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banana-vatore · 4 years

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My raw reaction to Cassandra's Revenge (spoiler alert, obviously)

Buckle up kiddos because this is going to be long.

*Breaths in* AHHHHHHHHGGGGGGHHHHHH

- HE'S MAKING SCIENCE COMPETITIONS WITH HIMSELF I WANT TO HUG HIM

- HOT CHOCOLATE

- Varian writing "what?!?" Near the scroll is a whole a$$ mood

- I want to kiss his forehead thank you

- his handwriting gets me soft

- I live for baby's evil laugh

- I'm sorry for rambling I'm just very emotional

- and waiting for the whole episode to be up

- baby likes hot cocoa🥺🥺🥺🥺

- varian's got an upgrade??? His workspace is in the demanitus chamber now, YOU GO BABE

- gOGGLES

- CASSANDRA, F*CK OFF.

- LIKE I LIKE YOU BUT IF YOU TOUCH MY BABY I'M THROWING HANDS

- VIOLENTLY

- HE'S EXCITED TO SEE HER ;-;

- Rapunzel protecting Varian with her own body got me uwuing ;-;

- F*CK YEAH RUDDIGER SLICE A B*TCH

- DON'T YOU WHISTLE AT MY BOY YOU HOE

- HE'S A MINOR

- sweetheart my little pumpkin, my ray of sunshine in the dark, baby Varian, I love you, but you're an idiot.

- Cassandra: "then I guess you're coming with me."

- season 1 Varian: :D

- season 3 Varian: D:

- I will sTRANGLE CASSANDRA

- WAS THAT CLOSEUP ON UNCONSCIOUS VARIAN NECESSARY

- ARE U JUST LEAVING HIM LIKE THAT?

- @the truth serum: VARIAN DID AN OOPSIE

- VARIAN SLEEPS WITH HIS MOUTH OPEN

- NOTED

- let Varian say f*ck

- LET VARIAN SAY F*CK

- she doesn't wanna hurt him ಥ‿ಥ

- atleast she said none of this is his fault, he needs to hear that more often.

- he knows what it's like to feel angry Ó╭╮Ò

- h i s v o i c e

- that single ray of light on Varian

- the symbolism

- he's back in the light :')

- or another theory

- he's a theater kid

- Broadway boy

- the fact that in every word he sings, he speaks for experience. Every words is so sincere and deep from him heart, HE KNOWS WHAT HE'S TALKING ABOUT

- he grabbed her by her hurt hand ;-;

- CASSANDRA said a big F*CK YOU to all the delulus who thought she was a "better" Varian villian

- Cass that's kinda gay

- t h a t c a g e

- boi here we go another trauma to varian's collection

- the eerie (?) music in the ending of Nothing Left To Lose

- man

- just man

- wow

- bravo to Jeremy and Eden

- THEY'RE DOING THE KUZCO X PACHA CLIMB

- AW MAN

- dude Catalina's so adorable what the f*ck

- varian's so beautiful what the f*ck

- he's really like really gorgeous

- cAN YOU PLEASE GIVE HIM A BREAK, EVIL B*TCH KID (<regarding booberry taunting Varian)

- HE'S GOT ENOUGH NIGHTMARES AS IT IS

- Seriously though someone get him a therapist-

- "why couldn't this be a dream" ಥ╭╮ಥ

- WHAT IS HE SO ANGRY FOR

- TEENAGERS, I'M TELLING YA

- Varian without his goggles

- a rare sighting

- so pure

- so beautiful

- his little smile makes me so happy

- DEMANITUS FANBOY

- HE SMILES DURING THE WHOLE SENTENCE

- I know he's talking to himself for tv and the audiance's sake but really he just talks to himself more than the others

- not creepily like Edmund but just like in an adorable way

- raps: Varian WE'RE GONNA SAVE YA

- V: actually? Not now

- I'm screaming wtf

- lmao

- that little snort at the end of his laugh he'S SO BABY

- LIKE THE BABIEST

- like I know Kiera and cata are younger than him yet so nature but he radiates so much baby energy it's unbelievable

- even though he's more mature I think

- like they're serious yet so giddy cause they're kids

- and he's really smart and mature when he needs to yet so so so baby

- varian's goggles are too scratched up

(｡•́︿•̀｡)

- why am I actually about to cry

- get the boy some new goggles pwease

- also can we please talk about his outfit

- like I know it's not new or anything but it's such an upgrade from season 1

- walk walk fashion baby

- @ ujeans and raps: y'all are adorable really but now's not the time

- also @ earlier when she painted the ring on ujeans and then leaned on it: I really uwued cause it's actually so cute but girl that's wet paint that's gonna smear

- the painting and on you

- I have so much to say

- and here I thought I wouldn't have any comments about this episode

- and here we are and it's the length of all the others combined

- he called him Eugene

- why did that get me so excited

- do not call him KID ರ╭╮ರ

- BRO UJEANS STOP CALLING HIM KID

- oh fuck the scroll burnt down.

- ujeans you do not foo on a fire because oxygen makes MORE FIRE

- Varian knew that and that's why he didn't (◕ᴗ◕✿)

- he wrote that down fast

- fast boi

- his hair is so floofy in the wind ( ꈍᴗꈍ)

- inside the castle: Cass and raps having an emotional moment, fighting

- meanwhile goggles and ujeans: ⁦(￣ヘ￣;)⁩

- I'M MAKING UNHOLY SOUNDS

- Varian got scared when Cass strated dragging them in so he asked Eugene for reassurance, and Eugene held his hand and told him to stay close (っ˘̩╭╮˘̩)っ

- ujeans's not just standing on the outside of the cage but he's ACTUALLY protecting Varian, I love

- Cassandra is like aggressively homosexual

- Cass you said you won't be hurting Varian ;-;

- don't turn the boys against each other what the f*ck you heartless monster

- so she is zahn tira.

- is she?

- then why did she help Varian?

- MOON VARIAN?

- all of that was just the plan of zhan tira :0

- surprised but also not

- VARIAN GOT YEETED

- REST IN PEACE MY SON

- (even though fall damage is like non-existent in this universe? Apparently?)

- (except that one episode where it was relevant to the plot with Cassandra's broken leg)

- but like if varian's anything like uncle Hector then fall damage shouldn't be a concern

(. ❛ ᴗ ❛.)

- NICE CATCH LANCE

- VARIAN'S CLOTHES

- I WAS JUST GUSHING ABOUT HOW BEAUTIFUL THEY ARE

- HE DOESN'T HAVE A WASHING MACHINE, YOU EVIL PEOPLE

- THE HUG

- THE SMILE ON VARIAN'S FACE

- LANCE'S HAPPY "VARIAN"

- IM SO HAPPPY

- WITH THREE P'S, APPARENTLY

- that one hug scene between Lance and Varian restored all of my faith in humanity

- hug him more

- y'all they actually got v tagging along with them for the evening I'm happy

- Varian and ruddiger have matching goggles and gloves and that's cute

- I'm like 97% sure varian's "BOOM" is jermery's adlib because it's got so much Jeremy energy

- (I'm watching again)

- SO THAT'S WHY VARIAN HAD A WEIRD TASTE IN HIS MOUTH WHEN HE WOKE UP

- IT WAS THE TRUTH SERUM

- Varian speaks in pout

- another baby boy attribute to the collection

- I actually really like the part where Varian asks Eugene for reassurance and Eugene offers him his hand.

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dancing-the-hellfire-rumba · 4 years

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Dear Hannah,

Pairing: technically Destiel, but that’s not what this is about Word Count: 4.9k (wow wtf) Warnings: mentions of self-harm, cancer, shitty father John (as per usual), angst and angst and father-daughter love and angst. Summary: When Dean, strapped to a bed, coughing up a storm, catches sight of his newly-adopted baby girl, he decides that, if he is to leave this world, he has to leave something behind for his favorite person. So he writes a booklet, trying to tell her all the things he would’ve if he was alive. Author’s note: This was originally done for @welldonebeca ‘s 2019 Song Challenge but I fucked up thinking the deadline was the 31st of October instead of the 15th. Whatever the case, my prompt was movement, by Hozier, which I interpreted as Dean being fascinated by his daughter enough that he’s inspired to write a letter book to her. Of course this wouldn’t be the entire thing, but I had to keep it under wraps.

Feedback is always welcome! No beta, all mistakes are my own.

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Hannah,

Christ, it’s the third time I’m starting this. The truth is, I’m coming up with blanks as to how to actually start. This has got to be the best I’ve got.

I’ll tell you the moral of this story, my story, from the get-go. Life’s a fucking bitch, okay? I want you to know that from now. I’d try to hold back on my swearing, but I want you to know me as the person I am, the person I’ve always been. I know what having an absent, terrible father’s like, as you’ll soon see, and I don’t want that for you. I wish I could tell you all this up close, give you advice, tell you all my crazy-ass stories as the dumbass of the teenager I was, and all the shenanigans your uncle (wow, Sam really is a friggin’ uncle!), by a campfire, while you drink your first beer.

Sadly, my odds aren’t looking so great, honey. So this is all I got. I know it’ll never be enough but something is better than nothing.

Enough with the chick flick introduction, though. Let’s start.

The pen’s heavy in his hand, and it’s equal parts the mental heaviness, the weight of the task, as it is his fatigue. Dean’s really just started this. He can’t believe it. The heaviness of uncertainty, of whether or not he’ll get enough time to finish it settles on his chest like an anvil. There’s a solid chance he doesn’t make it before his time comes.

Hannah’s sitting right there, carelessly looking at the plastic, grinning stars above her crib. She’s so innocent, skin creamy, chocolaty and bright, a young, fearsome woman that’s gonna turn out to be so incredible, he’s certain. A small baby who’s soon to walk.

Dean already knows, this kid is destined for great things.

She’s gonna grow up, past the tutus and the miniature racing-car collections, she’s gonna have a movie she’ll play on repeat for ever and ever, with a song that he’ll learn by heart after having heard it so many times. She’s gonna go to high school and she’ll be bullied but she’ll learn to kick some serious ass. She’ll develop interests, she’ll have mediocre grades but a fiery passion and a love for anything alive.

She’ll, then, go to college. She’ll fall in love, with people and life itself. She’ll do what she loves most and she’ll be so damn good at it, she’ll excel.

And Dean… Dean will be nowhere near her to see all of it.

The bitterness… it makes his eyebrows stitch together, his lip curl in clear frustration and sadness. After everything he’s been through, finally finding the person he loves most and creating a full-ass apple pie life, and it’s all gonna be gone as soon as it started. Because, as he told his favorite Hannah, life’s a fucking bitch, and there’s no denying it.

As he lays there in his bed, pale as a sheet, watching her giggle for a while, reaching for the stars, soon yawning, small eyelids shutting softly and rocking just slightly, he… he falls in love with her. This tiny, tiny happy-beyond-words creature that could ask anything of him, and he’d do it, god damn it. He really would.

A giant bubble grows in his chest, a bubble that makes him feel like he’ll protect her at absolute all costs. He’ll grab the moon and fucking move it if that’s what she needs. And all she has to do is yawn and fall asleep.

A tear appears in the corner of his eye, lingering and falling down his ashy cheek. He can’t believe he brought this bright ray of sunshine to this world, and he’s about to make her live with an absent father. That he won’t get any memories with her at all. It’s torture. All of it.

He doesn’t know what else to do, so he grabs his pen with more determination. If he’s to leave her with something, it’ll be a part of him and that is that.

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I was born on January 24th, 1979, the first son of a, dare I say, colossally unlucky family. Your uncle, Sam, my brother, is four years younger and will ALWAYS be a wimp, don’t let the height fool you. He always had terrible, shaggy hair and was always the sharpest tool in the box. Hell, the boy went to freaking LAW SCHOOL of all places! That’s kinda crazy!

My parents, your grandparents, were Mary and John.

Mary was a sweet, incredible, fearsome blonde woman, kindest of them all. She’d cut the crusts off my toast, sing Hey, Jude to me before bed and tell me angels were watching over me. (While we’re on the topic of the Beatles, make a note to listen to them. “Hey, Jude” must be your first song, but beyond the classics [Let it Be, Hard Day’s Night, I Saw Her Standing There, I Wanna Hold your hand etc] I hope “Lucy in the Sky With Diamonds” will hold a special spot in your heart, much like me.)

So, Mary. Sweet Mary. She was a real badass, you know. This one time, Sammy was hungry, so I decided to make, get this, French fries. I think I was seven. She caught me getting ready to pour oil in a very hot pan. When I say she swooped in, I mean it, quite literally. I think she saved me a hand that day.

Now, about John…You’ll have to forgive the mess that I’m about to make with this, but John was a fucking sorry excuse of a father, alright? He got piss-drunk every night after Mom died, and naturally, Sam and I were the punching bags, sometimes literally. The best nights were the ones he wasn’t home.

For years, the house was silent. Sam and I tried to keep everything clean, stock up on canned food, because at times we would only have ten bucks to hold us for over two weeks. I took him to school, fed him, made sure he studied –not that I really had to- and kept John of his hair. At sixteen I picked up a shift at Bobby Singer’s garage, a man that, at this point, deserves the Dad title significantly more than John.

Whenever Sammy was sick, it was my fault. Was anyone loud? Dean’s fault. House dirty? Dean’s fault. Did we wake him up? …Let’s just say we learned not to do that.

I tried to put myself before Sam, did anything I could to protect him. There were times when that wasn’t even enough.

I dropped out of high school at seventeen. The second I saved up enough money, I rented a hole of an apartment at the other side of town, in an attempt to help Sam have a normal life, and we hauled ass out of there.

Before I tell you about our shitty apartment, let me tell you about the highlights of my high school career. Starting off with me “unintentionally” kicking a ball at my least favorite teacher’s face (and hitting him) ((Don’t take your father’s example, kid, violence isn’t the answer.)) (Did feel pretty good at the time though), making out with Jenny in the Janitor’s closet and with Arthur at the locker rooms afterhours (I don’t know what age you’re reading this at, but I sure hope it’s over 16). Also, that one time I pulled a prank at my friend, Cole. I spray painted his entire locker. He didn’t like me very much, to be honest…

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An important story I feel inclined to share with you, would be the fact that I was once a bully.

Kids are just mean, but also, I couldn’t understand that troubles at home, traumatic pasts and anger are not to be taken out on other people who are not at fault. Instead of finding a healthy way to deal with everything that was happening at home, I decided that every happy person that was weak enough to meddle with, didn’t deserve any happiness.

I picked on a couple of people, but I think the one I will always regret will be Kevin Tran.

Kevin was a freshman when I was in junior year. He was in the Math club, the Science club and the Robotics club. He had maybe two friends, he was skinny, short, shy as hell, he drowned himself in oversized clothes and always carried a neon green book bag around, that worked on me like red cloth to a bull.

Every time I spotted the bag in the hallway, the drill would start. Shoving the poor kid against the locker, calling him names and laughing at his face for no apparent reason. I’d steal his calculators when I found out he had chemistry tests, spray paint the door of his locker and cause rib bruises from my shoving him against walls and furniture.

I soon find out Kevin was severely depressed. In fact, I saw him in the back of the school, where I’d usually go out to smoke because I thought it was cool (it’s not, it makes you light headed, unfocused and struggle to breathe. Just an all-around terrible experience, but this is just a side-note.)

It was a Friday after school. I didn’t wanna go straight home and Sam still had one more period, so I decided to go smoke and listen to some music in the back of the school building. And that’s where I found him.

I don’t know into how much detail I should go here, but Kevin was harming himself. With a small pocket knife, he sat on an old basket and made incisions on his arms, tears running down his face like a faucet. My God, Hannah, I’ve never felt like a bigger piece of shit in my life, because I knew, and I knew very well, that at least part of those incisions were caused by me.

I called out to him, and the look on his face, as he scrambled away from me, made me feel so much worse. I was the scum of the earth at that moment. I was the biggest asshole on the planet.

My initial reaction, I’ll admit, was pretty harsh. I grabbed the pocket knife out of his hands and threw it as far as possible in the grass. I grabbed a small first aid kit I had in my bag (in case anything happens to Sam), made him sit down by force and bandaged him up. He’d been reduced to sniffles by the time I was done.

Somewhere in between, I remember, he asked me why I was doing this. I didn’t answer.

Eventually, when I was done, I sat on the ground in front of him, ripping blades of grass from the ground. I apologized. Something along the lines of “I didn’t know, not that that’s an excuse. What I’m going through is not an excuse, but I hope it makes you understand that it was nothing to do with you. I’ll stop. I’m sorry. Don’t do this to yourself, man.”

That evening, Kevin was one of the very first people who found out about John. His own dad had passed away, and things at home were rough with his mom. That, along with the whole depression thing… it wasn’t a good combo.

After a solid two hours of talking with him, making amends, apologizing profusely and getting my apology accepted (which I absolutely didn’t deserve by the way,) we made it back out front.

From then on, I stopped picking on anyone. Kevin and I actually became really good friends, though we drifted apart eventually. I think he works in Google now.

This is really important. I want you to pay attention and take heed of my words. There are a couple lessons in this story.

One, be kind. Always be kind. To everyone. It doesn’t matter if they’re going through a rough time or not, the same way it didn’t matter that Kevin’s father was dead. You don’t know the other person. There’s never a reason to not be kind, if the person has done nothing to you. A smile can make somebody’s day, a compliment can go a long way, and being open and honest and kind will make people who are looking for help find you, it will make other’s lives better, and if you’ve helped even a single person, your life has been successful.

Two, never, and I mean never take your emotional pain out on yourself, or others. There are healthy ways to deal with ugly emotions. There are people who can help. Find a new hobby, as silly as it sounds. Start doing something creative, something that draws your attention elsewhere, like art of any kind, or, in my case, fixing cars. Something to keep you busy. If you’re in trouble, emotional or otherwise, there are people who love and support you, who will do their mightiest to be by your side, and if those aren’t your friends, they’re definitely your family.

Bottling up emotions, or dealing with them in horrible, unhealthy ways has been my go-to. Don’t be like me. Express yourself in different ways, and don’t keep your feelings shoved under the carpet, because it will, absolutely, unceremoniously explode, and you’ll take people down with you. And that’s when you’ll feel like the worst person in the world. The guilt, the residue of said ugly feelings isn’t worth it. Trust me.

If you make mistakes, if you hurt people who don’t deserve it, learn from it, grow, be better. Do not sink into yourself , don’t hate yourself. Apologize, make amends and move on, try to never do the same thing. It’s okay. We’re all human. The only thing that matters is that you try to be better.

No matter what, remember that I will always love you.

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So. Our apartment back in Kansas was, as I told you, a real dump. It had a tiny-ass kitchen with a miniature stove, two mattresses that were creaky and lumpy and were left there by the previous owners, as well as the TINIEST bathroom you’ve ever seen. It didn’t have shower walls, it had a shower head and a drain on the floor and was not in any way separated from the toilet. The walls of the place were peeling, the floor was tiled and cracked in a bunch of places and the humidity must’ve been over 80%.

I fucking loved that place.

On our third day there, I borrowed some spray paints from Cole, carried them in a cardboard box up the claustrophobic, green stairs, and opened the door in absolute triumph. That day, Sam and I opened the two windows, scratched the paint off the walls with two spatulas and went WILD. It must’ve been the only day Sam didn’t study.

Actually, no, now that I think about it, there was another time, when little ol’ ten-year-old Sam fell off a ledge and freakin’ broke his arm. I dumped him on Cole’s bike and pedaled to the hospital like a maniac. That was the first day he didn’t study.

Anyways, that apartment wall made our crappy little living situation a home. Our own sanctuary. We finally got agency over our lives, from staying up late, to choosing which type of dish soap we’d use because it smelled better and didn’t remind us of the terror chores once were. Eventually, we got soft blankets, books, board games, decorations… Finally, after 18 years, we’d started our lives.

I think one of my favorite memories would be coming home from my first date with a guy. I was just 18 and Benny, the dude, kissed me before I left, his fists clutching at my flannel. I was driving home with a giant, dopey-ass smile, stretching from one ear straight to the other. That same night, with new-found confidence, I told Sammy to drop his book, bought ourselves some beers and snacks, and drove to my favorite clearing.

There, right under the stars, with Sammy trying out his first beer, I told him I’m bisexual, and the cute bastard hugged me and told me he loved me no matter what. That same night, he thanked me for everything I did for him while living with John. We talked until the sun was rising.

I’ll tell you this right now, kid, in case you haven’t gotten it yet. I love Sam. Love him to bits. I raised that kid all on my own and will do anything to protect him. I know he cares for me, I know it kills him to see me like this, in a bed, pale, miserable and coughing every three seconds. I just want you to know, honey, that whatever you need, anything at all that, for some reason, you don’t want to tell Dad, you go to Sam, okay? You can trust him to be supportive, loyal, to be there for you when no one else is and to love you like you’re his own daughter and best friend. I promise you, he will always, always be there when I’m not.

That night made us grow so much closer. The lesson here, I’d say, is be bold and confident in what you believe in and who you are. Be your own, unique self, be brave, and love whoever you choose to fully and with your whole heart, without shame, ever. If you are yourself, I promise, you’ll find the people that love you for you, not the person you’re pretending to be. You’ll inspire other to be themselves.

A good example of this would be my best friend, Charlie. When I came out, I was armed to the teeth to deal with whoever wanted to bully me for that part of me. To tell you the truth, my school coming out was a mishap. It takes nothing but a risky make-out session in the janitor’s closet and nosey students that rip doors open far too violently. Nevertheless, I was literally out of the closet, fists up. And that’s exactly when I met Charlie.

With her comic book stories and her books, her bubbly personality and bright smile, she wiggled her way into our lives and permanently stayed there. She was a freshman when I was a senior, but she seemed to find sanctuary by my side, as I did by hers. She was just one of those people who clicked, you know? Far too mature and interesting for her age, with an obsession with computers, even back when they were barely even a thing.

She now lives with her long-term girlfriend, Gilda, who owns the best bakery in the state. Ask for the apple pie, you will not be disappointed.

Charlie demanded of me to tell you, first off, to watch Marvel and screw DC right to hell (with which I have to agree, though Batman still remains one of the coolest Superheroes of my childhood (and Joker, the coolest villain)). She also told me that, if you read this, go ask her for her comics, She’d love to let you borrow them and she’s certain you’ll love them. Second off, she asked of me to tell you the Impala story…

It’s not as grand as she makes it out to be, honestly. However this is the part where you’ll learn all about the one and only Bobby Singer.

Bobby was my boss, an old friend of dad’s John’s and the first person who ever saw the bruises under my sleeves. He gave me a job, a family, and later on… a car.

Bobby owns a scrapyard. He taught me everything I know about cars, including driving, and for my seventeenth birthday, he brought a dusty, beat-up car in my workspace. The hood was bent, the seats were torn, and the engine needed immediate replacing. The customer never paid the price for the compartments the garage had paid, so under store policy, the car was ours.

Hannah, I can’t exactly describe to you how long it took me to repair that car. Buying the spare parts and assembling them would’ve probably taken less time. I built her from the ground up, it took me almost a month and a half of daily, eight-to-six work, but I made it. I fixed her up. She was in prime condition, and I had completely fallen in love with her.

I finished working on her early January, dreading the moment I would see her drive away. Bobby had seen all the effort, by then I’d worked at his place for over a year. So, on the day of my birthday, I opened my locker to put on my jumpsuit, when I saw a box placed on my neatly folded clothes. I’m sure you’ve guessed it by now. Yes. It was the keys to my dream car. A beautiful, sleek, black 1967 Chevrolet Impala, the one I had brought back to life. And it was all mine.

I don’t think I’ve hugged Bobby any tighter since then. Hell, I don’t think I’ve hugged him period.

That car… That car is probably the most stable thing in my life, apart from Sam, obviously. I’ve cried in that car, I’ve escaped from my terrible past, I’ve laughed, I’ve had my first time, I’ve been through breakups and I’ve spent my best days with it. I cherish it more than any other item I know. It’s not even an item, it’s my baby. I love it almost as much as I love you.

I met your dad, and kissed him for the first time in that car.

It’s actually a pretty fucking hilarious story. Cas was on a date with this guy who was completely disgusting and creepy as hell, so in true movie fashion he decided to, get this, jump out the bathroom window and escape.

Yeah.

So just as he was running out of the bar, the guy must’ve caught wind of him or something, because he stepped outside in order to find Cas. What did your dad decide to do, I hear you ask? He ducked behind a car in the parking lot, opened the first unlocked door he found, and jumped in.

Spoiler alert. It was my car.

I was sitting in the front seat, fighting with Sam through text when the door opened. It was highly comical, watching this guy duck behind the bench seat, mumbling “oh God, oh God, oh God, please don’t see me, oh God.” I cleared my throat.

“Oh, I see you, buddy.” That’s the first thing I told him. The look on his face and the genuine yelp, made me laugh a full belly laugh, and completely forget about my fight with Sam. He apologized profusely, explained panicked what had happened and begged me to stay in my car just for a couple minutes so the guy can lose him.

Long story short, we ended up going out ourselves. I don’t know how to explain it… we just clicked immediately. Like, there was a connection. Him and his big words, his baby blue eyes, his steady, deep and rough voice… I knew right away that all I wanted was to spend time with him, learn everything he was willing to share with me.

I’m so glad to have met your Dad. He was, is and always will be one of the best, kindest, most humble and genuine people on the planet. He sees the world from such a beautiful point of view that contradicts my eternal realism (he enjoys calling me pessimistic.) He’s a genuinely great person, and I can’t wait for you to figure so out yourself, if you haven’t already.

Of course, it wasn’t all fine and dandy. Meeting his parents was hellish. Let’s just say, Chuck and Naomi aren’t… the best people. They tried really, really hard to stop us from seeing each other, and eventually, they completely disowned Cas. He doesn’t like to talk about them much. His brother, Gabriel is an asshole, but a loveable one, while his other brother, Michael, you probably don’t know about. And you shouldn’t. Let’s just leave it at that. If Cas wants to share that story with you, he’ll do it at his own time.

I’m sure there’s a lesson to be learned here. Something about, when finding your person, to keep them, fight for them, don’t stop loving them because everyone else is telling you (unless of course that person is toxic). But I don’t think I can give you solid love advice through a dumb book. Every relationship is different, and your Dad’s better at this than me anyways.

I don’t know exactly how long this thing is, by this point, but I’ve almost finished the pages of this booklet. I was really, really worried I wouldn’t finish it in time, but here we are. However many thousand words later, and I’m clueless as to how to wrap this up.

My life isn’t over yet, however it looks like it soon will be. I will confess to you, I’m scared, but most of all I’m angry. I’m angry at the world, at life and fate, if that’s even a thing, at God even. I’ve fought my whole life for peace and quiet, and right when I have found it, it’s being ripped from under my feet. Cancer fucking sucks.

No matter, my chin is up, and so are my fists. Winchesters don’t give up easy. I will fight this until my last breath, even if the chance of watching you grow up and being able to tell you everything I’ve written face-to-face, is nothing but a sliver. After all, impossible odds were always my favorite.

Sweetheart… I don’t know what to say. This might be the only thing you have left of me for the rest of your life, and it tears me up inside. Of course, I will not be able to write thirty five years of experience in a small book such as this, but this is a part of me, memories you can keep all to yourself. Ask Dad or Sam about any of it, I’m sure they’ll fill some gaps, tell you things I haven’t written.

I don’t want you to cry much, even though I’m not sure you will at all, given the fact that you’ve never met me. Either way, whether you feel or think anything of me or not, I want you to know that I love you so much. I’ve only known you for a couple of months, and, already, you’re the brightest ray of sunshine in my life.

I promise I will be by your side no matter what happens, through every milestone and hardship, I will love you from wherever I am.

Honey, please stay true to yourself. Never give up, no matter what curveballs life throws at you. There’s always reason to keep going, even if you can’t see it. Always keep fighting, ‘till your last breath, ‘cause you’re a Winchester and you’ve absolutely got this.

If there is something I want you to remember from the scribbly mess I’ve made, it’s this:

I love you. I’m proud of you. I believe in you.

Go get ‘em, tiger.

Bonus:

Tears streaming down velvety soft cheeks, dainty fingers gripping the book tightly, like her life depends on it, Hannah stares at the ceiling and groans at the mess she is. It’s the second time she read that last bit, and just as she thought she’d gotten over it, here she is, crying just as hard as the first.

She gets off her bed, pulling on her sweater sleeves. Feet in slippers, she makes her way down the corridor, knocking on the door, and opening when she gets an answer. Her fingers grip the doorknob, the other clutching the book, and she stares at the bed, watching as green eyes look up from his laptop.

“Why did you give this to me, you ass, you’re not dead,” she sobs, and Dean pushes his laptop to the side, arms opening wide to invite her in them.

“Aw honey,” he coos, a gentle, loving smile on his face. Hannah climbs on the bed and slides to his side, curling up in his arms. “It’s okay.” Fingers stroking her hair gently, as sobs wrack through the poor girl’s body. Dean almost feels bad.

Just then, Cas appears in the doorway, having heard Hannah’s cries. He sees the booklet clutched in her arms, her face buried in Dean’s neck, hidden behind her spring-curly hair. He makes eye contact with his husband, a knowing half-smile on his lips, as he leans on the doorway.

“I love you,” Hannah says, nose stuffed and running. “Thank you for not giving up on a relationship with me, even when you didn’t think you’ll survive.” Tears wet Dean’s eyes, as he presses a kiss on the crown of her head.

“I love you too.”

#dean fluff #dean angst #destiel #daddy!dean #destiel dads #supernatural au #spn fanfiction #supernatural #spn angst #spn fluff #oc

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nathanneedsausername · 5 years

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Most Overlooked Movies in Oscar History

Well guys, its official, Green Book was awarded the highest honour a single film can be given. Best Picture. If you spent any time on Twitter the day after the 91st Academy Awards you will have noticed that film nerds were not exactly thrilled by the decision, film Twitter immediately erupted into a discussion about all the films that didn’t receive the nomination that may have been more worthy winners than Green Book. Films like Eighth Grade, The Miseducation of Cameron Post and If Beale Street Could Talk appear to have benefited far more in regard to free publicity than any of the actual nominees. Of course, this isn’t the first time that the academy has failed to acknowledge the real best of the year and it certainly won’t be the last. So, in the spirit of being mad at the Academy let’s take a look at some of the worst historical snubs of all time.Well guys, its official, Green Book was awarded the highest honour a single film can be given. Best Picture. If you spent any time on Twitter the day after the 91st Academy Awards you will have noticed that film nerds were not exactly thrilled by the decision, film Twitter immediately erupted into a discussion about all the films that didn’t receive the nomination that may have been more worthy winners than Green Book. Films like Eighth Grade, The Miseducation of Cameron Post and If Beale Street Could Talk appear to have benefited far more in regard to free publicity than any of the actual nominees. Of course, this isn’t the first time that the academy has failed to acknowledge the real best of the year and it certainly won’t be the last. So, in the spirit of being mad at the Academy let’s take a look at some of the worst historical snubs of all time.

The Avengers (2012)

Actual nominations: Argo, Amour, Beasts of the Southern Wild, Django Unchained, Les Misérables, Life of Pi, Lincoln, Silver Linings Playbook, Zero Dark Thirty.

The Academy has historically looked down on superhero films with no comic book adaptation receiving a Best Picture nod before Black Panther earlier this year. While The Avengers may not have been the most artistic or dramatic film of 2012 it is hard to deny it’s impact. When future generations look back on the films of the 2010s The Avengers will likely stand out as one of the most important releases. With the Marvel Cinematic Universe feeling like a part of everyday life it can be hard to remember just how big a risk this movie was at the time. Think pieces were all over the internet about how the film would ultimately end up as an unwatchable, convoluted mess of ideas that would end Joss Wheadon’s career. How wrong they were.

If the Best Picture award is supposed to honour the greatest and most important achievements in modern cinema then The Avengers absolutely deserved to end up on the ballot, but we don’t live in the universe where The Academy does cool stuff like that.

Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind (2004)

Actual nominations: Million Dollar Baby, The Aviator, Finding Neverland, Ray, Sideways.

How on earth did this happen? It truly amazes me that more members of the academy felt that Finding Neverland deserved more acclaim than Eternal Sunshine. Going of the assumption that the ‘best picture’ should be the film with all its filmmaking elements working perfectly together then Eternal Sunshine should win every year. Charlie Kaufman won the award for original screenplay and Kate Winslet received the only other nomination for lead actress, this film didn’t even receive a nomination in any of the technical categories. The treatment of Michel Gondry’s masterpiece by the Academy should be seen as a permanent black spot on the ceremony’s reputation.

Who Framed Roger Rabbit (1988)

Actual Nominations: Rain Man, The Accidental Tourist, Dangerous Liaisons, Mississippi Burning, Working Girl

Hear me out on this one. Roger Rabbit is one of my all-time favourite movies and for that, I’ll admit, I’m a little bias. That being said I truly believe that this is one of the finest achievements in cinema history from a purely technical level. The nominees for the 61st Acadamy Awards are solid (for the most part wtf is going with The Accidental Tourist?) but none of these films are as impressive as what Robert Zemeckis and his team were able to achieve by mixing live action film with 2D animation. Roger Rabbit is more than just a gimmick however, this a very entertaining and genuinely compelling detective story at its core. Once again, the term ‘Best Picture’ feels perfectly defined while discussing this film, a film that wasn’t even considered for the award.

Donnie Darko (2001)

Actual Nominees: A Beautiful Mind, Gosford Park, In the Bedroom, Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring, Moulin Rouge

Excuse my language but Donnie Darko is a fucking great movie. Here is another year where the nominees were pretty solid but come on you can’t tell me that Donnie Darko was too weird and abstract when you nominated Moulin bloody Rouge! Donnie Darko is the sort of film that is still being discussed to this day with so many incredibly well thought out details both in the direction and the screenplay. When you ask a film lover what is so special about the medium it is films like this that they will point to, with an excellent score, great performances, hypnotically simple editing and masterful direction it doesn’t put a foot wrong. Do I really have to spell out what the words ‘Best Picture’ mean again?

WALL.E (2008)

Actual Nominees: Slumdog Millionaire, The Curious Case of Benjamin Button, Frost/Nixon, Milk, The Reader

Let’s talk about animation for a bit. Only three animated films have ever been nominated for top prize (Beauty and the Beast, Up and Toy Story 3) considering the amount for excellent animated film are not those three I had a lot to choose from. With the likes of My Neighbour Totoro, Toy Story, Aladdin, The Little Mermaid, The Lion King, Princess Mononoke and The Nightmare Before Christmas going completely unnoticed the academy has found a way to further segregate the medium of animation from live-action film by introducing the ‘best animated feature’ award at the 2002 ceremony. This addition has led to films like Spirited Away, Finding Nemo, The Incredibles, Ratatouille, Frozen, Inside Out and most recently Spider-Man: Into the Spider-Verse receiving an award without having to let them compete with live action films. There are no academy rules that state animation cannot be considered for Best Picture it just doesn’t happen. I have singled out WALL.E because I think it showcases exactly what modern animation has achieved. WALL.E is a largely silent film with gorgeous visuals and a strong environmental message that is still accessible to general audiences, including children. Surly one of Pixar’s finest achievements deserves to be held in just as high regard as David Fancher’s 8th best film.

Ps. You will notice a distinct lack of The Dark Knight in the 2008 nominations as well.

Psycho (1960)

Actual Nominees: The Apartment, The Alamo, Elmer Gantry, Sons and Lovers, The Sundowners

Another genre historically left out of the running is horror. Only 6 horror films have ever been up for the award (The Exorcist, Jaws, The Silence of the lambs, The Sixth Sense, Black Swan and Get Out). Horror is a genre that is often looked down upon in the film community for being ‘low-brow’ and not as artistic, a similar struggled as the one faced by the superhero genre. With important releases such as: Texas Chainsaw Massacre, Suspiria, Halloween, Alien, The Shining, Let he Right One In, Night of the Living Dead and perhaps most surprising, Psycho going unnoticed by the academy it is clear to see that there is a bias against the genre somewhere in Hollywood. Psycho is also emblematic of another problem with historic best picture nominations. What on earth is the academy’s issue with Alfred Hitchcock? Psycho is not the only of Hitchcock’s classic films not to receive the nomination, in fact North by Northwest, Vertigo, Rear Window and Dial M for Murder were all snubbed.

On a related note despite being nominated 5 times Hitchcock never received the Oscar for best director putting him in the prestigious company of: David Lynch, Terry Gilliam, Ridley Scott, Wes Anderson Quentin Tarantino, David Fincher, Edgar Wright, Spike Lee, Charlie Chaplin, Orson Wells and Stanley Kubrick. So, I guess you could say that it isn’t just the Best Picture category that doesn’t make sense.

These were 6 examples I felt I could make a point out of, it is important to remember that many more examples are out there of revolutionary masterworks that went unrecognised come awards season. People don’t take into consideration what happens behind the scenes at the Oscars. The ceremony needs good ratings, The Academy needs to honour films with progressive messages that are easily digestible, and everyone has an agenda and wants to see their friends win. The Oscars are a lot of fun, it gives people like as a chance to talk about the films we loved that year hopefully see our favourites given some well-deserved recognition but let’s not take it more seriously than we should. Next year when the Academy inevitably choses to honour mediocrity remind yourself that The Third Man wasn’t nominated in 1950 or you could remind yourself that Singin’ in the Rain wasn’t nominated in 1953, alternatively mention that 2001: A Space Odyssey was snubbed in 1969, The Matrix in 2000, Back to the Future in 1986, Pan’s Labyrinth in 2007, Cool Hand Luke in 1968. Or if you want your could run into the street and shout about how, Duck Soup, Modern Times, His Girl Friday, Night of the Living Dead, The Shining, The Good, The Bad and The Ugly, Oldboy, Reservoir Dogs and The Big Lebowski all weren’t nominated for god dammed thing.

Nathan Needs A Username’s Must See Movies: https://letterboxd.com/nathan_r_l/list/nathan-needs-a-usernames-must-see-movies/

Nathan Needs A Username’s Avoid At All Cost Movies: https://letterboxd.com/nathan_r_l/list/nathan-needs-a-usernames-avoid-at-all-cost/

#oscars #acadamy awards #the avengers #eternal sunshine of the spotless mind #who framed roger rabbit #donnie darko #wall.e #psycho

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khaleesiofalicante · 5 years

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Shadowhunters S3E18 thoughts

Simon is playing video games! Finally, these kids are up to normal teenager stuff for once!!!!

Becky!!! Literally a ray of sunshine!!!!

Oh it’s the halloween episode. Man, you are like half a year late but i’ll take it!!!!

Shadowslayers!!! Tattoos!!! LOL BECKS!!!!

I’m sorry but the kids freaking out scene was so funny!!! Those idiots lol.

We are cooooooooming after youuuuuu

I would love to get 16 hours of sleep....in a week....

You are not fine, Magnus!!!!

Jace, you cockblock!!!!!!!!!

OMG Alec’s lil smile when Jace insulted Clary. That petty bitch i love!!!

Everyone face’s when Magnus talked about halloween and decorating with magic :(

Oh sheet Alec is trying to get rid of Magnus to go talk to his daddy!!!

So, Maia and Jordan are buds now??? Cool cool cool cool cool cool cool

Old lady is giving me Madam Dorothea vibes.

Wtf is that? Shadowhunters use gold coins as their currency or what??

DO NOT SAY HIS FULL NAME FROM YOUR FOUL MOUTH YOU DEMONIC PRICK.

Omg stop calling Magnus ‘my son’!!!!!

Nobody says ‘lover’ anymore asmodeus!!! Catch up with the lingo!!!!

THIS DRAMA QUEEN OMG WORST PARENT AWARD GOES TO...

Okay supportive sister/smol bean award goes to Becky!!!

Lukeeeeeee. Nice reunion, go see your gal now please!

Omg Jonathan is acting like a whiny 15 year old teenager and it is annoying and amazing at the same time!!!!!

Okay so that serum thing went well...

Wow izzy is so smart! I love her <3

For once these shadowhunters are all working!!! Good!! Work your ass off for those gold coins!!!!

Yes, parabrotrai support!!

Gawd Alec and his hypothetical questions....

Whoah whoah whoah, calm down clary!

YES TO THIS MARYS X MAGNUS BONDING!!!!

YASS MAGNUS SHIPS MARUKE ;)

Man seelie queen is just lurking in the shadows fucking shit up...

I don’t brood, he said...While brooding...

AHHH this is killing me. These self-sacrificing idiots in love are killing meeeeeee

Alec, shut up! You are last person he will ever love. He won’t move on!!!

YES BREAKING UP IS GOING TO HURT LIKE HELL DON’T DO IT HO

No, you won’t recover!!! :(

Becky, you can do better than Jordan. Just sayin...

YES TO SOBER MAGNUS! YOU CAN DO THIS MY BABY...

Best character development award goes to Maryse Lightwood!!!!

Awwww he is part of the family :) <3

It took Becky 0.4 seconds to figure out sizzy. Wow. Iconic.

So, this broken snow globe is attracting those demogorgon thingies from Stranger Things???

Does anyone else find Clary’s fighting stance funny???

So we are really doing this good vs evil angel thingy huh?

Welp, goodbye Clary. Enjoy the darkside!

Ew wtf is the caterpillar from Alice in Wonderland doing here???

WHOAH THAT FIVE ARROW BOW IS SEXYYYYYY NICE ALEC!!!

HEY NO! WHERE YOU GOING?? COME BACK OVER HERE GIDEON!!

Okay I am not exactly thrilled about this Jordan x Maia situ we have here. like girl can lead a pack on her own. Just sayin...

Man izzy looks daayyum when she is tired. Cannot relate.

AHHHHH SIZZY

Omg this show is full of cockblocks i cannot!!!!!

DAYUM DARK CLARY IS NOT FUCKING AROUND HUH

No No no no no breaks!!!!

NO NOT SYML LEAVE SYML THE FUCK ALONE

OH JESUS THIS HURTS GOD MAGNUS NO ALEC DO NOT BREAK HIS HEART DONT DO IT OH GOD HE IS BEGGING OH THAT KISS OKAY I AM...

....

ASMODEUS I WILL FUCKING CUT YOU BITCH

CHRIST!!!!

#that was a lot #the angst is getting worse every week #shadowhunters #malec #sh spoilers #3x18

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impossibleclair · 5 years

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Riverdale s3 finale

- penelope that conniving bitch

- *jacks up the brightness to 15 so i can SEE*

- core four quest I LOVE it

- Archie's fight was bonkers

- *jacks up brightness to 39 so I can ACTUALLY SEE*

- BERONICA CHALLENGE YEET

- oh god the tension (romantic, sexual, life-threatening take your pick)

- VERONICA NO

- OH THEY SAID I LOVE YOU TO EACH OTHER BERONICA UP IN HERE TONIGHT

- oh they both might die haha shit i hope it's romantic at least

- piss off archie (boi i love you but you just witnessed a whole b&v scene dude back off)

- really Alice??? Now?? NOW AFTER ALL THIS TIME ARE YOU SHITTING ME?!

- good to see chic is as fuckoff insane as ever

- ooh the pretty poisons hell yeah

- okay betty here we go you got this girl

- fuck she SHOT GOOD SHOT BETTY THAT'S MY GIRL

- OH FUCK PENELOPE JESUS CHRIST

- A CHASE. A DARING ESCAPE. FRIENDS TO THE RESCUE. THIS IS GOOD SHIT I SAY GOOD SHIT

- CORE FOUR HUGS GOOD SHIT BEST SHIT

- 'Ascended' this bullshit wtf

- Betty has lost EVERYONE but Ronnie my poor baby

- Cheryl's lost her marbles

- god fucking DAMMIT HIRAM YOU SON OF A BITCH

- Ronnie idk what's gonna happen but I love you and I will fight your father to protect you

- Archie, you pure soul, you ray of sunshine

- dude. Are you shitting me. Alice? No. No she does not deserve that redemption arc

- oh fuck off. You're not serious. Don't be ridiculous

- you were serious wtf wait doesn't that make bughed WEIRD AF???

- aw sweet

- aw what the SHIT

- I'm done. I'm done with this shit. I've said it before but I'm saying it again. I am DONE with this BULL FUCKING SHIT of a show if you can't give these kids a happy ending if you can't even GIVE ME HOPE OF A HAPPY ENDING then I am OUT

#clair speaks #riverdale #so #this trash pile #this flaming trash pile #there's rumour of jt getting cancelled and yknow what #uh #YEAH #I SURE HOPE IT DOES #jesus fuckin christ #they are TEENAGERS not FBI AGENTS OR MURDERERS OR CULTISTS THEY'RE KIDS JUST FUCK OFF AND LET THEM BE HAPPY #(many feelings i apologise)#I'm going back to my FIRST SEASON OLD-FASHIONED MYSTERY SOLVING #my FRED ANDREWS ADOPTS ALL THE KIDS FIX-IT FICS #AND MY HEALTHY FRIENDSHIPS AND GAY SHIPPING #the plot of seasons 2 and 3 DON'T EXIST #and THAT is the riverdale i will live with #long post

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hyung-up-on-bts · 5 years

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Quick Guide to Nilla’s Tags

For those who care (and those who don’t.)

The Lines (according to me)

Dad Line: Jin and Yoongi (aka: Our Dorks or These Assholes “sry not sry”)

Uncle Line: Namjoon and Hoseok

Hyung Line: Jin, Yoongi, Hoseok, Namjoon

Rap Line: Yoongi, Hoseok, Namjoon

Vocal Line: Jin, Jimin Taehyung, Junkook

Maknae Line (aka Baby Boy Line or My Sons): Jimin, Taehyung, Jungkook

Individual Tags (can be switched out at any given notice)

HYUNGS

Jin:

My Dork, True Chaotic Good, Celebrity Crush,Well Hello Mr. Kim, Damn Jin (also can have “Damn” “Shit” “WTF” “OMG” “DAYUM” and the ever popular “Well Fuck Me Sideways”) can you tell he’s my bias? LAWL

Yoongi:

Your Dork, Salty Sweetie, Min Suga Genius, Misery Loves Company (though this tag is specifically for when I post Yoongi things to kill my friend @muggleotter) :D (also from time to time “Damn” “Damn Yoongi” “Well Shit” and the ever popular “Put that tongue away”)

Namjoon:

How Is He Not My Bias?, In This House We Love and Respect Kim Namjoon, Damn Joon, (again...with the previous “Damn”, “Wow”, “Well Shit” and “Just How?”

Hoseok:

Always Coming For My Bias, Ray of Fucking Sunshine, DAMN HOBI, Jay Jung - depending on said post, (once again “Damn” “Wow” “Shit” and “WTF?”

MAKNAES

Taehyung:

Art Son, Pure Love and Chaos, Heart of Gold, Protect Him (also from time to time as needed, “No” “Stahp” “Nope” “No Allowed” and “Knock It Off”

Jimin:

Soft Son, Sweetheart, Everyone’s Baby, Fairy Sweetie, Protect Him (also “No” “Stahp” “Nope” “No Allowed and “Knock It Off”

Jungkook:

Shook Son, The Golden Boy, Jungshook,Baby Boy, Protect Him (as needed “No” “Stahp” “Nope” “Not Allowed and “Knock It Off”

Did ya notice the pattern with the Maknaes? Yeahhhhhhh

#NillaArmy tags #all my tags #Cause tags #BTS #yea I'll tage that

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fluidityandgiggles · 6 years

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Together Cake

Okay. Let’s say it all together.

HAPPY NAME REVEAL DAY PATTON!!!

Now that that’s over with...story time. There is an AU/hc that I have yet to release to the public. So it might be a bit confusing at times, but... when it works, it works.

So this is a glimpse into a yet unknown AU/hc of mine (while also not being quite as heavily based on it, sorry Dee), as well as a birthday gift to my favorite little ray of sunshine.

Happy birthday Patton. I love you.

And so... enjoy the ride (tags below).

—————

“Hey Patton. Hey Patton. Hey Patton. Hey Patton-“

“Dorian, let your brother rest, will you?”

“No! I want to play with Patton!”

This was the regular weekend scenario every time Patton got home. For once, his mom picked him up instead of having to take three buses (Roman had to take only two and had a much shorter ride, lucky him), but he was still... exhausted.

Yeah. That was the word. Exhausted.

“Hey Dori, did I tell you that we’re doing a musical and a play?”

Patton’s baby brother’s eyes went wide. “Am I invited to both?”

“I don’t know, kiddo. I’m doing A Winter Funeral, Roman is doing Lysistrata 2000, and we’re both doing West Side Story, so-“

“Oh, okay.”

Dorian was always a terrible liar. Or maybe it was just that Patton knew his brother too well.

“I’m joking! Of course you’re coming!”

Their mom rolled her eyes and ruffled both their heads. “I’m going to rest. Behave, you two!”

And then they were alone. The tv was on, running the end cards of some show Dorian was probably watching earlier, but that was the only noise in the background.

Patton and Dorian were... alone.

“...you wanna bake a cake?”

“No.” The huge grin on Dorian’s face betrayed his word.

“Thought you might say so. Come on. I’ll let you crack the eggs.”

——

The joy on Dorian’s face was something to be documented for the ages. Covered in cocoa powder and flower, his eyes sparkling, smiling and laughing all the while...

Sadly Patton didn’t feel nearly as energetic as he should’ve to match that. Dorian has done nothing right.

But there was no place to get mad at him. He’s only a baby. Only six years old. Patton can keep calm.

“Did I do good?”

Patton closed the oven door and set the timer, and then turned back to his brother. “Yes, kiddo. You did good. Now let’s go take a bath.”

“No!”

“Dorian, you look like a bag of brownie mix exploded on your face.” Dorian giggled again, the gap between his front teeth showing. “Let’s go to the bath.”

“But I don’t need to.”

“Do I have to call Logan?” Dorian shook his head. “So let’s go.”

“No!”

“Do you want to tell me about how nobody believes that you can speak English?”

“Yeah... but I can! I was born in New York!”

“No you weren’t.”

“Yes I was! You was too!”

“Dori... that’s not how this works. Remember? Just because I was born in New York doesn’t mean-“

“But I was! I really really was!”

“Let’s go to the bath, duckie.”

“No!”

Okay, now Patton was ready to give up. Thankfully... there were thirty five minutes left.

“I’ll make you a deal. You come with me to the bath-“

“No!”

“-and then we can watch any movie you want.”

“...can we watch Lilo and Stitch?”

“Of course. Who do you think I am?”

——

‘🌟PRINCEY🌟 @ DIGGITY DANG A DANG: may i guess what book you took that recipe from?’

‘Lolo 💙💙 @ DIGGITY DANG A DANG: Three kilos of butter, four of chocolate, ten of sugar and a tbsp of flour perhaps?’

‘WHY DO YOU TWO HATE BAKING SO MUCH!!!!!!! ROMAN!!!!!!!!! STOP!!!!!!! Lolo you stay I love you ❤️❤️’

A picture of the smiling Dorian from earlier was taken and sent to the group chat right before Patton made Dorian get in the bath. So now Dorian was clean and just wanted to play with his rubber duckies for “another five minutes” (that was five minutes ago). So Patton texted his friends.

Because why not.

‘My Dark Strange Son 😈💜 @ DIGGITY DANG A DANG: we dont but ur using a carine goren recipe’

‘Believe it or not, this time I didn’t!’

“You’re ready to get out now? We need to check on the cake.” Dorian turned wide eyes to Patton. “Come on, Dori-”

“No! Five more minutes!”

“You said that five minutes ago.” Dorian made a face. How... not typical, just... “Please? Don’t you want to watch Lilo and Stitch?”

“I do.”

“So come on.”

“Five more minutes!”

‘Lolo 💙💙 @ DIGGITY DANG A DANG: Honeybee, can I come over today? My dad made compote.’

‘Nope! You can’t run away from your problems like that, sweetie!’

‘🌟PRINCEY🌟 @ DIGGITY DANG A DANG: did you run out of crofters, microsoft nerd?’

“Okay, you’re getting out.”

“No!”

“I’m going to check on the cake and you have to get out.”

“...I don’t like you.”

Yes. That was a lie. But it still stung something in Patton’s heart. As Dorian stood up and removed the plug, Patton lifted him out, making sure that he was standing stable before wrapping him in a towel.

“Now, wanna be a burrito?” Dorian nodded. “So you go to your room and you get dressed, and I’m going to check on the cake, and if I come back up and you’re still not dressed, no Lilo and Stitch. Understood?” He nodded again.

What a liar.

Patton chased his brother to his room and then went down to the kitchen, to check on the cake. The boys kept spamming the group chat.

There were five minutes left.

‘Hey Madame, aren’t you tired?’

‘🌟PRINCEY🌟 @ DIGGITY DANG A DANG: SO TIRED UVE NO IDEA UR THE GRIM REAPER STFU’

‘My Dark Strange Son 😈💜 @ DIGGITY DANG A DANG: im gonna have to ask for background cause PAT WTF YOURE THE GRIM REAPER WTAF’

‘You’re gonna have to wait and see now wouldn’t you?’

When Dorian ran downstairs, fully dressed, and the timer went off, Patton realized he was spacing out for five minutes. Probably from how tired he was.

Well, time to check the cake.

“You know I started screaming yesterday?” Dorian looked confused. “You remember I get panic attacks?”

“Yeah...”

“I had one yesterday. And it was scary.”

Very few crumbles on the toothpick. Good. Time to take it out.

“But... but why?”

“Because rehearsals are kinda scary, Dori.” It started raining outside... what news. Patton quickly took out the cake pans out of the oven and turned it off. “And they take a lot of time and doing.”

“Oh. Well, I don’t like it! I love you too much!”

“I love you too, duckie.”

And for a bit, just a bit, everything was okay with the world. For now.

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Tag list:

@broadwaytheanimatedseries @illmamnim @royal-raccoon @jokesequaljoker

#kylo cant write #sanders sides #human au #patton sanders #deceit sanders #deceit is pattons baby brother #HAPPY NAME DAY PATTONCAKE #ilysm my little ray of sunshine

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archiverecombinxnt-blog · 7 years

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IT’S THAT TIME OF YEAR AGAIN, FOLKS, IT’S PIPER’S/ @worldsavcrBIRTHDAY!

LET’S TALK ABOUT HOW YOU, AS A PERSON:

tolerate me talking about real shitty aus that i abandon like .2 weeks later

except that one really long au i haven’t abandoned yet by some miracle

tolerate me deliberating on a whole lot and actually give good advice

(unlike me. sorry on that one.)

SO TALENTED??!?!?!?! WTF?! YOU’RE A BABY HOW ARE YOU THIS GOOD AT THINGS

WHAT A CUTIE!!!!! OMG!!!!! UR FACE MAKES FOR PRIME SELFIES/PHOTOS/VIDEOS! AMAZING!

SO SMART, GONNA DO SO MUCH BETTER THAN ME IN COLLEGE

WRITING ISN’T EVEN YOUR PRIME AREA OF FOCUS??????????? AND YET YOU STILL PUT SO MUCH LOVE AND TIME AND TALENT INTO IT?! AMAZING

so goOD AT PUTTING ME INTO A BETTER MOOD ON A HARD DAY

SUCH A SASS, SUCH A SARCASM, PRIME COMEBACKS FOR DAYS

BETTER ADULT THAN I AM AND I AM IN COLLEGE

THE SALT

READY TO FITE™

IS BETTER AT WRITING MY OWN SHITTY AUS THAN I AM? THAT INTRO???

HAS STUCK WITH MAXIMUM RIDE THROUGH THE DUMPSTER FIRE OF CANON™

SO TALENTED IN PHOTOSHOP I CRY I WEEP I WANT YOUR ABILITIES JUST TRANSFER THEM RIGHT ON OVER

SO PURE, SO GOOD, SUCH AN AMAZING PURE FRIEND

YOUR CHARACTERS

I DON’T EVEN WATCH THE FLASH AND YET BARRY IS NOW MY SON??? JUST FROM READING THE WAY YOU WRITE HIM??????

WHAT A BEAUTIFUL RAY OF SUNSHINE! I WAS INTRODUCED TO HIM BC I WANTED TO READ ALL OF YOUR WRITING! ALL OF IT AND NOW I’M IN SO DEEP

STILL HAVEN’T WATCHED THE SHOW YET. SORRY.

BUT YOU WRITE HIM SO KINDLY AND SO BRIGHTLY AND I JUST? CRY

I NOW KNOW BASIC FLASH STORYLINES BC OF YOU, THANK YOU

ANY VAGUELY ANGSTY THING YOU WRITE WITH HIM IN IT? CRYING

I THINK OF YOU ANY TIME I SEE GRANT GUSTIN AND WONDER ON YOUR OPNIONS OF VARIOUS FLASH STORYLINE how’s that gorilla thing going huh. you laughed at the 100 for having it. how does it feel. i bet pauna and grodd are, like, distantly related cousins. then again pauna’s several hundred years into the future. maybe she’s his great-granddaughter. i’m talking too much about fictional gorillas let’s get back to barry

SO SOFT, SO ROMANTIC, SO LOVELY AND AMAZING

THE FLASH! SO COOL! SO AESTHETIC! SO HEARTBREAKING TBH

WHAT A PURE AND GOOD HERO, TRULY ATTEMPTING TO SAVE THE PEOPLE, WHICH BRINGS ME TOOOO

HOLLY!!! OVERACCOMPLISHED DOCTOR!!! THE BROOD AND THE ANGST IN COMPLEMENT TO THE SUNSHINE AND THE BRIGHTNESS

YOU CAME UP WITH AN ORIGINAL SUPERHERO THAT ISN’T BASED ON SHITTY PUNS, rip hurricane and expundable

SUCH A COMPLEX AND INTRIGUING BACKSTORY

LOVES HER BABY SISTER SO MUCH DO NOT HURT HER OR I SWEAR TO GOD I’M FLYING DOWN TO SEE YOU AND I WILL PUNCH YOU BEFORE I HUG YOU FOR BEING MY FRIEND BUT THEN I WILL PUNCH YOU AGAIN softly bc i don’t want to hurt you it’s to prove a point shut up

SO MANY INDEPENDENT AND CREATIVE AND UNIQUE CHARACTERS ADDED IN ALONG WITH HOLLY’S STORY? ASHTON? AN IDOL

THE MORAL CONTRAST BETWEEN HER AND BARRY! THE PROTECTIVE ATTITUDE SHE HAS OVER THOSE WHO ARE CLOSE TO HER! THE WAY SHE IS SO WILLING TO GO SO FAR TO PROTECT THEM!

SO MANY TRAGIC BITS AND PIECES TO HER LIFE?! HER POWER? HER CHILDREN? HER EVENTUAL PLOTLINE? HER DEATH? HOW THE FUCK

SUCH AMAZING PLOTTING GOES INTO HER AND SO MUCH CARE FOR HER STORY AND I LOVE IT

I GET SO OVERWHELMED THINKING OF THINGS TO WRITE ABOUT HER BC SHE’S SO IMPORTANT AND I LOVE HER AND SHE’S YOUR CREATION SO BASICALLY I AM HONOR BOUND TO LOVE HER BUT ALSO I LOVE HER BECAUSE SHE’S HOLLY DOES THAT MAKE ANY SENSE

TESS! SO PURE AND SOFT AND LOVING! SO MUCH SHIT SHE HAS GONE THROUGH

I DO NOT KNOW HER AS WELL AS I’D LIKE PLEASE WRITE HER MORE, I LOVE HER TRULY

SO SOFT, SO SMOL, SO STRONG

SUCH AN AESTHETIC™

SO SMART, SO INTELLIGENT

EVERYTHING YOU TO TO HER HURTS ME SO MUCH BUT IT’S SO GOOD

THE MACHINE THING? IT SHATTERED ME. I HOPE YOU’RE HAPPY

THE FALL?!?!?!?!?!?! SUCH A CINEMATIC THOUGHT PROCESS. HOLY SHIT. I GET LIKE STRAIGHT UP VISIONS OF THIS AND I GET SO OVERWHELMED

THE WAY HER STORY ENDS. HEARTBREAKING. WHY DO THIS. PLEASE MAKE HER HAPPY.

SUCH A GOOD SUCH A STRONG TELL ME MORE TELL ME MORE THEME FROM GREASE PLAYING IN THE BACKGROUND

YOUR OCS YOU HAVE TOLD ME ABOUT?! HOW ARE YOUR OCS BETTER THAN THE CANON CHARACTERS I ATTEMPTED TO WRITE AT THE SAME AGE?! WHAT KIND OF WRITING MASTER ARE YOU?!?!?!?!!?

OUR TRASH FIGHT DAUGHTER™

WE HAVE SHARED CUSTODY OF HER OVER A GREAT NUMBER OF YEARS, PROBABLY LIKE 2 MAYBE 3 POTENTIALLY 4 OH GOD I’M SO OLD

SORRY I HURT HER SO MUCH, EXCEPT NOT REALLY, YOU TALK ME INTO A LOT OF IT DON’T DENY IT

HAVE SUCH A PURE AND INNATE GRASP OF HER SASS AND MOTIVATIONS AND WORDS AND I CRY???????????

DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW MUCH YOU INTIMATED ME WHEN WE FIRST STARTED TALKING. DO YOU. YOU WERE SO GOOD AT WRITING HER AND THERE I WAS USING SOMEONE ELSE’S ICONS AND THERE YOU WERE, SO GOOD AND SO COOL AND SO FUNNY?! AND YOU MESSAGED ME!?!?!?!? I WAS SO SHOOK™?!?! AND NOW HERE WE ARE?!

IT’S BEEN OVER A YEAR OF US TALKING VIA SKYPE AND OVER A YEAR AND A HALF OF US INTERACTING ON TUMBLR, ALL BECAUSE OF THIS DUMPSTER FIRE OF A STORY

TRULY THE DEVOTION WE HAVE SHOWED HER EVEN THROUGH THE NONSENSICAL ACID TRIP OF CANON? AMAZING

TO THINK WE STARTED OFF WITH ATTEMPTING TO REPAIR THE ACID TRIP AND NOW HERE WE ARE, TALKING AUS TO STRAIGHT UP TAKE HER AWAY FROM THE ACID TRIP, THINKING ABOUT HER AS A CHARACTER AND PUTTING HER INTO ALL THESE INTERESTING SITUATIONS

TRULY WE ARE EXCAVATING HER FROM THE TRASH™

YOU AS A PERSON AGAIN, BECAUSE YOU’RE AWESOME, ALSO BIRTH

TO OUR FRIENDSHIP

seriously do you know how shook i was that you had reached out to become friends with me you were so amazing and there i was sitting there a mess and there you were so good so great so truly spectacular with organized tags and a strong aesthetic and everything i’m literally still shook every time i get the little skype noise

AND THEN SKYPE! AND WE TALKED SO MUCH MORE OFTEN! I WAS STILL SO SHOOK! YOU WERE MY FIRST REAL ONLINE FRIEND!!!!!!!! AND DEFINITELY THE ONE I’VE KEPT IN TOUCH WITH THE LONGEST/MOST

TRULY BRIGHTENS MY DAY WHEN WE TALK AND YOU’VE HELPED MAKE THE TRANSITION INTO COLLEGE SO MUCH EASIER BC YOU ARE MY POCKET FRIEND AND VIRTUAL HUGS WHEN I NEED THEM AND LAUGHS WHEN I NEED THEM AND DISCUSSIONS OF FICTION WHEN I NEED THAT TOO

AND NOW SNAPCHAT! I GET TO SEE UR CUTE HAPPY FACE (most of the time happy) A LOT AND IT’S SO GREAT

AND WE ARE SUCH FRIENDS AND FRIEND GOALS AND I DID ACTUALLY CONSIDER WRITING AN ONLINE AU FOR FRIENDS BASED ON OUR FRIENDSHIPS BUT I ABANDONED THE IDEA BC THAT IS WHAT I DO WITH 90% OF AUS

TRULY AMAZING WONDERFUL

ILY SO MUCH, YOU BRIGHTEN MY DAY EVERY DAY, I HOPE YOU HAD A WONDERFUL BIRTHDAY EVEN THOUGH WE’RE BOTH EXPERIENCING THAT THING AND ALSO YOU ARE MESSAGING ME ABOUT GODSPELL AS I TYPE AND I HOPE THIS CHEERS YOU UP FROM THE EMOTIONAL WRECKAGE

#┊♛ ѕalad and ѕand ( PIPER )#┊★ ι'd looĸ good ιn a тιara ( ooc )

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heroicstar · 7 years

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ok!! I was too sleepy the other day but I want to put down some more bnha thoughts now that I’m all caught up with the manga!! but then i just kinda speed read through a rather large portion of it and watched the anime while doing so many other stuff bc sob i have v limited free time, so until i’m done with a much appreciative re-read, I only have a few v quick Conclusions rn

putting them under cut bc i have a giant headache and i’m rambling but i’m not very sorry for it but anyway

1) Iida Tenya is the purest, squarest child I have ever seen in a good long while, and he is my pure, square child now and I love him v much (ALSO IT WAS HIS BDAY RECENTLY AHH HE IS THE BEST BOY HE DESERVES THE WORLD!!! also crying a bit since i wanted to make something for this new child of mine and yet i have zero time and energy weeps!)

I mean it really is a bit surprising for me, since super serious class president character types don’t usually leave that much of an impact for me, but I fell in love with Iida so quickly??? He’s so earnest and passionate, always does his best and just such a Good Boy all over, then after when his emotions are threatening to plunge down the deep end after that tragedy with his brother bc ofc that much passion and determination used for revenge could be a v bad thing v quickly, but then he acknowledges it!!! and strives to be a much better person from it...!! I just thought welp he’s my child and he’s in my heart forever now. I’m also v invested on seeing his career develop?? i mean he’s taking up his brother’s hero name, does that also mean he’s taking over the Team Idaten??? How would Tensei’s sidekicks react to his baby bro becoming their new leader? Are they even still around? But you know I bet Tensei talks about Tenya all the time like the doting big brother that he is, to the point that they begin to adore Tenya themselves but man I hope Tenya wouldn’t have to suffer complexes and find himself comparing himself to Tensei and decides he himself is lacking when it’s time for him to face the team but welp i’m getting too far ahead god i need to stop here

ALSO IIDA TENSEI IS A MOST WONDERFUL PERSON, A GIFT, A BLESSING no wonder Tenya loves him and adores him above all, and I too love Tensei with my entire being and i need to know how he’s doing oh my gosh pls let him be okay...!! also I need him to be a teacher at UA preferably of Robotics or tech something (bc he just screams tech nerd to me ok have you seen his hero suit oh my god) too with a swanky high tech wheelchair and teaching kids and you know he’ll be amazing at it too since he’s so supportive and a generally wholesome person god I need to yell out my utter love and adoration for Iida Tensei in a different post one day...!! (i obvs have a thing with siblings who adore each other and then one of them has to suffer horribly and I just-- goD WHY??!! i’m just so v glad Tensei’s still alive... weeps! gdi ace!!)

2) okay i’ve been betrayed by aloof, genius, over powered pretty boys before so i didn’t trust Todoroki Shouto at first (it’s so hard though holy shit he’s just so aesthetically pleasing with that ice/fire thing, and that scar doesn’t help either since it’s just like my other son sabo’s and also zuko’s actually and zuko’s a good egg) but then he learned to forgive and love himself??? and he’s actually soft and v kind???? Todoroki didn’t let me down, and I love him for it. also his shitty old man is shitty.

3) that said, it’s v easy for me to ship todoiida, i mean there is just so, so much fun to be had thinking about a very square super beefy nerd speedster and a soft hotcool pretty boy genius getting together, so I was so v hyped in checking out their tag for shippy goodness.... only to discover they’re actually a rare pair???!!!! i am shocked and appalled tbh. like. they’re right there????? I’M UPSET ABOUT THIS

4) thank god for todoiideku ot3 though (tho tbh i’m still working on truly liking Midoriya bc as adorable and so painfully, unbearably kind as he is, somehow it’s always so hard for me to like /THE/ main character/s of any series (except luffy. monkey d. luffy is always the exception to any rule.) so yeah there’s that but goddamn i’m so weak towards this ot3′s mutually supportive relationship dammit and i just want more okay!?)

5) actually i’m THIS close to ot4 shipping the deku squad bc how could I ever leave out Uraraka holy heck just how good for the soul is the main trio’s relationship is???? it’s so pure i’m crying a bit. i just need horikoshi to give me some substantial todochako interaction and i’m game (i only vaguely remember them during the school trip arc being in the same group trying to get back Bakugou from that mask guy)

6) but then ship or no ship Uraraka herself is enough, okay!!! she’s a wonderful ray of sunshine she could float me to infinity and I’ll thank her for it. also I super want a re-match between her and Bakugou

7) i’m so conflicted about Tsuyu, I mean I love her, but frgs are literally a nightmare to me so?????

8) Mirio and Tamaki...!!! need to get married asap (also I keep thinking about that yearbook post where that one guy says “You got to enjoy little things in life so I like blowing bubbles” or smthn like that, then that other dude goes “My friends call me Bubbles bc I’m always rising to the top!” bc you know I’m dying a lot over the origin of Tamaki’s hero name I mean “Suneater” when he literally calls his bf “the sun”??? yeah i’m dead) But anyway!! they are also precious kids and I love them v much

9) well anyway aside from todoiida and any combination of todoiideku, and also miritama, I'm not feeling too invested in other ships??, I mean like Momo and Jirou are practically gfs already, and i like how Kirishima's so very good in getting through Bakugou in a v positive way, and also Tokoyami and Shouji during the school trip arc is so, so good, but for the most part I just want to watch the kids grow to the heroes they want to be except the grape kid delete him

10) BUT ACTUALLY MOST IMPORTANT wtf give the girls more depth and character development you coward...!!! there’s 150 chapters already and yet from the girls, it’s only Uraraka’s motivations why she wants to be a hero that we know about. gdi horikoshi i want to know their stories too!

ok I’m stopping here for now I keep messing up the sequence of events in this manga I mean holy shit they’re always almost dying literally every arc, man give them a break

#anne's rambling #about bnha #sob QUICK conclusions i said and then i went and word vomitted like this #i have so many other feels about this manga #mostly iida related ofc and also towards some other pure kids in the series #shipwise my overwhelming disappointment that there's no 15k todoiida slowburn fic waiting for me after i caught up is heart breaking...!!#am i gonna have to make my own content??? sob i don't trust myself being able to finish stuff anymore #godd! it's been 84 years since i've last been in a fandom... why am i still falling for all the rare ships!?#but anyway ships aside #it's also not v surprising that i'm completely and utterly done for by the Iida brothers they're too much for my weak weak heart #listen i need them to be in the same panels again okay i don't care how minor a character iida tensei is #i just need more scenes of these precious brothers together okay!?

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