Chapters: 6/?
Fandom: Red White & Royal Blue - Casey McQuiston
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: June Claremont-Diaz/Nora Holleran, Alex Claremont-Diaz/Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor, Alex Claremont-Diaz & June Claremont-Diaz, Nora Holleran/Original Female Character(s)
Characters: June Claremont-Diaz, Nora Holleran, Alex Claremont-Diaz, Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor
Additional Tags: New Years, Canon Compliant, Post-Canon, Angst, Fluff and Angst, no beta we die like men, Self-Discovery, Sexuality Crisis, Love Triangles, Coming Out
Summary:
"One of the many nights it’s kept her up, she imagined taking the romcom approach to this. In some alternate reality, June gives Nora the grandeur she deserves. And it’s Jane Austen worthy, it’s glitter-in-your-hair, fireworks-in-the-sky, friends-to-lovers bullshit. She’d confess, obviously. Maybe there’s a boombox involved. Maybe it’s pouring rain. The setting doesn’t matter, really, because they’re both there."
even after alex and henry get their happily ever after, there's still a story left to tell. when an ironic new year’s kiss turns triggers something much more, june finds herself stuck in a messy situation. can she find the line between her personal life and her public one? what does it mean to love someone in secret? can she ever find the guts to show it?
This is my favourite video of mine on TikTok. I didn't realize I was burned out, because "I was just a kid". I didn't recognize abuse because "she didn't hit me". I was heading for depression, but I managed go pull the brakes in time, and I am so eternally grateful for how my life is now 💜
I'm still not 100% sure in my identity, but I now know that that's okay. I'm okay.
Normalise discovering more about your identity as time goes on
Not that anyone gives a shit but quite recently I’ve felt more at ease identifying as queer than my previous choice in label, lesbian. That doesn’t mean I wasn’t happy or comfortable at the time, I was out and proud as a lesbian for a considerable part of my life and couldn’t have been happier, because during that time that was how exactly I felt. That was what made me feel at home in my own skin for the first time in god knows how long. However a lot has changed in my life over the past couple of months and right now I acknowledged that I am attracted to different genders, women, men, nb people it doesn’t matter what matters is that I feel free without a label rn. I feel free going by the term queer acknowledging that the one thing I’m not is straight.
I really want to emphasise that none of that meant I didn’t feel comfortable when I ID’d as lesbian, or that I was ‘repressing’ or ‘concealing’ anything because I wasn’t and it makes me angry to think that there are people that would assume I was. I am also NOT in any way trying to imply that lesbianism is a phase or anything of the sort I just want to describe my own experience with my personal identity and how at this very moment I’m quite happy being nothing at all, except for myself.
So yeah moral of the story I guess
Fuck whatever gender you want on the day that takes your fancy, it’s really not that deep.
bitch ALL THE LESBIANS I KNOW... are on my side and adore me so like. Maybe take your hateful ass to the curb. Because nobody here wants your bullshit. I’m sorry that your own issues with dysphoria and hating yourself are not something you can solve and so you wanna take that out on me but that’s literally NOT my problem.
This photo I took a museum and it is not really fantastic or a photo of something actually amazing but it is a very apt picture of the fire in my heart that has been burning for the past 45 days and I’m sure it will be burning for countless more and this is why:
You cut open my heart and you climbed in and made it yours, now when I look in my heart there is no longer just a room but a home with pictures on the walls, flowers by the door, coffee brewing, food on the stove, wine on the table and fire in the hearth and it is beautiful and glorious and just absolutely perfect.