#Shoya Ishida | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

thequietkid-moonie · 8 months

Text

Finding out that S/O was previously suicidal

[ SCENARIO ] [ Shouko, Ishida ]

[ A silent voice / Koe no Katachi ]

I had read something like this in the past and I absolutely loved it!! This kind of things had helped me a lot in the past so i really hope i'm able to help someone else with this!

Shouko Nishimiya

Even for being in a relationship with Shouko she normally doesn't pry for personal details about you, she won't force you to talk about things you don't want to talk about or things about your past, she prefers that if you to tell her something personal is because you feel comfortable enough to do so (and she does the same), she may just be a little pushy when it comes to problems that are bothering you in the present but aside from that she doesn't insist much

Shouko suffer from a really bad self-steem, blaming herself from a lot of things due her condition, and she had wanted to die for a long time (probably all her life), however she slowly wins more things that make things worthy to stay and continue trying, one of those things is you

Shouko may probably tell you about how she have those suicidal thoughts (or even if she doesn't have it anymore) at some point, it probably take her a while since she probably fears your reaction (not that she doesn't trust you, she just doesn't want to bother you or you to be worried over her), but it would take her even more time if she already had her suicidal attempt since in that moment she had caused even more troubles

If you open up before her it would be easier for her to tell you. When you open up to her about it she will be pretty nervous by seeing you so serious or even nervous, while you start telling her about it she will probably get the idea of what you are meaning if you don't say it directly but at the same time she doesn't want to assume

When you tell her she is between not being sure of what to tell you and wanting for you to feel free to tell her all you need and vent, she will try to comfort you by saying that she understand you and is more probably that in that moment is when she open up too (if she already told you about it she will just remind you of that). Even if you don't feel bad or insecure about it she still wants to reasure you that is okay, she understand and that you aren't alone

Shouko is really happy to have you in her life, you had become so special for her that she is even grateful to have you in her life and that is something that she repeat to herself constantly because it makes her happy, and now, because she knows that once in the past you wished to be dead she tells you from time to time how happy she is that you are still here and that she is grateful to have you in her life (even when saying it out loud make her really flustered)

Shoya Ishida

It will take a while to get into a relationship with Ishida because he doesn't know much what he is supoused to do or say, but it isn't imposible. When it finally happens that you two start dating Ishida is really curious about you, he wants to know more and more about you sincerely (even before start dating) but he doesn't know if it is right for him to ask or if he is being rude by asking, so he tries to either don't even ask or do it indirectly

From his part, Ishida had been suffering from suicidal ideation for a long time and he was about to do it if it wasn't because he get the opportunity to try and make it up for his past mistakes, he knows really well what is like wanting or even thinking that it would be better if you die. Although is more probably that he won't talk about it once you two are together, even since you were friends he tried his best to be a good friend even when he didn't know what that was supoused to mean

If he ever tells you about it is because you two are having a heart to heart talk and it just slips his lips while telling you about his past, otherwise is more probably that he won't tell you about it (or at least not first)

In the case that you are the first one saying it, either because you want to say him directly or because you feel comfortable enough to tell him, Ishida will be completely shocked by it, it never crossed his mind that you will ever wish death, he was a terrible person in the past and he thought that he deserved to die, but you? In his eyes you are nothing but an amazing person and he doesn't see why, he may say it without thinking much on it but will apologize

Ishida wants to know more about it, if you let him of course, he wants to know from where it came this feeling and is more likely that he will share his own feelings about it and admit that he wanted to be dead once too

He may not tell you right away in that moment, or just say it like a simple comment, but later while thinking on it Ishida will relice how important you are to him and how greatful he is to have you in his life (even if sometimes he feels like he doesn't deserve you), so he plans to express it to you the next time he had the opportunity, even thanking you for not giving up in life because that way you two were able to meet, probably end up being a flustered mess but he really wanted to let you to know

#a silent voice #a silent voice x reader #koe no katachi #koe no katachi x reader #shouko nishimiya #shouko nishimiya x reader #shouko x reader #shoya ishida #shoya ishida x reader #ishida x reader #x reader #x gn reader #anime x reader #manga x reader

85 notes · View notes

samuras-stuff · 1 month

Text

idgaf what ANYONE says i’m literally them⁉️🙏

#jjk #demon slayer #ddlc #silent voice #bsd #geto suguru #mitsuri kanroji #dazai osamu #shoya ishida #bsd yosano

31 notes · View notes

prplocks · 1 month

Note

Do you think you could make a wallpaper/lockscreen for A Silent Voice?

27 notes · View notes

itzchrissydoesstuff · 1 month

Text

Happy birthday, Robbie Daymond! 🥳✨

#robbie daymond #breadwinners #swaysway #persona 5 #goro akechi #sailor moon #tuxedo mask #a silent voice #shoya ishida

34 notes · View notes

mahnameisqq · 29 days

Text

I don’t remember Breadwinners being this good…? 🤨

Okay jokes aside guys- this is a GREAT crossover i enjoy a lot and makes lots of sense. Shoya Ishida and SwaySway share the same voice actor Robbie Daymond! And i rewatched a silent voice dubbed a few days ago which was A BANGER. I love that movie so much. So i had to draw this. Maybe more soon!

#breadwinnersart #breadwinners #breadwinnersfanart #cartoon style #cartoon art #cartoon #character art #character drawing #swaysway #shonen #a silent voice #shoya ishida #shoya #eiga kou no katachi #the shape of voice #kou no katachi

26 notes · View notes

wetsandmemories · 3 months

Text

me, every time I see a character with some clearly unhealthy coping mechanisms: let's go sweetie that's your new hone now. and

#dean winchester #shoya ishida #a silent voice #silent voice #tim drake #dick grayson #batman #batfamily #bat fam #dc #dc comics #robin #nightwing #red robin #hatake kakashi #sasuke uchiha #stiles stilinski #everyone honestly

38 notes · View notes

playwithmydarkestdemons · 2 months

Text

A Silent Voice - Koe no Kotachi

30 notes · View notes

iforgotwhat · 1 year

Text

“Back then, if we could have heard each other's voices, everything would have been so much better.” -Shoya Ishida.

#art #artists on tumblr #digital art #anime fanart #artwork #anime icons #anime art #anime and manga #anime #silent voice #a silent voice #shoya ishida #anime fandom #digital fanart

171 notes · View notes

neapolitanupsidedowncake · 1 year

Text

some ships i really like

94 notes · View notes

muqingsleftnut · 3 months

Text

#i am him #he is me #koe no katachi #a silent voice #shoya ishida #queueussy #manga

24 notes · View notes

rolaplayor101 · 2 months

Note

So I've just read your post "A Silent Voice Aspec Analysis" and I am so happy but I wanted to ask is...how exactly is Shoya from OAA rep? Could you direct me to all instances which made you think that he is? Thank you in advance!

9/13/22

So it’s been a year and a half since I got this ask and I’m only now answering it— I think about this ask a lot, and it’s not that I don’t want to answer it, it’s that I was waiting for the right time. I wanted to answer it during either asexual awareness week or Arospec awareness week last year or even the year before, but either because I forgot or because I procrastinated it, I never got to it. Now it's ASAW 2024, and I have finally decided to lay down and write this essay, so here we go:

There’s a few points I want to discuss, but in respect for the reader’s time, I will lay them all out right here as a tl;dr before I write them all out thoroughly.

Shoya shows himself to be both repulsed by romance and sexuality as soon as it is pointed towards him. This presents itself in his dialogue, his facial expressions, and his thoughts throughout A Silent Voice.

Shoya often is seen blushing in most instances, whether he’s with Shoko or not, of if he’s embarrassed or upset or neutral. With this point, I think it’s poignant to say he has rosacea.

Shoya himself says multiple times that he is not interested in Shoko, who is his main concern for all of the manga.

The way other characters in A Silent Voice show attraction is completely different from anything Shoya ever does.

The movie changes certain aspects of the manga to get the overall point across and stick to the most important plot lines. One of the things that it changes is literally all the scenes where the other characters assume Shoya likes Shoko romantically, unless it specifically pertains to Shoko’s side of the story, the character who DOES have romantic feelings in this pair for the other.

Shoya shows his immense dislike for romance and sex a variety of times, as aforementioned, but does seem to enjoy physical, sensual touch, including holding hands, and, secondly, the only time he feels jealousy in reference to other people's relationships is not when he thinks Shoko is dating someone, but when he sees her getting closer platonically with other people(Sahara).

The entire story is about Shoya trying to redeem himself for past deeds, and learning what friendship is. Romance only ever ties in when it’s related to other people that aren’t him.

This might have to be split into multiple posts because I have a lot of manga panels to use as reference. First, let’s start at the beginning. On the very first page of chapter one, we are immediately met by Shoya experiencing allonormativity and looking extremely annoyed. As soon as he hears the word “boyfriend” he is amiss, as is implied by the boldness of the word boyfriend. He immediately informs them that he’s not her boyfriend, with a sweating face, and balling in on himself, a thing he does multiple times to show he’s uncomfortable and anxious, while also always having the four little blush marks under his eyes as a character design choice, not a proof of attraction.

In fact, one of the first things we learn about Shoya is that he doesn’t like girls, next to the fact that he’s not supposed to jump into the River, he doesn’t like his mom’s nickname for him, and that he has a sister whose boyfriend sucks, because he can’t “play with them”. Crushing on one doesn’t even cross his mind, but it does for everyone else he interacts with in his class:

“isn’t that great, Ishida?” Naoka asks in response to learning that the new transfer student is a girl.

“Huh? I don’t give a crap!!” He replies, his expression one of genuine confusion and annoyance, with his eyebrows furrowed downwards and his pupils small, mouth low on his face without a hint of a smile or blush.

Shortly after we have a montage of him bullying Shoko along with his friends, we are met with his first instance of romance repulsion at a young age:

Amongst being touched— holding hands with a girl— he does not blush or smile, neither does flowers appear around him in thematic fashion of romantic attraction; instead, he looks angry, his brows furrowing, even the lines of rosacea on his face disappearing to show him paling in disgust. The next panel with his face shows him grimacing, a shadow falling over his eyes and bags appearing under his eyes with sweat pouring down his face. He is not enjoying the physical touch from her. Finally, as he whips his arm away, a blush appears on his face, but only as he hears his friends behind him laughing at him. He’s embarrassed and angry. We get the second bout of amatonormativity from his friends:

He’s blushing, but not from attraction, like his friends joke, but in embarrassment. The next scene shows Ishida saying a word that appears over and over from here on, and the dialogue is, “she’s creepin’ me out” as he walks away with Kazu and Hirose. We will get back to that.

This is only the beginning of Shoya’s journey through navigating allonormativity and deconstructing what friendship means to him. His “friends” aren’t good ones, for sure, and this comes up as a theme throughout. In fact, the allonormativity keeps on even til the end, but I’ll expand on that later, as well. Skip only a 20 pages later, and you’ll see this little scene:

Here, Shoya actively reveals his repulsion towards romance once again by even just being around a place where people go on dates often, and gets angry and upset. Now, it is a common trope for children in tv to hate romance and be seen to grow out of it, as if it’s childish to see it as disgusting and unlikeable, but, in Shoya’s case, even as time passes, he continues to share these feelings, although more quietly, with his elementary school self. Even here, when he’s all scratched up, you can see the blush on his face when he notices Shoko seeing him, but again, this blush, in context, doesn’t seem to be one of attraction, but of embarrassment. In context, he’d just been pushed around by his ex-friends, and chastised by his mom, and has now been seen kicking a wall. There’s no romantic tension or reasoning to this scene for it to be a blush of romantic attraction on his face.

Time skip to him in his teen years, senior year, in chapter 5:

He’s being a bit dramatic by the end, but even so, in the beginning, it’s obvious that his thoughts are his own. In the ten year anniversary edition, his dialogue is, “And you butt-ugly bastards, stop talking about dating. It makes me sick.” This change in dialogue leaves out the “it doesn’t suit you” which can change the connotation a little bit. It changes the meaning from, “You acting like you can date the way you are is creepy” to “just talking about romance at all is gross to me”. And then, sexually, it’s also the same. It’s not only romance, but sex that also creeps him out. “That goes for you too.” (These are also taken out of the movie, because it’s once again not relevant, and also makes Shoya more palpable as a character you can be sorry for. His comments here do sound a lot like endorsing rape culture in a victim blaming kind of way). Then there’s this little nugget a few pages after:

“Apparently, there are some things in this world you just can’t attain. The moment I realized that, my future became clear.”

One of the noticeable things he “can’t attain” is a girl or boy to be in a relationship with in high school. That, or if you look at it in things he can’t be a part of, like, say, being in the class photo, or getting into college, or being In a group of friends, or having a full head of hair, etc., it’s also possible to view the scene of him walking past the couple as him not being able to avoid seeing couples, as all the other things he is actively working towards or interacting with/looking at. As in, “I won’t be able to be in the class photo, I won’t be able to avoid couples, I won’t be able to go to college, I won’t be able to make friends”, or, “I won’t be able to be in a relationship” whether that being because no one wants him or because he himself doesn’t want to be in one despite everyone else in school wanting it so badly, due to the allonormativity he’s experienced convincing him that’s the case.

After this scene, we are back in media rez, where he just denied being her boyfriend. In that context, he just the other day thought about romance being something he either can’t attain because he doesn’t want it, or can’t get it, and when these aunties call him Shoko’s boyfriend, he shows a rather plain disgust and discomfort with it, implying that it’s something he doesn’t want, instead of can’t get.

Then we get this legendary scene: ”Nishimiya…could you…and me..be friends?”

He has a blush here that is unlike the usual four lines we see on his cheeks under his eyes; this one is further into his cheekbones, and it's not from anger or embarrassment, but rather from a shyness. And this shyness doesn’t come from romantic feelings, but for platonic feelings. His words inform the expression, that he wants a friendship with her. And then this happens:

His expression changes instantly. It’s not necessarily one of disgust, but of panic, of discomfort. He’s still blushing, but he’s sweating now, just like before, in elementary school, and he can also hear the ladies in the back making comments just like his friends from before. He’s not angry, as his brows are raised instead of furrowed, but he’s deeply unsettled.

In this next set of panels, Shoko notices the ladies and pulls away, and Shoya’s face is a bit different and more comical. He’s still sweating and blushing, but his mouth is open wider as if to say something, and his hand is limp. When she pulls back. There’s a spark that’s closer to her than it is to him, which I think symbolizes a sudden awareness on her part rather than his. He also looks a bit happier that she let go, with only one sweat drop on his face instead of multiple. His brows are also more relaxed, and his mouth jaw is closing slightly. This is presumably how Shoko is seeing him in this moment.

And when someone interrupts, presumably one of the women who were laughing at him, he gets all stiff again and his blush mostly disappears. Then the panels start being viewed from either Shoya’s side or from his perspective again. Fast forward to when they’re feeding bread to fish a few minutes later.

He blushes at the thought that he’s having a normal friendly conversation with Shoko, the girl he used to hate, not just “a girl” or “a person my age that’s a girl for the first time since I hit puberty”. He’s not blushing at a romantic encounter or moment, but that he’s making a friend, he’s nervous that he has zits in his face, not because he thinks she’s pretty or something like that, that doesn’t even cross his mind, but that he can have a positive relationship with someone who isn't in his family or someone he works with. And someone he ruthlessly bullied five or six years ago.

Another example of his Asexuality comes right after this, when they both jump into the water under the bridge to rescue Shoko’s old notebook. He accidentally looks up and sees her skirt lifted, but he immediately closes his eye and looks down again without a blush on his face, and immediately focuses back in on finding the notebook without even a moment to get his bearings. It doesn’t bother him at all.

sorry about the bad quality, i had to take this picture for the sake of time instead of finding it online.

The next chapter features the biggest theme of the entire manga and anime besides redemption:

This is brought up again once Shoya meets Yuzuru, who wants to keep him away from Shoko. Yuzuru asks, “Are you really her friend?” And it brings about this entire thought process for Shoya, again and again, in the series. And then he meets Nagatsuka:

This is an example of my second point: Shoya’s blushing. A lot of “evidence” people give for Shoya liking Shoko is that he blushes around her a lot. This is a false equivalence, for Shoya blushes all the time and for anyone and any reason. Here, Nagatsuka does something extraordinarily nice to him for no reason, and he blushes, his confusion evident in the furrow of his brow and him asking, “Why’d you do all that for me?” In the 10th anniversary edition. Nagatsuka’s friendship from here on causes him to blush just as much as Shoko, and it doesn’t stop there. Later in the series when he befriends Miki, he’s also seen blushing around her, and not only that, but there are symbols seen around characters all the time to forward the notion of different points of view within a panel.

Image 1: Blush blush blush~ all of this at the notion of friendship, a complete turn around from whenever anyone mentions romance or sex around him. He’s forming connections with people for the first time since middle school, or even elementary school, to further Point 7. His need for platonic relationships greatly overshadows any hint of romance that is ever brought up, especially with Shoko.

Image 2: Miki sees herself as cute, which is why the bubbles appear around her, signaling a slight pov change. Shoya himself never shows any interest in Miki, nor Miki for him, and it especially shows in this scene with his expression and his thoughts not at all aiming towards her. And when Miki says Mashiba is handsome, a particularly aesthetic, romantic, or sexual form of attraction, this is something Shoya doesn’t even notice; yet, when she says Mashiba wants to be his friend, his eyes go wide with sudden interest. His disinterest towards romance and sex also take into account men, as well.

Image 3: once again, Miki has bubbles around her, but this is not Shoya’s pov until the next panel. This is a good example of background and environmental symbolism not necessarily reflecting on Shoya’s own thoughts and feelings, but those around him.

If we go to the movie, in image 1, this scene is shown with Shoya and Nagatsuka doing a secret handshake, which has a lingering touch between them that doesn’t make Shoya uncomfortable like Shoko’s attempt at handshakes/handholding does, and it’s in the midst of a conversation about friendship, in contrast to how the ladies from sign class assumed it to be a romantic thing with Shoko and Shoya. And speaking of, shortly after image 1, we run into them again:

Once again, the blush appears, but his brows furrow and he has a frown on his face that shows his discomfort, along with the sweat. He runs away because he’s embarrassed, not because there’s any truth to what they’re saying. This bring us again to point 3: Shoya points out multiple times that he does not like Shoko romantically. For the sake of convenience, I’ll add the rest of the times that he does this, and the chapters, to show that he doesn’t change his mind even by the end of the manga.

chapter 15

Chapter 20 (genuine confusion, doesn’t see it as romantic in the slightest, regular rosacea blush on his face. Pure amatonormativity and relationship hierarchy)

chapter 21

chapter 40 (this one needs further explaining but I’ll do it in the next post)

chapter 41

chapter 61 (til the very end, the literal second to last chapter, his friend is being allonormative while he’s perfectly happy and blushing at his friendship with Shoko. His expression holds a seriousness that implies it’s not a joke on his part, as well as the excited look he has as he gets an answer to the question)

Since I can only post 30 picture at a time on tumblr, I’ll stop the post right here and finish on a reblog some day. Yes, I know about the interviews with the author, and yes, I’ll supply those in due time as well.

17 notes · View notes

thequietkid-moonie · 7 months

Text

Their cheerful friend says that they want to be dead

[ SCENARIO ] [ Hanako, Shuichi, Ishida ]

[ Jibaku Shounen Hanako-kun ] [ Danganronpa V3 Killing Harmony ] [ A silent voice ]

⚠️ Hidden depression, masking the true feelings and even denying them

I don't know if I had said this before but I been suffering depression for a really long time and I used it to hide it even from me, i used to smile all the time! So much that now I hate my smile

Hanako-kun

Hanako is a really friendly and cheerful person, as long as you don't talk about sensitive topics or try to have problems with him he doesn't have reasons to don't be your friend

Since you yourself are pretty cheerful and friendly you two just match energy and can easily light up the room with your attitude, sometimes playing some jokes to each other or even others from time to time

However being happy all the time could be unhealthy and Hanako knows really well how it is to put a smile in your face and hide all the sadness and negative feelings from the world, he won't acuse you for it right away but there are some things that make him think that it could be something wrong, such as an extreme happiness or not being bothered by the problems in a not so healthy way

As much as Hanako likes your cheerful personality he can't help but feel nervous about it, however he constantly tells himself that is alright and he is probably only overthinking

He end up hearing you say that you want to be dead by accident, maybe he just over heard you when you were just talking to yourself while approaching to you, or maybe it was a slip from you for feeling really comfortable around him, in any case just by hearing those words he is shocked, he didn't expected this, or, at least, he didn't wanted it to be true

He is so shocked by your words that Hanako can't say anything, he just stand there looking directly at you while a quiet "what" escapes from his lips, if you see him and try to brush it off as a joke he will agree but is obvious that the thought haven't leave his head, however if you try to come up with a excuse or play innocent is more probably that he confront you right away

In any case, soon or later, he will talk to you about it, this is something really serious and it isn't common for people to talk about wanting to be dead for no reason, he will talk to you about it alone because this is serious and he will talk from his own point of view as a ghost, as someone who is already dead and, most important, as someone who had taken his own life

He understand if you don't want to talk about this with him or that you don't feel ready to said it out loud, he even understand if you aren't ready to even accept it to yourself but he can't just let this grow or let you all alone to handle it when he can do something to help you, so he will insist on talking to you. The more you try to avoid the topic or insist that is nothing the more desperate he grows, even reaching a point where he is being really pushy but is talking from his heart

Hanako won't force you to talk about this with anyone else but suggest on searching for help, even if is just asking him to be a shoulder to cry or someone to vent with he will be more than happy to do it

After this he will be paying more attention on you, he try to don't be too obvious but to don't let you alone, he continue being your cheerful friend but is constantly checking on you, directly or indirectly. Hanako even start to have little details with you that shows that he cares for you a lot and that he want you to be safe

Shuichi Saihara

Shuichi is more the type to be quiet and go unnoticed, however with the help of his friends he grew more open and confident of himself so that could help for you two to be friends too

For him your cheerful personality isn't strange, he is already used to Kaito's loud personality and Kaede's optimism so it doesn't take him long to get used or to like your cheerful attitude, is pretty plesesnt and even funny having you around

However, Shuichi is observant and perseptive, he can notice things others don't and, even if you try your hardest to hide it or even aren't aware of it, is just matter of time for him to notice the little hints of the true feelings you hide behind that smile you always have, and he grows incredibly worried by it

At first Shuichi tells himself that is nothing, he was probably overthinking or drawing illogical conclusions and he tries to shake it out of his mind, although the bad feeling doesn't really go away and, even when he doesn't want to he can't help but pay more close attention to you, just wanting to make sure everything is alright with you

Getting to heard you say that you want to be dead it could be by accident or not, maybe he was just passing by in a wrong moment or maybe he was trying to find clues about what are you feeling when he had overheard you, but at the end it doesn't matter much how he get to heard you, he did and that is the important

This is something shocking, he never thought you will be feeling so bad that you actually think on dying, he can comprehend feeling down but he had never actually thought on death before (or at least never took it seriously) and knowing that you do make him feel uneasy, he wants to help you but he can't even put his mind in order to be able to say something (if you found him right after hearing you he will try his hardest to come up with an excuse, a terrible one actually)

He need and will think about this whole thing for a little while, your words repeat over and over again in his mind, pressuring him, making him feel like he has to do something and has to do it now, and yet he won't talk to you until he had clarified his mind (at least a little) because he wants to do this right

When he finally confront you he, first of all, apologize for overhearing you but quickly express his concern, he doesn't say more than the necesary about his worries since he doesn't want you to feel obligate to talk or judged, but he leaves clear that he is worried and he is here for you, you can rely on him or in your other friends, he is sure they will be happy to help you

If you aren't even aware of your own feelings he will try his best to help you realize it (probably slowly), he doesn't want to be pushy but this is something serious, if, deep down, you really wish dead is better to take care of those feelings now

He will offer his help, even if he can't do much he still offer you do the little he can do for you, as well he will constantly looking after you, unconsciously paying close attention to you. Shuichi knows pretty well how it is to feel depressed but also knows what is like having friends that help you grow, and that is what he want to be for you, he is determinated to help you because he apreciate you and care for you, he wants to see you smile, but with a sincere smile, one that is from true happiness

Shoya Ishida

It would take Ishida a while to accept the fact that you two are friends, is just that it had been so long since the last time he had someone who he can consider his friend that he doesn't know what to do or even if he deserve it

Your cheerful and undying smile makes Ishida nervous but at the same time it make him feel more at easy sometimes, sometimes he is troubled by it because it could be a little too much (for how new is for him) but other times make him feel like is okay for him to relax and accept the friendship

Ishida sometimes wonder how you can be so cheerful and happy all the time, but he doesn't doubt you or question you for it, he just wonder, also that is why he could be easily tricked if you shows hints of not feeling really well but just brush it off, he prefers to don't say anything about it and just agree with you

However, the more he get to see or notice those hints of you actually don't feeling well the more he worries, at first he tries to don't think further on it, saying to himself that he is probably just overthinking or seeing things where there are none, but not matter what the worry persist

The moment he get to heard that you want to be dead is really shocking for him, he understand that feeling but it never crossed his mind the posibility of someone so cheerful as you, someone so different of him, could ever think something like that, let alone wish it. It doesn't matter if he overheard it or it slips from your lips for feeling comfortable with him

Ishida can't believe what he had just heard, or at least doesn't want to accept it, he is even doubting himself, wondering if he had heard you right and will try to convince himself that it isn't true if you come up with an excuse, however the thought of it will stuck in his mind for a long time

You are his friend and he cares a lot for you that is why he wants to help you, although he has no idea of what to do and will be pretty akward around you the next days, like if he is trying to say something but is embarrassed of it, until he finally manage to buld up the courage to talk to you about this (and yet he is being pretty nervous about it), saying that he had heard what you said but clarify that he doesn't judge you, he is just worried

He doesn't know much what to do to help you so he offer you to give you his fully support and learn together what to do in this situation, even admiting that he had wished the same in the past

Is pretty obvious how he tries to pay more attention to you and be more obvious with how he cares for you, constantly asking you how are you feeling and offers his help and to be a shoulder to cry

With time Ishida will grow a little more comfortable with the topic and he will be able to help you in ways that are more subtle but significant, and probably suggest to search for profesional help together

139 notes · View notes