#NOOO‚ IT'S REALLY OVER

[maybe-drawing]

After all… This is a death match for a reason.

-- Click for better quality! Sketch and sword version under the cut! --

(if you see this did you notice the left tumb is on the wrong side?!?? bc i only did after like 500 notes help i am screaming)

#Freddy draws #limited life #inthelittlewood #martyn littlewood #limited life spoilers #limited life martyn #limited life fanart #mcyt fanart #dude bro my brain nooo why the finale was amazing #I am still loosing my mind over this #martyn what the fuck #but like affectionately #that really was something huh #(also I drew this with the coolest axe at first only to got back and be like oh he had a sword #yk what maybe im just posting the axe one too yk what #i like the axe one better compsition wise anyway

[me-sploh-rada-imas]

not my one track mind wondering where jan and nace are

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#don't tell me they wouldn't be all over those drums if they were there jan at least is too chaotic for that #do you think they're... together...? #joker out #bojan cvjetićanin #kris guštin #jure maček #also this sounds really cool #and kris' hair nooo i liked it long! #also the amount of red bull and coke that is an Event for sure

[vellichorom]

ok this is the year we retire the old template & start using new ones hello

( & SO, this template credit to @ necromosss on twt! (( date edited slightly by me, in case you're confused )) )

WHAT a year, am I right?

2023 opened the door to a lot more experiences, events, fandoms, people, & all KINDS of hectic craziness for me, but it was REALLY fun, & while I don't think I really made HEFTY leaps & bounds in terms of doing something different with my art, every day - with every small change & improvement, I come to love my art all the more.

& that, I will contribute some to YOU! yes, YOU - reading this right now! to casual viewers, to those who have been with me since the premiere of this blog, to those who've come around in 2023 for one thing or another; to those of you of whom I've never spoken with, to those who have made me something or complemented my work, to those who've become my friends, my gratitude is IMMEASURABLE.

this last year, while its had its bumpier moments - I will confess, it's been truly incredible, & I thank you, every single one of you, who's had even the slightest hand to make it so. you are all TOO KIND, & I appreciate you sticking by & enjoying what I do.

hopefully, I can continue to make things that grab your attention, AWE & AMAZE YOU, & beyond anything, make you smile, if only to repay you some for all the joy you provide me.

HERE'S TO 2024! with hopes & prayers & wishes aplenty that we'll be better people in better situations before it's over!

2023: JAN / FEB / MAR / APR / MAY / JUN / JUL / AUG / SEP / OCT / NOV / DEC + BONUS PIECE.

#uwu art #& MY HAPPY ASS GOT AN ANIMATIC DONE FOR ONCE I MADE LAST YEAR'S RESOLUTION HAPPEN LET'S GOOOOO #I couldn't NOT include it no matter what #ALSO interestingly - this is the first year in which i've begun to transition to using sai paint almost entirely over ms paint #WHICH IS KIND OF A SHAME REALLY #i'm getting rusty at ms i don't wanna be rusty at ms #oughta do something with it again soon.... hmmmmmm... #ANYWAY god it was a lot of tsp this year ( to nobody's surprise ) #& shoutout to wordgirl for always making it into my summary for the past. what- 3 years #TOUGH CHOICES FOR BEST CANDIDATES THIS YEAR THOUGH I WILL SAY #can you believe i hardly posted anything in july because i can't #i was SOOOO tempted to make the face of march just that one image that started the tsp salad thread #my magnum opus #but nooo.... no.... i'll save that for march

[toxooz]

been binging tf outa Avatar the last airbender bc ive been puking my EVERLOVIN guts out since yesterday and hear me out

#remy would probably get cool weapons or somethin but honey im so sorry it would be the reality #sk8 squad #ollie #ponti #oscar #abio #kari #vinny #remy #im Just Now feeling like the worst is over but holy fuck talk about misery #and i Have to go to work tomorrow anyway since i had to call bc today was supposed to be the recovery day but nOOO body said fuck u #cause this is like the 3rd time this has happened this year alone like i refuse to believe its just a bunch of food poisoning instances??? #i been eating the same for years and i know my immune systems been shot ever since covid but that was 4 years ago now somethin aint right #pray for my downstairs neighbors they had to hear me fighting for my life every 30 minutes PFFFT EEUUUAAGHGG HUFF HUFF HUFF yeah #although i will say all this shit has really toned down my emetophobia now everytime i gotta puke i just let out a long disappointed sigh #but goddamn still brutal tho

[focsle]

Exceptional bad feeling—spending the night laying in bed watching the ceiling get lighter and eventually hearing the First Bird wake up…

#insomnia back…sabotaged myself… #so stressed this week too cos I had fun evening things lined up most nights as well as… #work responsibilities almost every day this week that can’t be taken on by another person and would really screw people over #nooo shanties and concertina times for me tonight…I’m sad ):

[achairwithapandaonit]

anywayyyy i loved the toymaker i hope people write gay ass fanfic of him and the doctor

#doctor who #i did watch the original toymaker serial (in all it's reconstructed still image glory) but that was over 5 years ago so i don't remember #anything except teenage me was enamoured with steven's hair and there were clowns #i was really impressed by the new version of the toymaker tho. he was so freaky and as much as i know it would be terrible to bring him bac #again and again like a regular villain i want to see more of him ): like nooo doctor don't banish him forever. i like him ): funny toymaker #i'm gonna be so disappointed when they innevitably bring the master back out now cause i'll just be like rip you are not the toymaker #okay silly ranting done. i'm gonna go to sleep now (lying probably) #dw spoilers

[notfreetoday]

Hi! I read your post about amae recently and I wondered something in regards to Segasaki and Yoh (MPW).

(Spoiler ep 8!)

Segasaki asks Yoh to wait at the door and greet him when he gets home from work. Though Yoh is confused he recognizes that it's something that would make Segasaki happy. He then takes the initiative to say the greetings in the kitchen, giving his anwer to the request. Is this Yoh recognizing Segasaki's amae?

Hello! Thank you for reading my post 😁 And yes it is! Specifically, asking Yoh to come to the door regardless of what he is doing, is the amae part (plus, the way Segasaki says it). Standard greetings like okaeri and tadaima (see Ep 3's post for more) are what make coming home feel like, well coming home. They're a very common part of everyday life - but Segasaki doesn't say "I'm back". Yoh has said "welcome back" before - but only after Segasaki comes to look for him.

Ep 8 is when Yoh finally recognizes Segasaki's amae - In fact, Yoh specifically uses the word "amae" when he does realize it, though I'm pretty sure it wasn't in the subtitles (I haven't fully watched the subtitled version of EP 8 yet).

Since it'll take me awhile to get to Ep 8, I'll just do this part first, because it looks like the subtitles make it a little harder to tell that he's amae-ing.

S: その代わり S: 俺が帰ったら通話中だろうが何だろうが S: 玄関まで来い S: んで*　おかえりっていえ Y: そんなこと** してほしかったの？ S: 悪いかよ？*** Y: 別に悪くない S: Instead of that, S: When I come back, whether you're in the middle of a call or doing whatever else S: Come to the front door S: and then*, say "welcome back" Y: Is that something... you've wanted me to do?** S: (You mean) I can't (want that)?*** Y: No... there's nothing wrong (with that)...

*Segasaki uses a shortened, informal version of "and then" here, and together with his muttering, and his unwillingness to look at Yoh, he sounds like he really doesn't want to have to admit this (though, he still sticks to his rough speech 🤣).

**Yoh's phrasing here makes it sound like he's genuinely surprised that Segasaki wants this, because, like I said earlier, it really is something very simple that most people would take for granted.

***悪いかよ - Literally "Is it wrong?", with an ending particle that indicates this line is a challenge, except for the fact that he says it so tentatively.

Y: 本当よく分かんないやつ* Y: そんなことでうれしいの？ Y: おかえり Y: お仕事　お疲れ様** Y: 玄関じゃないけど Y: Really... such a difficult to understand guy* Y: Would something like that... really make him happy? Y: Welcome back Y: You've worked hard at the office** Y: Well, it's not at the door though

*Yoh uses the informal word やつ (yatsu) to refer to Segasaki here, which he's never used before. Depending on the context, it can be considered rude, though is often used casually amongst male friends. In this context here, it's used to express affection mixed with mild exasperation.

**お疲れ様 (otsukaresama) - standard greeting; full version "otsukaresama desu/deshita". Literally means "you're tired/you've worked hard" and is an acknowledgement of the effort someone has put in for the day, more than it is some sort of praise or commendation. For eg, Yoh says this to his lousy editor in Ep 5 😅

That said, the way Yoh says it here is very sweet, adding the honorific prefix "O" to the word "shigoto (work/job)", and then tacking on the polite version of this phrase, "otsukaresama". Remember when I talked about the different definitions of sunao in the amae post as well? I mostly talked about Yoh not being able to be honest/straightforward with his own feelings, but the other definition of sunao describes an attitude/behaviour towards other people. That definition is usually translated along the lines of "cooperative/obedient/deferential" (note that these words sometimes carry a negative connotation in English, which is not so in this particular usage of the word in Japanese here). This is Yoh being the very picture of sunao here. It's adorable and sweet and it's no wonder Segasaki jumps right on him 😂

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Thank you for your question! I'm really happy to know that amae is starting to be a little more understood, since it is quite a common phenomenon in many JBLs :))

#my personal weatherman #taikan yohou #体感予報 #segasaki x yoh #my answers #mytranslations #nooo it's over it's really over #i don't want to say goodbye yet #i love them so much #oops this got long again hahaha

[honeysunchild]

Parents really will have kids on purpose and then spend the next twenty or so years punishing that child for being alive and having needs

#i hate my parents #i hate my mom #ugh 🙄🙄🙄 #why is everything so difficult w theeemm #and about really basic level stuff too #like tissues and school books and needing a doctor #bc my foot is literally BROKEN but bitch still wants me to walk or drive myself everywhere #and god forbid the doctor say I need to spend money to get better #nooo #no no #ghaaaahh #parents really will ruin everything even when u thought there was nothing to ruin in the first place #don't u worry boo #they'll find a way #when i can financially support myself its over tho #I'll drop them so fast and hard they won't see it coming #like BAM BYE BYE ASSHOLES #BLOCKED

[tricoufamily]

when taking care of yourself and caring about your clothes starts making you feel better and not the other way around

#NOOO I DONT WANNA #i’m kidding i’ve bought some new clothes they’re really cute very dysphoria easing #i’ve worn the same like 5 pairs of basketball shorts and 4 t shirts since like march #‘since march’ ok maybe it has been like three years. but #the dressing rooms WERE hell but i finally found the right size that doesn’t make me want to die #and they’re all men’s pants! men’s pants fitting well felt super super good! #i need a belt but they’re not tight on my hips #my hip and thigh ratio to waist ratio is Pain Agony Death (Pixar Mom) so pants are very very difficult for me #i actually think i pass kinda well from the waist up. kinda. on a good day #i’ve got my little pinterest board of baggy panted androgynous emo cis guys. i can do this #i’m excited to wear them like they look good they make my legs look straight up and down #i might just get rid of all my dysphoria inducing clothes and completely start over #i also have a slowdive shirt coming in the mail 🤸‍♂️

[konfizry]

it's not all sunshine and rainbows for me either I'll have you know im in a constant struggle over my online personal branding between the mostly harmless, quirky, omg so chaotic 🤣 funny bunny and this entitled, ultimately miserable and friendless 30 year old who won't stop posting spiteful hot takes literally no one asked for.

just your reminder that we all have our demons even when we might not seem like it from the outside

#like i get u option 2 is objectively more entertaining but #spare a thought for my hashtag mental health maybe? #(who am i kidding both are equally degrading) (maybe THATS what im about actually) #anyway i'll just shionnepost until i die. thats my brand. i think it strikes a good balance and just really epitomizes everything i stand f #like theres the inherent unhingedness and lack of self-respect that comes with being an arise fa- i mean simping over an anime girl #combined w/ just the inherent abrasiveness & despair of like just. the mere concept of shionne really #kontxt #oh nooo i used “inherent” twice..... uunnffgh. its a good a word okei

[junk-culture]

👍

#today i suddenly remembered that dress + tshirt is a combination that exists and allows you to wear summer dress in winter + not get cold. #really cool innovation. #today i am going to lidl then cleaning out my food cupboard well my one shelf in my shared cupboard then im going to draw hopefully #and because i did some revision yesterday i don't need to do much in the way of studying today which is good because the questions are exce #based and my screen time over the past few days has been diabolical and my eyes are crying and might explode if i look at a computer today #so im going to try to be hashtag offline today. #< says this while literally on tumblr #if i put some red in this outfit id be very sofad core actually. noted for future reference #anyway happy sunday everypony #^ there's a typo up there i meant excel #we worked on paper last semester but now we're doing some accounting on excel i was worried at first like oh nooo i have to learn a new #program but then i remembered im literally a gamer.not the best gamer it has to be said but i mean i 100% pw on the psp so i think i can #s rank microsoft excel.

[n4talia-chaparro]

"But not everyone is ru-" Everyone is the same, darling, everything is the same. Same rude asshole, same stuff. You cannot say everyone likes those stuff when y'all start talking shit over it 💀💀😹‼️‼️💥💥 /hj /J /J

#natty rambles #wooo my trust issue and silliness is taking over me along with the sad mood xPP #I CANT FOCUS ON ANYTHING. WHY CANT I PAY ATTENTION TO MY CLASSES 😭😭‼️‼️‼️🗣🗣🔥🔥 #I AM REALLY THAT AUTISTIC⁉️⁉️ WHAT IS HAPPENING😭😭‼️‼️‼️‼️🔥🔥 #“YOU ARE ALWAYS TALKING AND DRAWING THE SAME THI-” MY SPECIAL INTEREST I CHOOSE YOUUU /REF 🗣🗣🗣🗣‼️‼️‼️🔥🔥🦅🦅🦅🦅🦅🦅 RAAAAH #RAAAAGHHHHH🦅🦅🦅🦅🦅‼️‼️‼️‼️🔥🔥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥‼️🗣🗣🗣🗣🗣 #WHY Y'ALL GOTTA BE PISSED AT ME GRRRISHSJANAD ‼️‼️‼️🗣🗣🗣 ITS AN AUUUUUU IM ADDICTIVE TO IT 🗣🗣‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️🔥🔥🔥💥💥⁉️⁉️⁉️ #NOOO MY AUTISTIC GRAMMAR MISTAKES IS SHOWING UPPP USHAJSJS 😭😭😭😭😭‼️‼️‼️‼️🔥🔥💥💥‼️‼️💥‼️🗣🗣🗣‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️ #“ADDICTIVE” WHAT THE FUCK DID I JUST WROTE 😭😭😭😭⁉️⁉️‼️‼️💥💥

[neurotypical-sonic]

the whole "its just one paragraph you cant judge it too harshly yet" makes sense in the context of judging the series' actual plot and story. because yeah with only one paragraph there's barely anything to go on, we dont have any context. you can and are entitled to make any judgement of course, but theres not a lot of information to base your opinions on

for everything else though, the discussions about ableism or copaganda or misogyny or racism, that "just one paragraph" argument irks me. because in this context its not just one paragraph of information, youre also working with everything the movies have already given you. like, for example, with the movies history of ableism specifically with wade, I can look at the one paragraph synopsis and go "oohhh I hate that I can see that being handled really poorly" based off the information given to me. same with the other issues

like obviously I don't know what other drama or discourse is happening around the series, I'm not touching that but. idk judging things based off what studios actively present to us and being critical isnt inherently a bad thing. some people do take it too far but that doesnt mean all of it is unwarrented

#obviously a lot of people take it way too far #or get really upset over things that like. arent that important and arent worth fighting over #but I will stand by going 'I really dont think the series will be good'. if im proven wrong then yippee!! #but I dont think I overreacted at all #egg.txt #it kinda reminds me when sia released the traser trailer for music and got upset when people rightfully so got pissed about ableism #and she was all nooo youbcant judge it its not even out!!! like. you gave us information. we're reacting to that information

[curiosity-killed]

The problem with having pizza places where you can DIY with no extra charges for extra veggies is that I just wind up making monstrosities with no care for how flavors work together

#does it taste good? idk I picked jalapeños and spicy chickpeas #and spicy tomato sauce I can’t really taste anything #but it is full of cheese and veggies and therefore good #also funny to me that they try to calculate the calories as you add shit #so it was like oh nooo this pizza is over 1k calories ohhh nooo #and I’m like fuck yeah I am HUNGRY #personal

[nemesis-is-my-middle-name]

i kind of want to set my computer on fire and move to the woods but i can't really find any specific fault with this chapter other than a general dissatisfaction with just sort of everything generally, so.

#the nemesis speaks #i don't know!! i'm in a brain funk!! i think maybe i've been staring at this too long. #sorry this isn't a post for anyone it's not really actionable or anything. it just helps sometimes to say it out loud #and hear how silly it sounds #oh nooo this thing i'm writing serially for fun in my free time isn't absolutely perfect? god call the news. call the white house #take away my license. disbar me #yeah ok i'm over it now #i think i'm also still rebounding from my god awful november so there's. that.

[subarashiihibi]

logging onto tumblr and seeing blatant ableism was not something i was expecting but Alright

#izaya is the official number 1 cluster b pd ambassador #me personally ive always been a firm believer in bpd izaya but after doing more research on aspd #i get it like it really does make sense esp a lot of little things here and there #just a horrible take in general i fear. rethink your life choices if yr being ableist over a hc #and shoutout to whoever brought the aspd izaya hc to life 💞💞 #i dont usually talk abt 'drama' or whatever but it's so disheartening to see #rly it shouldnt matter that much for someone to make a whole damn post fussing over it #regardless of whether or not izaya has aspd he is beautiful and it shouldnt be that huge of a deal that is my honest opinion #as in if yr that hung up over 'nooo izaya cant have aspd he has empathy!!!!🥺🥺' #1) just go to hell and 2) this should not affect how you regard him that much and if it does you are not worthy of liking him #er thats just me being petty but rly i mean it! it's all unconditional love for izaya here. #actually one more thing i do want to say i really do appreciate the creator of this hc i said it earlier but like #i love analyzing izaya as a character but i am admittedly SO BAD at forming meaningful explanations and stuff #so smth to not only do that but also explain how he fits the aspd diagnostic criteria and how it all lines up... it's really cool #ok sowrry i wont ramble anymore. im writing a damn essay in these tags 😭