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#UGHJFKDOGMFKFKFK everyday i’m so shy and awkward and homesick and too tired to function normally and nothing helps
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JESUS CHRIST IM SO BLUE ALL THE TIME AND THATS JUST HOW I FEEL ALWAYS HAVE AND I ALWAYS WILL!!!!!!!!
#feel free not to read this it’s me venting about life! how fun
#IM SO SICK OF MYSELFFFFF
#UGHJFKDOGMFKFKFK everyday i’m so shy and awkward and homesick and too tired to function normally and nothing helps
#my mind is so all over the place i wish i could just breathe
#everyday is like a struggle to get through and then i feel guilty cause i should be grateful and I AM
#it’s just that
#everything’s great except for my brain! i can’t focus and i’m always anxious and sad and tired
#and it’s been this way for so long that i can’t imagine living life differently but it’s like there’s this weight on my back
#and one day it’s gonna crush over me
#every single day for the last few years has felt like i’ve been drowning
#with a crowd of people standing around me telling me to just get up
#i don’t know what to do with myself i jsut keep sinking and sinking and sinking
#i don’t even know what’s wrong! everything seems fine but my head is like a swinging pendulum and my world is always some shade of blue and
#everything feels wrong no matter what i do it’s like i’ve been screaming for so long i can’t hear myself anymore
#i don’t know who i am i don’t know what i want in life i don’t really have any dreams or drive or ambitions i feel like such a waste
#i don’t know what i’m living for when nothing makes me happy i always feel sick sick sick
#i’m so unproductive like i can’t get myself to focus in class or talk to people most of the time and it takes forever to get out of bed
#i can’t get close to people and i pull away and i constantly change because i can’t stand myself and think everyone is just being nice
#but secretly can’t stand me either
#i feel like i’ve always had anxiety related issues that i repressed all through childhood and it just got worse and worse
#and then the pandemic hit and i reached a new low and that just made things way worse
#and somehow everything has changed since then but i mentally still feel as low
#i can’t be myself i feel like i’m not worthy of anything like i hate labels because i don’t feel ‘good’ enough for them
#or to be part of some community
#i feel guilty with everything i do like even typing this post i feel guilty for making my issues public and making people read them
#and i feel guilty acting like they’re even that big of an issue when i’m so lucky to be living the life i’m living
#i feel like i’m being so dramatic 💀 and that’s why i never like venting out loud but this was actually kind of therapeutic
#maybe i am being dramatic and that’s why i need a new brain!
#at least writing helps
#abigail speaks*
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