#PLEASE STOP ARGUING WITH US

[pikp0kcas3]

The Hazbin Hotel fandom’s issue with accepting aromanticism and asexuality

Now that it is officially Aromantic Spectrum Awareness Week, I want to talk about this!

I find that, as an aroace myself, I am constantly grasping at good representation and coming up empty— it usually ends up in one of two ways.

One: the character is portrayed as emotionless, cold, and robotic in nature. It’s the question aromantic and/or asexual people are often asked: “Are you heartless?” The answer is no, of course, but general media makes it out to be the opposite.

Or two: Their lack of attraction is seen as something to “fix” because they “haven’t found the right one yet”, and they end up with a partner as a “happy ending”.

It frustrates me greatly because of how little people actually see aromanticism or asexuality as a true part of the LGBTQIA+ community.

So when I watched Hazbin Hotel, and I found out about Alastor being aroace, I was over the moon. I was on cloud nine. I also saw how his voice actor has looked up the term as an attempt to learn about aroaces, which makes me OVERJOYED?? Amir is truly a blessing, and I love that he’s proud to embody a character that’s part of our community. It’s so beautiful to finally have a proper character, a fan favorite at that, who just so happens to be aroace— and that’s another thing I love about this.

It’s never explicitly stated in the show (though it is stated in interviews), but it’s rather clear when you’re watching, isn’t it? Alastor’s aversion to any sort of sexual advancement, coupled with Rosie’s blatant “I know you’re an ace in the hole” comment sort of spell out his asexuality pretty clearly, as well as what side of the spectrum he falls upon. In addition, his Valentine’s day card was strictly platonic, which caters to his aromantic side. It feels so validating to finally be represented, to finally have a character in media who shares the same lack of interest in romance and sex as I do.

When I entered the fandom to look for more content, I kind of expected to see the same respect for Alastor’s orientation there too. But that… wasn’t the case? I am fully aware that aromanticism and asexuality are both spectrums— of course, aromantic and/or asexual people can enter those kinds of relationships. I’m not denying that and they belong in the community as much as anyone else on the spectrum.

But, the more I see the same line again and again and again, the more it feels like an excuse to just ship what you want.

Usually I don’t mind shipping? I’m often a firm believer in people shipping what they like as long as it’s harmless and they don’t go crazy over it. I also know for a fact that Viv doesn’t have a problem with people shipping her characters. They are fictional, after all.

But in this case, people are ignoring the very thing that makes Alastor a part of the aroace community! People are ignoring his lack of romantic or sexual attraction!

Is this not the same as changing a gay character’s orientation to suit a straight ship? If not, how so? I’m told that we are a part of this community, so why aren’t we being treated like it? Why is it so hard to accept the people on the end of the spectrum who aren’t interested?

Something I’ve been noticing throughout my life is that society has not exactly progressed very much on the idea of accepting asexual or aromantic identities. Maybe we have, a little, since the old days— but hell, people in “the old days”, which in truth wasn’t very long ago, believed that asexuality was a medical condition to be “fixed” by taking the right medication or having sex. That’s a pretty low bar to clear. And on the romance side, you’re seen as a “late bloomer” or “boring” if you don’t express interest. These days, being friends with someone is treated like a gateway to them possibly becoming a lover. Not getting married, not going on dates, not wanting a partner— it’s all treated like a crime when it’s not.

Maybe I’m selfish, or sensitive, or I’m butthurt over nothing, or I’m making it all about me. Maybe I’m gatekeeping or whatever the term is. But please, please, please, I just want an aroace character like me who simply is not interested in sex or romance.

And I want fandom to respect that. I admire the creations that fans make— the art, the animatics, the writing and the character analysis. And I want people to keep creating because creation is indeed a beautiful thing.

But I really would like people to treat aroace identities like they’re important. Like it’s more than just a spectrum to get wiggle room to wrangle in another ship.

#aromantism #aromantic #aroace #asexual #hazbin hotel #alastor #hazbin alastor #lgbtqia #alastor aroace #PLEASE i just want people to LEAVE HIM ALONE #“but it’s a spectrum” STOP USING IT AS AN EXCUSE #RESPECT AROACE PEOPLE WITH ZERO INTEREST IN ROMACE AND SEX #let us have this #we barely get anything as it is #but just to clarify i don’t believe that most people are being intentionally rude about it #nor am i discouraging people from creating fan content because it is FAN CONTENT and you can express yourself #i just would like people to understand a little more that #yes it is a spectrum and it covers an extremely wide range of orientations #yes ANYONE who identities as someone on the spectrum is completely valid #if you wanna argue with that i am showing you the door and kicking your sorry aphobic ass out #my point is that the spectrum is not a loophole. it is not an excuse and it is NOT okay to just use it willy nilly for your convenience

[violetdisasterzone]

Luo Binghe & Selflessness

There's a great post by @/jayktoralldaylong talking about how all the love interests in MXTX's novels prioritize the safety and well-being of the MCs rather than prioritizing - or even expecting - their love being returned. And image my surprise when the first reply I see is "Except Binghe. That bitch will sleep with your corpse," with others agreeing and calling him the "worst MXTX character" in the tags. I am yet again asking, did we read the same book? Luo Binghe is just as single-mindedly devoted to Shen Qingqiu as any of the others. Evidence of this is found at every turn during the main plot of Scum Villain: the plot during which he was actively possessed by a sentient evil sword. A sword which in a different timeline - a timeline without Shen Yuan - almost single-handedly turned Luo Bingge into a tyrant. He is under this influence for a majority of volumes 2 and 3 (of the Eng. transl.), which is also when he is accused of being "crazy" or "pushy" in regards to Shen Qingqiu.

Since the reply that inspired this post discussed the 5 years in which Shen Qingqiu was dead, that's what I'll address first. When Shen Qingqiu self-destructs, Luo Binghe is caught extremely off guard. It's easy, I think, to forget or disregard just how awful and confusing the entire novel's events have been for Binghe so far. Accepted to Qing Jing and subsequently horrifically abused for 4 years; a sudden, drastic, unexplained change in Shen Qingqiu and a blissful 3 years of peace; pushed into hell and utterly betrayed in an act of what appears to be very out of character hypocrisy. And when he returns (now in possession of the aforementioned sentient evil sword), he stays away from Cang Qiong and becomes a respectable cultivator in his own right, so that maybe, maybe Shen Qingqiu would accept him once again. And then he runs into Shen Qingqiu enjoying the company of someone who looks exactly like him; yet Shen Qingqiu runs from him, acting as though Binghe is the one who is dangerous, who is going to hurt him. Of course, Shen Qingqiu is justified in his fear, based on his own perceptions of the situation. But Luo Binghe does not know this.

Immediately following Shen Qingqiu's destruction is one of the only times we get a firsthand glimpse into Luo Binghe's perspective. This line is from the moments after he catches Shen Qingqiu's body: "Didn't Shizun hate his blood more than anything? Wasn't he unwilling to even be near him, to associate with him at all?" In the following pages is when he learns, for the first time that "Shizun too was...utterly heartbroken" during his time in the Abyss. When the chapter ends, Luo Binghe is still in utter shock, wiping the blood from Shen Qingqiu's face and trying, uselessly, to explain that he was just angry, that he just wanted to make him happy. We don't see the part of the scene where Luo Binghe leaves with the body, but it is not hard to infer that, in his complete state of denial and shock, his mind recently saved from an agonizing deviation, he was unwilling to part from his Shizun.

During the five years of Shen Qingqiu's absence, Luo Binghe kept his body in as perfect a state as possible. As we see in the Deep Dream extra, Luo Binghe brings Mu Qingfang (who he seems to respect, however minimally) to Huan Hua Pavilion some time after the events of Hua Yue City (which we know because Mu Qingfang expects Shen Qingqiu's body to "have long since festered and decayed"). We, as Shen Qingqiu, then get a glimpse into what Luo Binghe does with the body: he cooks countless meals that will go uneaten, and he transfers qi to prevent that decay. Skin to skin contact is the most direct way to transfer qi, as supported in many other scenes, including the flashback scene in this same extra. This type of qi transfer can also be carried out while sleeping, as evidenced in the Bing-mei vs. Bing-ge extra, providing a regulated stream of spiritual energy for an entire night. As Mu Qingfang said earlier, this uses up "an enormous amount of spiritual power" and is only enough to keep his body protected "for a single day" without reversing everything. Luo Binghe is immensely powerful, but even protagonists are not built to drain themselves every night for 5 years, while also fighting off Xin Mo, running Huan Hua, controlling the demon realm, and NOT giving up on everything. When Shen Qingqiu is thought to be dead in the minutes after Maigu Ridge, Luo Binge "almost tried to follow" him. And yet, when he believed there was even a chance he might return, he held on "for almost two thousand more of these days and nights."

The only other time we see Luo Binghe's interactions with the corpse is when Shen Qingqiu, undiscovered in the plant body, witnesses Liu Qingge's infiltration. In this, it is said that "Luo Binghe was unwilling to harm the corpse, so he could only release it." It's worth mentioning that, if Liu Qingge had managed to take the body back to Cang Qiong - or, what sequence is initiated when he does - it will be given burial rights, it will decay, and Shen Qingqiu will never again have a possibility of inhabiting it. Luo Binghe cannot let this happen; it's not merely about possession or attachment. And yet, he would sooner allow this possibility that allowing even the potential of harm to come to him.

When all is said and done, after Luo Binghe has been broken out of Xin Mo's control and Shen Qingqiu does not die - the first thing he does is return him to Cang Qiong Mountain. When Shen Qingqiu suggests that they leave, together, Luo Binghe is "dumbfounded." He fully expected to be left, for Shen Qingqiu to be unwilling. He would have done anything for Shen Qingqiu and expected nothing in return.

At his core, even under influence and in emotional turmoil, Luo Binghe's love is unfalteringly selfless. There are so many examples of this, both in the main plot and in the post-canon extras, but I think this post is long enough already. Suffice it to say that nothing is more important that Shen Qingqiu to Luo Binghe - least of all himself.

#maiden luo my beloved #minors dni #please don't use this post to try to 'argue' or 'prove me wrong' I dont want to hear it #this is not the place for antis #luo binghe is a good character，a good person，and a *good husband* #I really love him #and so does shen qingqiu! #him waking up after that in the deep dream extra is so soft and sweet #if shen qingqiu understands and isn't weird about binghe protecting his corpse what excuse do you have #he literally said ‟this might look weird，but in reality it's not‟ and some people went ‟this sign won't stop me bc I can't read‟ #luo binghe #shen qingqiu #bingqiu #svsss #svsss meta #scum villains self saving system #ren zha fanpai zijiu xitong #mxtx #洛冰河 #沈清秋 #冰秋 #人渣反派自救系统

[trans-estinien]

people really love to conveniently forget trans men exist when they talk about feminism. or if they dont they make us out as also part of the problem as if we somehow are able to have the same amount of privilege as cis men. absolutely wild

#“not all men” is a valid statement because its fucking true #like guys. seriously. not every single man is evil #feminism isnt about putting men down its about raising women up to be equal and getting rid of gender inequality #sorry im seeing a massive uptick in people hating on trans men for being men lately and its fucking stupid #like yall are doing a great job at making me feel ashamed to be a man who likes men. awesome thanks guys #i dont normally make posts like this but its been rattling around in my mind for a few days now #its always put out like. all men (trans or not) are Inherently Evil and all women (trans or not) are Inherently Victims #which is absolutely the stupidest shit ive ever seen #and they also leave out anyone who doesnt fit into the man/woman dichotomy. and if they dont its always seen as woman lite #which is also stupid as fuck #not every nb/agender/other person is feminine asshole #anways. case in point. can we stop demonizing masculinity while also discussing the effects of misogyny and the patriarchy please. #because both of those things are very real and very much do hurt people #but im sick of people lashing out at trans men as if the problem magically doesn't affect us anymore because we are men #because guess what! newsflash! it affects trans AND cis men too!! #i shouldnt have to explain it should be obvious but like. im tired man #sorry ill forever be annoyed at women who just hate every single man who dares breathe in their direction because they COULD be an asshole #if you hate someone because of their gender no matter what gender it is i Do Not Trust You #anyways thanks for coming to my ted talk. replies are off cause i dont want to argue with people i just want to express my opinion

[fiapple]

when will dc let etta & diana experience the joyous gay love they've been destined to since the early 20th century

etta has been there for di since practically day one, they're both canonically sapphic characters, there's mutual understanding, there's accounting for each others' weak points, the foundation of friendship, they're both hot & kinda bitchy. etta is the high femme pillow princess diana would short circuit over. steve may have led di into man's world, but etta is the one who gave her the security to wholly find her place in it.

let them be happy pretty please & thank you that is all.

#the answer is fatphobia & misogyny #BOO! dc stop being cowardly. let them get gay married. #they're the perfect counter-parts to di & minerva being dyke divorcees #please! let us have this! #new rule if you’re gonna try to argue with me just go away #this isn’t about you! bye! #wondercandy #etta candy #diana prince #diana of themyscira #wonder woman #18+ #pairing: wondercandy #dc #thoughts

[hel1anthus-annuus]

you know what really bothers me about the whole 'you can't call mizu trans, white transmascs this isn't about you' thing? the absolute disgusting audacity to forget that mixed race trans men fucking exist.

Who the fuck is saying that lol? I’ve especially never seen the latter part. Who’s talking to the white transmascs like that. Help. That’s ridiculous

I find this especially funny, because this is true— it is not about white transmascs, or transmascs in general, or enbies, or transfemmes, because Mizu is Canonically A Woman and we’re all HAVING FUN WITH HEADCANONS HERE. For every post that someone makes saying Mizu is definitively one trans identity, the cutest kitten in the world blows up like legos

#looks at my mixed race half white half asian transmasc partner with bug eyes #babe they’re erasing you again on the internet #anonymous #blue eye samurai #answered #please god guys stop arguing over mizu’s gender. she’s a woman for the purposes of the show. please be creatuve and expand in fanfiction #like normal people #discourse #we’ve all fucking lost the plot! god help us all! please post your headcanons in peace!

[sleep-nurse]

I want to cry

#please stop fucking talking to me stop arguing with me PLEASE #we're in fucking class stop i know you hate me just fucking kill me #stop using my fucking posts against me #i hate ny brother ao much i need to ficking block him from here

[petrichoraline]

yall gotta start tagging me in meta and stuff cause I'm always late -I honestly feel better this way than having to rush to watch an episode live like I used to do with nlmg, msp and others but by the time I catch up, I have missed out on some great posts from both mutuals and strangers alike :( and going through the tag of these popular series is not as easy as for more niche shows

#like here i am ready to gush about how kang finally got sailom in his feet but in a way he didnt know he wanted #how sailom calls for help and it is out of desperation but its not caused by kang and the call isnt to make him stop but to ask for support #and how kang feels someone needs him for once and how he feels useful and appreciated when he does smth good for someone #which he hasnt done in how long? #and im thinking about how his starvation for sailoms attention will only grow bigger but its a need for specific attention now #and also thinking about how had his dad let him be useful in productive ways he wouldnt have gone down the evil nihilist route #so being given the chance to be of use almost by accident is changing the trajectory of his life #id argue this one incident is fundemental to anything that happens from here on out not only cause it gets them to work together #but because he got a taste of what he wants - to be appreciated for doing good and to be there for sailom in particular #yeah i wouldnt write that cause im sure at least ten people already have in a way more articulate and creative way #please tag me in things thank you!

[mymarifae]

this is literally so fucking funny. someone PLEASE save nene

#i'm so glad prsk lets three people show up on the screen now because it let us have This. #you know how some teachers will make the rowdy kids sit next to the quiet kids to make the rowdy kids Calm Down #one of solid heart's teachers tried to do that. they put nene in between akito and ena hoping that her presence would make them chill out #and you know. stop fighting all the damn time #... it did not work. #now they're just leaning over nene's desk putting their elbows on her textbooks like just trying to get closer so they can Get each other #and for the love of god SOMEONE PLEASE SAVE HER !!!!!!!!!! #they shouldn't have released mikudemy i'm just going to be miserable that the kids don't all go to the same school forever now #no clue what akito and ena are even arguing about here i haven't put it through any kind of translator yet #just. nene sitting in between them. funniest thing i've ever seen

[healingheartdogs]

What is it about Banana that makes random people ask us if he's a basenji and then look like they don't believe us when we say he's not? Yes, ma'am, we've heard of basenjis before. No, ma'am, he is not one. He's mostly pit and chow, I promise you he is not a basenji and he does not look like a basenji.

#selene apparently got stopped while walking him earlier for some lady to ask her that #which is far from the first time that has happened #the amount of people ive had to tell that no he is not a basenji and in fact we've breed tested him so i am 100% certain about that #one lady told NOT ASKED but TOLD us at a outdoor market that he was clearly a 'malamar like those police dogs' #and then argued with me when i said he was definitely not a malinois but a mutt #people who know a few less common breeds seem to believe us the least when we say our dog is NOT an uncommon breed but just a shelter mutt #like i guarantee you that there are not purebred basenjis showing up in a NC county kill shelter for $10 adoption fees #funnily enough the shelter had him listed as a GSD puppy which... he also looks nothing like #but he DOES have a small amount of GSD in his mix #and of course our dog who is actually a recognizable kind of uncommon pure breed always gets called a doodle lol #and when i say 'no hes a german wirehaired pointer' i get that same 'i don't believe you' look #one guy at the dog park once was like 'oh is that the designer breed name or did you make that up?' #the conclusion is that average people have no ducking clue what dog breeds actually look like or what makes them recognizable #which is fine and im not gonna judge for it but like... please stop trying to correct me about my own pets #i promise i know more about them than some random stranger who just saw them for the first time

[izacore]

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#i'm going to sleep soon but agshdjf i saw the misinterpreting of that post has already started #please develop some reading comprehension skills #and stop trying to keep hl in the closet because you think it's a more woke take or whatever #also no one is saying closeted people cannot be happy but lol do they look happy to you when stunting? #harry definitely looked peachy and like he had the time of his life for the past 2 years #and louis must be happy to use the kid too according to that logic right? #all that post is arguing is that they literally don't need the stunts because they could have the same fucking lives without being closeted #and having to do the things they don't want to do and that make them unhappy and are ultimately a waste of their time #idk why there is such a need in some of you guys to keep harry and louis closeted but you really do start sounding like 1dhq #my prediction is i will wake up to vAgUe posts saying how closeted people are being invalidated #and that's when i'll understand there's really no hope for this fandom #anyway kisses #imagine being okay with hl being stuck in an abusive system for some better fan points

[crossdressingdeath]

Time for Positive Things About DAI: I do like that the game lets you interject in some of the party banters. One of my biggest complaints about the party banters in the other games was that it never really felt like my character was... part of it, you know? It's nice to hear your companions actually talking to each other and interacting without you, don't get me wrong, but it always feels like soldiers in the back ranks chit-chatting as they follow their commander more than a group of friends hanging out (with you included in the group). Little things like the opportunity to teasingly defuse one of Blackwall and Dorian's arguments or the chance to respond with embarrassment (or glee) when other companions start grilling your LI about your relationship just gives more of a sense that you're a group of friends rather than a commanding officer and their subordinates when you're walking around the world. Being able to respond like a person would to some of the conversations that your companions are having, especially the ones involving you or involving tension in the group, and especially being able to choose how you respond like it's any other conversation with a companion, is just a really nice addition to the party banter system! More of that in DA4, please!

#dragon age inquisition #also can da4 please give us at least one 'stop arguing i swear i'll turn this party around' interjection #every game has had at least one banter that could've benefited from an 'i'll turn this party around' interjection #it is time to give us one #it's odd because dai is generally the worst at making you and your companions feel like FRIENDS rather than coworkers #but things like banter interjections and the wicked grace cutscene are some of the best group interactions in the series #in those very specific areas dai is actually i'd argue the BEST at making the group feel like friends #they feel very natural and casual and like an extension of the group dynamic! #(just ignore how we don't really SEE that group dynamic outside of those scenes)

[septimus-heap]

It's not just marcia and septimus either it's also alther and marcia. I need a 200k word fic of marcias apprenticeship from the moment she first met alther up until the day he died

#sep talks #septimus heap #marcia overstrand #alther mella #<-shockingly not a tag I use often. I need to talk abt alther more I love him he's so funny #I have this one hc that he adopted a cat like partway into marcias apprenticeship #just. Marcia shows up one day and there's a cat #and she's like. Sure. Fine. Whatever (extremely jealous that the cat is loved more than her) <-it is not #the way he's immediately like I love all my apprentices the same <3 when marcia and silas start arguing in magyk the one time #alther: *deep sigh* I don't have a favourite child please stop asking me to choose #and obviously him calling out marcia for being petty when she makes the hunter dive into the water #and then immediately booby trapping the eow the second he's back in the castle

[lemxioz]

my D&D group frustrates me

#no you cannot burn down a town of innocents #no you shouldn't split the party just to save your own ass #please stop listing dumb animal facts and help me reason with him you stupid idiot #why is no one helping me #how the fuck can a DM start a session with no idea about our characters connections #no we DO NOT sacrifice innocents #SHUT UP I DON'T WANT TO HEAR HOW MANY TEETH A SNAIL HAS #WE WON'T BURN ANYTHING #STOP LAUGHING DM AND HELP US WE'VE BEENHAM ARGUING FOR ALMOST TWO HOURS #this is no fun

[keagan-ashleigh]

Hey I've just read a tweet saying "blackbonnet" as a ship name is making black people uncomfortable - so I am going to change the tags on my previous posts (using the mass edit tool it's going to take seconds but I can't do that on my phone so I'll get to it later today), and I'll tag gentlebeard from now on.

I am saying it to encourage y'all to do the same, let's not making anyone feel unwelcome in this beautiful fandom ok 😊 (especially when this show is so prominently about racism so please let's not be stupid here)

(also I saw another tweet explaining the term "blackie" should not be used in fics as it's a slur, I thought I'd spread this message too while I'm at it ^^ )

#fandom life #gentlebeard #psa #ofmd #ofmd psa #my posts #our flag means death #ofmd ship name #and please don't argue with me I don't need poc to give me extensive arguments about why they're uncomfortable with it #if they say they are I'll just stop using it it's that easy #peace to you all ❤

[sing-me-under]

I like to think about c!Tommy’s guiding figures in his life a lot. It’s kind of hard to put into coherent paragraphs all the thoughts I have on them, but I think about it a lot.

Right now, I’m thinking about c!Quackity and c!Sapnap attempting to provide shelter and support to c!Tommy after c!Wilbur’s revival and the prison breakout respectively. They could have made such an impact if they had more time together.

Anyway, this is just me mourning the loss of their potential in the finale. I do like the real finale fine as it is and I think it receives far more hate than it deserves, but like… It definitely could have been better. There was so much lost potential if they could have just brought in other characters. I cry myself to sleep thinking about it.

#personal #I have exactly four opinions on c!Punz #this man legit just went #Dream didn’t say I was friend ;-; #what am I living for #Dream please #Dream stop listening to him #why are you listening to him #Punz was LITERALLY chopped liver #the fourth opinion was that I enjoyed ccPunz’s use of movement to try and push/nudge Dream #like I’m fine with the finale because I can’t really think of any other way to end it that has the same result #while also tying up c!Tommy’s character arc #you can all argue otherwise #But c!Tommy committing murder is very much not an option #and c!Dream and c!Punz letting c!Tommy walk out alive would be dramatically OOC #the finale being a bittersweet regret for everything they’ve done #was probably the nicest way to end it #with the situation they were in #I think it was a logical conclusion #with the resources and people they were working with #i just wish there was another character to slap some sense into literally any of them #or take the hard decision out of their hands #Like cTommy having his revelation without the limbo scene #cTommy has his pity cDream for being a fucked up bastard #then looks away as cSapnap kills cDream #but also they really did need someone to distract cDream and cPunz #no one else except cTommy would have agreed to that #except cTubbo but there was no way cTommy would live with himself after #so yeah #dsmp

[running-in-the-dark]

so since I've been spending a lot of time with/near my mother lately, I've noticed that I have to repress all negative emotions when I'm around her (for lots of different reasons), and it's.. exhausting. I don't know how I ever lived like that.

#I mean. I know how. I wanted to die every second of it #it's not like that now #it's a lot and I hate it #but it's the only option if I want to get my degree (which I do) so. I'll have to get through it somehow #it helps that I've been listening to music while I'm there. which is funny because that's how I used to cope with it all when I was younger #idk it's the only thing that makes it okay. #I've been going there to write my thesis btw. should probably mention that again for context lol #today she talked about the way her neighbour treats her kids and it.. was so uncomfortable and horrible and she's just.. so mean? #like no dude the problem isn't that this woman isn't strict enough. it's that she & her husband yell at their kids & insult them all day #like I've heard it so many times and I haven't been there THAT often #but there's no point in arguing with her so I have to keep quiet and it kills me. like it feels wrong but I know it would be bad so I can't #say anything even though it's so fucking important to me. idk it's all so stupid #I wish I had a less useless brain. then I could just do my work at home like a normal person. but I can't so this is my only option. #oh also my mother doesn't really eat meals & I often just forget to eat so I've just not been eating when I'm there. so that's great. #kinda just hate everything at the moment #its fine but like. ugh. just make it stop please #personal