#Neglected

[fishnapple]

CRYSTAL READING : The part that you neglected. What needs your attention? 🫂

Pick a stone :

1. Moss agate group

Have you ever thought that your home is your greatest treasure?

Do you feel really at home ?

with the physical place, with the emotions?

All the striving for material security, for beauty, for a stable life,

wanting to transform, even altering your appearance,

it would actually get in your way

of achieving a sense of safety in the world.

Too much focus on society, the other people, the community you're living in,

would strip you the joy of just being an individual, an individual with their own way of thinking, their own way of feeling things.

An imaginary barrier has been placed inside, distancing you from true intimacy with life.

A faraway ideal would push your own light into a forgotten closet.

2. Moonstone group

A bow points towards the sky,

an arrow ready to be shot.

Your life's trajectory is rising straight to the highest height.

You would feel overwhelmed,

or in the dark.

Am I the one that shot the arrow,

or just a leaf caught in their flying path ?

While your life is jetting ahead, fortunes are falling in,

you might forget the simple pleasures

of being with friends and families,

of relaxing and just sit back for a while.

Too much force would break the bow string.

3. Garnet group

Relationships with others,

especially romantic love

would be your greatest teacher.

Every time you entered a relationship,

you are transported to this school of heart

to learn again and again.

But somehow, some lessons were always avoided.

The feeling of falling in love makes you become the character in those fairy tales,

where the main character is taken to an enchanted place,

staying there and forgetting about the mundane life,

which is the actual relationship itself,

and the work it would take to make the relationship last.

4. Smoky quartz group

You would put so much effort into making others feel comfortable.

Creating a beautiful environment for others to thrive.

Always try to say nice things,

be helpful to others,

over thinking the smallest detail.

Would they agree with me ?

Would they accept me into their circle ?

How would I be without my friends,

without the people around me ?

There is a well hidden fear inside that you my not really aware of.

A fear of the unknown,

of the misty path lying ahead,

of losing control of your life.

Clinging to the small details would make you blind to the overall path you are walking on.

#crystal reading #crystal #pick a card #channelled message #neglected #lithomancy #inner world

[unwelcome-ozian]

#hyper-independence #abuse recovery #trauma recovery #discarded #neglected #connection #needs

[small-but-mightyy]

#my art #tw delusion #okay to rb #repost because the original had a typo #trauma vent #dpdr tw #dissociative amnesia #actually dissociative #actually borderline #actually traumatized #actuallyabused #childhood trauma #neglected #abandoned #cptsd #bpd #ptsd #osdd did #vent art #mentally ill #depressed #anxious #sad #traumacore #ventcore #abusive parent

[abandonment-trauma]

Believe it or not, my fear of abandonment can make me pull away the second i sense rejection.

#abandonment #abandonment trauma #abandonment issues #mental health #attachment trauma #trauma #cope #coping #bpd #borderline personality #fearful avoidant #disorganized attachment #neglected #rejected

[breelynnxoxoxo]

LEFT STANDING! 💋💋💋

#nobody #only me #i am alone #alone with my thoughts #embarrassing #neglected #says it all #by yourself #no turning back #trust issues #no loyalty #believe in yourself

[officialyourdailyinspiration]

"I am much afraid that the schools will prove the very gates of hell, unless they diligently labour in explaining the Holy Scriptures, and engraving them in the hearts of youth. I advise no one to place his child where the scriptures do not reign paramount. Every institution in which means are not unceasingly occupied with the Word of God must be corrupt." - Martin Luther

#fear #school #children #teaching #gates of hell #godlessness #youth #hearts #Word of God #neglected #Martin Luther #Christian Quotes

[ohnoidontexist]

#not #sure #if #i'm #low #maintenance #or #just #used #to #being #neglected

[mugmaniscrazy]

When I was diagnosed with Autism [ high functioning Autism level 2 ASD ] at 8 years old I got all the help and support I needed as a little girl speech and language therapy , teachers helped me and my life was all sunshine and lollipops until I turned 13 I was thrown into a mainstream secondary school with no support . I mask everyday my social anxiety got so bad to the point where I had a mental breakdown at 15 and was diagnosed with depression. I got bullied and abused and traumatised for the next 3 years now I am a 18 year old Autistic adult with a personality disorder with no support whatsoever.

#autistic adult #actually autistic #actually hpd #histrionic personality disorder #actually histrionic #cluster b #ableism #hpd vent #actually autism #autism #autistic things #autistic problems #high functioning autism #functioning labels #autistic community #autistic spectrum #autistic culture #autistic children #neglected #trauma vent #ptsd recovery #asd

[alostlittleriverlotus]

im angry. I'm purely angry. My mom is finally listening about doctor stuff and why I hate doctors so much and instantly she turns my goal of my health into being able to sleep at a "normal" time (waking up in the morning and being awake through the day) and being able to go for walks, be active, and go outside. And I fucking hate it.

★(small sa mention, one line of it. suicidal thoughts and self harm mentions.)★

I don't care if I can never walk normally again. If I will always need mobility aids or only be able to walk/stand for short periods. Yes, I enjoy a ton of exercise and dancing with my whole body and having an active life, but if I never can again, I have accepted that.

I don't care about going outside. That is agoraphobia, fear of people, and extreme paranoia and delusions wrapped into one. I feel constantly watched, unable to be outside of the car or the house without extreme anxiety, fear, and having to talk myself through it when I had to go collect the main. I am okay with not being able to go outside. I still would love to go and sit out back, but my parents bought chairs that I can't sit in which is why I haven't sat out back since we were at our last place and first moved in, a fucking year ago. There's physical issues to it too, but it is mostly mental stuff that I'm fine living with.

I don't care about a "normal" sleep schedule. As long as I can get 6-10 hours of sleep a night, I'm fine and functional. I have pain, I have untreated ADHD, I have bad mental problems, I have delusions, I have flashbacks, I have breakdowns, I have paranoia, I was fucking assaulted in my sleep, I may have sleep apnea. We can fix as much as we possibly can, but I am entirely fine if my sleep schedule will never be routine. Oh yeah, plus my period messes up my sleep schedule too.

I don't care about being the most perfectly healthy active person. I don't care if I'm unable to do things that I could before. If I'm fat the rest of my life, that's fucking fine with me. I refuse to go back to obsessively needing to control my health because of a mix of ocd and ocpd and npd that results in an obsessive need to be perfectly healthy at all times. I am not going back to that cycle. My mental health is too fragile and so long as the mental health system and psychiatry system is broken in America, I do not give a fucking shit. I cope well, I am happy where I am, I am content. All I want is the constant pain to end, to be able to have relief and supports. I got ankle supports and cried over how long I have fucking suffered with joints that feel like 3D Mario game ice physics. I cried about how much I was actually at a disadvantage without knowing it while pushing myself to be "normal" and as good as others because I believed I was just not pushing through it like everyone else.

I do not care about living a happy "normal" life. Even if all of my physical issues could magically be fixed (they can't, I'm fairly certain I will always have these issues), I have severe mental problems that will never fucking change. From who I am and how my autism is to the severe trauma and personality disorders I have. AND THE FACT MY MENTAL ISSUES CAUSE ME PHYSICAL PAIN, FATIGUE, AND MINOR SICKNESS INCLUDING PHANTOM FEVERS!!!!!

But I accept that my pain may be something I live with. All I want is to receive actual help for it instead of constantly worsening it by having 0 support. A shower seat, movable shower head, mobility aids, actual fucking accommodations. My goal is to never be perfect abled and neurotypical or to function as such. My goal is never to be as perfectly healthy as I can be. Because with who I am, that will just worsen me to try to achieve that. And that's fucking okay. I am allowed to be unhealthy.

As long as I am not suffering every second of the day and considering death to be better yet unable to go through with it because I don't want to die while my parents are a part of my life then I am fine. I am happy. Even in bad pain days, the feeling of caring for myself and having things to rely on to relieve the pain makes me feel good about myself. I have lived without those for so long. This is all I desire. To relieve as much of the pain as I can so I can feel alive.

But I am aware I may be fat the rest of my life. I could also lose weight, I've fluctuated weight most of my life. I am fine having mobility issues and requiring help for those for the rest of my life. I do not care to be perfectly abled, I just don't want to suffer every single day with 0 help or accommodations while being blamed for it all as if it's a fucking moral failing and to be able to actually understand what the fuck is going on with my body. I'm fine if I'm unhealthy the rest of my life. I just don't want to have to cry over how sick I feel or how bad the pain is and consider death a better option because I have no help and have felt like I'm losing a race my entire life because no one else seemed to be suffering. That's all I fucking want.

I'm sick of my parents' dumbass health shit. I'm sick of them being fatphobic while they're extremely healthy and I'm fat and neglected and struggled so much more than they have because they will do anything for their own health, but won't do shit for me when they're the ones that I have to rely on. I'm sick of my mother pushing these "normal" goals because she wants me to be functional. Fuck. That. Bullshit.

I want help for my pain. I want to be diagnosed and get the help I can. I want accommodations and supports and mobility aids so I can experience as little pain as possible. It's so bad nearly every day. And wearing those ankle supports only made it all the more real that Yes, I Am Fucking Suffering!!! And yes, I need help. And I'm tired of being hyper independent and being neglected and being ignored while I see my parents handle every tiny thing wrong with their bodies when I've lived with this shit my entire life. It hurts. It hurts so much. And I hate that even with them FINALLY trying to find me doctors and get help, they still push fatphobia and healthy bullshit onto me. As if I need to be the optimal health. I don't know if it's possible and I'm not sinking back into the obsessive tendencies I've had since I was young. I was miserable and hated myself, blamed myself for everything. I will NOT go back to that.

#angry rant #tw self harm #tw self harm mention #tw suicide mention #actually autistic #neglected #traumatized #fat #disabled #disability #healthism #fatphobia #fatphobic #abusive mother #neglectful mother #actually narcissistic #actually disabled #actually traumatized #chronic pain #chronic fatigue #chronic illness #chronically ill #fibro #fibromyalgia #mental disability #physical disability #invisible disability #spoonie #foggy #brain fog

[fellhellion]

the secret garden was such a magical story to me as a kid. wandering around a house of death not knowing you were the only thing there that wasn't a ghost. gardens sealed by grief, but how important that it isn't dead, it's alive and flourishes under love and care. that which wails in the manor's halls is no ghost, but an abandoned child - family. you know an older boy who feels almost akin to Pan for the connection he has to the earth and by virtue of that gulf that is. a couple years age difference when you're a kid.

#i LOVED that book #tunes titters #something as well about how acting out for mary and her cousin was in big part rooted in the fact theyd been #neglected

[suckfaggot]

sometimes when writing a vent post u have a vision

#suckfaggot #meme #neglectful parents #neglect #invisible #neglected #funny #dark humor #anyways if i actually had an ED or was a singlet id be dead for sure #im literally only alive bc of siruss and the extra splits have just been more incentive along the way

[meliora-umbra]

Even if everyone in the world were to accept me and my illness and validate my pain, unless I can abide myself and be compassionate toward my own distress, I will probably always feel alone and neglected by others.

#bpd #borderline #borderline personality disorder #actually bpd #black and white #bpd thoughts #bpd problems #illness #mental health #mental illness #mentally fucked #alone #emotional neglect #neglect #neglected #lonely

[small-but-mightyy]

an abused child’s perspective

#as a child I saw this painting #as dark and gloomy and terrifying #i saw the girl fearful and alone #but now that I’m older #i see it for what it truly is #a bright and beautiful scene #childhood trauma #vent art #ventcore #trauma #actually traumatized #traumatic childhood #actuallyabused #neglected #alone #sad #tw csa vent #physicallyabused #emotional abandonment

[rogue-driv3r]

"Neglected"

EDIT: This is a drawing made after a year of lockdown, a simple combination of symbols and meanings i created for a canceled (i think, at this point) LungiDaMe fanzine number. Took me a while to finally express certain thoughts and emotions with my minimalist style, but I feel pretty satisfied with this. If you look closely, you'll notice a pair of eyes that are not ignoring.

#neglected #art #drawing #eyes #ignored #naudiz #rune #symbols #meanings #snow #wind #papers #drawing pen #black ink

[sagau-my-beloved]

Oh gosh, the last venti ask made me laugh nervously since my Venti has been heavily neglected 😭

I got Venti and put him on my team when I got him during Ayato’s rerun. I then started saving up for Xiao for Yelan’s release and didn’t get him. I then got Kazuha on his rerun and immediately replaced Venti. Like, gave him his artifacts and spent more time fighting Kenki than Dvalin for their mats. Then I gave him Sucrose’s artifacts which is worse with 600 em than his old 800 em build. I even double crowned Kazuha so he’s currently my most spoiled anemo user.

Then Scara was released, I (un?)fortunately lost to Tighnari which honestly, I was happy about. And started spending my mats for Venti (exp books and crowns) on him.

He’s probably fuming right now. I’m sorry Venti, I’m not fighting that wolf since he’s immune to both Cryo and Anemo (I main Ganyu and Kazuha, Diluc and Yanfei aren’t really built well but they can do a decent amount of damage).

Honestly Andrius was and absolute bitch of a fight until I realized I could just solo him with Venti on physical damage alone, since having a long range character is incredibly convenient for his close ranged attacks

It's certainly not the quickest fight in the world but it's better than not being able to do it at all and Venti's wind current last for the exact perfect amount of time for me to avoid that phase where he runs around in circles and occasionally charges, it really couldn't be more perfect, so with that technique I've almost got his talents completely maxed out, I only have to fight him like 3 more times

I am incredibly looking forward to not having to do that talent domain for a while too, I hate fighting cryo enemies with shields because I have absolutely zero built pyro or electro characters, so I'm left stumbling my way through it

Anyway I do really want Kazuha, he's in like my top 3 priority 5 stars right now, Xiao is in the top 5 and so is Tighnari but that's more for his passive than anything honestly, I still don't really know how to use dendro characters and I'm too afraid to learn

But poor Venti getting neglected, tho honestly he's probably not too cut up about not having to go around solving other ppls problems, but least you can do is give him a pretty artifact set and a few apples every now and then, he deserves it solely for being pretty

You and everyone else who hasn't built him should hand them over so I can get ever closer to C6, I'll trade you with my many many electro character constellation and an unreasonable amount of 5 star Viridescent Venerer artifacts, totally not a bad deal just don't think about it too hard

#genshin impact #hey look i'm talking #poor venti #neglected #how sad #*hastily looks away from all my characters who aren't Venti*

[officialyourdailyinspiration]

The Lord's House lies in Ruins

“You expected much, but then it amounted to little. When you brought the harvest to your house, I ruined it. Why? ” This is the declaration of the LORD of Armies. “Because my house still lies in ruins, while each of you is busy with his own house.” — Haggai 1:9 | Christian Standard Bible (CSB) The Christian Standard Bible. Copyright © 2017 by Holman Bible Publishers. Cross References: Proverbs 27:20; Ecclesiastes 1:8; Isaiah 40:7; Ezekiel 21:31; Haggai 1:4; Haggai 1:6

#expectations #fail #harvest #ruined #declaration #Lord of Armies #temple in ruins #neglected #Haggai 1:9 #Book of Haggai #Old Testament #CSB #Christian Standard Bible #Holman Bible Publishers