#Several Fears

[scleracentipede]

still thinking about fear state

#I am not and will never not be thinking about fear state #he is my baby boy he has done nothing wrong (he has in fact committed acts of terrorism and broke the geneva convention several times) #scarecrow #fear state scarecrow #Jonathan crane #dr jonathan crane #scarecrow fanart #fear state #Batman fear state #dc comics #Batman comics #comics #disabled artist #artists on tumblr #queer artist #digital art #trans artist

[originalartblog]

watching the storm pass (x)

#after N's torture #and fighting a lightning manipulator at most a few months later during the dragon's head conflict (while cursing profusely) #do you think that maybe chuuya developed a fear of electricity/lightning #he'd deny and/or fight it of course but #this boy went through a lot and it's one of the few things that he can't fight while it can/has harmed him in severe ways #fear can be irrational but. mostly this is about trauma and powerlessness #who wants to do one of those 5+1 things or whatever where chuuya slowly realizes he's not cool with zappy stuff and it gets worse over time #bsd #bungo stray dogs #bungou stray dogs #bsd chuuya #bsd nakahara chuuya #bsd fanart #nawy's doodles #drawing rain is really fun actually it's my new thing (<- doesn't have any more plans for it) #guess who knows her computer screen isn't calibrated and forgot to cross-check on her phone for brightness before posting #that's right it's me

[bebzbrainw0rmz]

Levi with one of those giant isopod duffel bags…..

Idk which one you’re exactly talking abt but I drew it anyway bc you’re so right

Used this as practice to try n get better at colouring faster, failed bc I got distracted half way in… anyway. Modern au Levi you will always be real asf to me

#Marina would have an aneurysm if she saw Sammy’s room/bed #Ik there’s several blood stains on it #fear and hunger #ask #my art #fear and hunger termina #funger #fear & hunger #levi #marina #marilevi #marina domek #levi fear and hunger #fear and hunger levi

[your-subby-creature]

What if instead of setting off fireworks (dangerous, bad for the environment, traumatizing) we all just fucked nasty style (fun, transgender, horny)

#Creature rambles #i hate fireworks sm its not even funny #im lucky though bc i have a fairly severe fear of guns (trauma) but dont get set off by (most) firework sounds #someone should fuck me nasty so i dont have to hear them though #noise canceling headphones only do so mych #*much

[dongiovannitriumphant]

i found a slide projector at the charity shop lads

#those who have seen my face draw back in fear :c #dracula daily #abraham van helsing #ig this is SUPPOSED to be abe but my chronic baby face makes it look more like jack trying to explain to art #ive been sitting on this meme for years i will not be stopped for making the stupidest content imaginable #im so severely sleepy u have no idea i have barely been lucid for the whole day xoxo

[caeslxys]

I’ve mentioned this elsewhere but it feels relevant again in light of the most recent episode. Something that’s really fascinating to me about Orym’s grief in comparison to the rest of the hells’ grief is that his is the youngest/most fresh and because of that tends to be the most volatile when it is triggered (aside from FCG, who was two and obviously The Most volatile when triggered.)

As in: prior to the attack on Zephrah, Orym was leading a normal, happy, casual life! with family who loved him and still do! Grief was something that was inflicted upon him via Ludinus’ machinations, whereas with characters like Imogen or Ashton, grief has been the background tapestry of their entire lives. And I think that shows in how the rest of them are largely able to, if not see past completely (Imogen/Laudna/Chetney) then at least temper/direct their vitriol or grief (Ashton/Fearne/Chetney again) to where it is most effective. (There is a glaring reason, for example, that Imogen scolded Orym for the way he reacted to Liliana and not Ashton. Because Ashton’s anger was directed in a way that was ultimately protective of Imogen—most effective—and Orym’s was founded solely in his personal grief.)

He wants Imogen to have her mom and he wants Lilliana to be salvageable for Imogen because he loves Imogen. But his love for the people in his present actively and consistently tend to conflict with the love he has for the people in his past. They are in a constant battle and Orym—he cannot fathom losing either of them.

(Or, to that point, recognize that allowing empathy to take root in him for the enemy isn't losing one of them.)

It is deeply poignant, then, that Orym’s grief is symbolized by both a sword and shield. It is something he wields as a blade when he feels his philosophy being threatened by certain conversational threads (as he believes it is one of the only things he has left of Will and Derrig, and is therefore desperately clinging onto with both bloody hands even if it makes him, occasionally, a hypocrite), but also something he can use in defense of the people he presently loves—if that provocative, blade-grief side of him does not push them—or himself—away first.

(it won’t—he is as loved by the hells as he loves them. he just needs to—as laudna so beautifully said—say and hear it more often.)

#critical role #cr spoilers #bells hells #orym of the air ashari #cr meta #imogen temult #ashton greymoore #liliana temult #this is genuinely completely written in good faith as someone who loves orym #but is also about orym and so will inevitably end up being completely misconstrued and made into discourse. alas #I could talk about how Orym’s unwillingness to allow the hells to actually finish/come to a solid conclusion on Philosophy Talk #is directly connected to one of the largest criticisms of c3 (that they are constantly having these conversations) #all day. alas. engaging with orym’s flaws tends to make people upset #it is ESP prevelant when he walks off after exclaiming ‘they (vangaurd) are NOT right’ #which was not only never said but wasn’t even what they were talking about #he even admits as much to imogen like ten minutes later! that he is incapable of viewing it objectively #which is 100% justifiable and understandable but simultaneously does not make his grief alone the most important perspective in the world #also bc i fear ppl will play semantics on my tags yes the line ‘i hope she’s right’ was said but it was from ASHTON #who does not believe they are at all and wasn’t saying they actively WERE right. orym just heard something to latch onto and ran with it #ultimately there is a reason orym only admitted that he was struggling when he had stepped away to talk to dorian #who has not been around and thusly has not changed once n orym's eyes #and it isn't that the hells never check in or care. they do. they have several times over #it is dishonest to say they haven't #the actual reason is that all of this is something He Is Aware Of. he doesn't mention it bc he KNOWS it's hypocritical and selfish #he says as much! #EXHALES. @ MY OWN BRAIN CAN WE THINK ABT MOG AGAIN. FYRA RAI EVEN. FOR ME. #posting this literally at 8 in the morning so I can get my thoughts out of my brain but also attempt to immediately make this post invisibl

[realbeefman]

stacy is sooo interesting because she's in love with house but knows that they will never ever be able to have a healthy, stable, sane relationship because they're too similar so. she finds house-lite instead and marries him and. essentially moves on with her life! and is successful in this because she's a moderately well-adjusted person!

wilson, in contrast, never manages to escape the inevitable, in spite of his best efforts to find a house-lite of his very own, because he's an absolute fucking freak and ends up glued to house to the bitter. bitter end

#yeah im too sleepy to revise this. UNFILTERED posting wooahh #some may b shocked but i do actually read thru most of my posts several times to make sure i didnt accidentally write mein kampfe 2 #recently ive come to the realization that i am in fact not an incredibly chill person #and that the constant paranoia and fear in which i live my life is actually PROBABLY a symptom of severe anxiety #like damn. ive always known that im pretty prone to depression but ive preetty much always been aware of that #my mom is a chronic depressive so i know the symptoms i know the signs i have a pretty good arsenal of healthy coping mechanisms #UNFORTUNATELY mommy's mental health problems did not help her not abuse me as a child #so i ended up being a terribly anxious kid who was constantly being screamed at and told i was overreacting (because i was. because i had #a severe anxiety problem that was making me react irrationally.) to everything all the time #which is you know. it is VERY difficult to deal with a mental health problem when you arent aware you have a problem! #its incredible how much. better. my life has gotten since i figured this out and started actively trying to work out what triggers it #and being able to like. realize 'oookay. there is an Issue here and it needs to be overcome' #instead of just beating on myself constantly for not being able to do things without feeling sick or getting breathing problems! #anyways. trauma dumping in tags is over now! #house md #hilson #greg house #james wilson #stacy warner

[mynqzo]

Why do you like vampires specifically, what do you like of them?

the sucking and fucking

#ask #also many several deep complex reasons #and if i were to divulge into them i would actually never shut up #its the. vampyrisim being a metaphore for otherness. for queerness #them being originally created (in europe at least) to be cruel representations of jewish people - immigrants and eastern europeans - and #these people reclaiming them. the reclamation of vampires to be the 'others' the ones that are ostracized by society #and people finding solidarity in that. vampires are queer their entire mythology is inherently queer as well so its beautiful in its own wa #vampires were transformed from cruel caricatures with intent to portray the fears of xenophobic english men to #complex deeply thought-out characters that embrace their differences from 'humanity' and live in their true identity #remember when i said “i cant delve into this otherwise i wont stop talking” yeah sorry it happened anyway

[goated33]

It’s not my fault! I’m not to blame. It is that wretched girl, the witch who sent this flame!

Inspired by @sharkscene ‘s tags

#to be clear it’s not her going to hell it’s her being terrified of it #heaven isn’t threatening her either she’s just breaking down from fear #vaggies the one ending up in hell after this #this was supposed to be a shitty sketch. again. I need self control I need restraint #ten productive and healthy ways to deal with your severe internalized homophobia! one: Kill Her #[my art] #hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel spoilers #(vaguely) #lute #vaggie x lute #lute x vaggie #fallenwings #….. #luggie #it’s only implied but that Is what it is #Ik what the songs about but it’s real funny to imagine that she had (1) romantic thought about her sparring partner #and immediately freaked out like this #not the cover I initially had in mind but it’s the only fem one I can find that doesn’t. slur #(use a slur. I mean)

[karfild]

Ao3, the love of my life, my dearest of companions, my shawtyest of bae, my babiest of baby girls, please, come back to me.. I cannot do this without you

#ao3 #I am reloading the page over and over #I feel like the wife of a soldier #Waiting. Sitting by the doorstep. Staring out the window with pain in my heart #Waiting and waiting for a lover I'm not sure will return #Checking my mailbox several times a day #Waiting for letters from the battlefield #I fear that I may too die of lead poisoning from the paint on the walls

[pignondepin]

more funger fanart

#my art #fanart #drawing #funger #fear and hunger #cahara #severe case of brainrot

[shattteredvisage]

HE'S JUST KEN GABRIEL JIM

#he slayed so severely #this season belonged to him i fear #good omens #gabriel #archangel gabriel #barbie

[acowardinmordor]

We should give Steve sepsis more often. Saves Eddie. Hospital busy. Used to walking off injuries. Hasn’t stopped to peel off the bandages because it hurts and touching it will hurt more. Nothing malign. He’s not kept from a doctor. It’s just a crazy day or two, and he’s stuck in guardian mode. He’s a little hazy and his entire body hurts and he’s sweating and breathing too fast, but hey, panic attacks do that, and he’s earned a bit of a freak out after all of this.

So it’s not until relief nurses arrive from nearby, and one of them actually turns to look at the kid guarding the wanted murderer that they see it.

#my ongoing love of #characters experiencing consequences #for things that canon blew past #give him sepsis and severe scars #and hearing damage and migraines and seizures and a fear of needles and an intolerance for drugs and alcohol #or as I whine about fic writing: #let the punch land

[zabreus]

threatening FBI intervention over a tom and jerry-esque “we would have beat ET with hammers” type joke post is the kind of thing a grown adult only does either if they’re being deliberately hyperbolic to save a bruised ego or if they’re so genuinely terrified of a minority that their frontal lobe shuts down completely

#i try to stay mostly neutral on here but this is different #i’m just now getting a lot more attention on this platform #and it would be wrong to stay silent on the fact that ceo photomatt is a googoo gaga bitch boy #who threatened police violence against a trans woman over a meme #that kind of fear only comes from severe debilitating bigotry #bigots are always more afraid of you than you are of them. that’s what makes them so dangerous #tumblr #photomatt #predstrogen #transmisogyny #o

[kaeyachi]

Kaeya had always been an efficient and hard-working individual (he had to be to support Diluc in the background as his brother rose thru the ranks after all).

He has so much free time because he completes all his work way ahead of schedule. And if he still has enough time, he adds more to the workload in secret.

And once all of that was done and over with, he makes time for everyone. He has to. He feels as if every moment has to be given to someone else.

No one knows how he does it. No one has to know.

Every mission has a dozen strategies in line, and every battle plan is made with efficiency in mind. His perfect record will not be tarnished. He can't risk it (even if it baffles others that he would willingly activate a ruin guard just to prevent a failed mission. Jean disagrees with his methods, but Kaeya can say that the results say otherwise)

He needs to be quick.

Efficient.

Perfect.

And so he comes and goes like the wind.

Kaeya values time because he knew every second counted. He can't just stand there as if he were frozen. Time could run out in an instant.

Kaeya had only been late once his entire life.

He'd rather he never be late ever again.

It took one day of being of being imperfect for everything to fall apart. On that tragic day...had he gotten there on time... then maybe...

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" Come on, let's get moving, traveler. We're not frozen in place after all. " Kaeya teasingly says. He stiffles a giggle at the traveler's exhasperated sigh.

"Yeah yeah, we've heard enough of you calling us a slacker. Can't you be a bit more patient?" Paimon whines at him.

Kaeya snorts, but acquiesces, hiding the shaking of his hands at the thought of being idle.

He imagines hearing a clock ticking.

Kaeya knows that that is his own problem. He tries his hardest to relax as he waits for the traveler to finish whatever they're making on the alchemy table because, seriously, it is supposed to be a relaxing day. There's nothing major going on, and his schedule is once again empty as intended. What's the hurry?

Kaeya taps his foot on the ground as he waits. He wishes he could take his own damn advice when he tells others to relax.

#kaeyachi randoms #kaeya #kaeya alberich #this is actually shorter than it originally was can yall believe? #kaeya with anxiety truther there i said it #kaeya cant stand being IDLE #get it? get it? #you see that is a play of words in reference to when he is stood idle on our screens. he is one of the more verbally impatient characters #and we also see it reflected on his actions both in fighting and at work. he has a speed boost bonus and if he isnt teleporting he is #actually moving so fast that he seems like it. this is what i also concluded that results him in large amounts of free time that only amber #seemed to be hardpressed about. the people of mondstadt find him reliable and approachable despite the lax attitude and frequent nights at #angels share. we also had lore tidbits before of kaeya straight up saying he finished all his work and jean saying that he also did the #backlogged ones. It is actually insane that we hear him relaxing frequently and i bet its not because of the lack of horses COZ LOOK AT HOW #BUSY THE OTHER CAPTAINS ARE. Also id like to think that he is a toned down noelle and that is why jean told him to watch over her training #give us noelle and kaeya interactions pls i kinda need it tbh #to all those that reached this far into the notes i actually have more to say so get ready #if it wasnt clear the only day he was late was when crepus died. everything fell apart for him that day so i can see some obsessive need to #just keep running around and doing things as efficient as possible. I also think that he found the knights slow and inefficient in several #occasions and he is willing to put them in the line of fire just to get their hearts pumping with adrenaline (and fear lol). idk kaeya is #just so anxiety-coded. impatience-core. Mr. dont waste my time type of guy. and also wow look i found a way to make his idles become angst #silly me ehe #oh youre still here? how about i tell you that kaeya-efficiency-alberich probably knows where everyone is at any time of the day? #can we honestly please give him more free time i need more of him tbh #fun reminder that bro is working around 3-4 jobs casually lmao #i also just realized that the notes is a whole nother post on its own #AND THE ACTUAL FUNNY PART IS I CAN STILL ELABORATE MORE ON THIS LMAO #wait let me add this one tiny idea too but he thinks time is so valuable. bro lost 2 dads and lost time with his bro + he significantly #lessened his time at dawn winery for quite some time. i can see why he is extroverted now.

[marshmellowtea]

memory and identity based horror my beloved <3

#when the fear comes from not knowing where you are. not remembering your history. chef’s kiss #dhmis #who's lila #severance #the amazing digital circus #marshy speaks #tbh who’s lila might be a teensy bit of a stretch but like trust me okay #tags in order of when i discovered/got into these series btw. if you’re curious :)