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samuel-de-champagne-problems · 2 years

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ok but do you ever stop and think of any of the BAU girls ever stopped in the middle of walking and go “when did Spencer get so hot??” I mean he was always hit but they never appreciated that since they saw him as the baby of the BAU. But I can’t see how there wasn’t a pint where they just said daaamn.

okay making this into headcanony-ficlet. also let's pretend JJ never had a ~thing~ for Spencer but just can objectively tell when a dude is hot

Emily, Tara, JJ, Penelope, and you decided to have a girls night at a bar one They get to talking about the newest edition to the BAU: SSA Luke Alvez

You and JJ are convinced that he's been staring at Penelope all day, especially when she helped him get set up with his issued tablet and passwords and whatnot

Sipping her third drink of the night, Penelope mentions that she doesn't have the best track record when it comes to dating men at work (*cough* Kevin *cough*)

JJ and you try to convince her that Luke is so into her and he's also wonderful to look at

Which of course leads a now fully drunk Penelope to start a game of fuck, marry, kill with of course, the men of the BAU.

Tara and Emily, exchanging knowing glances, both decide to sit this one out.

Penelope starts, having JJ decide between Spencer, Rossi, and Matt. JJ says, marry Hotch because he's clearly was a good dad, kill Rossi (obviously) and, with a shrug of her shoulders she says "well Spencer has gotten hot in the last year. So I guess I'm fucking him. Which means I'm going to need at least three more rounds to get that image out of my mind"

Penelope and Emily both nod, clearly in agreement of JJ's assessment. But Tara turns to you, her sharp mind noticing your look of confusion.

"Looks like we have a challenger," she smirks, sipping her Old Fashioned.

"Well no," you say, "It's just, Spencer's always been hot." you retort, feeling your face heat as you glance into your drink. You've been on the team before Spencer, knowing him back when the pair of you were consistently the youngest on the team.

"Really?" JJ says quizzically, "Even with the really long hair?" and Penelope interjects with "I mean, I guess he's was kind of cute?"

"Please, Spencer is most certainly the best looking man on the team. And he's also sensitive and kind. And have you seen him with children. It makes my ovaries pop," You take a swig of your drink, determined to not let more than you already did out. "Let's hear more about your crush, Penelope,"

"So it is a crush? And it's also your turn," JJ says, sharing a glance with Penelope.

"Spencer, of course, because things are turning interesting. Hmm. Matt. And to make it hard Derek,"

"Easy. Kill Matt, fuck Derek—"

"Hold up, what about Spencer being the hottest guy—" Penelope interrupts you, but Tara, placing a hand on her arm, says, "let her finish, I have a feeling this is going to get good,"

"Marry Spencer,"

"Well, that was quick." Emily says, clinking her drink against your drink. "Sounds like you thought about that last one"

"Quite a bit actually," you confess. "For like, the last 15 fucking years"

Tara leans forward, her hands resting under her chin. "So, when's the big day?"

Your eyes grow wide, part fear, part realization that you just spilled your deepest secret for the last 15 years of your life.

"You're going to tell him, right?" Penelope says, "You have to tell him. He's like freaking obsessed with you, you know that right? He was always getting Derek to switch rooms so he could be with you. He loves you, Y/N. Spencer and you, you're—"

"Penny, come on. It was a silly drunk game, we're talking about Spencer here, he's perfect. He's so smart and handsome and—"

There's a tap on your shoulder as Penelope's eyes grow wide with what seems to be fear. Your hand goes straight to your hip as you spin around.

But it's not the eyes of an assailant or a creepy drunk man, but of Spencer Reid himself.

"Pretty dumb if I didn't realize you loved me too this whole time." He says, "And for the record you seem to be fine,"

You glance at your wrist, beyond confused, beyond bewildered. "Of course I'm fine. I—Spencer, what are you doing here. What are you—"

"Tara texted me. She said you got trashed and needed a ride home. So I came," Spencer says, gesturing to his clothing, "I was in bed. Knitting and finally catching up on General Hospital," Spencer wears flannel pajama pants, an old college t-shirt, and a corduroy coat.

"Oh,"

"Maybe you two need to take this conversation outside," Tara suggests, nudging her head towards JJ and Penelope's nosy eyes and ears, the two who've seen this slow burn dance flame for years and years.

"No, no," you say, shaking your head, "I know exactly what I need and I don't want to wait another second,"

You stand, grabbing Spencer by the lapels of his coat and finally bring him in for a kiss 15 years in the making. His lips are bitter from peppermint toothpaste and it must contrast the sweet liquor that lingers on your lips. Spencer's hands are in your hair, eager to feel you close after denying himself, denying you the pleasure of each other.

Kissing Spencer makes it easy to forget that you're standing in the middle of a bar full of people and, certain rowdy co-workers.

Heat flushes Spencer's face and you get a glimpse of the younger man that you fell in love with. His eyes are the same, but his face is a little older, a little more wrinkled, but it's a face, it's the face that you'll never get tired of seeing.

"I love you, too" you whisper, low enough for lonely Spencer to hear for now and forever.

Unlike your quiet, private whisper, Penelope's attempt is loud and full of energy as she leans over the table to rest of the girls.

"Does this mean I can start planning the wedding? Or should I just get a headstart on the baby shower?"

#asks #spencer reid #spencer reid x y/n #spencer reid x fem!reader #spencer reid x you #spencer reid fluff #my writing #criminal minds #spencer reid x reader #dr spencer reid

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themultifandomgal · 1 year

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Finn Shelby- Blackmail

I was inspired by an imagine called 'Obsessed' from @whoree4fictionalmen book 'red right hand' over on Wattpad so please go and give her some love for inspiring this imagine.

Trigger Warning: Abuse, Sexual Assault, Arguing, Black Mail ⚠️

The Shelby brothers, the men all of Small Heath are afraid of. Well almost all. YN and her family are just some of the exceptions. YN's mother and the Shelby's mother were best friends, they even fell pregnant at the same time having Finn and YN only a month apart. This meant that YN's mum helped Polly look after the Shelby's when their mother passed away and when their father left them. As time went on and YN got older she became interested in boys, much to the Shelby's dismay. You see they became family to her and now YN saw them as her brothers, as if her last name was Shelby.

At the age of 17 YN started dating an older guy named James. She thought the world of him and because he was 7 years older she believed that he was more mature. Unfortunately that relationship broke down due to abuse, Tommy had threatened the guy and he skipped town. 2 years on YN and Finn have been dating now for 8 months.

YN walks through the dark gloomy streets of Small Heath, on her way to the Garrison where Finn and his brothers are meeting. Wrapping her coat tighter around her body she looks behind her seeing a figure following her. While normally she wouldn't be afraid, because of who she was associated with, this figure had an aura about him that scared her. Quickening her pace she turns a corner, now being able to see the pub her body relaxes a little. That is until she is pushed between two buildings, a hand over her mouth. That's when she realises who is standing in front of her. James.

"What are you doing back here?" YN asks with a shaky voice

"Missed you" his smirk making her feel sick

"I..."

"Shhh it's ok. I had to go away and get us a place far away from here. I'll give you till the of the week to say goodbye to your parents then we're moving to London. A man named Alfie will help us" Alfie? Alfie Solomons? no way he would help him YN thought and she was right. Alfie had already spoken to Tommy about a man asking for help and the Shelby name had been mentioned. This is why they were meeting at the Garrison "now your going to take me to your home so we can catch up" YN shakes her head

"My parents are home"

"Then we will catch up here" YN tries to push the man off her, but he pushes her further into the wall trapping her body between it and him. Taking her hands he places them above her head "if you scream, tell anyone, let anyone know what happened here, I'll kill you and you parents. Understand?" YN nods her head giving up and let's James have his way with her.

She walks into the Garrison trying to not let on to what just happened

"Here she is, see told ya she was on her way" Arthur slaps the shoulder of his youngest brother. Finn smiles walking over to YN placing a kiss on her cheek

"Hi, sorry I'm late. I err didn't realise the time when I left"

"Don't worry about it. Do you want a drink?" Finn asks

"No thank you" YN weakly smiles at her boyfriend. He knows somethings up but doesn't press her. Finn knows that YN will talk when she's ready. If anyone knew what YN was going through right now, they would tell her to speak to Finn and his brothers, but what if James had found out she did before they could help make sure her parents were safe. No. YN had to deal with this herself. She would make up an excuse to why she couldn't go with James.

The end of the week arrives and YN has no choice but to tell someone about what's been happening. James has been sexually assaulting her everyday now, and has also now got a few hits in. She has been covering up a bruised for the last 2 days and now she has out of options. Taking a deep breath YN knocks on Tommy's office door. His gruff voice tells her to enter

"Hey Tommy" confusion laced his face hearing YNs voice. Looking up he sees how nervous the girl actually is

"What's wrong?" he asks gesturing to the chair in front of his desk. YN sits down as Tommy folds his arms together

"My ex is back in town"

"Shit" Tommy breathes out "Alfie said he would be. Has he spoken to you?" YN nods looking ashamed. She lowers her head picking at her nails, a nervous habit "YN has he touched you" a sniffle is all that can be heard "when"

"Tuesday"

"Fuck sake YN why didn't you say something?" Tommy stands up, anger clear in his voice

"He said he would kill my parents Tom"

"And you know we would have protected them!" he yells at the girl he sees as a sister

"I'm meant to be leaving with him tonight Tommy"

"What?" he yells "does Finn know?" YN shakes her head "right im calling a family meeting and you are telling him. Understood?"

The Shelby family arrive at Tommys office within an hour

"What's this about Tom?" Arthur grunts sitting down

"YN care to tell them?"

"What's going on?" Finn asks looking worried

"James is back" she whispers a chorus of 'shit' 'what?' 'fuck' are heard

"And YN thought she could handle this on her own" Tommy crosses his arms once again

"Fucking hell YN" Arthur rubs his hands over his face

"Why didn't you tell me?"

"What was I meant to say Finn? hey James is back he rapped me and threatened to kill my family and me. He would Finn while you go to save my parents he would kill me or the other way around. What was I meant to do?"

"You were meant to fucking tell us!" he yells making YN jump

"Finn calm down" John tries

"I'm endangering my parents right now being here. Fuck he probably knows. I can't loose my parents" the tears YN has been tried to keep back finally fall

"Right this is what's going to happen. Finn you stay here with YN. Micheal you and John go and make sure YNs mum and dad are alright. Arthur your with me"

"What are you going to do?" YN asks wiping her tears on her sleeve

"We're going to finish this. Stay here" the brothers and cousin all leave, leaving YN and Finn alone

"I'm sorry I shouted at you. I just wish you would have told me when this started"

"I know, but Finn I was scared. And scared what you would think and that you'd leave"

"You think I'd leave you because of some fucker?"

"I thought you'd leave because I didn't fight him. I knew it would be no good and that if I did fight him he'd make everything worse for me"

"Come here" Finn pulls YN into his arms where she suddenly feels relaxed and safe "nothings going to happen now. Your safe" YN doesn't think she could hold Finn any tighter but she surprises herself.

That night the Shelby brothers dealt with James while Finn holds YN close to him. It takes time for YN to be comfortable with certain things like sex, but with Finns love, time and patience YN soon learned how to be herself once again.

#peaky blinders #finn shelby #finn shelby x y/n #john shelby #tommy shelby #arthur shelby #peaky fucking blinders #peaky blinder fanfic #peaky blinder imagine

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samijami · 3 months

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Ok so my friend is working on Sunday which means she's going to plan the double date ahead of time by a couple months to see if she can get the day off,

And I thought me and Blaze were official yesterday, and we were, he even said so, but today I think he was double checking by giving me a small note old-school saying 'be my bf? □ yes □ no' so I marked on yes and wrote on it saying 'already am <3'

He read that, got so red-faced and put it in his pocket. I literally think he's kept that in his pocket all day

Anddd...well he doesn't know much of what to do in the relationship either but he's the only one trying to progress things (just slightly cuz he's really fucking happy and giddy about this). So in choir, he whispered 'I really want to pull a Charlie' (referencing Heartstopper with Charlie holding Nick's hand very early on in the relationship as a way to come out) and soon, uh- I let him hold my hand cuz it made him happy and honestly, I kind of liked it. I've never held anyone's hand before and the fact that i can feel his very slight movements, the occasional hand squeeze..

He kept trying to make sure I wasn't uncomfortable with it, and reassured me I could decline any of his advances, but honestly..it's not been that long we've been together at all but..I'm happy with him. He said he was concerning teachers cuz he was thinking about me, smiling and giggling randomly and it was cute asf when I seen it. His face was so fucking red, and his ears were hot pink. He was like a little cute lobster lmfao

So we..ehm- we hold hands really often as a way to show we're together now. Blaze also said that it was a 'fuck you' to the principal who'd once called it PDA last year with another couple. But he's being so so fucking sweet omfg-

It's the smallest, little gestures that get me. He said he 'is in this relationship, and he's gotta do it right', so now he's just being such. a. fucking. gentleman-

Oh bejesus- he handed me my pencil when I was packing up in class, he pushed in my chair when I stood up, he carried my backpack from lunch to our next class. When I tried to take it, he was like 'whatcha tryna do? I'm taking this for ya'

He said that if I was going to naturally spoil him (which I do) then he felt the need to return the favour and ggggg

I'm already down bad, but not really like how that term's usually used-

I just really..want to spend time with him, I want to be there with him, I want to see him smile, I want to make him happy-

GAH HOWD I GET TIED INTO ROMANTIC STUFF- KHBVYLLUYV L

Imma see if I get arrange a date to the movies sometime when we both have a ride available cuz I really, really..want to

I might see when that new Willy Wonka movie he loves so much is on in our local theatre..I haven't seen it yet, and he loves the fuck out of it. I think it'd be sweet

Either the book, (which I've decided I'm gonna try to steal first instead of buy cuz with the money I have right now I could buy my mum these boots she's been obsessing over for a half a year for mothers day, and start making the money for my friend's earbuds for her birthday), would be a first date gift, or be with the Valentine's gifts. It's according to which comes first

Imma count my money now just to see exactly how much I got cuz if I have enough, I'll get buying my mum her boots out of the way tomorrow and hide them from her. Even though mothers day is many months away, I spend the money while I have it, then it's also easier to keep track of how much money I'm spending on what thing cuz I literally subtracted the money from one of the things right there- and so the money I have at that point would be the part I'm earning up for the other item (if that makes sense)

Seriously though, this guy is already so much of a keeper..he doesn't really act like a country boy, but he calls himself one and he likes country music. I like the choruses of some country music, like with Jelly Roll, but other than that? Shoot me in the head and roll me in the dirt- (/hj)

But he's a cute country boy and atleast he likes some of my music like Sueco for example-

He literally asked me if I liked roses today, and said he can borrow money from his sisters and-

I feel like either for valentines or for a date, he's gonna buy me roses. I said I liked the purple and black ones the best-

If he buys me roses idk how I'd hide it from my parents- but- I'd love them like all hell-

And probably kill them and be sad- but- yeah-

#HHHHHHHHH

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swiftstigmata · 2 years

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ok wait what’s your hot take on r*ta o*a being good for him! i have heard ppl say she’s hella problematic but i don’t know specifically why ?? hit us w ur thoughts pls

I'm putting this under a readmore because I absolutely refuse to force people to read r*ta o*a discourse against their will. but the tl;dr version of this is: yes, she's an insufferable person. yes, I think he's happy with her. yes, I have recently become very parasocial. yes, this is embarrassing.

Firstly tbh I think 'problematic' is a rough term, but in short, yeah, rita (we're on a first name basis now apparently) has a long history of career success based on blackfishing. She also broke lockdown rules in Nov 2020 by paying a restaurant £5k not to report her so she could have her 30th birthday (lol. except it's not funny is it it's serious). People also find her general career annoying but honestly I don't think there's anything wrong with doing whatever you can to be in front of the camera because, like, that's her job, so let's set that aside.

I unfortunately was susceptible to the Rita Ora propaganda when this interview came out in the Independent and started to kinda...like her. In the way you like your friend's messy cousin whose drama brings joy into your life. It helps that I am obsessed with her sister Elena, who seems to be her manager, handler, PR, publicist, and best friend all wrapped into one and is literally doing that better than like...the entirety of the Marvel team. "Why is Rita Ora here what is she even famous for" IT WAS ELENA. I would also bet money it was Elena who organised the damage control Independent interview and honestly, props. Excellent mopping up after the Covid fiasco. I want to study her in a lab etc.

It really confused people when Taika and Rita started dating (late Feb 2021, if you want to know the timeline so you don't have to be crazy like me and investigate it), but my hot take is actually that this is totally unsurprising and makes sense wrt what we know about both of them & their personal lives. Now THIS is when it gets really parasocial. You asked.

They have a similar group of friends - they were friends for 4 years before "complicating things" (absolutely deranged way of putting it, Taika, thank you) - and a lot of overlapping circles. They're both loud and ambitious with a tendency to overcompensate for nerves by just getting louder and more annoying, they're both party people who drink and dance and [redacted redacted]. Taika had just gone through his (now officially self-confessed! everyone say thank you Lie Detector video) 2018-2020 mid-life crisis and was filming Love & Thunder. CRUCIALLY, they had similar childhood experiences based around culture shock and forced assimilation - if you're reading this you probs know about Taika's experiences, but the tldr of the Oras is that they fled Former Yugoslavia just before the war and moved to London. Both Elena and Rita (first name basis here is killing meeee btw) have talked about the difficulty they had in adjusting (though Rita was just a baby). The Ora management team and inner circle still to this day consists mostly of the children of fellow refugees who moved to London at the same time and are childhood friends of the sisters. Elena stepped into the management role at 18 because their parents didn't have a good enough grasp of English to keep Rita safe in the industry. SO: broadly familiar childhood experiences on both sides, plus a tendency to keep close to friends and people you trust, etc etc.

In terms of them being good together - I literally don't know these people, obviously, I've just been obsessed for two months so I have a disturbing amount of knowledge in terms of what they choose to show us. In short: they seem happy. They seem to want to do similar things - go to shows, be papped, go to parties, get shit-faced, travel, and be domestic. There's this recent picture from the Dior show where she looks so happy it made me physically recoil from the screen.

Rita also talks in the Elena Propaganda Coup interview about how she has been in consistent therapy since she was fifteen because of crippling anxiety and panic attacks, and Taika recently mentioned in the Wired Autocomplete interview that he's now in therapy ("Who is Taika Waititi? Ask my therapist, that's what we're trying to figure out." [everyone who has watched Boy 2010 breathes a sigh of relief]).

FINALLY FINALLY the recent hyperspecific leak to the Mail and the Sun (not linking because I refuse to give them clicks but..) about their probable engagement and low-key wedding reads very much to me like a strategic planting - either because they knew the story was about to leak and wanted to get ahead of the story, or because they were throwing the press a bone in the hopes that they'd be left alone for the actual wedding. ELENA STRIKES AGAIN. The fact that the Mail keeps referring to Taika as "Rita Ora's fiance" (scream....so funny on so many levels) without either team issuing a denial is half a confirmation. Taika did fully dodge the question on This Morning which made me yell bc fuck Philip Schofield but is also NOT A DENIAL. Either way the idea that they're having a tiny wedding at some point in the near future without wanting it on social media spells happiness to me (not that having a big wedding means you aren't in love. then again this is a post about rita ora I'm cancelled already). Rita obviously wants kids and a big family and everything that entails so this was a fairly predictable move for them (predictable if you are me and Zoe @wolfhalls who seem to be psychic when it comes to Rita/Taika moves. What a useless skill). I just think it's cute I guess.

BUT TO SUM UP. Yes she is insufferable. Yes she's definitely privileged and ignorant. Yes the COVID thing was absolutely stupid and feels like a hugely coked up impulsive move to me. But also yes I think the hate she gets online is totally disproportionate and mostly driven by neckbeard men on reddit and whoever the fuck it is who comments on Deuxmoi, and I also think Taika is an insufferable person too so they match! Kidding I luv him. but also. Tune in next time for the great 2016-2018 PA Scandal Timeline. (KIDDING. I will not be doing that. But you get the point). The Rita that exists in my head is my best pal the girls who get it get it the girls who gornt...gornt. Thanks for reading.

#.txt #this is literally embarrassing.#but you did ask #rita ora for all the sensible people who have her filtered on here. as you should. wish i was you #asked

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khaleesiofalicante · 2 years

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“You know? The whole world doesn’t make any sense.”

“Why? I mean, I’m sure you are right but I literally have no idea what you are talking about,” he asked, as he took another sip from the bottle they had confiscated from their friends.

“Just think about it,” she started. “At our age, people always say we are too young to date, but just wait for a couple of years, and they will say we're too old to begin all this dating thing.”

He just hummed in agreement, pretty sure she was just rambling, but after a minute of pause, she continued. “I wish there was something we could do. Like, date someone without really dating them, you get me? Dating for friends!”

“You mean like friends with benefits?” he asked in confusion. Maybe he was a little drunk, but only a little!

“No, you are not getting me!” Keira said with frustration. “It would be like dating, but without the romance part! All of the cute and happy things like going out, buying gifts, having a partner in crime, comforting each other, having someone to go to awkward family dinners…But! Not actually being a couple while at the same time tricking everyone into thinking you are a couple!”

“You mean like fake dating?” Elian asked.

“Yes! Exactly that, but with a friend!” she continued. “Just listen, you can get all the experience of dating someone, knowing how to do it, having people know you were in a relationship, but getting away from all the problems dating someone at this age involves! Just patiently waiting for the real thing to start when you are older and know what you want.” she leaned back in a relaxed posture as if to prove a point, even if there wasn’t enough space on the floor.

Ok yeah, he was pretty drunk, but what Keira had said made a lot of sense. He frowned.

“Anyway, maybe it's just me rambling after I saw Ivar kissing that–”

“We could do it,” he interrupted.

“We could do what?” his friend giggled.

“We could do that thing you were talking about. Fake dating!”

“Why?”

“We both need people getting off our backs and we could both use some little help navigating this weird romance stuff!” this plan was brilliant, why hadn’t he thought about this before?

“Oh, I don’t know, there are a lot of things we should figure out and–” she began complaining, but he cut her off before actually thinking this through.

“We can do that too! Besides” he started, with a crooked smile forming in his lips. “We could make Ivar jealous.”

Now she was the one smiling.

-I have literally no idea what this is, but say hello to my new WIP I created solely for taking a break after finishing the big fucking outline of another story.

FAKE DATING MY BELOVED.

I'm already obsessed with this himbos.

ps - "I’m sure you are right but I literally have no idea what you are talking about" - HE WAS SO VALID FOR THIS OMG.

#noah boo thang

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holyshit · 1 year

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Hi, so... If you excuse me, I would like an "am I the asshole" opinion about something and since I don't have anyone to talk about it, the cool tumblr account I follow seems to be a good option.

(You can ignore me ,and I totally understand if u don't wanna answer this, since is not related to any content on your blog.)

So here is a "quick" resume

I'm being best friend with this person for 5-6 years, and we were really close, just easy to be around each other and stuff...

But the thing is, in the last 3 years, if I'm not misunderstood my whole life, we've being getting a little bit more close than any type of friends. Thing that I only noticed very late bc we're both girls and I never had a best friend before, even though - i might mention - I'm on 20s and so is she.

But since I did notice that, I start to get feelings for her, imagining how good we could be as a couple since we're amazing as friends, and I was in my romance shows obsession time, so this might have helped.

I didn't tell her and obviously didn't do anything about it out of sheer self-preservation. What I did was start to be as she usually is with touching (I'm not this person im general, but she was like a exception) and hope for the best.

I think she noticed bc we get even more close without any real move, specially because I think we're both on the same page about don't mess up what we already had

I have to say before next paragraph, she knows me, I know her, we're both bi and loud about it, we have queer friends, this is not the case of closeting.

About a time ago, she started to take some steps back, but like without even pretending she wasn't, and I was ok w that bc she doesn't have to do nothing, no obligation of hugging me or keeping hanging out once a fortnight, but this really came out of nowhere.

I said she was acting weird so this make her noticed how abrupt was the change and back to normal a little. Not even a month after, she started dating this guy that also came out of nowhere, from her job and that according to her, already had a interest in her.

And now they are this cool couple that everyone says how good they look together, when she talks about him for me I can see she really likes him, and honestly I'm not gonna enter in the 'broken heart' topic because, yeah I was deep in love with her, but I cry about it with my therapist, I'm here for the things she can't say and apparently I have to figure it out by myself. So I acted normally, met the guy and stuff, he kind of got into the group and he is ok.

We don't hanging that much now because he takes priority - which, again, I understand. And also I got a promotion that makes me travel more than before. - But when we do happened to meet, she now acts a little bit like we used to do when both of us were on that bubble of illusion on a weird friendship that made me listen to Ed Sheeran, which is ridiculous because I swore I would never be this person. It makes me really sad how much I wanna be with her but I can't. She's always saying we should do the things we used to without be specific and seems to take a step back every time she noticed we are too close like she is in conflict or maybe I'm just crazy trying to see something for some hope

I got it, I lost my chance. But now we're getting on the end and I hope you have a answer for that bc I'm sad again resuming lots of years and feelings in some paragraphs

The problem is: she's having a birthday party that she's planning for ages since she consider 25 very important. And the guy was planing some romantic shit for her and asked for my help. I did help to prepare everything because I really have nothing against him and it's not his fault I'm dreaming about his girl or whatever, but I know exactly what he's gona do and I can not, I really can't

So I said to her I couldn't go to her birthday because I have a very important travel on work. I thought was a easy way because she knows how much I love this job. She asked me if I could have a talk with my boss, and make someone else to take my place, and I said I will try to reallocate things until the last minute. But I'm actually planing say on the last minute it wasn't possible and maybe get some ice cream on the day, since my fucked life sounds like it's being written by a 13yo

So, I'm a big asshole for lie to her not going to the birthday party to see her boyfriend proposal?

I really think I'm just trying not get more hurt but the days are passing and she's always asking me for updates about me going to the party and I'm feeling bad now. Idk

I don't wanna be the person who's in the corner with that kind of face or even drunk because I am, or used to be, her best friend, and we never fight or something, I should be happy for her on this day. But I also don't wanna be the person who skip this moment when and if I get over this feeling some day and regret for not be present on the birthday she's excited for since we've meet.

I'm just very stressed now and would help another point of view bc all my other friends would never believe I was talking about someone different and also I would mess the surprise that I think only me and the guy know about. So I hope this is not something super weird to sent, I'm really really sorry if is.

hi love! finally have a chance to write a proper response!

i'm sorry you're going through this, first of all :/. i feel like there are so often these kinds of "missed connection" type relationships for gay people either due to being in the closet/in denial about your sexuality (not in your case, just in general) and either not fully realizing your feelings for a friend or being too scared to act on them, and/or from these kinds of friendships that seem to be a little bit more than friends but there's still always the uncertainty of whether the other person just views it as a friendship and the fear of fucking up the friendship if you make an advance and they actually weren't into you... it's not as cut and dry than it often is with dudes where the flirting can be more obvious. i've definitely had multiple painful friendships in my teens where i was clearly in love with them but never made a move due to my being in denial, and it's sad to think about how those relationships really could have worked out if i didn't have that fear. and falling for a best friend is sadly a pain a lot of us have felt ksdjnsk it's fucking ROUGH and i'm sorry you have to work through that right now :(

so in my perspective based on what you’ve said, it does sound like she might have pulled back initially because she had already met that guy at work and was possibly in a talking phase with him and didn't want to be disrespectful, which implies that she did consider you guys' friendship to be veering into non-platonic territory and was happy with that until someone else came into the picture. although it’s painful to have missed a shot, it can also be comforting to know that she might have felt the same way and it wasn’t all in your mind, that there were feelings on both sides. and i can imagine her wanting to initiate it again and pulling back over and over might be from some kind of lack of closure in your friendship on that level... which is another aspect to these kind of more-than-friends-but-friends kind of relationships- there’s not often a big blow-up breakup of any sort, so you’re left with this feeling of what could have been that can stick in your brain for a long time. and it sucks because you can’t reasonably get the normal closure because it’s hard to really talk about when nothing officially happened, especially if the person is now in a relationship since you don’t want to throw a wrench in their relationship either.

i have mixed feelings about how you should handle the party situation... i do think going to the party, although painful, could help in getting closer to closure for you. you can’t pin all your hopes on them breaking up at some point and getting that chance to pursue something with her, as then you’ll be in misery for much longer than you deserve while playing a waiting game that might not result in anything, so i do think it’s important to your overall healing that you reach some form of closure, and seeing something like that could be a painful but needed step forward to make it seem more “real” in your mind to help you move on. but at the same time, if you think you’re not going to be able conceal your feelings about it and you think it might start a fight, it might not be worth it. in your situation i probably would be very tempted to skip it, especially because i wouldn’t want to put a cloud over a day i know is very important to her, although that could be the case whether you decide to go and end up getting upset, or if you don’t go, so it seems like a double-edged sword either way. i do think, in the longterm, the decision to go to the party would probably be better overall for the reasons i already said and because like you said, you might regret it in the future. but, if you do decide to skip the party because you don’t think you’ll be able to handle it (and i would totallyyyy understand if you did), i would suggest planning something special for you and her to do on a different day around the same time, as that is a good way to show that you care and that you recognize how important her 25th is to her.

sending you a massive hug!!! your pain will ease with time, i am sure of it, but i can’t imagine how awful you’re feeling right now and i sympathize with you greatly :(. i’ve been there, and it’s so so rough.

#asks #anonymous

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yamikawas · 3 years

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Yoomtah is looking at you right now!! She's making sure she won't get caught, so you won't be able to find her, but she's really excited just to see you !!!! She's thinking about the day she'll finally confess to you and make you hers !!

IS SHE REALY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#OH SO ITS 11:33 IN THE MORNING AT THE TIME OF TYPING THIS TAG AND WE'RE ALREADY ENABLING ME OK YES I APPRECIATE THIS<3 #AND A PRE-RELATIONSHIP SCENARIO NONETHELESS!!!#OK THE THOUGHT OF HER BEING OBSESSED WITH ME BEFORE WE'RE EVEN DATING MAKES MY BRAIN EXPLODE? /POS #AND DONT GET ME STARTED ON IMAGINING HER CONFESSING TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#AND OH MY GOD IF SHE GETS PROGRESSIVELY MORE YANDERE AS HER CONFESSION GOES ON. LOVE #LIKE I NEED HER TO BE RIGHT IN MY FACE WITH HER ARMS AROUND ME TELLING ME THAT IF I EVER LOVE ANYONE OTHER THAN HER SHE'LL KILL THEM. THANKS #AND THEN WHEN I TELL HER I LOVE HER TOO SHE JUST STARTS GIGGLING MANIACALLY AND HUGGING ME TIGHT AND TELLING ME THAT I BELONG TO HER NOW #FOREVER AND EVER AND EVER AND THAT SHE'LL NEVER LET ME GO #THINKING ABT IT WARMS MY HEART.........AAA #AND MAYBE IM ALLOWED TO GO LITTLE A YANDERE FOR HER WHEN I ACCEPT HER CONFESSION. AS A TREAT #OR MAYBE ON THE SAME LEVEL SHES GOING IF IM FEELING IT IDK #ALL I KNOW IS I WANT HER TO TELL ME SHE LOVES ME AND ONLY ME IM ALL HERS FOREVER AND EVER AND EVER IF ANYONE TOUCHES ME SHE'LL KILL THEM<3<3 #I JUST STARTED RAMBLING IN THE TAGS HERE HUH. I AM SO IN LOVE WITH HER IT IS UNREAL

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mapleleafssss · 2 years

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Yw! And yayay congrats on finishing your finals, you deserve to rest!! Can't wait for your future works 🤩🤩

So for my request, I'll try to keep it as short as I can since I tend to ramble alot >< Albedo and his Fem! Reader lover, romantic, angst to fluff bc it's my fave. Essentially, it goes like this; huge argument, Albedo snaps and compares her to Sucrose, reader thinks she's not good enough (been thinking that but she hides it v well and Albedo also has been neglecting her for a period of time now so as smart as he is, he didn't figure that out), reader breaks it off with him, Sucrose scolds him for the first and only time (she's reader's childhood best friend). Albedo spends days looking for reader and eventually finds her (Sucrose refuses to tell him no matter how much he begs her), asks for forgiveness etc and they hug and make up. 😌 Need I mention that reader is tiny so she for real is able to hide from him for weeks on end.

Mistakes and Growth (Albedo x F!Reader)

Summary: Sometimes, the wrong words can come out. In the end, should you really care when your lover says those things?

Warnings: 2.3 Event Spoilers

Notes: NO SCHOOL FOR THE NEXT TWO WEEKS YALLLL IM FINALLY MORE ACTIVE AGAIN. Ok now enjoy this Albedo angst

Reader eventually gains a vision and joins the knights (im obsessed with these type of stories lol)

Sucrose being yo best friend 4 life <333

also i listened to this playlist bc it showed up when I was writing this😭 here

For the last two weeks, Albedo has been even more distant than he was. Even before that, he spent at least a little more than half of his day up in the mountains. But that didn't stop you.

You had to find out.

"Albedo, tell me what's going on." You demanded with your arms crossed as you went after the alchemist. The crunch of the snow and the slippery texture of the snow made it harder for you to follow Albedo up the slight slope.

You see his hair wave right to left, shaking his head. "It's nothing to worry about, dear." He 'reassured' you. "I'll be home by 9 pm. If not, then I'll be staying at Dragonspine."

Groaning, you grabbed his wrist not too tight, but enough to keep him in place.

"I love you, Albedo. I'll obviously let you have your own freedom." You stated directly at his face. "But as your lover, I have to know what's going on with you. Don't hide anything from me."

Albedo facepalmed gently. "Y/n..." He sighed deeply. "If you only did this to bring information out of me, it would've been better to bring Sucrose along. At least she won't pry info out of me."

Your eyes widened at the alchemist's words. The sudden change in his tone was out-of-character of him. Then as you slowly think about it...

He compared you to Sucrose.

"You... You didn't just compare me to Sucrose, did you?" You said with a worried tone.

"It's only the obvious. It's what I perceive." He replied. "You only went along with me, just to talk."

"But what do I expect?"

"You barely even know anything alchemy related."

Your fists clenched as you moved your head to the side, covering your eyes. Tears started to emerge from your eyes without Albedo noticing since he was looking at the floor at the time.

It was until your breathing started getting heavier and then Albedo looked over at you. He hadn't realized what he just said. In fact, he realized that those thoughts went through his mind and he felt disgusted.

"How could you..." You paused with a sniff. "Then go date her. Go date my best friend since you seem to enjoy her company better than mine.”

Your back turned, and now he was faced with your hair in the Dragonspine wind.

"Sorry, but... we're done. Now, go be happy with someone else."

The snow crunched beneath your feet as you walked away silently. All that can be heard was the cold wind in the air.

"Y/n... Wait!" He said aloud but you didn't hear him. HIs hand reached out to you in the distance before he put it down in a fist.

"Seems like this so-called 'genius' didn't make a genius idea after all." He said to himself.

You slammed the door shut to your rented room in Mondstadt. In a rage, you went into the bathroom and looked at your miserable self. You felt like you weren't enough for someone as perfect and beautiful as Albedo.

Occasionally, you'd tell yourself that Sucrose was way more smarter and intelligent than you. She even got a beautiful Anemo vision, which you'd often see her experimenting with. You find it outstanding of how much your childhood friend has grown.

The doorbell rang, making you immediately wipe your tears. You exit your bathroom and opened the door.

Speak of the devil, it was Sucrose.

"Y/n, are you doing okay?" Was the first thing she asked as she tugged at her sleeves. "I saw you walking past the alchemy stall just a few minutes ago and you looked tired. Did something happen? Weren't you supposed to be with Mr.- I mean, Albedo?"

You wiped your eyes. "Oh, Sucrose... It's nothing. I'm fine. I just went home early and Albedo let me off."

Sucrose giggled. "Hehe, of course he would. Everytime he looks at you, it's like he has hearts in his eyes. He cares about you." Suddenly, she stopped giggling.

"But... I have a feeling that you're lying. Don't take that personally." She said with a genuine tone.

You both went over to your sofa to talk more. "Tell me what actually happened, please. As your best friend, it's only good of me to make sure I check on you.'

Right when you were about to lie, a tear randomly came out of your eyes.

Sucrose's ears twitched as worried overcame her. She scooted over and held your shoulders.

"Y/n... Why are you crying? Please, tell me already. I'm worried about you." She frowned at the sight of your tears.

Your lips quivered slightly as Albedo's words echoed through your head constantly. Non-stop. It kept going and going.

"He..." You sniffed as Sucrose held you close to her body. "He compared me to you- and... I don't know what to do! I was the one who-"

Sucrose noticed the hiccups in your voices and stopped you from speaking for the time being. "I-I don't know how to comfort people, but please take deep breaths. Take your time."

Her hands soothed your back until you can finally speak clearly.

"Albedo compared me to you-- How I can't do any simple alchemy, he basically said I'm too stupid and dumb for him..."

Sucrose's ears twitched as she frowned in pity. She hadn't expected that her teacher were to say those things to his girlfriend-- her own bestfriend.

"I'll be happy to take you around Mondstadt later when I finish my work." She smiled. "It's the least I can do for the one person who stayed with me."

You explained the rest before she left.

Later that day, Sucrose and you took a walk around Mondstadt and at the new clothes they had in store. Today was a girls day for the both of you.

Sucrose then suggested that you should apply for the Knights of Favonius Herbalist, a new branch in the Knights. Surprisingly, she knew a bit about herbs and suggested some books that got recommended by Sumeru Academia.

After only a few days, you picked up nearly everything there is to be a herbalist.

As Sucrose watched the alchemy stall, she saw an approaching figure. The alchemist looked exhausted as he walked over.

"Mr. Albedo!" She waved over at Albedo. She didn't even want to ask that question, despite always being curious about stuff and asking him about it.

His eyes shot up at her. "Hello." He replied. "If you know, could you tell me where Y/n is at currently? I need to talk to her about... urgent matters."

She looked away from Albedo, holding the clipboard to her chest. "I'm truly sorry, but Y/n wants her location to be confidential towards you. I don't want to break that trust between us, so I can't tell you. You'll need to find her on your own."

"Sucrose, you don't know how urgent this is. It's-"

Sucrose shook your head. "I'm sorry, Mr. Albedo. If you're looking for her, catch up on the news recently. That's all I the info I have for you."

In the distance, she saw Timaeus, who she was looking for so that she could tell him about the results of the experiment.

"Timaeus!" She said to herself. "Pardon, but I have to talk with Timaeus for a bit. Again, I'm super sorry." With that, she left the alchemist in total darkness.

The Dendro vision on your waist glowed a brilliant green as your face was deep in a book. It was a book of herbs and how they are used all over Teyvat.

He still couldn't find you. You'd often go to Dragonspine to look at the frozen mints on the ground, while Albedo would try to look for you. Little did he know, you've been watching him look for you. This lasted for days and he worked less hours up in Dragonspine.

After working for the Knights for two weeks, you had to be introduced to the public. It was practically unavoidable as Amber and Kaeya had to do it as well.

'Wow, she's so beautiful!'

'I heard that Grand Master Jean said her education level is measured a very high level at Sumeru Academia!'

The praise among the crowd were all positive that it made you smile as you stood in front of the KoF HQ.

Albedo noticed the crowd in front of the HQ right as he was about to lose hope. Out of curiosity, he saw what the commotion was about.

Seeing you up there was something new to him. He felt proud of you, but he knew that the reason you did this was because of him.

Suddenly, you made eye contact with Albedo. Your smile turned into a sad one as you looked away. You already knew that Albedo would try and talk to you after this.

So to avoid that, you went into the library first as it was the first place you saw.

"Lisa, don't tell Albedo where I am. I'm serious." You quickly say as Lisa looked out the window. As she looked at you, she noticed the quite serious face plastered on your face.

"Don't mess up my books. It's all I ask." She said in a rather direct tone, but you didn't care. You jumped over the railing to the lower floor and went into the storage room.

In there were a lot of boxes and you had an idea pop into your head. Quickly, you used the advantage of your small body to slide between the boxes in just a few seconds.

The door opened to the storage room and you could already tell who it was. All you need to do is stay quiet and nothing will happen, right?

...right.

Well luckily for you, this place hasn't been dusted in a while. By 'a while,' it seems to be at least half a year. If not more.

The feeling in your nose increased tremendously as you tried to hold it in. It went away for a second, making you relieved. But you got fooled in the end.

You sneezed.

As the alchemist turned around at the sound, you huffed in disappointment. When you emerged from the boxes, you wiped the dust off your cheeks.

"Y/n, why're you hiding?" Albedo asked with a sad frown. "I want to talk to you."

You shook your head. "No, I don't want to hear it. You can't just compare your lover to someone else. Even worse, their best friend."

As you escaped from the pile of boxes, you felt a hand grab your wrist. "I'll tell you why I've been more busy... I had a reason to be so defensive."

He saw your eyes glare at him, half-lidded. "Something happened in Dragonspine a few weeks ago. As unrealistic as it seems, I had an imposter, trying to infiltrate our group. The traveler was there too, along with Eula, Amber, and Bennett. In reality, traveler knows my secret and I'm planning to tell you."

"but not here."

He took you to Dragonspine and into his camp. You wondered how confidential it was for Albedo to bring you out of Mondstadt to tell you something.

Albedo took a deep breath, then exhaled. "I'm not an actual human. I'm a synthetic human-- a homunculus. My mother and teacher of alchemy created me from chalk. About the imposter, it was a mutated whopperflower. Imagine that you're a gardener, and-"

You interrupted him, knowing what he was talking about. "Oh, are you talking about that one story where there's a gardener picking out the perfect flower while the other two have poison thorns? So those two use those poison thorns to get rid of this gardener and the perfect flower, correct?"

"Yes, precisely." Albedo nodded. "I'm telling you this... because I want to know if my imperfections would prevent you from loving me. That's why I struggled to tell you why I was so distant."

Feeling guilty, you grabbed his hand. "I'm sorry..." You muttered. "I'm sorry I tried to pry it out of you forcefully."

Albedo shook his head in disagreement. "No, don't apologize. I shouldn't have compared you to Sucrose. I won't ever do that to you again."

"That is... If you give me another chance."

Quietly, you went to his cheek and set small kisses on him, just how you used to. You held his precious face in your hands as you continued.

You soon backed away. "To me, your imperfections make you perfect. I'd love to be with you, my prince."

His arms wrapped around your waist and under your arms, pulling you in closer for a hug. His cheeks were covered in a soft pink as the smell of your hair caught his attention. He never realized that he missed the smell so much.

"I love you, my princess. Now, how about I make you your favorite meal?"

#genshin albedo #genshin x reader #genshin impact #genshin #albedo x reader #albedo #albedo kreideprinz

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piracytheorist · 2 years

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(laa) oh Ethan's far from my first obsession or hyperfocus (earliest RE were OG chris, Jill and Claire in early 2000s), but normally these last a month or 2 then fade to 'man I really like this thing' and I occasionally revisit them when something pops on my feeds or any tracked tags in some sites,,, but with these characters? so far it's been nothing but 'Ethan! Rose! classic!RE lore revisit! sometimes Venom! rarely the lords+miranda! then back to Ethan! Rose!' and and the whole loving a chara that *loves*? aw yisss

like I'm at work, and sometimes if there aren't any customers or things to write on the pc, there's just fanfic in my mind 'hm *Ethan doing mundane stuff I do at home - or teaching Rose how to play piano* ah yes happy hcs ♥' or 'enough of Ethan survived and was picked up by the Connections bc Lucas told them about him and/or their mole in the BSAA found out his moldy status and now Rose is going to find him while on a completely unrelated mission and they've experimented on him and hurt him so much during all these years she thought him dead (I need the whump (ʘ‿ʘ✿) ), she could barely recognise him, it was only bc of the emotion in his eyes when he looked at her and when he tries to whisper her name (and ofc the mold itself probably screaming at her that's Daddy!!) and she well she rains absolute hell on them and brings down the entire facility - chris being disturbed is a must, he understands why she did it but also serves as a nice reminder of how powerful she is and how much she loves her dad and how far she'll go for him ok just like that agent said 'you're a lot like him, you know?' (did this guy know Ethan or just heard about him? why say 'today of all days', was it a special date, what about? they both know chris (and she's not v happy w him) so whats with the sniper? i have questions! capcommm! these years of waiting - also i need sleep rn)

Oh, yeah. Like Ethan's a pretty simple character, he doesn't really need much to work as he does, but the things he does are so in sync with what I like.

Like on my first watch of a playthrough, at first I was both "He seems kinda boring lol" and "Aw poor dude. Don't worry Ethan, we're in this together. But your screams of pain ARE kinda doing it for me..." at the same time XD It was through his continuous refusal to give a shit and to accept he's in a horror game and through his love for Rose that moved him forward that took me from liking him straight into loving the shit out of him.

Coming up with fic ideas during boring work hours is a must. How else are we gonna spend our time? XD Ethan teaching Rose how to play the piano 🥺🥺 Im lov. I want this, sweet moments between a daughter and the father who fought like hell to save her 😭😭 But this:

"she could barely recognise him, it was only bc of the emotion in his eyes when he looked at her and when he tries to whisper her name (and ofc the mold itself probably screaming at her that's Daddy!!)"

sadafdsgfadgafsdgfdv!! I want this!! I want them to reunite so bad! And if it's after Ethan has been tortured and experimented upon... well, the more whump the better! Like you know, make him suffer hell and then give him a happy ending. That's how it works for us! They deserve to get to know each other 🥺🥺

I'd honestly love to see how Rose grows up to see Chris as. She says to that agent "I can show you things even Chris doesn't know I can do" so Chris knows a lot, and is supposed to be the guy who knows THE most about Rose, at least when it comes to her mold powers. And I'd really like to see the dynamic of those two.

About that agent, I've heard the theory that he was one of the guys who gave Ethan military training before re8. Otherwise, if he's just heard about Ethan, it doesn't make too much sense, because it's different to get to know a person and to just hear stuff about them. Or maybe Ethan's story became a BIG thing in whatever team they've got going on (I'm guessing it's not BSAA) and he knows a lot of stuff about him. He says "Today of all days" because it looks like it's Ethan's birthday. Like Rose says "Sorry I missed last week" when she puts the flowers down on his grave, but I don't know if that means that she missed his birthday which was last week, or if she missed her weekly visit to his grave, and the day she went happened to be his birthday.

And about the sniper, I'm pretty sure they're afraid of her. I don't think them having a sniper on her was approved by Chris - in fact, I have a theory that her working with that agent is happening completely behind Chris' back, like Chris has a team training Rose and this guy is with them and secretly working with her, perhaps because he's a Connections/BSAA mole and they want to use her or something - but in any case they probably think she may get uncontrollable and unpredictable, so they're having a failsafe in case she tries something. Super creepy, by the way. But it's also an awesome sequel hook, as soon as I saw it I was like "So Rose for protagonist on re9, right? Is it coming tomorrow or what??"

#Ethan Winters #Rosemary Winters #Resident Evil #Resident Evil 8 #re meta #long asks anon #anonymous #ask and ye shall receive

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dreamerandcrazy · 3 years

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Ok, so I haven't been able to comment much on my Riverdale rewatch mostly bc i'm watching it with my boyfriend and we have an agreement of no cell phones when we're watching, otherwise we can't pay proper attention to it. But I wrote down some notes about the episodes I did watch (I watched up until ep 6, which is very ironic bc apparently today is its anniversary, so yay for my perfect timing). I actually remember most of the stuff that happened in s1, so here's mostly a few things I paid more attention to or noticed about the characters and the ships, or things i'm able to look at through a different view now that i've watched all the seasons. Strap in if you want to see my notes, if not just scroll please, no ship or character hate here please. Also, feel free to ignore, this is really just a personal look in some stuff I didn't notice in my first watch.

- Betty's character used to be much happier and lighter in season 1. I know we're introduced to "Dark Betty" right in episode 3, but still, I feel like the way Lili played Betty in season 1 did not hold the same "darkness" as it does in the following seasons. The scene where she is dancing happily in her bedroom because she's going to homecoming with the boy she likes? The scene where she introduces Jughead to the Blue & Gold and gets him to work with her? Her genuine innocent happiness at seeing her sister again after so much time? The way she interacted with Kevin and Veronica? Those were all chef's kiss because she actually feels like a teenager in them. In all her girly glory, she radiates youth energy and it's a thing that was sadly lacking after s1. Btw this is not a critique at Lili's acting at all, I blame it entirely on Ras and his obsession with dark Betty.

- There's actually so many indications of Cheryl being a lgbt character in the first episodes that I have no idea how I missed it the first time. But then again, there were many indications with Veronica as well, and sadly that's not the path Ras chose for her.

- Jughead in s1 is truly so superior in so many ways that it's not hard to see why he quickly became such a fan favorite. I think even if he wasn't played by Cole Sprouse, he still would have conquered many fans' hearts. Sadly, the things that made Jughead such a loving and interesting character for me also fizzled out in s2 when the writing team decided to make him a woke serpent leader instead of allowing him to sticking to his true personality as a passionate mystery lover, a dedicated friend and very nerdy, which was very cute. I feel that we got some of that back for him in s4, which was good, but sadly s1 is where my love for him really stayed to stay. But I still care for him, and s5 has a promising storyline for him which i'm excited about, so let's see if s5 Jughead can become better than s1 Jughead.

- Going back again to Cheryl for a sec, I just noticed that the red lipstick actually wasn't that common for her in s1? At least not in the first five. I wonder when did it start becoming her trademark? Anyways, it's actually a really good look her and allows you to appreciate Madelaine's natural beauty even more.

- Also, did anybody notice how Alice lowkey figured out who killed Jason in ep 2 lmao, like... in episode two she legit says she wouldn't be surprised if the Blossoms themselves had killed Jason, which... is what happened LMAO, considering we know it was his father. And even more hilarious and tragically ironic note, in ep 6 she's laughing at Betty suggesting that Hal killed Jason because "do you think your father has the stomach for it?!"... Ma'am... i'm-.... 😂😂😂😂.

- This rewatch has reminded me of how much I adored and how I much I miss Josie and the Pussycats. The girls were such a nice addition to the cast, and their songs were so beautiful. I truly wish we get to see them again someday, but at the same time I also think the actresses deserve to be at a work place where they're given the treatment they deserve and not completely ignored and treated like extras.

- Archie/Valerie was super cute and is very underrated in the fandom, but i'm glad Valerie stood up for herself and didn't take any of Archie's or Cheryl's sh*t. Still sucks because they were really good together, though.

- Why was Jason not allowed to talk, lmao? Like, i'm sure it's become a running joke in the show at this point, but back when season one was airing what was the excuse for it? He appeared in so many flashbacks and scenes and we still never heard a single word ☠️☠️☠️☠️. I just want to know what was the reason lol.

- I liked s1 Reggie, but I feel like Charles Melton's Reggie is better because he actually feels like a douche with good intentions lol, and he has more of a personality. Most of the time I even forgot about Reggie in s1, but after s2 he definitely made me more aware of him. So for that, I like Charles Melton's Reggie more. But the actor from s1 still did a good job with what he was given.

From now on I will be talking about the ships, so bear with me, and know that I am a multishipper. Yes, I have my preferences. No, my word is not law, it's just an opinion, so please respect it.

- Bughead is still super cute in s1. I feel like from s1 they will always be my otp, even if I no longer feel as strongly about them now and have a different insight as to where I would like their story to go, and now I definitely see the problem others had mentioned before of how they kind of took over the show, which is something I kind of closed my eyes to before... But I really loved them in s1. It felt like a very juvenile teenage relationship, they didn't give much thought on why and if they should be together, they just went for it like teenagers usually do, and they were very very cute together.

- I feel like if you don't count Beronica (because they really were the best no matter what you say or ship), if there's a ship that deserves "best chemistry" award for s1 is probably Varchie. I lost my interest in them years ago, but this rewatch reminded me of why I actually loved them once. They never really became an otp for me, but Kj and Camila's chemistry in s1 was VERY GOOD, and I really liked them. Their kiss in the pilot was electric and the s&xual tension was OOF, and that chemistry carries on through the season. You can easily tell something will happen between them eventually. It makes me sad bc I don't know what happened after s1, but their chemistry from s2 onwards was just... not there for me. Which is ironic bc it's the season they truly started dating and they got a lot of smexy scenes, but I just... didn't feel it. But I'll leave that comment to my s2 rewatch. For now just let me enjoy Varchie's chemistry in s1 while it lasts because it was really good.

- Now we get to Barchie, who I made clear was the reason for my rewatch, so let's get to it. I LOVED the way Barchie was written in s1. I remember when I first watched Riverdale, I was curious about their dynamic but didn't put much thought into it because I loved Bughead too much and wanted them to be together, and I thought Barchie would be the traditional "first og ship" thing and wouldn't have a big follow up, but boy was I WRONG and am I GLAD for it. I'll talk more about their development in the next seasons when I get there, so for now let's focus a bit on s1. Just in like the first two episodes, there is so much Barchie foreshadowing, like, it's legit insane how it was right there in my face and I missed it the first time! "I have never felt what i'm supposed to feel with betty", "it's not my fault he doesn't like you", "I can't give you the answer you want"... Omg, those are obvious eyebrow raising "this will come back to bite you in the a$$" moments and it's incredible how they actually DO! I would call it clever writing, but like... it's Riverdale lol. So I really am just glad that the ship was done this way, i'm glad Barchie has the back story that they do, they've really come a LONG way and i'm happy I get to experience their whole growing storyline. It's also especially good because s1 actually provides you with scenes that show you their friendship and how they're so close, you see them hanging out, talking, their pictures together, everything was just really done well with them. Still have a bit of critique with the way Archie contradicted himself sometimes regardinf his feelings for Betty, but let's be honest, we've watched enough Riverdale to know that's just a problem with the writing.

- Kevin/Joaquin is still my favorite Kevin ship, i'm sad it's completely impossible to go back to them someday so for now i'll just be really glad it existed and that I got to see them even if it was short-lived. They had great chemistry and their kiss scenes always outsold.

- Beronica... sigh. Beronica. The most wasted chemistry i've ever seen on CW and I've watched a LOT of CW shows. There was so much potential there, s1 was practically overflowing with them and it's one of the reasons it became some popular. I remember when the Beronica fandom was the biggest one, ah, good times. Veronica and Betty were easily the best part of season 1, their friendship, their lowkey romantic moments, they were just superior in every way. This ship deserved better, not even just as a ship, but as a friendship.

- Veronica's s1 hair >>> Veronica's hair in seasons 2-4. I loved the side part and I am glad it's back in season 5, it looks so much better like that.

- Cheryl, as always, deserves better. Can't wait for her to meet Toni so I can watch again Cheryl finally get to love someone and be loved back, which is exactly what she deserves.

For now, that is all! I will probably make another post soon when i'm done with season one and from season two on I will be live-blogging the episodes since I will be watching it alone. Once again, pls, no hate, my thoughts are my thoughts. Peace.

#bri rewatches riverdale #riverdale #barchie #choni

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JESUS FUCKING CHRIST

GUrll ur so sexy... Like you're Hot. I don't care if you were bullied in school, you're sexy, they lied.

Also bitch I KNEW i related to you too much our ascendants are both in leo we're so hot.

Ok ok no now I'll stop complimenting and start with the roasting here we go:

So the sun is your sense of "self" it represents you on the more base level i guess you could say, like what most people think you're like is represented by your sun. With Sagittarius being your sun it means you're very energetic Especially for those things you are passionate about, you might have gone through a LOT of hobbies, only a few of them stuck around but you like to try things. You're curious about the way people's minds works, you wanna figure them out. If the conversations you have don't involve some form of psychoanalysis or philosophy you might loose interest. You are a Talker, maybe you talk very fast or you are often told to lower your voice but you don't do it on purpose you're just very very animated. You are kina volatile, in the sense that you value freedom in everything, love, work, hobbies. You have a huge rebellious streak and you kinda like testing your luck. Think adrenaline junkie. It's cliché but with this much Sagittarius in your chart you prob love traveling, like i said you will chase freedom because you associate it with happiness. If you find people that make you feel free then you feel happy. Rules don't go well with you. You don't really like being involved with fights per se but you LOVE debating, if you can beat a motherfucker with nothing but facts and logic you will and you will enjoy it.

Your way of flirting or making friends is "lowkey bullying" or my favourite "verbally throwing hands". If they shoot back you get heart eyes (my mars in sag agrees). You can be tactless as fuck tho. Like you will say some outrageous shit that MIGHT be funny if the timing is right or MIGHT make everyone in a 5 mile radius mad.

I NEED to talk about your moon in sag bc Babe, babe the moon tells us about our emotions and how we deal with them, how we express them and how they shape us. But BABE. Sagittarius moons are so bad at comforting people it's embarrassing, trying to make them think of smth else or do smth else to distract from the situation is NOT a good way to deal with your emotions... Avoiding your emotions like the plague is not gonna invent a vaccine... Saying "everything is fine :)" DOESN'T MAKE ANYTHING FINE PLEASE GO TO THERAPY. ok to give you some credit, you don't let shit bring you down, no matter what you always get up and that is a *strength* that i admire, but love you're burning the candle at both ends, especially if you get yourself in More problems by trying to distract yourself from One problem.

Also you've had a horsegirl phase or a dog obsession phase or both huh. AND your love language is sarcasm but the type that you will make someone laugh when you're insulting them. You're also hilarious irl you're prob the "funny friend" but with that scorpio mars and venus baby inside ur sad and dark as fuck ripp.

I also wanted to talk about your mercury in sag... Babe... Do you know what a brain to mouth filter IS?! do you recognize that word?!?! Cuz you have never used yours i think. Like you are hilarious but that's because you have dolphins in the head cavity baby. Not trying to say you're stupid, you're actually very smart and opinionated, probably have been told that you'd be a great lawyer or smth. But miss gurl please think before you speak for the love of god ur gonna make someone cry. Also ur mouth is foul. Have you ever spoken a sentence without a "fuck" or a "cunt" somewhere in there?! God bless.

Now for your scorpio Venus I'm just gonna say, more confirmation that ur Sexy as Fuck, scorpio venuses are just sexy, amazing partners, VERY passionate, whoever dates you will never forget you, for better or for worse you'll forever be on the back of their mind. You had a harsh emo phase huh, maybe loved some obscure shit like witchcraft or just love dressing all black like someone's mother died, i bet you wear silver jewelry a lot, maybe necklaces or rings or chockers. If this isn't how you dress now it was prob a major phase in your life. Or maybe you just love horror movies idk

Being as passionate as you are you don't take well to being mistreated or lied to, you might like to plot revenge and things like those, you wouldn't do anything... You actually prefer letting things go but you WILL make an elaborate scenario in your head at 3am or even as you stare right in the persons face.

With mars in scorpio you might be kinda passive aggressive, maybe you act like things don't really bother you but you throw a comment or two once in a while just to stir the pot bc you can't move on lmfao.

You are attracted to people that are introverts or generally just mysterious, like i said above the nature of the Sagittarius is to Learn and to Study. People that you can't immediately figure out intrigue you. All your crushes are either on geminis or water signs lmfao.

The best careers for you are the ones that allow you some freedom of either movement or expression and something that can keep your mind from flying away, something that keeps you intrigued, like research or writing. You're a very "all or nothing" person and it can sometimes scare people away, i advise you to work on compromising, being less stubborn and more open with your emotions and desires.

(part one bc I'm taking too long and I don't wanna keep you waiting so much) I'll reblog this with part 2

Alright here we go part 2 of Roasting hella until she finds out I'm hiding in her walls.

I will skip over some planets that are Very slow moving and usually don't talk about you as an individual but refer to your generation as a whole.

I wanna focus on lilith for a sec bc worstie lilith talks about our fears, our more "darker" side that we hide from ourselves as well as the people that we love. Lilith in aries in the eleventh house tells me you might be afraid to take charge, you gravitate towards positions of leadership but you let go on the last second, almost afraid to have too much control, very often self sabotaging your own success. Your anger and you own ambition might scare you, you might be afraid of appearing too aggressive bc under your skin you have a deep rooted anger and rebellion that you wish to relieve but you can't find a good enough outlet, some things soothe it but you always feel like it never leaves. It might be related to some form of resentment that you never truly dealt with and now it sits uncomfortably with you and you just can't get over it and it bothers you. You might have been shy in groups as a child, maybe you talked a lot but it was always from a fear of the silence not always because you had something to say. The eleventh house is that of groups and friends and social awareness, technology and your hopes and wishes for the future, having lilith in this house talks about someone who had a hard time feeling comfortable around people OR someone who wasn't very accepted. You might have desperately wished for friends but have found it hard to find any. Or if you did, you deep down felt very alone. I would advise to learn to accept your anger and deal with it in healthy ways instead of brushing it off and repressing it.

The north node talks about what you need to focus more in your life for example in your case with Gemini in your North node you need to focus more on your communication letting go of anxiety and your relation with other people you need to become more interested in intellectual pursuit and growth. You need to let go off the need to always be right and look more at details instead of focusing on on the bigger picture all of the time. When your North node is is in Gemini then your South node is in Sagittarius which tells me that what you should focus less on is your pursuit of freedom and your rebellion. Be more aware of your words and use them with maturity.

Now let's have some fun with the ascendent in leo which we share and now i see why ur so relatable. The first house or the ascendant is that very superficial layer of our personality, it includes the way we carry ourselves, our style, the little habits or quirks we have. One thing about leo ascendants is that we have an obsession with our hair. Hair is important to us, some have huge hair that might remind you of a lions mane, others just have very unique style or color but we ALL are lowkey or highkey obsessed with it, either constantly touching it, pulling it, chewing on it, cutting it or dying it in unique ways you name it. You might have a rather large nose or cat like eyes.

This ascendent is full of life and light, very funny, light hearted and luxurious, you want to live that good life and i don't blame you. A negative aspect is that we come of as intimidating to others. ALL of my friends AND my ex have at some point told me I was intimidating to them. It makes us prone to overcompensating for it later in life so maybe now you're super outgoing and extroverted and you approach people first and try to be super friendly. Also you're an attention whore (affectionate) with a flare for the dramatics, very flamboyant, you basically fill the room with personality, it attracts attention and you love it. You're what people would call a "sunny" person.

You're hella competitive (get it lol) and you LOVE fighting your way to the top and crushing the competition. You're probably a weirdo that low key likes school. Not the way it's run or the teachers or whatever, but the "idea" of school. If you could just learn all your life you absolutely would.

Second house in virgo. The 2nd house is the house of money, work, income, daily routines, values, material possessions, habits, work ethic ect being in virgo it means you can have an extremely good work ethic, you put a lot of thought in planning and mapping your work, you might get overly critical on your work though and often undermine your own success and efforts because they didn't fit your impossible standards. You can be very organized in your work, you want things to be a certain way and if they don't follow your plan you will Make them. Its a good position for virgo but yoh need to be aware of not overworking by trying to do Everything on your own. Let others help you, and let people in your work do their own things don't try to help if not asked to because you will overwork yourself.

The third house is that of the mind, thinking, communication, siblings, interests and early education, in your case it is in Libra which means that you're early education might not have been very stable or it was a period of time that you look back with a lot of fondness but not much substance. You are a good talker but you get lost when it comes to details, you are indecisive when it comes to settling on an opinion on something if you don't have All the facts first, you always want to be right. You are pretty open minded and easy to talk to but you might have the bad habit of rambling off topic. You change interests constantly and you prob like to talk about others, you wanna know the tea if it kills you. You prob had a crush on a childhood best friend or on a hot neighbor. Your relationship with your siblings might be pretty good, friendly, no particular resentment or anything like that, you might be the one that everyone treats a little better, people let you get away with things more often, you might be the one that takes 2 hours in the bathroom lol.

Oof fourth house in scorpio babe how are the mommy issues? 😬 How is your relationship with your femininity? Having trouble with keeping secrets? So the fourth house is the one responsible for your home roots, your family, self-care, emotions, your mother, women and your femininity and having Scorpio here tells me that you might have very strong ties to your family, but they weren't healthy or emotionally supportive. You have grown with people that might have undermined your emotions, people that didn't teach you to set healthy boundaries and maybe even manipulators and gaslighters. You might have been the type to put your foot down a lot a home, assuming a very dominant role as well as the defender. You're very private about your family life and don't want to let people too close.

Ah i just noticed u have like 3 planets in this house including ur Sun and Moon, babe this house is what you need to focus on when you go to therapy. This almost secretive, guarded approach to understanding your own emotions is very prominent in how you see yourself, how you feel and with Pluto there, how you change. I could say the biggest changes in your life have happened in these areas and they have left the biggest impacts on you. Yes you are passionate and protective but don't let bad feelings marinate forever, address them and then move on from them because they're just weighting you down.

Fifth house in sag, also the house of your mercury. This house represents Love, romance, creativity, self expression, joy and childlike spirit. It tells me the way you express your creativity is through words which makes sense since you're a great writer, but not only, the way you express Love is also through your words, expression and free thoughts are your way you tell your loved ones how much you mean to them, think poetry, long rants, music recommendations bc of specific song lyrics, you have been writing form childhood and it's one of the ways you express your view on beauty as well, to you love is freedom and freedom is expression.

Capricorn in the sixth house paired with both uranus and neptune being in it tells me there is something about your knees, joints, bones or teeth in particular that stands out when it comes to your health, maybe you tend to break your teeth, maybe you like chewing on crunchy foods, maybe your joints crack a lot, idk but I'd drink my milk if i was you, take care of your joints and bones. Also for you, being emotionally unwell often translates to being Physically unwell as well, so be mindful of your emotions because they do affect you physically. You need to keep hydrated also and your health plan needs structure for it to work bc that neptune makes everything very chaotic and uranus constantly makes you bored and wanting to spice things up. Take care of your emotional needs just as much as you would with your physical ones. And for the love of jesus be CAREFUL with alcohol or smoking because that neptune in ur health house could mean serious trouble if you let it become an addiction, don't push it.

Aquarius in the seventh house of relationships, marriage, contracts, business partners ect means you are untraditionally traditional. That makes sense in my head let me explain. Aquarius is a sign that seeks individualism desperately, it likes to feel like a special person, impossible to understand. Yet always feels comfortable in the structure of traditional and safe paths. So for example you might marry someone in a way that is not traditional but at the end of the day you wish for your marriage to have a stability you would feel safe falling into. Also it says ur gay. Air signs in the relationship house says ur gay i Make the rules.

Pisces is in the eighth house of sex, intimacy, shared finances, inheritance, taxes, loans, property, mystery, partner's resources. This tells me you fuck with feeling lmfao. Or you simply make your love life something "special", a connection that only you and ur person can share, it's what makes you an amazing lover and an unforgettable one as well. But as amazing as you are at creating a otherworldly atmosphere, ur just as shit at setting boundaries and saying something when you don't like something. You don't like to see things that you love ending and a failed relationship makes you blame yourself too much, you have the tendency to stay in situations where you are being mistreated but you tell yourself It's on you.

A recurring theme I'm seeing is some weakness when it comes to liars or manipulators in your life. So either you irrationally fear people are lying to you because you "lie" to them about yourself or a lot of people in your childhood might have used lying or gaslighting as a way to keep you under control. I would advise to try not to overthink and become paranoid, people love you and they believe in you and they aren't deceiving you, they don't secretly mean something different from what they have said. Listen to your intuition about people sure, but don't confuse it with anxiety.

With lilith and aries in the 9th house of travel and higher education and religion I'm gonna assume you might have religious trauma. Religion might have been a way that people used to try and control you, if not religion then some form of system or government law. Being queer i completely understand the sentiment but in your case it's take a step further because you Value the ideals of this house so much, with lilith here, it's like at som point in your life you were finally awakened to how much injustice there was in the world ant that has made you very inclined to take action, you cannot stand unjust government or non tolerating religions. You might have felt crushed under an unjust system and it took you a lot of will and conviction to find your individuality and build yourself how you wanted once you were free.

Your midheaven in taurus tells me you are one that will achieve any goals you set your mind to. It might take you time, you might procrastinate around it, but at the end of the day, you will do it and you will do it well and it will be rewarding. If your father isn't a Taurus then he was a stable figure in your life, very much a rock for better or for worse. In your career life people will see you as very competent, very down to earth and helpful but you know you just procrastinated till the last second possible and stayed up all night do finish your work... You will seek careers that you believe will guarantee you stable income and a comfortable life. You might indulge in luxury from time to time because you think in order to get the position you want at work you need to look the part. Ultimately it's your sheer stubbornness and spite that gets you all the way up to the top of the food chain.

The eleventh house of groups, friendships, humanitarianism, and social awareness is in your case in gemini. It tells me you value friendship extremely and you surround yourself with a diverse cast of friends, you couldn't mix your different friend groups if you tried and you have tried. You have the habit of being too friendly to everyone which makes you end up with more friends than you know what to do with. You are approachable but people can get the impression that you are putting up a show or a facade and your emotions arent genuine, it's not always the case but you need to be more truthful and assertive, put some boundaries and don't let people get away with shit you don't like. Your public persona is very well liked, seen as fun and bright and smart and overall a joy to be around.

Now that last placement... 12th house cancer, i have the same placement and babe I'm sorry for all the shit you have been through. You deserve the freedom to be unhappy and to express that unhappiness in healthy ways. You deserve to be given unconditional love and support no matter how many mistakes you say you have made no matter how overly pessimistic you are about yourself it doesn't matter you're amazing and i love you and you deserve the world.

With jupiter the planet of expansion in the 12th house of endings, spirituality, solitude and karma?! Gurl i did say u were a cult leader but i didn't think it was astrologically backed up rippp. But it also says you might have a hard time getting the motivation to finish things, you might take a long time to finish a project. This house placements also tells me you're amazing at writing emotional ass fantasy stories which by now we have confirmed, but if you have like, an original idea for a book don't hesitate to get it started babe bc u have a very promising placement for that. Don't get too dragged into a sad whirlpool of emotions and daydreams but bring your creative ideas to life and you'll be fine.

This is all I'm doing today and i think it's enough lol. I'm posting this I'm sorry to my followers for the long ass post I'll tag it so you can filter it. This was a whole psycho-astrological analysis of our favourite writer Hellspawn1975. I have wanted to study her like a new lizard species for a while and i finally got the chance thank you hella for the opportunity.

Final words to @hella1975 i hate you and I'll fuck ur mom tomorrow, gn babe <3

#warning long post #long post #i am sorry #after intense study of this species i diagnose her with #gay homosexual gay #thank you everyone

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idkwhoiamanymorebutwtf · 5 years

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Ok. So. I been lurking in the Steven Universe fandom. And I notice a lot of people point out that Pearl's attitude towards Rose is a bit too positive. Of course, Pearl was (and still is) in love, so of course that influences her seeing Rose through rose tinted lenses (pun intended), but I will admit the amount of "she was perfect + wonderful + I do literally everything for her because she's the best and never did anything wrong ever" from Pearl seems unhealthy. What I don't appreciate, though, is how these same people seem so keen to attribute this attitude to a fault of Pearl. A result of her being a Pearl and idolizing her owner, or just plain her being obsessive. People have gone as far as to say that her projections onto Rose would have been damaging on Rose and thus make Pearl toxic in their relationship. But what people tend to miss is, well...why some people even recognize Pearl's attitude towards Rose as wrong. Cause a lot of the time, it's not as obvious as people say it is. Pearl doesnt actually say Rose is perfect, but her positivity towards Rose is still staggering. Because if Rose WERE a great person, there'd be nothing to notice. If Rose were even indisputably a GOOD person then Pearl's overall view of Rose as kind, heroic, and doting wouldn't be anything to point out. Pearl isn't overly obsessed or positive for someone with a healthy relationship who adores their partner. But the key is that their relationship was NOT healthy. That's why we think it's odd. Because Rose was awful. She treated Pearl poorly in multiple cases. And the way Pearl handles it by brushing it off isn't Pearl's fault? What people read as "She lied because she had to because Rose would never do anything bad because she's perfect" is really "She may lie to my friends and make me do the same..she may have me under a gag order..but it's just because she trusts me so so very much! And She'd never lie to me!! I'm different. What we have is different." Or instead of "Greg is just a phase. Rose wouldn't associate with someone so below her. She's too amazing and perfect!!!" Is really "Maybe she dates human's even though we're together but...they don't mean anything, yknow? She loves me" Those are the types of things Pearl's 'idolization' stems from. Excusing abusive (or at least toxic) behaviors to convince other people (and herself) that Rose IS a good partner and IS in love with Pearl and ISN'T actually awful. It doesn't stem from Pearl putting unrealistic expectations on Rose and hurting Rose in the process. It stems from Rose hurting Pearl and Pearl trying to justify it to herself. It's not about 'Rose is perfect' as a projection onto Rose because of Pearl's previously existing issues before their relationship. It's about 'Maybe Rose does bad things but she doesn't mean it/I'm the exception!" And "She may hurt other people but never me!!" Which is just classic justifying abuse from a victim. When you're in a spot like that you're going to think things are different with you. My mother watched my father lie and manipulate other people for years but always thought 'I'm different. I'm the exception. I'm his wife!' And Pearl kinda strikes me as similar.

#pearl #rose quartz #pink diamond #steven universe #anti pearlrose #pearl defense

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Ok I love your writing, and I know you'll do it justice.... So a Chlonath drabble with "We're friends but I'd kiss you if you asked me to." ^^

Thank you so much for this prompt; I’m so sorry it took me eons to answer it! I ended up writing this into my Friends to Lovers AU, though it can still be read on it’s own. Enjoy~

cw: discussion of sex

“I just don’t get why everyone’s so obsessed with it. It’sjust sex.”

Chloé didn’t so much see as she heard Nathaniel scrape a stray mark across his sketch book. Shelooked up from her laptop to see that he had sat up from where he was loungingon the couch and was now staring at her with a look of utter appall andconfusion. She could also see a long (thankfully pencil) line straight through thedragon(?) he was sketching.

“Just sex?”

“Yes, just sex,”she rebuked, throwing her hands up in exasperation. “Why does everyone look atme like that whenever I say it?”

“Because it’s not JUSTanything. Sex is—,” he paused, struggling for the right word, “—fantastic!Great! Amazing! Literally orgasmic!”

“Every time I’ve had it it’s just been sex. Someone takes my clothes off, puts their hands on myskin, and stimulates some organs. It’s fine and feels good in some ways, butit’s just as arbitrary as kissing.”

“Wait, you don’t even like kissing!?” Apparently this newswas so life altering that he had to put his sketch book down on the coffeetable.

She shrugged. “Not really? It’s just lips touching lips. Iget bored after a while.”

Nathaniel put his head in his hands. His was by far thestrongest reaction she’d ever seen from her voicing this—not that she’d toldmany people. She’d really only felt comfortable talking about it with Adrienand Sabrina. Just like Nathaniel, they’d found it nearly inconceivable, but atleast they hadn’t looked like they were having a mental breakdown over it.

She supposed it made sense for someone who had as much sexas he did. He’d even described himself as hypersexual before. Maybe it was justsomething that he enjoyed to a disproportionate extent.

“So you’re saying you’ve never had that fireworks feelingwhen kissing someone?” She shook her head. “What about that breath of palpabletension leading up to a kiss?” He put his hand over his heart, closing a fistaround the fabric of his t-shirt. “Your heart beating wild in your chest andyour entire world zooming into focus on just that person as their headgravitates closer to yours.” She literally had no idea what he was talkingabout. She assumed that read on her face based on the look he gave her a momentlater. “What about even just that deep breath you inhale the second your lipsfinally meet? Breathing them in and just…feeling.”

When she didn’t say anything, his expression shifted intoone that seemed almost sad for her.

“Has nobody just…kissed you right?”

She creased her brows in confusion. “Is it possible to kisssomeone wrong?”

He was nodding before she even finished the question. “Yes,100 percent possible. And likely at least on the first few tries.”

She took a moment to think. That was certainly anexplanation no one had provided yet. She had figured of course that those firstfew times she kissed her first partner weren’t supposed to be good—neither ofthem had known what they were doing. But even later, once she thought they’dgotten the technique down, it didn’t do much for her. And the other people shedated after that who had already had experience in that realm still didn’t makeher feel anything close to what he was describing. She had figured it was justa personal taste thing—just another activity that a lot of other people had apreference for while she didn’t. Like jogging. But could the problem haveactually been her partners?

She eventually shrugged. “I don’t know.”

Nathaniel looked away then. He appeared to be taking thisinto serious consideration or something, so she just went back to the work onher screen. She had typed about three more words when he spoke again.

“I could kiss you.”

A rolling wave of what felt like crackling flames and fastbeating wings rushed through her stomach. Her fingers immediately paused on thekeyboard.

She slowly looked up.

He scratched the back of his head with a slight shrug,seeming to go off her look. “I know we’re just friends. But I would kiss you.”

Heat was quickly building up in her chest. Her face feltflushed. “Why?”

“Because you deserve to be kissed right.”

She didn’t say anything, just sat there blinking. He wasn’tkidding. Nathaniel Kurtzberg—the man who had once hated her but was now one ofher best friends—in that moment was completely serious in his offer to kissher.

Why did that thought make her so incredibly nervous?

“O-Okay.”

She already knew this was different when he stepped into herspace. She’d stood this close to him before, but never facing him and never craningher neck to look him in the eye. It felt so much different than just being shoulderto shoulder with him; something about the position had an almost magnetic forcepulling her in.

Her hands settled on his waist as if it was the most naturalthing in the world—as if it only made sense to put them there with him standingso close—and as his hands snaked up under her jaw, the heat from his palms hadher melting inside. His thumbs traced gentle lines across her cheeks and theskin they left behind burned, nerves crackling with an energy that wasaltogether new and exciting.

Then he was leaning in, and it couldn’t have taken more thantwo seconds for him to close the gap between them, but eternities passed as shewatched him approach. She watched his gaze fall to her lips, slowly, beforeglancing back up at her eyes. Then her eyes fell along with his, focusing onhis lips and how soft they looked, until they were too close to watch anymoreand her eyes slid shut.

And there it was. His kiss. Smooth lips pressed to her own,but it was so much more than that. She could taste that mango chapstick healways carried with him and as she breathed in deep, his spiced citrus bodywash flooded her senses. A whirlwind stirred in her chest, pushing her up ontoher toes, into his kiss, into him. Itwas an energy, a desire, a compulsion she’d never felt before and it was eatingher whole, consuming her entire being, demanding that she just be…here.

She was still on her toes when he parted from her and theireyes met. Red brows raised in silent question.

“Huh.”

#chlonath #miraculous ladybug #friends to lovers au

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I really said fuck classes who needs notes anyway (i do I have 5 tests in the next two weeks)

before I post my live blog here, I feel like people really underestimate how bad rumors are and how much they fuck with your mental health. they don't lose sleep over them, they don't think twice. but these things are harmful as fuck. they leave wounds that take so long to recover from because you keep on thinking about these lies who to others are "just words"

I've been there. it's not fun. I wish I had the courage back then to stand up to those rumors which I have now. these things never leave you. others might move on but the healing process is a journey that is long and hard. I wish more people understood just what effect their words can have.

Yeah, he knew a thing or two about family members going overboard with glitter.

IT'S RAFAEL CENTRIC GHSYGUJDUYDFUIKFDUIDFIUDF

TAVVY

DCSUIHDCSUIDUYUDICUIVSDUIHFVSUILFBUHKIFSV

I feel like I keyboard smash A LOT

“You will never drink even if you are not riding the bike,” Dad had pointed out – all Consul Voice and threatening glares. “The legal age for drinking in New York is 21.”

“But it’s 15 in Idris!”

“Well unfortunately for you, we are in Exile,” dad had grinned.

DAD ALEC UHIKSFDUIHKSGUIKSDVUIHKDVUHIKSVD

Max had a habit of ‘borrowing’ things and selling them on eBay. In his brother’s defense, Bapak had so many clothes that he never noticed when things disappeared. But Rafael did since he had a habit of wearing his father’s clothes.

The warlock – not the shadowhunter.

He wouldn’t be caught dead in one of those sweaters.

Now that Rafael was 18, he was almost as tall as his father.

The shadowhunter – not the warlock.

I AM SCREAMING

I love how he's clarifying which one he's talking about

“Do you know I used to have a crush on Lily Chen?” Tavvy blushed. “But then I found out she made out with Helen once and it kinda got weird.”

Ah yes. I remember. Does Rafael know that Alec also walked in on them?

ARCHITECT TAVVY

SDHDVUHDFSV,YDSFVUYVSFFUSVFUVFS

SHADOWUNTERS ATTENDING MUNDANE COLLEGES

“Dude, college kids don’t give a shit,” Tavvy laughed. “You could walk into a lecture covered in runes, holding a seraph blade and they wouldn’t give you a second look.”

“Cause they are chill?”

“Yes. But mostly cause they are dead inside,” Tavvy chuckled.

Surprisingly that's exactly what my grade 6 prefect told me (DAMN WHY AM I ALWAYS REMEMBERING GRADE 6 IT'S BEEN YEARS. that was a horrible year *shudders*)

ANJALI IS A CENTURION

LMAO THIS IS WHAT RAFAEL MEANT WHEN HE SAID HE WOULDNT WANT TO GO TO THE SCHOLOMANCE FOR PERSONAL REASONS

I still ship them.

“The meeting is going to go perfe-What is SHE doing here?”

Well, that was a quick change-

Unlike Aunt Maia, Lily did not like to be called Aunt Lily. So, Rafael respected her wishes. Max of course continued to call her Aunt Lily and sometimes Abeula Lily since his brother had a pathological condition of pissing people off.

THAT'S SO MAX OMG JHSXUHSCUHISDHUHUKIDVS

great now I miss Raphael

I HAVE A CLASS IN 7 MINUTES STOP MAKING ME CRY

that is so thoughtful of him though...

tears.

“There are no photos of Raphael,” Lily sighed.

“Because he is a vampire?” Tavvy asked sympathetically.

“Because he is Raphael,” she grinned. “Vampires can most certainly take photos. You should follow me on Instagram. My handle is simp_for_carstairs.”

Of course, it is. No one is surprised.

Tavvy picked one up, took a large bite and it threw it back immediately. “Holy shit, that’s spicy!”

“White,” Lily and Anjali snorted at the same time.

white people and their bland foods smh

“She is not wrong,” Lily nodded seriously. “I’m a Jem Carstairs fan first and a vampire second.”

As she should be

UHDSUHDFSUHFDH ANJALI AND RAFAEL COMPETING ABOUT WHO'S LILY'S FAVORITE

He observed Anjali’s long dark hair spilled over her shoulders as her eyes stayed on Lily – sharp, protective and beautiful.

"Beautiful"

I AM NOT LETTING THIS GO

I'm THE DAMN CAPTAIN OF THIS SHIP

FUCKING RUMORS

I'm GONNA KILL SOMEONE

“Shadowhunters are awful gossips,” Anjali said. “Let’s not waste our time with this nonsense.”

There was something in her voice. Something he couldn’t put his finger on.

No, wait I want to know what was in her voice.

But no. It couldn’t be. They weren’t dating.

YET

Rafael was sure there was something more than friendship between them. But David was polite to a fault and Max was an oblivious little shit. So, obviously nothing had happened yet.

OH MY GOD THESE TWO

But this was different. He would tolerate rumours about himself. But he would not tolerate rumours about his family.

I and Rafael will beat up the people who spread these rumors together :D

“She once told me she likes sipping tea more than drinking blood.

I-

same.

NOT THAT I DRINK BLOOD-

RAFAEL LMAO NO

"I hate her she's so annoying"

continues to daydream about her and how tall she'd be without those boots, lies to tavvy about her dating someone

Why did he do that? What was the purpose? Did he not want other people to date just because he wasn’t dating anyone?

And he calls Max oblivious.

oh class started

shit

IDC IDC I'LL STILL BE READING

LEXI AND SELENA ARE AT THE ACADEMY

JACE HYPER FIXATING ON THINGS BECAUSE HE'S BORED IS SUCH A MOOD

“David and I added rosemary to this one,” Uncle Jace wiped his hands on his apron. “It has definitely improved the taste, hasn’t it?”

“Save me,” David mouthed from behind the man.

LMAO POOR DAVID

“Empty nest syndrome,” Rafael chuckled. “I’m glad neither Max nor I had to leave home. My fathers are much worse.”

He remembered his first sleepover at the institute. His parents had waited for “an excruciating hour” before crashing the institute and joining the sleepover themselves.

yup, that's them.

“David,” Rafael grinned. “Are you afraid of my father?”

“What? No! He is the just a regular person…who can throw me in the silent city any time he wants,” David rambled and then shook his head. “Where is Max?”

He tried to sound nonchalant. But Rafael noted the way the other boy’s eyes fluttered every time he said Max’s name.

Just the way a crooked smile appeared on his brother’s lips every time someone said David’s name.

Idiots

ok, there is so much to unpack here.

DAVID HAS A VALID REASON OK??

These two are such IDIOTS HUSDUHISCUIDSVCUIHVSDUHI

“Max said Bapak is biased, and that he needs an unbiased tutor. Uncle Ragnor volunteered,” Rafael chuckled. “God bless the poor man.”

“Max isn’t that bad,” David replied.

“Looks like you’re biased too, David,” Rafael winked and picked up a spare bow from the training room.

of course, he is.

G-FORCE KJHSDCUISDYUKDFSUYKDSVYUSFD

oh shit

WHO DID WHAT THIS TIME

what's the rumor and who do I need to kill

He didn’t know her well. But she knew a lot about him. Just as she knew a lot about the twins. She was one of those people who was oddly invested in his life just because Rafael happened to the Consul’s son.

what is her problem?

what the fuck

I need a minute

I need a minute to digest that

I'm so glad I closed my camera in class

what the actual fuck did she just say

tell me I'm hallucinating

times like these I wish I was Jared 19

no, because I'm actually speechless right now

Paige and Irene need therapy

OH SHE WENT THERE

“Paige, that’s enough!” the Dean snapped at her. “How dare you talk to him that way? You talk about warlock corruption but where all of you when Valentine exploited Jace and Clary? Where was this moral obligation when Valentine lied to his children and played with their feelings as if they were nothing but toys to be controlled and manipulated? I’m sick of shadowhunters victim blaming children instead of holding people like Valentine accountable.”

THANK YOU

SAY IT LOUDER FOR THE PEOPLE IN THE BACK SIMON

I feel like we all focus so much on the "incest" and hate on clace we forget that this part of the story was literally an abuser seeing that the victim was recovering and took the only thing which made him happy from him

I can't believe this

“Children have been suffering for a long time now, Paige,” Uncle Jace said now, his fists balled at his sides. “Where were you when Alec proposed the child protection bill? We didn’t see any of you supporting it.”

“We had other priorities,” the older woman replied. “People were dying! It was not the right time for a new law. We could have always signed that bill later. There was no rush!”

OTHER PRIORITIES MY ASS BITCH FUCK YOU

hey just realizing Rafael is the token straight

I'M SORRY IM TRYING TO DISTRACT ME

“The Cohort who made children kill themselves to prove a point?” Uncle Simon asked dryly. “That Cohort?”

I am so close to either crying or killing someone or both.

This was Max’s spot since it had the best Wi-Fi coverage.

yeah trust me I spend all the time in the guest room because it has the best wifi coverage or the study.

MAX IS SMOKING TOO

YOU FUCKING IDIOTS

oh wait

oh they might be alec's

yeah

For the next thirty minutes, Max paced around the room, threatening to portal all the shadowhunters to hell.

Then he went on about a plan to attack the cohort and portal them all to hell too.

He kept talking about portalling people to hell.

MAX YES LET'S DO IT!!!!

But here is the thing about people, they don’t get to you. You get to them.

They simply say something and leave. They probably don’t even mean the things they say or lose sleep over it. But it wasn’t the same for you. You obsess over it. You stay awake at night and let it consume your dreams.

YES! To others, it's just words. meaningless. to you, the effect can be so so deep. it's not easy to always brush them off.

NO MAGNUS

THAT'S IT

MAX AND I ARE PORTALLING PEOPLE TO HELL

WE'RE DOING IT

why do we hurt others?

my teacher: ill take a test on this chapter. all 20 units

me: softly crying because people are little shits and they hurt others.

“Fuck everyone else,” dad hissed. “They’ve hurt our family enough.”

EXACTLY. LEAVE THEM ALONE.

“I am simply being honest with you,” Dad interrupted. “I could never be okay when you are away from me. But I will manage. Max is going to raise hell though. So, that’s going to be fun.”

AS HE SHOULD

Neither Rafael nor Max would never admit it out loud, but on the day of that sleepover, on the day their parents had crashed the institute bcause they had missed the kids too much…Rafael and Max had been only a moment away from calling their parents to come pick them up.

He's right though.

it'll take time. lots of it maybe.

BUT THE ACTUAL AUDACITY.

It fucked with his mind so much.

Rafael...ALRIGHT WHERE ARE MY FLAMETHROWERS

“DAD! BAPA! WAKE UP! RAFE IS TRYING TO RUN AWAY!”

MAX REMINDS ME SO MUCH OF MY LITTLE BROTHER

He had forgotten about the bloody paperwork. Shadowhunters on their travel year had to notify the Clave and get their paperwork in order.

Well, it shouldn’t be a problem since the Clave was standing across the hall.

EXACTLY

Because it was killing him. It was killing him not to be lying on the couch, his head resting on his Bapak’s lap just like every other Saturday morning.

It was killing him not to touch, not to love, not to care.

GET MY FLAMETHROWERS AND CANNIBAL GOLDFISHES WE HAVE SOME WORK TO DO

(goddamn every class I have taken so far the teacher has told us there is a test coming up it's 9 am in the morning.)

His brother growled at that like the little feral animal that he was.

that's adorable actually.

“Fine,” Max rolled his eyes. “Does this mean I can also travel? There is a Twenty One Pilots concert in Sydney and-”

“Nice try,” Dad said. “But no. You are staying here.”

“Excuse me, but what about my healing?” Max demanded. “I’ve been traumatised by this thing.”

“You can go to therapy,” Rafael winked at this brother.

Therapy is boring but useful so-

He needed to survive this. So, he decided to go back to the place he had learned how to survive in the first place.

He needed to go back home.

UGLY CRYING WHILE TAYLOR SWIFT PLAYS IN THE BACKGROUND AND MY HISTORY CLASS IN 2 MINUTES

I'm so proud of him for this...

I still say we kill these people.

JOAQUIN AND JULIETTE

UHISDCUIHFSDUGUIDFVDSDVFJHGDFVHUKDVHUKVF

Camilla Alvarez.

well well.

OH THEY KISSED

“Right,” Rafael had said. “Gap year. Besides, I do talk them. My brother threatened to paint my room in hot pink if I don’t text him every day.”

hands max a pint of paint HAVE AT IT

Max: Also – New Rumour. Dalliance between Lily and Tavvy.

Rafe: OMFG WHAT

Max: They are running with it and freaking old n*philim out.

AS THEY SHOULD UFUHIFUIHFUIHKFU

THE CENSORED N*PHILIM I'M SCREAMING

“He is hot.”

He laughed out loud. “Yeah. I hear that a lot.”

“Your dad looks kinda scary,” she pointed out.

Rafael laughed again. “Yeah. I kinda hear that a lot too.”

I'm liking this ship...

I'M STILL LOYAL TO THE RAFAEL AND ANJALI SHIP

but I'm happy for him. I'm glad he's getting the space he needs

Dad: Jst found legal age fr drnkng in Buenos Aires is 18.

Rafe: ????

Dad: I hv friends thr.

Rafe: ???

Dad: Thy r watchn u.

Rafe: Creepy but okay.

HJSDCGUIHJGSDCYUICVXUHVUHKDV

THE BOY'S DRINKING Y'ALL

Do it

MILA IS GOING TO NY!!

I like her. she's nice.

He was leaving soon. He didn’t see the point in lying to her. “I ran away from home. Kind of.”

“Why?”

“I hurt someone I love,” Rafael confessed. “The person I love most in the world.”

honey, it wasn't your fault... hugs

Shit. Why wasn’t Bapak going to the accords signing? He had been there for every single one since the very first time.

no no no no is something wrong?? I'm worried.

“You look taller,” Rafael told his brother who hadn’t grown an inch.

LMAO

Max and I are vertically challenged.

“Rafe, go to talk to him. Or I will tell everyone you’ve been smoking in the balcony!”

So, he was going to pin this on him, huh? This little shit.

well-

“You’ve progressed from freaking to fucking,” he pointed out.

“That’s not the fucking point, Rafael!” Max said in exasperation.

“You did it again,” Rafe pinched Max’s cheek. “My little brother is all grown up now. Linguistically I mean.”

“Dick."

I CAN'T WITH THESE TWO

When he had gone back to Buenos Aires, the place was completely different - even the shadow market.

There were no abandoned children in the streets. There were no racist and ignorant leaders exploiting innocent downworlders.

There was only growth.

His father had done that. Alec Lightwood had helped Joaquin and his people create a new world in Buenos Aires.

This shows how much people can flourish under good leadership if they really try.

YOU KNOW I'M SUPPOSED TO BE TAKING THESE NOTES DOWN, NOT CRYING OVER THIS.

“I will protect our family. I will protect our friends. I will protect those who ask for my protection. But I will not tolerate their hate. I will not turn my head and pretend it doesn’t hurt. Because it does hurt and that’s not okay.”

Rafael smiled at that. “Yeah. Yeah, that’s not okay.”

“The accords is important. But so am I. There is no point in signing a treaty that is meant to value equality if I have to sign it while being surrounded by those who refuse to respect me or my identity. I simply cannot do it, Rafael. I hope you understand.”

I'm sobbing like YES YOU DONT OWE THEM SHIT. THESE UNGRATEFUL BITCHES.

“It’s taken me a while to realize this. But I don’t owe the nephilim anything,” Bapak said firmly. “It’s about time they realize that too.”

YES EXACTLY

“I’ve known shadowhunters for a long time, Rafael. Good ones. Bad ones. All kinds of them – and shadowhunters have always defined themselves by their love. Not by your weapons. Not by your runes. Not by your last names. Not by your laws. Shadowhunters have always defined themselves by love. So, don’t ever let them take that away from you.”

I want this on a T-shirt. These damn shadowhunters and their love.

“Like the Accords Hall kiss?” Rafael grinned.

“It’s the stupidest thing your father had ever done – which is really saying something,” his father laughed. “But it’s also the bravest thing I’ve ever seen him do. And that’s how I knew.”

affectionate sigh that's alec.

“Good. Max is sitting in the porch and singing All by Myself,” Tessa chuckled and closed the door. “Just thought you should know!!”

Rafael giggled at that. “He must have given you hell.”

“Nothing I couldn’t handle,” Bapak shrugged, and Rafael raised an eyebrow. “Fine. I might have promised to buy him a car when he turns 18.”

“You’re hoping he would stop aging by then, aren’t you?” Rafael chuckled.

Max is so dramatic I aspire to be like him.

Blue banners when the lost return, the shadowhunter rhythm said.

Rafael had returned home – and he was no longer lost.

I'm ok I say as I cry during my history class

I'm so proud of him.

“Well, that needs to be rectified immediately,” Dad said in the Consul Voice and literally yelled. “I am about to kiss my son – on both cheeks! You better gossip about this too!”

“Oh my god, stop!” Rafael giggled and tried to escape.

“YAS!” he heard Uncle Jace yelled from somewhere. “GIVE US A FOREHEAD KISS TOO!”

THEY ARE SO DRAMATIC I LOVE THESE IDIOTS SO MUCH.

THEM ADDING TO THE ACCORDS AS THEY SHOULD OMG

“The hell is hate speech?” someone asked.

Do you not have a dictionary you uncultured swine

“There is a very clear difference between free speech and hate speech,” Cristina Rosales pointed out. “The fact that you don’t seem to know that is all the more reason for us to include this provision.”

YES CRISTINA

“By the angel,” an old man gasped. “There is no need to be so emotional. The younger generation can be such snowflakes.”

What if I just strangles him

“Discriminatory language?” a woman demanded. “What does that even mean?”

“Calling vampires bloodsuckers,” Lily Chen answered.

“Calling warlocks demon spawns,” Ragnor Fell pointed out.

“Calling werewolves fleabags,” Maia Roberts declared.

“Calling faeries half-breeds,” Kieran Kingson all but yelled.

The fact that they have had to deal with this shit for YEARS. (also why Kingson? isn't Kieran the king?)

THE QUEEN HERSELF IS HERE Y'ALL

“Which one of you shitheads said hate speech is harmless?” Anjali demanded, her voice booming over everyone and everything else.

YES ANJALI

Anjali had a grin of her own. “While that might true, Paige, there is most certainly a law on child protection. You didn’t just hurt Magnus Bane. You also hurt his son. Section 7 of the Child Protection Bill states that any person who physically or emotionally injures a child through ill-treatment, neglect, abandonment or abuse is guilty of breaking the covenant.”

“Damn straight!” someone yelled from the crowd – it sounded suspiciously like Kit.

CALL THESE BITCHES OUT YES

“Rafael is not a child!” someone yelled again. A lot of them this time. “It’s still not illegal. The law doesn’t say so!”

“By the angel, for someone who is obsessed with the law you people seem to know nothing about it,” Anjali said in exasperation. “The child protection law defines a child as a person under 18 years OR younger. The incident happened when he was still 18. It’s illegal.”

YES ANJALI FUCK THESE PEOPLE

“I’m the Inquisitor’s daughter,” she said. “Next time, think twice before you quote the law at me.”

SHOW THEM, QUEEN

How did she know his birthday????

ahem

“So, if you do hurt him emotionally, you can still be implicated. You will face charges and you can possibly be stripped of your runes,” Anjali pointed out seriously. “Now I ask you again. Does anyone else have to say anything about him?”

There was absolute silence then.

“Didn’t fucking think so,” Anjali spat. “I literally had to mention the stripping of your marks for you to respect another person’s basic rights. If you give half the value you place on your precious runes to other people, we wouldn’t be in exile right now.”

The Cohort looked terrified – of Anjali or their future in the Clave, Rafael didn’t know.

“People are dying,” Anjali said, her voice heavy now. “Our people are fucking dying, and you seem to be more bothered with who is sleeping with whom. Shame on you. Shame on all of you!”

She turned to the Council. The Inquisitor looked like he was going to cry from pride. Rafael’s dad looked half terrified but mostly impressed. Lily was blowing kisses at Anjali. The other downworld leaders looked quite pleased.

Shadowhunters are so fucking bigoted and narrow-minded. I'm seething right now.

also, alec looking scared-

“THAT’S THE BEST SHIT I HAVE EVER SEEN IN MY ENTIRE LIFE!” Emma Carstairs yelled.

“Goddamn, I wish Magnus was here to see this,” Uncle Jace grinned. “That was satisfying as hell.”

“No worries, I recorded the whole thing!” Kit put up his hand.

YES YES AND YES

“Fuck the Cohort,” Rafael giggled.

“Actually, I would prefer you use the word screw,” his father pointed out. “Screw the Cohort!”

“Oh my god, Dad!” Rafael rolled his eyes. “I am allowed to swear once in a while.”

“No, you are not,” Dad said firmly – this man was so not ready to meet Max’s new persona. “As your friend pointed out, you are still a child.”

Alec seeing Max curse left and right: 👁️👄👁️

"She hates me!"

“Rafael, she stood up for you in front of the entire Clave. She fought the Cohort. It was incredibly brave. I wish she had spoken to me before without causing all the chaos. So, it was a little stupid of course. But still brave.”

Stupid but brave.

YESYESYESYES IT'S HAPPENING!!!

ANJALI WHO HURT YOU

WHO DARED TO

Names. Give me names NOW

Jaime no...please no not Jaime.

please please, please

ok, I searched it up. And he can get treatment. He can live. It doesn't have to be serious. please, Jaime...

“If you ever tell anyone you saw me crying, I will drag you to Idris and drown you in Lake Lyn.”

This is such an Anjali thing to say.

OOO MILLA (Mila?) MESSAGED!!! Is there gonna be some sort of love triangle here??

me who despises love triangles (aside from TID of course): ...

BUT SINCE IT'S YOU I'M SURE IT'LL BE AMAZING. I'm still nervous about this though...

UHCUHDVUKDVHUKVHUVHM I LOVED THIS CHAPTER SO SO SO SO MUCH IT WAS A LITERAL ROLLERCOASTER AND ANJALI QUEEN I LOVE

see ya on Friday!!

OKAY I AM LOVING THIS ENERGY BUT PLEASE FOCUS ON YOUR CLASSES FJKSDFHJKSJFHKD I PROMISE THE STORY IS GOING TO BE HERE WHEN YOU GET BACK LOL.

But I am so glad you like it. Amidst all your screaming and chaos, I always find very perceptive and profound observations. It's fantastic! I love it so much!

Thank you for enjoying LBAF - and good luck with your tests!!!

#lbaf

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