#Porpentine

[xrafstar]

Serious Weakness paperback ⭐ 625 pages of twink bodily fluids ⭐ 2 bonus stories ⭐ revised, polished, "Deluxe Boyspatter Edition" ⭐ soaked in beautiful toxic cover art by @sloaneshutup

digital copies on itchio/kindle have been updated to the final edition thank you ❤️‍🩹

#serious weakness #porpentine #evil yaoi

[iavenjqasdf]

games don’t work for me anymore. I thought I could be that person. Playing gacha or mmo til I die. But my income isn’t steady enough. It gets broken up. And the games aren’t that good. If they designed them better, they could have avoided all this

#fiction #porpentine #one of my favs... #good companion piece to seriweak i think

[stinkybreath]

hello

do you trust me to recommend you some books

I read ~170 this year and here’s reviews of my top ten, written for fb and crossposted under the cut in case you’re interested

1: Camp Concentration by Thomas Disch

-I know it’s not obvious from the way I conduct myself here, but I have a very large vocabulary. I was a kid who read the dictionary and also any thesaurus I had access to. So, that said, consider how much it means to me personally that this book taught me 30-50 new words. This isn’t a huge part of the reason I loved this book, but it is a very impressive fact about it that I think will grab the attention of people who might otherwise not read it. This book changed the way I read, the way I think about literature, and the way I evaluate what I have previously read. It’s offensive to me that I lived 30 years as an avid reader and culture sponge without hearing about this book. I cannot recommend it enough. I give it top spot on this list for a very good reason. I’d like to avoid spoiling any of the plot because while I called the twist easily, discovery of each point was so delightful that I want you to have that same experience.

2: Cockatiel x Chameleon by Bavitz

-You all have plenty of experience with me recommending works of fiction published online in formats that deter most readers. This is a normal Najwa activity. I know how it sounds and I know, therefore, that this plea will go more or less unheard, but I BEG you. Look past the fact this was published on AO3. This is one of the most remarkable books I’ve read, period. I mentioned in my worst of how much it bothers me that most writers can’t plausibly write about the internet. This book is the FUCKING ZENITH of writing about being online. It is the absolute peak and I will be shocked if I ever encounter another work that overtakes it. This is a book about people who are so strange they are barely human, but in ways that will be instantly familiar, intimately true, to those of us who grew up on the internet. There is violence and abuse and love and beauty and Chatroulette. There is art and gore and exploration of identity and apocalypse. There is fucking POSTING.

3: Serious Weakness by Porpentine

-Charity Heartscape Porpentine is one of our greatest living authors, opinions of snide Twitter users notwithstanding. I am an evangelist for her Twine game poetry because it is so singular and so affecting. Even a decade on, I can play through Their Angelical Understanding and feel freshly stabbed in the gut. Imagine the thrill I felt when she posted about her completed novel. I would (strongly) recommend this even to people who (somehow) bounced off her games, because her prose style is very distinct from the voice those are in (yet still recognizable). This is an incredibly violent, sick, stomach-turning, difficult, ugly, terrifying book. It’s also ultimately asking the reader a question about love and compassion. If you are sensitive to any trigger in written word about any violent action one person can do to another, skip this book, but if you feel like you have the strength, give her the nine bucks or whatever that she’s asking and devour it like I did. A hook for you: our protagonist has a chance meeting with an embodiment of pain. What follows includes torture, gender, climate disaster, and Columbine. Gorgeous. This book almost convinced me to start doing video essays so I could explain to people the incredible factors at play in it.

4: Negative Space by BR Yeager

-I have been trying to read this book for free for so long that I broke my streak and paid actual money for it. It was one of the better purchases I made all year. Thanks to finally reading some Stephen King this year I now have the requisite foundation to see how heavily his style inspired Yeager in this book, but I would die on the hill defending my position that Yeager does King better than King ever did. There is evil seeping out between the lines of this book. Have you ever had a nightmare that made you feel doomed the entire next day? Have you ever felt you were trapped in your shitty, dying home town? Have you ever been seduced by the excitement of activities that you know might actually kill you? Have you ever woken up in the middle of the night and looked at your own dark reflection? Go back to the deepest point of your teenage depression here.

5: We Who Are About to by Joanna Russ

-One of the shortest entries on this list and so one of the easiest sells, but it is just as full of meaning as any other that made the cut. There is so much implied and unsaid about this protagonist. She feels whole, like this is the last chunk of chapters in a series centered on her, but she represents something universal. She is one member of a group from a crash-landed spaceship, a group small enough in numbers that there’s no way for humanity to last on this planet more than one more generation. Any attempts to do even that are so plainly cruel and self-deluding that she wants no part of them, but the others with her don’t see it the same way. Her story is womanhood under patriarchy, it is life and death, it is self-determination. Brutal. I read this at the airport and cried in public.

6: Carrie by Stephen King

-As much as I hate to say it, I gotta hand it to Uncle Steve (or really to Tabitha). This book very nearly justifies the rest of his career on its own. I thought had picked up most of it from cultural osmosis, but there was a truly shocking depth that I couldn’t have found without experiencing it firsthand. Maybe it’s funny to use this word here, but this book is humanist and compassionate and sincere in a way that King never finds again, particularly with the women he writes. Carrie is so vivid that I felt a protective instinct for her throughout the book even though I knew she was about to discover her own power. She reflects parts of me about as well as Lindqvist did in Little Star, which is the work of art that is THE most personal to me. A classic for a fucking reason.

7: The Doloriad by Missouri Williams

-This year, lots of the books that I read had strange echoes of each other. In this, I can pick out shades of Carrie, of Camp Concentration, of We Who Are About To, and even of Serious Weakness. Rarely if ever are these references by each author, but it has enriched my experience by having unofficial interlocking intertexts for all of them. This book has been very divisive with reviewers, and I understand why, because it is cruel and the prose is extremely stylistic. This is somewhat experimental and fully literary and sincerely philosophical. I get it. Not for everyone. But it was for me. A clan of inbreds at the end of the world with their eyes on their scapegoat, nonverbal and disabled Dolores. It shocked me and it challenged me and I loved it.

8: The Ice Cream Man and Other Stories by Sam Pink

-These short stories did the exact opposite of the thing that pissed me off about The Florida Project. These are about people who are varying degrees of sympathetic but the same degree of desperately, penny-scrapingly working poor. The easy pull quote is “unflinching,” because it turns an eye on very ugly parts of real life for so many of us. I think people who grew up middle class will find some voyeuristic, prurient pleasure in these stories, but they’re not written for you. They’re written for us, the people who have lived this way.

I Who Have Never Known Men by Jacqueline Harpman 9

-I don’t need to tell you how great this book is, because the whole of booktok has told you this all year. Instead, what I will say is that it is much stranger and less tidy than you’re imagining when you hear the blurb. It’s a short read and it is one of the few times I haven’t regretted following booktok’s advice.

Only Lovers Left Alive by Dave Wallis 10

-This barely squeaked onto this year’s best of, because I started it before 2022 ended and finished it early in the new year. As I read it, especially in the first 20% of the book, I was confused as to how it ended up on my TBR. But toward the end, and throughout the year as I’ve continued to think about it, I understand more instinctively than intellectually that this is a remarkable work. A short synopsis: in the 80s in the UK, there is an epidemic of suicide, but only by adults. The teens left behind forge their own path.

#Porpentine #Bavitz #Thomas Disch #Dave Wallis #Sam pink #Stephen King #jacqueline harpman #Joanna Russ #Missouri Williams #br yeager #b. r. yeager #charity heartscape porpentine

[meansealevel]

#diorama #porpentine #girlwaste #oldie #fanart

[museum-of-screens]

their angelical understanding (2013) 

Creator(s): Porpentine Charity Heartscape

Type: Twine

Language: [EN] 

Status: Available

(Content Warning listed on the game page)

#Twine #Game #Porpentine

[the-sneep-snoop]

these r the sigils i made / with those we love alive

my favourite of porpentine’s games so far. very introspective, intuitive, dreamlike, surreal, mind altering. highly recommend

#with those we love alive #porpentine #hypertext games

[silkshriek]

(the shape you make when your bones are closest to the surface, porpentine charity heartscape)

#deny my existence #mode: screaming in my head #mode: ​spiraling #porpentine

[translitsupplement]

In todays mail: the new Porpentine book

#books #porpentine

[kinkyrius]

Low Kill Shelter is very good, need more stuff like this, trans authors just have the knack I think.

#Could probably have done with some proof reading but oh well #The story was great and that's the main thing #Well on to Serious Weakness I guess #porpentine

[xrafstar]

added a codex to my site for the superdegenerates out there now you can find everything for a story on one page, like the Russian translation of low kill shelter, or serious weakness’s fanart, yuri AU, etc

the tag table dynamically generates itself from the tags on each story page, and the FAQ allows me to automate some of the most common questions I get. morally reprehensible boners have never been more accessible yet timelessly luxurious

#porpentine

[in-servo-necessitas]

Maybe it’s my fault. I try to reinforce the right behaviors. But I get so messed up in my head sometimes. I forget what’s a reward and what’s a punishment. Sometimes pushing myself inside you is a punishment. But how could it be anything but a reward? Case in point. Last week I was holding your hand in mine. You were crying with those big eyes acting all terrified. I’d just finished cauterizing the stump. Your fingers were so small and pale and limp. I couldn’t remember why it happened. But I’m sure there was a good reason. And I’m sure whatever little thing you were doing just before I cut it off will be branded into your brain forever.

#gore cw #rape cw #drugs cw #lots of cws #but it's porpentine so you know it's good #isn fic rec #porpentine #I was just rereading Arrangement and feeling bad about how I don't flinch at almost anything in it. partly just familiarity‚ but not all... #but well. this made me flinch #behaviorism

[virtue-boy]

#hot alostatic load #trans #essay #porpentine #i like poroentines games slay #linksave

[alexanderpearce]

had a great time cosplaying god‘s most kidnappable autist

#horrifically hot day today like the second 36 of the summer + con theme was apocalypse + serious weakness kind of on theme all of it!! #heelying con gifs like its 2013 lol.under the readmore i keep changing my mind girl its just a post #serious weakness #trianon #porpentine charity heartscape #my cosplay #injury tw #<- fake #self harm tw #<- welll hehe #just to be on the safe side lol its not too visible under the makeup #my face

[thecolorsfucked]

This is about disposability from a trans feminine perspective, through the lens of an artistic career. It’s about being human trash.

This is in defense of the hyper-marginalized among the marginalized, the Omelas kids, the marked for death, those who came looking for safety and found something worse than anything they’d experienced before.

For years, queer/trans/feminist scenes have been processing an influx of trans fems, often impoverished, disabled, and/or from traumatic backgrounds. These scenes have been abusing them, using them as free labor, and sexually exploiting them. The leaders of these scenes exert undue influence over tastemaking, jobs, finance, access to conferences, access to spaces. If someone resists, they are disappeared, in the mundane, boring, horrible way that many trans people are susceptible to, through a trapdoor that can be activated at any time. Housing, community, reputation—gone. No one mourns them, no one asks questions. Everyone agrees that they must have been crazy and problematic and that is why they were gone.

I was one of these people.

- Porpentine May 11, 2015

#i post this every year plz actually read it #porpentine charity heartscape #transmisogyny #lgbtq #transgender

[everycorner]

full of vitamin K & off to the museum @xrafstar

#serious weakness #🩸 #porpentine charity heartscape

[haveyoureadthisbook-poll]

#serious weakness #porpentine charity heartscape #book poll #have you read this book poll #polls