so it's true, right?'), his almost frantic femininity got even worse

-That was the phase in which he met Combeferre

-Courf was sitting in the corner of a very empty cafe, staring into his cup without drinking

-Ferre has to deal with the Amis, so he's kind of a hobby-therapist, he came over immediately and asked to sit with him

-He just sensed that something was off about 'the girl who constantly shoves her beautiful long curls back as if they were tiny snakes trying to bite her, who kneads the hem of her short dress nervously, trying not to let anyone see, who shifts her feet in her heels as if she stood on needles' - it reminded him of Enjolras, but in less furious and more hurt

-They chat a little and Ferre gets him to attend one of the amis' meetings

-They go there together, there is a mirror in the corridor of the cafe next to the coat rack, where Courf stops dead and just gazes at what has become of him

-Ferre just tries to calm him by saying 'don't worry, you look wonderful.' And Courf immediately clenches his jaw, because 'oh, great, another one of those guys...'

-Anyway they attend the meeting and Courf is absolutely in awe over Enjolras, about his strength and confidence, generally just his aura which is almost visible to him, red and burning

-Feuilly, who is a hobby-hairdresser and cuts cuts the hair of all of the Amis for free, takes one look at him and immediately goes "wooow, I'd love to cut your hair, can I cut it? Look at all those cool and sexy hairstyles over here *gestures to Bahorel* and here *gestures to Joly who grins and waves at him*, okay, over here I messed up *gestures to Bossuet, who notices Courfs mortified expression and goes 'no, don't worry, I'm naturally bald he's just joking!'* and Feuilly laughs and goes on with his rambling" but Courf is like 'no way, you're not gonna touch my hair, wtf?' And he avoids Feuilly because he has a vague feeling that the redhead is a huge creep...

-Enjolras takes one look at Courf and then turns to Ferre with a raised eyebrow

-They have something like a telepathic discussion about Courf, Ferre desperately wants to keep him because he just feels that it's right but Enjolras can't stand him because his behavior seems so fake (he can't get behind it yet, he tends to judge people immediately, like an instinct, and he really doesn't want a 'little prom queen Ferre wants to go off with' in his activist group. He should really know Ferre a little better than that, given the fact that they grew up together, and know that he's got his reasons, but Enj had a very bad day so he goes with whatever his mind tells him)

-Courf gets along quite alright with the others, especially with Bahorel, Grantaire and Jehan (even though he thinks they're a little weird) and 'that Joly is cute I guess'

-After the meeting they all get ready to go home and most of them have left already, Jehan suddenly comes up to him and hugs him deeply, saying how much they wish for Courf to stay with the group

How? How could anyone resist that?

-So Courf comes back a few times and when they plan to go on vacation with the group to strengthen the team spirit and mayyybe just have a chill weekend for once Courf is already included in the plans without them even asking him

-They go by train to a summer cottage Jehans parents own at the coast of Spain, right at the beach

-Courf shares a room with Grantaire and Joly and Bossuet, Enj and Ferre share a smaller room and Jehan sleeps with Feuilly and Bahorel on a huge extendible couch

-Let's say this is at a point where Courf has already gotten so much queer influence from this group that he is just confused and absolutely can't tell anymore who he is, because, apparently it's okay to not feel the same way your body lookw?? But that's colliding with everything he learned from the shitty douchebag boyfriends and his clique he had a few years ago????

-His mind is absolutely overwhelmed and he doesn't know what to do anymore, the assumption he had about himself is proving true at an alarming speed and he can't repress it anymore.

-Even though his is with such an open minded group now, he still fears to be cast out once he opens up

-He fears that they would think he was shamming himself again to fit in more ('I presented myself so different when he first met them, it would be strange, right? It would seem like a lie if I told them!')

-He sleeps less and cries a lot, this holiday should have been relieving but it has become the horror to him

-Everytime he sees Joly and Bossuet kissing, everytime Enjolras lifts his shirt in the heat, showing his scars and Grantaires' longing gazes, he excuses himself. He sits in the bathroom quietly, staring at the wall, until a person comes along who has to use it

-One night he can't take it anymore

-There's Grantaire and Bossuet snoring to both sides of him and Joly shifting in his boyfriend's arms the entire time, sometimes pressing a pillow on his face to stop the noise

-There is too much sound, too much movement around him so the thoughts that need to be thought, if not at daytime, then at least at night, get even louder

-He stands up with his blanket underneath one arm and quietly leaves the room into the dark hallway. His knees are shaking and all he wishes for is to break down on the floor but his body just can't pass that point of desperation, so he stumbles around until his hands find the next doorhandle and pushes it

-There is a muffled voice, saying "Don't even try it, Jehan, I hid your notebook. Go to sleep, write that thought down tomorrow..."

-When there is no reaction a bedside lamp is switched on, revealing Combeferres sleepy face

- "Ferre, turn the goddamn light on one more time and I'll kill you" Enjolras grunts from the other bed, turning his back to the room

-Combeferre just quietly signs for Courfeyrac to lay down next to him after he took one look at his face and he does (Ferre is after all still the one he trusts most)

-He crawls underneath Ferres blanket and buries his face against the latter one's chest and then everything just starts streaming out of him, all of his thoughts, all of his feelings, he just talks about everything for the first time

-As he ends there is silence and Combeferre places a kiss on his head when he starts to cry again

-Enjolras just quietly apologizes for being rude to him all the times before and stands up, moving over to the two of them

-He starts to tell Courfeyrac the story of his own coming out, how he got kicked out by his parents and had to move out of the city and live with Combeferre and something about the story calms him down

-He falls asleep sandwiched between Ferre and Enj after they had to promise to not tell anyone about it yet

-The next night he feels better but he is still restless

-He's up again, quietly shifting to the living room where he shakes Feuilly awake

C:"Can you help me with something?"

F:"Sure, what is it?"

C:"Cut my hair..."

-Feuilly is out and about in an instant and soon there is light in the kitchen, Courf is sitting on a stool they found in a small storeroom and Feuilly comes in with a grin and a pair of scissors

-The next morning the others almost don't recognize him anymore, if not because of his looks then because of his aura. He is genuinely happy for the first time in what feels like an eternity

-Even Enj is grinning when he sees him and stands up from the table where they are eating breakfast, putting an arm around his shoulders

"Listen here my boy, you don't know what danger you just put yourself in. Look at them, they're all gay and ready to eat you alive"

-The entire table bursts in chaos, Joly spits out his juice, Bahorel is screaming from the top of his lungs, Grantaire is muttering "I'm so in love, I'm so in love, I'm so in love" over and over again and Bossuet jumps up from his chair so suddenly it falls over "Enjolras made a joke?! Enjolras is funny?! My life is a lie!"

-Courfeyrac just laughs with them, glad that Enjolras saved him from all the awkward questions for now

-He sits down next to Combeferre and shoots him a small look

"Are you also, you know... gay and ready to eat me alive?" He chuckles and Combeferre turns his head into his direction with an amused smile "Eating you would be a little harsh, don't you think? But I admit, I have been thinking of eating with you this evening" "Are you... asking me out?" "What else could I have intended with that?"

And they all live happily ever after, finish, yaaay

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adhdslugcrimes · 5 years

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Being weird with characters

Me being weird to fandom characters. Persona 4 is my start. Leggo

Yu/Souji- looks calm and collected, is a cat whisperer. Has at least a box of fancy feast in his bag at all times, has a six sense of a cat nearby in his area. Ten strays always follows him. A great cook. That weird silent friend that makes you rethink why you look up too him. Leader of everything. Speak cat. Protecc friends from themselves. Literally fought god and won. Love his trash can prince. Moronsexual. Mr. steal your cat. Another man trash is another man treasure

Yosuke- the prince of junes, literally everyone mood. Best boi #2. Nurse kink. Headphones are apart of his body. Would die if he lost his headphones. Learn how to fix them because he’s clumsy. Bi disaster. That friend what hides how hurt he his because he’s afraid of being laughed at. The friend everyone hugs even for no reason. The one who stayed up drawling or making mixtape then studying. Begs leader to help him study. Awkward. Hates his drawings but they are actually wonderful. Dance for no reason. Draws his crash but never finishes because he “messed up.” Likes frogs. Wear v-neck in the middle of winter because he can. Very loud when flustered. Actually is a romantic dork. Calls up big lesbian when Yu/Souji does literally anything. Stan for leader breathing. Dances with Yu/Souji when he can. Is the cat whisperer moron. Makes music for everyone taste. Draw his friends on a regular basis.

Chie- big lesbian. Has a crush on her best friend since they were ten. Wakes up yosuke to tell him all about Yukiko. Act tough but really a soft butch. Would shave her sides to look more gay. Bring up how gay she is to a dense princess. Meat. Karate movie fan. Likes her legs. Kick any creep looking at her princess. Lifts her princess any chance she gets. Wears a skirt but still can kick your ass. Learns to cook so they don’t eat takeout all the time. Tries to be romantic but fails in a adorable way. Wears anything too show she’s gay. Slides in and kiss her girlfriend in front of a boy that can’t take a hint. Scared of horror films but acts tough to her girlfriend.

Yukiko- very gay too. Pillow lesbian. Most likely to laugh at horror films then the actual evil character. Loves her girlfriend a lot. Dance like beautiful swan. Is gay but look straight. Tries to turn down guys nicely. Flusters easily. Was dense about the girl she liked liking her back. Weird like Yu. Is romantic. Very sappy. Remember the first date in detail. When married to her wife she brags about her wife. Loves being carried. A princess in her girlfriend eyes. Tries to adopt every dog she sees. Cuts you with a fan. That friend that said the weirdest shit constantly. Wear black lace undergarments. Looks innocent but is not.

Teddie- the only straight one in the bunch. Lives in the closet. Likes to look cute. But fuck gender roles. Wear dresses and flirt with your gurl. Says bear a lot. Eats a lot but never gain a pound. Mr. steal your girl. The baby brother to everyone. Extrovert too the max. Very sweet. Shadow form is nightmares. ADHD af. Matchmaker for his brother and Sensei. Doesn’t understand why people hates his friends being their beautiful selfs. Has killed the homophobes and Tranphobes too make the world better. Killed as in destroyed them with logic and knowledge. Makes glasses and fix them.

Kanji- local gender roles breaker biker dude who loves the prince of detectives. Good at sewing, room decor, and other “girly” stuff. Bleached hair means business. Best boi #1. His shadow was pretty funny though. Cooks for everyone. Takes his lover to bed. Beat up anyone that hurts his family. Likes cute things. Precious baby. Makes things for friends. Tries to not be edgy anymore. Still weak for punk rock styles. Loves animals. Would stop listening to the conversation to pet animals. Has no filter. Dyes hair again for his wife. Every child favorite uncle/dad. Cries over not having enough hands to pet all the animals in the petting zoo.

Naoto- Is obviously a Tran’s boy but the creators chicken out. So if we can’t have transgender then genderfluid. Actually seen tapping her breast to look more masculine. Carries a water gun. Naoto shadow even wants to be a boy. It didn’t go away either she expected it. Very badass. Will shoot you if you mess with her family. Talks to Yu in a different language when she’s flustered. Mostly French. Let her friends call her he and likes it. Best detective ever.

Rise- very bi. Elegant bi. Has a lot of money and spoil her friends with it. Begs them to dance in her come back show. Destroy media when she came out bi and has a boyfriend and a genderfluid girlfriend (kanji and Naoto). Flirts with Yu too help push yosuke confession. Very romantic. Very flirty. Dress to impress. Forced Yosuke in a Santa dress for Yu present. Looks like angel is actually a demon too pranks. Badass boss lady. Prefer to be called queen of the idols as a joke. Helps get Kanji work in fashion and other things to help him out. Helps get Yosuke art and music seen with the brunette asked for her help. Rocks high curly pigtails like no other.

Nanako- everyone little sister. Must protecc at all times. Bring her to junes like she wants. Punched a man for almost killing her. Cried when she died. Cried when she lived. Sing the junes theme till you repeat it on beat with the commercial. Magic tricks. Plant things. No sleep till she’s out of the dungeon. Stay with her when she’s sick. Cry when she calls you big bro even if you are a female playing the game. Let her help cook. Eat the burnt omelette too make her happy. Love on the girl. If she says she’s a princess then she’s a fucking princess. Worry when she ran away. Be the best big bro. Support her dreams.

Ryotaro- tired dad. Best dad. Great husband. Tired of your shit. 99.9% of his blood is coffee. Black coffee like his mood. Gets you swim trunks for reasons when you really wanted that platypus tee. Talks about changing your dippers as a conversation starter. Hits you on the head as a sign of affection. Need a vacation. Need to sleep. Becomes your father then an uncle. Cares for his sister not so much who she married. Loves you unconditionally. Best dad. Very sassy.

Marie- goth chick. Don’t read her pathos. There actually poems. Can’t remember anything. Nobody knows her. You see her at the train station and then mysteriously she’s in the limo. Probably died? Sold her soul? Who knows. So much potential for a deeper backstory wasted. Kinda a dork. Likes steak. And dramas.

Margaret- mom too all of these idiots and Naoto. Loves her job. Makes people gay. Very pretty. Very serious. Smart. Very strong. Dance like a goddess. Makes you wanna talk about anything just to hear her voice. Lives in a limo like a boss. Makes it easier to understand what’s happening. Not really but you listen because other dimension calls for it. Likes books.

Igor- weird nose guy. Eyes that are on all the drugs that’s what they are bulging. Handsome voice actually. Surround himself with ladys this time. Tells you shit you better listen too. Very short. Very distracting nose. Probably smells colors at this point. Also smells bull shit. Talks about topics that you careless about. Make him say you’re name. Let’s you name yourself whatever you like. Sick limousine. In your dreams.

Adachi- cabbage boy. Literally an asshole. Murders for fun. Very gay for Ryotaro. Threw up at the body he murdered. Fooled people. Top ten anime betrayals. Is in prison. A spit lip and a black eye before handing him off to the police for almost killing Nanako and revenge for Saki. Still a slightly lovable guy.

That’s all the main ones. Might continue this or not who knows. But I might do another fandom next or another persona. Also any ideas for a name of this?

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basement-critics · 5 years

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I'm Gay.... And I Failed As A Husband

Hey guys I wanted to do something new today. And that is, talk to you about my sexuality.

Now first off let's look at the definition of gender, the state if being male or female (typically used with reference and cultural differences rather than biological ones). Which you know, means if you view yourself socially as a girl, other people socially view you as a girl, you might be a girl, might be.

Regardless in 2013 this is what my spouse looked like.

[Plays a clip from an old livestream]

Okay so as you see, Laineybot was an amazing,perfect, wonderful human being. Yadda yadda yadda, I'm in love with my spouse go figure. But let's move forward to 2014.

[Shows a pic of Lainey]

As you can see, Laineybot’s hair is much shorter, I was the one that suggested that they cut their hair short, and they did. And as a result of Lainey cutting their hair short they wound up being pretty dang happy.

[Shows more pics of Lainey]

Lainey remained, quite the knockout. And you know, super happy, yadda yadda.

[Plays a video clip of Lainey doing some epic flips]

This is actually Lainey a year earlier, I just wanted to show how awesome they are on a trampoline.

[More of Lainey doing cool flips]

As you can see in this clip I was actually calling Lainey a girl, this is from quite a few years earlier.

[Clips of Lainey riding on a scooter and bike]

And here is Lainey and I riding on a scooter, and Lainey not afraid to do boyish things. Dobbs not afraid to pointlessly bury things

[Another pic of Lainey]

Here is Lainey in 2014, already fiddling around with my clothing. Which girly girls do as well, so that's not necessarily definite.

Flash forward to 2015, as you can see Lainey let the hair grow out slightly and then, boom, where did it all go. 2015 was a very active hair year for Lainey, and Lainey even wound up kissing a girl for the first time that year.

[Shows pic of Lainey and Billie kissing]

Which you know, was cool for me. Because when it comes to people with biologically female parts, I'm a very polyamorous person. But yeah you can see, Lainey when full on cutting all the hair off pretty much. My hair is actually longer than Lainey’s here.

[Plays that awkward video of Lainey and Billie doing the Lady and the Tramp kiss]

Here's the thing of them coming close to kiss, this is all for a sketch by the way. So nothing to super cereal, Lainey going to hug me, then dodging me and walking over to the new girlfriend. I relate to the expression.

Regardless let's go to 2016, 2016 we have the hair grown out a bit. Then it's quite short again, short again, short again, short.

[Pic of Lainey in the woods in girl's pants and a girl's top]

And here Lainey has gone full boyish

[Clip of Lainey looking like a normal person]

Here's Lainey in full motion of looking like a civilized emo look. Just chilling and talking, although I will say this was a difficult time for us because we were struggling with the whole polyamorous concept. Which if you've never been in a poly relationship it's quite a balancing act. Like you are trying to make everyone happy, but everyone has different needs.

Regardless it's safe to say the whole year of 2016 Lainey looked very similar. Almost as if they established a style they like. Now let's just do, 2017 and 2018. As you can see Lainey is totally comfortable with being boyish now.

[Shows a very feminine pic of Lainey]

Pretty much just baking in it. Lainey being boyish, Lainey being boyish, in this video in earlier 2018. That's right, I looked like that earlier this year. What happened? Shut up, that's what happened. Ugh, I was glorious, not even that long ago.

Regardless it's almost like our gender roles switched, which is interesting. Alright so in this video right here I talk about when it's okay to misgenders people. And I say are premature, and by premature I mean that I would develop over time. I must say that's a nice outfit, I don't know what the hell I'm wearing right now.

[Plays clip from his video about how he misgenders Lainey in the bedroom]

[Plays another clip from him talking about Lainey being non binary]

As you can see here I'm making an effort to gender my spouse correctly. But I have revealed in prior videos, that in romantic moments I may say things like “yeah girl” or other things that are specific to gender. As I've previously said I'm into females right.

And that's the problem with my logic, you see my logic is, that female and girl are the same thing. Which contradicts so many videos I've made, the reality of the situation is, while the definition of homosexual is someone who is attracted to the same sex, and app sex is presenting something in a more interesting or lively way.

I guess my videos are sex.

No, but sex is synonymous with gender. And gender is used with references to social and cultural differences not biological ones. So most of the definitions regarding sex are a little more specific to science, your physical body, etc.

So with the way society is going, gay, may entirely be based on your brain. Let me show you

[Pulls up image from a debunked article]

So this image an image the shows up saying that a gay brain is structured like the opposite sex, and this is all the information basically summuring up exactly what they are talking about.

So if a gay brain mimics that of the opposite sex and we as people are composed of what’s going on in our brain. Then it sounds to me that a trans boy having sex with is actually straight, cause their guy brain is attracted to a girl brain.

My question to you is in long term relationships how much time do you spend in the bedroom? Probably 30% of your total day, maybe 40%? Okay so most of the relationship is not about genitalia. Really the only way most relationships can survive if your brains are compatible with each other.

So what I'm saying is, we as people are who we are primarily on the inside basically our brains, or souls if you believe in them. Then what defines our attraction to people, our brains, or our genitalia.

Okay with that being said, to all trans boys or trans girls, if you sleep with someone with a different brain than you then you are straight, or at the very least bi. But I want to tell you something, a while ago I did say that in romantic settings I like using girl words for my partner. I asked if it was okay and they said it was okay, because they didn't want to make me uncomfortable.

You see my spouse, this beautiful wonderful human being who has been struggling with gender for a while. They've been going through this struggle primarily because of me, they said they were fine with me misgendering them or whatever. Because they are terrified of me leaving them, and it's really not a great thing that I didn't pick up on this sooner because I live with them, I'm with them everyday.

[Since I became more loving/encouraging of Lainey being whatever they wish to be, even more so than before. Lainey no longer feels the need to do many, if any, things people would often associate with girly activities, such as wearing certain clothes or makeup]

[I was what was holding Lainey back from becoming themselves. They were constantly insecure about the idea that I only wanted a girly girl, so they tried to meet me halfway]

I should have been more considerate of their feelings. Anyway what I'm saying is, in a romantic setting I tried out the male pronouns, he/him. In a romantic situation I addressed my partner in a more boyish manner. The first time I ever did it I immediately had trouble, like it was difficult for me. And that's because I was viewing gender based on the body, and not on the mind.

But when you start to separate gender from sex, as it should be, because scientifically our brains are different than our bodies in many instances. When you are intelligent enough and not so redneck, that you can't comprehend the difference, then you start to see being gay and being straight is entirely, 100% a brain thing.

But no, once I started the he/him pronouns for my partner in romantic settings and I associated it with the mind and not the body. When I have the mental capacity to separate the two, I realize very clearly that this is the future of the world. Relationships as we know them are bound to change. I hope that a lot of you jump on board with me in accepting that this is the future because, 1. it doesn't hurt anybody and 2. it's important that we know who we are. A lot of us are gay, or bi without even knowing it.

Like I'm definitely bi, but being bi comes with a little bit of being gay. Yeah this video is not clickbait, I am actually a complicated person when it comes to the genders I'm attracted to. For instance if there is someone who has a male’s body, but they have a female mind, I might be attracted to them, okay, it's happened before.

[Stupid pie chart]

In rare cases when a male has a male body and make brain, then it's possible but unlikely. Now a male brain in a female body I'm on board 100%. A female brain in a female body I'm on board about, 70% I don't really like girly girls, it's kind of annoying, it's really annoying being with a girly girl.

What I'm saying is that I accidentally wound up with the perfect partner, and if you see my spouse Lainey start to go by a he/him or go by Eli or whatever name they decide for themselves. Then they know from our private conversations that I support them 100%. I'm 100% behind Eli, if that's what he wants his name to be. I love my spouse very much, and I'm so lucky to have them. And also just so you guys understand, I was totally into it, okay. I'm 100%, when I say 100g it's not like a sacrifice on my part. It's something I really enjoyed, I finally get it. And I hope a lot of trans people and the people they are dating can get it too. Because this is what really defines us, it's really what matters. And we need to stop talking about all this nonsense, that's not even really accalbuble *I didn't spell that word right* or relevant.

#anti onision #anti laineybot #laineybot #onision #drama #video #virtue signaling #stop it

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All the gay asks bc you made me do all of them

OWO thank you I love you1. describe your idea of a perfect dateAll of them??? Kakhiwkdkalgr walking around the beach or going to a bookstore or maybe a forest to chill or an abandoned place for a spooky date??? Movie date??? Ocean date??? Marriage date??? All good!!! Crab catching would certainly be on the agenda though. The oceans the best2. whats your “type”My type? Uhh anyone that’s nice to me lmao. Someone i can joke with and I know that cares about me. Quiet on the outside but like, nurturing and fun when you get to know em. Someone that doesn’t let people treat em like garbage because i yearn to be like that. On a side note I’m not sure why but most people i used to tend to have crushes on were ISFJs (or ESFJs) probably because they fit the criteria above. I don’t really like people that are totally my personality, and I think it’s important to not surround yourself with yes people or people that vehemently disagree with you. And communication! V important In terms of looks though? The kinds of girls I’m attracted to vary a lot actually. Buff girls soft girls tall girls short girls thin girls medium girls big tiddy little tiddy it’s all good. I guess I tend to prefer girls that aren’t white (not in a fetishistic way of course it’s just most girls that I’ve had crushes on or knew that were gay that were white just had really bad personalities and that brand of White Feminism™️ sorry if I worded this poorly) brown or black hair I guess? Just someone that doesn’t look like me adjnrujbslltgbk. Also someone I can squish and hug nicely. Of course I think there’s a lotta bullshit with people limiting themselves to only a few criteria and the racism or body type discrimination is total bullshit. Fetishisation is just as bad. There’s just so many cute girls out there why be a shitlord to people y’know? 3. do you want kids?Later on in life, if my partner would then yeah sure why not. I hate babies though so I would...4. if you do, will you adopt or use some other form of child birth?Adopt definitely. I’d personally prefer to adopt a kid that’s older, because they have a less chance of being chosen and I want them to be raised in a loving environment. 5. describe the cutest date you’ve ever been onI’ve never been on an actual date ;v; but tbh any date I’d have with my gf would automatically top the list6. describe your experience having sex for the first time (were you nervous? or was it easy peasy?)I’ve never had sex so I got no gosh dang clue aside from fantasies, which I would be nervous as heck but ultimately want to be as adoring as possible and kisses everywhere7. are you a morning time gay or night time gay?Mornings when you don’t have to go to things are amazing and beautiful but otherwise afternoon or night time gay. Anything that isn’t midday is good though8. opinion on nap dates?I’d be down for it. Sleeping is great, but cuddling and sleeping? Even better! Doesn’t matter for how long but yes! Good shit!!! 9. opinion on brown eyes?Only the most beautiful thing ever??? Brown and black eyes being ugly is a government lie, they are gorgeous. Black eyes just have that deep obsidian stare and like an adoring cat with dialated pupils you just want to hug, and brown eyes??? When the light hits them or you’re staring into them? Beautiful galaxies my dude. 10. dog gay or cat gay?I love dogs but I would never own one unless my partner wanted one. They’re just not a companion I prefer to cats. Cats are very good and fluffy and compact in comparison to dogs. Dogs are amazing though and I need to pay every one I see. 11. would you ever date someone who owned rodents or reptiles?Dude we already planned to live in a pseudo-barn to have crabs, rats, bats, cats and lizards 12. whats a turn off you look for before you start officially dating someoneSomeone who’s very ‘my way or the high way’. (My mum’s a lot like this and it’s caused me to try to constantly be appeasing. But with my mental illness I’ve gotten a lot more irritated by it.) Or someone that is a bit too mean I’m joking about people to the point where you don’t know if they’re serious. (I have this problem a lot with ‘friends’ and it leads to a lot of doubts and depression.) Also highly argumentative people who want to seem better than you and debate everything you say. (Just...ew.)13. what is a misconception you had about lgbt people before you realized you were one?I live in a homophobic family, so I used to think gay was a swear word lmao. I was told that we were unnatural, burning in hell, hypersexual, all that shit. Issues on trans people were even worse, and back when I considered the possibility of me being a trans man (while I experience dysphoria In my body I don’t think I would ID as a man- at the time I didn’t know what agender identities were) I was made to feel like it was the worst thing ever or that it didn’t exist that everyone was just straight and ‘normal’ 14. what is a piece of advice you would give to your younger selfDon’t pretend you’re aroace to hide who you are, you’re autistic but that’s okay just don’t overwhelm yourself, try to do things to the best you can. Also toxic feminity/masculinity is bullshit don’t feel guilty about wearing anything. You’re gay it’s so much easier now and don’t let people dictate of make you defend yourself 15. (if attracted to more than one gender) do you have different “types” for different genders?Lmao nah. There is always that awkward moment when you think you see a hot butch but then he’s a twink. Bamboozled again. 16. who is an ex you regret?A few years ago I was forced into a relationship with some rude ass dude who ignored that I ID’d as aroace at the time. I guess at the time I had some comp het so I think that’s why I went along with it? It was kinda some toxic shit like nothing nsfw but he was just a huge dick that went off at the slightest disagreement and I’m glad I got rid of that trash lmao17. night club gay or cafe gay?Cafe gay by far!!! Well I’ve never been to a night club, but I’m someone who gets overwhelmed by loud noises and people, so it wouldn’t be the place for me. Cafes are relaxing18. who is one person you would “go straight” forNo one lmao, The only possibility of slightly me becoming straight is like a fictional character19. video game gay, book gay, or movie gay?Books and video game gay! There needs to be more gaymes, but books are good I just have less time to read them as opposed to gaymes which I can do whenever 20. favourite gay ship (canon or not)Probably RenMerry from Touhou! These two mean a lot to me, and got me into the series that helped me realise I was a lesbian! These two just work so well together that I strive to have a relationship like that- a slightly bickery old couple with the freshness of new adventure tied together with a love that will never fade away even as it transcends borders~21. favourite gay youtuberDon’t really have one. I’m not really into the British youtuber scene and the ones that I do sub don’t really talk about their sexuality or not (I think sailor j might be bi? But that’s about it) I usually watch comedy channels or vocaloid covers. Actually Oktavia’s Gay, yeah let’s go with her. Her voice is amazing and made me realise how much I love deep voices22. have you ever unknowingly asked out a straight person?Ahbkowejkboesh I’ve had crushes on straight people that I’ve wanted to hang out with but no of course not I’m too shy for that shit23. have you ever been in love?Yes! And I’m still doing so right now! 24. have you ever been heartbroken?While in a relationship? No. But like the whole ‘falling in love with a straight girl senpai and then everyone tells her that you have a crush on her which causes you to be distant to each other leading you to cry copiously at her graduation and never truly repairing your friendship which is all you ever wanted and never being able to talk to her again?’ ...y yeah 25. how do you determine if you want to be them or be with someoneHonestly I try to make a distinction between ‘people I have crushes on’ and ‘people I would date’ bc yeah someone might be cute but dating is another story. I’m someone who varies a lot in style (as someone who may possibly be gender fluid or agender but hasnthad the opportunity to explore that for family reasons) 26. favourite lgbt musician/bandUhhh Queen I guess? Idk I need more gay shit recommend me please. Queen is quality shit though 27. what is a piece of advice you have for young / baby gaysDon’t ever feel the need to apologise or defend you being gay. Be happy even if other people aren’t about you. If you’re autistic chances are you’ll question your identity, don’t worry about it and just love who you love. If you’re a lesbian especially don’t apologise or feel you have to be in a certain role to ‘be truly gay’ and also please ask people out otherwise you’ll never get anywhere- all lesbians are useless and I got lucky shjgowkgowlgr. But above all, don’t feel guilty and have fun exploring yourself and fleshing our who you are, even if you can’t always show that out loud. 28. are you out? if so how did you come outI’m not out to any family member (I say that I’m aroace but they believe I’m straight despite jokes on the contrary) but pretty much everyone that isn’t a complete stranger knows. I can’t help but talk adoringly over my girlfriend so it just happens. Otherwise I go on some spheal about homophobic bullshit dropping hints that I’m gay before saying I’m gay. It’s led to some shittalking and other various bullshit but I don’t give a fuck anymore 29. what is the most uncomfortable / strange coming out experience you have Believing I was aroace and my friends saying that i was in denial of being gay. I was like ‘lmao Domi’s just a friend I lowkey have a crush on her but she’s just being nice :^)’ then like a week later burst through the door like BITCH GUESS WHOS GAY FOR HER GIRLFRIEND 30. what is a piece of advice for people who may not be in a safe place to express their sexualityEvaluate the consequences of coming out. While I live in a homophobic family, Australia is somewhat accepting and there’s no conversion therapy to my knowledge at least (there are highly fundamentalist Christian groups but I’m not sure if they include forms of violence) Especially if you are in an anti-gay country or an area where you could be persecuted, I think it’s important to be out to at least one person you know who supports you. It could be online or a friend that you know you could trust (if you don’t know if you could try subtly bring it up and see their reaction, but better safe than sorry.) because it’s hard to go through this entirely alone. While it’s important to be unapologetic of who you are, it’s more important to protect yourself- this doesn’t make you wrong, but the people who make you feel wrong wrong.

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