#Truth or Death

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

going through my old journals as part of therapy homework and i'm reading a section written in the emotional wreckage of a full-on breakdown when i get hit with this line:

There is never a satisfying answer to ‘Why didn’t they love me?’

like wow babe. good fucking point

#like you were on the ground biting the carpet and dry sobbing while you wrote that and still. good fucking point #not a shitpost #cptsd #and it's true. there's never a satisfying answer #the truth is i know why i wasn't loved #i analyzed my parent's traumas and abuse to death. i understand why i alienated and was alienated from my siblings #i know why my mom was too overwhelmed to be capable of nurturing #i know why my dad vanished into addiction and avoidance #the details of our cycles of trauma and cptsd and family history i have a phd in all of it #i understood perfectly. i spent years studying and now i knew the answer #and guess what? IT WAS NOT SATISFYING!!! #because they still didn't love me! and i still couldn't change that! #it was still a completely unsatisfying state of affairs! #so like. when the people who are supposed to love you...don't. #when the people who are supposed to take care of you...fail to #you can look for answers and reasons and explanations #but that's not actually going to FIX your situation. #and it's probably not within your ability TO fix the situation. (and definitely not your job) #because you don't need answers--you need a new situation #*inserts Just Walk Out. You Can Leave!!! (Running Skeleton) Meme* #and yes. walking out isn't always possible. #but for you i hope it will be one day soon. and i hope you build the courage to take that leap. #stepping away from the people who failed to love you...it feels like being untethered but also like being lighter than air #new and scary. immensely relieving. the future opens up. empty but empty like a canvas. blindingly bright until your eyes adjust #like climbing out of a pit you called home and for the first time realizing how bright the light of day can truly be #when you aren't just getting glimpses from the bottom of a hole

[katzone]

L: Amane-san, what did you think the L stood for?

(someone requested I draw "canon!Misa and fem!L interacting" so behold my vision)

#death note #l lawliet #misa amane #light yagami #katart #comic #(u see the twist is she's bi and loves to lie. the real truth is fem!L is not interested in repressed gay twinks in denial) #genderswap #genderbend #lawmane

[truth-0r-death]

music is like my #1 inspiration for everything, so I will definitely be posting some songs that I feel really strongly represent Truth or Death from my ELEVEN PLAYLISTS. eleven. 

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/2D4FHkiPVuIIVYP09iSOW6?si=1c82926be7fb45ab

#ada lea #truth or death #rom com

[1driedpersimmon]

Light’s mom & sister: Light died trying to fight Kira he must be happy in heaven 🥺😔

Matsuda:

#death note #happy Light died day #Matsuda #matsuda touta #I was laughing so hard drawing this #I’ve wanted to draw this me for a bit now but I never could think of a good idea #till now that is #oh also this is the idea no one told them the truth because I doubt anyone would #…or maybe this is how Matsuda breaks the news LOLL

[ruporas]

i’ll find you again in every universe. let us be a little more honest, let us have a little more time.

#vashwood #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #trigun #despite it all though badlands rumble is like. the only universe where we get wolfwood thinking vash died first... and i think that means a #lot to their relationship and how it may bloom if there was more to badlands rumble considering vash literally saw wolfwood carrying a piece #of vash after his supposed death. u know! despite the short time they were together vash still meant so much to wolfwood that he couldn't #just move on or forget him in anyway. needed to keep a piece of him for himself and the rest of his days. but ofc vash lives and wolfwood #was like ill beat ur fucking ass into tomorrow. there's just so much honesty in vash being able to see that gesture bc he wouldnt know #otherwise just how much he might mean to him. ANYWAY. trimax with with the eternal pining featuring the two chapters where imo #where the both of them really fell for each other... i wrote my thoughts about this on another comic i did before #but vash solidifying his feelings during the hospital arc -- ww solidifies his when he realizes his allegiances are permanently with vash #98 my lovelies but also to me they are so one-sided bc ww pined like no tomorrow and vash only realizes after ep 23?24? his heart did tickle #whenever ww complimented his smile though #and tristamp vw my beloveds. it really just feels like they get the chance to be closer and closer and more honest with each other #with every version that comes about. in trimax they knew how little time they had but struggled so desperately to get closer. in 98 ww felt #more willing to forsake for vash. in badlands rumble theyre Angry but as mentioned earlier ^ more blatant truth... due to circumstances #mainly but has the chance to lead to discussions and tristamp literally. first day of knowing each other ww saves vash - 2 days later vash #saves ww like. Man. AND NOW THEY MAY POTENTIALLY GET EVEN CLOSER!!!! with s2.... #ruporas art

[cascadiums]

Jonathan Harker knocked me flat with this one. his speculation that vampirism spreads because people willingly follow their loved ones into damnation is so affecting. and it's an insight that's so uniquely him. the gothic heroine in him can see Dracula's world in a way the others seemingly can't. he can look at the situation without any concerns of rationalism, honour, god, or any other facet of Victorian society, and reach this truth: we will walk into any horror for love

#dracula daily #3 oct #this is the boy who imagined medieval ladies writing love letters in castle dracula #mina does the same thing from the other angle being willing to trade her immortal soul and choose death to keep him safe btw #but jonathan is the one to apply it as a universal truth #he has emotional intelligence in spades and the heart of a poet

[poison-into-positivity]

Thinking about “he just happened upon the ship that I was bleeding out on”, and… Stede still doesn’t know the lengths Ed went to in order to meet him, does he?

“The chances of us meeting each other in the first place [were slim].” No they were not. Babygirl your man tracked the Revenge to two different locations, sent his first mate to personally find you and invite you aboard, and obliterated a Spanish naval vessel, all just so he could have one conversion with you.

Ed was down catastrophically from day one, but Stede still thinks that Ed saving his life was a happy accident.

#I like to think he revealed the truth on their wedding day #Stede toasts ‘to fate for bringing us together!’ :) #Ed’s like ‘nah love. no fate involved. just me.’ #gentlebeard #blackbonnet #ed x stede #ofmd #our flag means death

[nataliesscatorccio]

YELLOWJACKETS

#I've wanted to make this for a long time and it's nothing at all like what I set out to do #I was going to have Laura Lee's doomed flight and Jackie's death and praying to the gods of the dirt and the girls running w weapons raised #lottie screaming as they board the rescue plane #in short: a horror story #and instead I ended up with an SOS in red lipstick #the living holding hands around the dead they are all doomed to become #the team doing their best to feed themselves on their limited knowledge and looking out for each other #even the girl they don't really like #the group finding hope in lottie's faith passed to her by laura lee #and ofc the horrible spectacle they become in the media #I guess what I'm trying to say is I set out to paint Shauna as a liar but she's telling the truth #that IS the end of the story #it was beautiful and horrible #and it was a love story #yellowjackets #yellowjacketsedit #shauna shipman #lottie matthews #misty quigley #laura lee #taissa turner #akilah yellowjackets #flashing gif

[cecenyss]

the Real mystery of death note is that Light somehow convinced the fandom that he is the socially competent one and L is the recluse with no social skills. Light thought it was realistic to respond to the emo freak at his college who said he was a world famous detective after hunching over like a gremlin taking his shoes off in public and sitting like a frog was "if you're telling the truth i respect you greatly." L frequently performs social tests on people close to him to see what they'll say with the goal of studying their responses and picked up a call from his friend in a potentially volatile situation by flawlessly imitating a douchebag friend who parties too much while likely never having been to a bar in his life. they are not the same.

#death note #dn #l lawliet #light yagami #matsuda and L ARE friends and i will die on this hill #okay but the truth is they are both SO out of touch from society #the difference is that #light has been sheltered by every person he ever encountered being blinded by his intelligence and good looks #and doesn't have a clue how normal people interact with each other #and L has spent years studying human beings like specimens in a lab specifically for the purpose of figuring out how normal people interact #L can imitate Light can dazzle #very different

[allforthe-gay]

it is completely one hundred percent baffling to me that any of the foxes would come away from witnessing neil and andrew's reunion in baltimore with the opinion that their relationship was just hate fucking . like my brother in christ are you blind

#andrew was FERAL . #he fucking choked KEVIN like COME ON #and he was like RACING into the room to see neil and #he was all like *tugs neil's hoodie to get his attention* *threatens anyone who tried to come close to them (abby)* #he was all like 'i dont trust them to give you back.' come on man . #and neil was looking at andrew . most definitely Like That. when he was talking to abby #neil was all battered and bruised from barely dodging a fucking death sentence and he sees andrews partly red eye and thats #the first thing he talks about #*lightly taps a thumb against the bruise at andrews eye* i didnt know theyd staged a riot #they were all like Looking at each other and ..... idk i am not explaining this well enough but . #you don't need me to. you all read it #it was So Fucking Obvious my god #im crying bc even neil thought nicky wasnt far from the truth at that point #like he could not have been more incorrect istg . #aftg #andreil #neil josten #andrew minyard #all for the game #mi ne

[bookshelfdreams]

That is certainly - a statement.

What about Jim, who both metaphorically and literally discovers a path for themself beyond what they were raised to be? What about Pete, who learns to overcome his toxic masculinity, his posturing and self-importance? What about Ed, whose entire story is about deconstructing the performance that is expected of him?

What about, oh, idk, our main fucking character Stede Bonnet, whose arc starts with him literally breaking out from the hetero marriage he was forced into despite never fitting in? Who tries (and initially fails) to build a community where he can be himself? Whose entire story is about discovering his own queerness! He starts out not even able to put a finger on WHY his marriage made him feel so suffocated, and then journeys through s1 until he reaches the emotional climax - "His name is Ed"!

Contrast that with Izzy, who has to be dragged into a supportive community kicking and screaming. Who rejects care and compassion, even at his worst, who has to be forced to accept help. He receives the leg and calls the crew a homophobic slur for it, ffs. Only after that, only when people refuse to let him push them away, is he able to poke his nose into something approaching positive human connections. And that's a powerful narrative, sure, in it's own way; but it's hardly the Ultimate Queer Experience, and it's definitely not the "only queer arc".

And Izzy never lets go of the old ways. He never abandons the Blackbeard-era pirate lifestyle for something more positive, not fully. And that's okay, because ultimately, his arc isn't even about himself.

It's about Ed.

Ed keeps repeating toxic relationship patterns, and Izzy is a part of that. He's linked (on purpose, and I wish it had been done more explicitly) to Ed's father; because Izzy represents the poison that was instilled in Ed from a young age, and that has become so entrenched in his system that he can't imagine a life without it. He keeps Izzy around despite being hurt by him because Izzy is predictable, and in that, is safe, even though he hurts Ed; at least it's a hurt Ed is familiar with and can rely on.

When Izzy slowly changes it's to show that Ed is growing beyond the little voice in his head telling him to reject softness, that he can never be loved, that We're just not these kinds of people. If Izzy can evolve from someone spitting boyfriend at Ed like it's a slur to someone congratulating him on getting laid by that same person, Ed can overcome his inner demons telling him the same thing.

That's the point of Izzy's arc. And this is why he has to die, because Ed can never be truly free as long as Izzy is around. So Izzy goes, quietly, peacefully, and releases Ed of the poison; apologizes to him, tells him I was so wrong, and I am so sorry, because that's what Ed needs to hear to move forward.

And that's such a kind, positive way to end the story of Izzy Hands.

#'izzy has the only queer arc' get the fuck out of here #this is such a baffling take what fucking show did you watch #izzys is not never has been and never was going to be the protagonist. he was only ever a device to tell the story of ed. #sorry ik yall dont like to hear this but its the truth. #god forbid a fictional white man die in a television series #our flag means death #ofmd s2 spoilers #thoughts #izzy hands #if you want to pick a fight w me over this I am simply not going to respond to that <3

[throwthisawayplease]

i firmly believe that if hannibal was made in a post ofmd society will and hannibal would’ve been riding each other bare back on prime time tv…

#2016 wasn’t ready for the truth #hannigram #hannibal #hannibal lecter #will graham #our flag means death #ofmd #after ofmd came interview with the vampire and good omens #my friend and i are watching hannibal s3 right now and are genuinely confused why they don’t kiss in the end #it just feels like a natural progression of the story

[truth-0r-death]

Truth or Death, the intro

I’m back, bitches. Once a tumblr girlie always a tumblr girlie!! 

I’ve never written a book before, or had a particularly strong desire to, until I came up with the plot for Truth or Death. And for the past eight months, I’ve been working on it almost obsessively. Although there’s no end in sight I’m having a GREAT time. After all, I’ll only get to write this once! I’m starting this tumblr to track my progress as I work through the manuscript. 

With a massive shelf of textbooks, a frog named Mort, and an unfinished medical degree, Andie Bianchi has been obsessed with death since she was a wee, freaky, young child. No one is surprised she’s found herself working at Forrest’s Funeral Home, Chicago’s most coveted funeral parlor, as Mortician’s Assistant. Although she’s an expert at the ambiguous, her coworker, Felix Byrne is an enigma to her. They don’t particularly like each other, and they definitely don’t understand each other. But when Felix’s estranged father dies under questionable circumstances, Andie may be his only hope in finding out the truth of Edward Byrne’s life and death.

This enemies-to-lovers rom-com balances knowledge, truth, and control with mystery, fate, and secrecy; love and hate; humor and melancholy. 

I started writing with the most basic plot idea so it’s been a discovery as I move forward. I’m about 43,000 words in, but this number goes up and down as I flesh things out, go back and edit, and keep going.

I hope one day that this book gets published, and that people who enjoy the book can see its journey. Or, it can just be for me, so I can look back proudly at work I’m extremely proud of. Either way, enjoy! 

Grace

#writing #novel #first novel #romcom #publishing #truth or death #berkeley romance #dark romance #mystery romance #hijinks #andie and felix

[skumhuu]

✨👑 Throne 👑✨ pages 11-12

Beginning

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#sku art #throne comic #unsympathetic killer #unsympathetic nightmare #dreammare #soft bad end #tasty bad end #Dubcon touching #fear #horror #at last the truth of nightmare’s castle is revealed #it was never a castle in the first place #but instead #the trees of the twins old forest full of ambient magic bending to Nightmare’s whims #he never found an old au and took it over #he never built anything #the world bends to his demands #Dream is understandably horrified #there is death in the walls #so much negativity that it’s snuffed out his magic #Nightmare is very pleased with this outcome 👀😏

[awesomecooperlove]

🔥🔥🔥DIRECT ENERGY WEAPONS 🔥🔥🔥

✖️✖️✖️

#organised crimes #unusual fires #weird fires #worldwide #direct energy weapons #wildlife and people #incinerating cars concrete tires glass ceramic #crimes against humanity #the deep state’s plan to create fear death diseases hunger destruction #these people are evil #speaktruth #fight for justice #standup #speak up #truth #please share #corruption #wwg1wga

[unbidden-yidden]

Hey major shout-out to my fellow trans Jews. This year has been hell and it's hard not to feel like we've been completely abandoned, betrayed, shut out, and made unsafe across the full political spectrum.

I'm so sorry; we deserved better. I hope you're okay and standing strong - we will get through this together 🕎 🏳️‍⚧️ ✡️

#the right either actively or passively wants us dead or disappeared because of our genders #and the left apparently wants us dead or disappeared for being Jews #where can we go? #who can we turn to? #who can we rely on but ourselves? #it's terrifying and excruciating #I'm so tired of begging people to see me as a person #trans advocacy is so important right now and being in trans community is so vital #and yet far too many trans activists and community leaders were cheering on the deaths of my people not three weeks ago #pan-Jewish solidarity is so important right now and being in Jewish community is so important #and yet a disturbing number of the strongest voices advocating for Jewish people's humanity and right to self-determination #are also very right-wing #and refuse to see not even the truth of our lived experiences but fail entirely to see our humanity as trans people at all #so again I ask: where are we supposed to go??