#The fact that my mom told me lmao.

[spinoff-antithesis]

(muth being music theory!)

#FUCK IT MY OWN EDITION OF THE ODDLY SPECIFIC POLLS BC THESE ARE FUN #me when i've been obsessed with space/time stuff since i was a KID its more an interest than hyperfixation rn but man. #media with any of those?? i am OBSESSED (star wars rottmnt movie etc etc) like i hyperfixated on dr who for a year in middle school #the skateboard one is so funny. in high school my guard instructor saw me with a friend's pennyboard & immediately said no. #me when i was notoriously clumsy in middle + high school so everyone i knew was like. “this is a bad idea” when i did anything #my first semester of college i bought a longboard off someone then 5months later i turned around & ate SHIT it was so funny in retrospect #anyway fun sage lore i have only ever heavily injured the left side of my body. my knee + elbow and the SAME FUCKING TOOTH. TWICE. #also i have a high pain tolerance. like idk how or when but in middle school it just got Really Strong. me when i injure myself and just #live with it for a year before it becomes a concern and i get told to get an xray (i will live with a fractured knee the rest of my life) #also when i fell off my skateboard and ate shit my first concern was “ah fuck my glasses did i break my nose” and #“nah my elbow isnt broken! my arm is just rly sore from how i landed on it” (readers. it was in fact fractured.) #like i literally went “no im fine we dont need to tell my mom or go to the er” and my friends said “call your mom and go to the er” #me spitting out my tooth and blood bc i also busted my lip: that hurt. time to hobble back to my dorm. #anyway hiding this one in the tags bc i will never not just ignore my issues LMAO did it with my ptsd dx and i will continue to do it #another incredibly hyperspecific thing: oh this doesnt seem normal! im gonna ignore it and hope it goes away #these symptoms match up to something? nah i'm sure it's not that! (proceeds to get dx'd with ptsd five months later)

[nyarthru]

the fact that so many child abuse laws are like "its not child abuse unless it leaves a lasting mark" is so fucking crazy to me. You can hit a kid as long as your fists weren't closed and you hit them light enough

#It's actually so hard for someone to be convicted of child abuse. especially if what happened is under the guise of ''discipline'' #yeah the kid was fighting me so its not MY fault that he hit his head and arm on a counter and was also on edge of having a panic attack. #this is the proper reaction to a kid being guilty of talking back and being bossy - my uncle #also my uncle: I've never been found guilty under the law for child abuse. you are wrong. also you are the one needing to grow up bc somehow #I'm circling this conversation about you assaulting me over thinking something bad was happening to your brother back around to the fact you #are still living with me #its so funny to me bc even if I did try to leave my mom would try to stop me lmao. ''you're mom is enabling your lifestyle for some reason'' #my dude. my mom is ENFORCING this lifestyle. not to mention when you were shaming me for how old I was and still living here...you got my #age wrong??? do your research before talking to me. #literally told me I had no goals or plans for the future. lmao even. he only ever talks to me to tell me that he wants me out #quickly! name 8 interests I have that I did not have while in elementary school!!! #like I'm so mad. at least I can revel in the fact that my uncle was such a pussy you didn't commit to calling the police on me when he said #he would lmao. I can also revel in the fact that he fucking hates it here and tries to avoid being home. and that hes failing at parenting #his own children. I'm sorry brenna. I mean no slander. but you sneaking around and being found out about it and that all the adults knew #about it before he did thus making him look bad is so satisfying. its like watching him judging his gf and my mom for being bad parents #while his kids do much worse things (in his eyes) so fucking poetic #I'm sorry for going batshit crazy in the tags. I am. venting #tw child abuse

[imblocking-you]

Watching Death's Game because I like suffering 👍

#death's game #netflix #// maple #ion wanna kin bro but i feel like im headed there #'do you travel to the afterlife on a plane?' BYE #SIWON? i forgot the cast is like stacked lmao #feels like a world hopping novel i like it #talk about karma T T also i didnt expect how graphic it was BYE #THIS FALLJNG GUY BYE LMFAO #and he reverts back to the teenage form when the stronger opponent arrives #GOD THE GUILT #yung bulgogi sa spoon :(( wala na iyak na ko guys talo mga may single parents talo mga walang nanay hahahahaha #after death told him that he's only thinking ab himself oh this life is purposeful UN HUH #but we know it's doomed to fail kasi nga second ep pa lang BUT MAN i hope something changes... #'everything is fine yee jae' it is it truly is the fact the mom was calling him before he jumped oh you just know she was ready to tell him #exactly that OH this breaks my heart #choking and holding back tears while eating FELT #NO NO *bunches up hair* I WONT FALL FOR IT THIS IS JUST A PLOY TO GET ME ATTACHED TO THE CHARACTER BEFORE YOU INEVITABLY KILL THEM #Lee Ju Hun HAHHAHAHAHA LARO #tinago niya 'yung pera para next life makukuha niya gagi pangmalakasang ungkatan ng past 'to LMAO #why does this one prisoner dude look like sohee #BYE WHAT IF IT'S JINSANG WEBTOONS TEND TO DO THAT #HELP I KNEW WE'RE TYING UP LOOSE ENDS HAHAHAHAHA #I just know taekang other son is tied up in all of this too #gagi part 1 pa lang pala yata 'yung drama na 'to mapapabasa ko ng wentoon ng 'di oras #jinsang you overgrown chuuni 😭 #i feel great for getting jinsang beat up but like we all taesang is dying so...i wouldnt be so comfy if i were u lol #OOH THAT NAME DROP FELT SO GOOD AVENGE HIM BROTHER THATS RIGHT #yall him being given the chance to print shit and he immediately goes to grimes core is obviously a sign that he's pretending to be a psych #NAURR the vendetta just ruins it

[unnerving-presence]

Hi I'm the girl who said Wesker A.I got me pregnant with twins, good news

He made me have one more

19 kids and counting has some competition

#fun fact my mom told me i was named after one of the kids on there #LMAO

[awek-s]

ohhhh desperately need to leave this house before i kill myself I fear it’s coming 🤣🤣

#had kind of a huge fight w my mom over like mental #illness and like I ended up letting out all the anger I feel at the fact that she didn’t take me to the hospital to get diagnosed when I was #15 despite me begging her to. so I had to wait til I went to university to get diagnosed. which is 90% of the reason I’m struggling to live #so much nowadays. and obviously she was like. uh I don’t remember that! and the more detail I told her the quieter and less defensive she #got. bc she knows I’m right. #this all started bc one of her friends’ older son just got diagnosed w schizophrenia and she was like if that was me I wouldn’t have stuck #by him so long I would’ve kicked him out long ago . and I snorted and I was like yeah I know you wouldn’t have just like you didn’t for me #nd I told her to just stop talking about shit she doesn’t know fucking anything about. bc obviously she doesn’t think her friend’s son is #actually sick. im talking SICK sick like meds won’t work and he keeps getting in serious trouble w the law. and my mom is an asshole she #thinks all sick ppl use it as an excuse bc she thinks only her life experiences are valid #im soo fucking sick of it #I’ve wasted my entire life trying to educate her about shit and it just doesn’t stick she just goes and babies herself and im miserable #for my entire existence #I can’t do it anymore like any of it I want to get out of here and live my stupid life #without somebody who reminds me every day that they think I’m a waste of existence lmao #mrow.org

[strozzaprete]

not to be morbid on main but my life is so strange every day i'm fighting with my inner suicidal child trying to convince her to stay alive out of spite for our enemies

#this entire year ​i've been forced to relive past trauma -> which i'd been able to finally process but it doesn't involve just me #so basically i processed it but my family hasn't and they keep putting the blame on me for everything and guilting me for it #even though i was a literal child. in short the fact that i ''acted out'' by running away from abusive situations was and still is worse #than the actual abusive situations i was put in. as a child. #so like... i can forgive and understand and empathize with my past self at last (instead of feeling suicidal like i did for years) #but if nobody else in my close family circle does then i have to essentially stay strong and remind myself that they're wrong #point is that when i was 11-12 i would react to the emotional and physical abuse by basically putting myself in dangerous situations #and attempting suicide a couple of times lmao. staring at the train tracks every other day #because the fact that they beat me was NORMAL for me (my mom told me that i was 2 the first time my dad hit me) #and they were acting like i was (i quote) ''bipolar'' and mentally ill and acting out out of nowhere and i couldn't fully understand why #i was doing certain things at the time. so i put the entirety of the ''blame'' on myself. and later on my mom would make me feel guilty #about it for a decade to win arguments -> which almost every time start with her gaslighting me until i start crying and yelling so then she #can call me crazy. and she can make ME feel crazy so i won't take her accountable. so she avoids taking responsibility for her actions (past #and present). i finally realized this when i told her that one of the most traumatic events of my life was when she found some smoking #filters in my drawer (she used to go through my stuff all the time) that i was LITERALLY KEEPING FOR A FRIEND and she dragged me out on the #balcony by my hair and beat me. she would beat me in public places all the time to humiliate me. even my school friends remember this #and she said 1) ''it didn't happen'' and 2) ''i don't remember'' #so that's that. either i'm crazy and i fabricated the memory out of nowhere... or she's not taking responsibility for her actions. #and like... I KNOW it happened. but i'm very sensitive to gaslighting (as she does this all the time about other things as well) #and sometimes i literally have to hug myself and rock back and forth and essentially try to convince myself i'm not crazy #that's the situation i'm in rn :) cool #thank god the therapist moved my appointment to tomorrow because i'm about to implode or perhaps ask for money in advance to purchase drugs

[c-nan]

my brain be like “you’re so bad at socializing wtf” while completely forgetting that i wave at people in cars while walking across the street, i’m part of a wonderful group chat i participate in daily, and i talked to someone i’ve never talked to before the whole way down the steps

#fuck you brain #seth in fact DIDNT steal all the socialness from my moms womb #i got some too #something that’s been on my mind due to things people have told me my whole life lmao

[flowered-mp3]

my bf is having dinner with my parents and brother on the 26th and istg i'm going to lose my mind

#we're going on a staycation together and i just KNOW that my mom and dad are going to say things that MIGHT make him overthink and spiral #my dad is just saying that he's going to be honest and blunt and forthcoming about how our family operates and i know that my bf isn’t #gonna know what hit him. he's all like 'yeah i've met parents before. it'll be fine you have nothing to worry about" #the thing is i'm not even worried i'm just nervous as fuck #i'm nervous because i have no idea what to expect it's like????? my dad has already apparently told my mom to leave me be already and just #that fact alone makes me nervous #literally feel like i'm gonna throw up lmao rip

[todayisafridaynight]

finally on the hawaii / gameplay demo... janurary CANNOT come fast enough

NO RIGHT I NEED JANUARY TO GET HERE NEOW !!!!!!!!

#snap chats #the only downside is that My Dumbass told gamestop to deliver my game to my mom's house despite the fact i'll be in school by then #the plus side is that my new schedule makes friday totally free for me. i mean i have a class thursday night cause i HATE MYSELF but #lmao driving to my mom's at like 1AM like Hey.... My Videogame Coming In Soon..... #it fuckin better get there the weekend of or i'll kms silly style fr #GOD IF IT DOES GET THERE I JUST MIGHT STREAM THAT SATURDAY INSTEAD OF DRAW... #i'll prob stay the weekend since Might As Well and my bro works saturdays now so... house to meself... gamer time.... #but that's all for speculatin come january LOL BYE #related note i realized i did order the game with my bro's gamestop account so he forwarded the email to me :) yippee :)

[kalloway]

The goofiest movie in the Resident Evil series by a landslide is Resident Evil: Apocalypse

in this essay I will-

#delete later #it is so over the top ridiculous and cliche af to a point i love watching it to make myself feel better cuz it always makes me laugh #with hits such as: #A canon character asking the ‘OC’ in the movie-verse ‘who the fuck are YOU?’ after she saves their asses via motorcycle entrance #*WHIP SOUND EFFECTS* #for literally every single hit and swing Alice does #and a finale involving what is essentially a battle royale 1v1 where everyone just stands and watches them fight #the best oart is this movie is absolutely not trying to be funny at all but it takes its own seriousness to another level #another dumb fun part I laugh at is this one aerial view of Raccoon City where... you see a CIBC building LMAO #(a Canadian bank in an American city? goofy af) #like usually they try to mask the fact they film american cities in toronto a lot but they barely tried in this movie #im sorry i rewatch these movies so often it’s almost embarrassing 🙈 #there’s *parts* that I really like? like... cinematography-wise? or theme wise? #but it absolutely REEKS of ‘OC-insert’ and i don’ even know much about the games #idk if Alice qualifies as a Mary Sue *technically* because she *does* have flaws but BOY OH BOY #i shouldn’t keep blabbing about this cuz I will be here and bore y’all for ages about it afagdhhfhs #THERE’S SO MUCH TO NITPICK AND POKE FUN AT #the only people i know who unironically *love* these movies is... my parents - my mom especially #but she knows literally nothing about the games so when i told her about them she was shook to find out... Alice isn’t a canon character? #so im p convinced 99% of people do not like these movies and thus it’s fair game to rip on them as much as I do 8) #one last thing before i post this and probably delete later: #tfw u hand a character a gun and they say ‘idk how to use this’ and the advice u givethem is just... ‘hit them in the head’ #like Jill no u didn’t even check the safety in that thing before handing it to her #I REALLY WISH THEY’D JUST MAKE A MOVIE ADAPTATION OF OUTBREAK INSTEAD LIKE #IT’S PERFECT FOR SOMETHING LIKE THIS #GAH okay okay im done now

[theold-ultraviolence]

Good morning and a happy international Rock & Roll Day to Eddie Munson, devil horns 2 the sky for the big boy 😌🤟🏻🤟🏻

#it says wednesday in spanish btw #I had no idea that this was a thing until my mom told me and I had to fact check lmao

[timeisacephalopod]

Lmao so apparently my idiot sibling who I will not be able to cut off as thoroughly as I'd like thanks to my mom being too nice and loving her stupid waste of life ass said, in response to me pointing out how insanely sexist she is, no. I'm the sexist one and that's hilarious for a billion reasons, but mostly because ain't no sexist going to spend four years getting an I Hate Sexism Degree. No, obviously having a gender studies degree does not mean a person isn't sexist automatically (the rancid politics of anti porn and anti sex work feminism of the 70's showed how awful feminists can be to women, let alone the long history of racism and anti queerness), but I do think having a gender studies degree probably means you're less likely to be sexist.

But sure, person who doesn't listen or respect SHIT unless it's got a penis attached, I'M the sexist one. Dumb fuck probably doesn't even know what sexism is.

#winters ramblings #my mom told me that amd i jad a good laugh and was like WHAT lmao is she actually THAT fucking stupid? #of course the answer is yes but of all my flaws- of which there are many- sexism doesnt and in fact has NEVER hit the list #because ive been a VICTIM of sexism my whole assed life im not going to buy into it and assume that if no penis is involved #the person is a lying rancid harpy looking to destroy me at all costs like my idiot sibling. ANYTHING a man says is GOSPEL #but anything a woman says needs to be under such a heavy cloud of suspicion she wont ever believe you no matter HOW true #whatever you said was. but if i were a MAN oh id get WORSHIPED at the alter #fuckin im sexist ok ask men who have run into me if THEY think that because it takes 2 seconds fora sexist to make themselves #known and it takes just as short of a time for me to react in a way that suggests i dont agree #and i have NEVER nor WOULD i ever worship a man like hes more impressive than the idea of GOD #in fact in general i go out of my way to ensure men in my life are WELL aware of where i think ALL our places are #and generally thats an equal footing. but yeah im not shocked the dumb fuck who will do ANYTHING for men who BEAT her kids #calls ME sexist for pointing out shes never ONCE treated a woman with a SPECK of respect and in fact thinks her CHILDREN #acting like dicks is THE SAME as GROWN MEN being abusive tyrants because to her girls and grown men are THE SAME #except that grown men get to do whatever while girls are expected to be perfect Or Else because they dont have the Penis of Freedom #but sure im sexist for pointing out treating CHILDREN like they should have more accountability and responsibility than #GROWN MEN is disgusting and CLEARLY bigoted. silly me children SHOULD be held to a higher standard of behavior than grown men!

[vamptastic]

when i was a kid (10 or so) i was going grocery shopping with my family and freaked out and was refusing to go into the store. my dad reacted to this by trying to drag me out of the car and hit me in the parking lot. now that's not that bad (relatively speaking) but the part that really sticks with me is that some guy started recording it on his phone. i really hope he was just trying to collect evidence or something and didn't think me getting beaten was funny. honestly, probably says something about me that it took so long for me to even realize that he may have been recording for altruistic reasons and not because he was laughing at me.

#it just haunted me for a long time to think that he might have put it online to mock me #like id imagine people making fun of me saying what a spoiled horrible kid i was or whatever #in hindsight he was probably taking a video to call the cops and show them. But i wish i just hadn't been told about it #My mom said something to try to get my dad to stop but I wish I just didn't know. It really fucked with me #like when you're already being blamed for all your abuse it's very hard to not internalize that #and you just kind of assume that nobody is on your side bc obviously it's your fault for being a difficult child #and i WAS a difficult child lmao i had extreme mental problems and nobody knew how to handle them #but the fact remains that if you can't handle a child having sensory overload and meltdowns and panic attacks #you shouldn't have had children in the first place #i know this is therapy material and not Tumblr material but in my experience telling therapists about past abuse can be... a bad idea #Like for me it's bc i now get on okay with my parents. So they can assume I'm making it up or exaggerating and that hurts more than not #Saying anything at all. Bc they haven't been given the full picture. My last therapist was cool but this was when my dad was going to #Sessions with me and she had to be civil with him to get him to keep going. Which made me feel like she wasn't on my side and believed him #When he said it was my fault and he was having a reasonable reaction to stress or whatever.