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spirkme915 · 10 months
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spirk fics i've read recently(ish) and loved
My Heart to Your Heart by greenforsnow @m-b-w - TOS - need a gentle fic? this is it. softness pervades every syllable of this fic!
Through the Wall by Sexy_Lil_Emo - AOS - a fic inspired by nsfw fanart. who needs plot with that?
Malfunction by Maeko - AOS - a nice, short nightcap when you need something sweet to read before bed
Impulse (or, Three Kisses) by decidedlynotheterosexual @decidedly-not-heterosexual - TOS - spock loses control but in the *sweetest* way and they talk about it like adults and this is just soothing and nice
The Proposal by TheKittyCorps @contrascene - AOS - spirk version of "the proposal." laugh out loud funny in parts (yes, hijinks included)
Heirs to the Glimmering World by gunstreet @gunstreet - SNW/TOS - sybok, michael, and sam conspire to get their brothers together!! siblings! tentative first meetings! sex!
De Profundis by Rhaegal (RhaegalKS) - TOS - tmp-era spirk. spock knows he fucked up so he's gonna woo jim
The Kiss by awarrington - TOS - there are some super dated things in this fic (it was originally written in 1994) but this is one of the best i've read dealing with jim coming to terms with his bisexuality and attraction to spock. def don't read if you can't or don't want to take it in context of its time. if you can/have the emotional bandwidth to, then it's well worth it
On the Arrow by Fic_me_senseless - AOS - post-into darkness, heavy read, so much longing, and pain, and it makes you ache in the best way
i'm also in a "watch beyond on repeat phase" so here are my favorite post-beyond fics:
The Steadfastness of Stars by itsnatalie - AOS - this fic. THIS FIC. i was only going to read one paragraph, really. i skipped work, read the whole thing, and now this is in my top five spirk fics
in my life, i love you more by spaceisgay (ChancellorGriffin) - AOS - idek how many times i've read this now. i watch beyond, i read this fic. if they never make a fourth movie, this will be my canon
And Then I Let It Go by kianspo - AOS - yorktown happens, spock goes missing, jim goes after him. this could so be canon too
on the complete opposite side of post-beyond angst is two (YES TWO, we are so blessed!) "spock makes jim coffee" fics that will both make you smile and feel warm all over:
Home in a Mug by Lizzy0305
certainty relief by itsamew @enterprise-me-capn
and (because i can never quite seem to keep these lists solely focused on spirk) one AOS mckirk fic:
retro/spect by slightlycrunchy @slightlycrunchy - best friends to lovers anyone? this is just so so so lovely!
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ripplefields · 1 year
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💌💔 🧸 🪀 💤all the headcanons for Capn!
AHHH BOYLOSWR !! GUYFAILURE !!!
fluffy hc -
he's very good at reading what their partners want, being the group's main salesman . he'll see sweet eyeing a stack of cassettes in the thrift store, and pull out a few dark dollars n buy it, "a perfect gift for my perfect partner" he'll say in a smooth voice, usually receiving either a kiss and hug from k_k or an eye roll and a kiss from sweet, both making him flustered
angst hc-
he doesn't like to admit it, but he really doesn't have a sense of identity . sure he's capn but if not "capn", the cool flirt who's making jammin tunes, who is he ? if he isn't "capn" who is he truly ? he's had times where he just stares in a mirror, contemplating who he truly is .
hurt comfort hc-
he takes time away from the shop when he's upset, he hates not being his usual cool guy self so whenever he's angry or sad he'll go for walks in the city . maybe let a few tears fall but never too many . whenever he comes back sweet and k_k are always aware of why he was gone, pulling him to the couch and letting him relax before gently asking if he wants to talk about it
silly hc-
one of the best things he's gotten in a qna box was from a plugboy who started off the letter asking genuine questions about sweet and k_k (asking abt the band, how it started, how they learned how to play) but when they got to capn there was only one question
"why do you wear sunglasses? we don't have a sun"
sweet will never let the joke down and sometimes when capn puts on different glasses (the untinted ones) or just forgets them, they'll be like "oh? finally realized we don't have a sun?"
sleeping hc-
generally is the best sleeper of the polycule lol . k_ks sleep schedule is AAAAALL over the place, and sweet has trouble getting to sleep a lot due to overworking tendencies but capn is always just like oh it's 10:30 ? sleepy ? jumps in bed snnnrrkkk mimimimi
(he has his moments but is usually a pretty good sleeper, once he's asleep he sleeps like a rock tho)
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lolathepeacocklord · 2 years
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capn has nightmares sometimes
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hela-avenger · 4 years
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poison & wine- last call
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Author: hela-avenger
Word Count: 1195
Summary: Prince Loki of Asgard is in need of a date to take back home. That’s where you come in with a task of your own to make the whole trip with an insufferable prince worth it. Too bad that things don’t always go as planned and you end up giving more than you can take. Fake-Dating AU.
A/N: I don’t know where this came from but it was definitely fun to write! Hope you enjoyed the angst train because by next week that ride will be over! 
poison & wine masterlist
Black Widow Babe- 1 missed call
Hey, just came back from the mission and FRIDAY said you left without saying goodbye. I hope you’re doing ok. If Loki did something to you on that trip, let me know. It wouldn’t be my first time killing a royal prince. Call me back or just come back. Bye. 
Wanda Woman- 1 missed call
Hi, love. I know Nat called but I thought I would call you too. I don’t know… Call it my sixth witchy sense but I feel like something’s wrong. Your room… It’s filled with some chaotic energy and I’m worried. I haven’t told anyone this but call me back and let me know if you’re ok. Maybe we can do brunch and talk about whatever is bothering you. Just know that we’re here for you. Love you. 
Tony ‘IronMan’ Stank- 8 missed calls
Hey. I’ve been calling you and you keep ignoring my calls so here I am leaving a voicemail. Do people still do these things these days? I don’t know and I guess it doesn’t really matter cause I’m doing it. 
I’m just worried about you. Barnes won’t tell me anything about you leaving and the Prince of Darkness has been awfully gloomy and I’m not saying it’s you but… Kid, I mean what happened out there? You left without saying goodbye which you never do and I… I’m just really worried. 
I know you’re back at home trying to recover from what shall not be spoken but call me back. Let me know you’re alive. I… Well, you know. 
The Mighty Thor- 1 missed call
Leave a message after a beep? Alright that seems quite simple, telephone lady. Waiting for a beep. Beep, beep, beep… This is taking too long. Perhaps I should try emaili-
Buchanan Barnes- 3 missed calls
Hi doll, had to sneak off to call you but it seems your phone is off and I get it. I understand why you have to disconnect, but everyone is worried about you. Nat and Wanda cornered me the other day and threatened to take my arm off if I didn’t tell them what I saw when you left but I’m not a trained spy for nothing. I can keep a secret which I assure you, I’ve kept it. Lips are sealed. 
I just… I think you need to come back. Besides everyone being worried about you, I mean… I might not know the guy very well, but Loki is quite the recluse since he returned. We haven’t talked much but he did ask about you and Y/N… Just call me back, please. 
Black Widow Babe- 4 missed call
Wanda Woman- 5 missed call
Tony ‘IronMan’ Stank- 14 missed calls
Unknown Number  Peter Parkour- 1 missed call
Ah, Y/N! Hello! I have finally learned how to use a voicemail! Spiderboy- 
-SpiderMAN
Man? But you are small. You are but a boy. 
-Mr. Thor, please? 
Very well, you are to be a very tiny Spiderman. Where was I going with this? How do I-
-No, don’t push that button-!
Tony ‘IronMan’ Stank- 22 missed calls
Capn’ Crunch (Stevie)- 1 missed call
Hi, Y/N. I know everyone’s been calling and I tried to give you the space you wanted but it’s been weeks since we last heard of you. Bucky assures me you’re fine but I can tell he’s not too sure about that either. 
We all miss you here and I’m not trying to guilt trip you to come back but we do miss you... some more than others. I’m not going to name names but… I don’t know what happened up there in Asgard but I have a feeling that I might actually do and I… I’m trying to refrain from going all Captain to you but is running away the best option here? You have people who care about you and wish to support you here so please consider it. 
Be safe wherever you are. 
Buchanan Barnes- 5 missed calls
Tony ‘IronMan’ Stank- 37 missed calls
The Mighty Thor- 2 missed calls
HELLO! Ah, yes. I finally have managed it. Very tiny Spiderman was not as useful as I hoped he would be, but I have managed on my own! I hope you are doing well Lady Y/N. For my brother’s sake, I hope you are. I told him to leave you a voicemail but he refused. I don’t understand why he’s being quite cold lately. Haven’t seen him this way since we were children when father and I accidentally left him behind in one of our adventures. 
I don’t know what occurred back in Asgard but it seems it must have been quite severe for Loki to be behaving this way. I was hoping you might offer some insight. Or well… I should have considered perhaps that Loki might have done something to you. That’s quite worrisome. Please do call me back or send me an email! My email is- 
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Buchanan Barnes- 11 missed calls
Tony ‘IronMan’ Stank- 91 missed calls
Alright, kid. This is the last call I’m making. I… I’ve been calling you every day for the past few months trying to reach you. I have half the mind to fly out to your little getaway and YES I know where you’ve been this whole time. You think I don’t have the means to find your home estate? 
Anyways, I’m tired. It’s four in the morning and I thought I’ll give it one last shot. I’ve been trying to reach you because well… I have some big news. I don’t know if you’ve been checking your mail or even checking your voicemail but I proposed to Pepper a while back. 
We actually had an engagement party, and a bachelor party, and a bridal shower, and well you get the picture… We’ve missed you on a lot of things but you can make up for it by coming to the rehearsal dinner and the wedding. You should have gotten an invite and I’m really hoping you’ll come. You’re family, Y/N so just… Just check your mail and book a flight. 
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Y/N- 1 Missed Call
“Hey, I know it’s late and you’re probably asleep but I thought I should call you before I board my flight. I know I’ve been MIA but I… I just needed some time to myself. I know I’ve been gone for a long time but being home gave me that clarity I was looking for. 
I uh… I actually started to read my mother’s journals again and as much as it hurt I could… I could just feel her with me again. I started to think about what she would say about this mess I found myself in and it made me realize that I left you behind. I basically abandoned you and for selfish reasons so I’m sorry. I hope I can make it up to you when I get back to the compound. 
Maybe uh… I mean, if you don’t have a date already, we can go to Tony’s rehearsal dinner together. Just a thought so… so yeah, I’ll see you soon.”
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ishipallthings · 5 years
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Cap-IM Rec Week 2019 (Wednesday)
July 17th, Angsty Wednesday for @cap-ironman: Bring on all the angst!
Here are some angsty recs, most are Endgame fics but not all, have fun!
Please be mindful of the tags - some of the fics have a happy or hopeful ending, others don’t. 
Remember to show some love for your hard-working artists!
to make a home by @thisissirius​: Bucky is surprised to see Steve return.
He’s certain when he says you’re taking all the stupid with you that Steve’s going back to Peggy. It’s not what Bucky would choose to do, nor what he would choose for Steve, because he doesn’t want that kind of heartache, and he definitely doesn’t want a lifetime of Steve having to hide who he’s in love with because of time travel and timelines and whatever other shit Bruce and Tony came up with.
Coda by @capn-shellhead​: Steve sends Tony off a second time.
The Longest Road (Not a Victory March) by @onlymorelove​: Steve watches Tony die.
couldn't whisper (when you needed it shouted) by @onlymorelove​: Steve still can't let go of that damned flip phone. (Really, he can't let go of Tony.)
Magnetic North by @onlymorelove​: Life is complicated and they've all lost too much; Tony doesn't want Steve to be alone after Natasha's death. (WIP)
the end of summer by duckmoles: Steve doesn’t cry until later. (Moving on.)
After by Dowwwney (Wynt): Steve watches him for a second, and Tony swallows and licks his lips and notices Steve’s gaze harden. 
Stubborn. They’re both so damn stubborn.
no regrets by @ineffablestarkrogers​: “We’re stuck in a closet in Camp Leigh in 1970, and you want to know if I can still come on just your cock?” Steve asks, he supposes that it was meant to be sarcastic, but it comes out far too fond for him to pretend that it was anything anywhere near that bitter.
Same old story. by spqr: “We’re toasting our regrets,” Tony explains. “Your turn."
“Oh,” Steve says.
It takes him a long minute to think of something. Or, more likely, it takes him a long moment to work up the courage. But then he turns and raises his bottle to Tony. Looks him dead in the eyes, a sad, sort of wistful smile on his face, and says, “You.”
shades of happiness by @lazywriter7​: Part of the journey is the end. Steve Rogers considers his many possible endings, and chooses one.
Seasons of My Life by @gotthesilver​: It’s twelve years since he died, and the city does a thing each year. Honoring him, and Natasha, and Steve. They show footage from the battle, and her mom goes into the city to make a speech.
Fuse is Fireside by @gotthesilver​: Because, here’s the thing, he loves Pepper. He does. He’s not so much of an asshole that he’d marry her if he didn’t. But Steve.
Steve is like gravity. Always has been.
This Is How They Win by @awesomelifechoices​: In the aftermath of Thanos’ actions, Tony is convinced that this isn’t the end of the fight. Not yet. Doctor Strange had told him the only way to win the war, and Tony is going to follow through. No matter what.
Work Through What Holds Us Down (A Meetings Remix) by @navaan​: They meet on a lawn after Tony has made the call. Now what? How will this play out? Can they find a way to work it out?
Words in Empty Spaces by @the-vorkosigan​: When Ebony Maw's ship lands in New York, Tony finally calls Steve, and Steve comes with him to Titan.
Every Last One of My Demons by @nostalgicatsea​: Steve was right. There was no point in pretending to be okay, not after Thanos, not when nothing and nobody was. Whatever came of opening up to Steve, nothing could hurt him as much as what had already happened. And yet, Tony thought, mere inches and an entire ocean away from him, not moving away but not touching him. And yet.
Leaving Promises Against Your Skin by @nostalgicatsea​: “Someday, someone will choose you, Tony,” his mother had said, her hands back to cupping his. “And no one, not your father, not anyone, can ever take that from you.”
Six Degrees Of Separation by @suitofhumour​: Steve and Tony go through six degrees of separation before finding themselves and peace.
heavy hope by @nasafic​: The first few days after the breakup are rough. Steve feels like someone has hollowed out his chest with a desert spoon, and he must look it, too, because Bucky takes one glance at him, limp and pale in the living room, suitcase abandoned by his feet, and wraps him up into the strongest hug Steve’s ever received. He explains it all to Bucky that night, with a sort of robotic stillness, how Tony had dumped him in their Californian hotel room, said I don’t love you enough, this is it. Goodbye.
like i don't even know who you are by @onemuseleft​: The divorce papers were just as unsigned as they had been an hour ago.
Einherjar by skyline: Steve dies on a Thursday afternoon, shield in hand. Then he comes back.
To Have and to Hold by @viudanegraaa​: 616 Tony opens his eyes. He's in a different body, on a different world. Here, the team is smaller. Fractured. He's older. Wearier.
Back home, a different version of himself opens his eyes and can't fathom the sight before him. This world is much more complicated than his own, but he's younger and more powerful here. But the stakes are higher: he's Director of SHIELD. (616/MCU crossover)
An Unbroken Heart by @laireshi​: They aren’t friends, not anymore. But Steve still loves Tony with all his heart, and Tony still risks his own life to save Steve. (616)
what dark days seen by @mizzy2k​: AU where both Steve and Bucky went down in the ice and were captured by HYDRA. Natasha helped Bucky escape, but Steve remained and became the Winter Soldier. It's the end of the Civil War and Bucky has just been killed.
Steve Rogers finds himself in a superhero-unfriendly bar on the day of Bucky's funeral, looking for a quiet drink. (616 AU)
5, 4, 3, 2, 1 by @kiyaar​: In another world, on another Earth, the Superhuman Civil War has a darker, bloodier end. (Contest of Champions)
Hope you guys enjoy the recs, and stay tuned for more! Check out my tag for previous years’ rec lists :)
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FicRec Friday: 9/13/19
(Yes I’m publishing this 2 days late shush.) Here are the fics I read and liked this week!
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A Gentle Lullaby by @navaanwrites Steve & Tony find a Hydra lab that has given a version of the serum to a baby girl. Steve feels responsible for her, yet is terrified of all things baby. Tony immediately falls for her after losing Anthony. A temporary arrangement to protect her becomes more and more comfortable for all three. Featuring grumpy-yet-overprotective ULTS Steve, I lubs him. 44k https://archiveofourown.org/works/7020376
Same As It Ever Was (The Thought Bubbles Remix) by @sineala ULTS Steve keeps having dreams where he’s living 616 Steve’s life. Which is confusing for many reasons, not least of which being that 616 Steve has it bad for Tony Stark. Huh. Weird. 6k https://archiveofourown.org/works/9364634
Indulgence by @festiveferret, @one-and-five-nines Once every few weekends, Steve goes to Tony to let someone else be in control. There were definitely never going to be feelings involved. Obviously. Poor Steve, always so conflicted about everything. 30k https://archiveofourown.org/works/16090646
MCU
the end of summer by @duckmoles A post-Endgame ficlet dealing with Steve’s grief. Very lovely. (Canon compliant deaths.) 1.6k https://archiveofourown.org/works/18615034
the eventual corruption of my body by @nasafic Steve makes a deal with Death to bring Tony back, but the price is Steve only gets a year to live. Choose-Your-Own-Ending (or do what I did and read both, because sometimes you feel like suffering and sometimes you don’t!) 5k https://archiveofourown.org/works/20546654
to build a home by @capn-shellhead Slightly pre-A1 Tony notices an older man sitting at a cafe every Wednesday, sketching him and the tower. Though the man is tight lipped about himself and his past, Tony starts joining him for coffee, and friendship, and more. This is an extremely sweet “what-if” for Endgame Steve going back in time and then finding Tony when Steve’s in his late 50′s (physically at least, his exact life is kept mysterious). I thought it really clever to have the age difference reversed by about the same amount! This felt much longer than it is, in a good way - very memorable. 12k https://archiveofourown.org/works/20456987
4 out of 5 dentists recommend by @jenthesweetie This author is always EXTREMELY entertaining. Tony and Steve have been together for a while, when Tony finds A! TOOTHBRUSH! IN HIS BATHROOM! WHAT DOES IT MEEEAAAAAAAN! Cue insecure & neurotic Tony (best Tony) panic-calling all his friends. 2k https://archiveofourown.org/works/20598446
Don't Leave Me This Way by @festiveferret Tony and Steve are kidnapped together and tortured. Tony finds a way out, but Steve is too injured to take with him. ANGST! And then HAPPY! 6k https://archiveofourown.org/works/20598863
Semi-Canon AU
Role of a Lifetime by @scaramouche An AU where there are several Captain Americas taking up the tradition from the original, Peggy Carter. Steve takes up the role after Sam (the current Cap) is injured. Tony, having been saved by Sam in Afghanistan before building the suit, is the Caps’ tech guy. Steve is also assigned by SHIELD to work undercover at Stark Industries to keep an eye on it and Tony. Yaaaay identity porn! Also includes some great Sam-Bucky-Steve banter. 60k https://archiveofourown.org/works/20324050
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That’s it for this week! Find my 300+ fic recs organized by verse HERE!
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