#The Journal of Impossible Things

[hesmuchmoreimportant]

Rose Tyler + The Journal of Impossible Things 🌹🐺📘 (pt. I)

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#dwedit #rtdedit #rosetyleredit #doctorwhoedit #Rose Tyler #The Journal of Impossible Things #Bad Wolf #got inspired to redo my very first edit I ever posted on Tumblr #like #almost ten years ago lolll terrifying #dw #dw edit #RTD Who #mine #mine: graphic #mine: dw #iii

[qweerhet]

i do also want to make a general PSA: the language of "failed men" and "failed women" as distinct gender categories referring to classes of people who have breached gender norms in a way that irrevocably disrupts their access to gender, particularly (but not exclusively) through transitioning or identifying with the "other" gender? that language has been in use in queer theory since at least the 90s.

it's so well-established that i cannot even begin to track down the initial coinage with a quick trip through google scholar. i'm finding publications in well-respected journals using the terminology dating back to the 90s just by scanning the first page of results. if you see someone claiming that transmisogynistic tumblr users made it up in 2023 to find a new way to sneakily call transfems men, they're just wrong, and in the worst case scenario, they're actively lying. if you have a fundamental problem with commonly-used basic transfeminist and queer theory terminology, take it up with the fucking university of chicago or something, idk, anything other than trying to convince 16-year-old trans people on tumblr dot edu that Big Transgender Blogging is intentionally lying to them about commonly accepted transfeminist theory.

#i got so concerned that i'd somehow made up an entire decade's worth of transfeminist theory education that i did some journal diving #because hey i'm mentally ill. making up an entire subsection of gender theory i got my transfeminist grounding in between 2008 and 2019? #it's not... *likely* but it's certainly not impossible with how my psychosis has manifested in the distant past. #but no i'm right this time. people on the internet are either just vastly undereducated on the things they claim to be experts on #or they're straight up lying. lol.

[deansgapjacket]

As I’ve almost completed my version of John Winchesters journal I am now also working on “A Journal of Impossible Things” from Doctor who series 3 episode “Human Nature”. Here’s the first page! I’m utilizing a pdf that scanned the one you can purchase and screenshots from the clip to help make my replication authentic. I’m using a fountain pen to get the old ink & nib look and an ink wash to my drawings afterward which I might need to make it a bit more messy as I go. Looking forward to working on this project more :)

#doctor who #david tennant #doctor who 60th anniversary #journal of impossible things #dr who #doctor who prop #prop replication

[freebooter4ever]

On a whim this morning i updated my cell phone bg and its a disaster because now everytime i minimize windows or try to swap apps i get distracted, totally forget what i was doing, and sit there and stare for a few minutes like a dumbass.

anyway if anyone wants it, please take it! Just dont repost anywhere :) also if anyone knows how to get rid of that useless search box on the bottom there, it bugs me.

#Journal shit #I miss the days when i used a shitty wind*ws phone and the entire thing was customizable #And it had NO apps if anyone wanted me to do anything like download something stupid #all i had to say was sorry i have a wind*ws phone i cant do that it doesnt use apps #It was the best excuse and impossible to circumvent #But also probably why those phones are no longer made ;_;

[casasupernovas]

if anyone has martha's page from the 'journal of impossible things' PLEASE reblog it under this post because i saw it on twitter during lockdown and now i can't find it. my main problem with series 3 is that there isn't enough focus on martha outside of unrequited love, and this page from john smith's journal teases a WAY more interesting story that joan and john. in the episode, the doctor says the tardis will pick a random place in time for them to go hide. it chooses 1913. the doctor then says he is the one to make up the character of john smith, and that he will have a residual memory of who martha is but nothing outside that. martha has to improvise, but there is a danger that john may abandon her. fast forward to the journal. john smith has dreams about his true nature and writes them down or draws it.

and in one page, he draws martha. and the stuff he says about her make me scream in frustration because we didn't get this story: john and martha. see, we barely see what john even thinks about martha (apart from that black people don't understand fiction). she's his maid and rocastle refers to her as his 'favourite servant'. but we see little evidence as to why she'd be his favourite. maybe he's pointing out that she must be important to him because he arrived with her and she is the only black maid in the school. clearly this is unusual for them. but other than this, john smith is generally oblivious to her.

but. BUT. the journal page tells us that john smith is actually well...scared of her. in his journal page, his drawing of her has her facing away from him. he, like the doctor said, knows something is important about her that he has forgotten, but everything else is suspicion and a little panic. he writes that she doesn't show him her face, why can't he see her face. see martha doesn't crumble at the execution of john smith like joan does because according to this, martha very cleverly and deliberately distances herself from 'john'. she makes sure he's okay, takes care of him but she doesn't get emotionally attatched to john smith because he isn't real. and john smith apparently notices this distance and it makes him uncomfortable. where was this story? where was the instances of john trying to get to know martha and her politely stopping this line of conversation? where's his increasing frustration at realising his 'favourite servant' isn't easy to read? where is his moment when he feels dread at martha's final revelation of the truth, confirming his long deep seated fear that something wasn't quite right and that martha is at the centre of it. where is his moments of being disturbed at how calm martha is whenever he mentions a particularly strange dream? where is that story?

#doctor who #human nature #the family of blood #martha jones #tenmartha #john smith #tenth doctor #10th doctor #journal of impossible things

[burntlikethesun]

this weeks filming is making me feel weirdly nostalgic for venturing online as a 13 year old and seeing the filming photos of Catherine Tate yelling at a ticket inspector for The End of Time

#i thought the Journal of Impossible Things book would play a much bigger role and like trigger her memories or something #doctor who

[crown-ov-horns]

My stephenkingification is not happening as fast as I would like to, so I just keep making memes and gifs.

#diary pages #writing journal #writer humor #writer problems #writers on tumblr #both fanfiction and original works #but i post only the fandom things #stephen king is my role model #a writer who writes because not writing is impossible #fandom

[stiuvar-elnor]

So, apparently the new Elite update fixed the police violence glitch. Last night I dreamt I was exiting a station and it was nice to not have to worry about possibly getting shot at after passing through the airlock. But then I turned around and the entire station defence system had activated, shooting a giant laser beam. Definitely scarier than occasionally losing 2% of my shields when getting scanned.

#dreams #my journal of impossible things

[swordsofsaturn]

why does every single thing i ever do have to come with problems. every single action i take no matter how trivial involves all these fucking hurdles i'm so sick of existing this can't be how it's supposed to be.

#why am i even making a post about it i should be journaling or whatever. and yet that's another thing that's seemingly #impossible for me to do without overcoming a million hurdles #whatever. fuck

[wordsdarkerthantheirwiings]

oh, and one really good thing i did today was sit down with my budget spreadsheet and plan the next year, which i wanted to get ahead with because the current living crisis is yikes already and, as my landlord is trash, my rent is going up in january. 😑.

using a spreadsheet has been so genuinely helpful though. i’ve never managed to budget that effectively before but this method really works for me and i’m much better able to keep track of things and plan ahead. it keeps me accountable as well, which has been helpful with hypo impulsivity. knowing exactly where i’m at means i can answer not just the question of “do i really need it?” but also “can i, right now, actually afford it?”

#actuallybipolar #hypomania #journal post #re the landlord thing i wouldn't mind if he actually did a damn thing in this place but he does not #getting him to make critical repairs was like pulling teeth - and he still fucked it #the vast majority of improvement work and maintenance has been and continues to be done by myself and it's... ugh #if you're gonna charge me a top end rent you have to spend some money and take care of YOUR things #an impossible concept for the man who owns this place #😑😑😑 #tag rambles

[deansgapjacket]

My Journal of Impossible things progress! ^ I have been using a fountain pen, and an ink wash to create the same effect as seen in the journal.

Here are my references

Till next update, Allons-y!

#doctor who #journal of impossible things #tenth doctor #david tennant #prop #prop recreation #the doctor

[freebooter4ever]

Ughhhhhhh how much concealer does it take to hide only five hours of sleep?

UGH TUMBLkrs AUTO TAG STRIKES AGAIN. tumbkr im tired of having to c*e*n*s*o*r my posts

#Journal shit #i think i had a s***ex dream about this random stranger at the club. like i said one word to him???? #In my defense he had an accent and a nice smile #Also featured in my dream was the impossibility of finding street parking in LA #Which probably accurately represents the nights biggest concerns #Anyway i was vindicated in my hatred of parking here by the fact that the guys i was with had to circle the block three times #before we finally lucked out and found a place to park their huge suv thing #The guy who invited me started telling me a lot about yellow lines and white lines and days of the week #And the dude who drove kept being like Stop Telling Her you cant tell anyone our secrets #And the first guy was like But We Want Her To Stay Here [in the city] #Sadly i cant remember ANY of the parking advice i really needed to remember that #These guys were way cooler than me #Like lived in the city their whole lives and it shows kind of cool

[trans-stew]

starting to realize I'm going to have to work on climbing the government worker ladder if I ever want to be able to afford top surgery or minor ffs things.

I wonder how hard it is to get in on federal work with no specialty work experience.... I mean 2 or 3 years of struggle as I'm at rn, pay off my car, then try for a fed job.

my goal is the better pay and mandated pay raises and job security. plus maybe I'd be able to bully their insurance into covering trans stuff? my current job is like... they don't know I'm trans. the insurance doesn't know I'm trans. and it's literally illegal for my insurance to cover trans stuff because Florida is a trans hell zone legally, but federal insurance should maybe be able to cover it?

only thing I can think of otherwise is going public sector and trying to get into a tech support role somewhere but their industry is kinda imploding right now and I've got no experience so 🤷‍♀️

#just thinking #i currently make 15.75 but live in a area with one of the worst housing markets in the country #so rent plus horribly expensive florida insurance rates eats like 80% of my income #so saving up 10k for some kind of basic procedure is literally impossible at my current pay rate #idk just thinking about things #my kouhai is currently under for ffs because her supportive parents insurance covers it #and she'll probably be able to get ba in the next few years #and just idk feeling jealous #im not doing bad for a poor trans girl that got kicked out by her parents #im stable just i need to make more money but col and inflation is insane so it feels like an impossible climb sometimes #idk rambling journal entry

[xerospaced]

Hennyway

I'm doing that late night/early hours thing again and whilst I'm thankful I've still been waking up at a good time it's not much use if I'm so sleep deprived that my distractability and lack of linear thinking is beyond reason.

I will eat before noon. I will take a Solid nap (coz I need my 6 hours to function) and then I will attempt a couple manageable yet beneficial tasks with the adoption of a couple new approaches to increasing focus and productivity. And eat again.

Tomorrow will have structure. Loose enough to allow me breath, but solid enough to elicit function.

I will be kind and patient but firm. I will practice gratitude. I will acknowledge my efforts, and I will redirect less helpful behaviours in positive ways.

#mine #yeah honestly if i dont write out everything like this all of these concepts exist only in my head and become impossible to grasp #i started journalling #and i love it #but dysgraphia and the sheer volume of things im mentally working along with the speed at which my brain moves... #makes hand writing and ineffective medium for this intense level of self reflection and processing i require rn #i was gonna say sorry to y'all who follow me but lets be honest. its not hard to scroll past my ramblings so we ite #😉

[stiuvar-elnor]

Dreams

I know there’s a part that involved camping and there were a lot of people just sleeping in the open on a carpark. I think it was some event, maybe a party.

There was a fish in a tank and next to the tank was a little sign written "by" (or rather, in the name of) the fish and it said something about how the fish wanted a bigger tank. I remember I looked in a room and there were clear plastic boxes but they were full of LEGOs and they weren’t the right size.

And then there’s the part where I’m in a house that’s sort of like mine but not really, and my maternal grandparents are there. I remember being confused because they’ve both passed away years ago, but I was happy to be with them. My grandad ranted at the door that wouldn’t close properly, and my grandma came in to help because she knew exactly how to work the door. I know I said something and my grandad was able to hear me perfectly despite the noise, and I was surprised that his hearing was suddenly so clear.

Then he grabbed a piggy bank that had been sitting on a shelf (except it wasn’t a piggy. I think it was the Virgin Mary), said "it’s time" and dropped it. It shattered into many pieces and he said the money that was in there was mine. My sister was there, too, and she had been given a set of coffee cups which, apparently, my grandmother had promised her. Suddenly this happy moments with our grandparents became sad because we both understood that they knew they were going to die (again) and they just wanted to give us a few things before that happened. The fact that they had decided to give us those things then meant that they were going to die soon.

I think that’s all I remember for now.

#dreams #my journal of impossible things

[demonicangxl]

i have so many things to get done before my trip and of course my brain decides now is a good time to make me not want to get out of bed 😐

#*vent incoming beware* #im so fucking tired of this shit #im genuinely trying so hard #im doing everything in my power to try and get myself out of this hole ive been in for the past year #im taking care of myself #im being kind and gentle with myself #im trying to be as positive as possible #im doing all the meditations and the journaling and shit #im trying to do things that make me happy and lift my mood when im down #and somehow i just end up right back here again #and its so fucking frustrating bc why am i putting in all this work #if im just gonna end up feeling like shit again #it feels so impossible and im exhausted #why do i have to fight my brain on a daily fucking basis just to be normal #i need fucking therapy but thats not an option right now so what the hell am i to do #lol this sucks