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nevarroes · 3 months

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hello with the greatest of compliments i think cas is the cuntiest durge i’ve ever come across and i adore him and love the way u draw him and gort SM <3 what are some defining personality traits cas has or things that would become obvious about him if you knew him???

thank u so much, happy you like them🥺🙏🙏

as for his personality… idk how far youve read into Caslore (I need to link that tag in my pinned later brb) but in case you haven’t heard much of him let me just warn ahead of time that he’s not very pleasant, beautiful on the outside nd rotten inside archetype💜

If i were to just like… name some character traits sims-style then I’d say his memorable traits are that he’s short-tempered as hell and very easy to enrage. However aside from anger outbursts and how he acts with Gortash he’s actually more introverted than you’d think and someone that doesn’t tend to talk more than necessary with people he doesn’t care about, generally just has a very cold and icy vibe laced with a feeling of superiority over most if not all people. He’s also vain as shit and conceited, very proud of his looks and knows how to use them to get what he wants☝️ He’s disrespectful and doesn’t accept any type of authority (gods included), he’s blunt and he’s destructive due to his nature (devil that was tainted by the Abyss)

If you dig a little deeper and if you actually knew and analyzed him you’d know that a lot of his really horrendous traits are more or less a defense mechanism for his insecurities, Cas is really a deeply insecure and traumatized person at his core tbh but this is something he’d never accept or even know himself. Anyways on that note he is insanely possessive and jealous, approaches most things in a very “revenge on the world for what happened to him” manner, he’s emotionally constipated and he’s kinda sexist in an err…. misogynist gay man stereotype way. If you’ve never dealt with one irl to know exactly what I mean then be grateful but if u did… yeah😵‍💫 He also looks down on any non-infernal race nd he’s just a very hateful person in general that doesn’t wish well on anyone

I suppose to not completely just shit on him though I’ll say that he has great self control and restraint in many cases, hes a very disciplined person. Also when he does care (Gortash) he turns into a far more genuine person that does actually manage to show some affection but in a way where… for his own pride he needs to balance it out still with being rude and teasing and a bit of a bastard still. He’s also, again this is only with Gortash though, pretty devoted and protective and would give his life for him no questions asked even if he himself went through so many hardships before that just to stay alive to keep fighting for his own freedom (this is also kinda what it boils down to btw. person that was never truly his own man his whole life)

anyways hope that erm… gives a bit of an insight, its a bit more detailed than anticipated even if it’s still not quite everything but yeagh🙏

#blakemail #“relevant traits” but really its just a list of why Cas is a walking red flag #my beautiful princess with a disorder #gortcas hate-off wld go crazy but Cas has more free time to spend making peoples lives horrible #cas lore

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onlyjaeyun · 2 months

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GURLLL

as soon as I finished reading the chapter I was like awake for whole 2 hours until I went to buy coffee (cuz atthe end of their 2hrs I couldn't stay awake literally fallings asleep in such worst position 😭😭😭 my back was paining so badddd ) (was awake till 2am nd then woke up at 6am + my sleep deprivation i was hoping to reach on time i did 🙏🏼just to submit the assignment nd attendance for class 😕😕)

GETTING A KISS FROM A PRETTY MISS 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼IM BLESSED

literally the way i expected hoon to be break after a lot more pestering but mans not denying being pussy drunk 😋 THEIR PRIVATE THOUGHTS LIKE TALK PPL but they won't they will pretend to hate nd something will happen again and they will be away from each other (as they say distance makes the heart grow fonder )

I'm so excited on how the story goes from now on cuz ik ur mind like UR MIND wanna see your thought processes (hope that didn't sounded weird 😭😭)

ND NEW THEME ATEE LITERALLY LOVE IT SMM it looks so well coordinated nd each and every theme it looks so good nd i stare at the screen like 😍😍😍😍😍😍 literally stared at ur theme rn nd came here

HELLO BABY AND THANK YOU SO SO SO MUCH FOR YOUR SWEET FEEDBACK AND WORDS AND RUGH PLS ACCEPT ALL MY KISSES!!!!🥺🥺🥺🩷

i hope the assignment went/is going well and that you got to catch up on the lack of sleep!! pls take care of yourself, ilysm!🩷

i wish i could bring you guys along in my hesd for my thought processes but it's..very messy 💀 i wouldnt want to traumatize you guys 🤕

#; mailbox 📬#; cold hearts

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bleakbluejay · 1 year

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I wanna rant a little, I guess, about the moment I realized I was obsessed with the Mandalorian.

It was actually the 2nd to last episode of season 2. I mean I really liked the show up until that point, certainly, but that episode, where Din, Cara, Migs, Fennec, and Boba all go to the refinery so they can figure out where Grogu is, it stuck with me in my little brain and exploded and bloomed.

Specifically when Din decided he had to take his helmet off if he was going to save Grogu's life. The hesitance at first, letting the scanner try his helmet first. The determination, next, of letting it scan him so he can get it over with before anyone noticed. It's very resolute.

Then... the panic.

The absolute panic and fear freezing him when Valin Hess begins asking questions. This guy can't move, he can't talk. He can just stare with wide-eyed terror, speechless, and what little he can say isn't right. The increased panic as he realizes he's failing, he's failing this social interaction, he's failing Grogu, and he's failing himself, and he freezes. It looks like he's fighting back tears, almost, like he's moments away from breaking.

Which is the same way I handle panic and anxiety attacks. As an autistic person, my fear/anxiety response is just freezing, going nonverbal/semiverbal, and hoping that the stressor will just go away. I very, very rarely see this in fiction, and especially rarely under the exact circumstances being portrayed. I went from merely loving this character to thinking this is me, he is me. And that empathy link got intensely established.

I kept thinking about how traumatic this entire situation must be for him. How stressful the circumstances. How he, someone relatively zealous, forsake one of the most important tenets of his faith, showing his face to other living things, and there's nothing he could do about it. For the first time in easily 20-30 years, he was seen. He was vulnerable. There was no durasteel, no beskar, no protective shell separating him from the hard world outside or prying eyes or judgement or failure. Suddenly, his facial expressions mattered, facial expressions he didn't need to worry about mirroring or faking in decades if ever. And they didn't just matter the way they matter to a ND person like me in regular social situations. This was life-or-death.

I remember about two years in quarantine and masking during COVID took me soooo far back in terms of how well I "mask" my autism around allistics. I barely do it at all, now, and I have trouble forcing myself to. It made me very insecure of my face and expressions because I couldn't do them right anymore. That was just two years. What could 20-30 years do?

So I sat there, suddenly extremely connected, heart-to-heart with that tin man, metaphorical spear through my chest as I watched all the stages of grief pass over his face during that scene, and my whole brain chemistry was being altered. I finished the episode, finished the season, finished Book of Boba Fett, and then rewatched the Mandalorian, with this new perspective. Then I rewatched it again. And again. And every time I felt more and more connected to the guy. His tenderness, his gentleness, his strength, his courage, his love, his light, his fear. He became my favorite fictional character, and in so, so short a period of time. In just two weeks. And all sparked by Pedro Pascal's fucking 🥺 face.

(And of course, Din isn't canonically autistic but yes he is <3 I said so and I know everything.)

#eli talks #anyway din djarin is very autistic and so am i and so are we #we are twins #i see a character have the same traits as me #or react to love or fear the same way as me #i stick onto them like those lil fuckin floaters from subnautica #din djarin #the mandalorian #mando

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lesbi-nyan · 1 year

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Tell us the origins of your wonderful, wonderful username! How did you come up with it's so good I'm so jealous >.<

oooh okay okay!! uum do u mean lesbinyan or nyanko?? I'll just do both Σ:3c Thank you for liking them!!!

I came up with Lesbinyan because.. i'm literally a catgirl lesbian, and cats/neko in japanese media go "~nya,"/"nyan" so just combined lesbi and nya then i added the 'n' at the end cause it sounds cute Honestly i couldn't believe that it was still available as a url. I made this acc after my main was banned last january.

As for Nyanko, I got inspo cause dogs in japanese are sometimes called 'wanko(-chan)' and kittens are called 'koneko(-chan)' so i went with Nyanko, as like a derrivitive. It used to be 'purple-nyanko,' on my main. There you have it. I'm a huge weeb (>^ω^<)/")

as for my tag '#nyanko moos,' that one is more personal. Growing up, my family had this lovely black kibby, Licorice. The SWEETEST 🥺. She was a big cat and well loved.. nd my dad joked about her being fat.. and called her 'black angus' like a 'black cow.' he also called her a heifer .. nd he would moo at her (i proby did too tbh) 🥺 it wasnt very nice at all. .. but it stuck with me (young autism brain go brr). We also called her "Fangus" cause when she was happy she would show a fang 🥺💜. So i started saying "moo" in general too (even after i became a catperson). It's a small thing that helps keep her memory alive for me.. 💜 ~nya

#nyanko moos #anonie answered #pretty long response 😅

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pluviophile-imagines · 1 year

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Hi, I didn’t mean for my last ask to come off as criticism and I’m sorry if it seemed that way 🥺 I’m nd and sometimes it’s hard for me to voice my thoughts properly and I know that’s not an excuse but just wanted to clarify! I’m a big fan of your writing and have been a follower for quite a while so I really didn’t wish to be rude in the last ask. I think it’s best if I don’t interact again after that and wish you the best 🥺🥺

Thank you for clarifying. Your other ask was a backhanded compliment; if you wanted to know if I played genshin you could have asked and left it at that, there was no reason to say my characterization was wrong. It’s never appropriate to tell authors something like that without them asking.

Characterization, past the big important stuff, is subjective. Characters don’t exist, they’re completely made up. In the case of genshin chars they will literally never be shown in canon romantic relationships so there is no canon characterization for how they would act in a romance. Hence, subjective.

It’s like if you went to somebody’s house and it wasn’t decorated to your liking, and instead of politely complimenting what you did like you went out of your way to ask if they hired a decorator “because it just doesn’t work very well. I’m happy for you though!” That’s rude. It’s inappropriate. It makes the homeowner feel like you’re insulting them, because you are.

It’d be rude even if my interpretations were ooc. But they’re not, they’re just not how you would interpret the characters. It’s clear that you know that, because you said they were “a bit” mischaracterized. And if you explained yourself I’d be able to have an actual conversation with you and discuss those differences in a friendly manner. Instead you won’t, which is your prerogative, but I still find it cowardly.

#ask.🌧#anon #I am being blunt and a little rude here I’m sure but I’m not particularly mad #I just wish you’d give me the chance to defend myself #because I stand by what I’ve written and I enjoy discussing it

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caruliaa · 2 years

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hmm ok once again it is nott even late but once again i have an exam tmrw 🤯🤯 but this one shld hopefully be better so !! (KNOCK ON WOOD!!) … so anyway before i do that i wanted to send u an ask perhaps (purrhaps <(cat version of the word perhaps)) to say that i really love you so so so very much dear!!!!!!! you are soooo understanding of me and kind to me and ju st so so thoughtful and considerate always and i appreciate that soo muchhhhh like you are such a good friend and i really do have sm fun with you and with talking to you and stuff like messaging you is always so lovely day to day and whenever we get to vc its such a treat and i just really really appreciate you !!!!!! i am so lucky to get to know you and be your friend and i just hope you know how much i think you are so loveable and endearing and good and how much i want to j b here for you and stuffd so yah!!!!!! i love you soo muchhhh (hugs uou maybe if you wld like to!!!!!💕💕💕❤️❤️❤️💕❤️❤️❤️💕💕💕)

GOOD LUCK W UR EXAM !!!! well ik u already did nd it went well so more congrats on ur exam but yea FDSDFGD !!! :> and ouugghh ;; !!! 🥺🥺🥺 im so so happy i hope u know tht i am a good frined 2 u nd tht i can b understanding of u nd kind 2 u bc like i rly rly do want to my dearest i hope you know !! :'> bc like u rly rly are j soso amazing and wonderful nd dear 2 me nd deserve sm joy and happiness nd ur j so so important 2 me and my life mx and i rly rly do j feel like ur such an amazing incredilbe person my dearest i rly rly do so os much infact i j find u so wonderful nd sweet nd fun nd funny nd talented nad endearing and just so so so amazing and so so good !!! :'> nd also rly rly soos glad tht i can b a good friend 2 u bc ur rly rly such a good friend 2 me !!! like lry sm ur so os sweet nd kind nd understanding of me nd ik tht u rly rly care abt me nd abt how i feel abt stuff nd tht rly rly j makes me feel so so loved nd stuff nd tht rly rly does j mean the world 2 me nd u j rly rly mean the world 2 me nd im soso happy nd greatful tht i get know u i feel i rly rly am mx !! :'> and just yea i j love you so so muchh so so much my dearest i rly rly do :'> !!! *hugs u back if u wish sm mx !!! * 💗💗💗💗💗💞💞💞💞💞

#i lvoe you so muchh :'>#flappy rambles #asks #lucy !#fave

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meltwonu · 3 years

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| 𝖓𝖊𝖔𝖓 𝖉𝖗𝖊𝖆𝖒 | CHAPTER 4

pairing; camboy!seokmin x female!reader

this chapter’s notes; camboy!au, university!au, camboy!seokmin, mentions of breeding!kink / impregnation!kink, dirty talk! 😗💕 A bit of a shorter chapter this week but it’s very seokmin is all I will say LMAO kdhfkdh Also I have a bit of a schedule change for next week but I’ll post a formal notice of that on... either tomorrow or Sunday! As always thanks for your support with ND 🥺💕 I’m trying to write it as if it were really Seokmin trying to cam so it’s a bit experimental and not as quick as the lil blurb I initially wrote 🤣 LOL but! enjoy ch 4 and I’ll see u tomorrow for inbox msgs! Have a good weekend! 💕

chapters; 1 - 2 - 3 - 4 - ?

“To be honest, I’m surprised you went through with paying for my lessons.”

Jihoon runs a hand through his freshly dyed hair; lips curving into a smirk when Seokmin pouts back at him. “And to already schedule our next session and pay for it too? I thought you were strugglin’ for cash? What happened?”

A blush paints across Seokmin’s cheeks as he sits across Jihoon in the slight older male’s studio. He’d, maybe, gotten a little ahead of himself out of excitement and paid for his next lesson as soon as he could and spent the remainder of what he’d made on buying snacks out of the vending machine on the way over.

“Yeeaaaah, I just… Uh, started picking up more shifts at my part-time jobs, is all. No biggie. I really wanted to polish my skills so I could start auditioning for some of the uni’s musicals ‘n stuff. I know we’re doing auditions soon so...” He scratches the nape of his neck shyly and Jihoon catches the way Seokmin avoids his stare.

“Just tell me you’re not dealing drugs for the money… Right?”

“What!? No! I mean, Joshua makes some good money selling weed but no, um, I’m too n-nervous for that… Haha...”

Jihoon narrows his eyes and turns to face his computer once more; tapping on an audio file before relaxing in his computer chair.

He’ll accept Seokmin’s answer for now - even if he is a little suspicious.

“Okay, well, let’s do one more run through and then I’ll let you go for today.”

Seokmin feels like he’s on cloud nine once he leaves Jihoon’s studio and even though he hasn’t done a camshow since the last, he feels a little more confident in his skills.

In both aspects.

Even if he’d been aided by alcohol the last time.

That’s fine, he tells himself, I just need to study what I was saying and just... Refine it. Maybe watch a few more videos and get the hang of it. I’ll be fine!

Which Seokmin finds much more embarrassing than he anticipates when he finally sits down in front of his computer, headphones on and eyes filled with determination when he presses ‘Play’ on the reuploaded audio stream.

‘...I’d cum so much inside of you… ‘n stretch you out so good…’

Christ, did I really sound like that?

‘...I wanna feel your pussy sucking my cock in deeper while I fuck my cum inside you like the filthy ‘lil cocksleeve that you are…’

Seokmin has to pause after a few more minutes; entire body breaking out into a cold sweat as he grimaces. He knew eventually he’d get used to it, but somehow listening to his own voice saying those things made him feel a little awkward.

Maybe he just wouldn’t rewatch them after he was finished.

You’re only three sentences away from finishing your paper when you decide to take a break - back arching away from your computer chair when a notification lights up your phone screen.

‘Dokyeom has gone live!’

‘Curious to see what you like… [AUDIO ONLY]’

Your lips form a surprised ‘o’ shape as you click on the notification and wait for the stream to load up.

He’d gotten a sudden spike in viewers with his last show but you’d been surprised when he hadn’t messaged you at all, much less done another stream since then.

Not that he owes me a response, you tell yourself.

“Hey everyone~”

His voice floats through your phone receiver and you feel your heart flutter at the airy, yet deepness of his voice.

You hated to admit it, but you’d rewatched his audio stream from last week a multitude of times and even saved it to your computer just in case he decided to delete it.

Anonymous4987395: what’s with the title?

NewUser89547: ur last vid was so hot omg

Your fingers hover above the keyboard, somewhat nervous about commenting.

“Oh, yeah, I was surprised at how popular it was actually… And it’s still getting viewed too, even though it’s just an audio recording. So thank you! I really appreciate it everyone~”

Anonymous283479: ur voice is sooo good it made me cum so fast…

Anonymous98957: can’t stop thinkin about u breeding me…

“Hmm… Breeding? What’s that?” Dokyeom responds in a drawl that has your toes curling against the floor and you can’t help but bite your lip and quickly type up a response before you change your mind.

b@d_dream: it’s like… getting off to the idea of not wearing a condom and cumming inside someone and the risk of getting them pregnant… or getting pregnant tbh… its like... popular with pet play and stuff 🥴

There’s a long pause on Seokmin’s end as he stares at your comment for a little longer trying to grasp what people wanted to hear from him.

Okay… Let’s see...

“Hmm… Okay~ Of course, my favourite ‘b@d_dream’ is really knowledgeable~ I should thank them for helping me out.” He finishes with a chuckle that sends you squirming in your seat.

“Interesting… I guess I might’ve ignited that interest since my last stream, huh? Me talking about how much I wanted to cum deep inside your pussy… But I bet it’d feel so good to feel me cumming inside you, cock throbbing and fucking you so deep…”

The comments and donations move faster than Seokmin can read or catch up to so he decides to focus on the stream for now before he loses his concentration.

Just 30 minutes and then I can figure out everything else, he tells himself.

Anonymous98756: god ur voice is so hot

Anonymous203948869: just thinkin about u ramming ur cock inside my pussy and fucking me like a bad girl gets me so wet...

Seokmin’s brain fizzles as he sits in his computer chair, mouth going dry when he’s unsure what to say next.

In a panic, he opens a side window and hurriedly pulls up a chat window.

Fuck, I’m so stupid!

Dokyeom: I’m so stupid, please help

b@d_dream: ??

Dokyeom: I don’t know what to say please please help

b@d_dream: lmaoooo about breeding?

Dokyeom: yes im so sorry

“Ah, my cock is so hard just thinking about it… I bet you’re already so wet, aren’t you? I could probably slide my cock right into your pussy right now...”

b@d_dream: mmmmm depends, but just talk about how much u wanna knock someone up? Thats basically it in a nutshell and i dont think u have time for specifics rn

“Mmm… Just thinking about my cum pouring out of your cunt is making me want to cum already…”

Dokyeom: fuck thanks and sorry, i owe u one once this is over i promise

b@d_dream: sure lol btw i can hear u typing so u better go

“Ah, I better cum inside your pretty ‘lil cunt a few times... Just to make sure you get nice ‘n pregnant, right? But you’ll be good and take all my cum, won’t you?”

You lick your lips as you listen to Dokyeom’s soft sighs and breathy moans; too engrossed in appreciating his voice to even get off.

It’s okay, I’ll just save the video again.

“Hmm... How would I fuck you? Depends, how do you want me to? I can fuck you from behind... Or would you want to see my face when I make you fall apart on my cock? I bet you’d be so pretty when you cum too... Mm, even prettier when you hold me against your body and make sure none of my cum leaks out of your pussy...”

NewUser8439579: oh my god please...

Anonymous974975: I’d ride u any time I get as long as u keep talking to me... can you say kitten?

“Ah, kitten?”

You feel goosebumps rise on your skin when he repeats it a few times to get used to it.

“Oh, does kitten want me to breed her ‘lil pussy? Mm... it’s just in your instinct to want it, huh? But it’s okay, I’ll give it to you... As many times as you want, kitten~”

Anonymous39847595: fuck I bet ur so hot...

NewUser934957: omg ikr...

“Haha, you think so? I get told I look good enough to be a model... Or is that too cocky of me to say? Especially since none of you know how I look~”

b@d_dream: I bet ur hot 😏

“Mm, maybe one day I’ll let you all see... So you can imagine me hovering above you when I fuck you. But only if you’re a good girl, y’know? Bad girls only get fucked from behind while I spank your pretty ass~”

Dokyeom ends his stream after 45 minutes and you rush to your computer to download the replay.

‘1 New Message’

You click on the notification; not surprised when you see it’s Dokyeom.

Dokyeom: I really owe you for earlier, is there anything I can do for you? I can record something for you... Like a private video? 😭 As a thank you.

b@d_dream: Oh uh you don’t really have to do that if you’re not comfortable, I don’t mind really!

Your entire body buzzes and you’re unsure what to tell him. You knew that if he recorded a video for you, he might ask for your name and you weren’t too sure if you wanted to give him that just yet.

But you also didn’t want to miss the chance of having a personalized audio recording just for yourself.

And before you can properly type up a response, Dokyeom beats you to the punch as his messages pop up on the screen.

Dokyeom: Actually I’ll do you one better

Dokyeom: How about we voice chat when you’re free? 30 minutes of your time and maybe you can help me out a bit more? We both gain something, ykwim? I can learn what you like since you’re more knowledgeable than me 😅

Your mouth hangs agape as you stare at his message.

Now you were really nervous but really excited.

b@d_dream: yeah sure, I'll check my schedule and let you know when I’m free! Don’t forget to bring a notepad 😉

Dokyeom: Can’t wait!

#seokmin smut #seventeen smut #svt smut #seokmin scenarios #seokmin imagines #seventeen imagines #svt imagines #seventeen scenarios #svt scenarios #dokyeom smut

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touyasdoll · 2 years

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HI ASH IVE MISSED YOU, IM GONNA BE REREADING YOUR DABI WORKS BC I SAW A MANGA SPOILER ND MY HEART IS ACHING <3 :)

Also !! I hope you’re doing well,, how was/is your day ??

hi autumnal!! I’ve missed you too <33 those leaks fucking hurt this week so I feel you there 🙃💔 but that’s so sweet you wanna reread my stuff 🥺💕 I hope it helps!!

I’m doing well & my day was great! went out for a very belated birthday dinner with my family tonight. how are you? how was your day?? <33

#autumnal☕️#just vibing 💌#the feeling is mootual

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taegularities · 2 years

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Hello!! It has been a minute since I sent my last ask but I actually did interact with u off anon😳 anywayy How are you? How’s life been treating you? …I have my maths exam (again) on 8th and I was just thinking about you cuz last time u wished me luck and it went really well 🥺 (I was very nervous nd didn’t expect it to go well bcz of my anxiety but it still went well!) and I had a wet dream about a guy friend, (I enjoyed myself in that dream 😭💀) but sadly I still don’t see him as more than a friend and I low-key think he’ll agree to date me if I ask him out (idk if he’s into me or just desperate to date someone 💀💀) anyway it was really weird cuz I only see him as bruh kinda friend.

-Taegikook anon

tgk anon !!!!! i missed u (or not, since we did talk lmaooo ☠️). i'm doing okay! really damn tired today, and don't wanna go to work tomorrow, but things are okay. my new semester begins on monday, and i am NOT READY 😭 and i used the day to make banners :')

and omg really ?? u are a smart bean, aren't u? 😌 well if that's the case, I WISH U ALL THE LUCK FOR THIS EXAM, TOO !!! i know u'll nail this one, too, i'll think of u <33

LMFAO i laughed out loud at the 'bruh kinda friend' fukjahkjfas 😭 pls, i feel the 'desperate to date someone' bit, i had a friend like that, too :') but ok if u do catch feelings for him 👀 u gotta tell me ok 👀

#wet dreams tho kdjhgfksdg why are mine only w taekook tho #tell me about ur day!#notes for rid 🌹#taegikook anon 🐯🐱🐰

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honeymaki · 2 years

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aaa well done kitty !!! im so proud of you !!! i hope your therapy session went well nd u were able to talk abt stuff and make coping plans ! make sure to rest now, they can be so draining sometimes ! but im so proud of you for eating some good food !!! its v important to fuel ur body so im very very proud 🥺 and helping ur sister clean her room ! what a good sister !!! sounds like you had a pretty good day !!! sending u all my love 🥰

-🧋

Therapy was a bit draining but I identified a few things which will help in the long run hopefully, m very tired now though so I’m just watching some adventure time and switching off🥺 but yis, I ate a good meal tonight so I’m proud of myself for that!!

#🧋.answers #⇢🧋

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hella1975 · 3 years

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I'm starting The Art of Burning and :'0 I'm gonna cry aren't i. "A battle was not something you got used to, and this crew had said goodbye to one another a thousand times" fuckkkkkk

(i’m literally gonna do a massive fuck off accumulation of all your asks here because you all exist for my entertainment and what i say goes and i say that this has been the funniest gradual review i’ve ever gotten)

(also if anything is in bold that is me doing little comments in my teacher marking a paper way of mine. welcome to the blog)

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2. "Ruination was a song the Fire Nation knew well, a song whose lyrics curled from their tongues in infancy, a song whose harmonies lay in their skeletons." I'M SCREAMINGGGGG

3. I would literally die for Kanut, Nanook, and Tomkin in a heartbeat 😌😌 - tom nook would die for you, kanut would tell you to get fucked <3

4. I am WEEPING, Kanut is sjakdhkjfhs I just, I would DIE for him - see above

5. "Every word was another stick of kindling and Zuko was building his own pyre." dAMN, HOW DID YOU MANAGE TO WRITE POETRY LIKE THIS - i am perhaps blushing rn

6. not really from the story but "alexa stream heather by conan gray" what a MOOD - ANOTHER CONAN FAN? PLS?

7. "Hey mom" I dont know why THIS is what almost made me cry, but damnnnn I went 🥺 so fast-

8. I would fucking die and/or kill for Tomkin. Fuck. My. Heart. I love him

9. “So he stood there, a Water Tribe boy clinging to his shirt, and instead of pushing him away, Zuko desperately tried to remember how to hug someone back." BREAK MY FUCKING HEART WHY DON'T YA-

10. hHHHHHhHhHH :')))) just read the 'prick' 'arrogant bastard' 'arrogant motherfucker' conversation and- I know I've said it before, but it bears repeating- I. WOULD. DIE. FOR. KANUT. - i cannot say it again

11. "Golden eyes didn't change the humanity of a life." so maybe I love Tulok too even though I wanted to cry when Lee died 🥺🤍 - everyone was SO mean to tulok when i posted that first chapter i hope you all feel horrible for your behaviour

12. I got through that without crying -how the fuck I did it I don't know- but now I'm going to FUCKING scream, and “And then I said; No, Fire Lord Ozai, your earrings are on backwards.”“Tomkin, I am literally begging you to shut the fuck up. Please, just shut the fuck up." is NOT FUCKING HELPING OKAY

13. "Arrogant motherfucker" (affectionate) - IUGSHIUSHGIUS

14. I know I've given you a lot of shit (v sorry abt blowing ur notifs up too- jk, not sorry luv <3) but my skin is fucking CLEARED and your writing is fucking *chef's kiss* damned EXQUISITE and INCREDIBLE and knowing that I'm gonna get to read even MORE AND GET ZUKKA- Fuck man, I'm BLESSED as FUCK. (just finished chapter 10, and holyyyy SHITTT, that was a ride times a fucking thousand) anways, thank you for your damned IMMACULATE writing, I will send more asks soon <3 - i definitely do not love you and i definitely did not smile at this shut up

15. I am TREMBLING in my freaking CLOSET at 3:47 in the fucking MORNING OKAY, zuko is such a dumbass and hakoda is just like, you crazy bastard 'not very good' my ASS, youre the FOURTH BEST FIREBENDER IN THE WHOLE DAMN FIRE NATION and zuko is just like O_O :// are you sure tho?? like, are you REALLY sure abt that???? - zuko really went ‘shut up non-bender’ and ignored him

16. *in the storm* Lightning: what if I uh 😏😌 y'know 👀😏 fucking obliterated you mast? huh, what then? 👀😌 Zuko: what if you fucking didn't :) *yEET*

17. you are SPOILING me you rotten buggy-boi, I'll be getting dadkoda, zukka, AND a fucking azula redemption??? I am BLESSED and my skin is CLEARED nd my hotel is TRIVAGO 😌 (the only thing that could possibly make this better is bato/hakoda bc HHHH but I am already so spoiled with this fic-) (I would call this fic my guilty pleasure, but tbh I feel anything but guilty when reading this. I think it's my comfort fic now <3) - the comfort fic is about to experience some war crimes, please hold (also BUGGY-BOI??? USIHGIUSHGIU)

18. tomkin is such a fucking dumbass and I adore him (blue spirit mask part)

19. "you are not my father" this is my last ask for a bit bc its 4:42 am and my laptop is almost dead, but I wanted to say, from the bottom of my grimy little dirtbag heart, fuck you <3

20. (I lied) TOPHHHHH???????????????? :D

21. IF ZUKO GETS FUCKING KIDNAPPED OR SOME SHIT TO WHERE HE CAN'T GO BACK TO HAKODA AND THE SWT, I WILL SKINNNN YOUUUUU <3 - :)))))

22. Bato!!!! :D (and also, from the bottom of my heart, FUCK YOU <3)

23. Hey Hella, :) what :) do :) you :) mean :) zuko :) doesn't :) fucking :) have :) any :) fire :)) - funny story actually-

24. But I LIKED renmin :0

25. "But it didn’t matter, because at the time, it felt like they were three boys holding up the sky together. At the time, they were immovable." DAMMIT HELLA, MY HEART IS NOT OKAY AND IT DIDN'T NEED YOU TO GIVE ME A BATO & KANUT & HAKODA FRIENDSHIP OKAY

26. “Get fucked.” Said Toph,' ksjhadksahfd *screams* I would die for herrr

27. Tomkin was gonna say 'i aint never seen two pretty best friends' and WHAT A LAD

28. Me, just chilling: :) toab: zuko's fire was blue Me: WAIT, FUCK-

29. GIMME MY FUCKING HAKODA AND ZUKO REUNION DAMMIT, AND IROH, AND KANUT, YOU ASSHOLE I'M SADDDD

30. Tulok and Aneko: 😌🥺🤍🥰😌🤍🤍✨ Kayda and Chena: *chaos gremlin bastards* and that's v sexy of all of them - you don’t understand i’m obsessed with them

31. “We were cellmates.” Kanut offered with a shit-eating grin, like he knew how much he was messing with Sokka’s already fragile peace of mind.“Tui and La, they were cellmates.” Sokka whispered,' HELLA I'M SCREAMINGGG

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honestly i’m surprised you read it all that fucking quickly. this was so funny to just gradually watch unfold and i appreciate it even though you are stiLL VERY MUCH MY ENEMY YES I DO NOT LIKE YOU AHEM

#this was a wild ride i thank you graciously for it #at first i was just gonna respond to every ask as it came in but you were quicker than me and i kept waking up to like 10 asks at a time #i'm not complaining but lazy brain says work smarter not harder and now we have this

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hii clari<3 it’s been AGES omg do u remember me hehe it’s bunny anon ☺️ how have u been?! I missed u so much!!! though I haven’t been able to go on tumblr often I went on your blog (and your blog only) or re-read ur answers for my past asks every now and then!! going on ur blog is literally my therapy and my happy place, and it has been that way ever since I discovered your blog <33 so thank u so so much for that!

Lil life updateee I’m in uni now, in America which is very far away from my home country!! finally doing film major stuff hehe so it’s v nice, but at the same time it kinda fucks up my mental health at times </3 okok so my college rant under this!!!being soo far away from all my family and friends (and a country I’ve lived my whole life in) isn’t the easiest thing but honestly I think my actual struggles r based on the college part :( starting all my relationships from scratch&handling crazy amount of workload is toughh. I constantly feel the pressure to build a deep, close or comfortable friendship even though I know it takes time. I also think I have fomo&I constantly pressure myself cuz it feels like I have to know many ppl, go to parties every week and “have fun” but it doesn’t seem to be the case for me yet ;( I know it hasn’t even been 2 months so I should go easy on myself but my brain and mind seems to work separately </3 My brain knows things like these take time & a lot of ppl are going thru the same thing & everyone’s life goes on a diff pace & no one’s gonna judge if I’m going to parties and having fun in college or not… but my mind keeps pressuring me for no reason 😢

sorry for the long rantttt ahh it’s just that you’re so so sweet, make me feel truly comfortable sharing these vulnerable stuff & give amazing advice 🥺 I appreciate u so so much clari!! also wanted to share that our past film talks nd ur passion for film also inspire me and motivate me to do well in class <333 love u so much nd hope u’re doing great angel <3 -🐰

oh my gosh bunnie babie i missed you so much!!!!!! it’s so wonderful to hear from you again!!! SSSHHHHHHH STOP THAT’S SO PRECIOUS MY WHOLE HEART IS MELTING MY RIBCAGE AAAAH <33333 i’m so so so happy to har that, but i’m so sorry you’re having a bit of a tough time :(( let’s get into it under the cut <3

oh sweetpea, first year of uni can be rough!!! it was rough for me and i didn’t even move out of my home country, so i can only imagine the toll it’s taking on you!

my advice is to try and balance your mental health and your school work (a LOT easier said than done, i know, but you can do it!!). babie, if you don’t like going out to parties every weekend, or they’re totally draining and exhausting you, then don’t go! look around for events happening in the city and clubs happening on your campus that embody things you ENJOY doing, and spend your time going to those instead. you’ll still make meaningful connections through these, too!! university campuses often have a ton of events and clubs going on literally all the time, so start looking around!

i’m not going to tell you school isn’t important; my schoolwork and my grades and my education as a whole was extremely extremely important to me and i get the sense that it matters a lot to you too. and that’s good, that’s okay! i gleaned a lot of validation from my schoolwork and genuinely enjoyed my assignments, so i get it. thus, education matters, yes, but not at the expense of your mental health. school will always be there; it isn’t going anywhere, you know? but your mental health is something that must be dealt with immediately before it gets worse. you don’t deserve to suffer!!!

on the topic of balancing mental health/life and school: making realistic to-do lists, keeping a schedule, and offering myself rewards was what worked the best for me!! so, for example, i would make a ‘deal’ of sorts with myself: i’d be like okay, let’s read these three articles, or write three paragraphs of that essay, and then i can spend the rest of the night watching a movie/hanging out with friends etc and it worked quite well for me!! so maybe that might be a strategy you want to try!! <3

on the topic of friends + relationships: let those friendships and connections form organically; they’ll be much deeper that way. focus on fostering meaningful connections with people you click with. these could be people in your classes, in school clubs, your roommates, at parties (if you WANT to go; you do not have to. i didn’t!), at events around the city etc. personally, i made all of my uni friends through my classes and our film club on campus!! and let me tell you something: on my way to my first film club meaning, i was so nervous i nearly threw up. i almost turned around, but my mom called me and persuaded me to at least show up. as someone who suffers from severe social anxiety, it was downright terrifying, but i’m so glad i did it! and proud of myself, too!! i made a handful of really incredible, talented friends whom i still love and cherish today (one of them actually just messaged me to gush about dabi and then invite me to a little anime watch party he hosts every week). my point is: there are sooooooo many different ways to meet people and make new friends; parties are only ONE of those ways, and they’re not for everyone, and that’s okay.

you said america isn’t your home country, are you fluent in another language? if so, my city had this really cool program where you teach others languages (and they teach you one, too!) and i know a few of my friends made friends through that as well.so maybe that’s an option! if your city hosts a lot of film events at indie theatres, you could also check those out, too!!

look around and see what’s going on, and above all just take it one day at a time. i promise there’s no rush here and you’re 100% right, you should try to be easier on yourself!! be kind to yourself my sweet bunny babie, this is a lot to handle!! it must be very overwhelming! it’s okay if you have to take it a little slower! do whatever is best for you <3 and whenever your mind starts being mean to you and telling you lies, just tell it to shut the fuck up, because you KNOW it isn’t true (and tell it clari says stfu too and stop tormenting bunny >:( hehe <3)

i hope this helps a little, sweetpea!! thank you so much for your kind words, they warmed me right to the core of my soul!! it’s absolutely lovely just hearing from you again, even if the situation is icky >.< i love you so much and you’ll be in my thoughts!! this is a MASSIVE life transition for you, try to be a little kinder to yourself, precious bunny <3 you’re doing so well and i’m so proud of you!!!

#SORRY i know it took me a lil bit to get around to answering this!!#but i hope this helps a lil bit my luv <333 #and again like you're exactly right; it's different for everyone and we all experience certain difficulties while adjusting and adapting to #a big life transition such as going to college!! so cut yourself some slack and try your best to take it one day at a time <3 #sending you so so SOOOOO much love n health bb <33 #stay safe out there my sweet bunny!!! stay hydrated and eat well!!!#🐰.anon #clari gets mail #it's so funny you were actually on my mind like ALL of september!!! i kept thinking about you and wondering how u were doing!!#i guess i had a sense something was up!!!

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~4/11/2021~ Was really running on empty from the get go and feeling super sleepy, but wasn't too bad at first when I got to uni. Watched a really inspiring video by Emma Longden & automatically became a huge fan - despite having a different diagnosis we could really relate to her experiences of hearing voices! It can feel a bit weird at times at uni because it's not always explained why we're doing certain things and it's not always very obvious to me 🙃 - like the video was cool, but it seemed a bit random - I didn't really get how it related to the main topic we were looking at... I got on well with the learning earlier in the session, but unfortunately the day developed into role play's galore, and we all know I can't deal with role plays 😰🙈 I feel like I'm trying to be really clear and realistic with the course tutor about what I am able to manage, but feel like I am being repeatedly pushed outside of my window of tolerance, when I'm way out of my comfort zone anyway - I also feel like there's this misconception that the more I do role plays, the better I'll feel about them - but actually it's getting worse each time 😭 because doing it again and again doesn't change the fact that my ND isn't wired up to process role plays, and so just reaffirms that fact 🙁 In the afternoon there was this role play based exercise which was just way too much - ended up having to take time out because it was distressing to even observe - went for a walk and it felt really difficult to return, but I did 👣🍂 These kind of struggles bring up themes of lifelong struggles - I was sat amongst people who seemed to get what was going on, were in the zone, and even appeared to be getting something out of the experience - it makes me feel like an alien from another planet, and that I don't fit in, maybe will never fit in - always the outsider looking in 🥺 It's hard not to feel down on myself in these situations - still been bogged down by it since getting home, but tried my best to simmer down with weighted blanket and cat cuddles 🐈‍⬛ 💜 Truly I know I'm not a waste of space - my brain is not wired up to learn that way - it's just hard at times not to feel it... 🦄 (at Nymans National Trust, Handcross, Haywards Heath Rh17 6bt) https://www.instagram.com/p/CV3wXWYqyCu7NvYEyOTDdNmoZad3zKX9J5qRFI0/?utm_medium=tumblr

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