#V; Out Of Memory & Time

[moeblob]

Deacon loves two things: Ymber and digging himself a grave.

Fulj hates one thing: Deacon.

#my characters #waiting on some info on the next commission so i indulged in ocs today bc i doubt i will have as much time for lil comics for a bit #deacon is so devoted hes like yeah i would kill for a deity that could easily kill anything himself but yknow teehee #and fulj just did you tell him you needed therapy also does he even know youd murder in his name #deacon caught red handed haha no of course i havent told him it should be obvious enough haha.... and its in his defense not his name :c #man really does have some issues but i love him so much and hes so devoted but like. unhealthily after a while #he does in fact need a chill pill and therapy but to be fair #ymber has needed therapy for centuries and yet he just bottles it all up and suffers so #its pretty unhealthy until they yell at each other one (1) time bc they are so insecure about things and get mad over very valid reasons #but then theyre like you know what that was necessary and i still want to stay by your side if you let me #and then fulj is like dude hey sorry you seem really happy did you fu- and ymber is like no please stop there we have not #fulj just squinting cause have not is very different than will not but whatever she doesnt wanna think about that with deacon involved ew #and eventually fulj is like hey ymber im sorry to say but i really do hate deacon and i dont even know why but he makes me uncomfortable #while deacon is just. in the room. hearing this and thinking how he knows she thinks hes weird but wow that wording hurts #and ymber doesnt wanna fill in memories better forgotten by fulj which she had forcefully removed #so he just says oh well his hair and clothing are black and you had someone in the past that you might see in him and its not a pleasant en #so you know maybe its that idk #and fulj is then WHATST i was rude to him for someone i cant even remember? lame im gonna try SO HARD to be nice to him now #and deacon just still sitting there with some food like this is v awkward and i wish i could not be here for it #and later he asks ymber about who he resembled and as ymber is descibing her it clicks in deacons head and he gets really sad #that he might somehow remind fulj of the woman she loved before she was punished for loving a mortal #and he feels kinda bad pestering her so much with his curiosities about deities and he kinda gets it #the fact hes close to ymber might remind her at the core that she was once that close with a mortal if not closer #anyway story time in the tags again #im so obsessed with these peeps and i have made them suffer so much but they do all end on a happy note #its still funny and nice to me that while fulj is creeped out by deacon and doesnt like talking to him #he still expresses the most emotions to her - he tries hard to remain serious around ymber and collected and obedient at all times #and when out and about with ymber he has to be intimidating and refuses smiling but fulj?? all sunshine and smiles and emotions easy to rea #and she is just that is so weird go away i hate you

[reaperseal-archive]

december 6th 2014

#no longer friends w these ppl but i look back on this specific memory v fondly aw <3 #walking far out onto the frozen lake n just staring at the moon good times #oh also ok to rb i think these are v pretty #mine #txt

[sharmoota-job]

some north yankton bois

#michael is very tired #gta v #grand theft auto #michael townley #michael de santa #brad snider #trevor philips #lester crest #gta #grand theft auto v #grand theft auto 5 #i drew this a few days ago and im trying to break the habit of hoarding art for 2+ months at a time before uploading #i was totally blitzed out when i drew this i have no memory of actually drawing it HSAUIHAGUASV

[jicklet]

Beast Boy + Raven episodes → The Beast Within

“I acted like a jerk. I’m sorry.” “You weren’t yourself.”

#teen titans #teentitansedit #beast boy #raven #bbrae #v watches teen titans #v posts things #bbraeeps #literal toxic masculinity the episode haha #that time when Beast Boy's most basic instinct was to protect Raven even if it was from the rest of the team #picking moments from that last scene was so hard the whole thing is so good #how impressive is Raven in this ep btw #everything in the ending scene of course #but in the beginning when he's being awful she doesn't back down an inch #sidenote anyone else with adhd get really stressed out in that scene where Robin is pushing beast boy to remember what happened #and he just can't no matter how hard he tries #in this case it was because he literally had no memory when he transformed but #idk it hits close to home #And with that we are finished with this gif series woooo #this has been fun

[bericas]

I don’t know anything. But you feel something, don’t you?

#twedit #allydiaedit #allydia #teen wolf the movie #teen wolf movie spoilers #and then 4 my tags #allison argent #lydia martin #tw movie #OKAY LIKE. #im not saying this was actual foreshadowing obviousl #but the idea. of like. fledgling baby banshee lydia martin. feeling her best friend out there. and thinking its just her soul #thinking its her memory and her heart and allison wouldnt leave them even if she was gone because she knows allison. she knows she couldnt #but what shes actually feeling is her BEST FRIEND OUT THERE ALIVE #its CRAZYYYYYYYYYY #the quote in the caption is just from lunar ellipse where theyre talking about how she can sense death #i thought it fit the vibe #im gonna make a v similar/slightly diff allydia set tomorrow #so excited #maybe later but idk if i have time today we'll SEE #but yeah idk i dont think theyre gonna explore it but i think its so crazy like #the guilt lydia might feel #that the whole time she FELT allison #she couldve HELPED her couldve SAVED her #but she didnt know she could #i mean assuming allison was actually alive the whole time btu idk how else theyd do it considering theyre obv going scallison endgame #and scotts in his 30s and allison died at 17. u cant resurrect him a child bride #LMAOOOO WHAT IF THEY DO ELI ALLISON ENDGAME FGKJSHFDKH #WITH 37 YEAR OLD CRYSTAL REED #that would be sofunny

[fereldanwench]

i know it's the coffee buzz talking buuuutttttttttt

goro x valerie mass effect au

#yea #something about this time of year always makes me nostalgic for mass effect #presumably because the first time i played the first game was late spring/early summer #i like the memories of the first game more than i actually like playing it tho #i ended up never getting through the remaster bc i fizzled out on ME1 lmao #i know there's an n7 armor mod for V #might play around with some spacey photomode stuff this weekend #or i might totally forget lmao #t: wench.txt

[fitzselfships]

Who would've thought that being exposed to one of your triggers (that you only recently found out is a trigger) on a daily basis would be bad for your mental health. Save me f/os </3

#negative #mutual who I'm terrified of cutting off is posting about nothing but h/azbin h/otel #< the mutual isn't anyone here btw #but. I'm terrified of bringing this up with her #since she like. really seems tk not be okay with people who hate v/ivziepop or her work :( #I can't even go on twitter anymore since I keep getting hazbinhotel jumpscared #it's literally my entire tl right now even though I have everything related to it muted #I have had tk block so many peo0le today just to try to rpevent it from popping up #I feel so stupid that some show has become a trigger for me #just. finding out about that sa scene has made it so every time I see anything hazbin hotel related #I start getting intense flashbacks to my csa trauma :( #honestly at this point I think viziepop herself is a trigger for me #seeing her art brings back these memories too #you can call me stupid or sensitive or whatever but i literallt have no control ocer this #I didn't want this to happen. I didn't want some stupid cartoon to become a massive trigger for me #but it happened anyway #sorry for rambling like this lol #this has just been on my mind forever now #it's been almost 2 months now and I'm just. exhausted #csa mention #< in the tags

[peculiar--princess]

Thinking of all the kind souls I met while in treatment&residential… I could cry 😭

#my first day admitted was v day and a councilor made me a Valentine’s Day card and so did a patient so that I would feel welcomed & loved #every friday we would give each other notes to say we were proud of them after a hard week or w/e they needed to hear #One time I was very overstimulated during mindful movement class from the music and a patient just sat with me and didn’t say much just #so I knew I wasn’t alone #or how my friend to this day would give me a hug whenever I was crying and I’d feel safe and protected #&&& also how everyone snuck out at night to cause a lil trouble like flipping the therapists name tags & some patients even made a bingo #game for stealing stuff ( I never did but it was funny for people to steal something like a spoon for no reason ) #so many good memories and I wish I could reunite with all of those kind souls and hug them and remind them that I’ll always love them #😭😭 #personal

[villainsidestep]

“think abt smth besides v3!au” no

#gideon shut the hell up challenge #would love to think abt canon fawn but unfortunately there’s nothing to think abt there so. #we still can’t figure out how to write a big thing abt the fawnchen stuff but. since we’ve been thinking in general. #fawnchen sitting together at the memorial/funeral… the ortegas try to coax fawn into sitting in a seat between them but fawn is still too #emotional in v negative ways (angry at them; blames them; hates them) to consider it so they sit on the end of a row and next to chen #there is a lot of dialogue in mind abt him asking if they’ve talked to the ortegas yet and asking if they blame him [implied: the same way #that they’re blaming the twins/hb/themself] and fawn says that he wasn’t in the room [so he couldn’t have stopped anything] and he asks #again if they blame him [for not being there to help in the first place] #+ way later (read: autopsy photo time) fawn noting that chen seems to be treating them differently? he’s notably trying Not to but he’s #being weird enough that it draws attention to itself. v soon after he is ofc injured and argent joins the rangers and fawn is like #oh I get it…. he was worried abt how I’d get along w someone New joining. kinda fucked up he doesn’t trust me but it’s fine #would love to say they’d still get along but honestly without the villainy from fawn they’d probs be like neutral-positive @ each other #+ obvs even later than that is when herald joins the team and eww can you imagine what a complicated nightmare that is for fawn #on one hand. new hero!! his brain is super open and he’s nice and wants to get along w you!! on the other hand. he’s a Fan of yours and #probs only hesitates to bring up ur dead brothers (bc they were Also his icons) bc he has been trained by both ortegas to NOT!!! do that #I think they’d honestly still get along tho :) maybe if he catches them in a good enough mood he can get some brothers lore from them

[hofftrans]

I feel like one of the things with ocd that doesn't get talked about enough is memory loss. Like there are large chunks of my life where I can only remember like specs of the people I knew or the things I was doing or how I felt. I know it's very common to not remember all of your childhood and I get that when my loved ones tell me that it's meant to be like a way to comfort me. But I genuinely can barely remember anything between the ages of 16 to 19, including the friends I had, what shows I watched, how I felt about anything happening etc.

Like my mum was talking to me a while ago about how she's sorry she didn't know how to support me when I was suicidal at 17 and my blunt ass just went "oh, was I suicidal then? I genuinely don't remember" and since then there will be all these little things that she'll ask me about and I gotta be like ma'am I have no idea what you're on about.

Like I asked her recently if she'd watch Gilmore Girls with me bc it's not my genre but I love one of the actors and she was so confused because apparently I binge watched the entirety of Gilmore girls at 19 and had my mum watch it with me then, apparently I was the one who introduced her to the show. On the more extreme side of things I recently remembered I had a friend in year 12 who I adored, he was super kind and lovely and named Raven and I have literally no idea what happened to him or why we aren't friends anymore. Just forgot he was a whole real person for almost a decade.

Anyway its not as spooky as it sounds like it's obviously a bit disorienting and there's the worry I've blocked out something Real Bad but like the truth is the only reason I'm thinking/writing about this now is because I finally decided to watch Hannibal and then realised I think I have watched it????? And was extremely invested???? When I was like 16 or 17, because I thought I'd only watched the first two episodes as a teen but now rewatching it I'm like oh I may have seen almost all of this? But because it's so extremely murky in my memory it's still exciting and fantastic to watch and I'm going to be extremely obnoxious about it for a while sorry

#the problem w having a rocky life start is to explain any funny annecdote u gotta explain a bunch of sad shit first #but yeah its actually sort of comforting in a v funny way to be like oh im going to watch this show for the first time! #jokes on you you anmesia fuck you mainlined this show when it came out get pranked #ocd #suicide ment #basically just ranting about memory loss from ocd and how weird it is to suddenly remember a whole person or struggle or hyperfixation #and be like how the fuck did i forget about THAT

[narwhalandchill]

ANYWAY now that ive gotten my firefly rant off my chest and on a more positive note about the story overall; i Really liked it!!!! and character-wise specifically the biggest surprise for me in a huge W way was actually acheron??

& given i was actually somewhat committed to pulling her anyway (well. initially as kafka replacement to pull my first lightning carry after losing 50-50 but. Well. she had mercy on me at the v last moment thank goodness 😭😭) so actually ending up liking her character this much just cemented that resolve for good too. cant wait for her!!! like i am still meh on her base design not bc its that bad by itself but simply bc seeles existence just cheapens it so much like. Why are they so similar. but its not bad lmao

anyway to her actual characterization. first of all. the VAs delivery omg yall beidous english voice is already one of my all time favorites in genshin and shes doing an amazing job as acheron like. she started talking and im just INSTANTLY warmed up to her just from that KDJSKDKJK i love love love her attitude and energy!!!!!

n personality wise too??? like ive seen others mention a similar sentiment but its just the way how. even after getting the warnings from now Two separate characters that shes up to no good. im just like. "nah id win" abt it SHSKDKSI like throughout the story she comes off as so damn likeable and grounded and realistically friendly (as in not like. too open n aligned w the player from the get-go to feel believable for the character as opposed to a plot contrivance) that i just. even if shes bad news im team acheron truly.

she has genuinely funny one liners too ??? like not necessarily jokes outright but the kinda comments she says are just . very realistic in that dry witty way that comes off as natural and entertaining shes so charming!!! i love her. the more contemplative stuff she says too

but also like. girl whats up w the ominous red text ily but are we cool 😭😭 and the whole shredding us into thin slices on first encounter in the dreamscape like. Ok uhhhhhhhh ik i said nah id win and team acheron forever but this is kinda. worrisome

BUT that just means im so fucking excited to see her go apeshit too lmao like. oh shes an emanator here to do murder and spread death? COOL i hope she has fun!!

(and ik i said firefly rant over but. what the actual hell is that post firefly merk dialogue option where the games like very heavy handedly implying ur supposed to be blaming ACHERON for "letting it happen" in some emotional frenzy???? bro what 💀💀 0/5 moment i would never. n even if she plausibly did im just. dude her being cold towards firefly is just a plus for me when the narrative has just railroaded the TB into being sooo charmed by her magical presence lmao i Liked that acheron was suspicious n cold)

overall Definitely wasnt expecting acheron to establish herself as such an instant favorite for sure but. shes here now and im v happy abt it im super looking forward to seeing those more dubious goals of her come to the forefront in the future like. im so curious about whats up w her and her memory and that red text and everything

#also honestly unintentionally hilarious moment from acheron when she jist. asks for directions to the lobby too 😭😭😭😭 #anyway. overall i wonder if theure like. making a point of setting up the 'suspicious' characters to turn out far more benign #than appears at first glance #and have the more like. omg friendly people. turn out more involved in the shady stuff #like to a degree it already happened with aventurine. whole time everyones playing up how shady he is but #ultimately he really didnt do that much in terms of actually harming us? he was surprisingly straight (lol. lmao) w us throughout #like Obviously hes acting in full self interest but i do overall v much agree w black swans assessment of him too #that as a businessman it does matter how he handles his deals. now obviously he could turn out a whole lot different in the future #but nonetheless. point being he wasnt all that nefarious compared to how he was presented as #whereas both acheron and (sigh) firefly do kinda have that initial friendliness and then later on turn out to be #Not what they seem . which isnt like a twist or anything its just interesting #tho i suppose its less whos more or less trustworthy at first glance and more just. everyone lies on penacony #just depends on what their aims are to truly know whether they stand in opposition w us ultimately #acherons strange bc like of the cast rn. truly would trust her the most just based on vibes . which might not be smart 💀💀 #logically the most quote unquote trustworthy are swan n aventurine methinks . swan bc she said she wants more of my memories for her stash #so she wants us alive on both a personal basis and as a memokeeper #n aventurine bc he sees us as his own investment in whatever gamble hes undertaking #so cold as it is. we are very valuable to those 2 as assets so like they might hide things n mislead but they dont want us dead lol #anyway v much looking forward to the future developments #hsr #rambles #hsr spoilers

[hella1975]

i got home from work last night and when i was getting dressed in the bathroom i literally fucking passed out i have NO idea why i was literally stood there and then it went black and i fell and whacked my head and my only reaction was ‘wtf’ and i came out and said to my sister ‘hey did you hear that crash just now?’ and she went ‘no fuck off’ and i was like ‘….. i mean i just fucking fainted but okay’ and she paused for a second to frown at me and just went ‘you should tell mum’ and i went ‘no <3’ and that was that and idk why that’s so funny to me but it is

#like she literally couldn’t give less of a shit lmao #and neither could I #i was like eh if I tell mum she’ll worry and she might stop me working tomorrow (today) and I need the money for freshers :/ #lmao?? #it was literally the strangest experience of my life #I’ve never fainted before hence why it’s so funny that my sister was just so unbothered #I was just stood there and then I got superrrr lightheaded and then I have NO memory of anything until I whacked my head #i didn’t hurt myself if anything it felt like I’d just snapped myself out of it #but for the next 20 mins i was just sat there and my limbs felt so fucking heavy #and I just broke into a sweat and got the WORST cramps #and the entire time I thought I was gonna be sick but I wasn’t #and then when I eventually got to bed it was like trying to fall asleep when you’re drunk #like ur body is just v floaty and my head was spinning #very very odd #glad I didn’t go out like I was supposed to last night

[aspiringroleplays]

@maregiis

Dhampires were nocturnal creatures by nature, and Sora fought it as hard as he could. He loved the sun and craved the business of the day time, even if he had to wear a ton of sunscreen now just to go out.

But every now and then, he couldn't sleep at night. And couldn't resist the sun's warm rays to lull him into a nap. At least he had found a place somewhat secluded away from people.

This universe was strange, so unlike his own. This was not a universe of demons and angels. This was one of heartless and.... whatever else was here. Where light and darkness manifested itself as physical forces, that preyed upon the heart and it's weaknesses one corner at a time.

And boy, did Sora have a lot of weaknesses.

Sora stirred in his sleep, plagued by images that were not his usual nightmares. Normally he felt rage. Fury at his sire, the one who had killed him and turned him into this. Hate for the vampires that hunted him and wanted him dead. Disgust at himself, for tolerating the monster he'd become.

But this time those feelings only briefly passed through, weaving through his thoughts like fish jumping through a river. The ones he mostly felt was...

Despair.

Grief for the family and life he'd lost. Pain from realizing he'd never be reunited with his parents again, even in the afterlife. Horror from the weight of the lives he'd taken- both from hunger, and to defend himself.

And most importantly-

"Don't do anything until I get there!-"

In his dream he'd burst into tears- but as he awoke and swung up to a sitting position he was dry-eyed, just agonized over the flashback he'd had to endure. The burst of emotions had pushed his traits out, and he was too distraught to pull them back in. Claws and fangs, long ears and stout nose- features and traits of a hunter for human blood. And his eyes, normally a golden color, glowed briefly the color of fire, the flash of pain bringing everything to the forefront.

But then he was shocked, head swiveling to face the one that had been approaching him in his sleep. Like a cruel joke, the familiarity struck him in pain, the shards of his broken heart stabbing painfully into his being. He had asked the witch for an escape from his world, because he couldn't bear the idea of being on the same plane as her as he pursued his goal of getting strong enough to kill his sire and himself.

And yet there she was, her face and scent unmistakable.

"-I want to see that monster suffer myself!"

"Kairi..." he whispered.

The last person he'd ever wanted to see.

#maregiis #v: chapter 2 #((-casually trauma dumps on you-)) #((ok no but ACTUALLY I'd always had this headcanon that pure light would agitate his darkness. Has to do w/how his demon nature translates) #(( the first few times they'd see each other she'd unknowingly bring up all his negative emotions/memories)) #((tbh idk if they'd even figure out what was happening I mean he'll just assume it's memories alskdalksjd)) #((since she... looks like his kairi alksdjlaksjd)) #((also I imagined he “sensed” her far enough away that she didn't see his normal traits before he shifted)) #((so it's up to you whether or not she recognizes him)) #((even his voice changes though it drops an octave and gets all growly))

[piscadilly]

i love cyberpunk but the options for body mods were super humancentric and mid. give me some actual fucking animal eyes that can see in the dark. give me digitigrade legs. give me horns, wings, and tails. that actually move based on your mood. maybe i, as v, want to be an exotic, have they ever thought of that? maybe i want to go full furry, angel, demon, or even alien. maybe i want the sexual body mods u nee in the ads. like i dunno what game mechanical purpose my v having 3 mouths would do but i want it to try it on. maybe i want long spindly ripperdoc esque fingers, maybe i want to be able to change my height, maybe i want a different body shape bc u dont need to be thin to be fit or muscled :/

anyway i think they should give us more voice options and pronoun options and give us non modded top surgery scars

#cyberpunk #cyberpunk 2077 #cp77 #cp2077 #i guaranteed this exact same thing has been said many times before but man cyberpunk couldve been so much more than it currently is #fangame makers this is your time to shine #also kinda mad that there are no options for trans man v to be a bottom.. #sure look goofy as hell with his whole pussy out and no strap fucking a guy in the ass #..also i think that alt should have femdommed johnny #in the memories #tbh

[faarkas]

tagged to do this template by @denerims @cptcassian @arklay (thank you for the psd leah ily <3) @aartyom and @nuclearstorms SO I DID TWO <3

not tagging anybody because it seems like everybody has been already, but feel free to do it!!! I WANNA SEE !!!

#Mentions are completely fucked on this post but idk how to fix it and my head is starting to hurt again so. AAAAAAAAA HATE THIS NEW FUCKING #POST EDITOR WITH MY WHOLE SOUL #was going to post three + a non 77 pairing but i ran out of energy. beau noah and shiro mer in the discord for safe keeping rn. #ANYWAY HOPE I DIDNT MISS ANYTHING LMAOOO THEY'RE BOTH SO. #verde n goro being Not Planners. Only Impulse. they literally see valenzo getting married and having kids and go Now Hold Up . #secretly eloping literally same night as valenzo wedding is a recent development that has had me cackling. Anyway. #adrian river do give me chuckles. they're true enemies to lovers they've got scars to show for it and everything. #hil.txt #tagged #ocstuff #oc: verde #v x t #oc: adrian #a x r #ALSO HAVE ASKS TO ANSWER FOR THEM STILL...HAVENT FORGOTTEN JUST BEEN DEAD FROM BEING SICK OR INJURED OR MIGRAINING #also me seeing short goro movement and hissing like a lizard. ARTBOOK SAYS HES TALL SO HES TALL . GOOD MORNING. #anyway take all those sliders with the slightest grain of salt they all blur together and i end up going off vibes 80% of the time bc i #do not remember anything about my gang ever. memory problems ftw. live laugh love . #also meant to say: adrian riv are better caretakers in different ways. adrian can mend wounds and help deal with illnesses. riv is a better #like emotional/comfort caretaker. does it make sense .

[starsallalight]

@avictimofthejazz / @anoseforrottenapples : Eiluned & Murphy/Gavin

“Can you help me?” The young woman asked, her voice calm even though her eyes bordered on desperate. “Please. I have to find my son.”

#➳ 𝑎𝑢𝑟𝑜𝑟𝑎𝑠 & 𝑠𝑎𝑑 𝑝𝑟𝑜𝑠𝑒 ➳ ; 𝑒𝑖𝑙𝑢𝑛𝑒𝑑 ; ❨tales❩ #V; Out Of Memory & Time #V; From Across The Distant Shore #Murphy #avictimofthejazz #Gavin #anoseforrottenapples