#My sister and i would go crazy

[skunkes]

#prefacing this with I Know Spanish. i cant not know spanish‚ my parents don't speak english #but im the only one of my siblings that didnt get to go to school over there 🇲🇽 (just pre school) #adn the thing is like. my siblings wld talk to me in eng of course #(if they talked to me at all! what do u say to a baby when you're 9 12 and 15 yrs older.) #and my parents wld similarly jst not talk to me? i did not have conversations with them from birth to now lol. #thjere is something about how like. my sisters kids are also learning the languages at the same time #but when they mess up in spanish theyre corrected‚ by my sister (their mom)‚ my other sister‚ my parents #why not Me. why wasnt that extended to Me as a child... #the same reason I have the least amount of baby pictures while my siblings all have one full book each i bet #the same reason why my and my eldest sister are 15 yrs apart LOL #igts so crazy to me. i hate mentioning this bc people assume #im one of those ppl who isnt fluent bc their parents speak english and spanish and never taught them #my parents dont speak english❗❗❗❗ #my nephew thats older than me who is my fave family member and also only speaks spanish #is coming up on sunday idk that i can fully carry convo with him! #pure spanglish bc i didnt grow up having convos in it writing it reading it #thats why im so desperate to read books in spanish now. im so deeply ashamed #igts so crazy. i hate it. #saw a comment on smthng the other day thats like ''idk how u can have parents that only speak spanish and not know it lol'' #well can you take a guess. can u take a guess as to how that would happen via interactions. lack thereof. #idk why but its even more embarrassing this way. genuinely how cld u not know...? #its like i was born to feel isolated from my family in every single way...youngest by so many years #the language thing. the Hates Eating thing. the trans thing. most severe failure to launch #im so embarrassed to be alive....! #and i dont belong anywhere. and i am Alone wherever I am. #abandoned by direct and distant relatives. ancestors.

[cantgnn]

more of them <3

#toh #toh hunter #toh fanart #goldric #huntric #toh edric #edric blight #I asked my sister for some more drawing prompts and she gave me ‘hunter going crazy for pizza #but then she laughed and gave me ‘hunter staring at edrics cake’ #no way was I drawing that so I made them hold hands again #as one does #I tried a more chibi style this time for some reason #idk I had that one pipi’s adventure animation stuck in my head #so I just had to draw the scrimbly big eyes #edric would probably eat the pizza backwards honestly

[dirtytransmasc]

I can't put it into words, I have tried many times and failed, but the relationship between theon and asha means everything and more to me.

#(this post is based solely off the show) #he's her baby brother! #he means the world and more to her #ever since he looked up at her that night in his crib he's been something that means more to her than her own life #she would do anything for him #and their dynamic post ramsay is so interesting #cause like. they don't really believe in mental health on the iron isles. its tough it out or die. #so she has no idea how to really help theon after everything he's been through. but she was gonna try god dammit. because he's her baby #even though she offers him the idea of offing himself. its obvious that's not at all what she wants. she wants him back. #she wants him to be ok. she wants to stop seeing him so scared and miserable #she doesn't know how to fix it but she wants to and all she knows how to do is force him to tough it out #but it so clearly comes from a place of love and worry #and just... ahhhhhh #she's really like: my baby my baby you’re my baby say it to me #but like... in a bigger tougher scary big sister way... if that makes sense #they're driving me crazy. I want to go home. I need to sit down #asha greyjoy #yara greyjoy #theon greyjoy #got #game of thrones #asoiaf #a song of ice and fire

[darlingcloudie-9]

this is my…… alter ego- ANITA MAXWYNN. ANITA MAXWYNN

#my art #My oc #Original character #oc drawing #uuuhhhh gaslight gatekeep girlboss #So sorry about the caption btw………… its past my curfew and im in a silly goofy mood :[ #So meet Darling!! My one of a kind mayhaps mascot of this tumblr blog!!!! Yippee!!!! #Dont let her soft and unalarming smile fool you; this girl is really a menace to the society!! #Funfact; Darling has a younger twin brother!! You’d never know though cause they don’t look too alike from eachother. #But they are still twins!! And he works in Retail!!! #Imagine this younger twin brother also has a cute petname as a name…………… like Honey or something #Or Sunshine. Or Angel!!!! #Ah. Decisions. Decisions #Darling is definitely the evil twin……… she would also lowkey walk with her brother whilst carrying a dozen wooden logs on her back and goin #“Maybe the A in Angel stands for-“ #“Amazing? Admirable? Awesome?? :]” #“…. No. Abomination.” #“…… Oh. You mean like that one giant snowman from that one Bubbleguppies episode?” #”… YOU STILL REMEMBER BUBBLEGUPPIES?!?!? AND THAT SNOWMAN??!?!?!?!?!?!” #And then they go on to discuss Bubbleguppies lore and how they miss it 💔 #Ah. But kidding kidding!! That’s if i choose Angel as the younger twin brother’s name <3 #Im sorry for the bad Demon Slayer/Kimetsu No Yaiba reference with the Tokito Twins also #But yeah!!! That’s my oc Darling!!!! #i hope you like her :]] #I think she’d have a Mareep if she were in Pokémon #Just a thought <3 #My sister called her a discount Yor from Spy X Family and omg #how could she say this and be totally right wtf :crying: #Anyways yeah!!!! Darling slays and joins the battle :heart: !!!! #Also no you aren’t going crazy the flower in the top left corner is one of the ibis x paint decals on that one picture icon thingy erremmm

[beansprean]

sometimes you get diagnosed with ADHD as an adult which finally makes your mom actually listen to what ADHD actually is and that she didn't cure it by making me do 100 jumping jacks as a kid when I got too hyper and then she realizes that she may have it too

And then you both realize that like 70% of the family probably also has adhd and that's why we are all Like That

#adhd #not art #like???? my moms side of the family were always weird to everyone but us #so informal and go with the flow and peppy but cycle through hobbies like toilet paper #never any drama bc we forget that we got mad and just get over it and were generally nice to people #we never learned to set boundaries with other people bc we all had invisible understood nd boundaries #and just didnt ask each other weird questions #like turns out we r just a super nd family???? but it makes sense??? #my 2 cousins were diagnosed as kids but they were the only ones that was when adhd was starting to be understood as a childhood disability #but you only got diagnosed if u were getting bad grades etc so me and my sister got overlooked and everyone else was too old #but DEF my granny has combined like me and my mom has hyperactive type and probably my uncle as well #and my great aunt bipolar i wouldnt be surprised if she had comorbidities her daughter idk tho #great grandparents hard to say but i wouldn't be surprised and time will tell with cousins kids #would not be surprised to see some autism in there im sure my sis on the spectrum and i may be too but with adhd its hard to differentiate #anyway this is a v personal post but its kinda crazy to look back and be like huh #thats why the fam dynamic is so different from everyone elses #we dont talk to each other for years but relationships dont deteriorate in our heads so nbd #now my dads side....my dad does have a lot of adhd symptoms as well as his dad #plus Alzheimers runs thru there which has a slight predilection for adhd anyway #why would a bunch of intelligent chatty anxious and kind people choose to live in the middle of nowhere and have silly hobbies #why neurodivergency my friend #ANYWAY the culture shock of moving away from that as a child and my parents remarrying neurotypicals who didnt understand the dynamics #dunno if it was the southern thing or the nt thing but turns out the normal way i always interacted with my parents #was seen by others as deeply disrepectful mean teenager nonsense that should be culled #shout out to the nd kids with nd parents who just spoke to each other like adults and played with each other like kids #this is TOO MANY TAGS thats how u know the vyvanse kicked in #personal

[countess-of-edessa]

“are the girls going to help you make pierogis?” well no one else is fucking gonna are they? no one else in this house has functional fucking hands apparently

#every Christmas i think about the time we came home from mass and my father said “finally! now we can relax.” and sat down at his computer #and played video games for the next three hours while my mother and sister and i stood six feet away from him in the kitchen making #200 pierogis. #it’s crazy considering the amount of stuff he gets done for him on a daily basis that I would never even think would be done for me by anyo #like bed made for him/all meals/all dishes/food put on his plate for him because he refuses to do it himself/pretty much all errands #whenever he wants tea he just says that want out loud and it gets brought to him by magic #i mean or anything else! he once said “did you say we were having cappuccinos today?” just to no one in particular and we all knew no one h #had said anything of the sort. and then he was given one! #of course he goes to work from 8-6ish every day but other than one day a week it’s remote and has been for years and i can hear him #he is pretty much never not on the phone gossiping with someone #and i don’t begrudge him having a not physically intensive job or anything but im just trying to think of the things he has to do #he makes my mother mow the lawn. i do it when i am home because i think that’s disgraceful. #if my mother begs hard enough he'll do the least amount of yard work possible if it’s something we can’t physically do by ourselves. #but on a daily basis it’s just go to work/eat the breakfast brought to you/eat the lunch brought to you/come downstairs eat the dinner made #for you/play video games until you go to bed in the bed that was made for you in the morning #and on non work days it’s just eat/video games/bed #and like all this to say #he complains more and has a worse attitude than anyone I have ever known in my life #whenever he encounters a minor inconvenience he's talking about how it never ends and he never gets a chance to rest for once #literally any day that’s not spent in complete and total stagnation is considered a failure #he hates when my mother and sister and i are happy like we can’t even play music and laugh in the kitchen while we cook and clean up after #meals because it distracts him from his video games and his YouTube videos about video games and the war in Ukraine #he gets mad when we laugh too much lol like dude you’re pretty lucky you have daughters who can have fun while doing the dishes #considering you haven’t done them in like 20 years #word to the ladies out there btw: my parents used to clean up after dinner together when they first got married. so watch out lmao

[rabbigfirlee]

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#why are the female attendings including the Muslim ones always SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO mean #meanwhile the male attendings Muslim or not are always going above and beyond to be nice and kind #it’s actually crazy to me #like the male attendings are always buying me coffee or telling me I can skip didactics #meanwhile the only thing I get from the female attendings is a headache #and don’t forget the scolding for things I didn’t do #smh #you’d think they’d be proud to see a sister in medicine but nopeee #its so insane to me that it was my female MUSLIM attendings that would tell me to take off my hijab in the OR while the male NONMUSLIM #attendings told me “your hijab and religious values are never an issue’’ #sorry #rant #it’s been a long day 😅 #also clarification- I do not ask nor request the coffee but my point is the male attendings will really try to make my day easier meanwhile #the women just seem to want to make it worse lol #the male attendings also give so much more praise and acknowledgement for your work whereas the women just yell at you about patients who #aren’t even yours #ooof

[girlscience]

I always get a little jealous when I see teenagers at cons, I would have loved to be them 10 years ago

#first of all 😭😭😭 the fact 15 was ten years ago is crazy #but just. my parents love me but they very much do not understand my hobbies at all #and they got my sister into things because she liked sports and they understood that #I liked nerdy things and so... I got art class like once? #there was an anime club at the library but I couldn't go because it was on wednesday nights and we had church things #it was only once a month but I couldn't skip awana! #and literally no kids at church or in the homeschool group cared about this stuff #so I didn't have friends who liked it #idk. I am having a GREAT time now going to cons and buying so much art #and making cosplays and going to panels and staying up stupidly late #but there is always going to be a part of me that wishes I could have been one of the kids in the anime club #who made cosplay skits on youtube and terrorized the local anime cons #i think it's very much an instance of 'that kid would have been me if i had had friends who weren't bullies and parents who understood me'

[ehlnofay]

in the midst of a little depressive episode at the moment I fear and it's causing me to Ponder... in a weird way I'm almost grateful. like this is UNBELIEVABLY better than it used to be, even as much as it sucks in the moment. I wish I could go back to find myself at twelve years old hiding out in the school toilets and tell them that as long as we stick it out for long enough then one day the outsize bad emotions will be triggered by actual definable events and they'll be a noticeable change from our baseline. I'm not ✨recovered✨ and I don't know if I ever will be - I think I might have spent too many developmental years creating terrible patterns and associations to be able to straighten it all out - but it's Better and I'm able to know that it can continue to get better, too. and that's fucking huge.

#fay gets uncomfortably personal on her video game blog. NOT SORRY. #idk it's just crazy to think about #I really struggle to tap into this space enough to remember when I'm not actively in it #but I was SO FUCKING SICK back then. I was a child. and I was so fucking ill. I didn't know how young I was and I didn't realise how #disturbing it would feel down the line #(obviously. you don't lie down on the road in the middle of the night thinking 'I can't wait to suddenly remember this moment #in several years so it can become a sticking point in my psyche') #but like. that's my brother's age that's my sister's age I work with kids that age and it's so fucking young! and I'm so young now! #and I bet in five years I'll be going 'what a small little child... crazy' all over again #but like. idk. I was SO ILL. and I don't think it's like people say they thought they'd be dead by a certain age #it was a possibility for me but not an inevitability #but I don't think that I could have foreseen being better #in such a material way. you know. like I can't imagine myself ever fully healthy #or as close as anyone can get. I've had all this shit for so long. the idea of not carrying it anymore is honestly unappealing #like what would I even do without it. who would I be. how could that possibly happen #but this shit is BELIEVABLE. it's not gone it's just better and when it crops up I can deal #and I wish I could take the me of back then by the shoulders and say THIS IS NOT FOREVER!!!!!!! #ride it out long enough and you'll learn to live with it!!!!!!!! #it's just. really fucking huge. and I am so grateful #peace and love on planet earth!!!!

[disgruntledkittenface]

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#i don't usually wade into these discussions because it’s better for my mental health not to #and i have a hard time articulating this kind of thought #but i feel like i'm seeing a lack of empathy and it makes me sad #i don't want to be presumptuous because grief is so individual and personal #but it just makes sense to me that both lottie and phoebe would want to add members to their family #i remember one of the sisters saying it was noticeable at family gatherings that there were people missing #and jay was a young mom #it’s not crazy to think phoebe (or lottie) would want to be like her #i could imagine that making someone feel close to their mom who was no longer with them #just why be judgmental about something thats going to bring the whole family joy #they all deserve that #we all do! #grief tw

[dandyshucks]

crikey,,,, 3 thousand notes on that post,,,,

#djfkdl so sceery #i gotta stop looking at it fjdkld #but numbers sometimes help my brain if theyre nice numbers #and three thousand is a very good number in the brain bc the colours of three and thousand match #and they also both begin w a TH :] #if u visualize the word in ur brain... would it not show up with a colour? like as if the text is coloured? #bc apparently not many ppl have that but fjdldl i feel like it is normal ?? my sister and i used to compare colours of the alphabet #but ive mentioned it to ppl casually and they thought i was crazy so ????? #and then apparently its synaesthesia but idk i feel like its just normal LMAO #anyways im rambling ACK THE CURSE STRIKES AGAIN DHDKDL i will leave the tags and go get ready for the day LOL #maybe i can design that butch character during my hospital group today hmmm #catch me drawing hot butches in my fucked-in-the-head YA social group WHEEZE #dandy.cmd

[kraviolis]

how do i include the nocedas in my gravity falls/steven universe/over the garden wall/walking dead game crossover family tree

#krav talks #perhaps camila has a half sister & a half brother named sara and lee………… #this family tree has been planned out to the tiniest detail #it began with the pines dad wirt + pines mom sara AU/headcanons #and then i went ‘what if greg universe was wirt’s half brother’ and its all spiraled from there #i still have 30% of a thanksgiving reunion fic written out #i also do have fics of this au posted on my ao3!!! its under the ‘tiny stars’ series #OH AN LUZ WOULD FIT SO WELL WITH THAT TOO. THE STAR MOTIFS FOR ALL THE KIDS GO CRAZY #dipper has the birthmark mabel is shooting star steven is constantly wearing a star clem had her date with vi stargazing #and now luz whos whole fucking thing was the light glyph that looked like mini stars

[maddy-ferguson]

my brother called me for christmas and i didn't recognize him because he has a deep voice now very much felt like killing myself when he said "this is [his name and my little sister's name] btw" at the end of the voicemail

#i was like is this a wrong number is this a prank because it's not particularly funny it's most likely a wrong number because i literally #don't know any random man who would be calling me for christmas #this is crazy #he's 12 and a half. 12 and 3/4 actually. so ig that tracks (yeah) but like #crazy #i haven't seen him or my little sister or my stepmother who isn't my stepmother anymore in 4 years because i HATED going to my dad's it was #the bane of my existence from 2009 to 2019 and i loved my brother and my little sister i loved seeing them but i don't regret the fact that #i stopped going even if it means i no longer have a relationship with them and only talk on our birthdays or i guess on christmas #like it does make me sad and when i considered not going anymore before i actually stopped i always thought about them and about how much i #loved them and i do miss them and hate the fact that idk we were only close for the first 8 years of my brother's life and 6 years of my #little sister's life but at the end of the day...it's like with my dad not having that substantial of a relationship with him (i see him a #few times a year for like a couple hours tops and like we talk but we don't TALK but we're not on bad terms we talk more now than we did #when i went to his house semi-regularly for the weekend) makes me sad but i can just. not think about it. and then i'm not sad lmao. like #yeah i'll have dreams about it (not as much as i used to) because it is a thing that is always going on with me but it's NOTHING compared #to what going there was like like i thought about it SO MUCH it made me SO MISERABLE and like actively miserable this is easier to deal #with. passively miserable. but not recognizing my brother's voice was crazy #i always call my little sister my little sister and i don't say that with my brother because i have another sister and she's ALSO my little #sister but not as little😭 like my sister: my sister who's 18 my little sister: my sister who's 10. my dad forbid us from saying half- #sibling🙏 #and like i say: brf slt

[katnissgirlsmakedo]

why did my dad have to have his retirement party on a day i could have been going wonking instead. does he hate women or something goddamn

#can’t go after the party this man’s work is 40 minutes away and idk how long this stupid party will go on #and then our normal movie theater is 30 minutes from home in the other direction #and i refuse to go to a new theater i’m not spontaneous like that #the drive to the theater is normal on a regular day but the timing just sucks today #and tomorrow won’t work because my sister has stuff to do #and friday i have work. and saturday i have work. and sunday we have church and my aunts house #and then monday through wednesday we’re in pennsylvania #and then there’s new years to worry about #i do NOT want to spend new years with my dad and his sisters so i haven’t requested off work for the 30th in hopes i can use that as an #excuse to stay home. and if i stay home so might my sister #and THEN. maybe we can get wonking #unless my dad tries to be like oh but we can go on the 31st to go meet them! and then i won’t have a choice #unless i threaten to kill myself. but i won’t do that that would be crazy #but i don’t want to go to that. none of my cousins will be there my sister and i would be the only ones there who aren’t in their 60s #like. nothing wrong with hanging with the old ladies but why can’t my dad hang out with his sisters and their husbands alone. #why would you even want your two random daughters in their 20s there. weirdo #i know he’s just upset that my mom won’t go but like he knew the whole time she was gonna spend new years with HER sister. like get over it #hoping to get my sister on my side soon so we can unionize to not go. i know she already didnt want to but i need her to not change her mind #she has a tendency to feel bad for our dad when he wants us to do annoying shit. it’s her oldest daughter syndrome i guess. 🙄

[mcnuggyy]

when i tell you this changed my life when i was 15.... the improvisation... the power in his voice... the OUTFIT... his little movements.... the build up..... this was everything to me

#literally me and my sisters would watch this on our shitty little home computer on repeat so many times it would make us go crazy #still does #i want this outfit so bad bro #crying and screaming #callate guero #juan gabriel #anyways i should go work on my commissions and comic now LMAO #Youtube

[mars-ipan]

man. strangers you don’t know but have heard stories about are wild

#marzi speaks #my brother has 3 roommates right #i’ve never met any of ‘em #but i’ve heard stories about them and they’ve heard stories about me #they all have a solid case of young adult man syndrome. aka casual bigotry and self hatred that they’re hopefully working through #and i am an incredibly queer person with radical values #so they think i’m crazy. and i want to meet them So Badly #bc 1. i don’t scare a lot of people. i am harmless. i want a power trip #and 2. one of the best ways to teach people to overcome bias is to introduce them to the ‘enemy’ and have them realize they’re actually- #-super chill people who don’t mean any harm #but i just found out. a few hours ago. courtesy of my brother #that one of them has made jokes along the lines of #‘if your sister comes around let me know i’ll defend us’ #and MAKING A HAND MOTION LIKE HE IS HOLDING A METAL PIPE WITH WHICH TO ATTACK ME????? #so now like. NEW FEELINGS #1. holy shit i’m scary enough to this dude to be considered a physical threat??? it is gonna be SO funny when i meet him #2. BRO WHAT THE FUCK????? #like man. my brother’s going thru some self confidence shit so i’m not really mad at him but BRO. DEFEND MY HONOR A LITTLE BIT MAN??? #anyways. i do not think my brother would introduce me to someone who would follow through on that threat #so! i’m still excited to meet them :3 #i might wear my leather jacket + doc martens though. gonna be so queer #maybe bring the army hat as an olive branch lmao. but i’m gonna keep it lighthearted in general