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now is not the time to cry, im scrolling tumblr rn, wait a bit
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dulciechi · 2 days
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//cw venting
Never done this before but I figured I’d get this off my chest. Will probably delete later.
Went on an unexpected hiatus bc of irl stuff, but tbh, I’ve started to feel a little burned out too. I’ve said this before, but I feel like an imposter whenever I make COTL content bc of the way I depict Narinder. It feels like I have a different view of him that contrasts with the popular headcanon.
But truthfully, I didn’t fall in love with this ship as an “enemies to lovers” trope. I grew interested when we first defeat Narinder and he acknowledges his defeat, even as he cursed the Lamb. The fact that his vitriol is confined to insults over the cult decorations, and that he shows hints of remorse over his actions instead of mulling over his lost crown was refreshing for a villain.
Depending on your choices, we even get to see him accept the Lamb as a proper successor when they choose to resurrect the dead. Like he’s just proud to see them continue his legacy (and maybe grateful to have someone else see the value in it.)
Idk, but seeing a final boss act so graceful after defeat was more interesting to me than one who stubbornly held on to grudges. Sure, he was still feisty and haughty, but he wasn’t a sore loser. He wasn’t a constantly fuming edgelord and that’s what made the ship interesting to me.
This topic is probably too complex for me to properly explain my thoughts, but I just needed to say it so it’d stop festering in my head.
To be clear, I don’t think my interpretation should be the *only* one. I do believe everyone has the right to portray him however they want, since fandom is for fun. I guess I’m just feeling a little lonely after scrolling through the tags.
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chikenkari · 3 days
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My vent art | MDNI!!
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"Do you need a hug, sunshine? I'm all yours."
next is some REAL vent art TW: smoking, suggestive and sexual, messy sketches with me (not my MC Alex but ME) and Jack
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"You never smoked, sunshine... What is that bad?"
"They don't deserve you, sunshine. All of them... They don't deserve all the pain that you feel. I know it hurts... But I promise I can make it feel better."
"Does that feel good, sunshine? You're whining so good... Don't hold it in. Let everyone know how good you feel without them."
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kinda a vent//
bpd culture is ur fp/partner telling u that ur the nicest person w bpd theyve met. it feels weird tbh. on one hand, ofc im nice to them, if i hurt them i feel like my entire world is gonna explode but at the same time it hurts a little bit but like positive. im so used to being seen as such an angry and terrible and aggressive person but he sat there and told me that im not as angry as i say i am or think i am and that im actually a rlly nice person.. which is so weird to me. wdym im nice? wdym? i have anger issues i cant be nice and im always angry why r u telling me im nice? it makes no sense to me...
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griancraft · 2 days
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I really do not like it when doctors assume you’re stupid when you bring up something might be an issue. Like. I had all the symptoms of prediabetes and it runs in my family so I went in like “maybe I’m sick maybe it’s prediabetes but I have all the symptoms please help me get help” and he made it seem like I was malingering. Bro this is why I avoid the doctors office.
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thecorvidforest · 7 months
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boy it would be nice to be able to google something related to personality disorders, psychosis, intellectual disabilities, autism, DID/OSDD, etcetera without finding majority articles that are like “how to deal with a person with X” “how to cope with your child with X” “how to spot someone faking X” “can people with X be cured?”
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jamieflakane · 1 month
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Every time I look in a mirror: fat
Every time I move: fat
Every time I eat: fat
My hands, my chin, my arms: fat
My thighs and hips: disgustingly obese
My reflection: a blob of fat trying to shape itself into a person
I don’t even look human
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vixensofdeath · 6 months
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the urge to die and become nothing becomes stronger every day
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autistic-af · 7 months
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A personal vent - this is my experience and may not reflect other autistic experiences.
Approximately 16% of Autistics are in full-time work.
Approximately 32% are in some form of paid work.
I am in the 16%. And it fucking sucks.
"You are doing so well!" No. I'm not. I'm mentally extremely unwell and in constant burnout. But it's either this or being homeless.
"You must be high functioning then." Besides the terminology, it's kinda a no, too. I high mask. I don't function at home. I can barely take care of myself. It's all fake.
"Count your blessings!" No. This is a curse for me because I was late diagnosed and forced to live NT for 36 years of my life. I am not coping and I am not happy on an autistic level.
I don't go out, I can't watch shows or movies because I'm too exhausted, week-ends are barely enough recovery time, I'm in therapy that's holding the flood at bay just barely.
"You should just quit." I can't. We would lose everything and in the current economy my husband's income is not enough. We'd lose the house, the cars, the cats (which are like my children). And finding another job that pays me $29+ an hour for what I do isn't easy or a guarantee it won't be worse for me.
"You are so lucky to be able to work." I'm not. Please, my sweet dumplings... understand that I'm not.
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themindofmine · 6 months
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I feel like I’m already dead but I have to keep on living
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pinkistufff · 6 months
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idk how much longer i can force myself to stay alive
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corpseleash · 4 months
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I want to fuck up my whole arm from wrist to shoulders, I want to cover myself in my own blood as for the rotting corpse I am. Im a fucking failure
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jenniessis · 2 months
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Bro, I literally have to stop eating. It's like I'm falling out of this. Where's the voice in my head that stops me? Why does it only show itself later to guilt me? Where's my self-control? I'm pathetic.
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muzgozjeb · 1 year
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kind of a vent? maybe? idk :( sorry
bpd + actor culture is wanting to cry and scream at my acting teacher because i showed raw emotion while acting and all he had to say was “you don’t have control over your emotions” as if he wasn’t trying to get me to cry while saying it. i know what he’s getting at, but i feel like me putting on a mask isn’t good enough and me putting down that mask and showing my stupid big loud emotions also isn’t good enough. i don’t know what he wants from me and i feel pathetic. i don’t even remember if he had anything good to say about the reading of that script. i left the room after that and cried by myself and i heard him saying good things about everyone else’s script reading. i feel so humiliated and like i opened up for no reason. -🪐🫀
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pain-is-my-game · 11 months
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Parents really do traumatize you and then force you to reparent yourself instead of being a capable human being who can contribute to society like a normal person. Sorry I can't get a well paying job right now I'm trying to learn coping mechanisms.
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