#Only to suddenly cut off at

[turtleblogatlast]

The fact that Leo can go literally anywhere on earth to be alone with his thoughts at a single moment’s notice is something that shakes around in my head all the time. Like, portals and teleportation are amazing and convenient abilities both in and out of battle, but they could also so easily be used to run away as well.

I don’t think Leo ever would, at least not most of the time. He loves his family too much, and is too dependent on their love and attention to cut himself off so suddenly like that, but it’s a very real possibility nonetheless.

It’s a good thing Leo’s overall temper is more on the mild side and he prefers going to his room or something to complete solitude, because it really is dangerous for a kid to have the ability to isolate themselves like that at their fingertips.

#rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rottmnt leo #rottmnt headcanons #rise leo #and like #it doesn’t even have to be on purpose either #anything could happen where Leo goes out to travel real quick somewhere and suddenly he can’t get back #sure Donnie has the trackers but trackers only do so much when the one you’re tracking is across the globe #that one short of Leo ending up trapped hanging off the Eiffel Tower all alone when he’s still new to portaling #is actually a bit terrifying when viewed through a more serious adult lens #don’t mind me just doing what I like to do best aka think about Leo and his abilities #I’m still saying tho that his abilities make running away so easily #and he’s quite good at that #even if he’s physically there his MASK lets him run away from truly processing unwanted situations or conversations #imagine Draxum telling the boys about the other hidden cities and Leo takes it upon himself to go scout them out #and he does so going around and letting his bros know of the cities he finds here and there #only to end up in one that cuts off foreign mystic energy #like imagine being suddenly cut off and alone #this ability can be SO USEFUL up until it’s cut off midway and suddenly uh oh it’s horrifying

[teratobf]

when you've liked someone for over half your life and you're still very insecure about it...

consider it a homage to this gerard donelan piece

#discord 🐲 #zeepix #discord mlp #i hope this isn't seen as diminishing to the original work... #not only was i bullied as a child for liking him but friends who cut me off will suddenly change their mind about me liking him too #like cut and dry? he stopped me from killing myself a handful of times. so people seeing him so 1d hurts

[lesbiansanemi]

I think… I have figured out the reason I never get gendered as a guy anymore and it’s making me have…. A lot of really complex feelings

#most of my life I’ve been VERY androgynous #and ever since I cut off all of my hair when I was 16 and started dressing in men’s clothes #I tended to get gendered as a man or woman p equally by strangers #(until I talked because my voice tends to be a give away which is a whole other thing I have Thoughts about but that’s a different issue) #but in the past oh… idk… six months or so? I literally NEVER get gendered as a guy #it has happened ONCE #like sure ppl will ask for my pronouns but I know that’s just cuz I look like stereotypical genderqueer afab person #it’s not cuz they can’t tell what my gender is… #and I’ve been wondering what’s so different. why don’t I ever get gendered as a man anymore #I haven’t changed how I dress I still have a masculine haircut most of the time my facial features obviously haven’t changed #SO WHAT DID #I… I’ve figured it out…. #I’ve gained weight. but only in my hips and thighs #all my pants that I’ve had for YEARS are suddenly too tight and too small around my hips and thighs #I’ve NEVER had curves anywhere before I was always stuck straight and now… I do #and like part of me wants to be happy. I’m gaining weight!!! I’ve always been so horrendously underweight #and I’ve battled severe disordered eating for so long that was the cause #this past year I’ve actually very steadily been eating three meals a day instead of one #I can eat whole portions without getting sick #and I’m really proud of myself for that like I’m def not upset I’m gaining weight #it’s just. it’s just that it’s literally all in my hips and thighs #and it’s giving me a more feminine figure which I’ve NEVER had before #and I know your body goes through more changes in your twenties and that’s probably part of it too #it’s just. I don’t want this. I don’t like this. #I haven’t felt genuinely dysphoric in a long time and now I want to crawl out of my skin whenever I look in a full body mirror #cuz I see it now. I see the change. and I just. do Not fucking Like It #but I can’t do anything about it 😭 #and idk what to do #ugh #kaz rambles

[lemongogo]

ep 9 thoughts

#i stopped halfway thru HAJHAAJA #i think im coming 2 the conclusion that i can only rly appreciate stamp from an outside perspective #i.e when ppl post edits or whatever #even from like a Show Design standpoint i think the pacing is really bizarre #and im not even talking ab the story itself right. like moreso just character interactions and expressions #nothing really lingers or lasts and i feel like theres no big Oomph to scenes #when i saw the edit of knives fighting the guards it looked SOOO COOL #but when it happened in the show like.. the music wasnt rly fitting and theres a lack of environmental sfx outside of blood splats / metal #its soo hard to explain but somethinf is just MISSINGGG .. also when vash passed out for like .2 sexonds i laughed what was that #blink and u miss it kind of thing.. and vash losing his arm didnt feel suspenseful .. like i want to wnjoy the edits so much #*enjoy the reimagining #but you barely see luida (WAS THAT LUIDA FRR HWLP SHE LOOKS SO DIFFERENT) #you see hee for two seconds and suddenly this like monotone convo turns into omg vash angel arm WHAAT but u arent actually saying WHAAAT bc #u ddint have time to process anything and then its alr over . i just cant get into it im sry IM SRYY!! #and . i do generally just pref the structure of max and the intentional narrative choices w everything #the way knives cuts his arm off in anger in max vs like ‘to save himm❤️’ in stamp is much better @ characterizing him me thinks .. #overall i just think the manga had a better idea of what msg it wanted to convey whereas stamp is just a mixed grabbag of max references #trigun #trigun spoilers

[tswwwit]

just thinking about a Dipper reincarnation who was already in a relationship before Bill showed up! Bill wouldn't kill this partner if Dipper asked nicely to keep them alive... right?

I don't think Bill would kill the partner, necessarily! If only because that would piss Dipper off pretty badly. That doesn't mean he can't be unnerving and vaguely threatening, though!

But honestly, in the case where Dipper's in a relationship that's not with Bill?

Oh boy. If you thought Bill was obnoxious before, see what he's like when he's bringing all his power to bear on being the worst, most omnipresent, third-wheeling, unavoidable cockblock.

#You can't escape him Dipper #Quite literally since he can track down where you are #You're gonna fall for the demon all over again #There's no getting rid of him because of the lifebond and now you're trying to watch a movie with your date #Only suddenly Bill Is There sitting right between the two of you #Throwing an arm around your shoulder and going 'hey! What are we watching?' #When Dipper's not paying attention the SO is absolutely getting the worst and eeriest stares #Like Bill could rip out their organs just by looking #And tons of other unnerving things like too-casually toying with a knife while DIpper's back is turned in the ktichen #Meanwhile Bill and Dipper have constant arguments which the demon seems to delight in #Odds are that the partner in question gets where this is going before Dipper does #Bill spread into Dipper's life like blood poisoning and now suddenly it's them and you and not you and Dipper #I think most partners would get the hint #Though there's a fun scenario somewhere when Dipper's dating some scumbag and Bill REALLY gets to cut loose #And cut other things too possibly #Hands Off The Mortal That's Bill's

[hella1975]

‘you don’t seem too happy tho :(’ cunt I’ll bite you

#THE ACTUAL CHEEK OF HER LET ME CALM DOWN BEFORE I RANT FUCK MEEEEE THIS GIRL THIS GIRLYPOP EVEN #right so I’ve got a mate that I fell out with a couple weeks ago and she’s not confrontational but she IS the type to hold grudges #and express them in like. really petty ways. so like we settled our argument ages ago and I moved on bc i have a life #BUT IT’S OUR OTHER MATE’S BDAY PARTY TODAY AND IM NOT THAT CLOSE WITH THIS MATE BUT THIS GIRL IS HER FLATMATE YEAH #SO EVEN IF THAT MATE DIDNT INVITE ME DIRECTLY THEN THIS OTHER MATE THAT I AM CLOSER WITH WOULD HAVE #bc basically me her and another girl make a trip like we’re very close and it’s a very rigid trio set up #like you CANNOT invite two and not the other yk? guess what she fucking did #i only FOUND OUT ABOUT THIS PARTY BC THE THIRD GIRL IN OUR TRIO VERY CASUALLY WAS LIKE OH WHAT R U GONNA WEAR #AND I WAS LIKE??? TO WHAT??? AND SHE WAS SO BAMBOOZLED BC THATS HOW MUCH OF A GIVEN IT WAS THAT ID BE INVITED #BC MY MATE INVITED HER BUT NOT ME #and I’ve known that since yesterday morning but I was like okayyy okay im saying nothing am I fuck getting aggy bc I didn’t get INVITED #like that’s embarassing I’m staying silent. which I stick to until suddenly 5pm today #my mate that invited the other girl but not me messages me going #‘are you coming?’ GIRL??? AND THEN PROCEEDS TO TRY GASLIGHT ME LIKE ‘I MESSAGED YOU ABOUT IT’ #YOU DID IN FACT NOT #AND I CANT PROVE SHES BEING INNOCENT AND PETTY BC WE FELL OUT AGES AGO BUT IT CERTAINLY FUCKING FEES LIKE IT #and even tho id acc like to have gone to that party I cut my nose off and was like nah im gonna sit this one out it’s just awkward now innit #and she was backtracking by that point bc i think she thought she’d just make me feel marginally uncomfortable and then I’d crawl over #like no bitch!!! and yeah I was a bit mardy on text and she HITS ME WITH THIS #‘are you okay’ ‘yeah you two have fun’ ‘you don’t seem too happy tho?’ YOU FUCKING RECKON??? #furious tbh im scheming over how to retaliate even though i KNOW i shouldnt #petty petty girls grow up pls #hella goes to uni

[hannie-dul-set]

what if i told u i impulsively started writing another rich kid asshole jaemin fic during my 10 minute study break and now im devastated because i have to get back to studying.

#i can only write for 10 minutes at a time bcs i have a upcoming deadline recitation i want to cry. #this one was inspired by my friend(?) who suddenly cut us off recently and started acting like a pretentious asshole<333 #its a lot angstier and a lot more unhinged than top of the world that much i can tell u 😔😔😔 #bye i have to actually study now im about to cry ive been studying nonstop this whole weekend yet ive barely even made a DENT

[freebooter4ever]

The only perk of working from home - no makeup, no pesky clothes ^_^

#Journal shit #Btw i am now TOTALLY ALONE in this little cottage and its only been a half day and already im feeling it -_- #How did people do this for years during the pandemic i would have gone insane thank goodness i lived with a bunch of friends then #I keep wanting to comment on things to italianikisix and i have to stop myself from sending messages #Im not sure if its appropriate #Gah these weird corporation style lay offs is so hard like #The person you spend the most time with the person you kinda know better than anyone else in the city is suddenly cut off from you #For no real good reason other than you guys no longer work in the same space every day 8 hrs a day

[six-of-cringe]

I'm taking Ls you can't even fathom

#they're deep cut Ls you haven't even heard of them #ok that's a lie but. things continue to deteriorate in unexpected ways #most recently my grandfather passed away suddenly and the high school i graduated from that is very special to me is shutting down #it feels like things have just been falling off from me but nothing has come to replace them #i haven't moved forward in like two years only deteriorated #but hey guys uhhh. have you heard of this great book series it's called six of crows its very good and great. i am upbeat and silly #delete later #death mention

[clanoffelidae]

i do not like the brain zaps :(

#antidepressant withdrawal #ssri withdrawal #doc won’t fucking reply to my refill requests AGAIN #and now im not only going through suddenly being cut off from my lisdexamphetamine #but now my escitalopram oxalate as well #vyvanse and lexapro for brand names #and am definitely getting the ‘brain zaps’ from the discontinuation effects #i do not like suddenly feeling like im falling and the backs of my eyes sort of area has been zapped and is spazzing #it lasts less than a second but sometimes it’s happening once every 30-60 seconds #i do not like this :(

[lightspren]

do you know how incredibly fucking bullshit it is that the minute my headache completely goes away, I have an asthma flare up?

i’m going to riot

#kit talks #like. headache for 8-9 days. finally lets up some to like every other day or only a few hours a day #suddenly last night my lungs just like. Seized or some shit #my asthma isn’t bad enough to completely cut off air or anything but it does feel like there’s a metal band around my chest #anyway starts causing enough coughing that now my back muscles are sore (: this is fine (: #hate despite loath this flesh prison #alphabet soup of chronic illnesses

[csoisoi]

I GOT MY EXAM RESULTS BACK AND I GOT A PERFECT IN THREE SUBJECTS MATH ENGLISH AND TLE IM GONNA CRY

#all my other subjects were relatively high too all the time spent paid off #i only got 4 mistakes in our physics exam and i cheered so hard when i was alone #because i dont like our physics teacher #and i aspired to be like my sister who had high grades in his subject but hated him so much #just a lil i hate you but im good at ur sub so haha fuk you #the rest of my teachers rock though💛💛 #i sent reviewers and flashcards to my classmates too to help them with the exams bc its the first time we're doing face to face exams #after like 3 school years and i was riddled with anxiety and thought how worried they must be too #so long story short i've never experienced this much appreciation in all my life and it felt nice #mis-csoi-llaneous #but still in ur face sir physics im doing good in your subject #i have a lot of kinda memorable experiences in the last month of 2022 it was wild #it felt a lot like when purson suddenly started to become visible #i feel like im rambling but i have a lot of thoughts when im typing so im cutting this short bye

[heaveniowa]

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#.................................................................................. #um look away really friends #cant tweet this so im just gonna vent it here #some ppl on twitter really make me feel bad about wanting to hear certain album to be performed again and it's not like we Force the band t #play it. isnt it the same as people asking for tttyg & ioh songs?? why it is suddenly different when we questioned why the #only mania song keep getting cut off the list. “who cares?” of course the people who LOVE the album like what 😭😭 #but then im not paying and not going to any of the shows so who am I to have a say in this #I KNOW this convo happened like 6 hours ago I WAS ASLEEP IM NOT AMERICAN so I have to see them when I'm awake because twitter tl SUCKS #00

[tctartarus-a]

LIKE ONE COMMENT WAS LIKE "nyx only calls his work commendable!! and hypnos is surprised by it??? like does she not care??"

meanwhile you literally barely if at all see her praising *anyone* like that. Maybe Zagreus, but thats cuz like. He's the main character, who we play as, and the current focus of the story.

Considering the fact we dont know about Hypnos and his accomplishments then yeah, commendable is on the right track, to my recollection she doesnt' even say she's proud of Thanatos, she treats Thanatos the same???

Yet it's only highlighted on Hypnos's behalf because he's someone who points it out because he's *elated* to get that praise. Thanatos is just more cool and not pointing it out in a fashion that makes us realize *that is how she praises people* Her way of expressing her love isn't the same for each son, and it isn't the same for each person. THE FACT SHE PULLS HIM TO THE SIDE TO SPESIFICALLY SAY "HEY SON. YOU'RE DOING GOOD" IS MOR THAN SHE DOES FOR THANATOS???? TO MY KNOWLEDGE???

insert confused emoji

Also the comment of "she wont even let him call her mom!" like yeah. You don't call your mom, mom when youre working together. That's just?? IF YOU'RE AT YOUR JOB. YOU DONT ADDRESS UR ARGUABLY CO-WORKER/BOSS. AS MOM.

#Taking a Nap // OOC #Words of Chaos // Mun Talk #;; like the only one imo who arguably is mean to Hypnos is Thanatos #;; because he actually just straight up calls him incompatant #;; while nyx talking about hypnos just makes sure he isnt too much for you to handle (worried his disposition isnt good) #;; or explaining why shes being distant to try and promote independence #;; hypnos sees this distance as neglect because he very much to me seems like someone who feels cut off suddenly #;; because he was used to affection a lot and now is a bit sad he doesnt get it the same anymore #;; which is totally understandable #;; but she doesnt even seem to insult him as directly as thanatos??

[fruitsilly]

i am such a girl whose impulse control is getting weaker by the minute. i am such a boy who wants short hair RIGHT NOW

#idk why im suddenly getting a bout of gender dysphoria all of a sudden but. augh. #girl usually it's not this bad but here i am having worn my binder today (only for about 4-5 hours dw) #and heavily contemplating cutting my own hair off just so it's short immediately #anyways i love it when my tumblr blog is my personal journal. hi #apple rambles

[toastsnaffler]

actually ive been thinking abt this a lot lately like basically for years i assumed i was very (cis)het passing and only recently ive become aware that i am in fact. very obviously perhaps almost comically gay to other queer ppl. like lmaoooo ok then

#i think its bc a) when i came out at like 15 everyone was super surprised so i assumed ppl still found it unexpected even now #+ b) im not super aware of social cues generally (autism) so dont tend to pick up on stuff like that unless its explicitly said #+ also c) ive never felt like i physically appear very conspicuous bc i dont have any piercings/tattoos/never dyed my hair etc #i only cut my hair short relatively recently too..... so idk i just assumed i blended into the background for everyone #but now im interacting with ppl outside of my tighter social circle more often ive become more aware- #of how ppl might perceive me. or rather ive become aware of just how UNaware i am of how ppl might perceive me #and its really funny how many odd interactions ive had in the past suddenly make sense if u assume the other person clocked me as gay #like strangers that have gotten flustered around me that might be bc i was giving off strong dyke vibes etc #the other day i was in a bookstore and the guy behind the counter was very stiff + quiet until i replied to smth he said and suddenly he- #became way more animated + started talking to me more casually + that was the first time i realised i probably sound gay as fuck #like i think i kinda have a stereotypical gay mannerism/lilt to the way i talk... no wonder i used to get called a fag so often lmfao #or like i remember trying to find a lab partner in 3rd yr of my degree + i had to do it on call only bc of covid + there were a bunch- #of us with similar lab interests but it got sorted SO fast bc this one other student seemed to gravitate immediately towards me #and i remember thinking afterward that it was odd how quickly we resolved that. esp bc we didnt even meet it was just voice call #anyway yeah i found out she was a dyke much later but i think maybe she clocked me straight away bc of how i sound....? #and that was why she warmed to me so quickly... but god i remember debating for ages with my ex abt whether she was gay or not #like my gaydar is truly terrible i suck balls at picking up on cues so its funny that to some people im reeking signals #also i met up with an ollldddd old friend last week + 30 secs in she was like oh fuck you must use different pronouns now #gesturing to Me. like oh..... im visibly gnc......? or maybe behaviourally???? idk. also shes v femme which made me realise that- #i rly do come across kinda masc/butch nowadays. even tho ive never really thought abt it that deeply before or made an effort to #i mean yeah i do identify along those lines but ive never directly considered how to flag that to other people etc im just doing me baby #ANYWAY this has been a rly long ramble idr what point i was getting at but just find it fascinating to think abt how im read in public #bc im just genuinely so unaware of it. its weirdly rly validating to find out that im automatically recognised as dykey + a little masc #boosted my confidence a lot as well tbh ive felt rly comfortable in myself lately. partly also cuz im getting a little muscular ;^) #ANYWAYYYYYY enough of all that i need to go sleep if youre reading this ily goodnighttt xoxo #.diaries