#TTSG

[zgx5]

I feel like every week, i pick a new ttsg song thats my favorite, maybe thats just because paul is so good at conveying how i feel about certain persons in my life. i feel connected to these tracks on a deep level nd i cant wait to see where he goes. 

#11 missed calls #trytoseeghosts #ttsg #glitchcore #hyperpop #now playing #music

[emperess-winterprism]

Just something funny I thought of...

When someone hands my old purple turtles little turtle tots:

Ninie: 'nervously cradling tot in both hands like they're glass' This Child is so precious and cute, and I am scared of hurting said child~!

Person: Just hold the tot in your arms like you should.

Ninie: 'confused noise as they shift tot around to sit up in hands' Like this? 'clearly never held an actual infant for very long'

Person: ...No. 'takes tot and hands to Tello'

Tello: 'holding tot in both hands with deadpanned glower' God, why am I being forced to hold another tot? Wasn't one enough?!

Person: 'glaring back' Hold the tot right.

Tello: 'grin as he moves the tot to lay on his arm on their plastron' Clearly this is the right way. 'has actually held infant, but was just being an ass'

Person: 'gestures in disbelief at Ninie and Tello, before gently taking tot and handing to Don who was arguing with Donnie'

Don: 'instinctively moved to cradle tot against plastron without looking as he continued his convo like nothing happened' And as I've already told you, Donnie, no. No taking blood from anyone without their permission. You should also not be putting trackers in anyone without their permission either.

The other two: 'gaping at Don' O-O

Don, notices: What?

The two: 'gestures at Don cradling baby like it's natural'

Don: 'quirked brow' Uhhh, I've raised four little turtles before. Trust me, this is not the strangest thing I've done.

The two: 'confused noises'

Don: 'deadpanned stare' Did you forget that I'm from a technically good timeline?

The two: 'embarrassed noises' No!

Don: 'snort' Right.

Don: 'back to Donnie' I mean it, kid. Don't think I'm not watching.

Donnie: 'puffed up' You are not my father!

Don: 'quirked brow' I'm not saying I am. I am telling you that it's wrong to-

Tot: 'makes upset noises'

Don: 'pauses to carefully readjust tot and check them over, before turning back to Donnie with a huff' -to do that without your own siblings' or other family members' permission.

The two: 'staring as Don continues cradling tot to plastron naturally' Turtle has Single Mother Energy.

~~~~~~~

Ninie was never that involved with Casey Junior when he was a baby. They were very much weird but cool Uncle.

Tello had helped raise Casey Junior. One of the Dads/Uncles.

Karma Bringer Don had raised his kid, as well as his siblings' kids when each of them died, all on his own, until he met his husband. And even then, he's the Main Parent of the household. Has mad respect for all Single Splinters who raised their turtles without a significant other.

#tmnt #rottmnt #rottmnt donnie #rottmnt future donnie #Karma Bringer #I(N)TTSG #IWTB&IFN #fanfic

[transgenderteensurvivalguide]

Hi TTSG,

I’m a trans woman (or at the very least transfemme, still figuring that out), and I’m having a small crisis reading some of the things on this blog. I will affirm that I in no way disrespect the choices and ideas that are presented on this blog, they are as valid as you yourself. However, it’s gotten me worried, since I’m realizing that, even though I genuinely consider myself accepting, I unintentionally use some more minor language that can be considered potentially cissexist (I didn’t know about this word until yesterday) or ableist. I’m on the autism spectrum myself, and that makes it even more difficult to attempt to change how I speak. What can I do? Am I a terrible person and a hypocrite? I’m sorry if this sounds short-sighted and whiny.

Autumn Says:

You are ignorant about things until you learn better. That's okay! Learning is a part of anything, and learning about your own potential prejudice is a lifelong continual process. The first step to addressing it is learning that its bad and potentially why it is bad. It can be hard to change habits, but its absolutely worth the work to be a more live a more inclusive life for the ourselves and the people around us. If you screw up, apologize, learn, move on and try your hardest not to screw up again. Don't belabor the point!

#autumn says

[transingthoseformers]

Back on this beloved OptiTarn TtSG AU now.

This is a major timeskip with lots of things in between but; eventually the Autobots with Tarn in co-command begin to be much more proactive about hunting Decepticons and what's more, looking to the stars. Optimus and he are firmly on each other's side and have settled into a formal relationship and romantic one at this point having done most of the four acts. 

Tarn has brought Optimus a new interest. The Colonies.

The SG!Decepticons are disturbed and horrified. They cannot let the Autobots destroy more worlds after what has been done to their own. Megatron has been incredibly guilty over the damages done by Tarn and listened to the stories told by Soundwave as a warning to not let himself fall. They all have nightmares about what Tarn, the Prime's Hunting Hound is his nickname now, did that day and continues to do.

Even formally sympathetic populations are falling under the "New Reforms" and an understandable exhaustion from war.

Starscream laughs that he almost could like Tarn for some of those laws they are implementing in his little takeover if it didn't come hand in hand for his philosophy of peace through tyranny and absolute control. 

Soundwave is worried about all of them.

Starscream has been quiet, their Voice not silenced but occasionally whispering with the loss of Thundercracker to one such hunt. He and Megatron have both been focusing on the other but not their own trauma which had made Soundwave sigh in fond worry. They'd propped each other up though and Starscream had accepted the young Nova Storm, newly alone herself, into his and Skywarp’s Trine. 

Skywarp is the worst concern. Flamewar for all her lashing out and screaming is voicing her feelings. Skywarp has gone quiet and distant and worrisomely focused on reading every report and studying and picture they get of Tarn.

Even worse are the rumors of the newborns disappearing from hotspots or newly onlined Cold Constructed specially chosen by the Prime and Tarn to form an elite squad. Soundwave suspects he knows exactly who they are and exactly who is missing that Tarn wants to find in the stars and in the places they search. 

He evacuated Forestock as soon as he made the connection to the small bot in between the Prime and Tarn in the official photos as "Kaon". He cannot let Tarn get a hold of more people, innocent people, to replay Tarn's own traumas on and mold them like he was.

Any Decepticon he knows Tarn had a special connection to is sent as far away and as securely hidden as Soundwave can make them. He only wishes his spy would leave as well or he could hide away Megatron, perhaps one of the biggest targets.

Soundwave though protects those he can and Lockdown is always willing to help smuggle high value targets off planets to what small havens Soundwave is forming. His goal is to keep escape routes and one day evacuation routes for their entire faction to flee, but he won't leave, none of them will, while there is still hope.

Something Tarn is helping the Prime surgically crush and the Waves blame themselves for entirely.

Soundwave is the one who realizes that something is going give when Shockwave, loud bright and so hopeful, proposes a weapon. They are all shocked and Megatron says, very quietly, "You are not a weapons designer." Shockwave says he is now and they are all concerned and reports come in and after hearing the casualties and atrocities Megatron with a heavy heart agrees they have to attack first and stop this escalation and destroy the space bridge no matter the cost.

He accepts the fusion cannon that Shockwave has presented him with and requests an upgrade.

Ohhh the poor sg Decepticons.

WaitNoNotTheColonies

Yeahhh they're terrified of him. He's capable of such horrific stuff.

Ohh... the cons are taking this hard

.mmnn fuck the kidnapping of well kids.

Good plan Soundwave good plan

And this is how the fusion cannon enters the picture, along with the plan to destroy the spacebridge

#maccadam #transformers #[walking through shards of glass] #opitarn au #sg Optimus prime #mtmte tarn #kaon #sg forestock #sg Megatron #sg soundwave #sg shockwave #sg starscream #sg skywarp #sg nova storm #sg Thundercracker #but he is dead #sg lockdown #Prime's hound indeed

[equatorjournal]

Arnhem Land, 1984. "Australian Dreaming is the first Aboriginal history of the Australian continent and its people, as told by Aboriginal storytellers. It recounts epic travels of the Great Spirit Ancestors and tells how they created the animals and plants and gave birth to the earliest people of this land." From "Australian Dreaming: 40,000 years of Aboriginal History" by Jennifer Isaacs. https://www.instagram.com/p/CiA1Su-ttSg/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[sulphuryasecretcloset]

Hi Lady, just wanted you to know that I was thinking of you and I hope that you are fairing well. I don't know if Tumblr will eat my message or not. Heck I don't even know if you check Tumblr anymore. But yeah, you're awesome and such an inspiration to me as a writer. I hope someday, somehow, you will feel brave enough to post your final chapter(s) of Time to Say Goodbye. Though I get why you haven't yet. Like, I'm trying to get back to writing my AU. And posting all the chapters I've already got written. It's really hard. Thank you again for blessing us with your stories and your characters. Please take care of yourself and know that so many of us keep you in our hearts even after all these years. 🩵💚🩶😌🙏

Dearest Chiggy! My friend and inspiration! I saw Ballads of Songbirds and Snakes the other day and kept finding myself thinking about your fic all the time! Aaah, I cannot believe you managed to pull off such a masterpiece to put the Mandorin characters into that setting and I am DYING to read!

As for TTSG, I actually finished the last chapter tonight and now I just gotta finish and put together the swiss cheese mammoth that is the epilogue. It's slow moving, but you know unfortunately how rough writing can be... And considering the amount of raw emotion flying left and right in this last bit of their stories, I want it to be as well written as I can get it.

Thank YOU for your superkind messages, your support and your understanding. I am rooting for you and your fic!!!

[trifoliate-undergrowth]

Ah yes good old detransitioning. It’s not that common and yet certain people talk about it like it’s the MOST common outcome (not, you know, feeling better about your gender. Which Is the most common outcome of transitioning.) 

Even in the small amount of people who do detransition: they’ve done studies on factors of detransitioning which find that in the majority of cases it’s because of external pressure (not feeling safe being openly trans, being attacked, not being able to access medical care anymore for whatever reason, etc.) rather than the person freely deciding that they didn’t identify as trans anymore. In other cases, the person still identifies as trans but just decides not to pursue medical transition for whatever reason, and this is also considered “detransitioning”. Other people who technically detransition choose to transition again later, when they’re in a safer or more financially stable place or what have you. There are a lot of factors, it’s already pretty rare, and yet transphobes will latch onto like one (1) story about a person who regrets transitioning and be like SEE?? IT’S POSSIBLE TO REGRET IT! THIS IS THE ONLY POSSIBILITY WE WILL TALK ABOUT! Like, okay. It’s possible to regret literally any decision that you make. It’s possible to regret your marriage, Karen, but I don’t see you calling for the outlawing of all heterosexual marriage Just In Case, do I? Yet look at the divorce rates! The stats for domestic abuse! Surely the risk is too high to allow this thing. lol. /s

This is a good post from good old transgenderteensurvivalguide about detransitioning, they’ve got a couple sources. Here’s another, recent study I found via quick google search which supports the “majority of detransitioners do it because of external pressure”: 

but again this is just quick research bc (a point that’s mentioned in the TTSG post!) I don’t like thinking about detransition much just because it is used as a “but what if!!” weapon by unpleasant people so much lol! (This is not the fault of people who, for whatever reasons of their own, do end up detransitioning! Unpleasant people will find any excuse to be unpleasant.) So I haven’t spent a lot of time looking into it. Different sources find different percentages of trans people detransition at some point I think, but it’s always a small number. 

About trusting your feelings, I don’t know what advice to give because I also struggle with that lol. It has gotten and continues to get better with time. When I was preparing for top surgery I’d have moments where I’d be like “but what if I regret it???” and then I’d actually calm myself down and think, okay, do I want to put this on hold and think about it a while longer, make sure I really want to? and the answer was always a strong NO absolutely not, I really want this and I’m excited about it and eager for it to happen as soon as possible! Yet I’d panic over nothing, just because I felt like surely I couldn’t trust myself to be right about something so big. But I woke up after the surgery with this just transcendent feeling of happiness and peace and contentment, and I’ve never regretted it, and I take every socially acceptable chance to show off my chest because I love it. Looking forward to swimming shirtless this summer! already enjoying wearing sleeveless shirts! It’s just been amazing. HRT has been great too, part of me is like “woah that’s different! I need to get used to how my voice sounds and feels different and I sing in a different register now” and part of me is like IT’S STILL HAPPENING TOO SLOWLY GIVE ME ALL THE CHANGES IMMEDIATELY PLEASE AND THANK U lol. Generally been very excited about it all. 

One thing TTSG mentions is that if you’re not sure you want to continue HRT you can microdose and get the changes very very slowly so you have plenty of time to decide if you like everything and want it to continue or if you’d like to stop where you are. As for surgeries, it’s required that you get a psychological evaluation that makes sure you’re in your right mind and fully understand the procedure you’re getting, not to mention the expenses and wait time, it’s not like it’s just something you can do on a whim. 

There’s no timeline on this, you can take as long as you need to to figure out what’s right for you personally. 

Ah yes Christianity. I had a huge crisis over the book Hostage to the Devil by Malachi Martin, a work which claims to be based on real events (I do NOT recommend. and I do not believe it’s anything but fiction) and was like “am I possessed??? is this what this is?? The nice Catholic guy that my church likes said being transgender means you’re full of demons and he’s probably right, right?” and read the catechism and it was like “no you can’t be trans” and it was just. a bad time for religious/gender crises lol. I eventually ended up ditching my religion (as you’ve probably noticed from some of my posts) but I do know several queer Christians who reconcile their beliefs with their identities, and while I was still Christian the way I saw it was, okay, nobody else might see it this way but I know that this isn’t just something I decided to do, or a demonic punishment for not being a good enough Christian. I know this is just an essential part of who I am. So God must have made me this way, and God knows what He’s doing; if anyone else doesn’t like it they can take it up with God. (religious crisis: why the hell would God put me in a church that’s so transphobic tho?? Is he, like, a sadist?? Is his whole church wrong or am I wrong?? am I in the wrong church?) 

Transphobes are also quick to claim that seeking gender-affirming medical treatment is “mutilation”, and yet the same people will generally support allowing plastic surgery to make intersex people seem more binary (even for children too young to consent to receiving such treatment!), and unnecessary plastic surgery that makes cis people feel more conventionally attractive according to their own weird little ideas about gender norms. And cis people with hormone issues can get hormones and nobody raises an eyebrow, but when a trans person wants hormones it’s all NOOOOOO how dare! (I can’t find it now, thank you tumblr broken search function, but there’s a video I really love where a trans woman explains how when people ask about her voice she just says she has a hormonal imbalance. Which is technically true! Trans people don’t have the hormone levels normally associated with their genders! It’s such an easier way to explain it? And cis people can have hormone imbalances and get hormones to treat it and it’s no big deal but I.... ugh you get the point) Anyways. You don’t have to medically transition to be trans, you can do some things or not others, and generally, when you do medically transition, it’s amazing just how much of it is completely natural, is simply just your own body getting a little help to develop in a different direction. Like, HRT doesn’t add anything foreign, it just readjusts your hormone levels (generally everyone already has both types of hormone in them) and that helps your body change. The language transphobes use makes it sound like you’re assaulting a perfect body with a meat cleaver for no good reason. The way I see it, transition is holy and honoring to your body, it makes it more whole and more itself, not less. You can take hormones and not receive any surgeries if they scare you, and your body will still naturally change itself quite dramatically. This is wonderful and beautiful to me and I’m so glad HRT is an option, it’s really life changing. 

Anyways, yeah, it’s a lot to deal with! Good luck figuring everything out, I’m sorry it’s so confusing. I’m not sure exactly what your family situation is like, mine was Bad(TM) so my knee-jerk reaction is don’t talk to your family, pretend you’ve forgotten about it, just avoid the subject so they’ll leave you alone!! You’ve got enough to deal with yourself without them making it worse! But I don’t know what your particular situation is. Again, good luck! 

#long post #trans #apostasy tag #personal (ok to rb) #anonymous asks

[testosterlonely]

i may not be involved in the ttsg any more but seeing messages come through periodically and seeing how people seem to still appreciate and benefit from something that i created such a long time ago makes me feel something.

[monksisafan]

Anyone remember the ttsg?

[gojngdown]

it’s come to my attention that several of you have never heard this song before. listen to time to say goodbye by twenty one pilots

#ttsg #aud

[anxietys-room-reborn]

I cant get a new binder because I told my dad I use it for work outs (I rarely workout) and if I ask him for a new one hes going to know something is up. Is there maybe a way I can stretch it without ruining my binder? Also I've tried wearing a piece of clothing between my binder and my skin and that doesnt do much either

I don't have a binder; so according to some research, you can't really stretch it, except for wearing it (but if it's too small I really don't reccomend you wearing it). Is there a chance you can order one online without showing him? Heres a link to show you how to do so:

https://transgenderteensurvivalguide.tumblr.com/post/163577752840/lee-says-this-post-is-about-getting-a-binder

Just making sure too; don't exercise with it, it's not safe.

Anyone else have advice?

-Mod Alyssa❣

#anxietysroomreborn #anxietys room #mod alyssa❣ #chest binder #ttsg

[emperess-winterprism]

Just posted a few chapters.

Hope you all enjoy the newly posted chapters~. I am. Exhausted. But HAPPY I finally got them out there.

#rottmnt #I(N)TTSG #IWTB&IFN

[emperess-winterprism]

I. Had a THOUGHT.

Once I get to the perfect spot for both I(N)TTSG and IWTB&IFN, I might do a crossover with Ninie and Don getting chucked into Tello's world. Ninie gets found in a net, and very embarrassed. Don is found in a sinkhole trap, scream-singing Teenagers by My Chemical Romance, causing Nardo and Angelo to wheeze, El and Ninie to watch him in concern, and Tello attempting to murder this obviously insane Donatello.

Which is something Don would do, especially if he got bored and decided to wait for the other turtles to show up and rescue him. He just loves messing with people's heads.

Don: Hey, you try being a single dad of four little shits, and see how sane you are after.

#rottmnt #tmnt #karma bringer #I(N)TTSG #IWTB&IFN #rottmnt future donnie #rottmnt donnie

[sulphuryasecretcloset]

Hi Irina! I’ve been meaning to send this ask for a while now but life and work has caused it to keep slipping my mind 🥲 I just want to say that I’ve been thinking of you a lot recently and I hope you’re doing well. It’s always nice to see you pop up on my dash and it always brightens my day to see you posting. I guess I just want you to know that we are still here and Corin still has a very special place in our hearts 💜

Well, wow, let me say thank you and you really made my night with your incredibly kind ask <3 Compared to when I started to write this story (almost 3 years ago soon, can you believe that??) I had a lot of free time to write and spent it happily on Din, Corin and the gang. Now things are very different and, just like you, life and work is taking up so much of my time I can barely breathe. I have wondered more than once if I was doing people wrong by continuing to spam with Mandorin-related stuff and not just putting everything on hiatus until I have the time to properly finish TTSG (I am working on it the moments of free time I have, but I'm dead set on doing the last chapter/epilogue justice) so, again, thank you for not minding me posting random stuff in between daily life stress xD

I am so honoured that Corin still has a place in your heart and you certainly have one in mine now! <3 <3

[sulphuryasecretcloset]

Are you doing okay? We haven’t heard from you in a while

First of all, thank you so much for your superkind message <3 <3

Due to life, I have been 'enjoying' 10-12 hour shifts at work these last two months and been as energized and creative as a wet rug when I get home at night...

I finally had a quiet moment tonight and got some writing done on TTSG and the What-If's projects, plus finished some Mandorin tweets, so prepare for spam xD

[sulphuryasecretcloset]

I love all your work. You’ve done a really good job of creating characters that feel like they already existed in the SW world. I was just wondering how part 4 and the epilogue for ‘Time to Say Goodbye’ are going?

Thank you so much and I'm truly honoured the characters feel canon to you! As for TTSG, I can only apologize for the fact that it is taking 5000 years to finish. :/ The last chapter is 80% done, the epilogue is still in note-form but will be a LOT easier to write as I won't have to deal with as many loose ends to wrap up. >-< I can only hope it will be worth the wait!!