#My philosophy in psychology

[unhelpfulfemme]

Another thing I liked is how Laurent's trauma is handled, because usually when a character has a Secretly Traumatic Backstory there's some kind of annoyingly maudlin scene about it. Either they get into some kind of big conflict with the love interest and are forced to explain themselves so they don't get judged or dumped, or the love interest intrudes on a vulnerable moment and sees them being abused or somehow handling the consequences of that abuse, or they are explained the circumstances by a benevolent third party, and this changes their view of the abused character because now they're god's poorest meow meow and I just fucking hate it every time.

Like, this is why I stopped reading this type of story: because the amount of crowding and backing into a corner and privacy violation that happens to abused characters in order to coax them into opening up about it and reassure them that they're okay is so annoying. I feel like I've been psychologyposting on main too much lately, so I might explain later why I feel this way or I might not but in any case I hate it.

I love that this book is the literal opposite of that, that Damen not only doesn't crowd Laurent and insist that he open up, but that Damen ensuring space and privacy and time to calm down for Laurent when he's overwhelmed is repeatedly portrayed as an act of friendship and caring and love (that Laurent later reciprocates, because they both lose their heads when something pushes their buttons and understand this about each other).

I also love how Damen doesn't fall in love with Laurent because Laurent is sad and fucked up, or because he's so brave to have put up with the abuse, or because Damen too is sad like Laurent (I'm physically restraining myself from going off on a rant about how shared trauma is hardly ever a good foundation for a relationship): no, he falls in love with Laurent because he's whip-smart, and a good leader, and funny, and tender once he opens up, and a lateral thinker, and a man of integrity who keeps his promises and pays back his debts (and because he's pretty and blonde and good at sporty shit that Damen likes). Some of these things may have been shaped by the awful shit that happened to Laurent, as they were also probably shaped by his station or his education or his body type or any other circumstance of his life, but it's refreshing to have a character who went through awful shit but who also has other things going on for him that make him loveable instead of being completely defined by his trauma. And even when Damen finds out, the way he thinks about Laurent literally doesn't change at all - the things he likes about Laurent are still seen in the same light as always, Laurent's personality as a whole is still the same, even his attitude towards what Laurent did to him when they first met doesn't change much (as we see in the short story epilogue). And even this last bit is really cool because Laurent is never stripped of his agency or made out into some sort of helpless victim currently, both of which would probably mortify him with how much he's trying to establish that he's not at any opportunity.

And I also like how it's not necessary for Laurent to tell Damen about it in order for them to be close, nor does Damen push him into it. And everyone else seems to agree that it's Laurent's story to tell when and how he wants it told, except for the villain of the piece, who reveals it in the most awful way possible. This is particularly important because Damen spends three books grabbing everyone in Laurent's life by the shoulders and shaking them and going, "Why do you care about this guy??? Have you noticed that he's kind of an ashole?? Why are you loyal to him?? Why???" and no one ever says anything, because they're protective of Laurent and don't want to take away his agency or privacy because it's his fucking story to tell. Even after Damen finds out, we don't see him mention it and he probably lets Laurent open up or not on his own terms, as he does with everything else that doesn't directly concern him. Even though we've seen through Laurent's dialogue time and time again that he's probably conceptualizing it in some fucked up ways in his own head and needs yet to realize that he's not some kind of twisted pervert for what happened to him, crowding him about it before he's ready won't accomplish much.

And the story itself backs all this by never being maudlin about it even though it's obvious what happened pretty early on (I figured it out really early, I remember suspecting it almost immediately and being dead sure of it by the Ancel scene in the garden); it kind of elipses around it, gives hints and parallels to other characters in similar circumstances, has Laurent say incoherent shit that makes sense in context, has other characters hint at it, but with Laurent being one of the central characters it's cool that the story gives him that respect and doesn't wallow in the tragedy of it all.

#captive prince #I'm gonna be honest I've only read one other story where this kind of well-meaning breaking of boundaries was explicitly portrayed as bad #and it was a darth maul-centric fic of all things #special mention for my most beloathed cordelia vorkosigan pop psychology philosophy of talking at people until they #understand why they're wrong to feel bad about something #which drove me up the wall even though I liked those books

[theshadowworker]

Take care when battling your demons that you don't banish the best thing about you

- Friedrich Nietzsche

#inner work #self work #shadow work #friedrich nietzsche #jungian shadow #philosophy quotes #existentialism #jungian psychology #jungian archetypes #philosophy #psychology quotes #psychology #shadow self #shadow work quotes #witchblr #fighting my demons #fighting demons #dark psychology #dark night of the soul #dark side

[ruminiscence]

Character Analysis of Johan Liebert - Monster, Naoki Urasawa (2004)

In my opinion, Johan represents Jung's concept of the shadow, which is why both Tenma and Nina couldn't kill him in the end. Despite tirelessly, and relentlessly going after him. If they did end up doing so, they would be destroying themselves in the process. The constant fear on Tenma's face once he heard the buzz words 'monster' and 'inside of me' highlights his underlying fear. It is, of course, aggravating, considering how close they both were to killing Johan (multiple times, might I add). But, to them, it would have come at too high a cost.

Consequently, Johan was not the monster he and everyone thought him to be. The forgiveness Nina offered to Johan (as well as) Tenma’s acceptance (in a way) gave Johan that validation. In my opinion, Johan had an identity problem, not a complete lack thereof, as most people say. Johan completely understood how senseless the world is; the picture book from his childhood made sense of that senselessness. That narrative (mostly born from the book) gave significance to his existence, whether he knew it or not. I found it interesting that he went through several names throughout his life, but ‘Johan Liebert’ was recurring. Whether this is just for convenience's sake, I don’t know.

The scene where we see his reaction when re-reading the book (likely the first time since he was a child) furthers this notion. Johan's facial expressions are to be paid attention to, every single one, even if they barely change. We see the most significant change in his face in the final scene: that of sheer disappointment, hopelessness, and defeat. His master plan did not go accordingly; the plan was for him to be completely wiped off the face of the earth, rendered fictitious. The drunk man who unexpectedly shot him stripped him of that. So did Tenma, in not allowing Johan to kill/destroy his (Tenma’s) altruistic nature.

Johan's perfect suicide ultimately fails because he is not the nameless monster he believed himself to be; this is shown merely in the fact that he does not kill (nor even think about killing) Nina & Tenma; he realised that they are the only two people to understand him in this world. This also explains Johan's bizarre attachment to Tenma from the get-go (which also makes a lot of sense). In the scene where we listen to the tape, we're made aware of Johan's desperation; he does not want to forget 'Anna'; he believes they are the only two people in the world. Later on, Tenma was added to that list. Hence, every other person's life is rendered meaningless to Johan; this is the reason for his remorseless killings, of course. He killed everyone that could eventually be tied into his and Anna/Nina's existence, and arguably Tenma, too.

I also think Johan eventually lets go of this (seemingly) obsession with names in the final scene. Whether the last scene of him and Tenma speaking was a dream or not remains significant. Before Tenma reveals his potential real name to Johan, the subject is changed. This is when we learn about the biological mother's sacrifice. Despite her not choosing to sacrifice Johan, he still doubts the decision. All of this is to say that perhaps the failure of his perfect suicidal plan was, in fact, the real success after all. He successfully kills everyone who does not know him but knows of the nameless monster's existence. This explains why the only two people on this earth who did are still alive and were eventually saved emotionally.

In a way, they also saved Johan too. Hence the *seemingly* peaceful disappearance from the hospital. He just wanted to be understood. This is also why I believe he asked Nina to shoot him as a child and then again all those years later. His mother placed this seed of doubt, which he seemed confident in, but because of Nina's existence, he could extend this and not be entirely solid in this sense of doubt. He latched this on to Nina's being, hence merging their identities. As a child, he did seek her forgiveness despite his contradictory actions (asking to be shot). When she finally offered forgiveness in a similar situation later on, the doubt was gone. That little spec of forgiveness and acceptance was all he needed. Acceptance is not to say that he wanted her or even Tenma to accept his actions; hence, Johan says, 'We can't turn back now' when Nina does forgive him. Other people and their deaths (at his hands) simply did not matter to him; he was utterly indifferent to it. So evidently, that one thing mattered to him, which he mostly did not believe to be real; it turned real, giving him what he had so desperately been looking for since childhood. He is saved. The only three people that mattered in the show (concerning Johan's essence) are saved. 

#johan liebert #monster anime #anime review #character analysis #kenzo tenma #nina fortner #anna liebert #naoki urasawa #nihilism #carl jung #anime and manga #anime recommendation #thriller #psychological thriller #psychology #philosophy #human behaviour #insights #thoughts #my thoughts #dr tenma #monster #monster manga #anime #johan monster #tenma monster #naoki urasawa's monster

[ghoulierstudio]

I could no longer resist the urge to make an altoid tin shrine for my inspirations. It long feels overdue

#egon schiele #edvard munch #charles baudelaire #wassily kandinsky #franz kafka #vincent van gogh #decadence #decadence philosophy #art theory #art philosophy #art psychology #existentialism #against nature #Karl Huysmans #altoid shrine #my art #dark acamedia #light acamedia #art history #art academia

[spotsupstuff]

Cap's got a new voice claim! feat. a tiny bit of Sparrows n her's unchanged vc because 1. it's cute to hear them together and 2. I snorted. The vibes are so different

[songs: So Familiar by Jean Castel and Driving Myself Home by Rose Betts]

#rw #oc tag #oc: caper of euros #oc: three sparrows #philosophy sessions au #ramble time. kai ninyago as Capie of Rossie wasn't Bad but i've been working on him lately- like looking into his faults their causes their #-evolution and what role he's supposed to play beyond Row's death (esp. in Preacher's life (Euros manages to be terrifying for the kid)) #n i came to the conclusion that he didn't sound Sharp enough. and bratty but like in a teenager boy band kind of way. oh he'd hate that- #-kinda music </3 fuckin european posh kid #the ''tragedy'' of 'Ros on here is that back when i was answerin questions with the chars 'Ros n 'Row were constantly together and that- #-didn't allow them to really show who they are because they bring out the best in each other. Sparrows is braver with him having her back- #-and he's not a rude fucker (one of the reasons i turned off asks is cuz i figured they weren't actually helpful. only stressed me out n- #-as result the world/character building became lackluster) #Euros is still a silly guy who's scared to hurt someone/thing physically! (his inspos are kai ninyago s0kka and kuzc0 so) #but ill be damned if i let any of my characters be *just* a silly guy that is fucking obnoxious #each of these fuckers is a psychological experiment. also sick shit: new 'Ros vc is french apparently :) #he can sing Zephyr songs in Her Tongue™... get it anime chin boy get that multilinguality

[rogdona]

being in public will not stop me from drawing furry stuff YOLO and all that

#u would think it would get me side eyes but ppl here liked my stuff tho idk if they saw furries when they watched me that one time #but like this university covers art psychology and philosophy i think drawing naked furries is the most normal thing ud find here

[art-of-mathematics]

Evolution of the sciences throughout history

Yesterday I could finally scribble a rough framework of an observation and concept I had regarding the sciences, and how they emerged from some ancient mysticism pseudoscience stuff, such as astrology and alchemy.

I considered 5 stages:

Primordial stage: Natural philosophy

Early/primitive stage: Alchemy, Math(could also be between primordial and early stage), Astrology

Main stage: Chemistry, Anatomy and Biology, Physics, Astronomy

Early interdisciplinary stage: Biochemistry, microbiology, astrophysics, nuclear and particle physics, cosmology, quantum physics

Complex interdisciplinary stage: Sociology, psychology, neuroscience, cognitive science

... then coming back to logic and linguistics and looping back to philosophy... and a new round begins... (What does this mean in concrete? That one is for another article as it would exceed the margin now. (But it has to to with dynamical iterative rendering processes, to summarize it.))

#from the backyard of my theoretical bullshittery factory #science #science history #math #mathematics #philosophy #physics #cognitive science #neuroscience #biology #chemistry #anatomy #astronomy #psychology #linguistics #logic #science philosophy #theoretical nonsense #theoretical bullshit

[saschirmations]

if you like @saschirmations try therapy

#affirmations #saschirmations #greek mythology or at least allegory you know how it is #persephone #disco elysium #shivers #salome #scheherazade #cultist simulator #moth #grail #poetry #philosophy #adhd #richard siken #louise glück #psychology or psychosis or hashtag trauma or whatever gets people flocking to my honestly hilarious and cunty posts lub lub #shitpost #saschacant

[lil-tumbles]

So I'm supposed to be doing homework rn but instead I typed out an A4 essay about how the two shows "Doctor Who" and "The Good Place" each represent alternate ideas on what you can do when you reach that depressing conclusion that the universe doesn't care.

This is based on humanistic psychology and existential philosophy. I did not read it before I printed it out. I am now making notes on it in biro, and will turn this in to my philosophy and psychology teachers probably when I start the new school I'm doing all this homework for. Just want my new teachers to understand the level of mental illness they're dealing with here.

Oh and here's the essay. Consider this a first draft:

G!rl help now I'm even more mentally ill about this

#dw #doctor who #my writing #autism #Whovian #existential philosophy #the good place #chidi #eleanor shellstrop #chidi anagonye #the doctor #davros #Missy #the master #Lila's writing #humanistic psychology

[aprilliouz]

Kadang,

Lebih baik untuk melepaskan

Berbesar hati mengizinkan mereka untuk tumbuh dan memancarkan warnanya sendiri

Tanpa warna dan apapun dari kita

Dan kita pun demikian

Bertumbuh

Melepaskan yang membebani

Dan memancarkan warna baru

Biarkan apa yang pernah terjadi

Diukir jadi cerita indah untuk dihormati

#move on #melepaskan #let it go #kontemplasi #bertumbuh #growth #psychology #self love #mindfulness #my life philosophy #reminder #self reminder #happiness #pengingat #love

[yea-baiyi]

another xie lian headcanon:

his face looks saintly when he smiles gently but it’s not particularly well suited for laughing, his laughing face is a bit ugly - he’s got the kind of laughing face where he’s whole face creases and it looks like he might be crying. if not for his lack of aging + unreal good skin to begin with, he would have gotten deep smile lines down his cheeks — one of the few features he got from his father.

#from the drafts #my visions n delusions #xianxia jesus #xie lian #tgcf #i’m sorry i haven’t forgotten about my hualian headcanon posts #i have this whole THING. #about his face and his hair and how his voice sounds. but i have no idea how like. put that in a post. that makes sense to read #like i have this whole design philosophy about xie lian and how his appearance feeds into his psychology #if anyone is down to edit this draft for me i’ll take it. #my depressed ass has been sitting on this for months

[quil12]

Honestly, this game feels like drugs sometimes

#persona 2 #persona 2 eternal punishment #just the fact that absolutely no one is phased about this #this is the additional scenario btw #the last part of it #katsuya is very much a catboy though #'catsuya' if you will #hes also like really smart though too #like man was talking so much to do with like philosophy and psychology and i had no idea what was even coming out of his mouth #i do feel like there are so many similar themes and ideas particularly between p2 and p5 though #like not even just the talking cat #but like how in is there was the moral question about if its right for people to not have to work toward their dreams #thats literally just third semester in p5r #which i always thought was one of the best written persona plots #but to find out that p2 did it first #and more as a subplot than anything else #p2 just has good writing #im gonna be one of those people now that ive actually played it #but like i think its my favorite story in the whole series #havent played 1 yet #so i cant say for sure #but like...

[hamletthedane]

Love living in the period of human history where I can decide to learn something new on a whim and be signed up for several college courses on the subject within an hour

#this post is brought to you by me being 3/4ths of the way through multiple college course programming and compsci classes #despite graduating with a legal doctorate and being done with school for a while now #you can just?? sign up for them?? #and many of them are free???????? #and programming is just my particular flavor of hobby for this #there’s art classes novel writing classes philosophy psychology astronomy… #not to mention what you can learn on YouTube… #shut up e

[oatbugs]

there are 2 ppl i want to befriend so badly rn u have no idea

#one of them is in a seminar im 5 mins late to rn #she does philosophy + maths and shes clearly gay and she carries her violin w her everywhere #she knows a lot about set theory and the nature of abstractions and has a very cool accent #the other one is in my psychology seminar and she has curly hair and the sweetest voice n smile #also i bet shes actually a model like fr #ok lets go in the seminar

[aroacehanzawa]

rip hermann hesse you would've loved the heart of thomas by moto hagio

#not the purple wiki highlighted links to hesse and demian LOL #this was actually the origin story of my hesse pipeline #sorry all i've been doing today is hesseposting but that's because his works live in the same part of my brain as shoujo BL #and i need all of you to see my vision #i'm trying to yaoibait all of you into reading german spiritual philosophy and jungian psychology books #hesseposting

[what-yadoking-likes]

The heisters occasionally hold ‘Slides Parties’.

The premise is very simple - any heister who wants to participate as a presenter can do so. They must prepare and present a short PowerPoint presentation on the topic of their choosing - and it can, indeed, be on absolutely ANYTHING - under 10 minutes in length, and then their captive audience are free to ask a few questions before the next presentation.

Of course, sometimes the presentations descend into chaos, because the presenter is a chaotic entity - nobody expected Duke’s presentation to be of this sort.

“Well,” Duke began, smiling broadly at his audience, “it’s so wonderful to have the opportunity to talk to you all about my passion - art!

“But I am no fool. I know not everyone shares my appreciation for paintings and sculptures.” He sighed, as if disappointed in his coworkers.

“So that’s why I thought I’d share with you my favourite - and I’m trying to use language all of you will understand - horniest art.”

He clicks the mouse, and this image appears on-screen:

“First, we have Perseus with the head of Medusa by Cellini. Lovely work, truly - but perhaps we ought to rename it Perseus with a bubble butt. I believe it was Sydney who taught me that, ah, delightful phrase.”

Sydney nodded, grinning and cackling to herself in the corner, a can of beer clasped loosely in her fingers.

“Now-” Another click -

“Does anyone know who this is?”

Immediately the heisters began shouting out various theories.

“Jesus!”

“The angel Gabriel!”

“BAIN!”

Raucous laughter, followed by a hollow beep, and: “I wish.”

The suggestions continue, until finally someone gets it.

“My next Grindr hook-up!”

“Satan-”

“Yes! This is Lucifer, the fallen angel, the devil Himself.”

“Damn,” Sokol whistled, leaning forward on his knees with his elbows, “really do wish he was next Grindr hookup. He’s a... handsome devil.”

Duke managed to only show one more picture before his time was up.

“This has all been rather... male centric so far. So, how about the Ecstasy of St Teresa? Uh, literally.”

“What,” Hoxton asked, once the uproar had somewhat died down, “err. What’s got her so...”

“She’s having a religious experience, of course,” Duke answered, barely able to contain his own laughter. “She’s having a most holy, spiritual moment, Hoxton.”

#Duke #August Lindenhurst #slide party #powerpoint party #Payday 2 #Payday #is this a shitpost? who knows #definitely a shitpost #art #salty wet #Yado is a salty wet boy #Yado is a thirsty bitch #my friends and I really have done powerpoint parties before and they're really fun #I did one about the wild boar population in Hong Kong & the re-introduction of culling after a cop got gored #and another one was about the importance of religious studies versus religious education and religious instruction #I used to teach religious studies/philosophy in a secondary school y'see and I love my subject #other topics by my friends included the metabolist art movement in architecture #the nature of the psychology of dreaming #dumb ways to die in Victorian times #an alternate universe where a certain Empire had never fallen #it was super fun! #anyway I figured the Payday gang would get a kick out of it #maybe Wolf does a 'Why you should date me' a la Maria Pace #anyway uhhhh #CW: suggestive sculptures