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m4tthewsgf · 4 months
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❥ Get to know me!
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Hi beautiful people, I hope you're doing well! My name is Stacy and I'm 19 years old (ew this is disgusting).
I made a tumblr account just to read fanfics without thinking I'd ever post anything in it but here we are I guess. Writing fanfics was definitely NOT in my plans but look at me now lmao. What I will be posting here will be up to my mood and inspiration, but you can always leave prompts or requests!! I don't think I'll be physically able to write any smut though but again, you never know so never say never
Master list༉‧₊˚.
Now some random ass facts about me cuz why not?
-Mental health is really important to me so, with that being said, you can always hmu on my inbox. I promise I'll listen!
-Currently, I'm in my first year in uni and studying business administration (I kinda hate it though). My og plan was to study psychology but it didn't quite work out.
-My favourite artist is NF. He helped me survive the darkest days of my life and I hope I'll be able to see him perform live one day. I've been a fan of his since 2018 and my favourite album of his is "The search".
-I love every animal in the world like if I had one wish, it would be to save all of them and protect them. They bring me so much joy, it's insane.
-My favourite colours are emerald green, black and dark red.
-I am an only child and I've always hated it like it's so boring and lonely.
-One thing I absolutely HATE is hook up culture. I despise it so much to the point it infuriates me. Obviously this is my personal opinion, if you like it, good for you, I just personally could never.
-I'm obsessed with the idea of love and that's why I started reading fanfics and books.
-I used to be obsessed with marvel and Loki was my comfort character. I still have a soft spot for him ngl.
-I L O V E animated movies like they are my childhood, but my comfort movies are the how to train your dragon trilogy.
-I only have 2 friends irl lmao. I am an introvert and I'd rather stay at home most of the time.
-I am a sucker for alone time. That shit always gives me energy and I'm so happy when I get it.
-I've never been in a relationship (even though I've been craving for one my whole life).
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that1enby69 · 1 year
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A Dreamy Moment.
FIRST JACOB FANFIC IM PISSING MYSELF😭- (that was an attempt at a pun, i hate myself rn lmaooo)
ALSO G/N READER CUZ EVERYONE LOVES HIM
(Based on that one dream I had ;D )
( Btw if this is bad I'm so sorry I'll try better next time lmao)
It was quiet. Well, as quiet as it could be with two people in a room. You were laying on Jacob's chest. You could hear his heartbeat. It was fast, but calming. You also felt the way his chest rose when he breathed in, and fell when he exhaled.
All of the sudden, Jacob hums lightly.
"You asleep?" He lightly chuckles, and kisses your forehead.
"No, I'm just listening to your heart." You reply, smiling to him.
A few minutes of silence pass by, as finally Jacob speaks up.
"Top or Bottom?" He asked. Maybe as a joke, or maybe he was just curious, I wouldn't know that's going on in his head.
"Me? Oh, I'm a switch. But I've more often been Top. But I kind of wanna try to be taken care of once." You giggled, mostly to yourself.
Jacob whispers something, however it wasn't audible. And in the blink of an eye you were flipped on your back, Jacob hovering on top of you.
he looks down at you, and smirks.
"How about we switch it up a little? I could make you feel so good~"
You were surprised and flustered. He pinned you to the bed and you couldn't escape his hold. Not that you wanted too.
You nodded, feeling hot, but still shocked from the sudden placement.
"Hmm, you look so pretty darlin', but somethings missing.."
He starts to kiss your neck, leaving hickeys and love bites. You start to hum lightly. He made you feel good. You were really enjoying this.
His kisses trailed down from your neck, on your collar bone and reached your chest. He stops here, looking up at you again. "C-can I?" He starts stuttering. You nod again, biting your lip and blushing.
He continues to kiss down your chest, all the way down to your lower stomach. He lightly touches you and slowly pulls down your undergarments, making you whimper. He had been teasing you all this time, praising you for your whining and moaning. But you needed more. You felt wet and you wanted him to take care of it.
All of the sudden, he stops.
"Maybe I shouldn't get you all aroused now." He teases you. " we still need to make dinner and you have work to do and-"
You cut him off.
"Fuck Jacob! Don'tstart something you cant finish! Please- fuck I BEG you. i-i, i need you right here, please Jacob."
He just smirks. "You need me that badly, huh? You want me inside you sooo much hun?"
"Don't worry darlin'. We've only just started~" The last sentence was deeper and harsher, but you loved it.
He pulled your underwear and kissed your pelvic. Then he started to rub in between your legs. It felt so good, yet you wanted more. You moaned while his hands did the magic. A little more, and you felt your climax point. Fuck- you were gonna-
Jacob kissed you passionately, and went faster. You were almost there, and-
Jacob Wakes up with a jolt.
No. No, no, no, no, NO!
IT WAS A DREAM! FUCK.
Fuck…
He wipes the sleepy from his eyes. His sheets were wet and sticky, And his newly taken photos of you were too.
Damn, he had forgotten that he fell asleep looking at them.
It's okay, i'ts okay. He has a lot more of them. He looks around his room. Every single wall in his room was filled with Polaroids (the dates written in red ink). He also had a big corkboard, with probably all information about you. You would've never known about this. Heh, it's okay, though. It's only a matter of time before you two get together. He smirks.
*bu-Ding*
Oh, a message? Jacob stood up and checked his computer.
*YourName has accepted your friend request!*
They accepted! Perfect.
Oh my darlin'.
you and me, are really meant to be….
A/N: OMG I'm dying. Bro I'm OBSESSED over this man ;-;
I'm gonna try to post more and all that, and I might do some fanart :D
Hope you enjoyed!
(Jacob belongs to @carnivorekitty)
<333
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clotpolesonly · 5 months
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20 questions for fic writers!
tagged my @thotpuppy!! &lt;3
1. How many works do you have on AO3?
209
2. What’s your total AO3 word count?
1,195,283
3. What fandoms do you write for?
on AO3, i have posted for: Teen Wolf Merlin Raven Cycle Captive Prince Dark Rise Supernatural (crossover w/TW) once upon a time, back in FFN days, i also wrote and posted for Harry Potter (primarily) and then one each for Newsies, Little Mermaid II, and Twilight. none of these fics ever got finished lmao.
4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?
Metamorphose (Merlin, Merthur, 7750 kudos) Happiness is Effortless (TW, Sterek, 7746 kudos) Much Ado About You Two (TW, Sterek, 7046 kudos) I'll Dissolve When The Rain Pours In... (TW, Stackson, 6172 kudos) We Duel At Dawn (Merlin, Merthur, 4949 kudos)
5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?
i respond to all my comments!! (except for comments on old suspended WIPs that ask if i'm writing more, which i let sit in my inbox to haunt me like a beating heart under my floorboards slowly driving me insane until i figure out if i am writing more or if i can definitively tell them it's abandoned alkfdgh) i've been stuck recently though and have let my inbox get backed up for a month, so i really need to go on a reply spree soon 😭 it's just a point of pride, i guess? i made the decision that i would Respond To All Comments/Reviews I Ever Get when i first started posting back on FFN in ye olden days (like 2008 lol), and i've been pretty darn good at keeping that promise to myself. and i just think it's nice!! FFN had private messaging, and a lot of those responses turned into whole conversations and friendships that lasted for months. community engagement is a good thing and i like reaching back to the people who reach out to me.
6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?
proooobably These Gordian Knots We Tie (Sterek)😅 though An Empty Glass Is An Ugly Mirror (Dydia) is also pretty bleak.
7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?
uuhhh most of them??? i write a lot of fluff, LOL, i wouldn't know how to pick out just one that stands above the rest when the vast majority of my posted oneshots are sappy as fuck 😂
8. Do you get hate on fics?
i really don't, tbh. which i count myself lucky for, cuz i hear a lot of horror stories. but i've only gotten a small handful of negative comments, most of which were bitching about disagreeing with the characters' choices. i don't think i've ever fielded personal attacks or what ye olden FFNers would've called flames, lol. proportionally, they're negligible.
9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?
on occasion. out of my 209 fics, only 13 of them are explicit, which is roughly 6% lol. including my 7 mature fics (not all of which are rated so for smut, i don't think) ups that to 9.5% 😂 i'm just not very interested in writing smut, not to mention it's both difficult and kind of boring and repetitive when you think about it. i feel like i'm notorious for romances that use one kiss as the climactic ending, if even that, haha. when i do (rarely) write smut, it's usually in dedicated pwp format, rather than integrated into a larger story, cuz i just feel like most larger stories (mine, at least) don't need it 🤷🏻‍♀️
10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?
the only crossover that i've written and posted was Teen Wolf/Supernatural, cuz i just could not resist the urge to have Allison call the Winchesters and tell them that her father had gone on a hunting trip and he hadn't been home in a while. i just needed that in my life, and i was offended that no one else had written it. also i thought that Dean "Easily Flustered By Flirtatious Men" Winchester should really meet Stiles "Doe Eyes, Witty Banter Someone Needs To Sex Me Right Now" Stilinski. for reasons.
11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?
i have! the reason that i teeechnically have a wattpad account is because someone yoinked To Be A King wholesale and posted it over there themselves, and i needed an account to be able to message them to take it tf down. weirdly, they changed some of the names, but not the distinctive names? the identifying names?? like Mordred or the names of my OCs. it was an odd choice. anyway, they took it down immediately with no other response. i think that's been the only time, as far as i'm aware.
12. Have you ever had a fic translated?
i've got 15 translations listed in my related works 😍 8 of them by the same industrious person, bless them.
13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?
not since that one disaster of an attempt with a friend in early high school, lmao. that's when i realized that i am a control freak with high and unforgiving standards. she was writing her parts 1) badly and 2) WRONG and it drove me up the wall. i can't handle not having complete control of the narrative 😅 i write alone.
14. What’s your all time favourite ship?
that's not faaaiiiiiir, patently impossible to answer, next question
15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?
if i don't finish For Shell And Safety someday, it'll be a fucking tragedy, cuz i'm really proud of that one and i was so so invested in it when i started it and i've still got Thoughts on how it's supposed to end, i just got stalled out in the middle of it and never found my momentum again. but.....it's been 6.5 fucking years. however, i feel like, because i do still have those thoughts and plans, that one might have a better chance than REM-DAC, because THAT one stalled out right before it was supposed to be over due to the sudden realization that i actually wanted there to be a sequel and i couldn't tie up the loose ends in the first fic without knowing how to set up for the second one. but. i never figured out concretely what i wanted to happen in the second one. and it's been 5.5 years there too. still no concrete plans. so, despite that one also being a GREAT FIC that i'm VERY PROUD OF and deeply invested in, i will have to at some point accept the reality of how low the odds are that i will ever actually get back into the swing of it and finish what i fucking started. they haunt me.
16. What are your writing strengths?
i'm really not quite sure 🤔 strengths and weaknesses are easier to tell from an outside perspective, lol. i feel like i write good natural-feeling dialogue. at least, the professor in the one short story technique workshop i took in college told me as much 😂 said i had the best dialogue in the class. been riding that high for a decade aldkfjghf
17. What are your writing weaknesses?
idkkkkkk 😅😅😅 pacing maybe?? like, long form pacing in lengthier narratives??
18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?
i have avoided it so far, lkajdfgh. objectively, i think it can be done well and it can be done badly, and different methods serve different purposes so it depends on the story which is most appropriate. the online medium provides more avenues for it than print, like the hover text translations that used to be more popular before phones/touchscreens without cursors became the most prominent way to read things, or superscript links to footnotes with translations. some people put the translation directly into the narrative like an echo, but that gets really tedious really fast, and it would be simpler and more streamlined to just cut out the other language entirely and say "XYZ" he said, in french instead. overall, my preferred method is to filter it through the understanding of the POV character and their potentially limited/imperfect grasp of that other language. if they don't know what's being said, we don't know what's being said. if they pick out some words and get the gist, we see their thought process of figuring it out. it informs our understanding of the character, as well as providing an obstacle and creating tension. if you want to include a full translation of the foreign text, you can in endnotes or a postscript, but i don't really think it's necessary. if people wanna find out what it says, google translate is free 🤷🏻‍♀️ probably best not to use google translate to write the thing, though. if it's not a language you speak, preferably find someone who does speak it to translate, to make sure it's accurate and not butchered. hence me avoiding writing anything that requires other languages 😂 cuz i'm a monolingual usamerican loser who doesn't want to go to as much trouble as it would require to branch out like this. i am a "so-and-so said something unintelligibly french" bitch.
19. First fandom you wrote for?
cut my teeth on Harry Potter back in the day
20. Favourite fic you’ve written?
another patently impossible question, i have no answer for this, i love all my fics equally (or at least in tiers uwu)
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i am tagginggg: @adamprrishcycle @flightspathfic @nooowestayandgetcaught @adrianfridge @nyxelestia and anybody else who wants to do it!!
20 questions for fic writers!
1. How many works do you have on AO3?
2. What’s your total AO3 word count?
3. What fandoms do you write for?
4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?
5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?
6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?
7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?
8. Do you get hate on fics?
9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?
10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?
11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?
12. Have you ever had a fic translated?
13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?
14. What’s your all time favourite ship?
15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?
16. What are your writing strengths?
17. What are your writing weaknesses?
18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?
19. First fandom you wrote for?
20. Favourite fic you’ve written?
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future-boi · 2 months
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So uh, I've been hearing a lot about that bttf fic your writing. I was wondering if you could share a bit of its plot? I just really wanna know what it's about :D
(And if you have shared its plot and my blind self missed it would you mind linking it?)
Oh 😳
Well it's still heavily under the works... I've only mentioned it here and there, but haven't taken the time to create it's own post for it...
But I guess I'll do that right now! The structure is still subject to change but here's what I have in mind so far:
It'll be split into 5ish parts. I haven't written them all, but I can say for a fact they will vary in length. Part 1 will follow the first movie EXCEPT for the ending where Doc shows up and says they need to go to the future. Part 2 will be exploring the Lone Pines timeline and Marty adjusting to his new family. Then, it will end with Doc going to Marty and taking him to the future to save his kids. Part 3 will be a side story or collection of stories of what happened since 1955 that led to the Hell Valley we see in the movie (should just be through George and Lorraine's POV) [It will be pretty short compared to Parts 1 and 2, I can already tell]. Part 4 will return to the main story with Marty accidentally creating Hell Valley and traveling there [meeting his alternate family and self] until he travels back to 1955 to fix it. Part 5 is him traveling back to 1955 to fix it lol.
As you can see theres so many details im leaving out but thats the general outline and you can follow it pretty easily with the knowledge of the movies. It's also subject to change. I might shorten it to 4 parts. It used to be 6 but I thought about it and decided to combine some things. Plot twist: we get 8 parts.
The gist is that its more focused on the McFly family so we're going to see more of Dave and Linda and how their lives changed throughout the 3 timelines, not just George and Lorraine. Marty also gets his own character arc too. From the beginning, not just from the second movie. So please bear with me as the characters might be a lil OOC... ima try to excuse it by saying its cuz I'm changing the rules of the franchise's universe a bit, but its up to your interpretation...
And I've never written anything before so a part of me is like bruh this is too ambitious what is goin on. But another part of me is like LESGOOOOO
Don't think I described the plot well AT ALL. Sorry. But... its basically just Back to the Future? Changes here and there. Some big, some smol. It really feels like fanfic in one of its most distilled states lmao. [A remake??? A re-imagining??? Zemeckis and Gale would hate me]
I just feel like itll take a while 😅 It's been about ~3 months since I've started working on it and I only have the first draft of part one and the rough draft of part two. But I'd say it's looking pretty good so far.
💝 Thank you for the ask! 💝 It gave me an opportunity to give a real update.
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hangmanbradshaw · 4 months
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20 questions for fic writers
Tagged by @urmomsonfire and I figured I should keep going with the writing questions today!!! (thanks kale, love u)
1. How many works do you have on AO3? 17
2. What’s your total AO3 word count? 796,198 (do we think I can crack a million in close to a year we'll see)
3. What fandoms do you write for? I'm still living in Top Gun summer so I'll just be vibing here for a while
4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?
i want to brainwash you into loving me forever (nfl fake dating au)
baby, i'm howlin' for you (wolves & foxes au)
i can't stop you putting roots in my dreamland (rival princes au)
loose lips sink ships all the damn time (pirates au)
Love (Suite Love) (my travlor inspired AU lmao)
5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not? I try to!! I'm really behind right now because I get really sucked into writing (and life, been very busy with my social calendar at the moment) but eventually I'll go through and catch up. Writing like this is for community, ya know? Engagement? Making friends, being crazy together, it's the vibe. (Plus every time a comment notification dings, an idea angel gets its wings lmao it's my fave part- talking to people)
6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? Unhappy ending? Don't know her. I guess you can make my wish come true just cuz it ends with them deciding to kidnap the president and cyclone being like oh my god
7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? it's 2am and i'm cursing your name is pretty stupid sweet but also wanna be your left hand man/iwtby left off prettyyyyyyy sweet
8. Do you get hate on fics? Everyone's always been sooooo sweet.
9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind? *glances at my work from the corner of my eye* yes. just yes.
10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written? My mummy fic has actual mummy characters. But I've written a lot of like inspired ones? Some loose, some closer. One based off the Mummy, one that's a mummy/national treasure crossover LMAO, one off Jurassic Park, one off Twister, one off Beauty & the Beast kinda, one off princess & the frog, one kinda princess diaries 2/how to lose a guy BUT I actually have an insane idea I came up with recently that would be a uhhhhhhh crossover I guess........I'm giggling as I think about it
11. Have you ever had a fic stolen? I don't think so? I hope not.
12. Have you ever had a fic translated? some people have asked! So maybe soon.
13. Have you ever co-written a fic before? nope! but I love to riff with other writers. i'm way too particular about my own work to co-write probably tbh
14. What’s your all time favorite ship? Hangster currently! prev: buddie, destiel, sharpay/gabriella from hsm (leave me alone lmao).
15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will? if I post I am going to make myself finish but I have some I've never posted that I doubt I'll finish (one's a rivals fake dating destination wedding)
16. What are your writing strengths? I'd say melancholic fluffy humor and banter, others have told me world building and being lowkey emotional
17. What are your writing weaknesses? being concise and angst actually- I struggle with that sometimes
18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic? Amazing when people can do it, but I tend to avoid writing it since I'm not fluent.
19. First fandom you wrote for? High School Musical and then I took a massive break and started with Top Gun again.
20. Favorite fic you’ve written? I love all my babies for different reasons but IWTBY & That Little Farm are currently my true loves
Tagging anyone who wants to do this, also @paulmezcal as a welcome to tumblr (no pressure you def don't have to do it haha)
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moonspirit · 2 months
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HI HELLO WOFE!!
For the questions game!
3, 7, 5, 12, 14, 20, 31, 35
-Clouds ☁️
HELLO WAIF!!! This got long cuz I can't shut up, so under the cut #_#
3 - 3 films you could watch for the rest of your life and not get bored of? OOOOkay! Interstellar, Titanic, and Your Name (although other equally strong contenders are the Avatar movies (james cameron), any Ghibli movie, and The Martian, which I remember you love too T^T Yay common movie!)
7 - what scares you the most and why? Forgetting. More than being forgotten, which doesn't really bother me, it's forgetting. Even if a portion of my life has been dark or bleak, there's been a lot of nice things to appreciate even then; I try to write it all down in a journal every day. I think life's value is really all the moments and memories that fill up over time; I'm scared of a day coming when I don't remember all the lovely things I've encountered in my life.
5 - what made you start your blog? Ahh... I've honestly been here a long time xD Since late 2013 or early 2014, I don't remember very well, but O L D. At first I just started one to post my graphic designing pieces, but then stayed for the fandom culture and very specific humour which made me feel at home. I've left now and then, but I've always come back.
12 - what’s some good advice you want to share? This is tricky, because I give myself advice, and don't follow it #_# But something that has helped me a lot is to see only the present moment as truly valuable, and to soak in every bit of that, in touch, taste, smell and seeing. That way you've lived that minute or that hour, fully, and even if you don't get to live the next, you can find some peace. Why I say it helped me is because I always fret about the future, about whether this or that will happen, etc, and this shut up all those unwanted anxieties. 'Now' matters. Tomorrow will come, but I'll deal with it when it comes.
14 - what’s something you’ve always wanted to do but maybe been to scared to do? I think... to live more spontaneously? XD I'm a planned/organized person, I need to see things on an agenda to breathe easy lmao. I envy people who can just live everyday spontaneously as it comes, without a care in the world.
20 - favourite things about the night? EVERYTHING!!!!! ALL OF IT!!!!! I love most the drop in temperature, the silence, the occasional owls and bats, and also the lights in the distance. I live in a suburb, and while the immediate vicinity isn't bustling with noise and is mostly covered with trees and wildnerness, I can see the city in the distance. I like watching the pinpricks of moving vehicles, and wondering where they're going and to whom. The best thing of course, is the night sky. I spend inordinate amounts of time studying the stars and constellations haha xD Still don't have a telescope to see Jupiter's moons, but! one day! soon!
31 - are you messy or organised? V E R Y organized. Though in times of stress, it devolves into organized chaos, but still organized. My phase of using colour coded memo pads and cute stationery has long gone (tho I still love cute stationery T^T), so I just keep things simple now. A list. Ticked off. Etc.
35 - do you trust easily? Yeah. I shouldn't, given some stupid shit that happened some years back, but I still do xD I like to believe people are good (which is strange considering I hate human interaction, but then I suppose it applies to people I form bonds with, like you!)
HAVE I EXPOSED MYSELF ENOUGH YET??? AM I STILL GOOD TO MARRY???
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hanmasmommy · 2 years
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rough sex with hanma and some fluff at the end😖💘
❦︎ - uhm excuse me? did you read my fucking mind? i've been thinking about rough sex with some bitch but idk who so ig i'll go with hanma💀and so sorry it took me decades to write this i actually finished writing it last month but i forgot to post it LMAO
cw - sub!hanma, dom!reader, pegging, orgasm denial, ooc hanma(lmao),really short cuz im dumb
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your hips has been going non-stop fucking your boyfriend's ass. you see, this was supposed to be a punishment. because your dumb boyfriend was 'pranking' you by flirting with some bitches when you both are at the pub earlier. this is hanma shuji we're talking about here. ofc he's enjoying the 'punishment' you're giving him as of right now. "agh- good! 's good! more! fuck me more-" even though you're fucking him from behind, you can still see that satisfied grin he always have on his face.
landing a harsh slap on his ass repeatedly. hanma's moans just got louder and louder. your neighbors probably already heard your boyfriend's moans considering how loud he is. the punishment you're giving him rn is no longer a punishment because he keep asking for more. pushing his head on the mattress, you switch on the vibrator that was attached to his leaking cock to the maximum level. the tip of your strap hitting his prostate so hard he start seeing white. "cum-cumming! gonna cum- augh!" hands gripping the sheets tightly it almost got ripped.
you grab his cock on the base preventing him from cumming. and you continue thrusting your cock in and out of his sopping hole. "hey- y/n... let me cum!" ignoring his pleas, you thrust your cock deeper he can feel the bulge on his stomach now. "y/n- why are- AGH! you so qu-quiet? eek! ahm! say-say something!" trying to look back, his head got pressed even more onto the pillow. he hates this. no matter how much you get mad at him, you always talk to him. but not any sound coming from you somehow makes him anxious.
"yellow.." he mumbles slowly though you heard it and immediately let go of his head. pulling out, you turn hanma on his back. you can see tears pooling in his eyes. "i'm sorry hun... am i too hard? you ask while caressing his flushed face. "no... just talk to me! i'm sorry! i won't do that again!" he's looking at you with wide eyes, begging for forgiveness. you lean down and leave a kiss on his wet lips. "alright. don't do that again okay?"
"i promise! please don't ignore me.." hanma shuji hates when you ignore him. after all he got ghost by his bestfriend (literally). after a while, you continue thrusting back into your boyfriend's hole as you keep telling him how much you love his stupid ass.
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now both of you are lying down facing each other while you push his hair out of his face. who would've thought that 'hanma shuji' would cry for his lover. "...ve you" he said. "what did you say?" you ask making him move closer to your chest. "i said i love you, stupid" and you couldnt missed how red his face while saying that.
"i know. and i love you too shuji"
he definitely love this affection it you're giving. it's warm and it feels like home<3
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sparkymalone · 6 months
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Hey all! So I'm having a LOT of trouble with chapter 16 of Live or Die, and I could certainly use some help. The chapter is based off of The Little Mermaid (like forever ago, a commenter requested it and I'm TRYING to deliver). I basically used the plot as a basis, but I'm making it my own... kind of? IDK.
The problem is that I think I got way too rambly in trying to keep with the main beats of the Littler Mermaid story, and as such I kinda lost my way. Or something. It took me like 20+ pages to get to the smut, which is a PROBLEM in a smut compilation.
I'll post what I have of the chapter so far, but I thought that first I would post the outline that I made. I have an outline for every chapter and I thought this might be a fun peek behind the curtain. Enjoy my eccentric thought process!
Mermaid Hajime lol
Not a prince or anything, just regular old Hajime
One day he sees Fuyuhiko on a ship and thinks he's super hot
Fuyuhiko gets swept overboard
Hajime saves him and they make out a little
Returns him to the shore and quickly swims away
And Fuyuhiko isn't sure if that really happened or not, because making out with a merman just sounds crazy
Hajime can't stop thinking about him and wants to go to the surface to see him
Someone suggests he go talk to the sea witch
Probably Nagito being shady
Or Kazuichi being an idiot
The sea witch is Junko, obvi
Her whole motivation is just fucking shit up
She offers to give Hajime legs in exchange for his voice
Junko tells him that if he can get Fuyuhiko to kiss him within three days, he can stay human and he'll get his voice back
If he can't do it, he "belongs to Junko" and she won't elaborate on what that means 
He thinks it's super weird, but he eventually agrees
Maybe Junko manipulates him into saying yes?
So he gets to go to the surface
Someone finds him and puts some clothes on him
Maybe not Fuyuhiko
Takes him to the palace or whatever
Lol Prince Fuyuhiko
Fuyuhiko sees him and kinda freaks out
Because that definitely looks like the guy he made out with, but that wasn't real, was it???
And he's not a merman???
But Hajime is just so happy to see him
So they start hanging out
Right away Fuyuhiko's like "why the fuck can't you talk? What's wrong with you?"
And Hajime just has to shrug
They come really close to kissing at the end of the second day, but they get interrupted
And Junko hates that Hajime got so close to breaking her spell
So she tweaks it so that now, to break the spell, Hajime has to get Fuyuhiko to fuck
And somehow, by the end of the third day, he does it
Either:
Big fight with Junko cuz she's mad that they aren't falling to despair
Or she's just like "curse you, you beautiful gays!" And leaves them alone
Now that Hajime can talk, he and Fuyuhiko actually start getting to know each other
Hook up for reals
Possibly toss another sex scene in there for good measure lmao 
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shzmluvrs · 11 months
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Here's A Proper Intro lol
So, if you haven't gathered this fact by now, this is a shared account with two users. We're gonna try to be as active as possible, but please be aware we...have lives outside of Tumblr, so-💀.
But anyhow, we're very welcoming and encourage you to explore our page and do whatever you want (except leave any type of hate/negativity, that's unessecary, we'll block you♡). And, we're always looking to make new friends, so, DMs are always open, even if you just want to vent :).
And finally, common account rules; if you don't like it, don't read it - if you don't like our content, block us - if you wanna join us, DM us - all that jazz. Anyways, here's our personal intros. Love y'all <3 !!
~ Moon🌙 & Star✨️
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Name: Star✨️
Pronouns: She/Her/Hers
/Aquarius🔆 Cancer🌙 Leo⬆️/
Hai! I'm just gonna be real simple about this...I do most of the writing and headcanons and writing-related-whatnot on this account. Ofc, Moon is always giving me ideas and inspo, she was my main motivator to even do this account with her, after all😌💅🏽.
Anyways, I'm happy to write whatever for whoever, as long as I've got the proper ideas to work with (so make your requests specific/detailed and as long as you want, I don't mind. In fact, I'd adore it😼). I literally have no other boundaries other than that tbh (at least, not any that I can think of right now), so go nuts😭✋🏽.
Oh, and you'll always know it's me addressing you because I usually write (or at least, start off) in purple or I'll just sign off with my name, so yee.
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Name: Moon🌙
Pronouns: She/Her/Hers
/Gemini🔆 Taurus🌙 Capricorn⬆️/
Hey y'all! So I mostly make cute lil' aesthetic pics/collages/gifs/wallpapers/backgrounds, and edits! I also sometimes make up headcanons (mostly for Freddy, cuz he's my manz 😽💙)- but I'm obvi not only limited to making headcanons for him. Feel free to request a specific collage/wallpaper, aesthetic pic, edit (e.g. Freddy and Anthea edit with *insert song here*. Or e.g. Billy and Freddy collage platonically, obvi. //NO SHIPPING BILLY AND FREDDY IN A ROMANTIC WAY, YOU WILL BE BLOCKED, PERIOD 💅🏻.//) (I agree with this btw, THEY'RE BROTHERS, IT'S GROSS😾🙅🏽‍♀️), or headcanons of any Shazam characters! Occasional shitposter 😃. (Me and Star are also shifters n' spiritual gals, so if you're open to that kinda stuff, feel free to dm us because we need Shazam-shifting-friends lmao). AND, I also post doodles so that's cool!!
Huge thanks to Star, my literal soulmate, for making this acc (y'all it's literally so slay- my girlie is creative n' talented af, you'll see ✨), and giving me the actual motivation to write this 🩷!!
Anyway, you'll know it's me cuz I'll either type in pink, or sign off as Moon🌙! Much love, angels <333
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Anyways, now that intros are done, here's the Master List where everything is...!! -
Master List lol
Anyways, that's about it, we're pretty sure! So byeee <3.
~ Moon🌙 & Star✨️
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shai-manahan · 1 year
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Chapter 2 def. needed to be calm after the first chapter. The MC will fall apart otherwise haha. But I really liked it. I’m really invested with how the MC deals and interacts in their daily life with their current predicament and hate from other people. Just talking back to them and to keep challenging their views and beliefs like in at the station just not backing down hell yeah for the MC !😁
Who was that guy that entered the room and thought he said something clever and the MC can just be ‘Oh we can go right now’ and BAM 💥 fear intensifies haah love it 😄
But yh getting off topic anyway, I liked the first chapter and action but! the interaction with all the characters and some well earned peace even more. Cuz we are immediately thrown into danger at the start of the story and it was great to have a chance for the MC to catch their breath.
I totally forgot to post this, I'm sorry 😭
Thank you for the kind message, anon! I really appreciate it, though of course I still have to take in consideration the criticisms I get.
Like, I'm avoiding it entirely for now so I could focus on writing, but I'll definitely go through at least one playthrough in the future so I could figure out how to make it better without changing the overall vibe or the need to rewrite.
Also, you're probably talking about Bertrand lmao. That man's going to be much more than an annoyance tbh but I'll always love the options I have reserved for those interactions. Those are the parts that are more important for me to pay attention to because they're precisely the scenarios where the MC needs to have control over. Especially as things might get... worse....
Again, thank you for this! I'd never stop appreciating compliments from y'all :D
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today on slush-posting's fo4 bullshit:
- started and finished mechanical menace , got ada as a companion !! she's cool , i like her . feel bad for her tho D:
- i kept running into super mutants everywhere ... so i kept running away ...
- i took maccready's hat ! i think i look p good in it
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- found a puppy in the woods , in a cage !!! his name is teddy and i can't rescue him cuz the lock was advanced and i am a mere level 16 (was level 15 at the time i found him) with minimal lockpicking skills D:
- went to covenant . hated every second . couldn't even finish the quest with honest dan so i just ... booked it
- got the absolute SHIT beat outta me at hubris comics while tryna acquire the silver shroud costume . all was well until a frickin glowing one came up behind me when i was tryna find it
- found some new locations but they were kinda boring ? ranger cabin and wicked shipping fleet lockup were among them
i spent a good chunk of today at the state fair so i quit early tonight but i leveled up and i'm close to another level up now <3 but with 30+ hours in the game ... my dad made fun of me for leveling up once every two hours D: i am a very cautious player . i do not take unnecessary risks ... or necessary risks .... or risks . i'm trying to get better and i think i am , but dad remains judgmental !!!! as usual 🙄 anyways
woooooould anyone be interested in reading a journal-like fic documenting my gameplay , from seven's perspective ? if i wanna do that i wanna start while the beginning of everything is still fresh in my mind :) just lmk how y'all feeling (i'll probably write the journal anyways LMAO)
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kiri-tired · 2 years
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I don't have problem with the ship itself, but despite shipping Yujikiri side more I think Kiriyuji has better fanworks. Yujikiri side has a problem of making Kirito too submissive, or putting him through extremely uncomfortable situations, woobifying Kirito, even though Eugeo in canon treats him very tenderly. It was already a problem in fanworks of any bottom!Kirito ships even before Alicization anime, it almost feels like because many people hate Kirito so it's sadistically fun for them to see him mistreated. It's not that Kiriyuji side doesn't have OOC works, but Kiriyuji artists seem to respect both Kirito & Eugeo better
OK BUT THIS IS EXACTLY WHAT I´VE BEEN THINKING THOUGH!!!
High-key agree with everything here. I really didn´t want to start any top/bottom discourse cuz it is just so cliche and it reaaaally shouldn´t matter BUT!!! The portrayal of top Eugeo in the fandom is absolutely appalling we really need to talk about it. This is mostly coming from the JP fandom side---but the Western side can be guilty of it too.
I´ve seen some absolutely triggering Yujikiri shit---Actually its more like really triggering Kirito shit tbh--- And I'm not even sure if I can go into the specifics because its SO fucking scary--but trust me when I say they include some really controversial things....And yes! I am definitely noting that bottom Kirito gets absolutely stripped from any personality and gets put in absolute messed-up situations but I don't think it's out of hate though...No no. It's more out of like this sick twisted kink. They just think it's fun to see him getting played with--getting ruined. And speaking of ruin, Eugeo!!!...gets portrayed as disingenuous as possible to the point that it's literally criminal. Ngl, this shit has offended and/or triggered me so hard that I'm even kinda wanting to avoid content creators who prefer top Eu LMAO
I think this is just kind of the problem with yaoi but EH I'm not sure if that excuses everything and besides--I just said the Western fandom is guilty of this too, happening mostly in fanfics. It is just...so fucking weird. It's like yall don't even know the characters smh
And yes while Kiriyuji is not perfect--it CAN be kinda bastardized sometimes, but it has never really been straight up traumatizing like some of the Yujikiri content...
Oh god I am probably sounding really vague right now but it is just THAT bad.
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You know what we need? We need more !Verse Yujikiri content.
...and if yall ever want any tips on how to make a good top Eugeo, I'll write it another post sometime cuz this is already getting way too long LOL
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imnotreal-png · 6 days
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>:) -- Entry 1
OK i just smoked a joint after i wrote the date and now im kinda chillin but imma still yap on dis hoe.
I am a loser. Like a huge loser, okay? Like im not dumb or wtv, i may have reached a weird and insane level of self awareness, but im just as much of a loser as anyone else.
I keep catching myself trying to people please and overstepping my boundaries and justifying it with "oh everyone else does it, so what, its normal" like ok dumb bitch that doesn't make it okay, get a grip.
But i will be yapping away abt alot of stupid bullshit i deal with and stupid things make me sad. I am very well aware that I am irrational, but these are things i feel in those moments that i always hold in because i don't want people 2 see that weak side of me. It's embarrassing and it's not me.
In truth, i have nooo idea what i'm doing. I have 0 clue on where i'll be in the future. I didn't think i'd make it this far and not on some suicidal shit (idk if u can say that word here, oops.), i just genuinely thought that i'd somehow perish?? Like i wasn't really real in some weird way. I just didn't exist. Even though i was always the center of drama or the cause of all things chaotic, i was always misunderstood. god that's so fucking cringe but hear me out.
I always said shit that i believed was clear enough to be understood and yet it wasn't. Even my tone apparently has been rude this entire time. But no one would actually tell me how i come off, they just ate it up in silence and then spaz on me. Even now i don't really understand because i truly believe i am very clear on what im saying. Yet it's still...not seen the way im trying to show it? Idk if im making any sense bruh but whatever. Maybe im narcissistic but no one understands my brain the way i attempt to express it...or i guess how i see it. Idk i guess im just frustrated that no one understands me or gets my brain.
Also it's super cringe when people tell me im mature for my age. Literally eat my shit. actual ick. get away from me.
I hate my mom. She hates me too but she hates me bc I'm not the pussy she wishes she was when she was my age. She's the most childish person i know. I genuinely do not care what she thinks of me whatsoever. She's just power hungry and immature. Actually, I don't even hate her, i just hate that she gets to have all this power over me. I just want my freedom, thats it. She can hate my lifestyle or whatever the fuck, as long as im not living with her. At the end of the day, im truly content with who i am as a person and my moral compass etc, she cant affect that. I just need to have my own space and leave her household to finally be free and actually experience life in a comfortable and more peaceful way. I guess that's all i can say rn. I just wish she would respect my boundaries and stop treating me like im her competition and she'll always be superior. She won't and i cannot wait for the day she finally see's that lol.
!! super irrational moment alert !!
LMAO this is super cringe but like when i started music i put "listen 2 my moozik" in my bio bc we say muzik in albanian but americans wud have 2 read it as moozik to get it right + its funny? Ever since i started rlly getting exposure and performing out there, all these NON SLAVS/BALKANS have started putting it in their bio's 🙄 like be fr, its sooo obvious (at least to me). And now some of these mfs i've interacted w startes stealing my lingo and the way i type [this isn't how i type when i txt friends. its worse and i shorten everything in a miserable way cuz its funny] and it's cute at first but now mfs on social media posting the way i do and talking the way i do. [insert side eye bc yeah] and it's kinda cringe cuz they're actually rlly shallow and mainstream people, they just look like they trying 2 hard to be quirky. lol.
im probably tweakin tho idk.
i wish i grew up with art. i wish my parents had that and were able to introduce it to me. I feel like a fraud when i try to be creative and do things. Even with making music. As much as i enjoy it and love it and it really does make me happy, it feels fake. I can't play any instruments, i can't sing, im far from a good writer, fuck if know anything abt music theory...i literally just click buttons and make sounds on my computer lol. I didn't grow up indulging in art and creativity, i was actually always super bad at it. I wish i had a deeper connection with it. I wish i understood it better. I wish i expressed it better. I wish my ideas were my own. I want to be able to create something that is truly mine without feeling like im a fake.
UHHHH so imma just come on here and vent whenever i feel like i have something i need 2 say. This is intended for the void, if u come across it...cringe.
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clotpolesonly · 1 year
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Tag game tuesday: The MySpace Survey
tagged by @mzkora!!! <3
What’s your name: Jess(ica)
Sun sign: leo but like, just barely 😂 idk what being a cusp means but i'm one of those, like first day of leo
The last song you listened to: i haven't listened to any music today except for one of those musical comedians, this one was about a guy whose friend was flirting with his dad and it was a banger lmao, twas hilarious
What are you wearing right now: the practical all black outfit i've been wearing (unfortunately) for most of the last 3 weeks as i work backstage crew for a musical. usually i change between work and the theater, but my sister starts a new job today which means there will be commute time added as she comes to get me, instead of her being here right at 5, so we won't have TIME to go home and change and get food before we have to head to the theater, so i'm just cutting out the middle man and wearing it all day. this is the third weekend of performances though, show closes sunday, so it's the only time i'll have to.
How tall are you? 5’8
Piercings? only ears, and i don't wear earrings very often, really only for special occasions
Tattoos? i've got one tattoo, as a memorial for my dad who died in 2017. it's a snippet of lyrics from one of the songs he wrote, behind my left ear. i'm planning on getting a memorial tattoo for my grandmother who died in november(?? i think) but we can't currently FIND the drawing she did that i was gonna get. so. if we ever find that again, i'm gonna get it on my hip.
Glasses or contacts? contacts, all day almost every day for about 20 years now, i put them in before i even get out of bed in the mornings. i hate not having peripheral vision in glasses.
Last drink: water yum yum
Last thing you ate: a chicken and cheese quesadilla and a banana/strawberry smoooooothie
Favorite color: big fan of purple
Any pets? not any of my own. had cats and a dog growing up, and had a rat for a few years a while back, but they have all since died 😅 i'm not inclined toward all the upkeep required for larger pets, so no cats or dogs if i have to actually take care of them entirely myself, and i would be down to get another rat or two, but my sister was DEVASTATED when Freya died and refuses to be traumatized by any more pets with short life spans aldkfjg. so no more rats lol.
Do you have a crush on anyone? nope uwu
Favorite fictional character: currently i am deeply fixated on Declan Lynch, somebody send help
A movie you think everyone should watch: uuuuhhhhh A Christmas Carol, the musical version with Kelsey Grammer?? first thing that came to mind, very random 😂 but that version is a banger, i love the music, clearly the superior adaptation of the story
A book you think everyone should read: mmm gonna throw darts at the wall and say Two Dark Moons by Avi Silver, cuz i read it fairly recently and enjoyed it a lot?? idk, i want there to be a fandom for that, i went looking on tumblr for stuff about it and found a grand total of like two posts and was very disappointed lol. somebody else go read it so i'm not alone XD
The last place you traveled: i don't go anywhere aldkfgh. i think the last place i went waaasssss alabama? Mobile maybe?? fuck i don't remember, we went to the Winona Judd concert, wherever it was.
Something you’re looking forward to: strike for this show i'm working 😂 probably the first time i've ever looked forward to strike (the process of disassembling a show's set and clearing out the theater and dressing rooms, huge ordeal) but after dealing with these obnoxious fucking difficult to maneuver set pieces for the last month, i think i will greatly enjoy reducing them to piles of wood and screws.
And I am tagging: @adamprrishcycle @cheeeryos @alloverthegaf @alisonhales @mayonnaisetoffees
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lavanda-celeste · 7 days
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hi ya buncha freaks how's hell going
sorry sorry ill stop being rude to yall now I was just in a really bad place mentally when I made all previous visible posts
I see that a lot of you sticked around even after my account fell apart, thanks for that (even if some people probably jus forgot they were following me lmao) so uhh I'll keep you updated from time to time
(info under cut)
again, as I said before, I'd rather wait until the uh, "founder" (aka foot glove with a clip on it lmao) hits 18 and maybe makes an announcement about allowing nsfw (probably not tho) but don't worry in case theres no announcement or she just says no I'm planning to make ocs based on Wh1tty and Upd1k3 that like, aren't straight rip offs but still have the same vibe if U know what I mean
another thing is that I've definitely decided that if I start drawing again I'll just post to Aryion and no where else, sorry tumblr-only folks, but I've been advised to gatekeep my stuff a little more so dumb kiddos don't come snooping around, and also back when I got into trouble some people reacted to screenshots of my art like I committed murder and gave birth to the antichrist or something (which btw were screenshots of the Endo version of the Wh1tty X Cotoni comic, which is pretty much one of the tamest things you can find on this whole community??? idk man, frickin kinkshamers)
so like, if I stay confined to aryion, not only the site is explicitly said to be 18+ when you enter, but also like, if someone enters there and gets disgusted, it's not my issue man like aryion is literally the v*re website why would you enter it if you don't like it LMAOO (sadly I checked and Aryion art does show up on Google images and there's no way to get your art outta there, oh well, at least it seems safesearch blurs most of it)
Last thing for now I hope is that uh, if you see that my opinions seem to swing or not stay consistent, that's Cuz uhhhh I don't own the brain I'm in LMAO, look I don't wanna falsely claim we've got one of those rare Dissociative Identity disorder stuffs but we definitely got something going on alright
so um using a term from that area because I lack better terms, I'm not the "host" but at least I'm in good terms w them (again), now the issue is their right hand supervisor lady fucking hates my guts man. she won't let me cook in peace fr fr, she even made on us that nasty bloody "tattoo" mentioned in the comments of one of my previous posts, rn I'm writing this very late at night since she doesn't seem to be very aware at these hours lol. it's jus that back in around december-january she fucking beat the shitttt outta me for getting us all into trouble, rn tho things more or less chill but again I'm not really allowed to do much still, jus waiting to see when it's appropriate for me to return to cooking the good shite
oh I might have to change my artstyle to avoid (or at least lessen the probability of) any potential connection to the "host"'s account, yea it's gonna suck having to develop a new one
so yea see ya uhh later in the year in a few months probably, remember to stay sane and do not lower ur standards when consuming v*re content (haha consume lmao)
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estelle-lee · 7 months
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realization. - 11th August, 2023
uaeuehhhhhh good morning?
lmao it's 11:41 am. i woke up at 9:43 am sharp. spent one hour freshing up, cleaning and organizing and finally breakfast.
then i sat down to study and i just finished physics chap 2 mcqs, it took me 54 mins. it would take me WAY less time if i didn't have to do calculations in every fucking mcq lol.
anyways, it's still a reasonable amount of time even though i got distracted once in a while. i'll try more to not get distracted. i think my attention span is increasing more and more even with adhd, that's like a GREAT progress ^-^
tbh what was distracting me was bangchan's part in the super bowl mv lol. the first part so funny but addicting. reminds me of gordon ramsey's idiot sandwich meme 💀
i'll start physics chapter 3 mcqs now and then move on to general math.
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bruh… again it took me 50 minutes to complete this chapter's mcqs cuz this one also had calculations in every fucking mcq… but i took less time this time, so it's a win-win hehe
finally i can start general math cqs lol, gotta finish it today at any cost!
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i have a plan rn, i'm tired of doing physics' math for the past 2 hours, maybe i should switch up a bit rn and do the designs of my work today and write the blog post.
now that's a 2 in one benefit cuz if i do the this part of the work now then it would be a break for me AND it will take me EVEN LESS TIME to finish my work later.
lol i'm so smart that einstein feels embarrassed in front of me (~ ̄▽ ̄)~
leggo ヾ(≧▽≦*)/
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eek! i did all work instead lol, now i'll just collect links after 7 pm, easy~
i'll fresh up now, have lunch, take a small nap (ok fr i'll take an actual small nap this time without that turning into 4 hours) and then start general, got a lot of time in my hand now hehe
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fuck… we have over 000 pictures in google photos, now i have to transfer ALL OF THEM to a new account ugh… i've been doing this for the past hour, it's almost done… phew
maybe i can take a small nap after this…
FINALLY ಥ_ಥ
FINALLY i have backed up all photos into a new account, also did mine.
DAMN it was a fucking hard work. i deserve a nap now bro…
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i didn't sleep but i took a break and relaxed, uplifted my mood and finished my work.
ngl i had the best laugh today in the past five years. this one video was so funny i saved in my google keep. i laughed loudly for 10 minutes non-stop. my belly is still hurting even after like one and half an hour lol.
i'm now listening some calming songs to wind down everything and start studying.
i feel so calm right now. i feel like everything happened till now happened for a reason.
like i had such a hard time finding work and earning money… knocking clients, working day and night, getting betrayed, faced a lot of scams, lost so much money and time… lost my grades too…
now look at me chilling with a job that only requires 2 hours a day and earning a solid income for my age. while my cousins who are like 15 years older than me are still studying… i'm here acing at my work…
i was so dirty minded and exploited back in class 9… i still feel disgusted recalling all the things i did back then… my grades went down… my mentality was low… my standards were low… the teachers hated me…ngl some of them still do.
but others have seen the good side of me, so they love me for my personality and talent… they unleash the best side of me, i love those teachers. i have been failing my classes since 9th grade after all that.
but now- now i will shine. i will shine brighter than the sun.
i am now prettier, stronger, better. and i will be smarter too. i'm studying hard to make an insane comeback. they will see the "me" that they have never seen before.
the people only knew me after covid because of how i had a glow up… only physically. they loved me for my physical beauty and chaotic exploited me back then…
i loved it too… i loved the attention i was getting for all the things i did… i felt like i was a "rebelious" girl… ew. i hate the past me. i hate what had gotten into me. i hate everything i did last year and i regret every.single.moment. of it.
but now i love myself. i have understood what self love is. i don't want attention anymore for things that aren't good, that aren't right.
i want to be the best version of me. classy, elegant, smart, pretty and beautiful. but i don't want to lose the chaos in me. i just want it combined with all the other good qualities :)
and i think i am getting closer and closer to my goal. i can do it. i'm gonna hit the goals like people hit the gym.e
everything really does happen for a reason.
if all the bad things didn't happen to me, i don't think i would be like this now…
i wouldn't try to improve, i wouldn't try to study, i wouldn't try to get the best grades, i wouldn't try to earn money and support my family. i wouldn't try to anything and live the most basic life possible.
but now i'm doing all of it. see? see me trying?
i'm gonna show all of you what a real glow up is. and i'll show you all how it looks like to be the best version of yourself. the version that everyone loves, the version I, MYSELF, love.
i'm going to show everyone…
i had to write all of this to lighten up my mind and to get the burden off cuz i don't have anyone other than myself to say all of these things to… i feel very light now.
i can finally focus on my studies again. i'll go study now <3
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fuck it… 2 hours and 20 minutes to finish the general math chapter 6 cqs. geometry is fucking big and hard. but for some reason it was very understandable for me today. i got things quickly and easily. i also solved a few on my own. i guess i AM smart, i just didn't try in the past 2 years lol. i used to be THE topper before, i guess obviously for this reason. lemme have dinner and continue with the other two chapters. i HAVE to finish this today.
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lmao i just realized i only had to finish general math chapter 6 😃
nvm it's nice, that means i have finished all the cqs of general math and i can continue with higher math <3
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ugh ok i'm fucking sleepy rn, i did 3 higher math cq and i'm tired… total of 40 minutes… which means i studied a total of 5 hours today… i expected more but this is not bad either… i must finish higher math all chapter cqs tomorrow.
also i had a lot of fun while having dinner and blasting music and singing and dancing along. that was a good break. now i need to sleep.
good night <3 best of luck for tomorrow!!!
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