#The Darkness Around Us Is Deep

[deep-dark-fears]

You can be smoothie. A fear submitted by Felix to Deep Dark Fears - thanks! You can find original art in my store over HERE!

#comics #Deep Dark Fears #Fran Krause #fears #blender #So here's the story #folks. #It's been a crazy couple years #and I haven't been posting every week like I used to. #But the truth is that I've still been doing this comic every single week. #It's published in a paper out in Vermont called Seven Days - Hi Jeff! #Anyhow - I haven't been posting it online because I've just been very busy the past year or so #But this week I've finally gotten around to formatting all these comics and I'm going to see what happens when I publish a year's worth #in a few days. #Who knows? #Hope you're all well! #Your pal - Fran

[vaguely-concerned]

Obi-Wan's feelings about Anakin after Revenge of the Sith and especially once he finds out Anakin didn't die give me such a precise feeling, one that I've otherwise only ever felt in Andrea Gibson's 'Photoshopping my sister's mugshot' (which is a beautiful poem but big cw for substance abuse and addiction themes and having a loved one in that situation):

not me falling off the wagon of my unforgiveness running to the police station begging them to replace your photo with the negative the dark side in full light

. . .

it isn't the right exposure because you were also the kindest person I ever knew and that in itself has been its own dark room considering the ugliness is to scale considering our family tree and how there isn't a person who loves you who isn't dead on the branch how loving you less might have been the sweetest gift I could have given my own life but how that sweetness would have rotted God's teeth when every Christmas morning you woke me at four am more excited for me to open my stocking than you were to open yours how do I say that to a judge and not sound insane how do I say the truth isn't the right filter the truth knows nothing of who you almost were but I do

I do

'loving you less might have been the sweetest gift I could have given my own life'. like. yeah. if only it worked like that

#the thing about unconditional love is that it endures even at the point where there probably *should* be some conditions #star wars #obi wan kenobi #cw substance abuse #cw addiction #andrea gibson #the dark side does hold some symbolic elements of addiction I think you could use it as a metaphor for that if you were of a mind #at the very least it has some of the same impact on the people around the person going deep into it

[illegiblewords]

Uzal/The Dark Urge

#The Dark Urge #baldur's gate 3 #baldur's gate iii #bg3 #bgiii #I've been trying to figure out what kind of guy he is and realized he is basically Patrick Bateman #A very professional very affable murder ceo who uses words like 'workplace synergy' #who happened to get thrown into the wilderness without his memory #very polite very professional but some part of him really needs to go apeshit #technically white dragon sorcerer for the A E S T H E T I C but I'm giving him more levels as a cleric of Ilmater #I'm going with the assumption that Ilmater saw there was an opportunity + took a deep breath and went FINE I'LL DO IT #WE'LL MAKE A MAN OF GOD OUT OF YOU YET UZAL #but then four AM rolls around one day and he's getting prayers like 'oh Ilmater in your most merciful and heavenly aspect' #'I come to you in my time of dire need with a mutilated corpse and nowhere to put it' #'might I prevail upon you to aid your humblest servant with suggestions on where I might hide a body' #and Ilmater takes up smoking

[aleki-lives-here]

I watched an mdzs animatic with a song from wicked, and something in my mind finally clicked and now I want to scream about how similar my current and my past hyperfixations are.

"Good news, the witch is dead!" like

"No good deeds" is such a "character pushed to their limits" song. Imagine it before the nightless city. The first scream, as Wen Ning and Wen Qing walk away. The chanting as he lies there, unable to move, praying for them to be well. Memories of people he loves: Jiang Cheng and Jiang Yanli, Lan Zhan, the Wen siblings.

"Was I really seeking good, or just seeking attention?" -- as he looks at the burial mounds and leaves.

"If I cannot succeed, Fiero, saving you, I promise no good deed will I attempt to do again." -- as he learns about Wen Qing and Wen Ning's death.

Ending with him arriving at Nightless city and pulling out the flute.

I want to see it animated so much!

My skills are so annoyingly not up to the task. Maybe if my hyperfixation survives long enough that I learn drawing and animating things well? It'll be the third mdzs animatic I really wish to do one day. Maybe one day.

#mdzs #wicked #my tastes do never change. all my favourite stories seem to have “dark evil” characters that are actually good #I am obsessed with this okay #mdzs did what I love about such stories the best tho. it's perfection. i love it so much oh my god #wicked has the advantage of being a musical. tho I have 60+ mdzs animatics saved so by now I arguably consume it as a musical. #maybe one day I'll write a comprehensive list of all animatics I've ever came across #wicked also has a slight advantage of the word “witch” being used. it is a fun word that makes me feel thing #it was what I was called in school #because I was weird and autistic #and wasn't afraid of blood and drew weird runes and made weird rituals I called “magic” that were rumored to actually work #because one day a boy annoyed me. I made weird hand gestures. and he immediately got hit by snow falling from the roof #i swear like five people from my class confessed they were scared of me #and later my uni teacher. she confessed there were rumors going around among teachers about how scary and terrible a student I was #I still can't get over this it's so funny. imagine being this annoying and weird. it's hilarious. #so yep. my love to stories about characters the are deemed “evil” by the world runs very deep #I love them so so so much ahah #now I just need to learn drawing and do my love some justice

[theflopwonder]

now that i think abt it .... the whole timkon relationship discussion we were teased abt happening in dark crisis yj is definitely going center around, or at least somewhat to be about Tim and Cassie kissing while Kon was dead because it makes no other sense why they would choose to retcon Conner knowing about that whole situation already

#tim drake #kon el kent #timkon #young just us #dark crisis young justice #young justice #deep diving into some comics? :) deep diving into some bitches? :( #which i have ... very mixed feelings about lol #cuz on one hand id be happy to jus have the acknowledgement but also ... centering it all around that specific moment feels a little ehhhhh #but theres also the possibility that megan just .... genuinely doesnt know that conner knows already #which wouldnt surprise me

[the-moth-and-the-warden]

Tiavel: I learned something very surprising about wardens. They purr! At least, Yugoth does! When I came to visit it, the warden came right over to me, and was actually acting affectionate! I am beginning to think the warden actually enjoys my presence. It actually seemed like it wanted to follow me home... though it stopped right at the edge of the ancient city and didn't follow me any further. You're probably going to think I'm nuts, but... honestly? It's kinda... cute. In its own way... even if it keeps putting that weird mushroomy goop in my mane!

#Yugoth #Tiavel #Minecraft #Warden #Deep Dark #OCs #moth #Floof #purring #Tiavel has done something surprising #Befriended a big aggressive warden #And has somehow managed to get the thing to actually like him! #The moth isn't used to the big creature yet #but he's starting to realize he's safe around it #Or so it seems

[gch1995]

Jedi Critical/Negativity tag!

In the tags list some things that suck about the Jedi Order in Star Wars. I’ll start!

#anti jedi apologists #jedi critical #tag the reasons why the Jedi suck #I’ll start #1) ​Obi-Wan Yoda and the Council are partially responsible for influencing Anakin Skywalker to become Darth Vader in the first place #2) recruit children as soldiers #3) most of them are poorly written Gary Stus and/or Mary Sues with no real character development except for Luke and Anakin Skywalker #4) Most of them don’t give any shits about creating collateral damage #5) their anti attachment doctrine is incredibly harmful and toxic to both themselves and the world around them #6) Obi-Wan is honestly just as arrogant aggressive manipulative ruthless self-centered and vindictive as Anakin becomes at his worst #in his ‘ends justify the means’ methods and duels with opponents if not worse at times #but unlike Anakin and Luke Skywalker there are NEVER any real stakes for him being that way or negative consequences when he doesn’t stop #when Luke acts cocky on Bespin in his conflict with Vader after learning to use a lightsaber a few days ago on his own he loses his hand #I mean Anakin and Luke come to distrust and resent him for being a manipulative asshole and he loses people he cares about #but he never gets any warnings about how he shouldn’t be fighting dirty because it makes him no better to stoop to his enemies level #there’s never a stake in the narrative for him never learning to not fight dirty and vindictively on the battlefield #and continuing to justify it as ‘for the greater good’ #when obi wan picks fights with enemies fights dishonorably or seeks vengeance it’s framed as ‘cool’ #but when Anakin or Luke do it regardless of their good intentions it’s never not framed as something bad that will come back to haunt them #or eventually bring them to deep to the dark side if they don’t learn to stop #7) Yoda is the most unhelpful ‘wisest Jedi’ ever #8) obi-wan and Yoda deliberately deceive endanger and manipulate Luke Skywalker to kill off the fearsome enemy they helped turn his dad into #and never express any sort of remorse to him when Luke calls them out on their bs #one of the main villains can learn the lesson of it being wrong to use luke as a pawn to escape his problems in the last 1/2 hour of ROTJ #but obi-wan and Yoda never do because they’re ‘heroes’ for being on the lesser evil of two very fucked up sides #9) aside from a few individual Jedi most of them are just the lawful evil version of the Sith

[k1rishiki]

one thing i'm trying to keep in mind while designing the cast of the resurrectionists is that they're all constantly changing clothes + ideally there will be ppl cosplaying these characters someday and i'd much rather see morana cosplays done in old btssb pieces that technically aren't things she wears than morana cosplays in cheap mass-produced versions of her canon outfits from aliexpress so i'm trying to make them all recognizable by a defining feature or two + fashion (sub)style alone

#like morana wears old school egl. tends towards skirts that hit her mid calf. prefers ruffles over lace. always has on rocking horse shoes. #usually is in some sort of deep red. wears a lot of vivienne westwood pieces. wears a lot of bows. and has a very specific shade of pink #hair w hime-esque bangs and braided twintails. so like. if youve got the hair and 1-2 of those things you're all set for your morana cospla #(also rectangular headdresses. she loves rectangular headdresses) #shi is also one of the good examples. shironuri w bright red lipstick and LONG false eyelashes for makeup. long red and black hair in a #high sidepony (which is at least partially crimped). she wears angura kei w a tendency towards basing her fits around kimono and not school #uniforms (bc she is. a grown ass adult. from the 1600s). she always has something on her head near the base of that ponytail. #her outfits often incorporate flowers or butterflies. she usually has some sort of timepiece on her. she likes printed socks/tights. her #shoes always have some sort of platform. and her main colors are red white and black. #dysmas doesn't wear any color save for white and black. any metal on them is silver. their hair is black and textured and covers one eye. #they always have a crucifix displayed on them prominently somewhere. they wear shironuri w dark makeup around their eyes and st peter's #cross drawn under their visible eye + black lipstick. their outfits are mainly black w white collars. they like moi meme moitie pieces. #they almost always have a crucifix at their hip. for shoes they tend towards a heeled boot. they almost always have on some sort of veil fo #headwear. think of them like a raspberry mazohyst choker come to life. #mara's going to be my last example bc i need to make the rest of them stronger. black twintails w bangs parted in the middle and pink #highlights. either guro lolita or menhera depending on which version of her you're looking at but we're going to focus on regular mara not #distant-future-amnesiac-reaper-mara . so guro lolita. she always has an eyepatch. she has long legs so she uses that age old talllita trick #of letting one's bloomers peak out to cover more leg. she tends towards blouse+skirt+apron coords instead of wearing a jsk or op. #white bright red and bright pink are her colors. usually wears gloves or wrist cuffs. likes printed tights/socks. likes border prints. #romeo.txt

[freebooter4ever]

So im still exhausted. I keep making dumb mistakes and doing stupid shit like leaving charging cords at work or at home. My coordination is gone, im tripping and knocking into things. My eyes feel sore??? All i want to do anymore is lie down and try to sleep. :/

I think i was running on pure adrenaline last week...and now that 'panic' mode is done my body is paying me back for all the stress. :( i barely slept the entire time i was traveling, i regularly drove for like 10+ hrs on next to no sleep which...yeah. I know. Dangerous. The constant tension of whether or not snow was going to make my next route passable, and worry over keeping other people's schedules. And then to get to my grandparents house and to find out they're not moving till may and the 'end of march' deadline was an arbitrary schedule that didnt actually matter. Im not mad, i cant be mad at them they're moving which is stress enough, im just...mourning my exhaustion and inability to function lol. Had they let me wait even one more month the snow and the insane storms would have been gone.

Anyway, just thinking about that feeling of 'safety' or 'comfort' and how precious a thing it is for me (and my sleep) . After my anxiety started growing worse it takes a LOT for me to feel 'safe' with someone or somewhere. My italian grandparent's house would be one, nick's sister's house would be another. And then my friends house in the mountains of oregon, who are just the kindest, most generous people. The two nights i spent there were literally the only times i slept last week.

Back in the fall of 2018, six months after grandpa died and still unemployed, i helped grandma travel by train to ohio, flew back to seattle, stayed with sanjeev for a week ish, and then started south to los angeles because i literally couldnt think of anywhere else to go. And these friends in oregon - they were off traveling at the time - let me stay in their house for over a week. I was so scared about the future, i was still grieving and feeling like a total ghost, still processing my dad's very friendly comment (when i asked him why he hadn't offered to let me stay in his house after i flew back from ohio) about how if i couldn't afford to house myself i deserved to be homeless.

(honestly that wasn't even the part that bothered me - i knew that about my dad from the time when i was a kid and he would point out homeless people to me and jokingly say 'that will be you as an artist!'. Instead of instilling fear in me though this backfired and all my charity work in high school dealt with homeless shelters lol. But no, the part that bothered me was how he tacked another comment onto the end - that life 'couldn't go back to how it was'. THAT was when i broke down crying in front of him because i think stupid me still genuinely believed that if i moved back to seattle my dad would go back to being my best friend and it'd be us against the world again.)(i saw him for five minutes in sac last week - he refused to even have lunch with us)

Instead in 2018 i was anchorless, emotionally disconnected from reality, and instead of comdemning me like everybody else in my family, my friends were like 'dont worry about it, the house is empty, please use it.' And i did! I was nervous at first. But then i started exploring the area - went to a bunch of state parks out in the middle of nowhere hidden in the high desert. Ended up LOVING one of them and collected those tacky tourist maps and just scribbled all my observations and tips on the best roads to drive/things to do/see onto the margins. And i collected all the brochures and compiled a kind of guide, and left it on the counter just in case my friends hadn't found that particular area to explore yet. And sure enough, they hadn't! To this day they still talk about how happy they were to have all these suggestions and things to see, and how that particular area is now one of their favorite places to visit. So what im saying is that's the only place i got any rest last week. Also those pancakes. I need to make those pancakes.

Anyway i'm just so fucking tired, man. This is the second 'vacation' where i've come back more exhausted than when i left, i think i need to do something differently. (also fuck you dad, five years in LA and not homeless once)

#Journal shit #When i was stuck on the grapevine for two hours #I had a sudden memory of nick and i driving in the dark #See he was new to pittsburgh and by that point i was old hat #After the hell year 2011 i spent most of my free time driving alone around the city trying to get myself lost and unlost in the corners #with the window rolled down and the freezing numbing breeze the only thing that would make the scars on my face feel normal #Like that city is BEAUTIFUL at night #And nick he liked talking in cars #I mean he liked doing other things in cars too but mostly it was the talking #Like deep conversations talking #And since i knew the roads and i had the zippy tiny blue teardrop of a car vs his giant ass truck #I did the driving #And so many times under a street light i would catch him staring at me with a strange face #And i would get all embarrassed and he'd just shrug and say he liked looking at me with that stupid smile of his #No one before or since has ever looked at me like that #I have done road trips with a fair number of people now #But nothing ever like that #Of course i was also looking at him whenever he was driving #He hated the camera so much but the only photos i have of his face are of him driving his truck through the snow in the laurel highlands #Near that one fishing cabin his family used lmao #Im glad being alone gives me more time to spend with friends but sometimes i wish... #NOT with nick god no i have officially given up on that but #Something similar

[mundanemiseries]

  He remembers the day his childhood died. Time off from class, a game of Lunaro played among friends as another noodled away on the shawzin. Some well deserved time off while the jump to Tau got moved again.

    ...ᴀʟʟ ᴅᴇᴄᴋs, ᴀʟʟ sᴛᴀᴛɪᴏɴs, sᴛᴀɴᴅ ʙʏ ғᴏʀ ʀᴇʟɪǫᴜᴀʀʏ ғɪᴇʟᴅ ᴅʀɪʟʟ.

  Kids rushing over to the window, Saturn looming over them all as the countdown began. The stars outside slowly getting drowned out as the ship geard up for the jump

           ғᴏᴜʀ...ᴛʜʀᴇᴇ...ᴛᴡᴏ...

  Looking back on it now, he wonders if the stars knew just where their lives were all about to turn in that moment.

  Fuck. It all went downhill...so, so quickly. Something went wrong with the jump, leaving them all adrift. The longer they were all out here...something about the air seemed to shift. An erratic sense of wrongness spreading through the adults, the children all starting to lock themselves away in different corners of the ships as the adults started growing increasingly violent.

  He just...had to grab something. Spare supplies that the classroom he and the others locked themselves in didn't have. There were some abandoned dormizones nearby that had to have what he was looking for and-

  A knife dug into his shoulder from behind, pulling a small yell from the boy. Barely getting time to get away before a hand wrapped around his throat, forcing him to stare into the empty eyes of what should have been his father.

  The next moments were all a blur. An unsteady swing of the object in his hands, a broken off piece of the ship, now internally greatful he had chosen to pick it up.

  And he swung, knocking the man off his feet. And then he did again...and again...and again. The snap and crunch of his father's bones, the way his arm screamed in agony, begging for the boy to stop. He couldn't he...he'd die otherwise.

    It was all a blur but it all stood out so brightly in his memory.

  Blood pooled around his feet. The clatter of the hunk of metal slipping from bloodied hands rang in his ears. His father, dead on the ground in front of him. His breath escaped him in soft pants, his hand reaching up to his shoulder, applying pressure to where he was still bleeding.

  He needed a moment to steady himself, eventually stumbling away from his father's body.

  That was the moment the kid he was died. Left bloody and broken on the floor of the Zariman. Lost to the void, just like so much of his past.

#death tw #blood tw #violence tw #|[ IC | weighed down in this city ]| #// #urge to write post-jump Koko stuff go brrrr #also tfw ran around the Zariman looking for smth Koko could use to kill his dad with sghdfgsdfg #● | drabble | empty urban legends | #■ | v. | warframe | though all betwixt is dark and deep |

[cinna-bunnie]

fictional or not, dragon lore is always so interesting.

#I'm watching a DS3 lore video on the nameless king bc i wanted to figure out wtf is the dragonslayer armor's deal #but the greater lore around the dragons is SO fucking good and now I'm thinking about dragons lol #i could watch these dark souls/elden ring lore videos by VaatiVidya all day tbh #i LOVE how deep he goes with it. these worlds and their lore already feel huge but #as someone who's only played the third dark souls it rly makes me appreciate how complex and interconnected it is as a series. #sometimes i wonder if the creators ever watch these vids and think “we didn't mean all that but that's a great idea” #or if they watch it and get super happy like YES that is exactly what our subtle storytelling meant. #either way i have So so much respect for ppl who go and put together these lore videos #going as far as to look at game dumps and early releases/cut content and ALL the dialogue and item descriptions #for any one topic the lore is so scattered about and piecing together any single thing seems like such a massive undertaking. #like lmaooo i can't even follow a single questline without pulling up the wiki #a recent rabbit hole i went down too is how there are different times/realities even just DS3 takes place in? #like how in Untended Graves you see a world without light where darkness rules - and in ringed city when ur fighting those #dragons in the base of that big tree that's supposed to be the original firelink shrine and then the shrine u use is maybe The Past? #the past relative to the other shrine from the world where the flame went out w darkness ruling. #idk how the transition works from being in that one dude's garden in ur world to just walking right into the other one but idc. #just say i got twilight zoned or somethn lol. always. very interesting stuff :^} I'm not smart enough to pick up on anything in the moment #but it's SO fun watching what other people pieced together whose whole thing is that they go thru these games thoroughly. #and in a way it makes me not want to stop playing DS/ER bc there's just so much going on here that's so rewarding?? #like. on TOP of the suuper deep lore the gameplay is also just super fun and u get HELLA weapons and special moves #and the modding scene has made some hella streamline tools that are so good these have been the first games I've ever MADE mods for! #like i can't think of any other games that are like this where I'm really encouraged it make it my own with such a helpful and #engaging community. I'm sure there r other games out there that are similarly engaging with deep lore and streamlined modtools #and mod communities but (⁠〒⁠﹏⁠〒⁠) 1. where?? 2. DS/ER are very beloved to me. #it's funny how little u have to know or do to beat their respective storylines. I've played them both a ton and still know so little. #and when i walk away from these lore vids I'm always like Woah 😵‍💫 yk? anyways.. that's my lil rant :3 back to work now

[meownotgood]

I wanna stick my head under his shirts and pop up at his neck facing him or just bury my face in them smelling his scent and clean linens. bye what do you hc his scent to smell like?

I WISH TO DO THE SAME ANON I'm gonna canon ball into his laundry basket

I'm pretty sure aki would smell like cigarette smoke most of the time.... but I also imagine him to wear some kind of natural-smelling cologne, like a rich cedar wood kind of smell

and his fresh laundry smells like wild flowers

#the way cigarette smoke smells is impossible to describe #and I also feel like it smells differently for everyone #I know a lot of people who absolutely can't stand it #to me it's like a comforting & rich smell #but that's probably just because I grew up around smokers my whole life #also I feel like aki is so particular about the laundry #like he always separates the lights from the darks #always uses the best fabric softener #he's always trying to get deep stains out of his uniforms #so now he's a laundry expert #or..... something like that #ask mags

[justathingfromthebrainvoid]

i kinda just have to put my thoughts somewhere cause... idk

so I've been raiding an ancient city in one of my worlds recently, I've done it before enough that I have a system, but this time... i don't know. I play with the sounds off (cause college & my phone hates headphones) and i'm used to it enough, so i crouch practically everywhere in the deep dark, constantly on the lookout for mobs/water and lots of wool for chests. I'm used to playing the game in utter silence/with background music but for some reason while going through the city today I was struck with this odd feeling of just ... displacement almost. how if it were in real life the actions i was taking, sneaking through this abandoned/ruined city and prying open chests to take what got left behind would almost be sacrilegious in a way, a warped mirror of grave robing whatever the intentions. and i know it's a game, but sometimes you look at a ruin, one inhabited at least twice, and you look at the books and crystals you carry.... i know it's a game, that the ancient cities are there for you to explore, but the story says something lived here, in a world you now live utterly alone in, something lived here, and something happened. And the loot you get feels a bit heavier, a bit dirtier, a lot older

#deep dark #minecraft #not mcyt related for once #just... yeah #weird feelings about block game at 1am that are sticking around in almost uncomfortable ways #i love minecraft's lore and the ruins #but sometimes the fact that someone used to live/Live there gets you and it's unsettling #there were people. and now there aren't. and you don't really know what happened to them.

[sollilua]

the tunnel post reminded me that im one of the only people i know that dont hate the idea of tunnels. like?? one day i was diving (i dont use any kind of fancy equipment. only gloves, a normal mask, a rope tied to a floaty bottle to signal where i am and a kitchen knife) and saw a large tunnel under the coral and was like "omg a tunnel........ if my ears weren't hurting this much i would swim there " only to remember that i PROBABLY shouldn't go inside the Dark Blue Tunnel Of Death without any kind of oxygen and pressure training

#like idk how deep i can go without tearing up from ear pain (only tried once) but it's deep enough to the water to start getting a bit dark #id guess around 5 meters or so. it's incredibly hard to tell #but yeahh i have some sea lore i can share because quite some people i know dive like this #one of them can swim WAY TOO FAR UNDERWATER. it's genuinely concerning when i see him returning. like?? dude #one day he said he saw a huge goliath grouper. we dont touch them because they're sea puppies. kind giants. and because it's illegal #uhh how should I tag this #Thalassophobia tw #tw thalassophobia #just in case #but yeah i dont really fear the sea. ive been vising the corals since i was a young kid :') #not to be old on main but sometimes it's heartbreaking to see how they changed. i can tell the other people who go there feel the same #it used to be full of so many colorful corals and sponges and fish #now everything is SO WHITE and i can see fewer fish. even the ones that people dont eat #there's just this silent feeling of grief between the people who fish for their families and the biologists #sigh

[neverendingford]

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#all those people like 'oh no I will no longer play minecraft with the deep dark update' #seriously. it's hard enough to find the biome naturally. you can still go mining and have creepers drop on your head like normal #also. wardens are very fun to run from. my friend and I had eleven chasing us around an ancient city #imo loyalty tridents are the best way to distract them #I managed to kill two with the help of iron golems #then I had a heart attack when one snuck up behind me #it's easy to escape tho. just ender pearl away