#TO TELL US TO CLOSE THE BOOK

[mangofanarts]

Tallulah asking Bad if she could spend more time with him another day! Since she's going to bed

#qsmp #badboyhalo #qsmp tallulah #no one can tell me that Tallulah and Bad aren't close with each other #To be fair - they aren't AS close as they used to be because of their schedules not lining up as much and her not needing to be #babysat like the early days. But they are close to each other. #There was a point where she said to him that she viewed him as a father figure before and left him a book - describing how she saw him #as part of her family and has told him to his face that she wanted to make excuses so that she could go and spend more time with him. #She has told Bad about things that have upset her and he's given her comfort in return for it and when Philza was going to be gone for a #week - she asked Philza if she could hang out with her uncle Bad. Drives me wild when people don't know that Bad and Tallulah are close < 3 #since they aren't seen that much together but that man......he was her main babysitter #I'm rambling about those moments between them again because it just mean so me - I still have such a soft spot for their dynamic as a whole

[sparklecryptid]

I had no patience for people policing other peoples ships before i went to library tech school and library tech school has make me a little bit pissy about the entire thing actually.

#its 1:47am i am not going to rant about it #but Jesus Christ on a cracker i hate how censorship has become common and almost mainstream if it’s ’for the right reasons’ #fuck you and fuck your ‘right reasons’ #there is no reason to deny someone the ability to create or access material that you don’t agree with #‘but-‘ i do not careeee about your arguement it is my job as a library worker to provide ACCESS TO INFORMATION FOR EVERYONE #‘but it has siblings that kiss!’ DONT CARE. BOOKS DO NOT DICTATE MORALS. MOVE ON. #‘but it has (insert other thing)’ DONT CARE. THE PATRON ASKED FOR THIS BOOK. THEY ARE GETTING THE BOOK. NEXT #‘but but but THE CHILDREN’ THE CHILDREN NEED ACCESS TO INFORMATION JUST LIKE THE REST OF US. I AM NOT PARENTING YOUR CHILD. #IF CONTENT MAKES YOUR CHILD UNCOMFORTABLE BECOME THE PERSON THEY GO TO TO TALK TO IT ABOUT #OR TELL THEM THAT ITS OKAY TO CLOSE THE BOOK AND PUT IT AWAY #IT IS NOT MY JOB TO MAKE SURE YOUR CHILD IS FOLLOWING WHATEVER RULES YOU HAVE ON MEDIA CONSUMPTION AT YOUR HOUSE #MY JOB IS TO PROVIDE THE BOOK.DVD.THING. THEY WANT #YOUR CHILD NEEDS TO LEARN HOW TO CONSUME MEDIA CRITCIALLY AND THAT SOMETIMES THAT INCLUDES #READING THINGS THAT MAKE THEM UNCOMFORTABLE AND THEN HAVING A SAFE ADULT TO TALK TO IT ABOUT #AND NEWSFLASH: IF YOU ARE NOT SEEN AS SOMEONE SAFE TO HAVE A CONVERSATION WITH YOUR CHILD WILL GO ELSEWHERE OR JUST #NEVER TELL YOU WHAT THEY ARE CHECKING OUT #anyway. turns out i did go on a rant. whoops. #moose rants

[thaliasthunder]

as an atheist that was even physically forced to hear unsolicited religious discourses of "how wrong i am", how "im gonna burn in hell" or "god hates/is dissapointed of me" from believers after saying im atheist, magnus being atheist without being antagonized or questioned for it is something so fucking personal to me

#not me opening up about my religious trauma #anyway jokes aside #i think magnus is really the first openly atheist character that is not antagonized for it #or in his 'spiritual path of becoming a believer' #he's just a silly guy that happens to be atheist #(bonus points bc this is a CHILDREN'S BOOK) #guys u dont understand the first time magnus said he was atheist in tsos my eyes literally got WATERY #like my city is not even that religious people just act stupid and intolerant when they see something that they're not used to #and trust me after years it gets fucking FRUSTRATING constantly having to hear believers telling me 'why i should believe' #like bitch leAVE ME ALONEEEE #it's not like i go around telling believers 'why the should not believe' bc i know that's nOT MY FUCKING BUSINESS #anyway every time magnus reminds the reader he's atheist it feels like a comfort hug to me #like him doing a pat pat on my head and saying 'u'r doing nothing wrong u silly girl' #😔 #atheist magnus i hold u close to my heart #magnus chase #mcga #alex fierro #samirah al abbas #fierrochase #pjo #hoo #percy jackson #rick riordan

[cryptiduni]

signature skills

#hi hi. am back at my bullshit again & wanted to do a ​sillouette shape language practice instead of a proper drawing. am tired pftt #de timeskip kids: (→) cuno annette mikael c lilienne’s children [am not giving you a hint you’ll have to guess their sigs & tell me hhe] #[kinda easy enough except c maybe pfttt] #good cop. bad cop. not-really-a-cop-cop. not a cop at all. #good cop coz cuno worked more years and closed lot more cases. wildcard but useful asset to the rcm like harry. #snarky little stray. their own hound steadily trained. broken fingers on a criminal is nothing compared to rising numbers & kill count brag #bad cop coz annette not only because she just became a junior officer barely anything under her name. #she gets too emotionally invested in cases she get involved in and ‘‘wastes’’ too much time on a case. way too by the book & empathetic #mikeal is here mostly for the resume and to help out 41 due the staff shortage. he doesn’t plan to stay for long. #12 years and that place is still understaffed pfttt #c is part of the union & has her own lorry now. still has foul mouth & distaste for cops but she matured a bit. both mentally & physically #carter kids works lotta part time jobs & their economic situation is still quite rocky. #twins rather let their sister get to high school first but they don’t believe it’ll be their turn to get higher education anytime soon #so they just work their ass off almost everyday #disco elysium #my art #artists on tumblr #disco elysium fanart #i guess #disco elysium timeskip #disco elysium timeskip au #de timeskip #de timeskip au #kuuno de ruyter #annette plaisanse #disco elysium annette #mikael heidelstam #little lily carter #he wanna persue programming+engineering and entropenetics on the side #slaps on kims bomberjacket on cuno. LOOK HE IS WEARING HIS DAD’S JACKET.

[karinyosa]

listen i can’t prove that asp bloggers by and large seem to know brinker was based on gore vidal now because of me but brother i will say it was not like that back when there were like 4 asp blogs and all the fanart was anime

#you may be thinking. well there are basically 4 asp blogs now #THINK AGAIN!!!! it used to be so much worse. #it feels like there are more people consistently posting about it now #and a lot more art (MUTUALS!!! <33) #like there was an art DROUGHT #it used to be that every time you looked at the tag the same posts would be up at the top and like #it’s still sorta like that but allllll the posts i could never escape have been buried into obscurity #because there’s so much new stuff #i used to be like haha there are 5 people in this fandom or whatever #BUT THAT NO LONGER FEELS TRUE #i used to tell everyone who would listen about the gore vidal thing kehskwhskwhdjwhs #it was such a novelty to me at the time i read asp that queercoding could be so like. complete or comprehensive and also supported by #like authors and academic institutions and most importantly a tumblr fandom sksjsk #so an openly queer man being associated w my fav book whose gayness i was mentally going to bat for was craaaazzzyyy to my #middle school brain #even though i didn’t really know anything about him except for a few anecdotes at the time. brother. how things have changed #oh my god and the fact that there is/was an asp gimmick blog??? asp-quotes??? my god middle school me would’ve died #im still writing the same fucking fanfic that ms me daydreamed about finishing though. god #anyway hopefully this post isn’t. ANNNOYIINNGGG but it’s crazy to see things change like that from so close a perspective #like the smallness of the asp online community makes it easy to tell for some of these things #i draw a line directly between my younger asp mutuals constantly posting art to the influx of other asp content #in my memory one followed the other #fucking anyway. write a memoir dipshit #me.txt #a separate peace #if it is because of me that’s very funnyynbgncb #OH AND IT’S IN POLLS NOW TOO #crazy

[givemethedamnflowers]

One thing that always fucked with my head is aftg is how they manage to keep their languages skills with barely any practice

The vocabulary the pronunciation how to form a sentence how to conjugate a verb theese fly out the window real fast when you dont pratice

#languages go away really quickly #my spanish is still ok but nowhere near as good as when i lived there #actually it's 'comparable' to neil bc i lived in the country used it every day but came back quite a while ago #which he did by living in germany france and canada #also spanish is a latin language and bc i know french i know how close they are #(my only german i know is how to say 'i am a potato salad' so idk) #and let me tell you i would NOT be able to hold today the conversations neil is having #one day i'll try my best to translate in french what they say in the book but im too lazy #aftg #all for the game #tfc #the foxhole court #the raven king #trk #the king's men #tkm #neil josten

[olive-riggzey]

I'm just going to start making posts about classic literature the way modern fandoms do with characters because I need an outlet and none of my friends willingly read these books

#Zeta Rambles #You guys don't even understand the emotional rollercoaster I just had reading the beginning of “Ulysses” #For context I love Faulkner and near the end of part one I was like “I don't like the Quentin bridge scene vibes this is giving me” #Maybe this is why my professor looked so amused when I told him I was looking forward to reading this book #“Ulysses is a hard read but you like Faulkner.” still the funniest thing he's said to me about my Faulkner obsession #Literally. Shreve was basically my first blorbo. I think that says something about me but I'm not sure what #I can't get over Stephen's thought process. It's so perfectly unhinged. I love the prose and its cadence so much. #Also. That line. That freaking “Wilde's love” line actually caught me so off-guard that I had to close the book for a second. LIKE HELLO??? #Anyways. I have a feeling my professor is going to LAUGH when I tell him I read all of part one. #He told us just to test the waters. Maybe try to read the first few pages. I think he anticipated everyone being too frustrated to read mor #JOKES ON HIM! I freaking love reading this sort of prose. Stream of consciousness my beloved

[no-where-new-hero]

*starts ao3 account in anticipation of blue castle fanfic month*

#i used to have an ao3 and then closed it in a fit of cringe terror #but i shall return for the sake of valancy and barney #will i be brave enough to write a smut scene for them? #only time shall tell #lmm lockdown #blue castle book club #blake’s last braincell

[lisbonsteresa]

i'm going to SCREAM

#tm #you don't get how UNHINGED this makes me it's SO #like he's been out all day trying to track down this missing kid (as part of her case too; to give her another avenue against volker) #and they have their little catch up and at first he's concerned (she's been at this all day and now into the night too #and he GETS it - in a way maybe other people wouldn't - but he doesn't want her to burn herself out; he wants her to be careful #maybe he's about to tell her a version of 'get some sleep') #but then she talks about amanda and it makes me NUTS because she does NOT ask for his help #she doesn't ask him to stay; to read the files with her; to 'burn the midnight oil' with her #she's just...stating her case; explaining why this means so much to her; and he listens; he takes it in; and he makes the choice to help #to sit in this with her and to help her work through it #and i just -- neither of them will ask the other for help (yes i know she did at the end of the last episode the context is different ok) #but they're both so quietly (and sometimes not so quietly) desperate to help each other it makes me sick #it's so interesting to see how they deal with this as the show goes on....idk how to explain it but like #when jane needs help he closes himself off; he keeps secrets and he schemes and he lies ('let me help you' 'you're sweet') #because he's trying to keep the people he cares about - the people he never planned on caring about as much as he does - safe #even as he shares more with lisbon (and sometimes the rest of the team) he still doesn't share everything #because that puts them at risk #and that's what lisbon used to do to - in the earlier seasons she put up walls when she felt vulnerable; and she still does in some cases #but with this case especially she's much more accepting of help - she relies on her team (not that she doesn't usually) #and she's practically an open book to jane - in this scene most of all - she lets herself be more vulnerable #(and open to suggestions/ideas she might otherwise scoff at or reject) #idk idk it's very interesting but this scene makes me so wacky there's something so soft and tender and understanding about it #the way there's no spoken acknowledgement - no 'i'll help' or 'thank you' - just the silent understanding that they're in this together #because they're partners #(also the way he picks at the rest of her food - the 'done with this?' the only thing they say - and the framing through the window #is still somehow very domestic it's like my perfect scene) #spinning my wheels hard i'm not thinking clearly i just love everything about it

[bookwyrminspiration]

you should draw fitz in a cardigan (if you want ofc)

i'm trying to remember how to draw him, and also how to draw in general, but I have. a quick little sketch of the boy :)

I think. he's very neat. and that I don't actually remember quite what a cardigan is, so I don't know if this counts. but nevertheless! i love him <3

#kotlc #kotlc fanart #fitz vacker #quil's queries #quil's quill #nonsie #no taglist because this is just a sketch #i don't know if he looks quite like fitz. i can't tell. but I think he's close enough #but anyway! guess who rediscovered they own an actual sketchbook. it's me I discovered that #i had one and used it a bunch until i got a watercolor sketchbook and an ipad for digital art #so. all the drawings are from like 2019-2020 #but half the book is unused so. lots of space for things! #idk what things but things! #fitz is my first 2023 drawing in there :) #i sketched him out yesterday #and was intending to try and draw a more refined one to answer this with #but I think he looks fine as is #so. here is the boy!

[treeshrine]

gonna be real bud if your fic relies so heavily on intense triggering themes and shock value that you're averse to putting warnings on it to "maintain surprise" and "avoid spoilers", then you act like you did nothing wrong when people are upset that you didn't make any effort to turn them away and allow them to protect themselves, while also telling them it's their fault that they read something that upset them when they could have never known it contained specific things that will upset them, i think you are a tar pit

#'warnings are a courtesy!!' yes so why are you apparently averse to being courteous #saying omg fanfiction never used to warn people and print books never warn people so it's not a bad thing if i don't warn you! #that's some 'no one protected me so why should i protect you' type shit #sorry i got recommended this dumb ass post and i had to say something so i'm saying it here #why are you telling people to curate their own experiences while actively making it more difficult to curate their experiences LMFAO #if i read a scene with intensely triggering content without knowing it was there before. 'just closing the book' or 'hitting the back butto #is not protecting myself. how do i protect myself from something I've already read??? #diary #like dude it's possible to protect people from spoilers while also protecting people from seeing things that will distress them #i also honestly take issue with people who do a content warning but just say “this gets into some shit” or something of the like. #you might as well have just not said anything because now i'm confused and on edge #instead of able to protect myself properly i have to try and gauge my personal sensitivity against the unknowable factor of #what your idea of “some shit” is #also telling someone to 'just close the book lol' is an incredibly dismissive approach to people being affected by something triggering #you know these things do happen to people in real life. right. but of course who would have empathy for someone who doesn't want to be #reminded of trauma

[mugchild]

absolutely evil of Arundhati Roy to make Estha and Rahel Twins and then have them have the same trauma but letting it manifest in different ways that actually are just two sides of the same coin. Mf really said what if i used foreshadowment in the most fucked up way ever and then was like 'oh yeah this is gonna slap' and she was completely right but why. WHY

like htis is a tragdey. a gddamn tragedy that was born from the moment they were born, born from the moment they were twins, and was always meant to be and there was no damn way that they could've been stopped to not run away and there is nothing we can change as the audience to the narrative like it didn't happen the moment it happened it happened the moment they were born and at the same time it never happened until it happened because it couldnt have happened before because time works like that but at the same time for us it fucking has and it happened and then nothing could be done but nothing could be done the moment we started reading the book

#sorry it's 9pm and i have THOUGHTS about this #the god of small things #literary analysis #book thoughts #sobbing btw #so evil #arundhati roy #she's so good #ugh #i hate it and i love it but like #WHY WOULD U HURT ME LIKE THIS #i know this is not even close to a literary analysis but its been a while since i read it #and i have to talk man. like i need to spew this because it just clicked #they're TWINS #THAT'SS WHY ITS SO IMPORTANT #BECAUSE NOT EVEN THEIR GRIEF IS JUST ESTHAS OR RAHELS ITS THEIRS #AND LIKE THE BEGINNING ALREADY TELLS US THIS FACE FIRST LIKE ITS IN PLAIN SIGHT #'they thought of each other together Me and separetly as Us' #oh so when they say 'my trauma' it's actually the trauma of both of them but also thinking of themselves as 'they/them' because they just #rahel doesnt recognise themselves anymore and tries to distance themselves from the whole thing as if it happened #to someone else but its impossible??? #like its always going to be an integral fucked up part of them #sobbing again #and just UGH #Its suh a good book like its hard to get into but then it just suddenly ends and im like wait what the fuck u gave me hope and #then u stopped #book recommendations #post colonial literature #indian literature

[quilleth]

:( once more defeated by pattern drafting and math, my archnemesis

i found a different tutorial to try so i'm going to attempt that one to get the basic pattern and then will alter it for the silhouette i want, assuming it turns out ok. I like lomi playground's videos and tutorials, but the pants drafting one is a little hard to follow, and I definitely did something wrong, but have no idea what. which honestly just sums up me doing any flat pattern drafting ever. Except sleeves. somehow of all things, those are the only things that the flat pattern drafting made sense on in my classes xD Draping is much easier for me, but i can't exactly pin into resin, and since i already did the blushing on dollbei jun and am already having issues with it chipping in places, i don't want to try the tape method (I'm also not sure how to make that work for pants anyway).

#quilleth in real life #quill's bjd adventures #my measurements are more or less the same as what's given on the doll listing #so as far as i can tell i didn't mess up there #lomi has the sid pattern for basic pants on her website but i really ought to work on my drafting more #it's not quite the same size for the 73 loongsoul body but close #so i guess if i can't figure it out with the other tutorial i'll just use it #but that won't help me for dollhua #or for their shirts tbh. i have a pattern book for hanfu for those but they're for human scale #so it's going to be a trial getting those right at all. i was hoping the pants would be easier :/ #doesn't help that my drafting ruler has a chunk out of the centimeter side #i ordered a new one but idk when it will be here #and it was surprisingly hard to find one with centimeters on one side and inches on the other

[theramblingvoid]

Sometimes I think about how even when I'm trying not to be, I am entirely made of the people I love. I recently reconnected with a close friend I hadn't seen in about three years. Apparently they're into watching video essays now. I'm more of a gaming YouTube person, but to each their own, I've always known this friend to be a touch more academic than me anyway. Fair enough. We find other things to talk about.

It is two months later. My watch later list is entirely filled with video essays. Three years is not enough time to forget how to love somebody. I'm glad of that.

#voidrambles #how to explain. it's like #i don't know when to hug or how hard and direct complements make me uneasy and i just #affection in the way most people know it does not come naturally to me #i do it because it's detectable to other people and it's what they do for me and it makes them happy which makes me happy #which makes me sound quite disingenuous? i think that's the word. with my love #but #the games i play most are ones i saw one friend get very very excited about and i loved them before i even started playing them #i haven't thought twice about deep sea creatures since maybe middle school but i do now，all the time，and bugs too #i get excited when i see one because another of my friends would #in 2021 i made this one specific vanilla milk drink in the microwave dozens of times even though I don't like sweet vanilla that much #it tasted so good to me for the time i was close with the person i got the recipe from #i get excited when i see yellow flowers. yellow is not one of my favourite colours #I write because of all the things I've read and loved I keep a list of books friends speak highly of #I cook my pasta with oil even though it makes the pot harder to wash and i don't know if there's a difference to the taste #because i can't tell it apart from the warmth of someone else's proudly given tip joining my own routine #i don't know how else to say this #I'm running out of examples not because there are no more but because i can't tell them apart from things i am on my own #that used to upset me but i don't think it does anymore #this post stops here. it's late and i have a video essay to watch #i love you

[synonymroll648]

on one hand: i love me some good ol’ positive ‘fitz vacker + bodies of water’ fics /gen. 

on the other hand: twas a missed opportunity to not make the golden boy afraid of water. since water turns (impure) gold to rust (eventually), and all that. very fun metaphor opportunities slipped through canon’s fingers :(

#like. it would've made multiple parts of the books way more interesting!! having fitz panic in neverseen and nightfall because of all the #water? having fitz try and fail to not lose his mind during the breathing training scene thingy in lodestar? #having fitz get skiddish around everglen's lake? having the fight between alvar and fitz in flashback use the lake against fitz?? #fitz slowly realizing he's not pure golden boy and he never will be and slowly rusting away into someone new #that he originally views as lesser??? #come ON man. we were ROBBED #fitz vacker #extremely tempted to headcanon him as being scared of water and having to learn to tolerate/love it #would be even better if he learned that through keefe. since keefe fucking LOVES water #and would be like '!! you guys have a lake!! let's swim!!' and fitz would be trying to avoid an anxiety attack subtly and totally failing #and so keefe would help him get less and less scared of water bit by bit #so he's fine with it in canon now but pre-canon he wasn't #and maybe every time he sees water you can swim in he thinks of better days w/ keefe #and every time keefe sees fitz swim keefe wonders if he still thinks of him #but they never tell each other that #yeah nvm this is a headcanon close to my heart now lmao #it'd be so fun to experiment w/ in fics where keefe's a lifeguard or surfer or smth like that too!! #avery i am. i am looking at you #what are your thoughts on th #*this #kotlc #keeper of the lost cities #kotlc fic idea

[lesbianvampyrsfromouterspace]

reading ppl talk about classic lit like it’s modern harlequin romance is…interesting. like i get u want to humanize the characters but i think we as a modern society just don’t have the same mindset that authors of the 1800s did so our interpretation of these characters is tainted by a modern lense. there are just certain behaviors, etiquettes, etc. that we don’t practice anymore that are so integral to the thought processes behind these characters. yes this is about queerness in dorian gray.

#classic literature #classic lit #gothic literature #controversial take maybe #i havent finished the book yet (close) but i dont think dorian will ever truly love anyone beside himself and that is his true curse #he does not have a ‘fat crush’ on basil he needs him to sustain his own ego #maybe there is love there but it isn’t how we view it modernly #guys dont tell my english teacher i used inclusive pronouns here