#Tfw Autism

[lovethisfat37]

I need a hug so tight I can't breathe for a few seconds. Like a factory reset.

#Tfw autism #autistic #tier rambles

[strabiart]

Every friend has their own vibes

#strabi art #tbh #tbh creature #autism creature #btw #btw creature #adhd creature #tfw #tfw creature #schizophrenia creature #nvm #nvm creature #ocd creature #idk #idk creature #anxiety creature #wtf #wtf creature #depression creature

[luidilovins]

Animated the neurocreatures

#tbh #tfw #btw #neurocreatures #autism creature #adhd creature #schizofrenia creature #my art #my post #my animations #luidilovins #neurobeasts

[cinnamonest]

...hello sir...

#need him carnally #I have slight gaming burnout so ive decided to watch something instead before i start a new game #whilst i monch my takeout #ty to the dozens of recommendations ive gotten in the inbox for the past year #yall were right #tfw you can physically feel ur autism latching onto the New Thing™

[w3ndytheraccoon]

:D

#doodle #tbh creature #autism #autism creature #btw creature #adhd #adhd creature #Tfw creature #schizophrenia #schizophrenia creature #nvm creature #ocd creature #ocd #idk creature #anxiety creature #anxiety #wtf creature #dpression #depression creature

[yea-baiyi]

people on twitter are discoursing about whether xie lian’s chastity-based cultivation is a form of abuse (?????) which is so backward to me like huh???? yes jun wu’s thing about xie lian being a virgin is fucking creepy and weird and part of his overall obsession and desire to control him. but did they just completely miss the part where xie lian chose this method of cultivation bc the abstinence wasn’t an issue for him? he got hit by sex pollen and never once thought of sex? he didn’t even cultivate for 700 years and just never had sex because he never wanted to and as soon as he found a guy he wanted to fuck he just went for it? literally didn’t even pause to consider the cultivation thing at any point. if this were any other character it might have been used against him but the whole point is xie lian once again perfectly dodging jun wu’s manipulation attacks by just being a weird little guy with autism

#tgcf #xie lian #xianxia jesus #aroace mxtx analysis #grey ace xie lian #but also he’s so autistic the way the whole chastity thing just does not ping his radar #jun wu trying to humiliate him with the virginity detecting sword and xie lian is just embarrassed #the sex pollen was such an uno reverse because sex did not even cross his mind for a second #like yes the POINT is that jun wu was intending to manipulate him with it #but xie lian’s autistic he’s just operating on a completely different set of base assumptions #why tf would u care about sex. why do you care about whether i’ve fucked. i certainly don’t. ur fucking weird #he’s so funny the epitome of autism creature jun wu just doesn’t get it #tfw neurotypical people project emotions and hangups onto you and ur autistic ass is like ????? #why would you assume i would be upset about that #i get so much fuel for posts from twitter because they’re so batshit over there #and not in a good way #i see their discourse and im so baffled

[m1zumono]

dean winchester and autism because this man is autistic and i will not accept otherwise:

his reaction to sam giving him the giant slinky at the end of 7x14 'plucky pennywhistle's magical menagerie'

actually physically stimming when he enters the bunker with sam in 15x14 'last holiday' and sees the christmas decorations

the boxing episode, 11x15 'beyond the mat', where dean spends the entire episode fanboying and (for lack of a better word) plays in the boxing ring

wearing the same thing (flannel, jeans, in earlier seasons the leather jacket) almost all of the time while not in disguise to work cases

eating the same thing (cheeseburger with extra onions or pie) at almost everywhere they go, as often as he can (about dean winchester and food, i could talk about that for hours he has so many issues with it and it's all john winchester's fault)

his ability to recite movies line for line, and his tendency to communicate almost entirely through references and movie quotes, and expecting people to understand what he means

about references, he makes jokes and references when it's not appropriate, he doesn't understand that something isn't appropriate in a situation where it isn't specifically pointed out to him, and he generally has a pretty messed up sense of empathy and inability to 'read the room'

‘you’re always calling me a geek, but you know every word to every led zeppelin song, backwards and forwards. you can discuss in detail every major rock drummer between ’67 and ’84… and you watch ‘jeopardy!’ every night.’ - directly quoted from sam winchester in 14x20 'moriah'

in 13x06 'tombstone' when they go into the motel and dean talks about the cowboys, identifying all of them and going into quite a bit of detail about a few of them, even though nobody asked him about it and he is absolutely infodumping. 'he really likes cowboys.' 'yes. yes, he does.'

his knowledge of cars, particularly baby, and how he takes her for a ride when he's sad because of the comfort she provides him. also about baby and comfort, the way he offers to let people drive baby when he realises that they're sad, thinking it'll make them feel better as she makes him happy and he doesn't understand how else to help

in 1x03 'dead in the water' he talks to lucas about how he didn't speak as a kid, he plays with the toy soldiers and it doesn't come across as playing with them to make lucas trust him, it actually comes across as him finding genuine enjoyment in it

in 1x15 'the benders' when he's talking to the kid who mentions godzilla, dean brightens immediately and goes off topic talking about his favourite godzilla film, and has to be reminded that he's working a case by sam

the entirety of 14x04 'mint condition', how dean gets to express his interests and be himself and how a lot of people have mentioned that he seems to be genuinely himself in that episode instead of the act he puts on

larping with charlie, no explanation needed

he shuts down when things go badly, often blasting music and ignoring everything and everyone around him

he always picks scissors when playing rock, paper, scissors, and it's actually something that comes up multiple times within the show - in 2x17 'heart', sam says, 'dean, always with the scissors,' and along the same lines, his excitement both times he actually wins the game

in 1x04 'phantom traveller', dean is terrified because of the plane and sam points out that he's humming metallica. he replies that it calms him down, and that just seems very autistic

#spn #supernatural #dean winchester #autism #autistic dean winchester #actually autistic #he's autistic because i'm autistic and i relate to everything here way too much for him to not be #i actually don't care if half of these things aren't specific to autism #i relate to them and i'm autistic and i think those two things are linked so they are now #heavy emphasis on the routines with the clothes and food #also heavy HEAVY emphasis on the few times we get to see him be a nerd #mostly the scene where sam calls him out on it because this man is a nerd and i just want that to be known #to be fair the entirety of tfw 2.0 is autistic #sam dean jack and cas #the four flavours of autism #and about castiel and autism because i'm not making a separate post just for this #i always see it get played off as 'he's an angel he literally isn't human he's not autistic he's just not human' #one misha says you're wrong and that he's autistic #and two none of the angels are like that? like yeah they don't tend to get sarcasm but the level of that is almost exclusive to castiel and #he's weird even by angel standards #the gay angel is autistic #they're also all trans but that's a different conversation #this is way too many tags i'm clicking post goodbye #meta

[starsshiningabyss]

Ingo: yeah i think falling through the rift broke my body as well as my mind, i find the oddest of sensations unbareable, certain fabrics for example make my skin crawl.

Emmet: Nope! you had sensory issues before. its the autism.

Ingo:... What is autism?

Emmet: hm.

#tfw your twin forgets his diognosis #ingo was like those old stories of ppl who had no social etiquette but they were so good at their job you couldnt be mad about it #autism be damned my boy knows how to work a pokeball #train infodump inaccessable #replace with sneasler lore #submas

[setsunaanddiana]

Keeping Up with the Creatures (a reality show in someone’s brain)

IDK for once just feels annoyed that they’re here (draw your squad)

(creatures by acmeiku, @waffle-bog + real.megamind, bog.boyy, @pnkrathian, @luidilovins, @feather-box-moth [left dyslexia], and @sunshine-1722 [right dyslexia])

#draw your squad #when two dyslexia creatures are alike #That you just place them both #Also yes the amount of creatures getting added #Is making me needing to keep up with y’all here #idk creature #btw creature #tbh creature #wtf creature #tfw creature #I love tfw *kisses head* #gib acronyms for dyslexia #autism creature #adhd creature #anxiety creature #depression creature #dyslexia creature #schizophrenia creature #There two brain cells #Idk and wtf share one and the rest share the other

[soullessjack]

i think one of the other autistic aspects in jacks character that’s like a little hard to see unless you’re also autistic, because it’s more of a common experience than a visible trait, is the sensitivity he has to people perceiving him as “different.” like, yes he actively wants to be strong and protect people and embrace his powers/what he is for a good purpose, and he even likes to show off and impress or entertain people with them. yes he’s well aware of his capabilities + Most Powerful Being status and literally weaponizes it against their enemies, but then at the same time he’s extremely uncomfortable when people regard him as “different” or dangerous, despite him knowing and owning that in other areas.

when mrs butters says that sam and dean should be afraid of jack bc of how insanely powerful he’s become, he never argues against his power level, only that he’d never hurt them; again, he knows his strength and uses it against various enemies even proudly sometimes. a large part of his character is just grappling with what he is and accepting that, which in turn ties into using it for Good to fight the Evil that’s supposed to be inherent to it. au bobby almost has him thrown out of the camp because he’s a “half breed” who will “inevitably” turn on the humans there because of it, and later on rationalizes that jack must be fully evil now because without his human side (a literal biological aspect that can’t be taken away), all that’s left is Lucifer. jack is essentially feared for being half-angel and looked down on for being half-human, for literally being a lesser human being because his other heritage isn’t human.

while jack obviously embraces their human heritage more, they do also make some effort to accept their angelic heritage for what it lets him do. suffice it to say, “this is who i am and I can’t change it but I can do something with it.” so then, when people view him as something weird or dangerous or simply different, when they see him negatively while he’s actively struggling to make positives out of it, he doesn’t deal with it very well. he strives to be “normal,” while still maintaining the protective role he’s able to fill specifically because he isn’t normal.

and for me, the autistic parallel lies in that directly. the more I’m realizing about myself and my autistic identity, the more I’m able to understand myself and embrace it—and even though my family jokes here and there, they also embrace me and help me feel more comfortable and confident in who I am. but it still feels like almost every day, I’m going through loving myself, messing up because I’m autistic, hating that I’m autistic and stuck like this forever, and learning to love myself again despite my faults. wash rinse repeat. as I become an adult and have increasing responsibility and pressure that I’m unable to take on because I’m autistic, I resent that the world isn’t built for me; that it actively hates and mocks me. countless tiktok core-core videos about how I am fundamentally a lesser human being or not even human to allistics, just because I am autistic. I flip back and forth all the time between “I hate being autistic because I struggle like this and I’ll never stop struggling” and “I love being autistic and I wouldn’t be me if I wasn’t but I hate how difficult the world is because of it.”

and honestly both can be true; I don’t enjoy the executive dysfunction and exhaustion I’d deal with even in an ideal non-ableist society, but I enjoy being able to have special interests and experience certain things in a unique way. and conversely, jack likes being able to protect their loved ones and do cool tricks with their angel powers, but they don’t like being rejected or othered by everyone else because he’s half-angel. self acceptance is incredibly difficult to maintain when you aren’t outwardly accepted, and it’s even worse when you’re actively rejected—which true for anyone, but especially in the autistic experience. and again, even if the world was accepting of autistic people, I would still probably struggle to accept myself personally because of the ways it disables me. in that same way, even tho jack is (mostly) surrounded by people who accept him as he is and are equally as weird or “monstrous,” he still feels ostensibly Different from them and is actively othered from them by heaven and hell and dean in 15x18 arguing about his True Place.

another layer of this is that, even jack’s supportive accepting equally-weird family has their moments of othering him without meaning to; he is fundamentally dangerous [against his will], and they’re not being unreasonable when they’re afraid. i think dean even frames it as, “we aren’t afraid of you, we’re afraid of what you can do to other people,” which means to separate jack’s inherent dangerousness from their personhood, when jack so easily conflates the two (and even that itself can be seen as separating your symptoms/behaviors from your personhood).

a lot of dadstiel ppl might be mad at this, but even cas has the tendency to impose Jack’s value with the paradisal destiny Kelly told him about, despite also saying that Jack only needs to be himself to be loved. neither his or Kelly’s love are conditional on that basis, but it inadvertently created a standard for jack to hold themself to and is part of the reason he seeks to make Something Good out of what he’s been taught is Inherently Bad. he’s expected to succeed and actively wants to, but because their natural tendencies for retaliation or anger or impulsivity (things they view as inherently evil in them), as well as their lack of total control, causes jack to falter in fully succeeding and ergo, continue the struggle to love himself on the basis of meeting cas and kelly’s accidental standard.

it’s not their fault and it isn’t Jack’s fault either, because it’s all fundamentally a matter of genetics and circumstance, but it’s obvious to anyone alive that’s ever struggled with self consciousness and esteem that it’s hard to love yourself when the love you receive from others seemingly falters in a specific area, because then you fixate on the area where their love falters and you either strive to fix it or spiral into a crisis that there will always be some aspect of you that isn’t lovable.

thank you for coming to my ted talk.

#spn #spn analysis #supernatural #jack kline #autistic jack kline #autistic characters #autism coded #autistic experiences #autism posting #sam winchester #dean winchester #castiel #tfw 2.0 #dadstiel #cas and jack #kelly kline #liek … He means so so so so so so so so much to me I’m gonna throw up #he’s literally peak autism representation in almost every way and it’s literally not even on purpose . it just IS #autism transcending the narrative …

[thatmahblog]

I'm autistic and I'm clinging to tumblr for dear life right now. My doctor is somehow always at least an HOUR late. And I got notes so that I dont pass out and go nonverbal with no other way to communicate but dear gods. I am always DEAD by the time I finally get to see her. It's a fight to stay distracted and not stressing out the whole time thinking about how at any given moment I might be jumpscared and shoved into a very uncomfortable social situation. Like I want to be mentally prepared to speak but if I keep myself prepared the whole time I wait then I will die. So I have to distract myself so I don't start convulsing and sobbing on the ground from the effort.

AND ALL THIS. To see my doctor??? I win a free meltdown and an epic burnout with every doctor's appointment. Something that is for my health and wellbeing is just destroying me because nothing in this world is adapted to me.

#the world is unfair and it makes me fume with anger #tfw when your disability makes healthcare LESS accessible #seriously I hate this world #autism #autistic #actually autistic #healthcare #neurodivergence #neurodivergent #vent

[strabiart]

When you and your neurodivergent friends watch the "Little Bird" tiktok for the first time and feel so seen.

#strabi art #tbh #btw #tfw #idk #nvm #wtf #tbh creature #btw creature #tfw creature #idk creature #wtf creature #autism creature #adhd creature #schizophrenia creature #anxiety creature #ocd creature #depression creature #little bird tik tok #tik tok #tiktok #saltychap #emily anne

[fihas]

team furtress 2

individual designs of all these kittycats are under the cut!

[from left to right: medic, heavy, scout, sniper, demoman, pyro, soldier, spy, engineer]

#these were sooo fun to draw #i heart drawing silly guys as cats forever. double autism blast #<i have a special interest in cats. teehee #also. hi. sudden tf2 fixation jumpscare. not sure how many people who follow me are tfw fans but #woe. tf2 kittys be apon ye #my art #tf2 #team fortress 2 #medic tf2 #heavy tf2 #sniper tf2 #scout tf2 #pyro tf2 #demoman tf2 #soldier tf2 #engineer tf2 #spy tf2 #catified

[curseshared]

"...Is this a prank?"

#tfw she got type 1 but i'm already adamant that she's a type 6 #it's in the MOTIVE... the cause and effect #she struggles more with insecurity btw #the perfectionism is a result of her need to be seen and appreciated #also the autism but i'm trying to stick with the model of personality here #she's unhealthy about authority figures and needed unconditional love and support to change her ways #not just to find out she was objectively wrong #meme friday

[gibbearish]

good news to trans people considering testing out a new name but dont want to because itll be uncomfortable: dont worry it'll be uncomfortable for everyone. but like in a fun way

#my roommate: hey cj can you- ........ wait hey ZANE can you do xyz #me cringing horrifically: yes thank you #origibberish #tfw ur autism makes you hate the concept of names in general🙃

[thefrankencycler]

it's been a rough winter (made at picasion)

ID under the cut:

[image ID: a series of six glitter-text animated gifs, in colors that make a rainbow. they write out, "i am so neurodivergent. it is vastly debilitating and just keeps getting worse." end ID.]

#my posts #flashing #eyestrain #webcore #glitter gif #glitter text #dark #brainweird #old web #old internet #y2k aesthetic #neurodivergent #neurodiverse #tfw your most recent crisis finally makes you realize you have the autism