#Viibryd

[homoqueerjewhobbit]

Me: Listen, we had a deal. I take my pills every day and in return you don't give me brain zaps.

My brain: ⚡⚡⚡⚡⚡⚡

#And whatever emoji goes for sleep paralysis. #Viibryd #Vilazodone #brain zaps #post o' mine

[life-is-pulchritudinous]

I look back at who I’ve been these past 27 years and I am always evolving. I do not ever want to be an old self. Everything and everyone change all the time. We have to evolve to keep up with the crazy world.

I miss the old you. The one I loved so deeply. Then your narcissism got worse and you got cold. I was quite literally fucked in the head because of Viibryd. And all you wanted to do was change me. Not FIX me. (Really help me get to the bottom of my issue. You were the closest person to me. You saw all the signs and just got frustrated with me). If you did fix me I can’t help but to wonder how our relationship would gone. I fought for that E and I never got him back. He would fix me. He was fighting for old me but I was fucked on the head. I couldn’t change. I barely spoke or had a good memory. Now I am off the med, the ability to make memories coming back and I’m sitting here all alone.

#people #person #souls #love #boyfriend #ex boyfriend #I miss you #I miss old us #alone #Viibryd #medication memory loss #medications #lost soul

[taxi-davis]

#bandcamp #Welcome to Villa Zodone ℞ #VIIBRYD #music #audio #vaporwave

[emilemily]

My interview went so well, almost unbelievably well. My stuttering was at a minimum, I was relaxed, I spoke professionally, and I did my hair and makeup so I know I looked great.

I feel extremely confident about this, but am also very aware that I might not get the position given the amount of people who are vying for it. I’m going to remain cautiously optimistic.

I usually interview extremely well in person, but virtual interviews are difficult for me. This one just wasn’t the same. Can’t quite place my finger on it, but I felt such genuine warmth from the woman who may be my boss. She was incredibly kind, empathetic , and stressed the importance of mental health and work life balance when working on her team.

I think the culture of this company would be perfect for me, and I couldn’t imagine a better opportunity at this moment. But like I said, I’ll remain realistic albeit optimistic and hopeful.

This medication is really helping me. My mindset has shifted so much in these last two weeks. I no longer feel weighed down by my thousand pound past. I no longer feel the need to dwell in it any longer. I used to sit and agonize over certain situations that arose in years passed, wishing things could be different. I’d ruminate in an almost torturous way.

But now I’m feeling mentally present, self aware of my emotions and I’m able to deal with them. I don’t worry about what has happened, what could happen, what simply cannot be. I embrace each day eagerly. Every morning I wake up with a smile and talk to my dogs. I kiss their faces and tell them I love them before taking them for a walk and feeding them.

Don’t get me wrong, I have always taken care of my dogs because they’re, in a strange way, my children. I adore them with every fiber of my being. But when I was so depressed, those tasks became such a chore that I’d have to peel myself out of bed to do.

Coming back from such a dark, lonely, depressed place is my biggest flex. I fought taking this medication for months before finally doing so and I’m so glad I powered through the initial adjustment phase. It’s working… it’s actually WORKING.

Is this how normal people feel all the time? I used to look around at people enjoying their lives and would wonder how they were so happy. Now I feel that myself.

Medication doesn’t solve it all. You can’t take a pill and expect it to change your entire life right away. Change requires (in my case) medication and a surplus of effort. Sticking with it through the initial unsavory side effects, going to therapy, getting up every day and being productive. It requires a lot of work. And nobody who is still a passenger on the boat I am getting off of will fully experience those benefits until they’re ready.

I still have some unpleasant side effects from time to time, but I’m so much happier. This is my comeback. If I don’t get this job after all, then at least I know I tried and I REALLY tried. I’ll give that same effort as many times as it takes to secure the best position for myself.

Let’s fucking do this.

#personal #viibryd

[perenial]

#gene.txt #new poll time!!! go antidepressants go #the last two are newer ones so i dont expect many votes for them. viibryd is a sick name tho

[weskinz]

maybe if i go back on antidepressants ill ask for wellbutrin

#p #like yes i am pretty depressed rn but i dont feel like killing myself like i did when i was on viibryd #no genetic altercations my ass i was on that shit for years and just now looking back at my messages and notes no wonder i was scaring ppl #i was so anxious one time i had to sit in my brothers room so i knew he wasnt going to die suddenly #and i was so so so scared but it was like there was a mental block where it couldnt become a panic attack jst paranoia #but i was one degree from it. just imagining what i did to him happening to me scared me to death and i had to reassure myself #my mom asked me abt it the other day like 'hmmm. wouldve been nice to let me know you werent on it anymore. seems like a thing your mother- #'-should know.' and like yes since im still completely dependent on her in all aspects but man #i didnt want to explain i had no interest in seeing lisa anymore and i was just done. i was so tired of my lows being so fucking low #and not even noticing they were so bad yknow #do i even know how to be honest anymore. no i dont think of killing myself but i dont see a future for myself either #i have no goals no motivation no nothing #its selfish to want to die but its like that mytoecold dude video where hes like 'if i spilled milk and then killed myself technically- #'-the problem would be gone' like yeah. that is true. how do i get that out of my belief system #he was a raging addict btw i just saw that video. crazy and sad but i guess when you are dealt a bad hand you see eye to eye

[ghostzzy]

goodbye zoloft

#onto the next one. some dude named viibryd. #izzy.txt

[coolerdracula]

day 5 of tapering off my antidepressant: I am beginning to feel the sickness

#the viibryd wthdrawal sickness #bearer of the curse

[lesbiantruckers]

My new antidepressant sounds like a sex toy

#viibryd is sure to 😉 😉 fix what ails yah

[seraphfighter]

I think this is the first time in all of my work/school life that I've been on break and have been semi-productive and not feeling like a complete waste of space.

#thanking my psychiatrist and viibryd more and more every day 🙏🏼 #i was so scared to start this medicine but it's been the best decision i've ever made #seraph speaks

[homoqueerjewhobbit]

I switched from Lexapro (escitalopram) to Viibryd (Vilazodone) because of the sexual side affects and it's taken over three months for things to start getting back to normal downstairs. Just in case you were doing the same, give it some time!

And if this is all news to you, yes, there's a new ssri on the market that literally just went generic and has fewer sexual side effects than older ssris!

#My monkeypox vaccine can't come soon enough! #Also Vilazodone was so much cheaper through express scripts than at my local chain pharmacy #My psych refuses to use Walgreens bc of some personal vendetta which is so annoying #post o' mine #Vilazodone #Viibryd #Escitalopram #Lexapro #Ssri #Ssris #serotonin #clearing out the drafts

[genderslug]

i feel like when i talk about how desperately i want to live in a van & drive literally everywhere, people (including my therapist lol but probably except my partner who is an angel and knows me better than anyone) assume it’s because i want to like live off the grid and avoid participating in society and having adult responsibilities

and like money is part of it i guess but only because a house is such a huge commitment like if i had a place i 100% wanted to live i wouldn’t be against having a mortgage and all that but i want to see the entire world and be a part of it, not just for like two weeks out of the year when i can afford to go on vacation but always, i want to be able to choose where i want to go and go there and not have to worry about settling down somewhere and then just being stuck there it’s like UGH I JUST WANNA GO AND GO

#this sucks like why isn’t this possible #i hate vacation accrual rates i hate mortgages i hate money #also i only mean settling down physically bc i am in love with my partner and have no issue settling down in that sense #but why does that have to mean buying a house and saving for retirement and having kids and shit #i just do not want that #so frustrating being in love with the world but not being allowed to experience it the way i want #anyway while i’m complaining i HATE stimulants and if i were allowed to live the life i wanted i wouldn’t need them #bc there’s nothing wrong with me and i know how to make the adjustments i need to be functional in a perfect world #but unfortunately full time work and grad school do not agree #probably wouldn’t need antidepressants either but i still love u viibryd #still heavily considering archaeology school in a few years. i love nasa but working at a computer all day just is not it

[sokkarockedya]

American health insurance is so fucking broken. I have been trying different medications for anxiety with no real success. My doctor sends for 10mg of Viibryd and I get this letter from my insurance:

This is a list of EIGHTEEN different medications/dosages they want me to take before they would give me that.

So my doctor decided to send a different prescription (Trintellix 5mg) instead. This leads to the following discussion with my doctor's office:

Shouldn't the DOCTOR get more say about what medication I can take than the INSURANCE COMPANY??????

#i'm so angry #fuck this country #health insurance #medicals #medication

[emilemily]

Day 9 of Viibryd.

I’m feeling pretty good, all things considered. The first week I was on 10mg, and I increased to 20mg last night. I experienced restless sleep, tossing and turning with anxiety. I probably got about 4 hours of sleep split up into 45 minute or so increments. The sounds of my dogs snoring in bed with me were so TAUNTING.

I experienced this for a couple of days on the 10mg dose, but it stopped after a while. I know it will stop again soon. My head is more clear, and the consistent thoughts that tortured me before have ceased. I don’t have 50 different thoughts going at one time, which is odd. Sometimes I think I get anxiety because of the lack of anxiety, does that make sense? Like something should be here, but it’s not.

The suicidal thoughts and super depressed mood have vanished. I used to sit on my couch and struggle to even get up and brush my teeth. I’d sit there and stare out the window and wonder what this is all for, why I had to be here if everything was such a struggle. I was in a pretty dark state of mind.

Now I wake up, shower, brush my teeth, put in my elastics, and take my dogs for a long walk. It’s nice. I’m realizing, now that I’m unemployed, how much of my identity consisted of my job. My projects. My responsibilities. In the absence of all that, I’m reconnecting with myself. Remembering things I loved to do before I became a work machine. My skin has never looked better because I’m getting back into my skincare.

That being said, I do have a job interview on Friday. This job would change my life. The salary is higher than I’ve ever made, and it’s full-time+remote. Fully benefits, as well which is nice. I’m nervous about the interview, but not obsessing with an upset stomach like I usually would. If I get it, that would be lovely. If I don’t, then it wasn’t meant to be. I’ll show up and do my best and the decision is theirs.

Overall, I’m doing very well. Viibryd is a lifesaver so far.

#viibryd #personal

[psychicpanic]

do u guys think medicines designed to help with major depressive disorder hit harder than ones used to treat regular shmegular depression? there are only 2 medicines (fetzima and viibryd) that were in the clear for my genetic test results and one of them treats mdd

#txt

[babydarkstar]

was looking up one of my antidepressants for fun and saw an article that was titled ‘viibryd goes generic, but is it worth prescribing?’ basically insinuating that it’s a carbon copy of other antidepressants. vilazodone is one of the only medications that has made my depression manageable and sometimes nonexistent. i have treatment resistant depression, and have cycled through every common antidepressant you can think of. not just one or two—think like, 5+. in fact, i didnt even realize people could take one type of antidepressant and stay on it for decades because it just worked for them; i thought it was normal to have to switch every year or so because they stopped being effective. anyways. ive been on vilazodone for 2 years now and havent had to up the dosage by much since starting it. apparently the a5-HT1A partial agonist is critical to my brain chemistry and is effective for my depression. im tired of medical blogs questioning the validity of drugs they consider too similar to others on the market. sigh!

#it’s like. not everyone has the same brain. in fact we all individually have different brains #so of course there are going to be tons and tons of different types of the same medications needed #im also maxed out on cymbalta like i take that too in the highest possible dose #not cutting it but to take it away would make things worse #anyways. just some interesting things #for my sleep deprived self